Alcohol and Drug Addict interview-Calvin

[@RobM199]

Absolutely appreciate how tough it is to replay the worst moments in your life to a stranger and in turn millions of others. And whilst I appreciate that, as a man who's raised two step children, going out and getting blind drunk doesn't result in you committing a sex crime against a minor.

[@ryanjavierortega8513]

@Superduper Starwars Stopmotion Channel!(and more!) wow. You mean like Lewis Carrol?

[@balladofathinman0]

Hey Rob. i hope this guy can work out his past trauma from not being in a stable home and live his best life.

[@pitsmittengurrl5249]

Thousands not millions. None the less.

[@drbeavis4211]

No shit Sherlock, most people have never done something like that blackout drunk. I don't think he was trying to make a defense, but he told the truth which is more then most.

[@Goodkidjr43]

@@drbeavis4211 False. Many people have done WORSE. Murder, rape, robbery, DUI manslaughter, etc. Please, get out more....

[@mandyylolo]

Drugs and alcohol are no excuse for touching or exposing yourself to a child. there’s something much worse there. Not every drug addict or alcoholic harm or abuse children. He seems to think he knows it all but he doesn’t realize how sick he is.

[@Yassin.ibn.farouk]

Also he was 21 years old and was living with a single mom and her four kids? Why not rent a room in a house with a bunch of other young adults? Sounds sketchy because men who abuse kids often prey on vulnerable single moms to get closer to their kids. So it seems premeditated.

[@drbeavis4211]

Explanation =/= excusing.

[@brandtcarroll9316]

Yeah I stopped watching after this comment. Didn't get to that part yet. Thanks for the heads up.

[@Goodkidjr43]

False. Drug dealers do much more damage to children by getting their parents addicted. Basic logic.

[@astridlabodhisattva1098]

Traumatic head injury at 14 most likely sealed his fate.

[@BrookieCookie317]

His brain injury made him a victim but his sexual assault made him an abuser. A lot of people are never held accountable. I’m glad her mother protected her.

[@nhlibra]

What kind of mother rents out space to someone when they have 4 young children still living at home? She knowingly took that RISK. I was a single mother after my divorce. That was a 'No-Go for me.

[@hattyburrow716]

He is accountable , he accepted what he did and how awfully he behaved. He’s trying to do better and live well in a world that confounds him

[@RLomoterenge]

@@hattyburrow716 Gray area. I’ve been black out dunk to the point that if someone asked me to shoot myself I would do it. The brain is on cruise control at that point

[@s_photo1385]

What are you talking about protected her? She was gone while a grown man was I her home Molesting her daughter . Is that what YOU call protection? What a joke

[@briangrussing9327]

Seems we need to be known, unconditionally loved, part of something...not further confined by overly generalistic labels applied by folks who are barely self aware. Something about stones & glass houses/judge not for they know not. The state usually presses charges in case like these, regardless of parents, as parents tend to be protective of themselves, NOT their progeny...another difficult truth to swallow

[@lisadee1623]

Calvin - I appreciate you sharing your difficult story and wish you healing in your path forward but if truly want to be accountable I suggest you replace the euphemism “endangered the welfare of” with “molested”. She was a child, you were an adult, you molested her. Don’t sugar coat it.

[@rosamoreno4794]

Accountability

[@remywhipcord9996]

Facts

[@lewkirk821]

Exactly.

[@JuliaMarieH]

Doesn’t that term imply actual sexual acts? Sounds like he sexually harassed her, which is still terrible but not the same thing

[@lisadee1623]

@@JuliaMarieH He said he placed her hand on his privates and is now a registered sex offender as a result.

[@shutupashh]

He’s more focused on his “homies” weird suicides than what he did to a child. He has tremendous victim mentality. There’s holes in this story and he truly needs that proper diagnosis asap along with a long long long journey of working on himself. He’s not well at all… i do wish him well. put in that work.

[@Nikki-sf6bs]

This is the best comment on the thread. I hope he really gets honest with himself. He kept saying over and over again that he was, but he is so far from it. Thanks for putting how I feel into words.

[@nancykingston4526]

Exactly this. The underlying tone of his video is that he’s a victim.

[@terywetherlow7970]

Distraction. Easier than solving one's own problems. I do it even at an elder age. Ugh.

[@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405]

Sounds like he repeating what he hears at the AA meetings...

[@EnDependance123]

He’s damn chomo

[@dejuhvu1793]

Come tf on. He was with a single mother for a reason. He targeted them and decided to sexually assault a minor. Alcohol doesn’t turn you into a registered sex offender alone

[@angelofdeath275]

yeah I'm tired of people thinking this. alcohol doesnt turn people into perverts. he had thoughts about it and alcohol lowered his inhibition

[@Alex10daysago]

@@angelofdeath275 how dare you. He was mourning the loss of his homies.

[@rong5940]

@@Alex10daysago lol

[@masacatior]

@@Alex10daysago may the inner homie be with you 🖖

[@Yassin.ibn.farouk]

Thank you! I thought the exact same thing! Why was he living with a single mom and her four kids in the first place unless he was planning to molest the kids! No 21 year old man would just rent a room with a single mom, that's sketchy. He put himself in that situation for a reason! Glad he got charged!!

