Crack Addict interview-Savannah-(Update)

[@talieka1able]

The scariest part of her story is , her taking accountability but still continuing this path of chaos.

[@roasty80]

Drug addicts spin lies

[@plantgirlK88]

She claims to take accountability yet she always has an excuse or someone/something to blame as to why she behaves the way she does.

[@bluescreen79]

She treats people like shit so they want to kill her. And she feels worthless because of her actions. She needs to choose doing right things to people so she will feel good with herself. And still some deeds cannot be undone, they could take revenge on her even when she chooses the right path. Action reaction thars how the life works. She does not take responsibility for her actions. Sad.

[@roasty80]

@@bluescreen79 and thats why shes homeless

[@alvinchillin6808]

Self destructive behavior and a deep hatred for herself is what keeps her where she is

[@tebogoserepong7732]

Very heartbreaking to see how much she’s regressed from her first interview 💔 Hope she gets the help, healing and warmth she needs and deserves.

[@HlloKtty94]

So happy to see an update on you, girl. We are rooting for you. You can get out of that life. YOU ARE WORTHY!! 💕❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

😊❤️👏

[@heidiho5179]

She sure is! 💗

[@RLomoterenge]

Doubt…

[@came7494]

lol no she can’t

[@MsDecember1999]

No judgement just encouragement love it!!!!

[@wellsthewhale965]

She is so well spoken, she has so much potential. I pray she finds peace and a new leaf turns over for her

[@readmore4178]

She controls the “leaf”. She’s choosing this.

[@eamanilam]

I just wanna say that....I feel what you are going through an infinite percent as someone who was homeless on the streets for 5 years, shooting heroin and meth. Despite that, people used to tell me that I still had this "light" in my eyes that others in my similar situation did not have. I had no idea what they were talking about until today when I saw it in yours as I'm sitting here 1 year sober and having survived a violent domestic abuse situation. Keep your head straight, because you have what the fuck it takes girl. You're so amazing 🫶

[@billspade-d6n]

That great you been sober. You must have considerable will power. Good for you As a another has mentioned Savannah is well spoken.The poor woman had such a bad up bring. But I don't see a light. She like a lot of women that just find the wrong guy. Why because that is gets them wet I know that is graphic but true when you get to the heart of it.

[@baghodler508]

I was on crack for 3 years straight, it was all I thought about and I also did some horrible shit, stuff I would have never done. I just got tired of it, I wasn't able to enjoy it and I made a change to focus on myself and get myself together. You can definitely do this, you just have to want it

[@Soma_3046]

let's say "you have to want it" rather than "you just have to want it".

[@Alritealritealrite]

One of the hardest things about not using is remembering all the things that were out of character at one point.

[@Alritealritealrite]

@@Soma_3046 you must not have gotten that teaching job you wanted

[@Soma_3046]

@@Alritealritealrite Since I speak or write from experience, I just took the liberty to do so.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

I been Doo hard drugs for 30 years. Heroin is so addictive because you physically need it, but crack… that sh** calls you. It’s not physically addictive, but it’s mentally addictive like nothing else.

[@savanna4127]

From one Savanna to another Savannah, I am sending you so much LOVE! I have experienced addiction also from 15-32. I got help at 32 and a miracle happened. I got sober. It hasn't been easy but has been one of the best gifts I have EVER received. I believe in you Savannah! 💖 Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you receive all the help, love, and support you deserve.

[@vss1187]

Congratulations on your sobriety!

[@cookdislander4372]

Same, 14-32 I loved to part. Bow at 33 I think I've finally chilled out. The time flew

[@cookdislander4372]

Party*

[@enk4s3d77]

This one scares me, she's playing around with desperate people and that's more dangerous than most understand. Best thing she can do is leave town.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Very good point, you're right

[@doejon9424]

I'd say, don't be scared.

[@Soma_3046]

I must honestly admit that this recklessness makes me quite angry. She drags her relatives with her into the swamp. If you're that far down, you should make a decision. Either you save yourself as no one else can. Or you go on your way alone.

[@ryanjavierortega8513]

She needs to leave town now…Marks dumbass timing with, “you’ll have plenty of chances,” still manages to surprise me…

[@doejon9424]

@@ryanjavierortega8513 Right, he seems to ridicule everyone in the comment section for having all the answers & being "online psychologists".. yet he knows *all* the answers. Listening to "daddy Mark" will turn her life around.

[@elizabethdriscoll42]

I hope where ever she is today - she is safe, feels secure and confident, can see sobriety in her life, and has hope.... sending prayers to you Savannah

[@nightplague256]

You know Mark, I've commented before on your videos, callously at times. Listening to her speak again, what she's been through, terrifying, heart breaking and so many other things. But what hit most with this video, even though my life is so very different to Savannah's is I could identify with the things she's said. I haven't made peace with my demons. My demons are very different, but they eat away a little more each day. I hate myself. I hope to one day be able to love myself, not look in the mirror and feel disgust. Best of luck Savannah. You deserve something better.

[@Mattbm31]

Best of luck to you too. No one deserves to hate themselves. I hope you're doing better

[@brandonrmsy]

Sending you positive thoughts. Just want to echo Matthews’s sentiment that no one deserves to hate themselves. I hope you’re finding the peace you are absolutely worthy of.

[@joannemates6367]

She’s playing with fire!! Desperate people do desperate things!! She’s so much more broken now than her previous videos. It’s absolutely heart breaking. I hope she finds the strength and courage to turn her life around.

[@flirtwd]

You see that too? She looks like she’d do anything for that next hit. What steps are she taking to get better?

