Living With 12 Alters (Dissociative Identity Disorder)

Lauren lives with dissociative identity disorder and has twelve distinct personalities. Each manifests as a voice inside her head that Lauren describes as “angels and devils.” After proper therapy Lauren is now able to cope with her condition and self-advocate. She wants the world to know that auditory hallucinations do not make her any less of a human.
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[@Steve-kw9sx]

This guy is the best interviewer and has such amazing intentions. He deserves an award.

[@DamaDojo1]

Cant* take an award to heaven

[@user-cf2vo8sc1n]

Im not catholic but he needs to be made a saint.

[@carmelcream7662]

Humanitarian award

[@thefernmoon]

Agreed. I think this same thing ever time I watch a video of his.

[@allie54774]

I agree! He's so caring & kind hearted 💓

[@marial3231]

People should know that DID is created by severe childhood trauma. I’m so sorry for this woman to be suffering from this but so proud of her to be such a fighter and her spirit indestructible.

[@TheSapphireLeo]

And/or traumatic past lives?

[@nimblemomonga2311]

@@TheSapphireLeo Stop.......Just Stop....

[@megasauruss]

@@TheSapphireLeo no. severe and consistent childhood trauma.

[@megasauruss]

@@Loqsta moon knight is a great show, but probably not the best source of information when it comes to DID

[@Loqsta]

@@megasauruss yeah ik its just really good😂

[@aquaintsound]

I super appreciate how her boyfriend was brought on too, and how he talks about the fact that loving her isn't hard!! It just requires that understands his own mental health!

[@kevinbissinger]

To play devils advocate, that's what NT people in relationships know they're supposed to say. ask people how they feel when their significant other first gets cancer, vs after 3 years of painful intense treatments. They'll probably say the same words but you can tell they usually don't mean it anymore and just end up becoming bottles of resentment because of the inability to reciprocate because of the drastic shift in power and ability. You can prove this by the amount of guilt filled relief partners feel when the person eventually dies of the cancer and they're free from the obligations

[@gatorade5572]

@@kevinbissinger not very cool man

[@tmk8807trig]

fiance

[@cloriafulton8000]

@@kevinbissinger you are soooo wrong everyone is not like you

[@7Pxndx7]

@@kevinbissinger that is very true

[@kaycee8323]

Honestly this sounds like she knows herself, her system, better than most other people even tho we all have different parts of us and we tend to get caught up in one of those when they get triggered while she seems to just talk to that part and shut them off if they're not helpful. So interesting!

[@teahorseguitarstraps1856]

This really rings true to me. I feel like most of us are so identified with one particular segment of our personality at any given time that we can't step back and see that we are caught within a particular perspective. We just feel like we're right, and this is the way things are. But a few days later, on reflection, we might realize, "Oh, that's just how I am when I'm feeling down, but actually I am much more than that." In a certain way, this "normal" kind of mentality seems more delusional, since we lack the perspective to see that we are simply operating from one segment. Lauren, however, seems very aware that a segment is just a segment, it is not the whole. I don't mean to downplay her struggle, but rather to highlight the depth of awareness she has gained through that struggle.

[@olivermexas1203]

Years of therapy

[@Timmydope]

Its because his interest in them is genuine. He is fascinated just like the rest of us are.

[@gustavgurke3389]

dont forget about all the therapy

[@wildeast66]

She is amazing. I am sure, that she struggled a lot. But as her boyfriend said, it made her stronger. She knows much more about herself than many of us do. And she learned to cope with her different perspectives much better than many of us do. That was really inspirational. Wish you all the best!

[@angelaopowiada7621]

Sometimes it's difficult to manage yourself with one voice in your head. I admire she's able to have conversation the way she did. She's also so aware of how her mind works and has insight in it. Wish her all best and only better.

[@cardboardbox191]

I'm wondering if she considers more option than most and how often there good ideas or ideas that healthy mind wouldn't consider. To me if there's 12 voices that's about 5 perspectives (some of them will probably have the same solution).

[@amandab8433]

This is what happened to my sons college best friend. He asked my son one day what his brain voices sounded like. He thought everyone heard voices too. Unfortunately he got worse and had to be taken out of Uni by his family. He is a wonderful young man, and I hope that one day he will be eased.

[@VicEiland]

I’m so glad you didn’t ask her to change through them, like she’s a show pony.

[@kyleighbreanne9656]

@Soggy Android they aren’t calling her a show pony…they just said that they’re glad that the KZbin didn’t treat her like one, the exact opposite.

[@MandenTV]

That’d be sick

[@Liarclaw]

You don’t know when dissociation occurs tho

[@VicEiland]

@@Liarclaw sure, but I’m thankful he didn’t ask her to switch through them. That would be rude.

