Not gonna lie when he said my mom loved heroin more then me , struck me hard, I wish this gentleman nothing but the very best
@Wigzy233 жыл бұрын
I felt his pain with that statement. Full credit to him for standing up and changing his life direction. That takes 💪
@adamfox16693 жыл бұрын
Truth
@herosofaddiction62923 жыл бұрын
Addiction articulated at its finest
@nasirabdullatif3 жыл бұрын
Sad
@Libertybaynurse3 жыл бұрын
Me too, I seriously put my hand over my heart when he said that... 💔😢
@TheSunGoethDown3 жыл бұрын
This poor man has been on survival mode since birth. I felt a pain when he said “I wish I had a dad.”. All children need love and security .
@jen45523 жыл бұрын
Every child needs a father. Every child. We need black fathers back in the house. We need to celebrate fathers who actually step up to the role and do right by their children.
@johnnelson71483 жыл бұрын
My sperm donor vanished into thin air. I've got nothing, birth mom is dead and she was the outcast of the family. She hid the pregnancy. It fucks with ya..
@marionrafferty22593 жыл бұрын
@@jen4552 hn
@a.wanderer50063 жыл бұрын
@@jen4552 Not necessarily only celebrate but EXPECT.
@jen45523 жыл бұрын
@anonymous I don’t feel the need to help raise the awareness of gay households being that only 15% of the 1.5% same sex households are raising children.
@professorcalvert81263 жыл бұрын
If a movie was ever made about this guy Woody Harrelson would be perfect to play him
@whocares67663 жыл бұрын
Facts!! They look so similar 😯
@_jp__3 жыл бұрын
I also see that
@eyezwideopen75903 жыл бұрын
"I blew my balls off?"
@CLT28293 жыл бұрын
Or Nolte
@el61783 жыл бұрын
Awesome remark.
@a.w.37722 жыл бұрын
Poor guy, self soothing with rocking back n forth. Seems like he never was fully loved and cared for. I hope his daughter can show him compassion and connect with him in a heartfelt way.
@nataliexyz54689 ай бұрын
Lmao he’s high on meth
@dontblameme63284 ай бұрын
That's not self soothing. He's tweaking on meth.
@harryking34682 ай бұрын
@@dontblameme6328 🤣🤣
@contheh2 ай бұрын
@@harryking3468😂 shit got me weak the guy that made the top comment is innocent please stay that way 🙏
@ladylonestar13 жыл бұрын
“Loves a hard word for me…my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more.” Truly one of the saddest things I’ve ever heard on this channel. I hope this guy gets a break soon, because he needs it.
@katstephenson84933 жыл бұрын
Totally agree..I felt like crying.. I wish I knew his address cos I'd send him £££££
@acebasinnation888883 жыл бұрын
Your right
@brookjohnson82163 жыл бұрын
I’m a police officer and I remember the first time I realized heroin was more important than kids for some. It was jarring. Now it’s just another thing I know. Heroin is some insidious evil shit.
@brookjohnson82163 жыл бұрын
@@nickthelick I encourage you to keep trying to quit, until you quit, or until you die. I revived two people with Narcan between today and yesterday. What’s out on the streets (in Oregon where I work) is pure poison. This year alone I’ve done at least 30 overdoses… and that’s just me. Some lived some did not. I’ve had to do several death notifications to kids, parents, husbands and wives. I know a lot of people feel sympathy for the guy in this video. I can appreciate that I didn’t have the same upbringing as him. But selling meth or heroin is pure evil. Especially when you are as well educated as him on the effects of what you’re selling. It’s hard to care about a pusher’s story after you see someone’s kid die from what this guy sold… then have to go tell a parent their kid died in bathroom of a flop house. As a parent, I take on that pain as my own. So as far as this guy goes… I’ll pray for him, but sympathy isn’t too forthcoming. As for you my man, I’ll pray for you and I sincerely hope you summon the resources and strength to get clean. I have many “friends” on the street that have successfully beat heroin. I go to church with many that I have arrested. The other side of addiction is worth the hell you MUST go through to get there. Sending love brother. Be strong and find a way… it’s worth it.
@CompassRose213 жыл бұрын
@@nickthelick my sister was in active opioid (mostly fentanyl) addiction for something like four years. The only time she was semi clean was the last few months of her pregnancy. After she had the baby, she lost custody, so me and my mom raised her while my sister floated around doing drugs with her boyfriend. She overdosed a few times and would have died if it weren't for narcan and the grace of God. She was in rehab and that didn't stick. Then outpatient treatment and that didn't stick. I saw my sister blue on the floor with no heartbeat a year ago and I dream about that all the time. I say all that to say that she just celebrated six months clean. She just got back custody of her daughter and is working on finding a job. It was really hard, but she did it, and has been doing it for six months. I'm personally not an addict, but living with one for so long has given maybe a bit of insight, and I truly believe that if my sister can do it and continue to do the work, so can you or anyone else. I hope you can rest and find people who are able to support you.
@nsjohn1303 жыл бұрын
"Besides paying for my daughter's schooling, I've never done anything right" just broke my heart. Jesus.
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
He lied about that.....they don't let you keep part of the money they seize in a bust
@g3neriik9013 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 yeah that they seize in a bust. if he had money stashed somewhere else it’s very possible. drug money is kept on records so there’s no way for them to know how much he actually had or made.
@ianhargreaves49783 жыл бұрын
He paid with drug money ffs
@sbrady33543 жыл бұрын
"My mother told me she loved me. But she loved heroin more than me, so." 😢
@wojciechmotkowski48042 жыл бұрын
The Jesus you propably think of does not care. He is dead.
@ball198219823 жыл бұрын
I know you say that you “gave up” your daughter, but I think instead, you gave her a chance. Good on you for doing what was never, but should have been done for you. My heart goes out to you and I hope you keep focusing on a better life. Take care.
@urcookin3 жыл бұрын
Sounds like he’s still part of her life too. At least he knew the right thing to do and still be around. He didn’t do what his dad did to him.
@NAT-turners-Revenge3 жыл бұрын
Ur beautiful 😍
@doejon94243 жыл бұрын
She was half black. He had to give her up to live his skinhead lifestyle. He couldn't be caught with a black daughter.
@ewetn13 жыл бұрын
@@doejon9424 .....? Where did you get this information
@shiela53543 жыл бұрын
@@doejon9424 yea where did you get this info from?
@BlountForce2 жыл бұрын
I’m glad to hear how well his daughter has done and how she didn’t let his issues ruin her life. Good for her. I bet he’s so proud
@TDace252 жыл бұрын
Same. You could tell he was very proud of her. Happy to see
@spfadden0827112 жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same thing. Unfortunately that’s rare to do so well with parents so messed up.
@dsk26882 жыл бұрын
You can tell she’s hes biggest pride and the one thing he feels has gone right about his life
@mclovinlife40182 жыл бұрын
You’d be surprised what someone can accomplish when they don’t constantly victimize themselves as an excuse
@tattooninja2 жыл бұрын
I met so many trash people like this in LA, getting free rent free clothes free drugs, getting paid $1,000/month just to exist, etc etc. I wonder what it's like to live in a country that doesn't treat criminals better than responsible people. But seriously, those of you who praise these people are even worse than they are. 🖕🖕🖕
@theyoungcommander3 жыл бұрын
Mark's interviewing technique is really strong. He uses silence so well to let people stew in it. And his questions are broad and unintrusive, allowing them to interpret them how they want.
@Jedstop3 жыл бұрын
Like asking a white skinhead if he was in a Mexican gang?
@jacoblloyd30493 жыл бұрын
i feel like the way he can phrase things and make insinuations can lack tact a lot of times
@Randimal7623 жыл бұрын
Mark really is an outstanding interviewer.
@tekkadawn66853 жыл бұрын
@@Jedstop that was genius
@alessia39573 жыл бұрын
agree, its kinda like a therapy session. the people also must feel some weight off their back after they tell their stories :,)
@mattb90643 жыл бұрын
I’m having a hard time in life but these videos humble me. Keep your head up ppl
@asabovesobelow79813 жыл бұрын
hugs Matt.. urnotalone
@kylemark45363 жыл бұрын
If you ever need to talk I’m here bro
@aren19983 жыл бұрын
Sending you a hug🤗
@AsktheSpirits3 жыл бұрын
Blessings bro💚
@tianakennell9823 жыл бұрын
💪🏾💞
@Mr.Weeast2 жыл бұрын
You can legit watch this guys energy shift during this interview. I’m sure he is not used to someone asking him so many genuine and deep questions.