[@TanyaJo]

I agree I was waiting for this update and immediately my heart dropped

[@couchprincess698]

Wow. I remember her. She was blonde and honestly looked a lot healthier. Prayers. 🙏🏼

[@shannonkoslova4299]

Shes very close to breaking. She told a story similar to where I was right before I stopped. I would rip off my dealers and have them beating my door down. I would cut up green construction paper and give that to them and then just run back in the house and clutch my drugs. I did it to a few of them. In my head, it was the only way I could get them out of my life.. to get them to stop selling to me, was to burn the bridges. I tot pretty messed up tho. I have three fake teeth and my front door will never close the same. But I'm over 3 years.l clean, so I'll take it

[@TheClosetRatchet]

She is 😢 it’s so sad

[@ariannakane6716]

I just watched all 3 videos and you are far to smart to stay in this vicious cycle of life. The trauma you have endured at such a young age makes me so very sad. You can beat this demon of addiction. I hope you find help and support to get you off the streets and sober, you have a entire life ahead of you

[@24Luzmi]

"I need me" this hit me hard. She has realized she totally worth and this is a huge atep to the end of this cycle. I wish the best of luck to you, Savannah ❤ Also, you made the best and most convenient choice, someday you'll feel grateful to yourself for have done it

[@stephenreese5921]

Savanna, you’ve taken the first steps toward personal redemption, self awareness. It only gets better from here. It won’t be easy, but it will get better. Good Luck, we’re pulling/praying for you!

[@elf9064]

I can see myself being friends with her, I really like her. She mentioned that she reads the comments so I’m going to speak as if she is: girl, I have SO much hope for you. I know it’s hard to have hope for yourself, so I hope (lol) that my energy can work it’s way to you. The way you carry yourself now and the way you’ve learned from the hardships is setting you up for a peaceful life…as long as you keep pushing your way out. Our darkest points are different, but I grew up in poverty in South LA and I’m still clawing my way out. I had an alcohol addiction, sewicidal tendencies, all I wanted was a way “out” of a hard life. At my lowest, I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror because I only felt hate, shame, regret, and all the other negative things that manifested from my “poor decisions”. I’m still tired every day!! It’s so fucking hard to unlearn the habits we picked up to “survive” the mental anguish. It’s hard to WANT a reason to keep going, because it doesn’t get better immediately. It doesn’t feel GOOD immediately. But it WILL feel good to get better once you’ve decided that it’s the ONLY way to feel DIFFERENT than what you feel now. The first step was to want to change though. Like you’re seeing: you ARE worth changing for. Your self love is important because NO ONE in this world will have your back how you do. Only YOU can stand up for yourself, and that means acting in ways that don’t cause you harm. Pull up a picture of yourself when you were a child if you can. Think about how that little girl wanted so many things in the world…and how she would never have thought to end up where she is. Keep pushing, because you’re NOT going to end your story here. Her future is in your hands. Write a letter to her. Tell her that things are hard now but that they’re not over and they can ONLY get better…because you said so. IF you can manage to journal your day to day, please do! I don’t know if you have a device where you read that comments (maybe it has a notes app) or if you can get pen and paper. I know it’s the last thing on your mind, and I really apologize if it’s a hard thing to do right now; but you seem so insightful, funny, observant and reflective. I feel like you’d be the type who would really benefit from validating your ideas, as well as reflecting on the first pages of where you started. I have about 5 finished journals from before my rock bottom, in the midst of it, during the clawing out, then the REAL rock bottom, the catalyst for self love, and now in the trenches of making a stable life out of that. You’re a unique soul with a story worth being told. Whether you tell your story to yourself to remind yourself of how much you’ve overcome, your mother when you’re reconnecting with her, your friends when you make your way back to them, your children when you’re telling them of how hard you worked for their adoptions, or God when you’re asking for miracles that you deserve. Thank you for sharing your story with us today. I think I speak for some sort of collective when I say “We see you. We love you. We believe in you. We hope you can find hope for yourself.” Forgive yourself for anything you had to do in survival mode, and vow to do a little better every day to counter act the energy. God bless, You lovely human. May you find peace, happiness, and love.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Beautifully said. I'm happy to hear you've made a better life for yourself.😊❤️❤️❤️

[@tinam761]

Wow! Beautifully written… I’m actually screen shooting and going to take these words to heart. ❤️ I’m in a low place and have to dig deeper than I think I can to climb out. THANK YOU 🙏🏼 🙏🏼🙏🏼 I hope all who need these words find them … you’re not alone. I’m struggling too and I know it’s hard not to give up. I fight the thoughts too … 💕💕💕

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@tinam761 ❤️❤️❤️

[@hannahmitchell87]

I'm tearing up. Thank you for writing so beautifully. Advice about visualising & talking to your younger self was really powerful. I can fight for her, if not me. I hope Savannah reads your comment xxx

[@Kayla-wi3lf]

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[@theillest0]

Haven’t clicked play yet but wanted to say thank you in advance for following up with her. She has been on my mind lately and I’ve been wondering what has happened since her last video. Thank you for sharing these stories!!!

[@rosac464]

I don’t remember where I heard this but it’s 100% true, when you grow up in chaos , you seek it in life because it feels comfortable. That’s all she’s known and that’s very hard to get rid of because it’s unconscious. You don’t realize that you are seeking it.

[@shannonkoslova4299]

I believe it. Took me a long time to break my own cycle.

[@joyfulherbivore7113]

It’s true… including trauma bonding when it comes to relationships.

[@chandi015d7]

100% true, i grew up in utter chaos and whenever I'm experiencing boredom or stress it always makes me want to drink n cause a chaos cycle in my life. I'm still learning at 48 to find calm n peace ok...

[@Holio88]

Not true at all. I grew up with some kids with terrible childhoods and grew up amazing people. The key is being determined to not be a complete dumbass.

[@joyfulherbivore7113]

@@Holio88 but did yup grow up in chaos and a terrible childhood? If not than your opinion is only based on assumption not experience.

