SOFT SPOT FOR MONARCHS | Day 14

[@thatschicblog]

noted: this is not a monarch! it is a gulf fritillary passion blutterfly, which we have passionfruits nearby and makes sense why they're here! :)

[@lagatitabruja]

I just commented that haha! I have a passionflower in my yard I recognized right away ☺️

[@mirioam]

I´m already seeing myself coming back to these videos a million times

[@crapulence853]

same

[@paopaoarra]

Yes yes yes

[@acec8]

I’ve already watched this series 2x 😂

[@Marcela.Isabel]

Same

[@nadineescobar6634]

Same

[@hamidah6687]

This vlog series is the best I've seen on KZbin. Even out of all of your past series, this is unrivalled. It's so rich, introspective, and layered (with images and beautiful tunes, yes, but also layered with memory, yearning and a warm blue undertone I think we've all resonated with at some point in the past). A tapestry comes to mind...thank you for sharing this art and vulnerability.

[@prr3sha]

♥️♥️♥️

[@Cheesyradish]

Watching you fall in love with yourself these last two weeks have been such a gift to us all! We are the world and the world is us and when we reveal this inner love magic happens 🦋

[@prr3sha]

she is an angel ♥️

[@tresVOGUE]

This has been such a great series. I’m really struggling right now in a 3 yr relationship that I think is ending. We live together, share 2 dogs- our lives are so intertwined- and I think I’m about to lose it all. To think that maybe a year from now I will have a space that is my own like you- is an important consolation right now.

[@polina4078]

Literally.... exactly the same to a T. Except with 1 dog. lol

[@aathenaiz6151]

hope everything works out! things will get better

[@claudiahurtadoortiz1177]

everything is going to be okay at the end

[@jessicasosa9598]

rachel, these vlogs have felt like a catharsis for me. i don’t relate to what you’re going through but your honesty with yourself has allowed me to be honest with myself for some reason. there were many nights throughout this series where i couldn’t sleep bc of how much your vlogs had me introspecting. i didn’t even notice, but, it was like ur rebirth energy sparked an energy in my own life. or maybe we’re all just morphing into something new as this pandemic is ending. i don’t know. i just wanna say thank you for always being you. sending you lots of love. 🌱

[@sophierosenblatt747]

wow. so well said. i couldnt agree more

[@blossombassey3863]

What happenes to her?

[@klara8442]

Rachel you have no idea how important this series is for me and I really don't know why I'm sobbing right now but I would really appreciate it if after some time off you would upload sth from time to time because every video of yours is an emotional journey for me and gets me to open up a little to myself The last two weeks were a dream I love you!!

[@nadineescobar6634]

💕💕💕💕

[@oopsgirl44]

I feel so sad that this is over, truly, I'm so grateful for how we got here. I'm yet to unbox everything because I'm still deep in it but really, thankyou thankyou, Rachel. This series was different for all of us. Watching it, feeling it, thinking about it. I feel like I'm going to remember everything about the events of the last 2 weeks better as I waited for these videos every night. take care, I hope you rest well. We'll be here again whenever you decide to come back 🌹

[@-ParisTexas-]

I just love your reason's for wanting to have a boyfriend.

[@hyaacinthus]

I’m kinda sad these vlogs are over, watching these has made me reflect on so many things. The me I envision coming out of this is a successful me, a more self acceptance me, and lastly a me that finally feels comfortable in their own body.

[@gracepolak4464]

your monologue really put into perspective that this year is almost normal again and that is such a weird thought! i think it’s so cool that you can look back on these down the road and reflect on this awful year :)

[@Sarah-tg1jv]

i can’t put into words what i’ve just experienced over these last 2 weeks with this series except for wow .... something truly beautiful occurred.

