It's Been Rough... Let's Talk

I've been doing a lot here in the animal room lately. As a result, a few things fell by the wayside. I address some of that in this video by creating new moss and isopod bins. Additionally, many of you have been asking about the status of everything in general. Typically I don't make the content about my personal life and I don't intent to make it the norm, but truthfully it's been rough... let's talk.
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00:00 Introduction
00:26 Making Moss Propagation Bins
03:55 Making More Isopod Bio Bins
08:34 Let's Talk About Things
15:40 Closing Thoughts
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[@SerpaDesign]

As I said in the video, I don't like to make the content about myself and it's definitely not going to become the norm. I appreciate all of your questions and concerns, though, and its seemed appropriate to discuss it this time. Hopefully, this addresses everything. Thanks again and I'm sorry for a “bummer” video this week. I'll be back next Saturday with something awesome, so I'll see you then? Have a great weekend SerpaSquad!

[@theslayer808]

No problem man, do whatever you want the most

[@siddubois4753]

It’s your channel & you do what makes you happy!!!

[@ProjectHEXB]

NO!! ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! YOU NEED TO HAVE A NICE WALK TO CLEAR YOU MIND!!!! DON'T WORRY ABOUT IF SOME PEOPLE THINK ITS A "BUMMER" VIDEO!!!!

[@jenheartmusic6640]

See you next week, take care Tanner 🦎🐍🌿🪴

[@rob9782]

No problem man! hope you get better and goodluck with your secret projects ❤

[@Stephen-jw8ci]

when i was at one of my lowest points after my homemade tank leaked you took the time to write me a long message with words of encouragement and advice, that helped me more than you could ever imagine. you’re an awesome person, your content was therapy to me after i lost a loved one and spent over a year searching for a reason to get out of bed every morning. you’ve been my biggest inspiration as i try to build my own business selling premade scapes and backgrounds, you taught me so many techniques and skills that i probably wouldn’t have figured out on my own. you showed me that it’s not just messing around with rocks and driftwood, it’s a true art form. it’s frustrating and exhausting at times, but the sense of accomplishment as a scape starts coming together can turn a bad day into a great one. you’re basically bob ross to me, and i hope everything starts looking a bit brighter for you very soon. thank you so much for all that you do tanner❤️

[@SerpaDesign]

Ah yes I remember! Glad to hear you worked through everything and are still at it. I appreciate the support ❤️

[@Stephen-jw8ci]

@@SerpaDesign i’ll dm you a couple pictures and videos of what i’ve been working on lately on instagram, i understand you’re busy and probably get tons of dm’s so no pressure if you don’t get a chance to look at them and no pressure to say they look good or anything like that, just thought you might like to see some of what you’ve inspired

[@GeorgiaGeorgette]

@@Stephen-jw8ci Your comment is so touching. I hope things are going well in your life now.

[@Stephen-jw8ci]

@@GeorgiaGeorgette thanks so much, doing pretty good now and working on a new project almost every day

[@GeorgiaGeorgette]

@@Stephen-jw8ci I'm truly glad to hear it. Keep well. Heartfelt best wishes to you.

[@jhurley4481]

As someone who has also severely cut the same finger, I'm a carpenter and cut mine with a mitre saw, after 8 hours of plastic surgery they put it back together and did micro surgery inside for the nerves. it couldn't bend at first but after working extremely hard to get full movement back it worked, it has taken years for the nerves to repair but now its virtually perfect. I found carrying a small squash ball with me at all times and constantly squashing and playing with it really helped speed up my recovery. something to remember ,what doesn't break you , makes you stronger, keep up the excellent work.

[@SerpaDesign]

Dang that's crazy! Definitely gives me some encouragement. Chances are your injury was a lot worse than mine. Glad to hear you got better.

[@THandP_org]

@@SerpaDesign suffering an injury that severed nerves and exposed the tendons (cut through the protective sheath of the tendon) taught me a lot about how interconnected all the parts of our body are, and how interconnected we are to everyone and everything else. The depression is a normal and healthy response, too. It's how our brain concretizes the information around what happened so we don't make the same mistake twice. When a friend accidentally cut all 4 fingers on their right hand to the bone, their physical therapist taught them applied kinesiology and how to identify which vitamin and mineral supplements the nerves and tendons needed to heal. Last year, when another friend suffered and injury that shattered some of the smaller bones in between the wrist bones and the pharanges, with extremely extensive nerve and tendon damage, they were told they wouldn't regain sensation or full usage. I shared the information on the applied kinesiology, and which supplements provide the most bioavailable forms of B vitamins (nerve repair), collagen (tendon and bone repair), etc. 9 months later, they have regained full usage of their hand, and only the pinky finger is still struggling to fully constrict. The squeeze ball makes a huge difference in recovery, and maintaining full flexibility and usage. As the depression eases, recovery will speed up. Tanner, your builds and editing have continued to be top notch. I hope you can find it in yourself to be as gentle with yourself as you would be with any of your creatures you take care of, you deserve the same compassion you give them. Be well, and trust your body to know what it needs to heal and get back in balance. You'll be back to full usage in no time. (In case it hasn't been shared with you yet, there is an awesome rubberband exercise that really helps get the tendons, nerves and muscles back in proper communication with one another)

[@geekdivaherself]