[@anthonyloconte7835]

I am absolutely livid at what he did to a 12 year old. Are you freaking kidding me? Dude you committed the one crime I think is worse than murder. You damaged a child. You will not be forgiven for that.

[@lewkirk821]

And he seems to have a victim complex on top of it.

[@anthonyloconte7835]

@@btnhl I'll agree a bit there. Drunken stupidity.

[@niceguydmm]

Agreed. But this person I think knows it was wrong and telling people don't do all this and its bad... Right or wrong it may help someone else not do this. He said please get help before you hurt someone.

[@anthonyloconte7835]

@@niceguydmm agreed

[@brits8426]

He’s so fixated on “helping one person” but he clearly has not helped himself... it seems to me this idea of helping one person is almost a penance for his sex offending ..

[@rezzin7620]

I keep my circle vwry small he says..probably because generally speaking folks are not very keen on associating with child predators

[@slayz1515]

This is the worst victim mentality I have seen in a while. Dude needs serious help and to take some accountability. He did all of this including assaulting a minor because of other peoples actions. It won’t change until he changes

[@a.wanderer5006]

He overestimated what he had to say for sure.

[@bun-e9361]

Making excuses when he assaulted that little girl. Disgusting.

[@LostSox]

Lol. I bet if that bit of information was omitted, he’d be the sympathetic figure ppl would send fake platitudes his way.

[@angelofdeath275]

"my lowest point" dude stop, he says this so often its weird

[@nhlibra]

@@LostSox AGREED. That particular comment brings out The Witch Hunt personalities.

[@pitsmittengurrl5249]

This man needs to help himself. He still has a long ways to go. He's so focused on his story helping at least just one person. That one person needs to be him. He can do the work and save himself with some meds and trauma therapy. He's deeply disturbed and I hope he follows through on his word.

[@anthonyloconte7835]

Excellent reply.

[@tonysslime7633]

I've never heard a sex offender admit guilt. Literally every one of them has a sob story. I honestly don't believe a word this guy said.

[@thematriarchy2075]

Is there something that you would never tell a soul about because you know there is zero understanding for what you did? It is not rocket science.

[@tonysslime7633]

@@thematriarchy2075 No. Before you can heal you have to admit the truth, especially about yourself.

[@DR3WSAL3M]

How did he not admit to it?

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@tonysslime7633 Well, he doesn't owe you anything, and besides that, he is actually sitting on that chair telling the world about it.

[@tonysslime7633]

@@DR3WSAL3M by claiming it was a drunken accident. I'm positive the police report tells a different story. It always does.

[@absoluteauto4]

I grew up about 10 minutes away from Spring lake where he grew up. He's right there was a time span years ago where young kids were jumping in front of trains. For a while it seemed like every other week.

[@EuleneWages4644]

Goodness 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@amythomas2866]

This guy…. This guy takes the cake. He keeps saying all the ‘right’ things but doesn’t actually seem to own any of them. How are we supposed to believe him when he doesn’t take actual accountability for any of his actions? Everything he did was someone else’s fault or the product of things that happened to him. If realization ever hits him, I pray it’s with a 2x4. Lord.

[@amythomas2866]

The most honest thing he has ever said, probably in his entire life, is “I don’t know essentially who I am”.

[@gwensstepbro4966]

I don't want to hop on this comment and fully agree but here I am.

[@SouthernGyrl]

He dont need us to believe him...who are you? That's whats wrong with world constantly kicking people while their down

[@55linka]

he keeps saying it all the time!....whole the interview he says how horrible and broken he is! He said how it is his fault that he failed at sports career...I think we are watching two different interviews!

[@gwensstepbro4966]

@@55linka he doesn't take true ownership in my opinion. And he forced a 12 year old girl touch him. The empathy I have is very thin here.

[@AH-st1my]

It's so easy to couch analyze this man. I wish him well, but most importantly I hope the young lady he assaulted will get help. This is something that will be with her the whole of her life.

[@TaxMan1776]

@@thematriarchy2075 ... hello M.A.P.

[@TaxMan1776]

@@thematriarchy2075 lol, as a survivor of abuse, you say there is no telling if having a grown man force a 12y.o. to grab his Johnson would create trama. Perse Ahahahahaha If it quacks and looks like a duck...

[@nhlibra]

@Andrew It's never ending with people like that. Very immature.

[@Dpurple28]

@Andrew wow your delusional if you think him making a young girl just about to hit puberty hold his Johnson in her hands isn't going to be a traumatic experience for her, that is going to affect her for the rest of her life.

[@thehazardmethod8325]

@@TaxMan1776 oh I didn’t watch the whole thing I know he’s an alcoholic but what drugs did he doo

[@lisasheridan5482]

Dude stop worrying about other people until you've healed yourself. Put on your own oxygen mask first. You can't save others when your in the same sinking boat.