[@sammionne239]

I know my story might not be read by anyone but for anyone who's also had a rough time, I hope sharing this can help you in some way to feel that you're not alone. I have said this before and I will say it again. Thank you Rachel for this series. I have been going through the most difficult final med school exams over the past 2 weeks and I will hopefully be done in 3 days. I felt so trapped in my tiny apartment, but watching you surf and go on these road trips with your dog has given me so much energy and hope. I spent the last 6 years at university where my self esteem and confidence plummeted to an all time low. I live in Hong Kong and in 2019 we faced a massive political crisis where I questioned my cultural identity and was stuck at home for a whole year. Just when things calmed down, the pandemic hit and I was once again stuck at home. During that period, my family lost most of their financial assets, my partner lost his job and possibly his right of abode in my city. I suffered from severe anxiety and time and time again I wanted to give up. Last month my body sent me a reminder that I am far too overwhelmed. My skin broke out with a widespread, itchy rash, which was not only affecting my sleep but also my self confidence. I felt ugly and disfigured. Everything was colliding at the same time and I felt like I couldn't breathe. But like Rachel described this chapter is coming to an end; for the first time ever we can see that there will be a next chapter. Most of my friends are completely vaccinated now, I am days away from completing my medical degree, I am rebuilding my confidence and rediscovering my strengths and passions, and I got married recently as well! My journey has not only been attributed to COVID but a plethora of personal and societal struggles. Finally...there truly is light at the end of this tunnel and to answer the question of who I am going to be when this is all over? Probably someone with deep gratitude for life, love, health, and the world around me.

[@cockatiel2195]

this was lovely to read :)

[@rmwithaview8445]

Sending you nothing but love ❤️

[@sammionne239]

@@cockatiel2195 I made it! Just graduated and I'm officially a doctor now!

[@SivanIlan]

Yes to digital intimacy ❤️ love what you said about coming out of this as a beautiful, strong and confident version of yourself. May we all!

[@sanaekhamlichii]

I’m already nostalgic pls don’t stop making these videos, i need them in a weird way, i grow in a way with you

[@agavesyrup]

sometimes i forget there's more to life than school. i grew up really fast due to an emotionally abusive family, and i was always so scared of growing up. at the age of 4, i was freaking out that i was going to die soon and that i would never have enough time to do the things that i wanted to do. your videos make me realize that there is so much more to growing up than owing work to someone. like there's more to life than work, you know. you meet people, you develop as a person, love, pain, sadness, and it's all yours. i think ill always feel as if though i owe my parents for my life, and i will constantly dictate what i do based on what they would have wanted.

[@figseeking]

you’re the only creator ive watched that can translate human complexity across a medium like this. your videos never feel like i’m watching a concept or persona but like i’m truly seeing a glimpse of a person!

[@natalieregan9834]

thank you for letting us so deeply into your experience and naming feelings that can sometimes be hard to express- it's beautiful to see you in bloom!

[@eloisewright7092]

Wow Rachel. You have left me feeling cleansed and nourished, revived and creatively stimulated in the most gentle and healing way possible. Thinking about my life and how I choose to spend it, what ways I am truly at peace trading my time for money, what ways I can transform my work into something that fits with my life and drive. Thank you for your love, for openly setting your boundaries with the online world, and for just doing you. Take care of yourself x

[@colorfullightningtv]

What a beautiful radiant soul you are Rachel. Thank you so much for bringing us on this journey with you. I think we are all thankful for the honesty and abundance of wisdom you bring to this community. You are very special. I really needed this last portion of the video and I’m thankful for your beautiful words. I feel renewal in so many ways too... 🦋🌱 I’m very happy for you!

[@PearlDsouza30]

Seeing you at the beginning of this vlog series vs towards the end, they seem like two different people. In the best sense. There was so much growth & in a weird way, I feel like I grew with you ❤️

[@apresmididor4209]

Hi rachel, thank you for this series. Even if you never gave us the reflecting words and this last video never came, it was so clear to see how different this series was from the others. Maybe it was just the feeling of connection, but as you said, each song and cut felt so deliberate yet natural. It felt like there was so much care put into it and not just for the aesthetics, but definitely a deep personal project. I am not one to rewatch videos, but this series, I've watched each video at least five times and it's opened a new perspective for me to START rewatching my favorite videos instead of trying to chase the feeling of the first time experiencing it. Learning that each experiencing each feeling is in its own way, a rebirth. The feelings that hit home during the start of this series relating to you as a Viet American to now have also been a series of fleeting feelings I know will evolve with you. Thank you

[@MyBarbieStuffbyEL]

I have nvr successfully watched any youtuber's vlog straight for 14 days execpt Rachel's bcause its just so i cant explain the feeling but ive been ending my nights watching this series

[@cassandrahood7665]

Radical acceptance ❤️

[@joanna9295]