@@SerpaDesign My condolences on your family's losses and I wish you and yours well. You seem really well adjusted, being able to see what the title of an early book of Iyanla Vanzant called, "The Value in the Valley." In life, sometimes you'll be stuck in a valley and you can't find your way out. It feels like all you can do is stumble. But just as you get as low as you can go and start finding your way out, then you have to climb and climb and it's _so_ hard! But there's value in that valley: value that you can only discover and earn by making it through; the way out, once you traverse it, leaves you at the top. Good for you for seeing that! You expressed it so naturally. The way you express it, it seems like it's a lesson that you really feel all the way down to your bones and that it's wisdom you rely on. Remember, you never have to be perfect; just try to spend less time being quite as imperfect as you were before. Studies have shown that listening to affirmations and setting reasonable goals works better than just listening to affirmations, because perfectionism can set in. Be gentle with yourself! But all things considered, you do seem to be doing better-than-average considering, and that's a good place to aim for.

[@geekdivaherself]

A good supplement for dark-skinned people or people who live in a cloudy climate like myself is vitamin D. Ask your doctor to check your blood levels and you might be surprised at how little you have in your system. For me it led to depression and exhaustion, so if you have a bunch of other things going on it might be a supplement that helps you get more rest and clarity of mind, which will certainly help if you have an injury or a lot of problems going on at the same time. This was not exactly the question that was asked above, but I thought it might be helpful to someone.

[@THandP_org]

@@TrebbleBucket it depends on individual needs, which are determined partially by genetics and a lot by environment. I work with people for free, so they can learn how to identify what they are missing. Because healthy people are able to make wiser decisions for self, community and the environment. I'd be more than happy to meet with you and help you identify what you need @Baba Ulai!

[@djgautz]

If that makes you feel better, I still feel like your latest projects are the most wild and interesting to date. The "content" as you say is still top notch, keep it up dude.

[@Hyphae_Foray]

Right!? The content lately has been outstanding

[@uszatku9417]

Tanner - I don’t even like reptiles or animals, and I have no real interest in aquariums, but I accidentally found you and you have such a soothing voice and calm demeanour that I watch you regularly just to chill! For me, you could be simply reading a book aloud and I would listen to you. You have a naturally peaceful energy. And, I have grown interested in terrariums since finding you. You will heal, it will just take time. Best wishes to you from the U.K. I might add that I am a proud member of the Serpa Squad!

[@cfoster6804]

You're right, he does have a peaceful energy.

[@samanthajay4981]

Same goes for me! I randomly found his channel two years ago and have been watching ever since. I'm terrified of bugs and reptiles, but his videos are so beautiful I can't stop watching.

[@monicamikkelsen6546]

I am with you on this one. :) Best wishes from Denmark

[@mimurad99]

Help comes in many forms, it gave me calmness during the day & wondering thoughts of what if’s projects..😪😅

[@gillinic6036]

Same for me and I've even watched some videos numerous times. I've been truly inspired and will be making my own terrariums very soon. Thanks Tanner!

[@brianwhitcraft2344]

Long time listener, first time caller. I think its special what you do and from time to time, its not a bad thing to talk through things with people and I am super glad you did it with us. Its not a bummer to hear someone that gives us so much just letting us know what you are going through. It reminds everyone that you are a person behind the content. Keep it up!!!!

[@shanek6582]

Hey gross pointer!

[@alanna4858]

1000%

[@WhatchaWalkinAbout]

Thats Pineapple Express

[@shanek6582]

@@WhatchaWalkinAbout Gross point blank was an awesome movie for its time, don’t know how it’d hold up with the youngster. “First time long time” lol. You have to watch it someday.

[@sierrawilson8841]

Linger longer, waddle doodle.

[@Phixshun]

Don't ever be afraid to talk personal life, especially when it's important to YOU. We dont just watch for content, we watch to support YOU. You keep doin you, we will all be here to support you if you need it!

[@michaelevans7933]

I second this

[@xcorpseswallower218]

100% agree. I showed videos to my brother and got him into the glass box hobby. We quote Serpa all the time. He inspires everyone who watches.

[@Phixshun]

Creators shouldn't feel obligated to keep things "professional". Sometimes its healthier to just let go and get it out, and if you lose subs for that, they're the ones with the real problem.

[@loganmariutto8450]

well said we support u 2

[@rachelyanney9768]

Tanner, we love you even on your “bummer” days. Sometimes it’s ok to not be ok. You still handle life’s worst twists with a grace I wish I had. Much love my man.

[@emmitstewart1921]

Injuries are frustrating, especially to the hands. Things that should be quick and easy become difficult or impossible and physical therapy feels like trying to push a Cadillac up a hill... with a rope. Keep working at it and you will eventually recover. After this, you will have a clear understanding why shop safety is so important, and I bet you will never want to go near a saw that is not equipped with feather boards and push sticks.

[@jillbos]

No apology necessary. You’re just going through this thing we call, life. Sometimes it sucks. Sending (( Hugs)). And thank you for sharing with us.

[@KiharuKitty]

Haven't commented before but thank you for sharing. People often forget their favorite creators are human too, not just robots popping out content as needed, and I appreciate the humanity and personality you bring to your channel.

[@marcushiggins6360]

Tanner when you're feeling low try and remember how many people you've helped feel better with your videos over the years. You may not realise it fully but your content is like a little oasis of peace, serenity and creativity for a lot of people out there. You are 100% a huge net positive in this world.