[@kurdishgirl6361]

So he was drunk, went up to use the bathroom and „accidentally“ fell next to a child and „accidentally“ made her touch his Johnson and blames it on the alcohol. Nah man. I feel for many people on this platform but I have zero sympathy when it comes to harming children in any way. There’s absolutely no excuse for that. Some mistakes can’t be erased.

[@Nepthu]

I just heard that part. What a strange story, like it makes any sense.

[@thehomefront1905]

Agree

[@smitty_863]

He didn't say accidentally at all. He blantly said he put her hand there. He knew he fucked up.

[@rob1996ization]

He admitted he did it and was wrong. He never Said he accidentally did it

[@misse2013]

3:40 When he says "I wound up endangering the welfare of a minor" That feels a lot like saying 'I accidentally..." because he's distancing himself; not taking full responsibility of it.

[@lilaworley8935]

Blames alcohol on molesting a child. Nope. No excuse. Introspection is hard.

[@girlinthesouth850]

Absolutely. I'm a recovering alcoholic, and I would not, and have not, EVER done anything like that!!!

[@lilaworley8935]

@Andrew it actually is that simple. if you ever got so drunk that you walk into a childs bedroom in the middle of the night and have them touch you.... You deserve the charge and you deserve to carry that label forever. Nobody that finds themselves in that specific position is a decent person deep down. The alcohol is a GREAT excuse though.

[@connorp5142]

@@lilaworley8935 exactly, lots of us have trauma and that’s why we self medicate and become addicted. But it’s something entirely to pass that trauma onto someone else through abuse.

[@accuser_of_the_brethren7816]

Being "black out drunk" medically qualifies as your brain being unable to form new memories leading to the sheer panic and dumbfounded suprise when friends or relatives (or in this case, a child or their parent) describe what you did the night before. Some people refer to this as "beer fear" and will usually avoid taking responsibility for their actions because of this. A majority of abusers and abuse occurs when the perpetrator premeditates the act by engaging the victim or cornering them in order to isolate them away from any parent or authority figures for long enough to complete the act. The only reason I know this is because I'm a victim myself who's never even considered or had any urge to pass down that same life long sentence of trauma onto another soul extending the chain of abuse for generations to come. What I'm having a hard time with is the excuses that seem to underline every issue or problem that's ever occurred in this young man's life. The only time he takes ownership of his actions are to be some strange type of martyr for future generations. This is one of the most misguided "taxicab confessions" I've ever seen and with each positive ideation of "helping others" is conveyed, the harder it is to believe it's coming from a genuine place and not a reason to have a lesser opinion of him.

[@lilaworley8935]

Spot on. Agreed.

[@ivaloowilson3524]

Absolutely agree with you ✨

[@accuser_of_the_brethren7816]

Thanks, I never want to come off as "preachy" because if their's one thing I'm not, it's perfect. However, the older I get, the more I realize the only way to let my conscious rest in order to get on or even get over my past mistakes is to take ownership of them in a completely honest and humble way. Not "humble bragging" or "blame shifting/gaslighting" like I get the sense is going on with this gentlemen. I can't imagine how difficult it is for someone that's had a past like his to even begin to open up to the world without firstly, putting his convictions (the legal kind) out front in order to be the one to shape the narrative to his liking. Instead of someone finding out after the fact and then calling him out for it, which I imagine has happened to him a few times and that's why he came out with it so soon but also described it in a way as if he was "sacrificing the opinion of his character" for future "would be" offenders. It almost feels like the other abusers that Marks interviewed seem to have a bit more validity in their stories when they take ownership of what they've done without any excuses or "jumping on the grenade" for us.

[@williamharrison8285]

I played hockey and went to school with Calvin, I watch this channel all the time, pretty wild seeing someone you know.

[@samhatch1657]

Was bro always a liar?

[@fieryharmonicadude2203]

Did he trip over coming out of the shower and land his dick in someone's hand?

[@Seajunkie]

Haha I know it has to happen… Wild, Im waiting to see!

[@oneeks5908]

I honestly feel the one time he was a predator to the 12 year old was probably not the only time this has happened. Maybe I’m wrong but getting blackout drunk isn’t an excuse for such a terrible act. I’m having a hard time with this interview this morning.

[@lewispotton3581]

I’ve been black out drunk 1000s of times never nonced no kids

[@wwalkerproductions]

he doesn't even act like it was a big deal.

[@darrensanimalsreptilesfish30]

Agree and disagree if you’re truly blacked out that isn’t you. The key would be to take accountability and never hurt anyone again. Stop drinking, pay a consequence whatever. Having a hard time with any forgiveness as well

[@balladofathinman0]

Hey just a heads up: often the people featured look at the comments so please be kind to strangers on the internet.

