Alcohol and Crack Addict-Doris

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Doris, an alcohol and crack addict living in the Tenderloin in San Francisco.
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[@eveisreading]

Doris, our paths would sometimes cross on my way walking to and from Mason St. where I worked in 2019-2020. I remember one day stopping to ask if you were alright when I saw you distraught and crying. You told me about your daughter and how much you loved her. We went over to the Subway and I got you lunch. When I went into work that day before I left you, you kissed me on the cheek and told me how much it meant to you that someone asked if you were okay. This has stuck with me and I frequently have thought about how I wish I asked you more. You are a strong, beautiful and loving woman. I will stay thinking of you.

[@tomlib6794]

Thank you for sharing this

[@victoriaheuman5794]

forgive me if I do not stop because It's very hard to walk away

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Hey Eve, thanks for sharing that beautiful story! 😊💜

[@tannerjenison4667]

Don’t regret not doing enough, feel good that you put effort into making the world better and you ACTUALLY made a change for someone even if temporarily, it does so so much especially when you’re homeless n all alone n the only thing there for you is getting fucked up. You are a good person.

[@mamakakazu]

subway? you meet Bart?

[@alannarynders6322]

So much patience, Mark. Thank you for giving dignity to the silence. It is an art form in interviews and allows for the true person to speak. These docu-videos are mesmerizing and humanizing. Bless you.

[@vincekelleybank4010]

I love how Mark knows when to speak and he knows when to be silent and let the people really get in touch with their emotions. It takes a special person to be able to do what Mark does. My heart goes out to these people.

[@staybent9380]

Well said Alanna.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Beautiful comment. 😊💖

[@marlenecesarotti8468]

mark is so patient & non judgemenatal

[@paulging40]

Lp

[@myearshurtnoone1367]

this is the most important documentary series people need to see... it deserves an award...

[@latchmangle2636]

Correct..

[@wesleyAlan9179]

👍👍❤

[@jackdawkins629]

100%

[@DontTrustAnybody75]

It is very interesting and raw

[@shelltowee8629]

Na, these tells one ugly truth about the US government and our broken system. Not saying I dont agree, but it shows the true ugly side of our fucked up drug policys and lack of resources for people who truly need help, but if your a political buricrat that needs a new McLaren lord look out.

[@fin393]

Some people communicate more in their silence than most do screaming out loud. Doris is one of those people.

[@666blindrider]

Yeah, she's like me, I keep alot of things in silence 🤐. I have social anxiety, major depression. It's so hard for me to meet people that I get panic attacks. They say it's better to let it out than stuff things cause in my case, I ended up in mental hospitals crying my azz off. I cried and for the 1 time, I let everything out! And it helped me so much. God bless you! 🤗😢

[@fin393]

@@666blindrider That is good news that you found a way to release that anxiety. It's so important that you don['t let things build up and overwhelm you. I also find that it's important to do things that bring peace to your life. Essential oils in a diffuser at the end of the day, helps keep the demons at bay.

[@kirstenrae4662]

Agreed, my heart breaks for her

[@lisalangille2071]

@@666blindrider - 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉. 𝑭𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒓𝒕 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓, 𝒊 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒚 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅. 𝒊 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒄𝒆 & 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔. 𝑳𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑳𝑳𝒀 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑺𝑶 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅. 𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒇𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆, 𝒐𝒇 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒅𝒆, 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒔𝒏𝒅 𝒋𝒐𝒚. 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅; 𝑳𝒊𝒔𝒂 🙂

[@funk-n-groovin6779]

And some would never pick up on that.

[@paddlefaster]

" I feel like I failed the world by not becoming what I wanted too." Those words hit me hard, I feel the same way sometimes. I really liked her honesty and hope that she finds the happiness she deserves.

[@heidiho5179]

I feel like that too! I have always wanted to successfully help others like me. I have done some, but I’ve struggled a lot more. I hope I still have some years to do it, and to make a dent in the problem.

[@louisianarainwater]

💚💚💚

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@heidiho5179 Whatever you accomplish Counts. Having been through what you have, you have a better understanding of their needs so it's very likely you have been able to succeed where most would fail. Always keep that in mind.❤

[@marylougeorge9890]

💖💖💖

[@louisianarainwater]

@@AnneLien1987 💚💚💚

[@maureenmcconnell5592]

The smile on her face near the end when you told her she was “beautiful “ She won’t forget you Mark

[@asimagaranovic4648]

Mark is special. 🌹

[@blazefairchild465]

💕🙏🏼

[@mailainathrone8241]

💝😊💖

[@brittanylynndevries3186]

There is something very special about her… I can’t put my finger on it but she for sure is an old soul with a plethor of wisdom that sucks you in, not to mention her dry sense of humor

[@VickieVale367]

I love this interview because Mark just allowed her to sit in the awkward silences. Thought provoking.

[@vonderloo3184]

She is flash backing, disassociation, day dreaming and reliving the emotions and feelings of all of her traumas at once when she pauses. This is why drug abusers and alcoholics try to numb themselves to shut up the Super Ego they havent figured out how to fix it with positive directives yet and not the addictive learned negative day dreaming. ..is what Ive learned. Self help.

[@williamkeith8944]

@@vonderloo3184 you are right. Keep it tamped down and numb, except for resentment.