[@theAussie01]

@Soggy Android you misunderstood.....just try and be nice

[@osmansosiawan9457]

I like the way Chris asking questions...He stares the eyes as if he is learning every word of whom he s talking to.....I dont know exactly why? But I like it

[@loiseopiana645]

He has to learn though, for him to understand so that he could think of another senseful question to ask 😁 that's just what I think

[@dcainedwr]

I treat a number of patients with schizophrenia. Many prefer to direct their eyes away from mine while in session. Also, it appears that the interviewer has just one camera; there’s no way to position it allows my him to face the patient.

[@Yaorii]

Yes he's very attentive n it feels like he's genuinely interested in hearing what the person has to say

[@BeautyReloaded]

Ikr the introvert in me would panic trying to make eye contact with someone

[@joebloggs7956]

A person like this is called a Light Worker by some?! ✌️🌟💜✨

[@xxsamlovexx]

The backpack full of rocks analogy... isn’t that so true with so many of the struggles people face living with any disability (mental or physical). Like, it makes it hard to walk sometimes but in the end it makes you stronger. Wow. I love that ❤️

[@cyanidecandy]

I actually didn't like that, he's calling the others rocks but they didn't choose to be there, so i feel it's really mean, he's calling them a burden when they probably can hear it and they have emotions too, again they exist for a reason they didn't choose to be there and he's saying it like the host is the owner of the body and the others are unwelcome passenger when everyone is the owner of the body

[@Rooki1998]

I actually didn't like him calling her brainmates a weight... I'm not a fan of this video

[@julswtv]

@@cyanidecandy i came here looking for this comment. the whole video he talked about her different personalities and her as a burden and a person with a "problem" who "needs help" when she said multiple times that she just wants to be seen and treated like everybody else. i found her boyfriend's attitude towards her DID a bit toxic and i hope she finds someone better who doesn't think her personalities are unwelcome passengers and that only one is truly her. they are all part of her. you are absolutely right.

[@sophiamartin769]

@@cyanidecandyI don’t think he’s calling her personalities rocks. He’s just saying she is having a hard time due to the struggles that come with her diagnoses that she herself expressed

[@DiegoAlvarezBeltran1993.]

DID is such an interesting mental disorder just because of the fact that those personalities are just different in how they speak but everything is different; routines, how they act, how they write, it's very intriguing the more you learn about them.

[@killherqueen]

Okay, I think I have DID but I obviously don't wanna tell anyone - strict, old parents. like; "You youngsters cant have that stuff." - so it's just hidden with me. Only I know that I sometimes completely change from a soft little teenager who enjoys others' company and such, to a menace who'd argue with anyone and anything and judge your entire bloodline. I'm not sure though, maybe I just have anger issues I need to sort out. 🤷

[@laraalvarezzz2]

​@@killherqueenif you remember everything it's not did. When alters change the host experiences an amnesia effect and isn't aware of what is happening until he comes back to the body and doesn't remember anything.

[@killherqueen]

@@laraalvarezzz2 omg i don't remember commenting this what AAHHAHAH (though i think that might be my bad memory. like cmon 5 months ago...!) but yeah i have that random amnesia sometimes. my body is full of like scars but i don't remember how i got them. i have pointy nails so maybe i accidentally cut mys3lf? but i don't remember... plus i recently finished death note, i know i watched all episodes recently but i don't remember doing so. like, i know i didn't skip any episodes... but did >i< watch them? i'm not sure. oh well, maybe i just have terrible memory

[@cybergalacticnova]

@@killherqueen OSDD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder) is a thing too. It when it meets the DSM-5 critera but doesn't meet *all* criteria for DID and other dissociative disorders.

[@abjectmadness1111]

@@killherqueenYou sound like a normal teenager to me lmao

[@AlienChicken]

Thank you for highlighting that so many of us struggle with DID without amnesia. It's just far more awful. Sometimes I wish i got amnesia instead of having to beat myself up a day later when I finally snap out of it and realize I did something thats not me or not how i normally would react. She is so commendable for sharing because so many people don't understand.

[@ameliab324]

DID without amnesia is OSDD-1b (can also be partial DID, or just DID where you have put in a lot of work on system communication). Don't be harsh on yourself because someone else from your system did a thing you don't find right - they're not you, and so it's not your fault. Go to therapy if you can, system communication really is key for a functional, happy life as a part of a system. Wish you all the best 💗

[@hannahshulla245]

Feeling seen for the first time 😭😭❤️‍🩹

[@briantneary2248]

Not that he wants it, but he deserves all the credit in the world for being such a nice person. He's perfect for the job.

[@jamesschaidt1096]

Angels on earth are very real to me...and Chris is one of them.

[@mydogcoda9072]

You know I appreciate her awareness of her disorder. Her cognative ability is so high. She owns it and lives with it. She is quite the testament of the abilities we posses. A lot if not most people seem to seek some level of pity, but I don't see that from her. It's interesting.