[@Chompchompyerded]

It's precisely that for me.

[@mikejurnak4253]

💯

[@yyyobwoc]

Hey tanner, never apologize for sharing how you’re feeling. You owe us nothing. Everything you share with us, whether it’s content or a personal message, is appreciated. We’re here for you!

[@opy9135]

When I first found your content I was in a rather dark place. I was near the end of my masters degree and having near daily panic attacks over the state of my thesis and my dedication. KZbin suggested one of your terrarium builds to me and the natural beauty combined with the overall positive demeanor of yourself and your content helped me relax and get through some of the quieter moments. I've now finished my degree, work happily in my field, and look forward to your weekly videos. I wish you the best in healing and thank you so much for the work that you do!

[@DC13K]

As a vet surgeon, I can relate immensely to the difficulty that comes with injuring your hands. It's both massively frustrating and also really damn scary when something happens that threatens your livelihood/the thing you love to do. I've never left a comment before, but your videos are always so lovely to watch and enjoy. I really appreciate that you decided to talk about what you're struggling with and I hope that the simple act of sharing that has helped to lighten the load you're bearing.

[@AnathemaDVM]

Get disability insurance! I’m a veterinarian that had to retire 3 years after I graduated vet school when a cat bite developed into bilateral CRPS in my hands. I can’t work at all anymore and am dependent on my family. Please learn from my mistake so someone can benefit.

[@DC13K]

@@AnathemaDVM dunno where you practice but that kind of insurance is essential legally mandated in Australia, I'd get by financially, it would just be depressing as hell for me

[@ellenm4560]

This isn't a 'bummer' video, it's real life. I'd hazard a guess to say that a large percentage of viewers watch for you personally and not just the content alone. I hope that your recovery goes well and I'm very sorry to hear about your family's losses. May they live on in your memories

[@Kira-kg4kl]

Exactly my thoughts, creators are their content ❤️

[@katyb.3520]

This is such an important conversation that we don’t have enough! Mental and physical health gets ignored SO much! You’re doing awesome and we all REALLY appreciate you! I appreciate you being so vulnerable with your KZbin family!

[@jacintak2118]

I hope you heal soon, and feel better both physically and emotionally! you're so awesome and we appreciate everything you do. thank you for everything!

[@ArtFeedsAlyx1]

Sorry to hear you’re going through a tough time. I know you tried to give us words of encouragement, but here are a few words for you: it is entirely okay to not be okay. Allow yourself to feel as you do. That will allow you to process things and then get to a point where you want to be. As vivariums teach us, (and also Ian Malcom) life finds a way. Your videos are awesome and have taught me so much! Wishing you the best!

[@_Chessa_]

I’ve been mentally up and down all my life battling with chronic depression and high anxiety. So I thank you for talking about your mental struggles too. You content is amazing and I think it’s humble of you to talk about it like you have. Thanks for taking the time to tell us. Keep doing what makes you happiest in your life.

[@lawrencemasula]

I discovered your channel when I lost my job, and I lost a couple of family members because of the pandemic. I went through a really dark place. Your videos helped me a lot. You can't imagine how much you changed my life. I also picked up making terrariums as a hobby. You always inspire me with every video you make. You're awesome Tanner! Hang a little bit tight, we're all in this together.

[@DoorsToHideBehind156]

You should never have to apologize about opening up about things you're going through, but it's commendable that you did. Often times when I'm not feeling my best the easiest thing to do is look for a distraction from it all. And I think that's what your videos do for me and a lot of other people who watch your channel. Please take time for yourself and your family. We appreciate you so much for everything you do tanner, wishing you peace and recovery ❤️

[@ilnurcevik4995]

I am a senior advisor to the President of Turkey. You have done wonderful work as a terrarium artist. You have been a source of inspiration for all of us. I have been doing terrariums for the past five years and thanks to you I have made much progress in the last year thanks to your projects. Keep up the good work. I overcame prostate cancer thanks to keeping busy with terrariums. I feel you are extremely creative and hard working. I wonder if you should not try to do everything yourself and purchase some of the water tanks and thus keep away from the hazardous stuff. We need you so best of luck. Best wishes.

[@snooziezk387]

When you say most of us aren't watching to see this kind of stuff, I would say you're wrong. Yes you make absolutely amazing builds, but what personally keeps me coming back is you and your personality. And I know not everyday is going to be a good day, and you will go through rough patches. And I'm sure a great majority of your audience would agree with me when I say that no matter what, you have built an audience that will keep coming back for YOU. And you have an audience that will back up any kind of content you make. I hope you take all the time you need to heal and start feeling better.

[@ladonnaradney3466]

Exactly

[@smg3037]

Yes we are still here, you are practically family tanner you ain't getting away that easy, keep doing what you do best and enjoy yourself, and you better believe if you had a patreon to help out for time off I'll be right there to help because you and your content are worth it.