@FLnative13thGen2 жыл бұрын
Looks a lot more like the anticipation of drugs as payment for speaking.
@bonsang10732 жыл бұрын
the questions about the father brought out the worse panic
@imfromtheinternett61552 жыл бұрын
@@FLnative13thGen yea he looks like he’s twacked out lolol
@rodneytuxedo75592 жыл бұрын
That energy shift is literally called meth.
@acardinalconsideration8242 жыл бұрын
His agitated “huh!?” sounds like he’s about to chop him up with a machete
@thatswhatshesaid42462 жыл бұрын
Thing that gets me the most, as a father, is seeing the pain in the eyes of guys like this when they talk about their childhood. Hearing them talk about how bad they wanted a dad.
@ericjones26593 жыл бұрын
This man put his daughter through one of the MOST prestgious schools all while screwing most of his life up. Kudos to Psycho and what he did for his daughter!
@brandiva963 жыл бұрын
He wanted better for his daughter and that is what most parents who love their children want. He had a screwed up childhood thank God he didn't put his daughter through that kind of life. I agree kudos to him!!!!
@Teestar5193 жыл бұрын
💯👌🏽 hes a real one! Solid asf through & through! 💪🏽 OTF
@downwiththezionistpsychopa98123 жыл бұрын
school doesnt mean shit when it comes to character
@brucelee21253 жыл бұрын
You do realized he was lying right? About the 800k and his daughter only "almost being an assistant rn." U can do that shit for 2400$.
@brucelee21253 жыл бұрын
@@TaraLynnbeauty 800k is more than it costs to go to NYU medical school. Google what it costs to be a registered nurse. Hes lying, hes a meth head that got a couple hundred for an interview.
@BradAndLex3 жыл бұрын
Wowww!! This is so raw. I never thought i could sympathize with a Skinhead but here we are in 2021. Everything is so complex and nuanced. 🥴 These interviews make it make sense.
@chrismckenzie4033 жыл бұрын
Brad & Lex. I love your video reviews on music.I subscribe & I wonder if you two could handle the Butthole Surfers? Or Die Antwoord? Two very weird music groups.
@crzywrld13213 жыл бұрын
Right?! Thanks Trump!!!
@bobsakamoto19123 жыл бұрын
I agree the last thing a racist needs is more hate.
@chrismckenzie4033 жыл бұрын
@@crzywrld1321 NOTHING IS STUPIDER THAN RELATING TRUMP TO SKINHEADS!
@AbsolutelyNoOne-qi4ye3 жыл бұрын
@@crzywrld1321 This shit had nothing to do with Politics and you bringing Trump up in a conversation about a Skinhead shows you’ve never even looked into Trump or spoken to his supporters because they’re the furthest from racist.
@yogz903 жыл бұрын
Never thought I’d feel for someone who probably hates my skin, but I really am rooting for him. Wish I could hug the guy.
@witchcraftwilliam78793 жыл бұрын
I don't he think does anymore he live in a Mexican hood. U gotta understand in California if u in the life. Gangs. Prisons. Etc. U riding with you're race. Just how it is. Especially prision
@noahfreeman31913 жыл бұрын
Skinheads aren’t always racist. The original skinheads listen to reggae which comes from Jamaica. It wasn’t till the 80s that skins started becoming race oriented.
@smithwesson37713 жыл бұрын
I know an ex skin head who went to prison and came out not rasist lol his best friends are black ... People change if they want to
@PathtoYahawah3 жыл бұрын
@@witchcraftwilliam7879 he was skinhead before going to prison stop it. Most biker gangs dislike darker skinned ppl here in America.
@Brook_Nichelle3 жыл бұрын
It's tough to feel sorry for him. My older brother was beat and stabbed to death by skinheads at the age of 15 or 16 can't remember his age, but he was young.
@bryancastanon71132 жыл бұрын
Just a update: I see him almost everyday. Super nice guy, not a racist at all, I’m Mexican and always says hi to me and he buys clothing from my job. Great guy.
@sinverrette9803 Жыл бұрын
Skinhead and not racist doesn't go in the same sentence. You must be new to earth...
@TRUEMETAL6666 Жыл бұрын
He literally brags about killing a mexican
@xxSMASHFLOWERxx Жыл бұрын
@@sinverrette9803There are non racist skinheads and racist skinheads. They are both completely different groups.
@GLASSxCUTS Жыл бұрын
@@sinverrette9803 massively ignorant statement.
@smidgemcgee960910 ай бұрын
@@sinverrette9803You clearly have no clue about the skinhead movement. most skins are not racist. They call them SHARPs . educate yourself
@CoyoteOfSC3 жыл бұрын
The interview and comments below honestly brought me to tears... love is the human default mode. This guy is supposed to hate me for my skin, but I know he pretended to hate to survive. The complexity of the human condition is a beautiful one.
@brownjatt213 жыл бұрын
One of the worst things about California prisons that other states don't do as you probably know is segregation by race. You might not even be racist but you literally have to Side with your race for survival.
@marimarsilva46293 жыл бұрын
@@brownjatt21 I mean it's kinda smart because everyone is in survival mode in CA prisons so I think being with your own race the survival mode goes down a notch
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
He would kill you.... given the chance
@LosAngeles-le2bf3 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 no we wouldn't, not if he's just minding his business. He lives in a Mexican neighborhood, if he messed w anyone for no reason, he knows he would be done.
@Ashes2Ashes_Blush2Blush3 жыл бұрын
Yes.......
@pablochacon63623 жыл бұрын
This man isn’t hateful by default, he’s a product of his environment just like anyone else growing up in that kind of environment is.
@MrDelvoughn3 жыл бұрын
Let it be known Pablo👍
@bigbillybadass3 жыл бұрын
Lies. He's just like his ancestors that burnt down black wall street
@mokococolata3 жыл бұрын
Same as the people who are American justice, police's favorite preys and your problematic (overly sensitive, too paranoid, annoying with her traumas) but many won't live as long as him, many would do less shit than him and not. And them white homeless asking young sometimes colored students we know them too. I'll watch this interview when black lives will matter. And black folks empathizing y'all...😅 Please have some self-love, more likely, this nigga more likely wouldn't care about your trauma if you did this to his race, remember that.
@frankyeager22983 жыл бұрын
@@bigbillybadass you've never seen prison walls obviously don't be a clown I really hope your a child and not adult Cut the woke 💩 life is alot deeper than your bubble you live in
@bigbillybadass3 жыл бұрын
@@frankyeager2298 yea cause the beans don't program with the pecks?. Foh
@16watch3 жыл бұрын
Psycho is not psycho at all. He is actually a very intelligent man who was broken by his upbringing. I find it amazing and admiral that he took care of his daughter. I hope he finds peace someday.
@Luwl.3 жыл бұрын
He might be a sociopath bc i don't think this man was born with no feelings, he definitely has some feelings
@wuddadid3 жыл бұрын
I dunno I think someone who can torture somebody and film it is pretty psychotic tbh. Nice guy though! Would let him date my daughter :)
@keenb6413 жыл бұрын
He tortured someone for 72 hours by using dental floss to keep their eye lids open (like Hitler did), and burned him while videoing it.
@wuddadid3 жыл бұрын
@@keenb641 Yes exactly, a nice guy!
@wuddadid3 жыл бұрын
@@RanchDressingPop-Tarts It wasn't clarified what psycho meant in this video so it could have been short for either psychotic OR psychopath. Psychotic: Someone who's mind is losing its grip on reality. Psychopath: Someone who isn't able to feel for others and may act in reckless and antisocial ways. He could be classified as both.
@pwaskom2 жыл бұрын
I feel for that man. His life had been trauma since he can remember, no matter how tough a man is we are not built for all that constant trauma. Prayers for him and his family
@drunken_monkey26902 жыл бұрын
Fuck that guy. He tortured people.
@tattooninja2 жыл бұрын
That's because you're stupid.
@Sadwilly2 жыл бұрын
@Janet Pratt 😐
@dargis2 жыл бұрын
@Janet Pratt ok janet..
@yardhusband2 жыл бұрын
Actually, we are all built for constant trauma. If we weren't, then would have no automatic coping mechanisms, which we clearly have in abundance. Granted these mechanisms are not geared toward rationality, but rather, pure raw survival. Its how we kept on keeping on, after watching our children eaten in front of our eyes by a saber toothed cat. Our society is what is not built to handle severely traumatized humans, that are in a mind state of "survival at all costs" due to said trauma.