[@JennAmazed]

Yes! She has a great awareness and intelligence. I appreciate her attitude and her communication style. I'm sure has worked so hard in therapy to get to this point. A lot of people won't do that. They'd prefer the pity and the lack of accountability. I know someone who has some serious mental health issues and will do nothing to better themselves because they use their issues as an excuse for being a crappy person. No desire at all to be the very best version of themselves nor to even understand their own self! This lady is impressive with her insight and understanding

[@3mlg5uImmlg]

I agree, most people pity them but these are some of the strongest wills possible, incredible what the mind can do

[@michellestelle]

People with DID are highly intelligent and generally more introspective of their disorder

[@michellestelle]

@@EnlightenY0u That's not how DID works lol. That's a really ignorant comment. You can't just switch on command to anything. It's a trauma response.

[@michellestelle]

@@EnlightenY0u I mean, I actually have DID so I'm telling you switching is a response to a trauma related trigger, not a minor inconvenience or just people being judgemental. It could induce a switch, but not necessarily. You also can't choose to switch. It happens on its own.

[@cherylmiller258]

She's so cool! I love her acceptance of her other fragments, and that she understands how they came about. I would love to meet her. This man does have the most amazing personality for these interviews he does. So calm, respectful, and genuine!

[@glumpot]

This just makes me more angry about the kids on TikTok who pretend to have this disorder because they think it’s “cool” or “fun”. I don’t have DID but obviously it’s not something you *want* to have, it’s a coping mechanism people develop when they are exposed to a lot of stress/abuse. It’s something we need to learn more about and understand better, but it doesn’t need to be glorified or romanticized, either.

[@thelordoftime803]

@nothing Because Chris from SBSK most probably doesn't take interviews of individuals that do not have medical professional proof of their disorder.

[@mel_zzz_]

Once I watched a video about examples of extreme abuse... after watching that video I had to take some moths to keep watching videos about this topic because I felt bad knowing what a human being is capable of doing to a baby , a child.

[@idrinkmilk282]

Not just this condition... the most commonly claimed one "I'm soooo OCD" Like just stop. OCD has been the downfall of my happiness.

[@martyrchucker]

@@idrinkmilk282 OCD is brutal and you are very strong to deal with that

[@thedudewashere1987]

@@mel_zzz_ Yeah, I went down a satanic ritual abuse rabbit hole and I swear my brain could not produce dopamine for a month afterwards. It really makes you wonder just what we're doing on this hypersonic, space rock.

[@tropicspenguin899]

I love her expressions so lively!

[@aeryinaviolet]

wow this girl really understands herself. I love it.

[@sarahe2274]

I love that people are willing to let others in so that people who aren't going through something specific can have a bit more understanding of the process or experience as well as empathy. She was very open and intelligent in explaining her own life experience. It sounds like she's doing well in her journey and I wish her all the best and brightest! Thank you for sharing 🌻

[@DugEphresh]

My man right here is a special kind of special. I used to think I had a wide range of understanding and acceptance, but I now understand I have so much more to learn.

[@hahagamergirlfinn8725]

Wish we could have a part 2 with her!

[@jesmer-sam3811]

I believe that DID is not multi personalities , it’s one personality fragmented into different parts. Although it feels like different personalities it’s one - but split and separate - and yes for me it can be noisy !! - it’s like having different aspects of myself - but in the identity forms and they are separate from each other . So they are fragments of one personality and can be different genders and at different ages etc they are all cut off from each other unless you work in therapy to inter grate them. You can communicate with them in written form or learn to tune into them to hear what they have to say. I can understand for some people , they may feel that it is multiple personalities. I know for some of my parts they feel they are their own person and not a part so it’s really depends on how they feel. ( I changed this comment ) so I hope its less upsetting for some )

[@glitterfaerie08]

🤍🤍🤍 Explained perfectly....Ive listened to all of mine and integrated myself after years of therapy xx

[@livormortis1219]

just a little correction, broken isn’t the best terminology to use. DID is formed during a part of development when the identity isnt fully merged, so instead of one whole breaking, there’s not a whole to begin with!

[@primaveraverano1664]

How did you know that?

[@tropiccat1207]

While this is technically true, please know that some systems perceive their alters as so different and like separate people that they don’t consider themselves as parts of one personality. Just calling them personalities instead of alters can feel strange because it implies we’re not our own people. Keep in mind with what systems are comfortable with before referring to them as such. -Amaryllis

[@jesmer-sam3811]

@@tropiccat1207 I apologise, - I changed my comment abit to try and be more respectful.

[@Potnia33]

It's interesting that she doesn't go in and out of the voices as she speaks, that it's just an inner dialogue DID.

[@arsena5209]

She doesn't because that's not how that works. These personalities usually don't just randomly and suddenly pop out and replace the main personality (the person with DID, the one who has it because of severe childhood trauma) out of nowhere for no reason. They don't randomly switch while their speaking and if they do it's not an instant switch and they would still have the voice of the body, the only thing that can possibly change is accent or how they speak.