[@extendedplay8830]

Mark I really enjoy your channel We get a glimpse into the underbelly of society- as a Recovering addict (13yrs clean) I totally understand what the addicts on your channel are going through- my heart is heavy- Moment of silence for the addict who’s sick & suffering 😔🙏🏾😔🙏🏾

[@gskateri6008]

I’m adopted and went through hell during my childhood. I totally understand when she said she couldn’t give the baby up for adoption. I fell pregnant at 17 and I’m due this December and couldn’t imagine the horrors of putting an innocent baby through adoption trauma and the risks. Not all families are picture perfect. Not all great kids right or raise them properly. I really respect Savannah despite how hard it is for her. I couldn’t begin to think of her challenges but this interview is very insightful

[@jenfagan2259]

Do you know how many problems a addicted baby has? Abortion is mercifully compared to that torture for a newborn and issues for the rest of their life. Most 17 yr olds can't financially support a baby. So your blessed for whoever is helping you. Many people don't have help.

[@Darkest_Soul_187]

Don't be like her then.

[@penjenta6618]

I’m sorry

[@TheRyleeFreeman]

One of the most real and honest I’ve seen on here. Definitely rooting for a better life for Savannah. Please keep up with her.

[@MaxCady7.62]

Its not.

[@LemonsAndSalt69]

She strikes me as the opposite. A pathological liar and drama Queen. Nothing she says makes much sense.

[@NickPR87]

I hope her efforts prove fruitful and she's able to leave all the bad stuff behind. She's gorgeous, smart, resilient and most importantly has self awareness of the situation she's in.

[@Jydin]

Thank you for telling us your story. Best wishes to you, from Toronto, Canada. Thank you, Mark, for the update.

[@charlesbarry9194]

So proud of you! I've been sober for 17 years and look back thinking "phew!" Glad I quit. The first year or two will be hard. Cravings will keep coming. 2-5 years you'll reminisce using but STAY SOBER. Memories will become more distant. Life will start returning back to normal somewhat. Fast forward 10 years and look back thinking how many people never made it out. 17 years later you'll feel younger than you were than if you continued using. I had my wife and daughter (mainly my wife. My daughter was 2) that stuck with me through the whole thing.

[@terrylucas630]

Glad your doing better. I salute your wife for staying and helping you through the rough time. I hope this reaches you and those you love in great health and happiness❤️🙏😎

[@Brian_fooking_Ferry]

Proud? Of a murderer?

[@pjrichards3974]

You are amazing staying clean this long.

[@lindalane4939]

@@Brian_fooking_Ferry oh yeah bring a child into skid row. That’s def the better decision thanks sooo much for changing my mind!!!

[@TankLCDx]

@@Brian_fooking_Ferry so, you're pro-life and you hate people? pro-life but judge people for making decisions with their own body? pro-life but you even dont care what condition that life would suffer through if born in certain situations? so pro-life that a rapists baby is more important than the victim carrying it? so pro-life you don't care that it puts the woman AND child at risk? doesn't sound pro-life to me, sounds more pro-blematic.

[@ms.poison4855]

I lived across from her I still think about her we went to school together and I've been trying to find her since they moved it's heart breaking watching this series when I knew her she went by Carson I hope she reads this and knows that she has atleast a few people in NC that still think about her and care

[@elizabethmoran8822]

I'm so glad you wrote this - I hope she reads it.

[@cameemz]

Her spirit seems to have taken a beating since the first time she was interviewed. My heart goes out to her. So many people are a product of their parents failure to protect them and show them the wholesome, healthy side of life.

[@shannonhuddleston4980]

I can relate to her she's been so traumatized she has a look like she's detaching from these horrific incidents she seems essentially dead inside sometimes people have to do this to deal with extreme trauma

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes.💔😥

[@Kayla-wi3lf]

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[@anthonywilliams7204]

Real shit

[@DELL.ACNT.]

This is the first person who said it. “It’s not even skid row, it’s me.” I’ve had lots of drugs and alcohol in my family and peers, and I’d hear them saying “I’m sick of this town, I’m moving, I’ll start over.” And someone else would say “ doesn’t matter where you go, the problem is inside you, you carry it wherever you are. You can be happy anywhere, or you’ll be miserable anywhere. The location is irrelevant.”

[@tomd1434]

Yes

[@hannahmitchell87]

you've just quoted, almost verbatim, conversations I've had

[@fergie232]

In recovery, they call it "doing a geographic"

[@mckoneko6230]

Yeah because they refer to it as "the geographical cure".. You literally take YOURSELF-no matter where you go.

[@miskwaad]

The geographical cure; the problem is you're carrying the same goddamned suitcase.

[@sarahmck93]

Most could not survive one night out there. You are strong! Its time to move on to a life that is less toxic and dangerous. Its time to start setting small goals. You still have so much potential in you. Get far away from that place and start fresh. Your responsibilities may feel heavy, but maybe one day you will find a community or a good partner that you can trust to help you hold everything together. Connections to people are the most important part of feeling whole. Don't settle for this life, you are worth more and deserve more than this. Xxx

[@marylougeorge9890]

We Definitely need one another.👍❤️

[@megmuggaaa]

It seems like her wake up call hasn’t happened yet. I don’t think she really comprehends the magnitude of the amount of danger she’s in

[@generalmalice7941]

For reals, I got put into a program in skid row called the midnight mission I did a whole year there, and skid row is no joke and I can imagine that it might just be that more dangerous being a white female. As for the 6ear I did down there I can honestly say j had fun.

