So HARD Letting Go

[@adding2ourfamily]

I got teary with Cullen talking about his dad. I'm coming up on the year anniversary of losing my father and it's been so extremely difficult. Everything I have that he gave me I try and keep. I have his hairbrush from the last time he stayed with me and I won't let anyone use it. lol its silly. but if you read this thanks for seeting it through.

[@lizzyandfamily7656]

adding2ourfamily awww I wouldn't let anyone use it either 🙏

[@debdeguire60]

adding2ourfamily - I lost my Dad to a stroke on January 24, 2012. I miss him dearly! ♥️

[@Our3Bs]

It's coming up on a year anniversary for my moms passing as well. It's so hard :(

[@laceyhorton3443]

That's not silly! You have to have your way of dealing with things! I have my dads things that no one is allowed to touch, just because they were his. I'm sorry for your loss, sending you prayers!

[@adding2ourfamily]

Our 3 B's I'm sorry for your loss.

[@ImHisMrs77]

Thank you for sharing that moment Cullen, men don't share their feelings nearly enough, it was refreshing (as well as heartbreaking) to share with you xx

[@arnikad3794]

Cullen.. I do feel your pain.. I lost my mom a little over a year ago.. I have a hard time with stuff like that too.., I've kept pretty much everything I still had from her.. handwriting on paper all of that.. so many hugs!! ❤

[@flowv3303]

......Feel ya, cause I found my mom's driver's license last year, and i was a basket case to see her smiling picture and signature on it........... Heckle, she's been dead more years that I care to count.

[@eg_daria4689]

Arnika D Yeah, it's hard when you come across stuff you weren't looking for or thought you'd find. My mom passed 14 years ago. it'll be 15 this April.

[@haleybell3585]

Cullen when you was talking about the beer you had me crying!

[@morgan4474]

I LOL'ed when Katie said "If you like me fat, I'm good with that".

[@RelaxBabyDeepSleep]

This video made me cry

[@shellyj9127]

Aww Cullen. Your dad would be so proud of you, you're a great dad and husband.

[@SuzanneLight]

Cullen I just love you! Thank you for always being real. Grief sneaks upon you sometimes when you're least expecting it. But thanks for sharing with us......you could have easily cut that part out and been your regular crazy self.....but sharing with others will help someone else. I've been there......my dad was murdered when I was 27 years old......I know the pain.

[@asweare1581]

Cullen the love you have for your dad and your family is so genuine. I could feel it through my phone. y'all are such good people.

[@TheWilkyWays]

That must have been really tough to throw away, sending you love ❤

[@jademorgan9498]

The Wilky Ways ya so so so hard I was crying threw that

[@butterflyqueen9260]

The Wilky Ways did his dad passed away?

[@morgan4474]

Yes, in the spring of 2015. I just watched those videos yesterday.

[@ActiveLittles]

:D

[@nicolekelaher1979]

The Wilky Ways i agree

[@deniserodemich6268]

My mom died in June and I realized that my memories are the one thing I can hold on to and those will never go away. Things are just things but your love and memories are yours always. I miss my mother every day but she will always be with me just like your dad will always live in you and then in your children. I am really sorry for your loss,but he would be so proud of the husband, father and man you are.

[@kathyensink]

Cullen -- As someone who lost both parents (many years apart) I have learned to embrace my memories whether happy or sad. Since we can't always control when and where our memories hit us, they can happen at anytime. A song, a store, cans of beer etc. can be enough to unleash many emotions. Embrace these times and share with others. It can help. Thanks for continuing to open up. It's appreciated.

[@messymolly]

This vlog was so touching, Cullen. I just watched your I Love You Dad vlog and it mirrored so many of my emotions in October 2015 when my dad was diagnosed with bladder cancer. I felt so helpless; I questioned God, I felt angry at my dad for smoking for decades and not taking better care of himself. I remember coming home from spending some time with them on my daughter's first Easter Sunday and I sobbed because I hadn't thought to take a photo of her with her Poppy on what may be their first- and last - Easter together. This past June we got the news that the Interferon had done its job and he was officially cancer-free. I am so thankful for every extra day I've had with him since, but also have an always-looming fear of his cancer coming back...he never fully quit smoking and now I'm fairly certain he's back to smoking just as much as he was before his diagnoses. He is like you described your dad. Ex-military and incapable of admitting weakness, stubborn as all hell. Sorry for the long comment! I just wanted you to know I understand very much the emotions you must have been feeling in letting go of those beers. I thank you for being so candid so that other people know they're not alone either.