[@ankkaah1809]

@@arsena5209 I think the og comment meant that she doesn't seem to talk about different personalities fronting that much. At least in media I've seen couple people with DID talk about how it can be hard when another personality takes over because of a trigger or so. But I guess it's different for everyone and/or it just wasn't part of this interview. I don't remember her channel anymore but she has DID and had a child personality as well and the change in the way she talked and carried herself changed a lot, she also called each personality by name and somewhat knew their ages. Or at least I believe its what the commenter meant. But I think the case for her is different about fronting and so on. If I'm wrong do correct me, I don't claim any of this as real and right info that's just the feeling I got and what I've learned so far.

[@pubalikalita4940]

@@ankkaah1809 60 minutes Australia .

[@MC-8]

The boyfriend is amazing

[@GLNZO9]

Yo, he sounds like he's explaining giving soup for a cold. Need more people like that.

[@rezyousuf4954]

He is a blessing to her, God.bless them and heal her mind in Jesus name.

[@sammieswheels72]

Actually, those of us with disabilities find this remark offensive. Why is someone glorified just for loving someone like us? Are we not worthy of love?

[@MC-8]

@@sammieswheels72 shame you took offense. I think he's amazing for being able to eloquently explain himself. When she told him, he could have run away. Many people run away from relationships for many reasons. But I think it's wonderful that he loves her so much he tries to understand her. That's a beautiful and inspiring thing. Everyone has their sh*t, nice to see a supportive partner

[@nahreallytho6583]

@@MC-8 he shouldn't be praised for 'not running away'. His backpack full of rocks metaphor was terrible and I think she felt that too

[@barbie3139]

great interview. hoping you find someone with chronic fatigue syndrome and/or fibromyalgia to bring those syndromes to light.

[@GeekGamer666]

This is a really insightful description of DID and how it's a fragmented inner dialogue. Edit: just a note, it's not a big deal to see a therapist but it is really important that you find someone you trust, and that makes you feel safe. You'll get much more out of it if you find that as well because you'll feel more able to open up.

[@Showkat_Dar]

Wow! Although i have seen this vid long ago but this still blows my mind everytime i see it . Human brain is amazing.

[@laratomasic]

i love the way she talks!

[@GEB-yy3ud]

I cried happy tears because I felt like all your interviews are with people just like me. Humans that want and need to be loved.

[@user-gs1et6sx4k]

I am so glad that this woman was able to get good therapy and that she has such a sweet, understanding and helpful boyfriend! Support of the closest ones is crucial

[@gina-aisha]

Wauw so strong and courageous how you talk about your systems, brought me tears and a sensation of feeling brave myself to cope with my own mental health situation to see how you are dealing with this. Thankyou so much Lauren for shining a light in this world. I think you´re a gorgeous soul

[@sapphicalix]

There’s a lot of misinformation about DID in this video. Alters in systems with DID are all equally valid people. There is no “original” alter and one person in the system does not have alters of themselves, each alter is a completely different person with their own name, ideas, interests, etc. DID happens with severe, *prolonged* childhood trauma. Lauren mentioned it could happen after an “invalidation” or one traumatic event. That’s just not true. It must be severe and prolonged trauma. Young children do not have an integrated personality which is why DID can only result from early childhood trauma, before the personality is integrated. DID works by not allowing the personality to integrate into a fully formed personality. The brain puts up amnesiac walls between each alter so that when each alter is “out” in the body, the other alters do not remember what happened, cannot access those memories. The point of the brain reacting the way it does with DID is that is forms these amnesiac barriers so that traumatic memories are stored away with certain alters and other alters are able to be out in the body and live a normal life. Most people don’t find out they have DID until later in life because of the way DID works. It’s not until they start losing time when other alters have been out, and seek professional help, do they normally receive a diagnosis. It typically takes years to receive one. Also the part where Lauren talked about alters being a threat to other people and having to “work hard” to stop that is just blatantly untrue. People with DID are MUCH more likely to be victims of abuse than ever perpetrate abuse themselves. They are no more likely to cause harm to others than any other typical person without DID. DID also isn’t “hearing a bunch of voices in your head.” Alters may be co-conscious at times and one alter would be able to hear another in this case, but typically one alter is out at a time and the other alters have no idea what happened when that alter was out. That’s the point of DID and how it works. To protect the brain with amnesiac walls and store away trauma. Only after a lot of work in therapy and having excellent communication between alters (talking in the inner world which is the shared space in the brain where alters are when they aren’t “fronting” (out in the body)) or using techniques like shared notebooks between alters to write notes to each other, etc., to communicate would amnesiac walls begin to lift and communication between alters become easier. However each alter is their own person and has their own relationship with each other alter (or no relationship at all) and each must work on their own relationship with all others in the system to achieve this level of communication. It’s often impossible to have it between all alters. Lauren hearing “6 voices” at a time and never talking about different alters fronting (or being out in the body) is just not what DID is. DID stands for *dissociative* identity disorder. It seems that Lauren isn’t experiencing any dissociation (which happens when other alters are fronting, or when switching between alters). She did not mention any at all. I don’t know if she’s officially diagnosed with DID, but not having severe dissociation and not having different alters front in the body at different times, would not meet the criteria to be diagnosed with DID. I just think this video is incredibly misinformative and that’s dangerous with a condition like DID that’s already highly stigmatized. Lauren saying alters can be dangerous further perpetuates the narrative that individuals with DID are dangerous and should be feared. This is just not true and I believe this video harms people with DID by perpetuating stigma and false information.