Thank you for these vlogs

[@danyellanightingale8240]

this series was so beautifully made ♥ thank you immensely for sharing with us. the timing of today's video feels extra special too, as you talked about the light at the end of the tunnel with more people get vaccinated. i (finally) managed to book my 1st + 2nd dose vaccine appointments last night and cried through the whole booking process. the emotions around unloading some of the weight we've been carrying from living in a pandemic for a year are intense. i know we still have a ways to go (in the states at lesat), but watching your vlogs at the same time we're shifting into spring and as we let ourselves be hopeful again has been so comforting and inspiring

[@anutzica]

Rachel eating a bag of chips, staring out the window, and contemplating is an eternal mood

[@뿡빵이-b1j]

These vlog series is so meaningful to me because I’ve learnt what is zero waste life and how I can do that to my life. I’ll always wait your video whenever you upload. Thank you for sharing your lifetime with honest, inspiring attitude!

[@evefraser4213]

Hi, I don't usually comment but I wanted to say how amazing your videos make me feel. They actually have helped me cook beautiful things for myself, move my body, journal, and enjoy the little things like coffee in the morning or the sound of birds chirping. I hope you know that your videos really push people to reflect on themselves, and actually help people see the world through a different spectrum.

[@summerroberts1103]

This series taught me radical self love 💗 thank u rach

[@thickleeyonce853]

Your content is so heartwarming

[@karlababy]

It's been great 14 days with you. I feel like I've also made memories with you even though I was just watching you going through it all. Thank you. ❤️

[@annie2687]

This entire vlog series has been such a gut punch! I'm processing a lot of the same emotions/events rn, so seeing you work through everything has been a really healing experience for me as well. Thank you as always for sharing, I hope the rest of this spring and summer will treat you well.

[@sonalichakma5232]

I don’t know why do I start crying when you start crying 😅We will miss you Rach

[@amandalago98]

This series has been so great! I’ve enjoyed all of them and love all the different angles you get. Your vlogs almost feel more like movie shorts sometimes cause the way it all comes together feels so satisfying without it feeling too produced or anything. Thank you for putting in so much intention to these videos! I rewatch you all the time and can’t wait to be rewatching these too 🥰

[@paradise_megan]

I feel lucky to be able to experience these vlogs, and I will definitely be rewatching the whole 14 days multiple times

[@kelleymccaffery7755]

rachel!!!! you always manage to do a transformative vlog series while i'm personally going through major transitions. it's heart warming to be seen by someone i don't personally know and be comforted through this shared head space. thank you for being creative with your vulnerability, it's inspiring to watch someone be tapped in even if they don't always feel like it.

[@lovinggossipgirl]

I’m in love with this series. It reminds me that I’m not alone in this new journey. Others are experiencing something like it too.

[@dynamicteapot]

i have no words to explain how much these meant to me. you are an inspiration to my life because you are not perfect. all my life, i've wanted perfect perfect perfect. but this is better. living is better. your videos create a small warm fire inside me that i want to keep forever. i am 19 and i am hopeful and making mistakes and learning and growing and these videos were just what i needed. probably one of my favorite works of art that i have ever come across in my short amount of time here. these make me happy to just be alive.

[@Oneofthenailas]

This was such a journey and it will forever be engraved in our hearts. I will hold onto this series dearly as I transform and come back to self. Thank You 🤍

[@alexamorrison7039]

Rachel, I have always enjoyed watching your videos over the years, but this series has been so refreshing and I have enjoyed seeing the world through yours eyes for the past couple of weeks. These videos radiate nostalgia and they have revitalized me during a time that can often feel a tad blasé. As always thank you for the inspiration✨

[@verderosa1887]

Thank you so much Rachel for sharing this time in your life to us

[@nadineescobar6634]

🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋 “If I don’t who will” What a line. I feel like when I watch your vlogs, I’m watching a pioneer lol. That’s a lame way to put it but it’s true. you bring magic to life. WHAT AN HONOR TO GROW TOGETHER!!! 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋 That last shot with your headphones, was sooo good!

[@soravelora]

Thank you for sharing 14days (or more) of your days with us. Thank you for coming back. Hope to see more whenever you want and can 💕

[@weyesbl00d]

this has been a lovely and immersive journey. love u rachel!

[@arielsantos8278]

I cried when you cried . I love you Rachel!

[@micalaking1904]

day 14 already. I loved this. thank you for your presence.