[@EarlsFamilyVlogs]

Can't imagine how hard it must be, but I know he is looking down on you and so proud of you!

[@tallywag1963]

My dad died 20-years-ago yesterday. My 8 siblings and I were all a part of an amazing text thread all day yesterday with stories and memories of our dad. Your tribute to your dad was so sweet. It made me tear up.

[@mandyrodgers6676]

Cullen I find it so comforting seeing you think of your dad. I lost my father to cancer on 4-26-16. It is hard when memories or things that may seem silly to others hit us and we get emotional. You sharing these moments have helped me. They will be missed, but never forgotten! Love watching you guys!

[@Jrboyd19]

I totally understand how hard it was to throw away those beers. My grandfather bought me 4 new tires before he died and I rode those tires until they blew out. 😢

[@caitlinkeif66]

I relate to Cullen so much when he talks about his dad

[@LivahLuvah]

From one person who's lost their dad and way too early, to another, I TOTALLY understand and get the pain of letting go. Much luv.

[@LivahLuvah]

Katie...I have a 14 and 16 year old. The staying up late to get stuff done has still not ended for me. Prepare thyself. LOL

[@lindapellerin7316]

Aw Cullen, You make me cry when you talk about your Dad. He's with you all the time, you don't need anything that was once his. He's always watching over you and you must feel his presence all the time. God Bless.

[@emmawright861]

Cullen you're so so sweet. The real memories lie within your heart. When I was young my dad passed away, I kept a t-shirt of his under my pillow for years and then one day it just disappeared! I was devastated but honestly now I've realised it was just a piece of material and that memories are worth so much more xx

[@stephanieinthesuburbs1522]

Cullen, I know first hand how very hard it is to let go of your dad's things. You are such a wonderful human, & the fact that your father spent his last days with you honestly was a testament that he truly loved you. Thank you for being you, & sharing your life with all of us! As always, many blessings, be kind to yourself, & your head up! Love from your Phoenix Family! Stephanie (Greg & Donovan, too!) ❤

[@Allyson-xb3nx]

Sorry for your loss Cullen💙 my family went through family loss like that to my paw or grandpa was a really big smoker but when we got cancer my nanny or grandma mad him stop then in 2012 when he passed my paw had one pack left and it was really hard for my mom I was 11 or 12 so I did not really understand why my mom was so upset over a pack of smokes,and when we got all if there stuff moved my dad and the guy that help my dad moved my nanny and Paw's stuff had a smoke in his honor. praying for you I know it can still be really hard no mater how much time has passed❤

[@simplyraeann3711]

Cullen my heart was breaking when you were talking about your dad. The smallest things mean the biggest when theirs a memory behind it.

[@laurablanton703]

I agree with so many others, I could feel how hard that was for you. It is interesting the items that really make us remember the people we've lost but it is also a good opportunity to remember the good times we enjoyed with them. Thank you for being so open and reminding us to take a minute to remember our lost loved ones with a tear or a smile.

[@shannonknox1578]

My momma lost her father just 10 days ago. The saddest part is he wasn't involved much in her life while she was growing up but just months before he passed they got to patch things up. She forgave him and he expressed regret for not being there for her. She had hoped to care for him and bring him down south to the country like he wanted, but unfortunately he didnt make it. It was so sad. I'm glad the last thing we all said to him was that we loved him no matter what.

[@dawns7186]

So beautiful how much you loved your Dad. Memories are what helps us heal from loss. Hang in there Cullen.

[@jnipper2009]

wow! so todays vlog has me in tears over beer! i lost my dad in 2012 and when we went to go get his stuff out of his house he had some beer left in the fridge that he had for a few months before he past away! its the little things that bring so much emotion!