[@heidiho5179]

@@vonderloo3184 So true

[@heidiho5179]

@@williamkeith8944 Except for resentment? I don’t see a lot of resentment or entitlement on this show.

[@kevindoc4119]

There was no awkward silences

[@flor.apiwan]

The pauses, the silence, the moments Doris choose to drink or just hold the bottle... were so powerful. You have that power inside of you, Doris! It's never too late to recover, finish school (i have classmates at uni who are even 80 yo). We all can see the strong human you are! Sending so much love from Argentina, beautiful woman✨🙏

[@lisaangelo3220]

As a smoker, when she asked if he had a cigarette, I felt that ....OMG she wanted to puff and tell her story, calm down. I wish I could have given her one thru the screen....Good Luck Doris.....

[@funk-n-groovin6779]

i just shook my head...keep a few singles around, please

[@bcc7777]

I will not give homeless people money, but I'll give them a smoke, for sure.

[@webds]

I can feel her pain. This was hard to watch. It's so harsh. I just want to wrap my arms around her and hold her and give her some safety and shelter from her pain. I feel she's forgotten how to accept that from anyone. I'm 4 yrs older than her and she looks so much older than me because of what she's suffered. My life has not been easy. I have CPTSD but I have had it so easy compared to her. This woman has such a beautiful soul and mind. She's beautiful physically too. That she still has love and compassion for others is remarkable. It's so hard to grasp why life for some has to be so cruel and torturous. And that the people blame themselves for where they find themselves. I even do it myself but I'm lucky to be in therapy now and on the road to healing my own traumas. Thank you Mike for sharing and doing what you do to shed light on this epidemic of homelessness and addiction. I have found myself homeless 3 times and was lucky to have friends and family who gave me shelter until I could find and pay for a place of my own all of those times. I. Also lucky that I dont suffer from substance addiction. Most are not as fortunate and I have been.

[@vonderloo3184]

Yes I have CPTSD too. And I can see the disassociation ...pauses, the traumas being felt all over again. That cyclic cycle is addictive to the critical self and will destroy you. 💗 Ive been looking into self hypnosis and it seems to work. Im actually surprised. Only you can stop reliving it to be optimistic.

[@BattleBladeWarrior]

Yea, of all the ones I've seen this one really hit hard. You can tell how traumatic that must have been for her. Everyone talks crap about people on the street and stuff, but when you take the time to hear their stories, its really no wonder how they end up there, with everything they've had to deal with. I sincerely hope she finds some happiness and peace in her life.

[@BattleBladeWarrior]

@@michaelmorris2623 Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. here's what I found on the internet on it. . . "Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, is the result of multiple traumatic events occurring over a period of time, often referred to as "complex trauma". Causes include multiple incidents of child abuse, particularly child physical abuse and child sexual abuse, prolonged domestic violence, concentration camp experiences, torture, slavery, and genocide campaigns."

[@alannanicole2968]

I agree. And whatever she saw must have really got to her too. I could see it in. Her eyes when she was talking about. I hope she gets help. She seems like a sweet person.

[@louisianarainwater]

💚🙏💚

[@louisasmith9388]

Mark: “Are you at your lowest point?” Doris (after a scary wait): “Yes, and no.” Then (as interview ends): Doris: “Don’t forget, every life matters, each and every one of you.”

[@psychicladyg9415]

Facts

[@neesas8602]

This is the first video I’ve watched since my friend was found dead in his LA apartment from an OD. He moved from texas to LA with big dreams. He had suffered from addiction and depression but had been clean for over a year. I used to love watching these videos, but it now hits way too close to home. No one wants to live like this. I’m so sad I couldn’t help my friend. I tried. Thank you for the work you do. If you change just one life then it’s worth it

[@marylougeorge9890]

Honey, all we can do is offer our help. We don't have the power to make anyone accept it. You did all you could.💖

[@patriciaque197]

We assist as we can. Ultimately, the only one who can actually enact change is the individual...with support from friends and family.

[@tundrawomansays5067]

You clearly deeply cared about him: What gift to bestow on another could be greater? {{{{Nessa S}}}

[@sandracmyers]

So sorry.... unfortunately I understand....

[@YeshuaCameAndGaveUsLifeandLove]

Praying for your friend Sweetheart 🙏 ❤ Put this behind you but remember the good times and that is what he would probably want !! Sorry 😞

[@andrewallin7856]

Finally someone says it alcohols a hard drug

[@Nate-wf5hk]

It’s crazy that our society can accept drugs like alcohol but say no to much less destructive drugs such as marijuana. Not to say that marijuana is harmless but we definitely underestimate the negative effects alcohol has on us individually and our societies

[@SPLASHGODTAE]

@@Nate-wf5hk at least weed can’t kill you from withdrawl

[@Itsfreakinhot]

Ikr!!!!!!!!!!!!!♡♡♡

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@SPLASHGODTAE And if you're Only on pot you're not going to be violent.

[@katarinaolstad9709]

They say its the worst

[@sovietchampagne]

She seems to protect her emotional boundaries a lot (i.e. deciding she doesn't want to go any further on certain questions, allowing herself silence when she needs it), but in a respectful way (she doesn't lash out at Mark if he starts to take her out of her comfort zone). I admire that a lot. Some people with an upbringing like hers really struggle to know when and how to assert those boundaries. I got a far, far better start in life than Doris but even I often fail to protect my boundaries because I didn't really learn to do so in childhood. So I feel like it must have taken her a lot of experience and a lot of strength to learn how to say "I don't want to open that up" or "Sorry, I can't talk about this anymore". She *is* beautiful. For sure.