[@wwalkerproductions]

@@balladofathinman0 good I hope he sees all these negative comments

[@wormsnake1]

Calvin you said at the top of this video if “I can help one person by sharing about my story it was worth it”…well you just helped me. Thank you.x

[@wormsnake1]

@@kalenjinqueenb So it doesn’t matter he’s trying to help himself? Trying to help others? Trying to bring awareness to lots of serious, difficult issues? The fact he is telling his story is a lot braver than you clearly don’t give him credit for. If we ignore topics of discussion we can never learn or live forward.x

[@ryanjavierortega8513]

“You’re a wasted resource, if you’re not being the best version of yourself.” Such a warm & compassionate stance

[@TaxMan1776]

Compassion. Lol

[@marquesjacobs1824]

Thats weird that i read this comment right when he said that

[@pamdelaney5149]

Nope... that's BS. Treat others with love and kindness...respect their boundaries. A wasted space is someone who never learns how. Sad as that may be.

[@TaxMan1776]

@@pamdelaney5149 except this guy in the video, don't treat him with love and compassion. He doesn't deserve it

[@pamdelaney5149]

@@TaxMan1776 Sadly, friend, I couldn't even watch past the first ten minutes. He lost me. I just have to humbly thank God His mercy far exceeds mine.

[@blueshirt3165]

I really hope he gets his head straightened out enough to realize that "endangerment" is not the core issue of what he did to that child, and to have a better understanding of what's brought him to this point. Having yr own trauma can make it hard to process the gravity of your impact on others, lord do I hope he gets it all together

[@MJae204]

I’ve watched countless your videos Mark. I’m not sure if I’ve commented before but there’s something about this one. It’s like my ears refuse to swallow what he’s saying. I can’t help but think of the 12 year old girl who was his victim. I hope she’s healing. That she’s getting help so she’s healthy in her future. That she doesn’t carry her pain throughout her life and that her lowest point is no doubt what he did to her and that she knows he’s the dirty one, that he’s the monster, and that his excuses are not her’s to validate or hold. I hope she’s loved and learning to love herself.

[@mama.ashley]

This guy talked about being “honest,” but the whole time he came across fake!!!!

[@willownest4075]

I felt the same. It was an odd feeling as if he was trying to guide the audience to something that didn’t match with what he was saying or feeling. For a second I almost thought he made all of this story up. But at the same time some people have trouble expressing themselves. I feel so terribly bad for that girl and hope she heals from what he did to her.

[@a.wanderer5006]

If any one reads comments before watching this one is worth skipping. He starts out saying, "I molested a child, life has been really hard." 🤮

[@Coconutoilcrazy]

Here is something that is perplexing, yet I see how things turned out. I know a family. Mom and dad both druggies. Grandma too(granny held a job, got her kids into the drugs) Dad went to prison for theft, stealing to support the habit. They had 3 children, the oldest got a job at the age of 16,Told the employer his life. Said employer took him under his wing. He is now very successful, part owner in the same business he worked at age 16. Big brother influence over younger sisters resulted in both becoming very successful in their careers. All have college degrees. Moral of the story. One man( the boss that took the oldest under his wing) changed the lives of 3 children that were raised in a horrific environment. Not only those 3 but their families as well. As Mark said in one show, the adults cannot always be helped, if the kids can be saved , it will changed the direction of them and their children.

[@dekayallday1]

100%

[@adamisaac4685]

May you be free from danger May you have mental happiness May you have physical happiness May you have ease of well being.

[@ninidecoss2633]

are you directing this to the 12 year old girl?

[@adamisaac4685]

Anyone and everyone.

[@BuddhatheRockstar]

It took guts to lay it all out there for strangers to criticize and judge. Still not sure why individuals feel it is necessary to insult people especially when they don't like themselves. Calvin deserves to find some bits of peace in life....hope that happens.

[@Rubbishandpancakes]

Lol ooookay, sympathizer. Most us do judge child molesters. You keep on your high horse.

[@loiscassels8966]

If he was blackout drunk, how does he remember the sexual assault?

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

Calvin, thank you for your honesty. Really tough too admit to what you have done. I will not attack you for that.

[@TaxMan1776]

He should be

[@maureent8653]

Mark… I received my shirts yesterday, love them, especially the long sleeve one. Will be awesome for the PA winters here!! Can’t wait to represent this amazing channel!!

[@EuleneWages4644]

Didnt no about shirts

[@maureent8653]

@@EuleneWages4644 mark puts out a list at least once a year about buying shirts.

[@EuleneWages4644]

@@maureent8653 thanks dear

[@jamesc5144]

Hey Calvin! As a fellow person that takes lithium and ssri's for depression and a poly drug addict, using cannabis can cause psychosis in combination with ssri's and lithium. I definitely experienced this and quit smoking a year ago. Finally got relief from depression and suicidal ideation. There isn't a lot of studies but it's a real thing. Thanks for sharing!

[@rezzin7620]

It makes alot of sense not to use a combination of psycotropic medication and grass...what a concept, not exactly rocket science

[@angelofdeath275]

@@rezzin7620 there are very stupid people where this simple concept might as well be unfortunately

[@ryanjavierortega8513]

Valuable information, thanks for putting it out there

[@mike7984]

Mushrooms can help.