@khadijakhan71803 жыл бұрын
I can feel the love he has for his daughter through the screen. I hope she sees this and knows he’s trying.
@TheBarrwen3 жыл бұрын
These videos do a lot to break barriers and give us insight into someone’s life we would otherwise never view as human
@confessionboxstories2 жыл бұрын
I agree its good to have insight on someones life it gives us a better understanding of what people go through kzbin.info/www/bejne/l5OpnIysn7tjgas
@stevenduarte52012 жыл бұрын
I could watch these all days
@Jepse892 жыл бұрын
Thank god I was raised to see everyone as a human being no matter how they looked and how flawed they are
@247-e2d2 жыл бұрын
hell yea. this is what kids should learn at school.
@elliott77062 жыл бұрын
Humans are the most dangerous species! There are many terrible people and many fantastic people.
@Joniron73 жыл бұрын
I am sitting here thinking about how bad my life sucks but this man is living for the sake of living.
@KimbradleyMasterGardener3 жыл бұрын
Made me think twice, too. Hope you feel better soon.
@herosofaddiction62923 жыл бұрын
Dude has seen a life many could never imagine. Addiction articulated perfectly
@lorijones55613 жыл бұрын
Facts
@rastachicagomataderos3 жыл бұрын
Your life still sucking anyways.
@ineedmymodfixed2 жыл бұрын
"my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more than me" God damn that one cut me straight to my core. Someone I'm really close to their sister has 3 kids who she couldn't be bothered to be in their lives. Living on the street, 3 kids bring raised by the grandparents. She would go on to OD and die half way across the country.
@AlexG-pt2zs2 жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse that’s true huh lol
@punk4rockorz2 жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse Certainly. But that is what these videos are for. Many of them confessing they make only bad decisions, no matter what they try or do. They are mostly fucked up humans for a reason and know it, but somehow can't help bettering themselves despite intentions and knowing what's right. That is the fucked up thing. That is the lesson to be taken from these videos I think. What I am often wondering is what makes some people succeed and others not? In the end we often feel the same way but act totally different.
@Gemories2 жыл бұрын
100th 👍
@badassmexican94792 жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse you really judging like you’re perfect, he’s trying to change while your a shitty person staying the same wow
@heidji2 жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse wow that's a lot of hate. keep it up buddy.
@dmac97773 жыл бұрын
He gave more love to his daughter than he ever received. I hope hes looked upon favourably for this wherever he may go.
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
Especially for the countless young lives he corrupted.....also the kidnapping and torturing.....damn good dude
@ochat20103 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 😆
@betsybabf7483 жыл бұрын
Kids love unconditionally unless you're not there parenting or cause them so much hurt they have to lose the love to survive. All kids need from us is to raise them and protect them.
@unknownentity82562 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 "He" corrupted? Uhh, you're either born into it, or you really need to want it, it's not like he forced people to join or smh. lol.
@JOznprk2 жыл бұрын
@@unknownentity8256 actually kids becoming teens and around that age are easily manipulated for many reasons. So yes he “corrupted” them.
@ddd1hhh2 жыл бұрын
Damn, if there’s one thing he did, he BROKE THE CYCLE (daughter in nursing school)!!! Props to you on that, Psycho! You’re one of the good ones!!
@AshPagelsdorf422 жыл бұрын
i thought the same right away, great job man - you did it
@porkerpete77222 жыл бұрын
Even a psycho dad is important for a child.
@keereekee2 жыл бұрын
He's a pretty decent man
@boonkgang15362 жыл бұрын
Dudes literally a skin head decent man my ass
@Tre4922 жыл бұрын
@@boonkgang1536 oh okay, but we’re supposed to believe that these gang bangers out here are just misunderstood troubled souls.
@maggiefisker9943 жыл бұрын
Having no role models has ruined this man , the fact that he realizes that speaks volumes . You have saved your daughter .
@jeskahaley96163 жыл бұрын
Amen
@ryansouthey26913 жыл бұрын
Your right with your comment, I'm 36 and have struggled all my life with no father since age of 5. You just feel lost looking for and over giving to anyone that shows you some kind of fatherly affection. Taken me a long time to see it, you do just go into a selfish self destruct mode it's crazy
@enmeterdumheter3 жыл бұрын
I felt what you wrote. Im 35 years old and my father figure/role model was my best friend that was my age. I didnt know it then, but i have soul searched my self and stumbold a cross that thought!
@enmeterdumheter3 жыл бұрын
@@ryansouthey2691 man i wrote my answear and then i read other comments! We had the same issues brother. Im struggling with opiates my whole life. And for the last time, this is the hardest i worked in my whole life. Taking just very very little Subutex/buprenofine now days. Took a whole 8mg Subutex a day, now i take 1/4 two times a week. Progress finally brother! I wish you well and luck in life brother! Peace from Sweden
@timchavis94203 жыл бұрын
😭
@WildWhiskersOutdoors Жыл бұрын
This man is a soldier of the darker side of life & delivering a message of light.
@jeff77645 ай бұрын
No he isn’t, he’s still a dirtbag
@CoffeeCramps3 жыл бұрын
This was a fascinating interview-raw and apologetic. He seems to be genuinely remorseful yet still broken so the poor guy struggles. Praying for him
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
I didn't hear an apology to anyone.....I heard regret about getting ratted on by his ex....who is probably going to find eventually
@KotakMeister3 жыл бұрын
I can't help feeling overwhelmingly sorry for this guy. I hope this serves as a lesson to us all, to myself foremost...our children deserve to be raised better.
@MidgetMalone3 жыл бұрын
We wont fix this world until we learn to do exactly that, raise our children better.
@thebob37123 жыл бұрын
Maybe deadshits shouldn't have children . I've said it before that people should have to get a license to have kids, pass an IQ test, have assets to pay for their upbringing. Any piece of shit can produce a child and in most cases shit produces shit, just my opinion
@kmariamv3 жыл бұрын
@@thebob3712 we can’t police people’s body but with positive influence we can share info to positively have an impact on their minds so that they make better decisions in their lives
@robcarat6983 жыл бұрын
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@domimusic36833 жыл бұрын
@@thebob3712 its the system, not really the people, when you grow up in some neighborhoods, even if you area good person, you are allmost forced to join gangs as very young teen and they f** up their life even before they become adults. I live in Sweden and even the poor families or the ones that have a chaotic childhood, social service will take care of them. I have two grown up kids, my daughter as teen had some issues, like many teens, small silly stuff, but social service and school took care of her with programs and family therapy and so on, and she ended on the right track, fully. But like in cities in the USA as example, the system will help not these kids. So much chance they end like this guy in the video
@CaribbeanQueen72xx3 жыл бұрын
When he said , he left home at 14 , as a mother myself my tears just rush down my face very hard , cause all I could see was my 14 yr old son whom happen to be my everything . I really wish him the best smfh ❤️ 🙏🏾
@realMaverickBuckley3 жыл бұрын
@@MrGeronimo300 They're all mouth. They do ot to have a family. You think the blank or Hispanic gangs were gonna be his family? He left them anyway.
@realMaverickBuckley3 жыл бұрын
I felt similar, can't imagine my 13 Yr old being ANYWHERE NEAR ready to leave. ❤
@zuzm03 жыл бұрын
@mark skwirut couple of months away of being 14 to be exact, so... kinda 14 to me
@zuzm03 жыл бұрын
@@MrGeronimo300 some more hatred huh?
@soda_king3 жыл бұрын
I grew up without a mom or a dad and was homeless on the streets of l.a. as a child. I'm not a skinhead racist piece of crap I would love a hug from you
@410Gregj2 жыл бұрын
I commend you for loving your daughter enough to send her to live with your sister. Funding her pathway to success through nursing school. Removing those tattoos from your face speaks volumes about leaving your past behind you. You’re a noble man, don’t look back
@AlanpittsS2b2 жыл бұрын
I appreciate how much honesty this man delivers. He is a prime example of why children need love and support along with stability. This dude never had a chance to even know what normal is.
@ThaNewDealer7232 жыл бұрын
I think about %80 of me completely agrees, but then I think that everyone has choices. I mean truly. Not looking to be ignorant about the bad hand he was dealt, but we weren't there, and I don't think it's fair to him to say that he never had a chance to know normal. Maybe he chose a lot of this. Don't crucify me, just saying it's not out of the realm of plausible, and definitely not out of the realm of possible.