[@luvmy2pugs1]

Cullen it's never easy letting go. I still have an article of clothing from each of my parents. Occasionally I come across things that bring up all those feelings of loosing my parents. It has been almost 19 years since my dad passed and almost 11 years since my mom passed. It's all part of how much we love our parent (s) and how much they meant to us. My heart goes out to you. Jill

[@c.elizabeth771]

It's so hard letting go of anything from loved ones we have lost. Thinking of you Cullen, and thank you for sharing these moments with us. Lots of love from Chicago ❤

[@joycetenhage1740]

Awww Cullen, sending you a big virtual hug. Memories come up at the strangest times!

[@lizaj74]

Cullen it never gets easier. My dad has been gone 4 9yrs & it's still very hard when we come across his things. No u r not alone. So happy u have the vids of him.

[@curlygurl43]

Cullen!! Stop making me cry! Keep them if you want to, they're you're memories. Love you guys so much!!

[@AlannaCee]

Totally bawling over beer but Cullen, that was so touching. He loves you so much.

[@mististallard]

Hugs to Cullen. I can't imagine what it's like to lose your Dad. Just know he is watching over you and your beautiful family.

[@laceyhorton3443]

I'm so sorry Cullen, I lost my dad when I was only 9 years old to cancer. I know it's different for all of us, but it's still hard letting go of any thing that may have some memory to it. Prayers for you in your hard times. Love you guys!

[@PurseTrippin]

Cullen, I cried w you. I know you pain all too well. Had to do that w mama and daddy's things. You are amazing to share such personal things with us and we love you and your beautiful family.

[@cvlsgirls]

I totally understand what you were going through letting go of the buds. My mom was diagnosed with cancer last year in March and she passed away in June and she lived in the same house for 40 years and we lived there with her to help take care of her and now we have to move and it's my responsibility to pick and choose what to keep and what not to keep so it's very hard for me too

[@whitec1981]

6.5 years later i just had a breakdown last week over luggage locks - of all things.... my heart goes out to your Cullen...losing our dad is hard...love ya

[@GA-girl-Brooke]

Seeing you upset made my heart ache! 😩 sending you some hugs from Georgia! Thank you for sharing the good times and the difficult times with us. That's why we love y'all so much!

[@shelleyinOK]

I needed a good cry and Cullen was able to give me that. I lost my Dad 7 years ago and when my Mom moved we had to go through all his stuff and decide what to keep and what to donate or throw away. It's hard to do! I kept his last bottle of Crown that is half empty. It is in a box but I couldn't bring myself to throw it away! Maybe some day. XOXO

[@kristylynn8400]

daddy's beers.....😞😰 ill always miss my daddy too cullen...i lost him at 16. im 28 now and its still hard. but we are honoring them with every memory.

[@kristylynn8400]

on a lighter note i have a sneaking suspension yall already have a house in mind....or maybe in the works?? Cant wait to see yalls adventures !!

[@crystaaalllm4286]

The way Brooks looks at Gaines is the cutest 😍

[@teresasimmons3762]

aww I know that was hard to let go of that beer because of the memories it held. My heart felt your tears as i lost my dad years ago and it is hard to totally let go... God Bless you.. Love you Cullen and Katie,Gaines and Brooks

[@AnnaHoweVlogs]

This may sound weird, but thanks for showing us the hard parts and not hiding them away. We all love and care about you guys!

[@aprildraper9189]

Cullen, I can understand the pain of losing your father, I lose my father when I was 19 years old. It's a journey that we go through all of your lives, from time to time things happen that reminds us of our love one and brings back emotions. ((Hugs)) to you and our family!!!

[@ambernethery]

Saying a prayer for you, Cullen. I know that was difficult to do. I lost my Dad almost 4 years ago and miss him more everyday. Your dad reminded me so much of my own. They had very similar personalities and actually passed away from the same exact thing. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sending love to you, Katie, Gaines, and Brooks from Birmingham!