[@marylougeorge9890]

You're right. I know what you're saying. It would have been easier to be triggered and go off for most of us.

[@tundrawomansays5067]

And thus we can become locked in a death struggle with ourselves......

[@msjudyb123]

Haunting…..I can’t wrap my head around what I saw and heard. Mark, I have never heard your voice so low and tender before, as if she touched you in a special way.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes. I could hear he was connecting with her.💖

[@leah1590]

I agree completely, so gentle.

[@meganngeorge]

I agree. Touched my heart.

[@kyla6538]

He is AMAZING at meeting people where they are at. He can read people very well.

[@MsMsposey]

She’s been on the streets of SF for 20 years💔 I’m 20... she’s been out here my whole life. when she said living in the TL was the biggest gift I found that so interesting. I’m a sf native and hate going to the the tenderloin because it breaks my heart seeing the people and is honestly scary at times (IMO). Doris I hope you find peace you are so beautiful❤️

[@oioi310i]

I think she was being literal, like you don't live long on the streets in the TL. So she's saying LIVING in the TL was the biggest gift. That's what I took from it anyways

[@parraporro3416]

"Love matters, and so do you." -I love you too, Doris. You are important. ❤

[@marylougeorge9890]

😊💖

[@shawnfloyd8739]

This woman is so broken and it’s heartbreaking. Nobody deserves this

[@bebebutterfield7699]

Her story is written in the lines on her face. She is beautiful! Her looks remind me a lot of my mother, facial shape, lips, cheeks, eyes.

[@katrinatorrance2326]

I said the same thing.. if you look past the lines and saddens I see a beautiful woman.

[@Justbreezintoday]

I see her beauty too

[@ikramk24]

I see her beauty too. Those eyes tell story u dont wanna hear but makes us human

[@pet00lia]

She's in a lot of pain but it's so heartwarming then she still cares about the world and others. Thank you Mark for saying something so kind to her, I'm certain it meant a lot to her. Take care of yourself, Doris. You matter.

[@shawnadenney8098]

This could have been me. I drank that cheap vodka just like this. My daughter used to cry and think i was gonna be pushing a shopping cart down the street. I shot meth 27 years and major alcoholic 17 years. I am coming up on 4 years sober. Watching her made me really grateful for my life today. I work at the same rehab i went through. I have a sponsor and i work the AA steps. WE DO RECOVER IF WE REALLY WANT IT.

[@sheilahayes1765]

One day at a time.

[@superkool7]

I loved the “Dorris. You’re beautiful.” at the end. Actually got me teary eyed a little. You’re awesome Mark.

[@taht5467]

If she stops drinking it will kill her. She needs to be in long term care.

[@hollyhartmacccpacia2597]

Mark you are literally circulating compassion around the world. This is incredible!

[@leesh2684]

😳The opening statement!!!! I’ve been in counseling 3.5 yrs and am still for the most part just saying of my ex “It was bad. It was really really bad!” This one gets the trophy 🏆 for best opener!!! Profound how I felt all her pain behind that one statement.

[@baphomick]

Can't wait for the follow up. She exudes wisdom and power. Wishing her all the best, I think she can do it.

[@pookysmom6712]

Being strong all the time is exhausting now add hypervigilance from being on the streets. God awful place to be in.

[@marylougeorge9890]

I do hope her being able to tell her story and get some positive feedback will encourage her to speak to us again. I sure would like to hear some good news about her life.

[@Justbreezintoday]

She definitely can do it!!

[@adamboof6769]

She is screaming for help. She hates the drink with all her heart. I can see it in her eyes.

[@jupitershanty]

@adam bob Your profile photo is...upsetting. Brilliant but haunting.

[@laurenrobinson4914]

I’ve got to say of all the videos I have watched on this channel this one really really hurt my heart. This lady when asked about her childhood couldn’t physically speak the words of the abuse she suffered but her eyes said it all. I understand some people can talk about past trauma and it doesn’t make it any less real however I just feel that this poor soul is one of the most genuine people I have ever seen on this channel and deserves a chance at life and an ultimate break from what she’s having to endure. Sending so much love and hope to this lady.

[@shawnery1371]

OMG I saw it too Her eyes told her story. This is the only video that made me cry. Bless you Doris wherever you are.

[@royalt3690]

"How big is my breast"? That was a funny moment Mark! It made a little humor out of a horrible story, I hope she can get help.🙏

[@heidiho5179]

Just goes to show what kind of people usually try to talk to her and ask her questions. I’m sure this was a welcome departure.

[@marylougeorge9890]

That was hilarious!😂

[@redeyestlouis4651]

I thought it was "that I love god damn crack"

[@sugmintub]

I felt bad laughing at that. Goes to show what her life experiences are.

[@tundrawomansays5067]

@@sugmintub I don’t believe you were laughing at her at all, just breaking the tension you felt inside. If I read that incorrectly, please let me know. I’m not trying to dismiss or minimize your feelings in any way at all, my friend. Please take care.