[@cbou713]

i think there is a lot of false information in this video as well, there are things that vary person to person (i know someone who definitely has DID and they share *most* of their memories.) I think learning what the basis of alters are is an important piece. another person i know has an alter, when fronting, is very prone to violence and anger. extremely. i think you just need to know about each person and how they act, the stereotype that people with disorders like DID, schizophrenia etc is unwarranted but if you know anybody personally i think it is okay and acceptable to ask questions, so you can both help them and, in the rare cases there are violent issues, prevent them as well. edit: i just want to emphasize that yes, i think lauren does not have DID at all, and is much closer to schizophrenia. it doesnt look like a combination of the two either. i hope i dont come off as offensive in saying you should be careful around people with these conditions, it’s just i have seen the worst of what happens. i personally am undiagnosed but have either some form of DID or have dissociation or psychotic issues, somewhere between the three and have bouts of very unsafe, irrational behavior.

[@redlady222]

You are amazing at describing what’s happening in your head. It really highlighted that you are NOT different than anyone else. We all have our different personalities that have different ideas, yours are just louder - and that makes dealing with the outside world a challenge some times. So well explained! Thank you!

[@MustardSeed786]

What an inspirational video for anybody going through any kind of mental health issue. Thanks to all involved!

[@VioletViolence]

I can't believe how much I relate. They're so well spoken and the interviewer is super respectful ♡

[@Rozebunny14]

Best wishes to this beautiful young lady. Thank you for sharing your story♥️ It's so good to hear all the people he interviews. That their feeling's and illnesses are valid and important. Especially to educate those that don't understand (especially the meanie's)so they can treat people that do have these illnesses with dignity and respect♥️♥️♥️ Thank you for bringing their stories to the world ♥️ God Bless

[@rebekahlikesmusic2723]

This guy is an amazing interviewer. I love this channel.

[@waitingforthecalm]

She is fortunate in my opinion to have communications at all. Having amnesiac DID is worse then you may think, you cannot heal from hidden wounds.

[@oneuptop5371]

I fully get when she say she like when people ask her questions about what she’s thinking like my mind is constantly going and just someone noticing the difference in your behavior and cares to ask and talk about how I’m feeling is the best relief I feel like...many people don’t have anybody to turn to or feel like they would be judged and makes alot of what’s going on with someone worse in my opinion that’s just how I feel I deal with depression anxiety and intermediate explosive disorder and being understood or having that somebody who genuinely cares and takes time to learn about the diagnosis is the best..I can’t explain how I fully want to hopefully someone gets it...I’m only 18 btw i try to feed my brain about these topics I feel like they don’t get taken serious enough we’re all human and we all have our special individual lives💙

[@mistie8908]

I know this interview was done a few months ago but had to comment on how brave this beautiful lady was to share her life with us. God Bless her and thank you for sharing this video

[@memyself7956]

She has such a great attitude & it sounds like therapy has really worked well for her which is nice to see. I can't imagine what it feels like to have 12 alters. But I loved the way she explained them & I hope they are kind to her.

[@veronicasantana6493]

I LOVE the way she explains us!!! She's AWESOME!!!

[@joellblankenship2791]

I really like the way that she explained herself I do have nine altars and it is hard to face and explain and have people understand that and I'm glad that she came to find herself in a place of acceptance on her own hopefully they all have accepted and now I'm more to come she did an excellent job I've never had it explained so well good job girl

[@joebloggs7956]

Peace and love to you all out there!

[@user-kk6ov4pd2s]

i appreciate this channel and the awareness that we receive

[@lupemiradademujer1]

Finally the comments are back your channel is amazing 💗💗💗

[@ChuggBingus]

its so interesting watching her facial expressions and body language compared to a neurotypical person. its like you can actually see the different voices trying to pull the strings via her muscles. :D

[@beccaa2919]

This was super informative, and interesting. Loved it

[@everythingdezire8039]

i love love love being able to get a better of understanding of people going through different things than me

[@Claudia-gu5rz]

I love the way her spouse used the backpack analogy for what she has to live with; “It’s like she has a bunch of rocks in a backpack and they weigh her down, and so it’s hard for her to walk sometimes, but she’s probably a lot stronger because of it.” 😭

[@allysonhomayounkhah2432]

Each time she survived something very traumatic she created a new fragment. She has twelve. No one should have something like that happen to them. Much less as a kid or 12 times

[@-valkyrie-00]

I've survived multiple traumatic events. I've never felt like a different personality each time though?