[@TheNexusChan]

It's a shame that her life is in shambles. She is such a beautiful girl, and seems to have a great personality behind her addiction. I can't help but think how happy she was before all of this. I truly hope you find what you're looking for in life

[@ayescotland1383]

Savannah...if you´re ever going to read this... You are a strong woman! Thank you for sharing your story and thank you Mark for giving Savannah and so many others the platform to tell their story. Savannah... I wish you only the best for your further life and sending love&light to you, to continue reflect your inner self, your doubts, your weaknesses and your strength to continue, to allow yourself to move on from this place. How I wish to give you a hug ... not only because I want to ... because you need and deserve it. Much love from Germany xxo

[@marylougeorge9890]

❤️❤️❤️

[@mrbillcollector]

Never in my life have I ever heard someone describe moving into a tent on skid row as "liberating and exciting" that's pure insanity

[@scootrust]

It was probably better than the situation she had in foster care. Its not insane its just sad.

[@MatthewAndrewDrake]

Glad to see her back i enjoyed her other interviews a lot. It’s so heartbreaking to hear what she’s been through. I hope she can get somewhere safe eventually.

[@enlightenmentworldunited8545]

🙏🏻

[@poweredbyrice5708]

Play stupid games win stupid prizes

[@TrishaB80]

@@poweredbyrice5708 So you're perfect huh?!

[@sugarsore]

@@poweredbyrice5708 Disgusting comment.

[@karmakamille1988]

@@TrishaB80 Naw they just want attention..

[@PipsNails]

I hope you can get out of this lifestyle Savannah. You have so much to offer. You are loved and cared about ❤️

[@thehattersmadness1957]

You got this girl! At 23 you speak wisdoms that ppl don’t learn in a lifetime. Some of us just choose the hard road before we decide that we deserve so much more. I hope you find peace, love and light in your life. ❤️

[@KatieSimmonds1]

I’m rooting for you Savannah. I wish there was more help for everyone down there. Mental health staff, doctors, police who actually treat you seriously…you’ve been through so much. I hope you can go be with your Mum, maybe you can go to another city..wishing you all the best. You’re worth it. ❤️

[@marylougeorge9890]

Better mental health staff would make a World of difference.👍👏👏👏

[@jwhetstone100]

Today is January 22, 2023. This is the third video that I have watched of you Savannah. You are an incredible force of love chica. In spite of all the crap that has been done to you and you have done to yourself, you still shine♡ I pray that today finds you showered in love and that you are on the road to recovery sis♡ I REALLY want to see you win! Much love to you from Atlanta, GA

[@Bayleekaye0015]

I have hope and faith in you! I was once in your shoes and July 9th this year was one year sober for me from a 6 year meth addiction. I know your struggle and your hurt more than you know. I love you! ❤️ I am here!!!

[@Amal-ku9xq]

I love you too! Congratulations on getting clean, because that is such a remarkable sign of excellence. You have so much good in your future, and I am glad you can see that. Best of wishes to you!

[@momcatmommy411]

We're so sorry Savannah! Ever since I saw your first video I've been praying for you and I always hope Mark gives us an update.

[@marylougeorge9890]

😊❤️

[@lindamann9074]

Savannah, thank you for sharing your story. My heart breaks for you. Please don't give up on searching for human kindness....it's all around you, just hard to find. You're still that broken child and someone will come along when you least expect it to help you put some of the pieces back. You will be in my thoughts. xo

[@diannh2894]

Girl you don't wanna go down this road to play. Turn around now before it's too late. That's the reality of it. I've been there, done that. Six years clean without NA or rehab. It's a mindset. You don't need any of this. Change everything. I got clean in a dope and crack house. I was heavy on heroin and crack. I stopped getting high and went thru withdrawals while everyone was high AF around me. If you put your mind to it, you will do it.

[@saccharinedreamz]

Good for you how did you muster that kind of willpower??

[@allisonreid2166]

Savannah if you read this I want to say if you are ready to get clean and move away please contact me. I would openly have you in my home and hopefully providing a safe space and room for you would help you in some way. I know it sounds crazy from a random woman on the internet because in a lot of ways it is, but I want her to get better so bad I would help her in anyway she needs it. If not, please please get better for you. You are worth more than this. You are taking accountability for your actions and that is great but don't continue down this path you are taking. You deserve to create your own version of the "white picket fence". I totally understood what you meant at the end. God bless you love. Edit: as for the pee on drug dealers that you stole from, don’t worry about that. I live in a different state and trust me they wouldn’t imagine what would happen if they came on my property. I have 4 cameras surrounding it. Ready, in anyway you can imagine. They would get a lot worse than a beating with a mallet I’ll tell you that much.

[@elexis3728]

I really wish she would take your offer! Maybe she will 🤞🏻

[@tymaracooney4915]

wow your amazing!

[@1110karin]

Please be aware that her bad habits/character won't change overnight and though it's a great offer you need to watch out for yourself.

[@allisonreid2166]

@@1110karin I know there is a lot of responsibility having somebody that is a stranger that has lived in terrible circumstances over the course of her life living in my home. I do know that I would need to protect myself as well even when you think you can trust a person they can stab you in the back and steal from you or lie to you. Having any sort of drugs in my house unless it’s a written script by her doctor, would never be allowed but I can say I wouldn’t let her go without anything. I know she even talked about basic things she doesn’t have anymore (underwear, feminine products etc) that’s just the basic stuff that she would have here. I have a whole separate upstairs and downstairs with a new bathroom for her. I would have her own products for her, food, clothes, skincare/hair care just anything she would need. It can be risky but if I can change somebody’s life I would do it in a heartbeat. Why I chose her was because of the light I see in her still and the beauty that she has and even how eloquently she speaks for a young girl at 23. It’s even very unlikely she would even take my offer although it would be beautiful if she did.

[@brendablais6138]

Very kind of you Allison!