[@jorgezelaya5224]

I’m a professional hairstylist I would offer my services to her to make her feel better about herself that’s what I have to offer as a human being... ❤️❤️❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

And that can be so meaningful.😊❤

[@ivy_caine5302]

That’s a beautiful statement

[@blazefairchild465]

Are you close by ?

[@westcoastorbust2462]

You is San Francisco?

[@Adrienne.p]

God Bless You ❤️🙏🏾

[@patriciaque197]

Palpable pain etched on a beautiful soul...God Bless this lady. Mark is the epitome of the compassionate interviewer. 💙🗝❣

[@gsteele89]

There is both power and pain in her silence. Thank you for capturing both so gently, Mark.

[@nikyrahoward662]

This ones hurts my heart. I can feel her pain by looking through her eyes. When we pass these people on the street, we never think about what they've been through, and how they really feel. These people are suffering, and need help. Thank you Mark, for giving them a platform to be heard. Doris, it is never too late to change. I hope she receives the help she needs and deserves.

[@dirtypatwalsh]

Wow. Doris if you read this I just want to say what Mark said at the end. You are beautiful.

[@dereka8041]

Man, this video makes me appreciate everything I have, my upbringing, and that things have gone as well as they have. I may not have a whole lot, but I do have food, a place to live, and I can pay my bills and save a little money. Thank you Sweet Lord!

[@dereka8041]

This was an intense discussion. A lot of sadness, bad history, and wisdom, all rolled into one video.

[@briesthoughts2261]

Amen.

[@johnlinktatonka9196]

Amen

[@rosannacellini2158]

Amen! I feel the same way every day. My worst fear was being homeless, but thank God, I got my disability approved, and I'm doing fine. You are blessed..👍😊🙏

[@margaretlally7956]

Doris if you ever get to read this, you are beautiful and you are loved, sending you love from Ireland 🇮🇪💕

[@faykouri1162]

This lady must have been through so much, she seems embarrassed at times to talk about things I hope this ‘confession’ helps her to unload a little and she finds her way. It’s heartbreaking.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.

[@blazefairchild465]

I think she may not want her children to see their mom ,in bad shape. ( Just guessing)

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@blazefairchild465 I agree.

[@royalredus]

I can't imagine the emotional toll this project takes on Mark. How do you walk out of that room and get on with your day after this?

[@marylougeorge9890]

Exactly.💔

[@deelovestrees6276]

He knows he is paradoxically saving some of us by watching. Collateral beauty

[@cindyfitzgerald4500]

@@marylougeorge9890 Hello Mary Lou❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@cindyfitzgerald4500 Hey, Cindy! 😊💖

[@blazefairchild465]

Can you imagine how horrible it is for these people to live with, no shower, no way to wash your clothes etc.

[@celticwarrior777]

thats so kind telling her shes beautiful. every woman deserves to hear that. its hard through abuse, homelesness to feel worthy ive been there then theres drug addiction to numb the pain of life. not experienced that but its hard from what ive seen to kick it and stay clean. who we are is the soul within, not this vehicle we use while on earth.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.

[@Muckyrec]

Mark seems to be such a gentleman, always respectful, make light out of situations, he honest but say it in a none offensive way, sometimes he compliments without seeming weird! He Just seems like a sweetheart

[@dp6970]

Alcoholism is absolutely vile. All addictions are terrible, but there’s just something about alcoholism that really breaks my heart. 💔

[@fredfletcher9966]

Totally agree. It's the worst drug. Watching a really good person turn into an asshole. I've seen . Watching someone you care about turn into a zombie I hate it!!

[@dp6970]

@@fredfletcher9966 yeah. It’s not like they nod out completely like heroin, and they’re not wide eyed and spun like with meth or crack. With alcohol, they are awake, but their demeanor is totally vacant...like a zombie, you’re right. It’s very sad.

[@whitedove8012]

@@fredfletcher9966 yep, all the lies and bullshit they spin too. When they've spent their last cent on booze.

[@MissOrchid12]

Especially bcs it's legal & can't easily be avoided.

[@katella]

My daughter is almost this woman's age and also an alcoholic. She threw away her life,her children,her family,her chances in life for the bottle. I will never understand it. She's been in so many rehab centers and hospitals and jail and halfway homes. But as soon as she gets out (sometimes before)she heads for a bar. She has robbed and stolen from and abused everyone who has loved her or tried to help her. We are all afraid of her. The thing that runs through my mind is that i left her father when she was ten months old because he was abusive and an alcoholic and heroin addict which I had no idea about when I married him after getting pregnant by him at 17. I left with my little baby and had a hard time for many years but I didnt want her to grow up with an alcoholic father. Now she is just like him. Life can be so cruel.

[@KM-me6ev]

When you see that alcoholic or addict on the street that you don’t lock eyes with and you keep walking .. there’s a person in there with goals , who’s had love and lost it, who gave life to this world , who’s survived horrible things neither you nor I could imagine .. stop, look at her, smile, say hello, ask if she’d like to talk awhile .. make the invisible.. visible again .. you’d be surprised how far that will go with them .. I’ve seen it be the first step in helping these people change their lives !!

[@Lena-uh3ky]

You are so right.

[@louisianarainwater]

💚💚💚

[@marylougeorge9890]

😊💖

[@stuff1784]

It’s not that simple. You could get robbed or hurt, especially as a young female.