[@hxhdfjifzirstc894]

@@-valkyrie-00 Was it at a young age, or was your personality already fully developed? PS I recommend writing about your traumas in a journal, as a way of getting them out of your system. You don't have to show anybody, and you can shred it afterwards... but when you write it down on paper, it's like getting the poison physically out of you. Just write a bit, whenever you think of it.

[@goose4639]

@@-valkyrie-00 DID is more than "feeling" like a different personality. Also just because you experience trauma doesn't mean you're going to develop DID by default.

[@ScapegoatAngel]

No, it doesn't work that way, not all splits are created by major trauma. Once you had one and the floodgates were opened, they can just pop up by themselves as they please.

[@lynnetteberka9067]

I have worked with people who have DID. It usually happens when a person survived a traumatic event. My hat goes off to you.

[@FrancieMoon9]

Lauren is very brave and courageous for making this video! She is a very honest and authentic person. Every person has a specific purpose.

[@forever.meimei]

I have DID as well, remember that this episode isn't about everyone with DID is a beautiful way to get insight on how it can be 😍 I love this

[@New_Zealand_Music]

That was a lovely comment

[@s133p3r0]

Have you tried meditation? It's like a muscle, it gets stronger with practice. It may help calm the internal dialog.

[@forever.meimei]

@@s133p3r0 oof meditation is bad for us, we keep ending up in a rabbit hole of our old traumas ... but thank you for the suggestion tho!

[@s133p3r0]

@@forever.meimei Was there ever a time you didn't have it? Ibogaine can reset the brain to the point where someone can avoid heroin withdrawal completely, as well as cure PTSD, ocd, severe depression, etc, just an idea. Worth looking into.

[@forever.meimei]

@@s133p3r0 I did it with specialists so I have been trying it for my recovery. For a lot of people, it just doesn't work!

[@AB1111_]

Can I please make a suggestion for mental health issues - is it okay to try to explore how your interviewees sought diagnosis? What was the trigger for them to find an answer and how did they approach it? Did they talk to their FM/GP first? How did they get assessed etc? I think making these questions a regular for MH cases will help your audience who may be going through the same thing but unsure about what to do!! Thanks

[@SponzifyMee]

You don't seek a specific diagnosis, you talk with your GP who can then send you elsewhere, depending on your symptoms and statements.

[@yeldaRooBTKAM]

God am I learning so much from this channel? Well, yes. Thanks Chris.

[@swapticsounds]

"When she´s acting like somebody who she´s not" sounds like he has a relationship with not all of her personalities. "When her difficult fragments came forward" or something like this would be a more integrative. It is not about getting these "rocks" away but integrate them so that they can turn to gold (again), by the help of acceptance and patience.

[@michiganabigail]

This is really helpful to hear. I had no idea what it was like with DID!

[@BreedersSyndicate]

I can’t imagine how or why anyone would downvote any of these videos. You have to be heartless to not support this mans projects and the folks that bare their souls for the greater good. 💜

[@odettesmith8869]

Well done, you give opportunity to everyone to tell the world who they are, how they survive in sometimes their complex world without bias or judgement. It gives us the opportunity to understand someone’s life and realise that they are really just like all of us multifaceted within and wanting to be accepted by the rest of society.

[@cosmicsheep1938]

I'm happy to see someone else with this disorder that gets the same support and love. It was difficult growing up, because most people look at you like you're crazy. Keep being amazing, hun! And to the guy doing this, great job ♡♡♡

[@xythrial]

Isn’t it something you’re not diagnosed with until you’re an adult?

[@twiggyxfme1124]

@@xythrial yes a great majority of them do.

[@elastronaute1198]

I believe everyone DOES have those voices in their head that have conflicting messages. The difference is for someone with schizophrenia or these other disorders then the voices are actually literal voices, with other people they are just sort of opposing thoughts.

[@johnhickman106]

Excellent question referencing whether she considers herself singular or plural. For some reason, that grabbed my attention and shaped the way I listened to her responses throughout.

[@znowicotton5176]

Thank you for opening up and sharing ❤️

[@guidohoek5437]

Thank you both, so much! She or they is doing her very best and he is asking such great questions. Thanks!

[@thelordoftime803]

Therapists in my country usually ghost people like me with this same disorder because some of the international psychology community seems to be still unconvinced that this is a real issue and we're kinda difficult to deal with. Hopefully I get to move somewhere where the therapist won't just say "This is normal think for smart people", what a dumb concept...