[@hgdhfbv]

i love you and your channel unconditionally rachel. im so grateful to have been a part of this journey with you. your videos have helped me more than you'll ever know

[@brealexandria]

Rachel, your blogs always come at the perfect time for me! Right now I'm going through radiation b/c I was diagnosed with this rare form of Lymphoma and your blogs have been such a form of light and peace in my day! Thank you so much! Wishing you all the best!!

[@nadineescobar6634]

also i think it would be really cool to have a weekly video about whatever

[@yvettekan3564]

i'm so glad to have taken this journey with you. i've noticed how often you say "let's unbox that" and i find myself using that phrase too! it's very useful as a clear reminder to think a little deeper. thank you 💕

[@sofiafajardo2264]

Literally saved watching this for when you release a new one because i didn’t want to be left hanging and wanting more. Just finished watching this now that your new series is up!

[@mmmmikah]

Starting off the day watching your vlogs has been a valued part of my routine and I'll miss them. Excited to see you grow even more 💗

[@Abcdefghijajajaja]

To me that’s a huge thing. When you aren’t in a relationship and you miss the things that they gave you... means you depend and aren’t ready and that’s ok. You should long to constantly give and give. Boyfriends or partners aren’t about missing the things they do for you.

[@devonmitchell5319]

It's partnership, not martyrdom. Yes seek to give and sacrifice, but more so seek to share. There is nothing wrong with wanting support on the days you need rest, we all need to be cared for sometimes.

[@yoojinyoon9917]

You are so special Rachel. You are so special ❤️. I love you so much and this emotion only gets deeper.

[@nnbk_fornow]

Thanks for documenting such an unknowingly crucial time in your life with us. It's been a joy to be on that journey with you. Honestly, I think this is one of my fave vlog series of yours. Well done.

[@yinyang8578]

i cried ahead of you when you said "i just went through a rebirth this whole 2 weeks" .... crying

[@lisadymphmegens2752]

Thank you sharing these magical, emotional, heart-warming 14 days of your life with us. You are an artist Rachel, we love you.

[@StanleyDo]

Thank you for this lovely vlog series Rachel! I’ve never followed any of your previous series before, but I’m so glad I did for this one. Your raw vulnerability, storytelling, music choices, and edits have inspired me and just gave me the vibes that I needed 🤍

[@reinamaeyago1588]

Thank you for letting us peek through the windows of your emotions in these series. 💝 always got a lesson and realizations bagged after watching ur videos 🥲

[@Joselefineline]

I'm so sad the 14 days are already over, your videos have been amazing. I think what they've made me help realize, maybe this last one in particular, is that this wasn't my time to heal - this is something I will have to heal from. I've been seeing it as my life having been on pause and soon I get to press play but even once everything starts back up I feel like I have so much emotional work to do before things can ever go back to the way they were. But I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, and it's giving me energy to take on that challenge.

[@gretat-t9633]

These vlogs are simply the best

[@4evaglamour]

I know im going to rewatch this series a million times as i have been waiting every day just for you to upload 😭

[@snguy5232]

what a beautiful and profound way to reflect and end this series. gives me hope for the future

[@Exodus.06]

thank you for this emotional virtual experience!!! luvvv it so so much

[@anutzica]

thank you for sharing the inner workings of your mind with us Rachel 🤍 this series is so special

[@geaninette5592]

Ohhh, how I am gonna miss your vlogs!! This was the most inspiring vlogs ever and they very perfectly filmed and edited.

[@femkekas7535]

I’ve absolutely loved this little series. Have watched them a couple times already I just adore them all

[@magicalmalu]

rachel ! ty so much for all of this and everything you've said in this vlog series + this vid especially ! its coming exactly when it should, huge changes have happened in my life relatively overnight (good changes too! necessary ones) and this feels so aligned to me, ty for all the safe spaces you've created for all of us, love you and sending you all the best forever

[@ellenfr]

"I want to sweat and dance and cry in a club" !!!! I feel that. thanks for a wonderful series, I loved all of it

[@dissatisfactionchron]

Thank you so much for these 14 days/vlogs! I was looking forward to them everyday! x

[@chrisi8605]

the monarch butterfly is significant. the creator of the universe loves you and is sending a message

[@marietarumora]

I could write a whole essay to you but also one simple genuine thank you rachel

[@ayeshabashir2808]

Looked forward to these videos every day, made me feel visible and alive and I felt when you said you're there for ppl in your life all the time. Sometimes it is too much. You gotta put yourself first and I am doing that for the first time too. You can too Rachel, it is ok to do that. Lots of love from Pakistan.