[@LadyRow00]

I hate that she feels the need to explain herself for getting an abortion. And this is coming from someone who has struggled with infertility for almost 10 years. Savannah, you don't need to explain yourself to anyone. Not even to me. Making a decision because it is best for SAVANNAH is the ONLY explanation anyone should ever need from you. Be gentle with yourself. But get the fuck out of town, girl. You need to continue making decisions that are best for you and that's not going to happen there.

[@anthonywilliams7204]

Wow

[@LadyRow00]

@@anthonywilliams7204 Hm?

[@anthonywilliams7204]

@@LadyRow00 sorry you went threw that Ms lady row

[@LadyRow00]

@@anthonywilliams7204 Oh, I appreciate that. I'm sorry this girl has gone through everything that she has though. And I know she will receive judgment from a lot of people for her decision to have an abortion, and that just isn't fair.

[@anthonywilliams7204]

Only person she had to explain to is Lord and judgment day I'd like you miss lady smile

[@rachelburrow9106]

Savannah, I have watched every episode of your journey so far. May I say, you have quite the story at such a young age, but your ability to put your story out there for everyone to hear, will be the 1 thing that will help save many others from going down the same path as you once did. Throughout the episodes, I have noticed how unbelievably strong and brave you are. I have also watched you change into a young lady who wants to LIVE! Your mind has shifted and you have morphed into a woman who will become that success story. You see your true inner beauty, faith, hope, and real Love when you look in the mirror and for many people that isn't the easiest thing to do. Being able to forgive others can be difficult but being able to accept your own faults and place yourself in a place of needing forgiveness is for myself a very humbling place to be in. It wasn't easy for me to forgive myself for mistakes I made and problems I played a part in within my own life. I was placing blame on so many others for where I had found myself, without being able to see that I had the biggest part in my surroundings and the dark place I found myself dwelling at that time in life. It wasn't easy to climb my way out of the darkness, and I see in you the same determination to remove that darkness and the place of sadness and loneliness from your life for good. Not saying there isn't going to be days where you are down and out because there most certainly will be a few of those days along the way, that is just apart of life I think. But you are on the right path and just remember to keep looking forward, nothing in your rear view mirror is worth looking back for. The past remains in the rear view, it is but small image compared to what lies before you!

[@1azhelenmo]

she is articulate , sounds sincere, i hope she finds the love she needs to love herself in the way her father wanted her to love herself. Strength from within is an amazing thing

[@Beefareeno]

It’s so easy to blame yourself for everything when you place so little value on yourself. If you think you’re nothing, you’ll treat everything that happens like nothing. To break that cycle, something - someone in the situation needs to change. You need to care/love enough about just one thing to start climbing back up. I wish you all the strength to start climbing.

[@metaliris6404]

Incredibly wise words!!

[@WayeBot]

I agree completely with you, and very well said.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Absolutely 💯 %

[@Beefareeno]

@@Ihavehadmanynames7779 I feel for you and have felt and still do feel the same. When pain has always defined all you are, all you’ve known, how do you even begin to get rid of it? Because how is there anything left of you without pain. Trying to improve with no success or support is more draining than just living with the pain, so what’s the point sometimes.. but I’m here to tell you, that there ARE people who care, and someone like you can definitely endure the extra pain, just for a bit, to seek out and find those who will care and help. Because I promise you once you’re on the other side.. sure the pain never goes away, but the happiness you feel with a purpose, something to pour love into, makes every day worth the extra pain you had to go through to get there

[@marylougeorge9890]

Nicely said. If you believe your worthless, you usually don't try and it can take a Lot of outside encouragement to see over that dark cloud.

[@benjaminbarrett3048]

Savanna. Hi from Australia. Your a strong one mate, I hope you play this back and listen to yourself. I reckon over a beer, game of pool watching a game of footy, in a safe environment, we could sought you out, it’s amazing how troubles seem so far away, simplicity in knowing yourself. Life can be whatever you want it to be.

[@bratsrpeeple21]

She has such a bright light within her. I LOVE to hear that she is finding value and worth in herself. God does need her; she wouldn't be here otherwise.

[@alexandrahernandez3647]

Savannah, I watched all your follow ups. I’m so sorry about the baby. You did the right thing for yourself and the baby. I know it hurts. When I heard you say you were done with that place at the end of the video I almost cried. Amen. I pray that you’re in a better place. Hopefully far away from there and maybe back in NC working on the white picket fence. Funny story I just moved to NC last year. I live an hour from Raleigh. But when my bf lived near Charlotte I knew where Winston was. I can’t wait to see your next update. I hope you’re smiling and in a better place next video. Until then I’m sending prayers your way! You can do it!! 🙏🏼💕💕

[@chrisgadsby8813]

No matter what this person deserves love... I am in tears thinking about how hard it can be to not know you are loved.....

[@leahflower9924]

Part of trauma is looking for love in the wrong places and thinking love equals getting hurt

[@MEL2theJ]

@@leahflower9924 Such truth 🙏

[@tjwoosta]

She is the most grounded and clean crack addict I have ever seen. Shes well spoken, and not twitching, or scratching, or fidgeting. No noticeable blemishes, or scabs, or scars. If I were to see her in the real world I would never suspect a thing. A girl like her could easily find a regular job and get off the streets and turn her life around.

[@onslaugh99]

I knowww right??

[@msofk]

She’s super young.. it won’t always be that way. Wishing her recovery 💗

[@Shornandkenny]

You dont know that.😉 There are lots of high functioning addicts out there. What your referring to is a myth, a certain stereotypical "look" that we associate with crack addicts. My friend 20 years ago was a crack addict and he went through a storm door window cutting his arm. He bled out on the lawn.

[@akadvcyoubeezy6748]

Our presidents son is a crack addict. & he's a millionaire

[@tjwoosta]

@@Shornandkenny I get what your saying, but I wouldn't call it a myth, it's a very real mental degradation that happens. As impolite as stereotypes are they generally do reflect reality.