[@mike7984]

@@rezzin7620 thanks for the positive input…

[@juliejohnson3508]

Calvin, I’m so sorry for all you have been through. Thank you for being honest about the trauma that has affected you and the trauma you caused to another. There is always hope while you’re breathing. Please keep living, don’t give up! Seek out the help you need! Don’t stop fighting for your life, it’s precious as are you!

[@thefitzs]

I agree completely. He didn't have to share the story of his drunken molestation of the child. He is trying to lay it all out and be accountable.

[@GrammerOfficer]

It's everybody and everything else fault. He's playing the victim here...he's sober..maybe...but he's holding on the the mindset of an addict.

[@TaxMan1776]

Lol @ victim. He assaulted a 12 year old. He is an abuser and predator. Glad to know you think that's okay.

[@GrammerOfficer]

@@TaxMan1776 I definitely didn't mean it that way I meant to say "playing victim"

[@samhatch1657]

I really hope you can all see through people like this...

[@wigglywrigglydoo]

I quit drinking for two years. I took up drinking again after having been through narcissistic abuse. I am drinking again, and I think I can stop. But I still drink, and I don't know why I keep forgetting I want to quit alcohol. I will appreciate if anybody can help me by sharing how they got through it the second time around

[@tinam761]

Try some AA meetings… I’m sure you would be able to get support from people that have been there. A sponsor would be quite helpful. Give a meeting a try… and keep going until you find help. Don’t give up … you did it once proof YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN! 💕

[@trixienuno528]

Tina M is right. AA can definitely change your life.

[@sjtdxitditsitdurzirxur5926]

Anyone else cringing every time he says "my homies"?

[@alyssawashington1493]

yes x1000000

[@jrahn66]

Yes. Lol. The word sounds weird enough but then listening to him use it sounds even more bizarre.

[@sjtdxitditsitdurzirxur5926]

@Andrew How awful of me to take the piss out of a pedo

[@brown958]

For sure my homie

[@mike2462]

Came here to say that. Had to switch it off.

[@sophiayork704]

Sorry but the last thing that should come to anyone’s mind when they’re drunk or under the influence of ANYTHING should be to abuse a child (or anyone) in any way. If that crosses your mind drunk or sober, something is deeply wrong with you. Period.

[@thosewerethedays5712]

Is the 12 year old girl really that innocent? We don’t know the full story. Perhaps she seduced this young man? Not all children are innocent, some have dirty minds themselves.

[@Simcard420]

@@thosewerethedays5712 someone needs to check your hard drive

[@brendaosullivan5050]

@@thosewerethedays5712 what the actual fuck?

[@sophiayork704]

@@brendaosullivan5050 my thoughts exactly. Sick in the head

[@Rochelle721]

Good morning SWU fam'! Its just after 3:00 a.m. here in Northern California. If youre reading this, my hope is that you are safe, comfortable & well. Thank you to those that continue to show up, it feels nice to be a part of something. After all, we are in this together ❤ Good Vibes & Mad Love sent Your way!

[@Gram72534]

Hi Roc, 4:14 am in colorful Colorado, I hope you have a good Tuesday!

[@coledenton4889]

Hey Rochelle :)

[@Rochelle721]

@@Gram72534 Hey Gram, good to see you! I most certainly will, & hope that you do too

[@emmanuelmartinez6210]

Morning from SoCal :)

[@Rochelle721]

@@as_creates Good morning 🌷😎💕

[@frankparoutoflovefci571]

Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for choosing sobriety. Congratulations on keeping it up. Kudos.

[@frankparoutoflovefci571]

@Superduper Starwars Stopmotion Channel!(and more!) I disagree . Have a good day.

[@616CardBoard]

Mark knows what’s really going on here. This guy seems like he wants to help other people but he really needs to help himself. That’s the person he needs to help. Honestly I hope he receives the help soon. Then he can feel better about himself and then maybe later down the road help someone. Peace & Love ✌🏽

[@thehomefront1905]

Thousands and thousands of single mothers and fathers are struggling to pay the bills and keep the family going as best as they can, parents that go without food to make sure their kids have everything they need for school, but we never know who these people are because they're to proud to ask for help, these are the people I want to help.

[@ryanjofre]

Amen

[@strawberrysweets5323]

I see it time and time again with substance abusers, they are stuck in the mindset that nothing is there fault and they are always the victim so they do nothing to change. He’s stuck in victim mentality, take some responsibility!

[@dekayallday1]

Y’all talk about taking accountability. Him sharing the worst part of his actions PUBLICLY is taking accountability. Or is that not enough for you? Maybe him taking his own life is accountability for y’all? SMH 🤦🏻‍♂️

[@aaaxthelm]

TBI is an incredibly slow healing process and made even slower when mental illness is present. You are doing well with your current path. Thanks for sharing your story. I believe you will help someone

[@ivaloowilson3524]

He needs to be accountable for his actions. And what he said about his mother really upset me. I feel sorry for his mother! He's needs to grow up and take responsibility for his actions! That poor 12 year old that he traumatized.

[@billscannell93]

There's no excuse for the 12-year-old incident, but I can't judge about the mother from this short interview. There are some rotten parents out there.