[@KM-me6ev]

@@stuff1784 never said it was simple

[@DanielleFoster.]

"My best is yet to come" Lord please protect this soul

[@leesh2684]

She’s speaking from deep within her. I believe it’s true.

[@louisianarainwater]

💚💚💚

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@leesh2684 Yes.😢💔

[@doloresmontes1392]

Her story settled inside my chest; then she has to go and say "I feel like I failed the world by not becoming what I wanted to". OMG, that is too much weight for one person to carry! Doris, I pray you get that tent and two sleeping bags so you can get that rest you so deserve.

[@SEP3669]

Her pain and sadness are palpable. Thank you, Mark, for being so kind and gentle with Doris. I pray for her.

[@pleasedtobehere]

Please, Mark! Submit this video, for any and every award, grant, whatever, etc that you run across. I think I’ve watched all your videos and this touched me the most. It sounded like you were 1000% invested, in what she had to say. Thank you!

[@shawnalynn5198]

This is kind of a weird compliment but I really like her voice. I hope she finds some peace and healing ❤️

[@asimagaranovic4648]

Mark did well, any kind of a compliment is good one...you never know what can lift people up..she has no one ...

[@teresashelton8819]

She does have a unique voice, It sounds like she could have a cool singing voice. ❤️

[@hhbuff]

I too was mesmerized by her voice.. She so broken and loving, I so wish a simple pill could heal their addiction and erase it from their memory. My heart goes out to all of them on these videos!!

[@kimkage2757]

I agree, there’s something about it

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Yes, I noticed her voice was unique also, cool👍

[@27walker27]

Shame she was hard to understand at times, seems like quite an intelligent wise woman

[@mrme1427]

Most addicts are!!! They see the world in a very unique way which is sometimes overwhelming. They don't have a problem with addiction they have a problem with reality.

[@elliemay7569]

@@mrme1427 Totally agree and most people don’t recognize this!

[@colinsmith5879]

Her English skills are solid, but her pronunciation was just a bit sloppy (as is mine when I drink lol)

[@kadeelacayo4806]

This broke my heart. I appreciate how mark let her take her time and answer when she was ready.

[@pennyjenkins3151]

oh mark,,such a poor soul,,please keep up with her.

[@autumnwest2169]

✨💖✨How she ended the interview saying something positive and sending good vibes out to others 🙌. Bless you Doris ⭐️

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen. 💖

[@marymoore7562]

Sending you love Doris ❤️

[@GDSaved]

My love too…Xoxoxo 🕊🕊🕊

[@kayleighackers3487]

My heart's breaks for her you can see the mental pain she is in from just the long pause at the start. I hope she gets the help she really needs to start healing. Sending My Best Wishes & Luck To Doris From 🇬🇧 To 🇺🇲 P.S - What she said right at the end had me in tears.

[@shannonhuddleston1282]

You people would be surprised how many people are just like Doris not only in the street but some of them have homes

[@BaskiHighT]

My mom was one of them unfortunately. Me and my sister suffered greatly because of it. Never too late to start healing tho ! I took my anger and hurt and used it as a drive to take good care of myself. I feel like.. if I wanna "judge" her.. I HAVE to do a better job myself, for myself. I never had children because of this. I fear failing as a mom and I fear giving my kinds "the gene".

[@leeleemee]

@@BaskiHighT You’ve made very wise decisions.

[@BaskiHighT]

@@leeleemee I have to make that conscious decision every day. It's a slippery slope.. Therapy helped and helps me great deal.. I am re-learning what love, care, empathy and trust means day by day.

[@leeleemee]

@@BaskiHighT Thank you for your helpful guidance.

[@911dips5]

My ex was homeless in the tenderloin. It is rough, I wish her well. its never to late to let go of the shame and work on the hurt. Doris you deserve it

[@cassieoconnell774]

Wow, I haven't been so touched by an interview since Evelyn. I think of her often. But this lady is in a class of her own. Pain never leaves her expression. God bless her, and you, too, Mark. It's obvious that she really got to you.

[@Dollypops43]

Evelyn oh my she's so cute and interesting One of my favs. Dorris is such a lovely But lost soul , it really is heartbreaking to see any other human being in such a way 💔 Hope dorris and everyone on this channel All the best

[@Dydy-kv3yx]

Evelyn died last year..Mark added a link to her Obit with one of her videos..Evelyn was my fav. Of all of SWU!!! Rest In Peace sweet Evy!!!

[@Dydy-kv3yx]

@@Dollypops43 Evelyn died last year😥😭💔

[@Dollypops43]

@@Dydy-kv3yx Evelyn was my absolute favourite She was a very interesting lady So sad 😞 bless her

[@DanielleFoster.]

For her to tell me(us), I'm important, holy made me cry.

[@webds]

It's amazing that she still has compassion and love for other humans. Really heart wrenching 💔

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@webds Yes. She could be so angry and hateful due to what she's been through. And there's a whole lot of people who are mean drunks!