[@maryclebeau]

Thanks for the update! Savannah you are a wonderful person, I can see you have a kind heart ❤️ we all need to learn to love ourselves first, by no means in a selfish way, but Being patient with ourselves and learning to forgive ourselves for the past in order for us to move forward and sometimes it seems that could be the hardest thing to do. We have to give to ourselves what others are not capable of giving us, we need to be there for ourselves. I hope you find your happy in you and all that you deserve.

[@-Foxy-Fox-]

Those are mature thoughts. When I was younger in my late teens and early 20's I had to understand and learn that I couldn't blame my actions or words on my parents. I had to realize that I was an adult and my actions and words were my own. The only person to blame for my actions was me. It wasn't the easiest to learn but you're not alone in having to learn it. I had so much anger then, now being in my early 30s it feels so foreign. Ive had to learn to let so much go and I'm not the same person I was then. My mother passed 2 days before my 20th birthday and my father when I was 22. I'd give anything for more time. I'm happy to see you're in a better place than your last video. It's hard work, keep going there's so much more to experience in life. Don't let these experiences halt or define you, grow from them. You deserve love and happiness, I hope you find it! 🤘💚✌

[@caixiuying8901]

I think it's fine to blame your parents for learned behaviors until you're 18, anything after that really is just your responsibility I'm 26, so really anything I've done the last 8 years is my fault. Actually my mom is a good parent and person, but my dad was and still is very problematic.

[@josephduclass2858]

It time to meet someone that could change your life. His name is Jesus. Tri him, you ll see. Jesus loves ❤️ you.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@caixiuying8901 Interesting.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@josephduclass2858 Amen.🙏✝️

[@melida20]

Wow!! What an update my heart instantly dropped, your light is dreaming from your last video, I'm rooting for you hope you get out of there and your situation

[@willownest4075]

Her update made me cry. I hope she keeps fighting. She is right. She IS worth so much more then that life. KEEPING FIGHTING GIRL!! ❤️

[@jacobtracc2862]

One thing I learned about LA since I moved out here a year ago is that the streets will catch up to you if you don’t move accordingly, be smart Savannah

[@truesavings1988]

Praying you get out of this safely! We believe in you Savannah! You got this girl! Break free from those chains!

[@marylougeorge9890]

Amen.🙏

[@anthonywilliams7204]

Straight up

[@cassandrastifano5553]

Amen 🤍✝️🙏

[@derekwilliamson2118]

“You certainly wouldn’t want to put your child through what you are going through right now” Thank you for saying that mark. She has so much guilt that is unfairly put on her for getting an abortion, I’m sure it lifted a lot of pressure to hear and understand her decision. The first 9 months of a child’s life is detrimental to a child’s development and being on the streets would literally cause life long suffering for that child.

[@thematriarchy2075]

And more suffering for her

[@frosty_soda]

So murdering the baby was a better choice. OK 👌 👍 No offence, there are people going through worse and murder is never OK. So long as we understand that is what it is and you are fully aware that you are ending a life of another human being, then OK. That's on you.

[@DecayingReality]

Only if your mom did that to y’all we’d be in a better world.

[@GenuinelyGiGi]

@@frosty_soda then never get an abortion… that’s your choice

[@peepo19]

@@frosty_soda An abortion isn't murder it's the prevention of the beggining of someone's life in bad conditions. It's a choice that belongs to the people that precede us, like my parents preceded me and made the choice to have me in the right conditions. Parents must be responsible, I would even argue that it should take a permit to have a child.

[@karenmoldovan7534]

She is so smart and deserving of a beautiful life! I hope she finds healing and peace. I think she could help a lot of other women when she gets through it herself.

[@LadyCypher54]

Of all the people I've met on this channel, she is the most interesting. She's honest, authentic, fearless and really quite fascinating. In other circumstances and times I would have tried to make a friend of her.

[@ladyt2457]

I watched a lot of your interviews this one really touched my heart I wish I could help like you do. I had foster kids living in my house for 15 years now I am retired and blessed 🙏🤗

[@rhondamcmillan5783]

She is amazing and what a journey she has been on. She is stronger than she thinks and young enough to make a difference to others facing this same situation if she gets out of it. Sending good vibes and love in her direction.

[@tonyparker3905]

She is not going to survive . What she's doing is suicidal . I was on skid row in the 90s . I had a friend who ripped off a drug dealer and went to sleep on the corner of 5th and Crocker . She was stabbed to death . She wrote short stories . She said her name was Tuesday .🙏❤️

[@tristankay993]

She survived and you should watch her recent interview ❤

[@aaronlee7613]

Please keep following up with Savannah such a special person. I prayed for her. shes so special and strong.

[@mszonk]

Savanna. Please, girl. Help yourself first. Only the can you help other people. I just learned this recently and it really helps. You have a warm hug from me. 🌸

[@pachagirl79]

Savannah it is so nice to hear you say “I’m worth something” and “people / God need(s) me.” Keep fighting girl, you’re so certainly WORTH IT ❤

[@susanlynch49]

Prayers for you Savannah. I pray you get out of there. You are in danger. And you are so special and smart. You deserve happiness.

[@sueanderson7108]

Girl! You are so beautiful, so intelligent and well spoken! Stop this madness! Go set the world on fire with your dazzling personality! You're better than this lifestyle! I will pray for you!