[@manuelalcaraz9305]

I think it takes so much courage to speak about your past, especially if it went like this. I believe he’s keeps saying about helping anyone that sees this I think it’s cuz he doesn’t want anyone going through wat he did. I think he is trying to help himself but at the same time he doesn’t want ppl going through any of this.

[@dekayallday1]

💯 agree.

[@ShaunS0l0]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@Nepthu]

The BS is thick. It's clogging my ears.

[@suggadeg]

Dude, I’m from a small town on Long Island, and want to know how many people I grew up with died from heroin related deaths? Or deaths in general? Drugs really messed my generation up.

[@skully0078]

The impact of so many suicides around a person will tend to "normalize" it enough to make it the option over seeking professional help. Sometimes the help you find doesn't click. It's ok to admit it's not working and you move until you find the therapy that works for you. Honestly will set you free and sharing your story is important to help yourself and others. I'm not a doctor but I've been through it and still working through mental and physical injuries. I've found, for myself, as a once super athletic person that lost my dream of going pro, going to the gym will turn your focus on being your best for you so you can give back. The gym, yoga, biking....get back into life and into you. If you don't take care of yourself, nobody else will.

[@55linka]

Form what I understand it is not as easy as goign to see a therapist, espeically in the USA and if you are working minimum wage job...those are very expensive services and many therapists might say no to sex offender with brian injury and suicidal tendencies. I was told no by a few and I only have suicidal thoughts. I was also inna very toxic and damaging therapeutic relationship.....trusting somebody else where all you know if betray and broken attachment is VERY hard.

[@skully0078]

@@55linka You are right, it's not easy at all. Giving up on yourself is too easy and easier for others to give up on you whilst taking your energy.

[@nhlibra]

@Skully, Very thoughtful comment. There's a lot of trash comments for Calvin to read through, until he finds a positive one such as yours. 💜

[@skully0078]

@@nhlibra Thank you. Before I get roasted by anyone, I do want to say that I am a survivor of violent sexual assaults, yes plural, as well as mental struggles with depression. All I wanted to hear was the truth from them so I could move on. I never got that.

[@55linka]

@@skully0078 i am very sorry to hear that. Sadly we rearly get closure, even somebody confirming they did what they did is rare. This is why I think it is brave of him to say it openly knowing how many people might see it. At least that....so many abusers blame the victim

[@marydonovan4174]

This country is just horrific.

[@jrahn66]

A lot of times molesters were molested themselves. I’m not giving him a pass on this by any means. It’s disgusting. But I see holes in the story where Calvin has avoided talking about his childhood in semi-depth.

[@balladofathinman0]

The ability to 'persist' in the mental health world is so key 20:49. I needed this interview! Thanks Mark, Calvin.

[@TimjanT]

Wish you all the best, Calvin. We need to tear down facades and stigmatization and youre honesty helps. Keep on keeping on!

[@justoffcenteradmin8305]

He’s not lying about those suicides .. googled it, the suicide deaths by train is 8 people, with noted impact to the community. Cal is troubled & he knows that. I applaud his ability to put down the drink, a step towards the life of meaning he seeks. Next/ therapy. I hope Calvin follows his own advice .. keep at it.

[@dekayallday1]

More people should like your comment. Unfortunately, there’s a bunch of ppl here who are talking about “taking accountability” without understanding, nor even trying to express what that is…

[@Jamali31748]

@@dekayallday1 right on! We are pf the same thinking.

[@amandahammond5061]

If he says "homies" one more time I'm gonna scream!

[@gez9145]

😂

[@felirotten4353]

Butter people up with a sob story and then vaguely mention how you "accidentally" ended up exposing yourself to a 12 yr old.

[@dovegoddess1100]

He didn't just expose himself...he forced the child's hand on his genitalia. I wouldn't be surprised if that's just the time he got CAUGHT.

[@EuleneWages4644]

👍🏻👍🏻

[@rainy2day]

I am sending healing vibes to everyone involved.

[@ericgil1266]

I mean , at least he was honest. He's sharing his story and you can take it for what it's worth.

[@daniellynch1980]

Tricks on a razor scooter? At least now we know you are completely full of it.

[@ericgil1266]

@@daniellynch1980 😐

[@rubymeagher1005]

Can’t figure this out. Wish him well and grace to go on

[@Summerbreeze1977]

I'm doubting that was the only time...only time he got caught.

[@SummerRaeFL]

What mother of 4 kids let’s a blackout drunk live in their home!? She obviously needed help, a loose woman with issues. Give the man credit for coming on here & telling his truth. Sending ❤️💪🙏

[@lewkirk821]

Child abusers will often find families like this and get the parents to trust them. It’s called “grooming” and often happens with families in difficult circumstances.

[@starringshannon8163]

I absolutely have faith in this guy. His answers are real, raw. His self-awareness is light years ahead of most. You got this!