[@juliewilderman8782]

I appreciate your hard work Mark. The more light that’s shed on the underlying social issues causing the growing problem of homeless in the U.S. Life is difficult enough without lacking of family and direction. Near impossible for the victims of circumstance. There’s not near enough attention and resources to put a dent in the problem. It will be interesting to see what model Austin, Tx executes to head off their growing homeless population. Prevention is the only way. As you exhibited through Lima and Ammanda - it’s very expensive to get somebody off the street and prepared for being a productive member of society. That’s where any human derives their worth. How can we expect these people to change when they have no love, family, or understanding how to navigate this life. Nobody can do it alone for a lifetime. It breaks the very spirit it takes to overcome extreme adversity.

[@louisianarainwater]

💚💚💚

[@whitedove8012]

@emi logane yes, even those tiny homes, for everyone homeless, would be like 5 cents to them. Disgusting.

[@hlwdreina]

She exudes sadness and defeat. I wish I could give her a hug. You deserve peace, happiness and a better life 💜

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.

[@NZKiwi87]

When a woman like this says ‘At seventeen I been through a lot’, and doesn’t elaborate .... 🤯😬

[@asimagaranovic4648]

@redxpen lucky you, but we are not builded the same...

[@max.aura10k]

@redxpen well, easier said than done homeboy, if you’re an addict yourself then you should know how unbelievably powerful drugs/alcohol are.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@redxpen .....I know exactly what you're saying. I was an addict for most my life, I thought it was never gonna end, and was gonna take magic or something to end it. ...I finally got through it...been a good part of 10 years sober now. And I remember how much more easier it was to let go of past traumas *after* my sobriety.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@redxpen ...right 👍

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@wesleyAlan9179 I smile every time you share your story.😊💖

[@diedericky]

That start was haunting.

[@siethomas4046]

Yes I kept turning my volume up, thought I missed something

[@tylerpainter9840]

Woah

[@zj2850]

@@siethomas4046 😂😂

[@celticwarrior777]

hi doris. life is hard and rough. it has been for many of us. i totally get addiction although i never turned to it. i struggle to cope with how hateful, mean and difficult this world is.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

💜💜💜💜

[@sweetteacurls]

💜💜💜

[@webds]

Ditto 💙

[@SmartMoveGraphics]

❤️

[@unknownmuslimah5085]

not everyone who is homeless are evil or did it because they wanted to. There had to be a situation that got them there, and its our duty as a community and HUMANITY to help them get the help they deserve. If you're reading this Doris, you don't have to apologize for wht you went through. What happend to you from your childhood to now is HORRIBLE.We will support you, and there are many also that are willing to help and support you. We hope the ABSOLUTELY best for you❤ ly

[@teresadorta8039]

Yes,so true.

[@celticwarrior777]

yes

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen!

[@debj9680]

This interview is pure art. So raw with so much emotion. In tears witnessing it. Doris you are the most amazing woman x

[@Waltham1892]

You are confusing suffering for art.

[@asimagaranovic4648]

To me, this is the strongest one.

[@asimagaranovic4648]

@@Waltham1892 no, he is not. It is just the way each of us is seeing it.

[@Waltham1892]

​@@asimagaranovic4648 I want you to imagine watching a child being raped and calling it art. I want you to imagine a car accident where a the driver goes through the windshield face first and calling that art. Suffering in art is intentional, controlled and goal directed. The suffering this woman has and is going through is nothing of the kind. Its random, meaningless and beyond her control. Calling it art allows you to stand removed from her suffering, outside her pain and in a position of evaluation rather than empathy. That just sucks.

[@debj9680]

@@Waltham1892 that’s your subjective opinion and not mine. I can express how I feel without being ‘told’ how to feel.

[@gratefulknitters8899]

Her eyes are so soft and kind. So much pain. She said she felt like she failed the world by not becoming what she wanted to be. That really broke my heart. Beautiful lady

[@wesleyAlan9179]

"Whats the most important thing in life?" "Balance" ....Balance is my answers too, I've *always* said Balance when I'm asked, and I also tell friends that,too..when I see them veering off from the path. Balance is *very* important 💜🙏

[@juliewilderman8782]

@@Jleesdollies That doesn’t help or resonate with people who’ve not had the very basic needs of life met.

[@vonderloo3184]

@@Jleesdollies lol is God like a split in the Super Ego? CPTSD wrestle with the critical self of all of their traumas as if it were that broken parent or abuser, saying over and over again the abusive directive to destroy yourself. Its a recording of yourself. Maybe some do think it's God, but its the stunted child acting as the parent, inside your mind. Flash backing you constantly. Some dont have any room for another thing inside their minds. Just saying.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@PrismosPicks .....hahaha, I hear you on that! Have you ever tried one of those electric hover boards? You stand on it, it has 2 wheels, and you lean forward,back or side to side to make it go the direction you want! Scary sh*t man, they're hard at first, you'll bust yourself up if you're not careful, haha! I know!😅🤣😂

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@Jleesdollies ....God is important to a lot of people, yes. Im a non-believer, been a non-believer for 15 years. But I don't insult or talk down to others and their faiths, beliefs, or ideas. You have a great day! And thanks for the response 👍

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@Jleesdollies oh,no offense taken at all, I liked your comment 😂👍

[@markswoman2134]

The most powerful, emotive interview yet on an already outstanding channel. As someone in the comments stated, this should win an award, at least.

[@arlenabrown1815]

She is a deeply traumatized woman, my God

[@themightywhoosh5497]

These are hard to watch, but the opportunity to understand and see these people for more than what we see on the street, humbles me so much. I used to be terrified of homeless people, of addicts, until I ended up in a rehab facility/mental hospital and met a beautiful and strong and awesome woman who had similar struggles. I'll think of her every day for the rest of my life.