[@Naturallllyunique]

Savannah I hope one day you see this comment. I just want you to know how similar our stories are. I was trafficked and assaulted so many times while living on the streets. I felt free at first. Alone time in my addiction surrounded by pain & chaos actually caused me to love myself a little bit…it’s because we’re resilient. I would walk the streets at 3am looking for someone and something to bring me to life. I’ve never wanted someone to be okay so badly and not even know them…idk what is real but if there’s a god something is telling me to tell you to never give up on Savannah. As long as their is air in your lungs you are still in the fight. I’m in the fight with you….we’ve been through hell and we’ve been there for a long time now. Better days are ahead, I know it. I just know it

[@manuelluna1500]

I was on crack for 27 years, and l tell you this young lady can recover. The bad thing is that the more you're on drugs the more trauma we put ourselves through which is crazy because that's probably why we started using the first place cuz we had childhood trauma. Praying for this young lady

[@elf9064]

Savannah, if you see this: I had two abortions. One at 19 and one at 20. I was severely depressed at that age, being 5150’d, convince I’d off myself at 24. I aborted those pregnancies because I knew that I was likely to abandon them through my own demise… based on the demons I was battling at that time. I hated most of my ex’s (at that time’s) and didn’t like the idea of them raising my babies. I felt all the things you do. Selfish especially, and like you, every face of a child reminded me of that very scary time. To this day I still think “wow my kids would have been 8 and 7 by now!” But I say all this to say, that at the age of 27: I’m entirely different from the scared young lady that aborted for “selfish” reasons. I’m SOBER (NEVER thought I’d WANT to control my alcohol intake!) I am officially “in remission” from the “SEVERE severe depression” I was diagnosed with. I’m independent. I have two big dogs I care for (just realizing, two dogs for two fetus’!) Pretty much: that selfish action was the best choice for everyone. I didn’t expect to live this long, and now that I’m here, I’m definitely looking forward to being a mother when things are to MY liking. I’ve been told by some fathers I know that the way I care for my dogs shows I’m going to be a good mother. The way I see it is: it takes a lot of strength to acknowledge that you’re not ready…and if you planned on having kids when you were, then you’re instinctively doing what you need to. Parenthood is full of so many choices and sacrifices, it’s never about making other people happy. Fuck them. It’s literally about making the best choice for your kin, and you did that. My babies are mine in spirit because I claimed them, I wanted them in some way, and maybe they’re patiently waiting for the next time my “vessel” is open for them to try again. Maybe they’re permanently in heaven while new souls are born. I don’t know, but I do know that they’d be miserable if they were on Earth without me. Don’t ever regret your decision and let other people guilt you! They know damn well they wouldn’t want people to tell THEM how to raise their family, and you don’t need someone trying to coerce you into bringing children into a world. Mother knows best, and she said NO!!!!

[@LoneWulf278]

Thank you for sharing this. 🙏

[@BostonBuzz]

Tmi

[@julieann4616]

The world is overpopulated (in my opinion) so thank you for not adding to the misery & making the gov’t take care of you when you weren’t capable.

[@traceyroyer993]

I can't come up with words that are worthy enough, to express my gratitude to you for revealing such private, emotional and deeply personal parts of yourself. My daughter shares this experience with you and your story made me realize that I should reach out to her more often to offer support. I know she holds a multitude of negative emotions including shame, guilt, etc., and I want her to live her best life and in order to do that she must love, forgive and trust herself.

[@4newnewsiversen770]

There is a place in heaven for all the aborted babies. Their taken care of. When your family members show up in heaven they're introduced. Between the special ppl in the nursery, family and Jesus they end up leading the best life considering... They are aware of what happened. 😭 Jesus is the truth.

[@cliffordnewell2445]

Thanks so much for having Savannah back. I've been really concerned about her. I hate to see such a good person with so much to offer having such an awful life. What can turn her life around? I hope and pray that something good will happen to her.

[@christinasmith9620]

Praying for her and her future 🙏🏼. I feel in my heart that she will get better do better. We all stumble we all make mistakes sometimes we have to go through those storms to get to where you need to in this hard ass life we live .

[@marylougeorge9890]

🙏❤️

[@savannahwinslett4509]

Mark, do you have an update on Savannah? I just watched her videos for the first time and when I watched this one, a dark feeling came over me. I hope she’s alive….

[@kadv2172]

I think of her sometimes, I really wish we’d get an update or something ❤ wish you all the best Savannah

[@shaylaster1607]

Updated posted today!

[@kadv2172]

@@shaylaster1607 yeah I saw it, thank you 🥰

[@cameemz]

She said that she was selfish for not being ready to be a parent, which was an influential factor to her decision to abort her pregnancy. I wish I could tell her that that's the least selfish thing she could have done. In a very real sense, she saved the life of that unborn child. Had her baby been brought into the world while she is still in the state that she's in, the cycle of generational disparity would have surely continued. I wish more people would take bringing a child into the world more seriously like Savannah.

[@melissamartin9615]

It's a great thing to realize that you might not be ready to have a baby. But that baby had no chance to live. Adoption is an option- And to say you are not string enough to have a baby and give it up, yet you can TERMINATE a pregnancy? What happens if you make a full recovery down the road- you could possibly have a relationship with your child. Not to execute you with words, just heartbreaking to think a tiny baby is at the mercy of folks who are not in their healthy minds. I am sorry. I am not in your shoes, don't know what you live through every day. But there is no reason to terminate a pregnancy. Ever. Even babies with handicaps or disfigurement deserve a chance. I know we all see things differently; I'm not trying to get anything started. It's a public forum, we are allowed to speak what we think. God bless you, Savannah. May He heal your soul and help you become healthy again.

[@ashleybyrd3517]

@@melissamartin9615there are thousands of children in the system already. Go adopt one of those

[@Kathy_1991]

​@@ashleybyrd3517Yes, thank you! There's plenty of children in the system already!

[@melissa6261975]

Unfortunately she will think of her child always. The child missed the opportunity for life and the mother for her child. The women I have worked with, ALL have regretted abortion, and think of the child of which they took the life.