[@chelsea2109]

Damn… I feel like he played Mark. To get this interview and possibly $. He’s trying to say all the right things. Stop saying your doing this to help others. He’s trying to tell everyone what to do. These aren’t what these interviews are. We want to hear your story. He’s preaching like he’s done so much. Be humble my friend

[@maggiebrooks2550]

He lost me at the part when he mentioned the sex offense.

[@gaoda1581]

0:57 once he described his "younger sister" as being one of the people who raised him, it was like foreshadowing for his glaring lack of self control and accountability

[@ChevereJones]

Noticed this too

[@laurieallen7536]

Calvin Thank-you for sharing your story

[@thomasminarchickjr.7355]

It’s crazy to think he’s “working on himself” when he hasn’t seen a therapist since he was very young. He clearly would rather help someone else than deal with himself. He needs to be honest with himself about his issues before he can improve upon them. He can’t move forward without dealing with the past. Telling his mother to repeatedly kill herself through texts and then 30 seconds later saying “she’s my mother and I love her” doesn’t add up.

[@astridlabodhisattva1098]

I believe he stated he attended A.A.

[@thomasminarchickjr.7355]

@@astridlabodhisattva1098 that’s not therapy. That’s a lot of people telling “war stories” and a lot of people there by court order. He needs real therapy, weekly for years to get past this stuff. He needs someone to explain that he needs to take responsibility for his actions. He blames traumas, homies, parents, scooter accident and suicides of people in his town making him “an alcoholic” and molesting a child. All of the AA in the world won’t fix his problem because his problem isn’t drinking. Not saying he should drink, but the alcohol didn’t cause this.

[@curiousmind6472]

I don’t trust anything about this guy. Seems very vacant with a serious personality disorder that he has avoided diagnosis for a long time. His talk about helping others sounds like a good story, but not necessarily true.

[@brittanyleblanc910]

The person your story needs to help is you Calvin. See that therapist, stay sober.

[@amandahammond5061]

He's definitely making excuses for everything that he has done. Everything that you've done wrong is somebody else's fault well guess what it was your fault when you made that poor little girl touch your nasty self

[@barbaraellison1095]

He’s a liar.

[@Triple7.7.7.]

I don't believe he's sincere at all. I hear the words he's saying but he lacks conviction in any of them. I'm just not feeling any accountability on his part.

[@DrewCantDrive]

The way he told that story seemed off. Instead of saying what he to the kid he said "I admitted". Was kinda weird

[@jrahn66]

“Homies”? That’s still a word? It sounds weird coming from this guy.

[@tinam761]

Still a word …

[@user-ol9qz1vm7z]

Thank You Calvin to share your story💞 I'm an alcoholic, some substance use also before your interwiew I seeked out help for ten years.

[@user-ol9qz1vm7z]

Hope You have, and Mark You too, summer is the best yet😎🙏🤗🤠

[@user-ol9qz1vm7z]

And I am very good looking lady. So don't hate the haters, You are strong ❣️😎🤗🤠

[@bigfunky4976]

I’m glad I don’t need help because this interview definitely wouldn’t have helped me any.

[@aurimasgudauskas8197]

we still saying alcohol and drugs as if is alcohol is not drug

[@jww732]

As a Jersey Shore native , we got Lakewood first on the channel and now Monmouth County ! 🙏

[@Madison_96]

Love your videos! ♥️

[@TheGoddessonfire]

Rich kids is the problem in his town and many towns he’s mentioned, all multi million dollar homes and entitled kids.

[@bergdetroit]

One of those kids was our friend who was 15 years old who killed himself in front of the train. No money, 1 parent, and his mom died from cancer when he was young. He dabbled with drugs and alcohol as well. It was a traumatic and shocking thing that happened with our peers in our town. Dark times and we were all in high school. We were just young kids. Having to do a moment of silence for years in our morning high school classes. Suicides happen here till this day and it’s actually haunting. It effects everyone deeply and still does every damn day. Your insensitive comments aren’t welcomed and thank people like this for being brave and sharing their story.

[@salad3256]

This guy is unbearable, sorry mark. Your 30 dude grow up

[@Nepthu]

@Andrew You didn't punctuate the end of your sentence.

[@Nepthu]

@Andrew I knew you had more to say. Your lack of punctuation implied it.

[@RiggedandReady]

@Andrew his your/you're mishap didn't obscure the meaning either.

[@kimberlysmith7311]

❤ Yeah when A helps B it always helps A the most.. When you get off phone with hotlines you are still at same spot,, alone.. connection thru relationships is everything. Conection is opposite of addiction.. Holding a resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the one you resent to die., but it only hurts you.. All this took me years to process. Thank you very much for sharing your story honestly. To me it sounds like the biggest thing you don't know is that you are not your ego. What I mean is I think you are confusing your history and labels for who you are. You said you don't know who you are...You are so much more then any of this stuff.. I have recovered from addiction, severe mental health conditions brought on by childhood trauma and I had lots of therapy but nothing ever helped me as much as realizing that I was IDENTIFYING with my history and labels. I wish I had the right words for you., because your trying to help others so I want to help you. The audio books 📚 The Power of Now and The Untethered Soul helped me more than years of therapy. Wishing you the best. Ps. I don't think you need a doctor. I think you need to heal and just love and be loved. ✌☮💞💨💨💨

[@tommytkaczyk8688]

Hey Calvin, your honesty is huge , more guts then a lot of people , only help is in the Father , we all need his help

[@salad3256]

Blames being a chomo on alcohol...