@AlanpittsS2b2 жыл бұрын
@@ThaNewDealer723 I get it and there are exceptions to every rule, there are kids that come from garbage that grow up and be fine but that isn’t the normal outcome. He never had a chance to know normal when he didn’t have a choice and when he was old enough to choose he clearly chose wrong which was what he knew
@deadpilled29422 жыл бұрын
He's most likely lying. I doubt he paid for his daughter's schooling, I doubt he's even seen his daughter. If he had $750k, he would be spending it
@AlanpittsS2b2 жыл бұрын
@@deadpilled2942 I can’t argue with you there and I really just meant the negative shit he said about himself. I do agree with you most people like this with amazing tales of good they have done are full of shit probably almost all the time
@whadatmowfdu7320 Жыл бұрын
@@deadpilled2942 tell everyone about how you beat your mother and robbed a bank….. see how easy it is to make shit up about people you don’t know with next to no real information?
@MedusaxXx_3 жыл бұрын
a broken little boy in a grown man’s body, wow. i wish this man nothing but the best & for him to find peace. 🥺🙏🏾
@rsar613 жыл бұрын
May God bless you for your compassion 🙏 Numbers 6:24-26 King James Version 24 The Lord bless thee, and keep thee: 25 The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: 26 The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
@whohizzie3 жыл бұрын
Love the compassion in these comments … I hope people realize there are real people behind all these people that society deems criminal
@yaelfeder90423 жыл бұрын
@@whohizzie exactly
@J3MOdh3NOWX3S3 жыл бұрын
No! Theyre convicts and should be locked up for as long as possible so we can make the most money from his prison stay. Suffering is the elites nourishment, we low vibrational beings feed on the agony of humans, and compassion leaves such a bitter taste.
@MedusaxXx_3 жыл бұрын
@@J3MOdh3NOWX3S ok, somebody obviously hurt you. & this statement means nothing to me. go somewhere with that bitterness. you sound miserable.
@jedde42482 жыл бұрын
The fact he knows all those things about his daughter without having to even think shows he has some good left in him
@bobcat2242 жыл бұрын
He is proud of her! It might be the one thing in his life he can be proud of. It shows his humanity.
@leneo17312 жыл бұрын
Most people have good in them. It's just very hidden at times. He talks to his daughter twice a week. It's a very good thing she's forgiven him because she's probably the only thing in his life that has some kind of meaning to him.
@markh38852 жыл бұрын
Everyone is capable of goodness. Even monsters.
@jedde42482 жыл бұрын
@@stephenforbes2762 I don’t think it’s wrong to try and make yourself feel better.. let the mans live the life he has left. He knows his done wrong
@ayeyuh69202 жыл бұрын
@@stephenforbes2762 You act like people can't be redeemed. It's wild how you can watch this and not be able to sympathize with him.
@Zianeth10 ай бұрын
I love how he went and meditated on what stories to share and came back, like he said, he learned to think before doing/saying things...
@Truthof.thestreets3 жыл бұрын
It seems he’s really changed his perspective on life and things in general. Awesome that he has learned from what he didn’t know years ago. Wishing him the best of luck.
@christinesbetterknitting45333 жыл бұрын
How do you learn from what you didn't know? Is that a colloquialism?
@Truthof.thestreets3 жыл бұрын
@@scooter2163 Exactly hes caught up in dealing and doing meth, he has learned though from his life which is awesome bc some people don’t learn anything from awful experiences.
@Bsjrben3 жыл бұрын
Umm he’s still a skin head not sure if I sure stand by him in line at the store lmao😂😂😂
@katuratucker42883 жыл бұрын
I don't really get that he changed anything. He just doesn't want to go back to prison and that's certainly understandable. I'm sure he's grown since he was 20 years old.... Prison will do that to you. But he also seems to have a lot of pride about that bad behavior. (IMO)
@YungTrinidad4073 жыл бұрын
He’s so proud to send his daughter to school 🙂🙂🙂
@turdeyeblind3 жыл бұрын
😊
@turdeyeblind3 жыл бұрын
@GapYear and if she has a good life and has kids well then he broke the chain. It’s sad but at the same time. Good for him
@nicolestargell83233 жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same thing. It is probably the most “normal” thing he has ever done. He has such pride for his daughter.
@jkollman3 жыл бұрын
FACTS
@puercobizarrotv68543 жыл бұрын
I like that
@notevenstevensmusic2 жыл бұрын
I've watched about 4 hours of SWU today after recently discovering it. This channel is so important, thanks for letting these people share their story and express their humanity...and thanks for being such a great interview! Subscribed after the first video!
@danieleriksson57282 жыл бұрын
Please take care of yourself, these videos are crazy heavy. however I do agree with you.
@notevenstevensmusic2 жыл бұрын
Thank you @@danieleriksson5728 , you to 🙏
@susanbookman16312 жыл бұрын
I agree.
@mr.dakamd54442 жыл бұрын
Its like museum exhibits
@Tinsleywarrior2 жыл бұрын
@@danieleriksson5728 I see what you mean, I watched a few and felt terrible had to go and sleep it off
@roberttietjen50122 жыл бұрын
Just found out about Soft White Under Belly from your appearance on Joe Rogan! Thanks to both of you!
@alvarojneto2 жыл бұрын
Way worse than Netflix as far as binging goes
@ecstazyrm2 жыл бұрын
Me too
@spfadden0827112 жыл бұрын
Yup me too!
@JohannGambolputty222 жыл бұрын
Me too!
@nathanblume2 жыл бұрын
Same here
@Boyhead19733 жыл бұрын
These stories are so insightful -- they really make me view others with more grace... you never know someone's background and story. Thank you for sharing.
@pugsymalone65393 жыл бұрын
Great avatar.
@joyofalltrades12393 жыл бұрын
Right, and compassion
@rondaduse-anthony67553 жыл бұрын
I've learned so much more grace & compassion than I already had.
@ginnypurdey13 жыл бұрын
Totally agree Denny, Mark has an amazing way of interviewing that doesn't challenge his interviewees and just allows them to talk. This brings the best out of people and feel they have the freedom of speech.
@aliamonique1923 жыл бұрын
I love how he’s so comfortable talking with these people with such chaotic lives.
@aliamonique1923 жыл бұрын
What’s called money? I don’t think you understand what I mean. I don’t think whether he gets money or not for his videos has anything to do with how communicates with his guests
@Scott-rz2vo3 жыл бұрын
He's a Helluva guy, probably one of the most genuine people I've ever came across. Take care & have a nice day...
@nailinthefashion3 жыл бұрын
@@aliamonique192 when he first started, it wasn't lucrative, but people see his current success and think it's always been like this. it's been a journey.
@lawrencebrown81613 жыл бұрын
When you live in chaos it becomes the norm
@Herb_Nation3 жыл бұрын
That’s because these are normal humans who used to be a baby just like you. FEAR is what controls us.
@purpleirklegrovestreet3 жыл бұрын
Im black and a good majority of my friends are white since I grew up with mostly white people my whole life. I also have alot of black and white friends too that grew up in what most would call “the hood” and I have one friend who was a skin head. He doesnt have a racist bone in his body lol. But he was facing 10-15 years at 19 and only way u survive up in state being non affiliated and white is to join the aryans/skin heads. And thats what he did, its better than being a flesh light. Truth is, you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes and not to take everything at face value. He has white power and nazi symbols tatted all over him but I really dont care cuz I know his true character and sitting down and getting to know someone is better than judging them at face value based on what YOU think about them. We all need to come together and listen to each others stories, cuz it will bring us closer. See someone with a confederate flag on their truck, ask them why they have it. The reason will 9.9/10 not be racist. See someone with a blue lives matter sticker, ask em why they have it. They could have a deceased family member who was a serviceman. See someone with a BLM sticker, ask em why they have it, the reason might shock you. But the truth is, you can have differing views and be friends, so stop being limited by your political party or if someone likes guns or not or if someone has a flag u dont agree with cuz that shit is all face value and is a horrible way of judging TRUE CHARACTER. Thank you if you read this whole thing and have a good day.
@Doodamac3 жыл бұрын
Real shit man, but aye I wanna ask did u s15 swap ur front end on ur s14? Thing looks nice! Also do you drift or drag it?
@purpleirklegrovestreet3 жыл бұрын
@@Doodamac yea man its s15 front end swapped. I rarely run the bumper or hood anymore tho since ive been doin rolls. Its a street car but I throw some 225s on it every once in a while and break her loose lol.