[@janinebean4276]

I appreciate you opening up, and I appreciate you calling it a “difficult season”. Something that really helps me when I’m down, a kind of mantra, is “this too shall pass”, and calling it a season really highlights the impermanence of a lot of these struggles. I’m disabled, and a creative (singing, and I also love dancing, making jewellery/crafts/etc, plants now partly thanks to you!) and I find it incredibly difficult not to be able to do the things I love. I’ve been mostly bedridden/couch ridden for almost 3 years now. I’m in Physio, which will fix a lot of my disabilities, but it’s super hard to find motivation when I can’t do anything I love, and the only way to fix my body is to force my body to do exactly the opposite of what makes it feel good, every single day, but not go too hard or I have a setback. Watching your channel has really added to my life and fills my time since I can’t work, and helped me find a passion for plants, which are something I actually can work on and find some satisfaction with their progress and growth, go outside, care for something outside of myself and get out of my head, and I appreciate that so much. ❤️ I can feel my difficult season ending as I’m able to find the strength to do my Physio with the help of my family, my plants, my pets, my friends, and channels like yours, and I hope yours ends even sooner than mine. I WANT to be busy and accomplishing things, like you, and having these small goals and victories with my exercise and my plants is really helping me get through the Physio. The joy I find when my plants sprout, grow, flower, fruit, is incredibly motivating. I hope your plants and animals can help you get through it too. ❤️

[@Chompchompyerded]

You said it, friend! I don't know what your disability is, but it might be something similar to mine since I had to spend nearly a decade and a half bed bound. Disability is a creative way of living, and if the disability is an acquired one, it comes with a lot of grief and loss. But it can also open doors that you never knew were there. I am doing things now that I never would have considered doing before. It's just a change of direction, and finding novel ways of doing things. At three years into your disability in the degree it is now, you are still very new to it. Life will get better, even though there are still plenty of difficulties ahead. Into every life a little rain must fall. Yet the rain is what allows your garden to grow. Find new things to plant, and watch the garden that is your life grow. Though it may not look like it now, it's an opportunity. It's an opportunity to go in directions you may never have considered going in before. It's finding things that will grow in the shady places. I'm right with you. Before I became disabled I didn't have time to plant anything. Because of the limitations I have with my hands, and having no use at all of my legs, I'm a bit limited regarding what I can grow, But I have big pots under lights in my living room. I've planted it with zucchini which is climbing a trellis which a friend made for me. I have a ginger plant which I've grown from a leftover piece of ginger root from the store which I buried in one of my pots. I was thrilled when the first shoots appeared, and when the first leaves began to come out, and now that the flower stalk is starting to show buds. It's amazing how those little things become so valuable. I even get joy out of watching the trees start to green up in the spring and the amazing way the leaves darken through the summer. I get happiness out of smelling the leaves on the ground in fall. Before I became disabled my life was so busy I didn't have time to appreciate those things. I'm hearing you find joy in the growing of plants too, and that's an incredibly wonderful sign. What a beautiful world we live in. What an amazing place. Our lives are so short that even with the most limiting disabilities we would not have enough time to do all we can and should want even if we had one thousand more years. There will be down days. Grieve the losses, but always keep in mind that there is still so much wonder left. Here's wishing you the best, and thanks for sharing your story. It always helps when you find you're not alone, and also see that others are deriving happiness and joy from some of the same things which make your life better.

[@meatyboy8811]

I appreciate the openness. Don't think you realize how much talking about your health helps others!👍❤️😎

[@alliecat5696]

I’m sorry. I understand not being able to do what is your therapy and how hard that can be. You’re right, things like that are never easy to go through. Your videos are very relaxing to me and have definitely helped me through some hard days. You are totally entitled to spending time in a video to explain what is going on. I hope things are getting a bit easier, and I wish you continued progress with your finger and good health for the future

[@4Runner2Wander]

Same kind of thing happened to me. Took 12 stitches also. It’s been 25 years i on some days get a touch of numbness. The feeling and so forth will slowly creep back. Have faith.

[@shannahmiller]

@@4Runner2Wander That's been my experience, too. Over time, my cut has become nearly invisible, and the nerves have recovered almost perfectly. As an older maker, I tend to do exercises to retain range of motion in my hands, as well. So, I have hope for your index finger's ability to recover well, Tanner.

[@ambersantos5295]

6 months, a year from now, you'll look back on this video and go 'Wow. Look at what I overcame'. And you'll be that much stronger the next time you face adversity or sorrow. You've got this. You're an artistic soul. You can use this time.

[@kaitlynmalcolm2431]

Long time watcher, first time commentor. I felt compelled to just write you a little thank you after watching this video. I appreciate your vulnerability and just wanted to share that when I was going through a depressive episode I discovered your videos and they encouraged me to try terrarium building for myself. Your videos are accessible and user friendly, and I made my first terrarium by following your native terrarium video. Since then my collection has grown and I now even have a gecko living in a bioactive set up. It got me out of myself and into nature and it helped me find peace and serenity when I didn't think it was possible. So please keep your chin up, but also allow yourself to feel your feelings. Thank you so much for helping me when I needed it, and I hope you find what you need during this hard time. Sending love and light- Kaitlyn

[@KkCreatures]

You’re such a good person it’s hard hearing life has been difficult for you. I hope your finger continues to recover, and I’m so sorry for your loss. Seeing this video just makes me appreciate your videos even more. Even though you’ve been struggling you continue to make content for us. Thank you, I will be praying for you 💙

[@L1pst3r]

Thanks Tanner. I really needed that. Guess it was a sign that as soon as I thought "F*** why is this all just too much right now?!" your video notification popped up on my phone. Whoever is reading this we can do this, we will get stronger and times will be better. Much love to ya all. Hugs!