[@New_Zealand_Music]

I've experienced the same thing I don't have this condition. But I was being treated by a public psychiatrist. And he said I can't diagnose you with anything I don't understand you you're too complicated, and he just discharged me. After that I decided I would never talk to a psychiatric registrar ever again. I felt like saying to him is there any one intelligent enough here who can. Namaste

[@POCCHAMAA]

I can relate, It’s hard knowing that some people out there believe that it isn’t real and it kinda sucks because it’s hard to find people who can help and people who understand.

[@sayat_nova]

@@New_Zealand_Music did i misunderstand or are you saying you are now a clinical psychologist now? phd? interested to know what country you are trained in

[@jon2813]

There’s no way to empirically prove that this disorder exists or test it. There’s not even clear criteria for it. It might as well be a mixture of different disorders

[@skittles696]

Its definitely a huge issue in the clinical psychology field. Im aiming to write my thesis on DID when I move into postgrad as it needs more research

[@marleenninaka1303]

Hi everyone: It's so nice to see you all again on KZbin. I want to meet you all one day. Take care and stay safe.

[@chubbs-thechubbyninja4719]

you want to meet me one day.... NO GO AWAYYY

[@tinachiasson3157]

I love the way you look at a person so attentive so kind so wonderful

[@janespurgeon3658]

This channel is really a big help. I'm learning.

[@northystwinkle6973]

this was a great interview she was really brave for talking about her did I loved how supportive her fiance is of her throughout the whole thing

[@sneksnacc7786]

I have OSDD-1B which is like DID but without an amnesia barer. Seeing stuff like this makes me happy

[@shara5985]

You're going to therapy?

[@sneksnacc7786]

@@shara5985 yes i am currently going to therapy

[@shara5985]

@@sneksnacc7786 Good for you! Hope everything goes well. 😊

[@Ashleyrae11]

I don’t mean to offend but it’s highly skeptical that you say you have a dissociative illness without amnesia. I’m not a doctor obviously but the two cancel each other out.

[@TheHeadincharge]

@@Ashleyrae11orrect, the appearance of multiple alters with no other dissociative symptoms is not in line with the diagnosis of DID… I’m concerned about the validity of the diagnosis. DID is a “fragmented” personality, not multiple personalities living and switching control within one person, a common misconception of the disorder.

[@kirenarts7518]

Thank you for handling this interview so well and not asking her to switch on camera. You're such a good interviewer!-Rea + Lexie

[@floridapunkun5121]

I absolutely love this girl..💖I’ve learned so much of this channel 🙏🏼 even though I don’t know anyone like this it’s always nice to learn about other people

[@kathyinwonderlandl.a.8934]

All of you are beautiful and it must be hard having twelve of you! If anyone could enjoy life it’s you! I’m glad your boyfriend is caring of all of you lol…

[@phoenixblue-koszalka1518]

​@@angelfirelite No she doesn't. DID is a very real mental illness that stems from childhood trauma. She has to live with it, as do all of her alters. Learn your facts and shut it with the hatred, bro.

[@chelseapoet3664]

@@angelfirelite that's like saying she needs someone to drain her blood or she needs to be thrown in the water to see if she floats. We've outgrown such nonsense.

[@altroeticalembrieodyssey3351]

I meant a crucifixion.

[@cynthiadavid5282]

All the videos are uplifting god bless these people

[@cynthiadavid5282]

Her boyfriend is amazing and so supportive he loves her foe her

[@beka6275]

my sister has DID and its so true that although their minds work differently, they're just people and have suffered some extreme trauma sometimes so the way that they cope is from other voices in their heads.

[@Bonita.ch1]

Cutest couple! You can see their kindness in their eyes! Bless them both

[@aphysique]

Absolutely...You look stunning in your pic as well

[@zakbrand7354]

She's amazing! You can do anything you put your mind to and more

[@isabelah3023]

I didn’t know DID could be like this! Super insightful!

[@heysaucemikehere1804]

Me neither! I’ve always known it to be along the lines of people like Multiplicity and Me. They reminded me when they said different conditions come in so many different forms!

[@Rojo731]

It sounds like a personification of thoughts we all have to an extent. Like it's her, segmented. She's great!

[@quinnj3296]

I understand where you're coming from but it's really not. DID is a lot more than that. Alters/Parts in DID are able to take on executive function over the body, which is never the case with personification of thoughts. (This btw also sets apart DID from Schizophrenia) There also is no amnesia associated with personification of thoughts. Lastly, anyone can intuitively or deliberately (e.g. some therapist may use the Internal Family System (IFS) model with their patients) personify their conflicting thoughts but DID only forms through intense and prolonged trauma without proper care before the ages of 7 - 9 (usually even before the ages of 4 - 6). The ultimate difference is that in DID, one's very core, one's identity, was unable to integrate into one coherent identity. While many disorders and honestly, just paths of life, may come with conflicting thoughts and identity confusion, only DID (and OSDD-1 in the DSM or P-DID in the ICD to be very precise) come with this profound fragmentation of self and in turn this identity alteration.