@Lupinotuum663 жыл бұрын
240dejS14. Dude. Brother. Fellow human. Well said. Very well said. You know what really gets under my skin is that, most of the time in today's society, if you hold an unpopular opinion, or go against the latest grain in any fashion, so many are real quick to not just point you out, but to drown you out, as if they aren't just content with hating on you, they want to erase you for not thinking like them. In the last few years I've seen this mentality rise from obscurity , to become the norm . It's beyond sad , that in this country it's near impossible for people to sit down and just be cool with each other if they are of opposing viewpoints. I'm not perfect. I struggle with ingrained racial shit more often than I wish. It's not like I hate anyone for being different from me, not in the true sense of me. Sometimes though I find myself thinking shit that I feel terrible for thinking, like a flash of thought will come into my mind and I'm asking myself why did I think that? That's not me! I'm fascinated by other cultures , especially ancient cultures from all over! I mostly like punk , metal and oi! , but I know that none of those musics would exist without the invention of deep southern blues. Music that was invented by black men. Nothing but love and respect there. I can't stand when I see someone do r say something racial, publicly no matter who it is against who. Like Psycho , I can't stand bullies. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. Other than I appreciate your comment. I wish people were actually tolerant , especially those who preach tolerance the most. We're all the same, we're all different. We all breathe and we're all gonna die someday. Anyways.. God bless you sir. And God bless Psycho.
@purpleirklegrovestreet3 жыл бұрын
@@Lupinotuum66 god bless you brother
@michaelthompson89773 жыл бұрын
Probably the most intelligent comment I have ever heard on social media. God bless you
@michaelstoneking72282 жыл бұрын
What a powerful interview on how important our role as parents are. I’m about to go squeeze the shit out of my two boys. Stay strong man.
@chiru-links61302 жыл бұрын
I agree in how important parents are in children's lives. I got two boys myself and can also relate to squeezing the shit out of them. Just gotta be there for them and not make the mistakes parents make.
@scottfiore1042 жыл бұрын
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@chloerousseau3 жыл бұрын
When he said, I’m institutionalized I can stare at a wall for 24 hours for years, that…that got me. The prison industrial complex has deeper pockets and more power than we can fathom. Just turns us out, cashes us in, then on to the next.
@blc28x3 жыл бұрын
What a real comment, deep pockets, how try we don’t “rehabilitate” anyone😔
@EsoTownBizz65003 жыл бұрын
Word..... Heyy Chloe..
@froandcara3 жыл бұрын
Exactly. Prisons - making traumatized people more desperate and deeper in survival mode. All while making money for “justice” aka corrupt gov
@LadyLakeland3 жыл бұрын
They've done everything they can to capitalize off poverty and the trauma that is often associated with it. They actually have huge companies using prison labor to make their products for pennies (Victoria's Secret for instance). In my opinion, just because they give them 3 cents a hour doesn't mean it isn't....damn near slavery, and the US population of black Americans vs US prison population of black Americans is far out of proportion. That should be a red flag to everyone that slavery isn't dead it just got a different look now. This is either slavery or an updated version of the workhouse or a mixture of both. We enslave people we don't think are worthy of human rights which are supposed to be...a right. Something you can't take away, kind of exactly like we did before. Then we based it on color now it's less about color (but still is to an extent) and more about poverty. The prison industrial complex is out of control. We have the most prisoners in the world and we only make up what? Like 20% of the population? Less? Idk but it's far out of proportion and our prisons leave a hell of a lot to be desired. Do I expect The Ritz no but mold, standing water, rats and no AC or heat is ridiculous for the richest country in the world. (Or one of the richest at least)
@karkkimarkkinat21093 жыл бұрын
Whoa you're so deep.
@c.shoefish3 жыл бұрын
I'm usually pretty cold hearted but I feel for this guy, he was doomed from the start. I really do hope he's able to change things and find peace.
@domimusic36833 жыл бұрын
This guy has somehow a good heart. but he had to suruve in this very awfull environment. Not much choise. You hear it when he talk about loayalty, love and his daughter.
@mollycule27923 жыл бұрын
Hurt people hurt people, my pastor says that all the time.
@nofurtherwest34743 жыл бұрын
Can you help me understand - he had $4 million but then became homeless?
@retrosurfer763 жыл бұрын
@@nofurtherwest3474 they confiscate any money or property that was paid with from dealing drugs which usually means they're left with nothing. So when he got out he had nothing and had been in prison 20 years. I didn't know they paroled people homeless
@nofurtherwest34743 жыл бұрын
@@retrosurfer76 so... he made $4 MM from dealing drugs? i mean... if you make that much in CASH how in the hell do you not store some away. You literally can't carry that much around, it would weigh too much. Something does not add up. He's likely bullsh*tting. No way he had $4 MM and didn't put some away in some place he could access later. If he's smart enough to make and actually hold on to $4 MM then he's smart enough to stash some away.
@OmegaSinister2 жыл бұрын
Goes to show that it doesn't matter who you are or your skin color, lack of good parenting puts you at the mercy of an unforgiving world. Hard to grow up properly if you're busy raising yourself.
@arnekronvall8172 жыл бұрын
Yes, environment is important but genes are too. A lot of people I know grew up in real bad conditions and they made it out a“normal” life (without prison at least).
@hmkhgx80682 жыл бұрын
@@arnekronvall817 its not genes it's just luck
@OuttaPocketCentral2 жыл бұрын
All luck. U don’t choose ur parents… or at least remember
@leneo17312 жыл бұрын
@Piglover Genes absolutely has something to do with is also. Mental illnesses can be genetically pre disposable. If I'm not totally wrong, studies show that children of addicts also are more likely to become addicted even if they grow up away from their parents. We know that heart diseases has to do with genetics, so why shouldn't mental illness be genetic? Obviously your environment are the most important factor but genetics also play roles.
@deankurk44672 жыл бұрын
It could be epiginetic; ie trsuma encoded into genes that isn’t necessarily your “dna” but methylations of it.
@Obiwan702 Жыл бұрын
This is a guy who had no guidance but loves his daughter. My guy won’t like me cause I’m not White but I have the utmost compassion for him and I seriously wish him all the best.
@stephross7003 жыл бұрын
He’s just as deserving of healing as anybody else. Hoping for the best for him. 🤞
@jamieregister93463 жыл бұрын
I agree
@veanwhitcher78673 жыл бұрын
I pray he one day finds the love and peace of Jesus Christ, amen.
@BuddyLee233 жыл бұрын
When this guy says he’s seen some shit, you can trust and believe that he very much has.
@mpclive56933 жыл бұрын
Until he breaks in your home.....
@tilabryant55913 жыл бұрын
It’s funny all the ppl that are not of color is praising him…I wonder why😒. I would never praise a racist piece of 💩
@TravisMcMurray3 жыл бұрын
This interview took a totally different direction than what I was expecting. Thanks for sharing.
@cheyennedwards3 жыл бұрын
As someone that’s been contemplating suicide, your channel always helps me keep on going. It’s very comforting to know I’m not the only one struggling with issues. Thank you so much🤍
@stephie64533 жыл бұрын
You are so strong I know how hard it can be! I promise life is worth living and when it's our time it's our time. Keep fighting keep pushing you got this 💪💪 💜💜
@pugsymalone65393 жыл бұрын
Hey Cheyenne, try to be patient with yourself. I've been there. It's hard to believe that a person can go from wanting to end it all to being happy and successful and loved...but it happened to me. It might only be one small correct decision that starts the change and it might be something that doesn't even seem important at the time. But if I had not been patient with myself, I wouldn't have been present to make that choice. Be patient, Cheyenne...Cheers.
@thatbluelada3 жыл бұрын
We have a saying in my country: "Everyone is a blacksmith of their own luck"...Keep up your head girl, no one lives a easy life, we all feel you. Everyone close to you needs you, trust me. I've been in the same place... Hell, if you want i'm open for talking, to hear you out or whatever! And for everyone else too...
@DaDon_krazy3 жыл бұрын
What’s your Instagram?
@alexar55783 жыл бұрын
Hey Cheyenne! Don't give up, I usually never ever comment on KZbin but your comment stood out to me. You're a beautiful person both in and out :)
@joshloney68492 жыл бұрын
Hes honest and just trying to keep his apartment. I couldn’t imagine going through all that let alone having to bounce back and try to stay out of prison. People are products of there environment. I hope he can keep it together.
@Runningon772 жыл бұрын
This guy is out there, yet he still cares about and tried to help his daughter. I wish him well.
@gely_2 жыл бұрын
Obviously doesnt care if hes still abusing drugs. Hes doing the same thing to his daughter. Exaclty what his mother did to him, hes doing to his daughter.