[@bobbyjnell1]

Emotional Cullen is the sweetest 😢

[@chrissiecooper7934]

Cullen, I lost my mum unexpectedly two months ago tomorrow, she was only 45 and I'm 22, I don't know when it will get easier and the grief always comes in waves. We had to go through all of her belongings so know how hard it can be to throw items away

[@MommaYeager1221]

I completely get where you are coming from with the beers, my hubby passed away in his sleep the day after Thanksgiving of 15. I have gotten rid of some of some of his stuff and had memory blankets made from his clothes for my kids for Christmas this year. He had a pair of shorts on the bathroom floor. I hated when he left them there/ but I can't pick them up and get rid of them. They still sit there 14 months later. I just can't do it!

[@sarahc2538]

It was great of you to share that information with us about our dad and the emotions that came from it. It was so brace of you to end that segment of your life and move on to start a new one love you Cullen 💜

[@texaslady1973]

Cullen you are nuts!!! I was cracking up when Katie told you don't break yourself!

[@Bethnesjourney]

Cullen you had me crying over some beer! 💜 I lost my mom 2 years ago and I know all too well that it wasn't about beer it was about so much more! Much love to you!!!

[@ruthcrawford5897]

Katie, you look gorgeous without makeup! Such a mom glow❤️

[@xomadisongxo]

I can empathize with you on this situation Cullen. My grandpa passed away back in 2007 and we still have the last few beers he had before he passed away. If you haven't gotten rid of them completely, you should at least keep one! He's always watching over you . ❤

[@dimplesgood3]

Cullen, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss!!!!...It's alright to cry...just lost my sister June 2016...Broooks giving us so many smiles & cuteness at the same time!!!!.....he is growing so fast...whewwwww

[@MakeTimeNow]

Cullen, my heart goes out to you. Your dad is in heaven smiling down on you all. I know it still hurts. Hugs and prayers to y'all from Hawaii. Gaines and Brooks are so dang adorable, even when the videos are more somber in tone, I can't help but smile looking at your little ones

[@Dahveedpnw]

Dang man, lots of love to you guys ! you'll have the moments like these to look back at and remember your dad ! Thanks for sharing

[@milaamour]

Awww😭 Cullen you don't have to worry about it being a weird segment it's a sentimental portion of your life we love you guys and ur family we're here for you

[@melissaanderson6872]

My mom's mother passed away when she was 12 and she always says the thing that got her the most emotional was coming home to an almost finished book on her nightstand. Ever since she has never been able to go to bed if she is close to finishing a book. It's now become a family tradition, so everytime we are about to finish a book and it's late at night, we get to think of her!

[@LivNtheBESTLife]

Seems like so simple when you pause like that in life to remember your special loved one. I lost my dad in 2007 to a tragic tractor accident and still things make me remember him after almost 10 yrs. You brought tears to my eyes. Very Special Moment. Also on the other hand the donuts after dentist cracked me up. Something I would do. LOL

[@DSherman50]

The way Katie switched from "don't tell them how any I ate..." to "CULLEN BROUGHT HOME 18 DONUTS!" was hilarious to me! Proactively throwing her husband straight under the bus! It was classic. I was the same way, exhausted, until I knew my little ones were in bed, asleep, and not getting up again. Then I got a second wind because it was ME time, and it was priceless.

[@donnaprentis3739]

It's really difficult to lose a parent. Cullen, I am so sorry for your loss.

[@ashleydiff3592]

What a beautiful moment. Didn't expect to cry but I did! So real and raw.

[@duckyone20]

I completely understand that feeling Cullen. A friend of mine made dip and took it to my wedding in these cheap dollar bowls and she passed away and those bowls mean the world to me I think I would probably loose my mind and cry hard if anything happened to them.

[@snapoutofit9469]

Thanks for sharing such a raw emotional part of you about the loss of your dad. I have a set of keys from his car that I will hold and go to sleep with in my hand sometimes.

[@leonatroyniak8461]

Ah Cullen, I feel so bad for you! I totally understand that feeling of not wanting to let go of something that belonged to someone you love. My feeling is, that you just hang on to it as long as you need to and then one day will come and you'll be okay with getting rid of it. It just happens...but you'll know when the time is right...don't rush it!