[@NicksReptileWorld]

As someone who has been dealing with a large portion of my body covered in burn scars, I have found that constant use and stretching greatly helps bring back nerve sensation and control. keep your chin up brotha!

[@grlluigi]

I found your content during a mental health crisis in my life and watching you take care of your beautiful animals and plants and craft art helped me feel closer to nature, and less alone

[@dillong.6299]

Definitely laughed out loud after "See, that's exactly what I'm talking about". Whether its a new build, animal room updates, life updates etc. your videos always improve my day, so thank you!

[@amandaelizabeth1586]

Thank you! Since the 8th grade I’ve been watching you and being inspired. Fast forward 8 whole years I’m a college grad and still collecting moss based on your tips and tricks. I’m also going through it rn, and your kind words mean a lot. We will thrive in time! Take care of yourself -Amanda 😃

[@teamars3185]

Tanner, your heartfelt video about living a creative loving life through troubles brought a tear to my eye. When I was a young single parent working as a commercial artist I fell on my hand while carrying my child. Our combined weight landed on my right palm and I was not be able to hold a pen for what seemed like a long time (luckily just badly bruised but nothing broken). The panic I felt realizing that just one accident to my right hand could make me unemployable in my chosen field was overwhelming. I vowed that day to learn to use my left hand as well as my right so I wouldn't feel that helpless again. I was never able to get my nondominant hand to be as developed as my dominant hand in illustration but I am able to use it in everyday activities without even thinking about it. It was a little act of defiance against the things we will never be able to control, it helped. Thank you for sharing your brilliance with the rest of us. I hope you continue to enjoy exercising your creative ability for a long time to come!

[@belleyface]

serpa, as a long time lurker, just want to say thank you for your vulnerability and honesty. the fact that you took a moment to discuss how no one is alone in these moments goes to show your strength and empathetic core. i love how you try to look at the positive reframing of situations. it's very helpful for people who suffer from depression (like me) to make sure we round up with positive reframing.

[@guillermogonzalez9937]

If you decide to take a well-deserved break, we'll still be here when you can come back. I send you all my support from Spain, you can handle everything mate! 💪❤

[@PlantyMessyHypsie]

Thank you for being human. I do believe that in time you will adapt and become less frustrated. Your other fingers will take over. Your channel is so soothing to me. I’ve been dealing with health issues since having Covid 2yrs ago, and your channel is like a walk in nature for me-which I miss doing the most. Thank you for that. You probably have no idea how much your channel helps the mental health of others. Please keep sharing if you find it helpful. Wishing you well.

[@Zeldur]

As a fellow maker, I'm honestly scared of what if I loose my hands, partially or fully. I'm glad to see that yours can be worked on an improve in time. I've LOVED the past few videos with the creativity. Keep up your physical therapy ^^

[@bonzaivtube]

Being an 'attempt' survivor myself, I will tell you what I always had to tell myself. Bad things happen just as much as good things do, and its okay for you to be upset about it. Be mad, be sad, feel those feelings, because when we come out on the other end, we are better for it. Take whatever time you need, enjoy your job, enjoy your hobbies, just do you best to ENJOY! We will be here waiting for you

[@Sgafify]

Mate, that's how life is sometimes and it's good that you're willing to talk about it. It's a big thing to be able to let stuff out, hope you heal soon both physically and mentally!

[@faithlmao5082]

We are not alone, hearing your words of encouragement brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for your wise words. We will prevail ✊️ best of luck on your healing Tanner. Thank you for you content, regardless of what you post I and many others are happy to watch :) Take care

[@addison7803]

Hey man, we love you. Do what you need to do for yourself and we will always support you! We send all of our good healing vibes your way, and hope you feel better soon! Keep killing it, Tanner! ❤️

[@redthecrusadertiktok]

My best friend died, I was diagnosed with asburgers and much more this year. And to hear your story and your words it makes me feel better. Thanks.

[@NalTheGenie]

I wish you well friend.

[@journeytrials]

I pray things for you get you!! Sorry about your best friend! Hope you are able to take time to heal!

[@Rare.Plants.and.Pitbulls]

*”Good timber does not grow with ease. The stronger the wind, the stronger the trees.” J. Willard Marriott - my favorite quote.*

[@noobbuilderproductions7865]

now its my favorite

[@jojur2545]

what a great quote

[@Rare.Plants.and.Pitbulls]

@@jojur2545 look it up! There’s more to the quote. I have the entire quote up in my workout room.

[@jojur2545]

@@Rare.Plants.and.Pitbulls i certainly will, thanks the recomendation

[@twoturtletom]

Tanner, a wise person once told me, when I was doing too much, that life is a marathon, not a sprint. I’ve been where you are, it’s not fun! We will all let you off the hook if you need a break every so often. Take the time you need…

[@jaygilliland3371]

It’s so awesome to see so many comments of all of us feeling the same way. We love your videos and builds but what’s so awesome and amazing is your energy and vibe. Life is so full of ups and downs and I’m always wishing you the best!

[@lemarquesse23]

My roomie, Philip, had something similar happen to him during the summer. He mistakenly tried to catch a falling electric hedge trimmer by the blade while it was running. Deep cuts across two fingers that required stitches and he still has sensation issues still. This happened last year. It's been really tough for him because he's an artist. We've also experienced alot of loss lately but definitely vids like this and you talking about your experiences help tremendously. You are not alone either! *hugs* Thank you for all you do!