[@kellyrenee9066]

Wow... her opening statement and the look on her face speaks volumes💔

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Yeah, definitely..I didn't know how to feel...so heartbreaking 💔

[@stefftj3493]

first question her silence is deafening her voice means alot much respect isaw an angel

[@kellyrenee9066]

@@wesleyAlan9179 Absolutely heartbreaking smh! Right down to her body language and the whispering tone, sent chills down my spine. I can't help but wonder how she would respond if her child/children went to her and offered to take her home. Would she go? Or would she want to stay in her current position? (Just Bc she's lived this way for so long) and her addictions, of course.... We may never know, but I will certainly be thinking of Doris today😔 & I truly hope something changes, so she doesn't die alone on the streets of skid row🙏🏽✨❤️ Have a blessed day!

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@kellyrenee9066 YES! everything you said!😊💜💔 You have a blessed day,yourself...and will be keeping Doris in mind all day🙏💜

[@kellyrenee9066]

@@wesleyAlan9179 Thanks a lot Wes😊 I'll see you back here tomorrow🤙🏽💞

[@meredithbrooks2858]

Her face tells a story of someone with a lifetime of suffering

[@wendyg8536]

.... she shows a lot of intelligence ..when she said she could have been an astronaut...she was serious .

[@ashleewhittlesey7874]

I had to take a break from watching this channel for a while but I'm back. I hope u take good care of yourself @soft white underbelly.

[@Andrea-oc4gr]

God bless you and keep you Doris. I am in tears from watching this interview. She is beautiful and what she has seen would drive people mad, but she's still there. I wish I could send her a tent.

[@Lena-uh3ky]

I'm shacking. This made my anxiety levels go terribly up. This lady needs so much love attention and a decent life.She is so hurt...

[@ikramk24]

That was the hardest for me yet. I am so sorry that we failed you as a society Doris. You deserved better. May you find peace and deliverance, in this life or another. I love you ♥️❤️

[@lynnedear8830]

What a statement. What a story. Now there’s an education for any actor to grasp. Doris is so candid and well spoken. Life matters and so do you. . Hope we see a follow-up.

[@LetMeTellYouSomething144]

Coming from a family of substance dependency that has trickled down to 3 or 4 generations, this is relatable. Also, it helps me to see the perspective of the addicted & those around it, at the same time it helps me not to judge, but rather to be more empathic. My heart goes out to her & all of us who are suffering from addiction issues.

[@mongedbongjovi7817]

I must have watched 100 of these now, but this one took me quite by surprise. I don't know exactly what it is about Doris but there seems like something so interesting in her, even through all the inebriation she seems really magnetic. I get the feeling that the world has beaten down someone with a lot of potential in them with Doris. I hope she gets to be close with her kids again one day. Keep up the good work Mark.

[@rockbay79]

This is a very deep and heart-felt interview. Doris really needs our prayers. I so wish she would at least be willing to get some health care for her dependence issues. The first step to a better life is to start living a life free of alcohol and drugs. I know this may not be easy, but life is not easy. At least, for most of us.

[@funkyyy12345]

Prayers just give you illusion that you did something for her. Next time just do something for other person. Something real.

[@juliewilderman8782]

Exactly. She’s experienced nothing but pain. Do we live in the same U.S.? If you’re from here you should know access to healthcare is limited to the fortunate. Especially mental healthcare. Insurance barely covers it for those fortunate enough to have it. And it’s still not enough. Willing or not - it’s not an option for her without resources and community support. She needs action - not prayers and judgement. Drives me insane when I see “thoughts and prayers”. Why say anything at all other than to make yourself feel better?

[@funkyyy12345]

@@Jleesdollies and not health care and pleace to live? Jesus can buy that for you? People have real needs not only spiritual ones. You dont care about Jesus when your starving. Lets get real.

[@rockbay79]

@@Jleesdollies Amen!

[@angelablaney7314]

I wish Mark would call back someone like Doris weekly. Even just to ask how she is, so she knows for real someone she can trust actually cares. Might just be the incentive she needs to better herself and accept some help from himx

[@DasChristoff]

I’m a recovered addict. There’s one common element within all of these interviews and this also includes my story: lack of a loving mom and dad and a broken home. That’s the root cause of why I abused drugs, why all of these people abused drugs and the #1 reason why the entire nation is crumbling.I will keep this amazing and beautiful woman in my prayers. She is a child of the great creator. A’ho

[@mooziet652]

I love my son so much it wasn’t good enough - he still used heroin.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes, we All really need that parental love. It tells us we have value.

[@ottelisezipporah-isadora8070]

Our pain manifests itself in so many different ways. Right now, this minute, I am eating pastries and I am not hungry. It just feels good. I am no different to this lady. Her's is alcohol and mine is pastries.

[@marylougeorge9890]

I avree. Me, too. Mine is just plain food. Almost anything. Especially sweet.

[@lolaadesina5362]

Exactly. Addiction is hard. Some of us are addicted to food

[@puhimakani1969]

There is something hauntingly beautiful and classy about her

[@rhodayackez9570]

What? This woman has ruined her life through addictions. She is frail and battered and she looks awful.