[@oliviaek2659]

Thank you so much for these videos, for your openness. Watching your videos have been such a growing, reflecting, calming experience. Especially this one; it came at the right time for me after a truly awful day. I don’t even feel sad that these videos are ending, which I thought I would. I know I can look back on them whenever I want and I guess that’s the beauty (and the ugly) of the internet. I’m feeling heard and in one way, healed. Thank you

[@SimplyCrazyCoww]

the way this entire series made me cry

[@sunshinesparklesx]

thank you for this beautiful series ❤️ i eagerly awaited each one and your videos not only inspire me to express my creativity more but also make me more appreciative of everything while also feeling encouraged to embrace new experiences! wishing you all the best and always look forward to the next one x

[@sKITTLESADDICT11]

I’ve been searching for your channel the past 2 hours bc I lost ur channel but im so happy I found it PLS

[@lattebomb]

just by being you, you've taught us so much

[@alexieramos8110]

ily raych ♡ thank you for allowing us to grow together with u. to the best version of ourselves! see u on warde xx

[@shatakshisharma9397]

love your style of vlogs, it's unmatched!

[@nadineescobar6634]

Unmatched👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

[@teresapham9954]

So eloquently said and documented. Thankful for sharing these intimate moments with us and being our “online older sister”. Until next time, Ranch ❣️

[@hay.leyosborne]

❤️ you Rachel! watching u grow, feel and explore these past 14 days have been so beautiful!! thank u for sharing w us

[@CaCO3Kate]

Happy to be your 101st like and always proud to be part of your community x

[@neleseyfarth5385]

already feelin nostalgic

[@KatrinaLainsbury]

I love this version of Rachel!! Thank you!!!

[@eileenahn3452]

truly needed this series - finally got to binge watch this was so so special and beautiful thanks raych ❣️❣️

[@mantwatoka669]

Thanks for taking us on your journey, definitely going to miss this.

[@jmavenido923]

you don't know how much you inspire me to live fully 💜

[@nadineescobar6634]

Same, well said

[@danyacastaneda1160]

Thank you for immortalizing these memories of yours that some how feel like mine and in a way they are because every time I revisit these videos I’ll remember where and who i was when watching. Thank you for always inspiring me and I’ll try to be as open as you seemed to be in these vlogs. Love you Raych ❣️

[@beatrixubsdell1635]

This vlog series was so beautiful Rachel , thank you

[@JunUdan]

Thanks for the beautiful series really enjoying watching all the videos !!! 💕💕💕

[@Samantha-rg5mc]

thank you for blessing us with the vlogs once again 🥰 p.s. that butterfly is actually a gulf fritillary sincerely, a bug girl

[@Grace-bx6xk]

thank you rachel 💗 your vulnerability. the way you film and edit. your taste. the community you’ve initiated. all together, something so special. it almost feels like you’ve created a niche genre of YT vids - yours being the blueprint. not meant for copying, just inspiration. no one could ever successfully copy you anyway. that being said .... where is the black stretchy skirt from? ahahhaha i am always that bitch asking but i love your basic pieces sm. ok!! sending love and gratitude

[@Grace-bx6xk]

(i also meant to add tht ur vids are like ASMR for the soul)

[@thatschicblog]

this comment is so incredibly sweet - thank you for the kind words. the skirt is issey miyake! x

[@sophierosenblatt747]

it warms my heart watching you do your makeup next to leika, just to have that companionship. ;(

[@BelenfromLB]

Thanks for taking me along for the day.

[@emileecwen]

Thank you so much Rachel!!!!! We’re gonna live the best version of ourselves during this & after this pandemic! Thank you for being online always, and I wish your vibes is always so chilling and calming. Stay healthy & happy :) xoxo

[@evrythngiseverything]

Thanks Rachel! These videos were so beautiful to watch. You're always so inspiring and I love all your videos. Take care 💖

[@Shafi.Islam_]

Nooo I'm so glad I discovered your channel Rachel, you're so real and don't give an eff , you're just you,

[@magali.9096]

this has been so beautiful , thank you for sharing