[@teasorceryr3633]

Thank you Tanner. Your caring and gentle nature come through, even when you’re talking about your hardships you STILL think about everyone around you and following you, whether we’ll be worried or saddened. That is amazing love. Like many here, I do not keep reptiles or fish, but I so enjoy your creativity and your calm, soothing voice and manner, that I follow you faithfully. I have a son a bit younger than you and if he can be half as kind, loving, and nurturing as you are, I would consider it a job well done. You are very loved, Tanner. Peace.

[@plankyspindlepipes2019]

So sorry to hear about how you feel at the moment. Sometimes we only see what’s on the outside, the entertainment and information you provide, and don’t consider what’s behind that. My life came crashing down three years ago and it’s been a long road. But you’re right, it has a time where creativity and imagination comes to the fore. And it does get better. Your content is brilliant, something we check for every day, but I’m sure all your fans will be equally supportive if you do need time to heal too. Take care.

[@ettaz]

My life also came crashing down within the last year. In the span of 2 months I got divorced and I lost my job. A bit later I had a very bad bout of COVID (my third time, despite being triple vaxxed!) that made me miss my first family Christmas in 2 years. In my loneliest moments, I knew I could always come back to this channel and relax, and feel less alone. I got even closer to my father when we built our first terrarium, inspired by these videos. Now I'm doing much better, and I still come back every video.

[@alinagrace4980]

My 2021 was by far one of the roughest years I've ever dealt with. Crippling depression, dropping out of med school, my dad's diagnosis and later surgery, as well as my own just 2 months later and multiple family issues, so I completely understand you, Tanner. Like you said, stepping away completely to take care of yourself doesn't look like the most feasible, but no matter what calls you make on this channels content and everything else, you will always have a huge community supporting you. I discovered your channel just 2 months ago and to say your content has made a huge impact on improving my mental health is an understatement. It's only natural to offer you the same as you go through this. Be strong, there will always be brighter and better days. Take care of yourself, Tanner! And all the best on the PT!

[@tvviggz]

I can relate to the depression that comes with injury. I fell off a ladder at work last year and it put me out for maybe 4 or 5 months. It really sucked, but I'm tip top now!! I hope the same for you! Also, we love your content, obviously, but we also care about you as a person. Don't be afraid to let us know what you're going through because you aren't alone either. 💜

[@SeanAsgari]

I had a very similar injury to my hand, severed two tendons in my left pinky due to some broken glass. Had surgery and like 6 months of physical therapy, the whole nine yards. It was a hard road to recovery and honestly it was very difficult to use my hand the same way as my pinky is still not fully extendable due to the scar tissue. But due to persistence and a little bit of pain I've been able to push past it, I play bass guitar with a handicapped pinky and it's actually currently one of my strongest fingers!

[@academicant6438]

I'm sorry you went through the trauma and long-haul healing process. Glad you're back playing bass!

[@talon5538]

That's very impressive. I need carpal tunnel surgery in both wrists because I am a piano player and used to love going into internet chat rooms. Between the two , the constant repetitive motions has caused some damage over the course of 40yrs. Worst struggle I ever had was when I had physical therapy for a year and a half learning to walk again after having reconstructive surgery on my right foot. I am a licensed Veterinary Technician and when I worked at a Zoo , I got stepped on by a 1,000lbs animal during a difficult labor/delivery. Complications so the humans intervene , shoulder deep pulling out the baby when momma stepped on me. Everyone heard my foot go crunch 4 times . Loved that job , but went back to working in a small animal practice after I was medically cleared for full duties.

[@bluesnake198]

Sharing our struggles is how we understand each other. I know exactly how you feel; earlier this year I injured myself and I don't think it's going to ever be the same. But hearing that I'm not alone, and having amazing content like yours around both make a huge difference and help keep me positive. Your community is here for you. All the best, moss man 🌱💚

[@lenamarie2071]

Thank you for being real with us! We know you're a real person with a real life and all the accompanying struggles; it's ok to acknowledge that on your channel and to let people know what's going on behind the scenes and how it's effecting your work. No need to apologize for being human ;)

[@SamanthaPuchlerz]

Thank you for sharing, Tanner. We're your squad! I think I speak for the majority of your community when I say we're here for you whether times are good or bad, and I for one am very grateful for your words of encouragement. Your content has helped a lot of people- not just because it introduces and furthers people in the hobby (like me! I never would've become an enthusiast without you- now I have 3 full racks of terrariums and nano paludariums in my home office and my fiance is panicking that we're going to run out of room!), but because your work is mentally soothing to watch. Seeing someone so invested in the minutiae and beauty of their work is always a joy. I hope this season passes into a gentler one for you and yours soon.

[@vklawson1]

Big ups to you! We need more people to be open about their feelings. It really does help.

[@wesspangler]

Hang in there man! Your are not alone, and thank goodness seasons change.

[@franoswald6403]

I "get it". Been diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer, that has taken over half my liver plus other things. TOO tired to do anything, especially with chemo. All you can do is just take one day at a time, and hope it will get better. This video was not a bummer. Just discovered the channel a month ago and it is inspiring and relaxing to watch. Thanks!