[@lisalopez3725]

Oh Cullen! I know how you feel, my brother passed away 3 years ago. There's a lot of things we've held on to just because we can't let them go. We still have a bottle of Jack that was hidden in his toolbox, none us have even opened it we just have it sitting next to his picture.

[@purplesneakers3343]

💜 we still have my MIL who lived with us and passed some years ago her last beer is in the bottom of our fridge. Thank you for sharing that it must have been so hard not to shut the camera off.

[@amandajs21]

It's crazy the things we hold onto to remember someone. So sorry Cullen. You'll always have your memories of your dad. Sending love

[@alysyndriver2443]

I love picture of brooks in the intro when he was in the crib

[@Tra368]

When I am debating on whether to to keep certain sentimental/ meaningful things I will take a picture of it and save that. That way I can keep the special memories of it, without having to store it or fear of losing it. Cullen, God bless your sweet Daddy.

[@gailhouston5876]

Bless you Cullen. I know that was difficult to do. Sending much love.

[@wheelerbeauty84]

Well that for sure was the 1st time I have ever cried over beer!! Love you Cullen!!

[@flowerblooms5792]

Aww, my heartbroke for u Cullen , sorry about ur dad , my husband and I know the feeling, I lost my mom,aunt and grandma and then my father-in-law, my husbands dad at the same year, May God bless u with comfort

[@jenniferdearing8575]

I know how you feel Cullen my mom passed away 11/25/16 with lung cancer at hospice and not a day goes by I don't cry or go through her things or find something that needs to be tossed away but I just can't.... Prayers to you guys

[@danmar1976]

My heart was breaking watching this. Cullen you are in my thoughts. I'm sending love and good vibes your way.

[@fivepeapods]

Cried like a baby as you talked about your dad. You must not have heard me while I was telling you not to toss it. But I totally understand about moving on. Love you guys so much. Your the first vloggers I watch every morning.

[@ashleyrivera1035]

I hear you, Cullen. We are in the process of moving and getting rid of things. During our cleaning I found my moms (she passed away almost 10 years ago) old bathrobe that's just been sitting there. At first I thought, "well I'll keep it" but then I realized that it will literally just sit there. I won't wear it and I had honestly forgot about it up until then anyway. It was hard though, to throw it out. So I definitely feel your pain!❤

[@crystalw2692]

Great big hug Cullen it's hard parting with sentimental things especially from a deceased love one...GOD BLESS YOUR HEART

[@kellyedes6318]

it's hard Cullen losing a parent. I lost my mom in 2005. I had some stuff of hers that I had to go through. it's a hard period.

[@brandilorts3819]

It sounds strange...but I love when you guys (Cullen and Katie) vlog about the tough stuff. It shows how real life can be and how much yall care about certain issues and people and things like that. For example..Cullen and your Father, just shows how much you miss him and how proud you were of him. And that even though time has gone one, it's always okay to be upset. Just a part of life. Good luck to everything yall endeavor. I apologize for this comment being so long...but I am an RBT...I work with special needs children and am passionate about so many things and how things are viewed. Especially when it comes to children. I love seeing how real and genuine yall are. Always gives me a good "pick me up." So thank you. 💖

[@biancarowland1012]

Oh Cullen, you are so strong to do what you did with the beer. I am a hoarder especially when it comes to things that are super meaningful even if people think it's silly. I could not have done what you did so it's a real credit to you!

[@lisagragnaniello6070]

Cullen, that made me teary eyed listening to you talk about your dad.

[@kaypedigo873]

I can relate to how difficult it was for you to throw away your Dads" beer. My best friend was murdered when we were 24. She had a jar of Tasters Choice in my refrigerator so that she could have her coffee ( Dr. Pepper is my coffee) when she was at my house. I moved 4 times, always with her coffee in tow. I just couldn't throw it away. It took me 8 years before I could let go of that jar. The day I did, I sat on the floor of my kitchen and cried for three or four hours. I am 64 now and I still think of that jar.