@benj82422 жыл бұрын
@@gely_ His daughter is now an adult and doing her own thing, any damage he has done is already done. The point is he did more for his child than most suffering from advanced drug addiction, not that he's a squeaky clean or something.
@andyjuarezperez9847 Жыл бұрын
Better than her not getting any education at all. There's people all over the world doin way worse than us.
@skiptown22 Жыл бұрын
these guys always lie about what they did for their kids.
@JeremyDean-qk8qd3 жыл бұрын
This man has been through and seen more than most could even attempt to imagine. Now he just wants to keep to himself and do his thing, and be left alone. He's the literal definition of "been there, done that".. As someone else said in an earlier comment. I would have never thought I would say, I have respect for a "skinhead". But I have respect for this man. He did what he had to do to survive, and survive is what he did. People are fast to judge others, without having a clear understanding of the things they have gone through and their upbringing.
@jshawnrittenour26653 жыл бұрын
Respect ?!! Really bro that man will fuk u over in 1 second flat! You respect him for what? What has he done to deserve your respect? If u ask me he hasn't done shit but continued the cycle of living like a piece of s***! Let him change an be a positive in someones life then he would be deserving of respect!!!!
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
@@jshawnrittenour2665 what jshawn said
@mooth45713 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 nobody asked u punk
@jshawnrittenour26653 жыл бұрын
Your MOMMA PUNK !
@mooth45713 жыл бұрын
@@jshawnrittenour2665 literally something a punk says lil keyboard warrior tendencies showin💀
@MillieB_XO3 жыл бұрын
Things never turn out good when a child lacks a parents love, affection & most of all, ATTENTION ! I feel for this gentlemen as I do many of your interviewees. ❤
@shortstacked19803 жыл бұрын
It’s true …it means so much people don’t realize that
@lottatroublemaker61303 жыл бұрын
It does not always turn out bad for children who does not get love, affection and attention from their parent(s). Some actually turn out very well despite their bad childhood. Children are amazingly resilient. But many also pay some kind of price for their childhood, which is so unfair and very sad. People should not hesitate to report to the CPS (or whatever it’s called where you are) that they are worried about the children in family members or neighbours’ families (or students’ if you’re a teacher or other type of mandated reporter) so the kids/families can get some kind of help. You can always do it anonymously if you’re worried for repercussions if they find out you did it. Bottom line: If you’re worried that children do not get proper care, report it, then it’s their responsibility…
@MillieB_XO3 жыл бұрын
Althought I do agree with you a bit, Its not always easy to see if something isn't right. Kids look clean, show no signs of mistreatment, abandonment ect.. just "seeming normal" So that's why CPS is usually involved until its too late in horrible cases or where issues already been occuring for so long. Also children don't want to lose or be away from their biological parents no matter if they aren't getting love & attention because as a child you don't know where you'll end up with some strangers or if you'll ever seem them again along with the rest of the family members, so they're uncomfortable while be comfortable at the same time even in the worst situations.
@NellyGKC3 жыл бұрын
That’s totally true. I know people that have become amazing people with no parental love but they were able to get into a house where someone else’s parents gave them parental love. It’s sad, it’s almost like they never had a chance when they get no love as a child
@FASBLAQUE3 жыл бұрын
@@shortstacked1980 Look at all those kids who aged out of foster care and made it!
@houndmother2398 Жыл бұрын
The fact that he's been able to help his daughter as much as he had is amazing. Maybe his own life didn't turn out the way He wanted but his daughter's certainly did.
@nathandaniel39823 жыл бұрын
These interviews really gets my mind thinking. It shows how easy it is to slip through the cracks of society. We have let each other down,not as society but as the human race. Just think of the changes we could make if we reached out and helped one person. If everyone helped one person just imagine how better things would be! Some of the most talented and interesting people are homeless,hooked on drugs,or just so caught up in the day to day struggles that they don't get to shine or don't know how to shine. Be the hand that reaches out,be the polish in someone's life and help them shine. My wallet is empty but my heart is full. One love ❤️
@Hisdudeness1013 жыл бұрын
💯🤙✌❤
@seantheberge54563 жыл бұрын
I feel the same way, we are eachothers responsibility.
@mojomanmurph19253 жыл бұрын
There are a lot of charities you can work for to help out.
@ABetterLifeInc3 жыл бұрын
This guy has been there and done that. Easily let us know not having a dad was the main downfall of his life but his daughter is the best thing in his life.
@bertclements3 жыл бұрын
The fact that you survived everything you've been through to actually become an old man and not get killed says a lot about your strength.
@jebidiahnewkedkracker10253 жыл бұрын
Yeah, the dude IS a survivor....No doubt about that. I suppose that is something to even take some PRIDE in.
@the2ndcoming1353 жыл бұрын
Already know😎
@eefneleman95643 жыл бұрын
I don't think he really IS an old man. Just looks like that.
@ws62582 жыл бұрын
Peace
@melissasaint32832 жыл бұрын
He's only 53!
@1w5982 жыл бұрын
Good on him for having the insight to reflect on his life, and acknowledge & own up to all the bad stuff. Paying for all your daughter's schooling in full, is very respectable. He sincerely wants her to have a better chance at life than he did.
@ramblinrose8 Жыл бұрын
okay, I agree but you can't be blaming your parents for how you end up...signed my mother was murdered by my stepbrother and the last time my dad hit me I was 23...still, you are right. He's helped his daughter and is trying...
@unfriendlyreminder59802 жыл бұрын
Seeing these interviews should make a lot of us think about how lucky we are. There is no guarantee that we wouldn't have ended up like this man if we were dealt as shitty cards in life as he was. Most people (not everyone, but most of them) are not evil and can redeem themselves, under the right circumstances.
@Flyanb2 жыл бұрын
We are all just different shades of the same evil. There is not one righteous. No not one.
@adiidi2 жыл бұрын
"Anybody is a killer, all you gotta do is push 'em to the limits." - J. Cole
@buggiesmama112 жыл бұрын
This is exactly why I love listening to these interviews!! Every.. single.. night i listen to 1 to 2 of these while doing my puzzle games before bed. Shows you how lucky you are even if you suffer in life yourself the way I do. These people are all humans that were given horrific lives. We can never say how things would be if in their shoes.
@tylercrouch43552 жыл бұрын
I grew up with dope heads, dealers violence when he says he grew up quick he developed a distrust for everyone around him I can tell you in the meth game everything is unpredictable, been sober for 2 years lost my all my family except my mom and my lil bro to heroin
@tylercrouch43552 жыл бұрын
I'm thankful everyday too have a home and not be from couch to couch wherever I could stay, and I'm so thankful I got the devil out of my life. God is good, the world is crazy.
@OnThisDatexTrueCrime3 жыл бұрын
Mark I love what you do here .. the stories and the way you interact with the people you meet. Your open and non judge mental and you can tell a lot of them use this for therapy session. Keep doing what you do I’m here for all of it.
@tylerlienau75483 жыл бұрын
Wow you are very pretty!
@MidgetMalone3 жыл бұрын
Sometimes, talking to a stranger helps us tell ourselves the truths we are hiding from.
@OnThisDatexTrueCrime3 жыл бұрын
@@tylerlienau7548 well thank you !
@maxxkarma3 жыл бұрын
I feel for this man. He knows exactly what went wrong, how it went wrong and what was required to make things as they should be. He figured it out and that is a big thing. I hope he and his daughter will have a valuable relationship soon. As it appears, At least he invested in her with what he could.
@Savantace2 жыл бұрын
Mark, I subscribed to your channel after discovering you a few weeks ago. I have shared several of your videos. I'm extremely impressed, like so many others, with your fantastic show, "Soft White Underbelly." You're really excellent at this. I have one suggestion and one other observation. Your content and topics for some, if not many or even most, is painful to watch, almost excruciating but extremely important for many reasons. With All Due Respect, Mark: With that said, while I understand a majority of the people you interview could be perceived "hard as nails," impervious, resilient, hardcore and raw, you don't have too meet them with the same hardened exterior. You rapid-fired your questions in an aloof, curt, rapid staccato rhythm. That's not to say you're cold, unconcerned, and unfeeling, in fact, I believe you to be the complete opposite. This particular video is the most severe of the aforementioned. It's as if you're completely distracted, not paying him much attention. Even I'm having slight difficulty catching on or hearing what you're asking him. You're discharging these questions so quickly, without normal inflection, as he also demonstrates some difficulty understanding you. You're quite cold here, with a considerable flat affect. Furthermore, you seem to be mumbling some of your questions. You don't need to be overemotional by any stretch, but perhaps consider taking a bit more engaging approach. This was more like an interrogation than an interview. Finally, what really validated my perspective was when you asked this VERY Caucasian, "Skinhead" if he joined a Mexican gang. (LOL) Mark, did you forget who you were interviewing? His body language alone speaks volumes of how terribly uncomfortable he already feels.