[@ashleybyrd3517]

@@melissa6261975 have another

[@mallorytx]

Woahhhhh. The difference between the first interview and this one is startling. I’m scared to see the state of things in the next follow up. Savannah, you are still young right now today and you can make moves. MAKE MOVES, GIRLFRIEND! I could totally picture you climbing your way out of this hole you’re in and being an inspiration to other young girls to also change their lives. Praying for God to protect you and love you.

[@AntruwaRecordings]

Looking forward to the next interview?

[@marylougeorge9890]

🙏🙏🙏

[@ericdevonecater3796]

Thank you for the interview.

[@alaskagirl2188]

I sure hope this beautiful girl gets her priorities together and I hope to hear her recovery story soon. I do know that she trusts Mark and feels comfortable around him.

[@scottbrockman9743]

Addiction is crazy, but choices made with full awareness is even crazier

[@Luxuryfoodexpert]

SHE HATES HERSELF and this is why she doesnt stop what is happening to herself. she disregards everything terrible thats happened to her as if it doesn’t matter.

[@marylougeorge9890]

She understands that and is beginning to accept she's worth more.

[@AE-wi3zb]

@@marylougeorge9890 she knows better but she is still doing self destructive behavior.

[@thirdeyeb23]

If you're reading this, I see you and I hear you. I am praying for you and your baby is watching over you ♡ I hope you find peace and can get away from those places that consumed you. Find your light- its always waiting for you to catch it

[@ktolzmann520]

It’s so impressive that she’s able to be so honest with herself, and use that awareness as a guide through this extremely difficult situation.

[@ericdoubleu5390]

She seems so strong and smart! I hope she get through this! Glad to see her again in this fallow up.

[@70sdude68]

Hang in there Savannah!! YOU can do it! Sending love and support from Sweden.

[@Cindy.P]

She continues to put herself around dangerous people & situations which re-traumatizes her & the cycle continues - the idea that something inside is broken, can't be fixed, & you're responsible & then you *have to* do something to not feel the suffocation of shame. Living one's way into a new way of thinking works much better than trying to think our way into a new way of living. Trauma changes the pathways in our brain which is why so many traumatized people make unhealthy choices. She's worth so much more than she realizes. Forgive & love yourself - you don't have to live like this anymore.

[@papisanchez8037]

How broken do you have to be when you look at rape like it’s just another day? Man this girl may be broken and a lil bruised but she’s seems to be in the mind set to change her life! I know your gonna do fine in life Savanah. I hate that all this trauma has happened to you but Hopefully you can use these experiences as motivation to turn your life around! Sending love and positive vibes from Florida

[@bluemountainw1789]

She likes the drama and thrill of street life.

[@LemonsAndSalt69]

Take what she says with a grain of salt. Most people that are interviewed here are brutally honest, however this girl strikes me as a pathological liar. None of her stories make any sense.

[@readmore4178]

When you choose evil yourself, you aren’t surprised when it is visited upon you. Maybe at some point, you barely recognize it as evil.

[@Rude_i_Wredne]

Damn, this comment section can be vile. I can't imagine what it would feel like reading through that even if only tiny bit of her history was accurate, let alone for a person that actually went through it.

[@Naturallllyunique]

As a crack & former heroin addict, it sounds uncanny but it’s VERY relatable- what she said…

[@PedalMafiaM]

Savannah, if you read this I'm glad you're on the path to happiness. It's definitely not as easy as some people say. I've been sober from alcohol for a little over three years, and things are still difficult. It does slowly get easier. Things get better, keep at it.

[@katezuray9809]

I did Ayahuasca and went to “hell” it was being a homeless woman using drugs in skid row being attacked, since then I’ve been sober 13 months

[@Jrude22]

Mark, any updates from Savannah?

[@jackyll]

anyone in the comments -- anyone who's going to condemn any person in a similar situation -- who's upset and asks her "why didn't you just give the baby up for adoption" needs to remind themselves of what the foster system and adoption can be like with some more of Mark's videos. So many of these stories come from people who came from addicts and ended up falling through the cracks in an imperfect system that's overburdened with so many kids already.

[@LadyAngela678]

Or they can just tell us how many kids theyve adopted.

[@She22222]

Great interview. Hope she does well for herself. She's so strong and beautiful

[@adannashubb3254]

Baby, I am rooting for you. I know you are aware you can come out of this.. you are more than just an addict. I know this.. and I can’t wait to see how beautiful you turn out. So much love from me Savannah.. so much love!!

[@anastasiabeaverhousin5398]

Dear Savannah, I love you. Not from religion, not from society, I love you as a human being. You’re so strong and courageous. I’m old enough to be your mother and I want to hug you ❤ Please stay strong and understand that you have a purpose here. I can’t tell you what your purpose is but I believe that you’re helping others every day. Keep up the good work ❤

[@Mia-qt4th]

Savannah you've got so much potential you don't belong on skid row, take a leap of faith God will be there to guide you. You're so strong self aware you will succeed and be at peace, I have faith in you. Blessings to you.🙏

[@CeCebebebeee]

You did the right thing!!being a human is hard enough but to be born to an addict is terrible.

[@shaylaster1607]

I’m happy to hear she is 105 days clean today!!!!

[@krizzlec]

yeah, its wonderful! best wishes to her!!!! Congrats Savannah

[@melissalacroix8500]

I’m heartbroken, she’s so beautiful inside out. She deserves the world, bless her.

[@kaitlynprice290]

you’re the one person on this channel i had to follow up with. i hope we get another update. you have friends all over the country now.

[@jennamcneely877]

Listenting to these stories is so frustrating because I got out of addiction so I’m like come on you can do it! But at the same time idk if I would have if I experienced some of the same trauma as them. Makes my heart hurt for all the addicts out there