[@k3shia05]

keep the beer!!! Go find your trash bag and get the beer back!

[@snapoutofit9469]

Or take a picture of it.

[@KyndallLGreen]

k3shia05 that's what I say

[@mggmarni]

k3shia05 He could also pour one can out and write on the empty can with a sharpie what the can means and keep it on the shelf.

[@CelestaII]

Yes! He should have kept at least 1 can...

[@MsFordtrucklover]

..❤️❤️.. I absolutely love your vlogs however this one really got to me. I lost my dad in July of 2016 to brain cancer. I was 25 at the time he passed. I never ever imagined my dad of 52 would be taken so quickly. I absolutely feel for you when it comes to the pain and hurt. My dad was always my favorite and will forever be. I took a few of his shirts after he passed and I will for sure be holding onto them forever. I'm not sure hot beer tho. Please know that I was crying right along with you and that I will continue to pray for you. By the way thank you so much for all the hard work you do in these vlogs they are truly amazing. Much love to you and your family and always remember the best memory of your dad is found in your heart. Since my dads passing I have realized that no object or item means more to me than the memories.

[@alissadalton4229]

So sorry Cullen. Love your family. You guys are awesome.

[@EpicParkCast]

I don't think I have ever cried over beer before...add that to the list of things I never thought I'd do. Touching story Cullen. -Justin

[@EpicParkCast]

I know.. I was saying I never would have thought I would cry over beer and he told a story that made me do it. It was a beautiful and touching story and I really felt for him with all my heart :)

[@mdsides]

Cullen your so amazing putting your emotions out their with the world. Another reason I love watching you and Katie. Xo from Hawaii

[@beverlymoran5966]

Recovering from reconstructive knee surgery and Cullen & Katie help with the distractions! I love y'alls family-Love from OKC, OK

[@jocitp]

Beverly Moran my daughter just had reconstructed shoulder surgery

[@beverlymoran5966]

It's definitely been a ride... It's only been a week so I have a long road ahead....

[@stephanieblackwell4021]

Beverly Moran wishing you a speedy recovery from Tulsa OK

[@beverlymoran5966]

Stephanie Blackwell thank you! :)

[@shereewordell2433]

I cried with you Cullen. My parents are still living but they are not the same people. They are both in a Care Home because my mom has Severe Schizophrenia & my had has Parkinson's disease & Alzheimers. So this may sound weird but since they are not the same people I feel like I have lost them already. It's been extremely hard!

[@StephandTimTravel1]

It is definitely tough, Cullen, you will never ever forget your dad and ever time you crack a new fresh bud light you can think of him. One day you'll be kicking it with a beer with Brooks having one too and thinking of him

[@AnderK04]

I feel for ya Cullen. It's the little things that bring back the memories. My Mom has now been gone 20 years on 1/5.

[@breanna_kevan]

KEEP THE BEER! You can pour it out (we do it here in California a lot. Pour some out on the ground for our friends/family that have passed on and say something in dedication to them) and just write on the can to keep.

[@makingbabytaylor]

It's hard to let go of things that carry such sentimental feelings for us

[@danidolphin5985]

This is the first thing i do when I get home from school everyday, thanks for being so awesome!

[@janetspoon]

Cullen I totally understand how you feel about the beer.. i have a can in my fridge that my son bought when i sent him to the store for me. He asked me not to let anyone drink it it was his.. a couple of days later he was killed in a car accident (not from drinking). i have had it for 5 yrs now and as long as i'm alive it will stay in my fridge.

[@jasminebergen2966]

When you talkt about your dad i starting to cry my eyes out ❤❤😭

[@thecatseyecreates]

I feel you Cullen...I lost my mom several years ago (and subsequently my dad and only sibling as well) and I am struggling to get rid of her address book that she carried around with her daily. It holds no information that I need, but I think it's just because she always had it with her and touched it daily (she doodled on it when on the phone and had ALL the information in there...if you knew my mom you knew about that address book). My brain knows it is just a "thing" my heart just isn't ready to let it go.