[@puhimakani1969]

@@rhodayackez9570 Ruined elegance.

[@whiplashed748]

Yes! I see it, too. The drugs, alcohol, and homelessness has taken its toll.

[@SidneyWatson]

I see it to Rhoda lol ru slow or something

[@puhimakani1969]

@@SidneyWatson just not cruel like you

[@almaconnor9171]

I’ve never seen such brokenness and sadness in any human being before in my life. God Bless her.

[@Nudelnsohn]

It hurts me so bad to see people in that condition. I really hope that one day she will be able to break out of this hell. Also I wanna thank you for content like this that is actually showing you the human beings behind those people that most of us just walk by and look the other way. Those of us who have the privilege to have been born into better circumstances should for one be well aware of this and remind ourselves every day, and for the other we should really care more about our fellow humans, who dind't have that much luck in life. 💔

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Absolutely 🎯...thanks! I wish you a good day✌💜🤟

[@SmartMoveGraphics]

Well said

[@juliewilderman8782]

Very true

[@joannemates6367]

What a very lost, damaged and broken soul!! Her story and this video is absolutely heartbreaking. Tuning in from Country Victoria. Australia 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺

[@rooneybradley8814]

This is exactly why I have been working with his signal cause i can't risk to have 6 figures just sleeping there in my coinbase not knowing what tomorrow holds for

[@marylougeorge9890]

Dear Doris, I'm sorry for all the pain you've endured. You're a lovely woman. Beautiful and intelligent. I have never felt love so quickly for any other interviewee as I did for you. Please don't feel ashamed about your life. Anyone in here with a heart like Mark's doesn't judge you. We only wish you good. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Much love and hugs to you from Michigan.💖💖💖

[@matthewblackburne5234]

This has to be 1 of my favourite soft underbelly interview

[@VirtualkitchenwithLaura]

Have a great day everyone, thanks Mark for the hard work.

[@celticwarrior777]

you too laura

[@Mia-qt4th]

Doris is the most beautiful interesting person you've interviewed so far Mark.

[@mirandabailey855]

I am so ADDICTED TO Marks videos!!!!

[@MissLady-pq4hc]

Really makes one think. So very sad. Thank you Mark, for all your hard work.

[@Prettythings12381]

Ive watched loads of these interviews over time. This is one of the best. Pure. Raw. Shows both strength and weakness

[@OwlingDogDesign]

God bless you, Doris.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.

[@svsuke]

We live in a world that favors Few and abondends Most 💔😢

[@heidiho5179]

That’s a great way put it. You’re so right!

[@marylougeorge9890]

True.😢💔

[@svsuke]

Soft white underbelly thank you for doing what you do . Not everyone has a voice

[@Melinda8162]

OMG. Ain’t that the truth.

[@Dollypops43]

Correct such a true comment

[@cecilialopez1001]

God bless her I hope she finds her way out of this 😢

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@ItsSauIGoodman its so sad isn't it? I couldn't even imagine living like this, yet some people have all their life. When we see people like her, I can't help to think just how strong one has to be to actually live like this, ya know?

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@ItsSauIGoodman hey thanks for the response, yes you're absolutely right, thanks, I wish you a great day,my friend ✌ 😀

[@christinathom5528]

Love is the key 4 people 2 find hope.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@christinathom5528...love is key, yes😊

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@christinathom5528 Absolutely.

[@aury9237]

Its so sad to see people like this like people actually go threw stuff like this🥺😟

[@bucketstuck7137]

Through*

[@kellyanndavid2437]

I feel what you saying

[@christinathom5528]

@@Misitheus Never 2 late 2 find hope again ah. Hope n pray she's finds healing frm her trauma n pain. It goes so deep. Bless u in u journey.

[@davidhett8883]

@@bucketstuck7137 p

[@tripler903]

This is one of your best interviews yet !

[@OhioPaulDE]

So nice for the interviewer to tell Doris was beautiful, because she is. The courage it requires to talk about things that probably shame her is immeasurable. She NEEDED to hear that, you can tell from her reaction. It's probably the first time she has heard that for a very long time, and sometimes something like that can save a person's life.

[@deborahnieling2315]

Mark I love the name you choose for your channel (saw your explanation as well) and it fits so perfect! The portraits of all these people, it does something! You can't and you don't have to save them all, that is clear! But you reached millions of people and made them think, there are always two sides of a coin! Believe a viewer in a crowd of millions, what it does is priceless! I am sure a lot in the comment section agree with me!

[@heidiho5179]

Yeah...that explanation was one of my favorite things Mark has put out there. It really resonates with me, both as a long time street person and somebody who has done a lot of cat rescue (and by rescue I don’t mean letting any cat breed, starve, or be exposed to illness. I mean housing, spay/neuter, vaccinate, foster, and re-home).

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@heidiho5179 Thank you for what you do with cats. That's really important work.❤❤❤

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes.👍👏👏👏

[@AC-gc1yd]

Mark, I appreciate what your doing for these people. Please, when you talk to them slow your speaking to their level of energy. You probably not realizing it sounds harsh and they seem to have a hard time processing your questions. Thank you for letting us know her story. Thank you Doris for telling us your story.

[@briesthoughts2261]

This series and channel is so powerful. Thank you, Mark, for helping so many people.