[@toxicsnails3690]

Hey! If you’re seeing this Serpa, I just wanted to say, you are a massive inspiration to me and I bet many other people. Thanks for being there and making videos. You’ve helped me appreciate nature and opened my eyes. Thank you. :)

[@paadoxal]

thank you for sharing, wishing you the best in your recovery, i'm also in a "when it rains it pours" season right now and i fully get what you mean. We all really appreciate whatever you want to share with us:) 💚

[@argonautilus9540]

I appreciated everything about this video. It’s always reassuring to hear someone you respect and admire be honest about tough times and acknowledge when they’re worn thin. It’s a nice reminder that everyone is human and deserves compassion. It’s not a bummer at all. I’m so sorry for your losses, and good luck with your physical therapy.

[@sammyers1889]

Hey man, I too identified with how much of a calamity of times it is. Lost a few family members myself this year, followed by a torn Achilles’ tendon… I too ran into the inability to do my water changes, and luckily my parter was able to help. Hang in there, thanks for the reality check 👍🏻

[@pwk4599]

You cant't love the art without loving the artist 😉 So yes, how you are doing is interesting for many of your subscribers. Greetings from Germany

[@AussieEnglishPodcast]

Your content is amazing mate. Keep it up and stay positive :) you got this

[@philippschreier398]

i think this is the right moment to say this: i found you because i wanted to make a permanent terrarium with moss and ferns. from that research i found many people who do something like this but you are the only one who i would describe as an terrarium artist. your builds are just so cool to look at, i could watch them for hours. this is real art, thank you for doing this

[@TheSeptemberRose]

Thank you so much for sharing Tanner! Your videos are what got me into isopod keeping! I started by trying to make some of the little jar terrariums, but you mentioned Springtails and you even housed a few wild isopods in one and a lightbulb went off in my head and I said "ISOPODS!!!!" and I have been hooked ever since. I also have an aquarium and I love watching your creative builds for fish, and your outdoor ponds! I'm so sorry you're going through such troubled times right now. As a fellow artist, I know how important our hands and fingers are! Personally, I am dealing with cataracts and some other eye problems right now and I recently realized that I can still do certain things (sewing), relying on my fingers. Our fingers really are extremely sensitive and valuable tools when it comes to creativity. Just keep doing what you do and your body will eventually adapt and you will be able to move past this obstacle. You already are!

[@thebaconhawk5732]

Healing after a major injury CAN be depressing and it can be hard to adapt. I'm an LMT and am in a constant state of seeing my clients go through a healing process from a past injury, whether it be mental or physical. It takes time and you'll find a routine again but I really empathize with you. I'm so glad you opened up about this as you inspire so many people! We will always be here to support you.

[@juanhartley4897]

From the bottom of my heart I wouldn’t be the man I am to day with out your channels contribution to my therapeutic hobbies over the past three years. It started with the snail infestation and then I found you and didn’t even realize I was in a similar funk with my hand and being in novice craftsman. Big hug when I see you at a convention in the furniture. We can exchange notes on husbandry you aren’t alone friend 😊

[@geekdivaherself]

I like the mistake you made above where you said that you would see him in the furniture instead of the future! It made sense to me for a moment....

[@nancycornett9949]

Thank you for sharing this. It’s not a downer at all. Prayers for your uplliftment, and for all who are struggling at this time!🥰

[@PlatyCove]

🙏❤️

[@stevies_books]

You truly do make my life a little bit happier each time you upload. Take time or don’t because although you are a creator, it goes both ways, we want to make you happier as well. If that’s giving you time to recoup, then so be it. It is what you do for a living so we can understand a shorter video or maybe a talking video something that’s a little easier and we’ll love it all the same! Hope life gets a little easier for you tanner!

[@Servil7]

Thanks for being so open Tanner! Wish you the best of luck and sending positive vibes your way! You've been a great help during my past three months, you're videos helped me find some peace of mind during a tough period. Just know that you're being thought of! Thanks for your awesome content! :)

[@LivvyMorningstar]

I wish you all the best ♥ Healing isn't just a physical process, it's a mental one too. I believe in you, you can do the things you set your heart and mind to. I always enjoy your content no matter if I can build it or not. Your whole process is amazing to watch with building. Thank you for all you do. ♥

[@yahboigunny]

As you are always here for us, we will always be here for you!! Hope all goes well and gets well soon!

[@antarfodoh]

Dude.... dude.... dude. Open up any time you want to!!! 😊😊 I wanna say it took maybe a year before I stopped noticing my similar injury. I still notice it occasionally a decade later (not pain, I just remember I can't feel a small patch), but I hope you'll have a similar recover. Keep us updated on how it's coming along 😊

[@DeBlumerac]

I discovered your content literally about a week after my cancer diagnosis. When I couldn't sleep or relax otherwise due to the cancer pain, it was your videos that would help me the most. Even still I look forward to every single post, and during the hardest parts of chemotherapy I'll usually just lay and watch your content. Just like you say we're not alone, neither are you. There's a huge community out here, and it reflects your positivity. So, thank you for all that you do.

[@laurafasc6926]

I had a very small but deepish cut on my hand and lost a lot of feeling in that finger permanently it’s amazing how important our hands are wishing you a full recovery 💛

[@radiantlyshana]

Sending positive thoughts your way Tanner. Your content has definitely helped me through some hard times. May you find peace in your mind and heart!

[@moetrymwm7807]

Brother Tanner, I'm wishing you a quick recovery. May I say? Never apologize for bring real, honest, and open. You are an artist. Your heart lives in nature. You "create" nature, and you present it in such beautifully personal ways. Thank you.