@takeofftrackcoach3 жыл бұрын
He did the best he could with what he had been given like anyone else on this channel. Narrator asked the right questions.
@veronicapetrie76742 жыл бұрын
This guy is one of the most raw and real people I feel you have interviewed. Even had me tearing up. I hope he finds some peace in his life and can find sobriety in the end of his journey
@veronicapetrie76742 жыл бұрын
The first interview he seemed pretty clear headed, the 2nd interview you can see a change 😥
@CatriceSea3 жыл бұрын
Mark, I really admire what you do. I also really appreciate all the people who allow you to interview them. It is really enlightening to be able to see things from all different perspectives. We are all human...just trying to figure this "life" thing out.
@dirtypolish3 жыл бұрын
That's something most don't understand. Some have it bad some have it worse. It all still hurts.
@maryreid33872 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much- for posting. Psycho could possibly save others from such hard lessons in life. This information is so Educational, so hard to hear, so valuable- as to what not to do.
@ralphharrison66223 жыл бұрын
as a dad, hearing him say what he did for his kid, that was huge. you can fuck up your entire existance, as long as you do right by your children, your ok in my book. good luck to ya, buddy.
@spiralingout95063 жыл бұрын
Hey Chief, fucking up your entire existence... directly screws your children up
@ralphharrison66223 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 it must be so great to have a detailed "how to" book on life. people like this guy find shit out the hard way.
@chillyman73403 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 It's easy to play the morality Card for people who aren't parents. I feel that people these days think having kids is easy when it's not, parents are still human and are far from perfect.
@oenophile3 жыл бұрын
Setting the bar low if you think that's doing right by your children. As a father, so much more is required. If you don't know what's required, there are books
@ralphharrison66223 жыл бұрын
@@oenophile i never said thats all thats required. the guy fucked his life up, had nothing to learn from as a kid. but still atleast did something right. give the guy an ounce of credit, he couldve done much worse, considering his background.
@november.rain19933 жыл бұрын
I’m sure it was therapeutic for him to be able to talk to someone. Keep up the good work, Mark! I hate he went through so much neglect & pain at such a tender, young, age. Hang in there, Psycho! 💓
@Slim4Hunnad3 жыл бұрын
💞
@doeeyes22 жыл бұрын
"My mom told me she loved me but she loved heroin more". Damn that broke my heart. Makes me thankful for the mom God gave me and I should probably stop being such a brat.
@plottingourdeathstogether2 жыл бұрын
How could you not come out of that fucked up? Dude had no chance. Sad
@miguelgonzalezg.992 жыл бұрын
Yes, it is devastating to listen to this phrase. I feel his pain and sorrow…
@deadsypadilla2 жыл бұрын
Your mom could be taken away, In an accident, why stress her?
@lacali23462 жыл бұрын
When someone turns to heroin / fentanyl they sell their soul away. They are no longer themselves and have no control over it. Surely your mother loved you but the devil got her on lock down
@wheresmypudding2 жыл бұрын
Nah being a brat is a part of growing up and if you don't give your parents some trouble now and again they won't be able to think of new punishments
@sarahvalenti44382 жыл бұрын
He’s a lot sweeter than I was expecting. I hope he stays straight and things get better for him. Everyone good deserves happiness
@Frogs843 жыл бұрын
When he said he wished he’d had a dad my heart broke
@gwennk49623 жыл бұрын
Me too.
@bigman44073 жыл бұрын
I had an abusive dad. Wish i had a loving one or none at all.
@bubblehead783 жыл бұрын
@@bigman4407 Agreed. Me too.
@domimusic36833 жыл бұрын
yeah, I feel sorry for him. He sound like a good guy in his heart but has to survivein a very bad environment I had a dad, never ebat me or so, but he was never there, always on the road, and when he was home always in disputes with my mom. and my mom was a alcohol addict. Not saying she was a bad mom, but too many problems to take care of me so i ended up alone my entire childhood, everyone deserve a mom and a dad.
@no0bbbb2 жыл бұрын
@@bigman4407 better to have one than none
@coryperalez23772 жыл бұрын
Man, I have so much respect for this man, I understand the struggle. I'm a recovering addict and prostitute and lived that life for over 30 years. I have 4 years clean and sober and now I'm a psychology major . This channel really shows the fundamental attribution error that we all commit against people. These people on your channel are so brave to share their story with the world. I wish all the best for this man. Keep pushing !
@Tom60602 жыл бұрын
I celebrated my two years today. I’m so happy to be clean. I was an IV drug addict with absolutely no hope. Recovery is possible and we can turn our lives around. It’s incredible
@dmfd_rosieperez98472 жыл бұрын
What’s there to respect ?
@kanedge2 жыл бұрын
omg i dont know who you are but i'm so proud of you!! keep doing it please
@TJPDmember2 жыл бұрын
@@dmfd_rosieperez9847 the fact he changed? the fact he tried to make it right? You won't beat hate with hate...
@jimclayron4172 жыл бұрын
@@Tom6060 we’re you IV’ng opioids? I’m 21 recovering on suboxone I was getting to the point were the pills weren’t effecting me (20-30 percs a day) and I was debating moving up a notch if you know what i mean but I chose to get help and go on suboxone and my life has been much better since. I’m just not looking forward to stopping it because the depression really kicked my ass going through withdrawals not to mention the physical part.
@A.k.a.v.e.e3 жыл бұрын
No matter how sad someone is, the thought of their children always bring a smile
@AsmrByDozy3 жыл бұрын
im glad he has her and she has him
@scottyk17633 жыл бұрын
"You're my father. Not my Dad." That line broke my fucking heart
@AsmrByDozy3 жыл бұрын
@@scottyk1763 is that what she said to him?!?
@Jparnell8473 жыл бұрын
@@AsmrByDozy kzbin.info/www/bejne/fKGWhJSCe9Ghb8U
@scottyk17632 жыл бұрын
@@AsmrByDozy that's what he described her saying. So I'm assuming yes.
@johnmoe785112 күн бұрын
Probably one of the most honest people you could meet! Wish you the best my brother!
@jacosadie682 жыл бұрын
Pshyco is my age. Listening to him makes me unbelievably grateful that I had parents who loved me and educated me and punished me when I was out of line. I could have had his life. not being able to trust and love anymore must be terrible. I wish I had the means to take him out of his situation and give him one more chance to be who he can be. I see a caring person hurt badly by hate and greed. my heart goes out to him.
@mmmmmmmmmmm102 жыл бұрын
He doesnt need money, he needs a job, freedom from meth, stability, and a new environment away from the filth.
@somerandomguy42402 жыл бұрын
@@mmmmmmmmmmm10 You need money for all that.
@mmmmmmmmmmm102 жыл бұрын
@@somerandomguy4240 true i guess in america, do they have free rehabs in the states?
@somerandomguy42402 жыл бұрын
@@mmmmmmmmmmm10 No idea, I'm Danish.
@NinjaGrrrl77342 жыл бұрын
We don't all end up like Psycho. A lucky few of us become, to all appearances, everyman. No one would guess the horrors I grew up with now. For decades, though, the damage was apparent quickly. I was so broken. It shouldn't be such a fight, just to be allowed to heal.
@theoyancey3 жыл бұрын
Time and time again it always comes down to the breakdown of the family. Prisons are filled with dudes who come from broken homes. Our society doesn't value the family like it once did. I hope one day we get back to realizing the power of a strong family unit.
@Rizafoolwitit3 жыл бұрын
Amen.. and the destructive power of drugs
@claudetteholloway23672 жыл бұрын
@@Rizafoolwitit Alcohol, drugs, overeating goes hand in hand with broken, abusive, neglected families...