[@truesavings1988]

I don’t think they were wrong for giving your mama that check. PTSD is no joke. Open up to your own stuff and stop looking for reason in everything and everyone in else and you’ll start making progress.

[@undrtow0515]

Bailing on this one. Blah

[@Progenitor1979]

Why do people always call explanations 'excuses'. You don't have to like people or even accept their explanations but still, it's a different type of speech and thinking...

[@ninidecoss2633]

because his “explanation” is not valid. i have been black out drunk a million times but i would never be attracted to a 12 year old ew

[@tanielleguia303]

I have so much empathy and compassion for you. I am a paediatric Traumatic Brain Injury survivor myself. I became so dependent on alcohol later in life. I know how it feels to be looking for answers, holding yourself accountable, suicidal ideation, lack of emotional regulation and everything else that comes with TBI. It's like being in a constant battle with yourself. I'm here to say that it can get better and has for me, i can hear your commitment to healing. but it's a continual fight. Thank you for sharing your struggles here and opening yourself up in this way. Never excusing our own bad behaviour, which tends to be more common in those with Brain injuries, but we don't have to be defined by our worst moments. Just to say I can relate to so much of what you're saying.

[@TaxMan1776]

Yuck. He definitely should be judged and defined by his behavior. Stop giving scumbags a pass.

[@bradengould6643]

He not an alcoholic or drug addict he’s a SEX OFFENDER, come on mark you’ve done so good for so long man😢❤️

[@livyett9251]

Jesus loves you he died on the cross for your sins. Believe in him and you will be saved and go to heaven!

[@bellasanabria3841]

@@livyett9251 jesus isnt real

[@DrEaMsNoEviL]

@@livyett9251 shut the fuck up with that shit you weirdo

[@jonhutchinson2902]

I know a couple young people in their 20s that died from putting themselves infront of a train.. several from car accidents and numerous from drug overdose. The small town i grew up in and went to school in had all the car accident deaths. Like 7 or 8 within 5 years and another 5 in the next .few years after. It was like the town was cursed for young peoples driving and being killed. My brother was one of them. He died at age 18 . His friend was driving sad situation.

[@YourSmilingWhen]

Thanks for sharing Calvin. Most of us still don't know what we want to do for a "career" or even know what we're passionate about. One thing I've found helpful is to get out there and try new, healthy or interesting things. Take something you're slightly curious about and start learning more about it. Passion or talent is really just a pursued interest. Sounds like you're a good athlete and could benefit from continuing to say active. I'm 35 and started running for the first time about 2 years ago. Could only do 1-2 miles at first. Decided to challenge myself and go further. Learned more about how to train (go slower at first & make it fun, listen to music/podcasts). Now I'm hoping to finish my first 100 mile ultramarathon in October. It all started by getting out of my comfort zone and being consistent. You can do it man.

[@ryanjavierortega8513]

At least he’s not blaming the 12-year old…

[@liveandlearn1624]

Something’s off here ... just saying.

[@seresagunst6889]

First where can I get a T-shirt? And secondly dude everybody goes through things some worse than others but I truly believe if you can get with the right therapist that you could have a really happy life. After you work on yourself maybe you could go on to help others maybe that your calling. Stay strong! Please don’t give up.❤️

[@stephownsyourface]

I love all of your videos, Mark, but this one is unbearable! Zero accountability, “woe is me” mentality. He needs to do the work. He’s nowhere close yet.

[@kierabeauchamp8529]

💯

[@RJ-me4bz]

Nailed it BPD! Take Mark's suggestion. Learn about Borderline Personality Disorder. You are articulate and knowledgeable. With proper diagnosis and treatment your WHOLE world will change! You've got this!

[@danielle4976]

this is crazy I think you're right! I also have BPD and I've never heard anyone talk the distinctive way I do and Calvin talks just like I do. It's crazy that there are other people like me... never met anyone like me before

[@andreachilton1058]

Hi swu fam, blessings from New Zealand Tuesday nyte 10.30pm pouring down rain over here.

[@redskyatnight123]

Hay 1230 pm here in UK oi oi

[@joyn.r9588]

He says … endangered a child … no real accountability .. the trauma for that girl is not reversible and he described it as .. endangerment..with all of his bravado .. and demonstrative sighs…he is enjoying this attention which is super sick. His presentation in this interview (story) is manipulation, theatrical and calculating.. he is far from a decent person.

[@karmaahtv3424]

Yeah, Just had to pause the video for a moment to recollect, he skipped so many parts and said he admitted guilt to exposing himself to a 12 YO??? Like wait a minute what, a truly innocent person would at least acknowledge how stupid that was, or wouldn't you be pissing towards the wall even? idk.. seems contrived.

[@katherinetreiman9480]

I hope you can get the help and support you need