[@Rojo731]

I am definitely familiar with IFS. And your explanation is very thorough, thank you. It is fascinating how our brains work and often difficult to fully comprehend. I think when somebody comes across as together and upbeat as she is coming across in this interview, it i's hard to understand there are very distinct and probably sometimes difficult processes and issues underlying. I think she is absolutely terrific and hope for all of the best for her.

[@liamishated]

At 1:55 “I hope that they don’t think of me as too different than themselves” me too, me too. My counselor wants me to get tested for DID and currently waiting to get a new case manager because the one we had wasn’t doing 💩 and taking her time with things. Also not to mention how sweet Chris is, always have loved his channel ❤ love how her bf was brought in the video too and how he said it isn’t hard to love her!

[@lj2659]

Her makeup is amazing!! She’s so gorgeous

[@rooksmith6930]

i have this as well, and am plural. talking with those who aren't neuro-divergent is often difficult for them to understand things. she's really amazing! I wish i could meet someone understanding and supportive like her fiance is to her!! 💖💖

[@lorainisrael]

I don't even want to try explaining, why? All my husband needs to know is that I had traumatic childhood and that I'm not quite normal. When I start loosing control I either try to avoid people or I tell my husband that I don't feel well and that he needs to be careful and not take things personally. He understands and respects that, I don't think he needs to understand more. What I need to do is to work on communication and agreements with my headmates to make sure no one of them screws my marriage. As they are all me, and they all have my best interest in mind, it's not that hard to convince them. It doesn't always work perfectly but I don't see how telling people around me would help. It would be too much to ask them to understand things which hard to understand even for me.

[@idrinkmilk282]

Neurodiversity covers many conditions each with their own symptoms and requirements for understanding. Impossible for a person to be prepared for all of them.

[@Beatrizbulsara]

I bet they're all amazing cause they're segments of an amazing personality!

[@11amanie]

I’m Muslim, and what she is telling in the beginning is amazing to me! Amazing individual

[@lindseybotelho]

I'm so glad she found a knowledgeable, supportive and caring counselor. DID is not only stigmatized by society but it's also often stigmatized and not believed by mental health workers.

[@paulmilsom1092]

yep, The interviewer has a wonderful empathy, a rare individual...

[@gamayundoom]

Waiting for the gacha kids/dream stans to come say they have DID.

[@samanthamarie6012]

She seems so outgoing on confident.i would never guess that there was anything different about her.

[@shannsimms9072]

Super interesting to hear this explained by somebody who has it. I've only ever saw it on TV

[@lorriefinley3129]

I really appreciate this channel. It really helps validate me with my Disabilities and Mental Illness.

[@jupitertheplanet.]

one of my least favorite parts of DID is when people ask "can you switch to [alters name] i wanna talk to them." no. i cannot. i dont control who fronts. just deal with me for now lmao.

[@estrellassoliloquies]

Bless you for being human, that we often forget to be..💙

[@lc237]

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

[@dfwdfw9544]

I would love to hear professionals discuss her case. DID remains a controversial diagnosis.

[@papasm3rf952]

I agree with the other side...its just extreme role play...

[@wadecohagan2388]

hey , in what counties? I dont think the great U.S. of A. minds

[@juliusroman8616]

There's Multiplicity and Me, that goes into depth with this because they have this.

[@leonewton253]

She has amazing energy!

[@ronanevans3661]

so much love for you beautiful person inside and out I live you all guys 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@donnyrosart8714]

It's interesting thinking about this disorder coming from a sort of schizophrenic background. When I've heard voices--I may know that they're generated in my own brain (although at times, there's the strong delusion/illusion that the source is external, whether that somebody's thoughtcasting, or actual external voices are heard, I remember early on having the delusion that the fillings in my teeth were picking up radio signals or something). We're admonished against confusing the two conditions. But some comparison does seem to be valid, in both cases the idea of misattribution of the internal dialog comes into play. In both cases the voices are internal, in the case of schizophrenia, they're interpreted as external entities, mostly, where in DID they're interpreted as in some sense alternate "self"--and seem to be described as more cohesive, less fragmented. Two very different conditions, but I don't know how somebody could experience schizophrenia, having some insight into their own condition, as I do, and still doubt dissociative identity disorder as a distinct condition.

[@revertingthemoldways]

Thank you for sharing the stories of those who have been diagnosed with these abilities. I'm tired/ fed up of seeing people pretending as if they have personality disorders or tourettes for 5 seconds of attention... smdh..

[@gloriapetropoulos6977]

Brilliant show...so helpful.💚

[@Jsh465]

Great interview. You are the best.