@donsolos2 жыл бұрын
@Frank McGovern single parents raise these kinds of kids as well. But if you grew up without a mom or a dad, chances are you are not the most successful version of yourself
@kdog45872 жыл бұрын
Broken homes aren't the issue, it's parents and families not being there for their children. I'm from divorced parents but both my parents and both my stepparents were there for me and my siblings and we are all productive members of society and have kids ourselves now we are older and are happy and healthy. It's about support and love from your family, no matter what that family looks like
@amberparedes8753 жыл бұрын
These interviews not only make me thankful for my life and how different I grew up with both parents and life's necessities, but I feel such sadness when I hear them speak about their pain and upbringing. I see homeless and drug addicts in my town and always wonder how they are as people if they were clean, what they've been through, what dreams that they had but have been robbed from substance abuse. It's so sad. I wish him the best. 😢
@blazed19453 жыл бұрын
Thats right Amber😁😁😁
@badgalkia102 жыл бұрын
I bet grandchildren would truly push him to change even more. You can tell he truly loves his daughter. He really needs a complete change in his environment. Doesn’t matter the race, poverty, drugs, trauma has a very strong effect on a person. I don’t blame him, what was a child to do with literally no positive role models, no money, living on the streets, no love 🥺. I truly wish this man the best 🙏🏾 he has plenty sense, & his experiences has granted him alot of wisdom. Best wishes Psycho ❤️❤️❤️
@elborbah30453 жыл бұрын
Wow ... I'm speechless .. . Imagine growing up in this environment . He's very honest , intelligent . I hope he finds peace someday .
@bsimpson15043 жыл бұрын
I seriously had to stop and wonder if my own dad ever showed he was proud of me. He didn't pay for my school, and never saw how his life affected me. This guy makes me proud for myself overcoming my past and succeeding. Thanks, Psycho ❤
@prestonpowers73763 жыл бұрын
Im proud for you! The awesome if you've overcome that adversity.
@jasongrooming363 жыл бұрын
I’ve thought about the same thing. My dad never showed it and I always wanted it. I bought my first nice car after a milestone in my life and stopped by his house to show him. He pretty much shrugged. I just wanted to hear him say good job or he was proud of me. He died about 15 years ago and I never heard him say it.
@navajorezathlete12023 жыл бұрын
Hey at least you had a dad
@prestonpowers73763 жыл бұрын
@@navajorezathlete1202 real talk. I would have loved a father (figure)
@apriljk65573 жыл бұрын
@@navajorezathlete1202 my dad wasn't around either, sometimes that's for the best
@dawnsky112 жыл бұрын
Like most of the others interviewed, the odds were against this man from the beginning. Without a family, you gravitate to a gang and for him it was the skinheads. I wish him all the best. This channel is so powerful. If we all took the time to listen and understand, maybe we realize we aren’t so different from each other. Blessings to you, Psycho.
@spaceghost89952 жыл бұрын
His family WAS a gang.
@redrustyhill22 жыл бұрын
Skinhead title came from being in prison
@thing83572 жыл бұрын
@@redrustyhill2 No skinhead was a non racist subculture of working class youths in the UK that listened to reggae music but over time it started to become more affiliated with neo Nazis. There are skinhead gangs like the Nazi low riders but some are just political movements.
@donsolos2 жыл бұрын
When you dont have a family you go out in search to replace it. He turned to the only place he could find it.
@redrustyhill22 жыл бұрын
@@thing8357 my comment wasn't about the origins of "skinhead". My comment was pointing out this man became a skinhead from time in the pen. It's part of prison culture and the gangs that inhabit prison. One has little choice. If your white and get locked up in socal you become skinhead or get shanked
@dirtybird49762 жыл бұрын
"Whatever right is, I wish I did things better" that is such a simple thing but so true and I think everyone can understand and relate to that regardless of your background.
@chriss.29783 жыл бұрын
Watching these videos make me realize just how great of a childhood I had. No child should have to live the way he had to.
@herosofaddiction62923 жыл бұрын
Hell no, vicious beginning to life
@BT19192 жыл бұрын
One thing I notice just as much as the person being interviewed is how classy and thoughtful most of the people in these comments are. I’m truly impressed. Your comments are thoughtful, genuine and sincere. 99% of us are luckier than this man. That’s all, we just got luckier. 🙏🏼
@saintejeannedarc9460 Жыл бұрын
That's what I'm noticing too. When I saw the title skinhead, I thought there'd be more judgment, because that's supposed to make him a white supremacist by default. Heck, a lot less can get you labelled a white supremacist these days. He doesn't come off that way, more like he was just dropped into this group, but no real hatred, just resignation. People just seem to have compassion.
@ramblinrose8 Жыл бұрын
yer awesome
@dubbatrubba17593 жыл бұрын
I like this guy, I don’t care what anyone thinks. I hope his life gets better.
@colmekaglass99783 жыл бұрын
Pathetic.. I'll never feel bad for a colonizer
@philobetto51063 жыл бұрын
yeah people don't realize it wasn't hatred for other races that brings them into skinhead gangs, it's the support ''like a family'',in prison you're forced to stay with your own race
@antoinemartin3393 жыл бұрын
@@colmekaglass9978 Most countries have colonized at some point. Chill bro
@jacobjones47663 жыл бұрын
@@colmekaglass9978 ill never feel bad for those that are weak and were conqoured.
@Haydenormous3 жыл бұрын
@@jacobjones4766 i don’t think conquering stuff makes you weak lmao
@melodymakermark2 жыл бұрын
His daughter chose the right field. Jobs o plenty for nurses. You can tell he’s proud.
@drewlax233 жыл бұрын
Wow, this man's story is so human. It's heartbreaking and heartwarming all at the same time.
@sliverskittle3 жыл бұрын
Did you watch till the end? He's awful.
@Gemories3 жыл бұрын
@@sliverskittle ~ perhaps you haven't met a 'real' person.
@mg67903 жыл бұрын
I do not know all the harm he has done, but one thing he has done right, realize that he could not take care of his daughter and make sure she gets a better chance in life than he himself had. He still has a good heart
@absolutelysnot2 жыл бұрын
Doing right by your daughter is a big thing. You did it. People with everything still don’t do that.
@guillaumecollins548 Жыл бұрын
Paying 740k for “ nursing assistant school “ is NOT APPROPRIATE.. who ever told him that’s what it cost has fucked him over. Also. “ Going for training at harbor ucla ( where I work at) and his daughter living in RENO, NEVADA are 2 hours apart… I think he’s getting fucked over by his daughter
@tinamarconi Жыл бұрын
My heart breaks for him, it really does...Mark, I so appreciate that you give these people you interview a chance to talk and not be downtrodden. You are probably the only one who cared to let them open up about their hurt.
@7somekindofsomething3 жыл бұрын
I’ve only watched a short video, but this guy seems to have a genuine heart. His reflections on his past and regrets sound heartfelt and genuine.
@Section8dc3 жыл бұрын
Goddamn Mark you do some of the most raw visceral interviews. This is the type of stuff the world needs to see, no agenda, no politics, no goal, just a rare insight into the human condition. Very humbling
@Dyl3n.Wallac33 жыл бұрын
I could listen and watch Psycho all day long. Love you Brother. Hearing about your awakening and seeing its truth in your body is a major victory for Yourself and Humanity. Stay blessed Bro.
@susielynn7916 Жыл бұрын
EVEN THO his history is not positive & he has really struggled personally,, his love for his daughter & how he has been devoted to her well being is so incredibly touching!
@deanharstad54042 жыл бұрын
I had a lot of adults in my life as a kid that were like him. The stories, the time served, drug issues, gangs, violence. Not a single one of them was ever awful to me as a kid, they all cared enough to watch me or take care of me. Goes to show that people you’d automatically consider to be “bad” are hardly ever so.
@bobloerakker70102 жыл бұрын
This seems to be common, i feel like they recognise the innocence of a child and don't want them to turn out like them. They also know how dark this world can be, perhaps that is why they are so protective. I've had comparable experiences. Not all of them are evil, they just grew up in a messed up way.
@cloudyns2 жыл бұрын
That's one side. The other is like this guy. The mom getting ran through and beat with drug use. All being shown in plain view of the kids.
@Bootmahoy882 жыл бұрын
Helping his daughter was a flash of real light under a dome of blackness, but where there was just a flash of light, there's hope. His clear, ongoing, relentless battle against such suffocating darkness is inspiring.
@ChristopherSaindon2 жыл бұрын
Superbly well put Sir.
@Fudge-picker2 жыл бұрын
Imagine the people's lives he's ruined. Stop being a wet lettuce for attention
@kgreggh50582 жыл бұрын
@@Fudge-picker behave yourself before your parents take your phone away
@parko33272 жыл бұрын
@@kgreggh5058 some people like the weirdo above are just super entitled, can't really reason with them but something will happen to him one day and he'll need some help lol.
@SarahBisch2 жыл бұрын
He sounded so proud of his daughter. It’s good he tried to do right by her.
@aponteaida9132 жыл бұрын
Amazing work Mark for reminding us how fortunate some of us are, even we tend to forget it every day. Thank you.