[@lizzyanthus1]

I know exactly how you feel. I am literally having one of those seasons right now, myself. Everything going wrong and piling all up on me. It was all just too much for me last evening. I drove to my daughters house, who was out, and not home right then, and so I sat in my car, in her driveway, and cried! On top off all of it, I'm taking meds to get over acute bronchitis right now, and all of them can cause anxiety. Like I need more of that. I am so glad you chose to talk to us about your trials as well, because yes, it does make me feel like I am not alone, and I thank you! So much! Let us hope our problems work themselves out, and everything is all well and good once again. :) The sun will shine again, I am sure.

[@Anukinihun]

I understand man, my mom passed away in June, and my content has plummeted but I recently did a piece 2 days and it felt so good. My advice to anyone that reads this "Do not feel bad when you are feeling good". That quote has helped me make it through.

[@kelly-bo-belly]

☝️Powerful…

[@redshimasaki6652]

The rough seasons of life are never easy to talk about. Thank you for your courage to be open and vulnerable with us. We all need reminders that sometimes life is hard and nothing goes as planned; that is normal. Thank you for pointing out that times of challenge are when we grow beyond our previous limits. I wish you a steady and consistent recovery with your finger and look forward to seeing your next creative project!

[@lukesdrone4511]

Man, been kind of rough on my end too - totally get what you're saying. Hearing you say it and remembering that we all have bad seasons helps. I hope you're doing alright, and I love what you do. Deep breath. One step at a time.

[@polak97]

You are an insanely talented person, and these difficult times will pass. I know how health problems can be a huge obstacle to your goals in life. In times of struggle, you videos have helped me so much, especially with my night terrors. I am extremely grateful. I loved your last projects. Do what you gotta do to feel better; take time off, don’t take time off, whatever it is. We will always be there.

[@karlrobertosterman]

Thank you SO much. I sincerely appreciate the look inside. Your content is therapy for me. I love your channel.

[@phoenixthehobbyist6071]

Hope you get better soon. I know all too well what that frustration is like. Good luck keep doing what makes you happy. That’s the best medicine there is.

[@okashiad6930]

Watching your terrarium work has helped me learn so much and I'm going to be making my first one this week! Thank you so much for your hard work, through thick and thin. Hoping that things start to turn around for you and your recovery continues to get better.

[@sharongould2689]

I'd also like to say thank you for your continued inspiration. my new waterfall paludarium build is almost complete and you and your work have been large inspirations towards it!

[@Bladavia]

I feel you, I also broke a finger once and couldn't bend it for a year, couldn't play any music, it was tough. But hey after a while it finally recovered full flexibility and I can shred guitar like before !

[@Creative-Soul]

Hang in there mate!! and thanks for persevering and continuing to inspire us through your struggles.. hugs..

[@kmaree17]

Tanner there is no Serpa Squad without you! We always want the best for you! Take care and don’t forget we love you!

[@brookbalazs3600]

You do great work and are an inspiration to me. I am actually going through some challenges right now myself. Seeing you a person I want to be like, get through your own challenges gives me hope. Thank you for being you.

[@t_s4500]

Every time I see you post I get so excited to see what crazy thing you build. Love your video’s!!!!!!

[@codypatterson5780]

Thanks for your content You’ve helped me out in many ways I don’t know how long I’ve been watching right off but you’ve taught me a lot of things and my animals are in turn doing extremely well. I know it gets tough but for every dark side in life there will always be a bright side too. Keep your head up and take your time getting healthy

[@jasonchilds763]

I lost my mother may 28th 2021 and I'll tell you one thing when I watch you on KZbin You're so calming and you're so relaxed and you make my life believe it or not way better and my coping mechanism to cope is to watch you keep up the good work and take at least two days off reflect and then I'll See You Again on KZbin God bless and have a great day

[@noahsart873]

You are the reason my Giant Day Gecko has a massive bioactive enclosure with the silicone/coco coir method. You are the reason my Bearded Dragon has an absolute mansion using the foam/drylok method. Your videos on bioactive enclosures are the reason my baby house gecko and tomato frog have exciting ecosystems to live in. Your videos have given me countless hours of therapy and relaxation. You bring joy, motivation, creativity, and a passion for life to literal thousands of people. You are not just a creator, you are a human who is allowed and should be encouraged to express yourself. We follow you because you are informative and creative, but also because you are a person who is relatable and fun to listen to. Thank you for sharing this. It is encouraging to see others go through stressful times and see the silver lining. Best of luck through these tough times! P.S. I am a pet portrait artist and would LOVE to paint one of your reptiles. It is the least I could do with the amount of information you have given me for free. HMU! :)

[@TheOrangeFlash]

I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through a bit of a rough patch at the moment Tanner. For what it’s worth I always find your videos to be relaxing and great for de-stressing, so there’s something to be said for the positive impact that you have on others even when you’re not feeling the best yourself.

[@jurassicparkbuilderwillcome369]

I love how moss looks in terrariums

[@tristinrev]

You are an awesome content creator. You helped me get through my bad season and I've been watching your channel since you had very little subscribers. You have always had a super wholesome and unique type of video that we're always coming for me to watch. Always prioritize yourself especially with just how much your channel has grown in the past 2 years at least.

[@aspendrake9512]

Thank you for your vulnerability. You're awesome and what you do is amazing- thank you for being here!!!