SPEEDPAINT ✧ SELF DEFENSE.

CW: rape mention, sexual assault
this piece is about rape culture and the reaction to women defending or protecting themselves. they're demonized and framed as "crazy" when more often enough, their actions make sense in the context of... literally wanting not to die.
i wanted to prompt viewers to look a little closer. look at what's really happening. sometimes what appears monstrous or crazed is actually the product of a much more distressing situation.
time taken: appx. 8 hours
music:
the xx - island
panic! at the disco - let's kill tonight
contact
✧twitter: / heartmush
✧tumblr: / hrtmsh
✧insta: / hrtmsh

[@NonnyStar88]

This needs way more attention, I can't even explain how much I love the symbolism in this piece that calls out the horrible shit that society does (victim-blaming, demonizing the victim, etc.)

[@infamous2729]

bruh.. plz post your bullshit anywhere but here I dare u

[@urdadsleftasshole69]

@@infamous2729 w h a t

[@marklorem]

@@infamous2729 what??

[@NonnyStar88]

@@infamous2729 Explain, i'm very interested. Read the description of the video.

[@infamous2729]

@@NonnyStar88 I mean what I just posted in case where ur including blm terrorism in subject. If not - my bad.

[@turtlebunny9386]

This is a really cool piece - I especially like the spotlight effect and the abrupt turn of her head

[@s.e.k135]

I really thought the sketch layer was the final piece 😔😔

[@joepapa1633]

Same :(

[@joepapa1633]

@@melissatangnami132 ikr

[@ChibiRandom13]

This is both a beautiful piece and you framed it really well for what you were trying to say with it; the spotlight being on her face instead of on the two hands holding weapons (but the one we do see is hers), the spotlight not looking fully at her bruised and beaten body, the demon wings, differently colored eyes, and stakes instead of knives giving the viewer a feeling like "even though it was self-defense he had a reason" the common excuse in trials, the only defining feature of the guy being a cross bracelet hanging out of his glove. This piece really shows exactly how adversely people react to women protecting themselves in a rape situation. You did an amazing job

[@heartmush]

thank you so much ;; you really hit the nail on the head!

[@kys_ashh]

Yes u-u

[@bambimonstahh]

I love your art to much! It pains me to even hear of people, of any gender, of being raped. It's a horrible horrible thing that no one should go through....

[@cannibalbunny]

It really is fucking horrible, physically, but ESPECIALLY mentally. It fucks you up so bad

[@vyasuna]

hell yeah its disgusting

[@Bebe-rn2fh]

rape is disgusting, no shit. a common misconception is, society thinks the reason why people get raped is because of the way they dress or the way they act. the true reason why rape exists is because of the rapists. the sad thing is, people still blame it on the victims.

[@NameName-yj7lp]

@@Bebe-rn2fh what you wear isn’t the reason and I hate when people think it’s cus of that You could cover up as much as you can and it still happens It’s awful

[@Sorcyri]

@Wasabi Lover Exactly. Rape can lead to death for a lot of victims anyway, some people just can't cope. A person has every right to defend themselves, by any means necessary, even killing. There's a difference between justified killing and murder. If you're going out of your way to INTENTIONALLY hurt someone physically, mentally or emotionally, IMO, you aren't deserving of the life you've been gifted with anyway.

[@littleoni6706]

Finally someone that don't sexualize rape or make it into some sexual appealing stuff, i love your art a lot

[@raiwll5647]

same

[@candydream16]

Agreed, people who sexualize that is a HUGE red flag. The people okay with it, joke about it, or sexualize it are very likely to be abusive. Society needs to take this more seriously.

[@lorenzokk3120]

like, people try to write fanfics with kpop and shit like this, the fanfics is like "i was in the street and xing xong kidnaped and raped me, and after i married him"like wtf

[@waterdrinker4033]

@MelodicWolf Many of my sexual kinks come from my trauma, at first it was difficult to accept, it is still sometimes pretty difficult to accept, I feel so ashamed for finding things that are so close to my trauma attractive, but if that's I cope then that's I cope.

[@pat_the_khan2837]

I like the fact that people see her as a demon yet she really is just a girl who is trying to protect herself from the assulter

[@riririnmaru5672]

oh my god this is from a year ago, its gorgeous either way

[@yelfog]

I dont understand how anyone would dislike this video, it has such a stong message and on top of that the details in the art are amazing such as the spotlight focused on her face. Even if they are disliking the video just cause it became popular, how would they have the presence of mind to go out of the way to dislike. People are crazy man

[@Hyena_Heckler]

ikr, im going through the comments rn and the amount of people calling the artist an SJW is fucking insane.

[@hereisahuman5977]

@@Hyena_Heckler Try not to give the trolls attention ^^

[@totallynoteverything1.]

@@Hyena_Heckler I hate SJWs but this art is good, the message too

[@zahramulsi2968]

Illusive[Brick] what’s an SJW?

[@dizzledazzlez8666]

@@zahramulsi2968 Well from my understanding it stands for Social Justice Warrior. It’s basically used as a mocking name for “Very Progressive” and very left wing people.

[@hycovers]

consent is always needed. not saying ‘no’ doesn’t mean they said yes. this artwork is absolutely amazing. great job

[@plumeria72]

Holy crap! This piece is not only beautiful but extremely powerful. Congrats on getting your message across in a clear and concise way! It’s hard to do that effectively in art.

[@dreamerbell_]

The message is really strong. Makes me so sad that this happens all the time...

[@dogsonjupiter]

the entire piece is really incredible, but i liked the cross around the man's wrist. this is just how i interpreted it, but the excuse of someone being religious and therefore is innocent really invalidates the victim's experience and the trauma that was inflicted upon them. also, the bat wings (or demon wings in this case), could show how rape survivors coming out are told that they ruined the assaulter's life. that it wasn't the man's fault, that this devilish woman came and tempted him, that the only mistake he made was giving into sin. i'm not sure if that's what you meant, but either way great work!!

[@prettyspectrum6371]

Loved the effect of the light on her!! That with her eye was such a nice detail. Looked really like we just spotted a murder in the woods. The light went straight in what we would aim in that situation, her, and leaving the rest aka the aggressor and wings in the darkness.

[@lemon6531]

I love the message you’re portraying and your artstyle

[@toothyeyes6514]

I was gonna skip to the end LIKE A FOOL when the first 3 second intrigued me immediately and of course I had to watch all of it.

[@s.e.k135]

Holy nuggets, just realized you stayed up all night painting this piece.

[@heartmush]

happens a lot (a/n: do not do this)

[@extrablandchaos2149]

Theres something about the way you draw her face in this that makes me want to cry. Its amazing, and I'm glad this video has gained steam.

[@Nikartsy]

I reeeeally like your workflow. I've never thought of sketching/coloring/shading at the same time to get your idea out. I usually just sketch. I'd like to try this 🙀

[@blue-rz2hq]

Its such a powerful and emotional piece that even before seeing the description i knew it had a very important message behind it. I knew it was trying to say something

[@hauralins]

Omg! Where can i start? I found your video in my recommendations, I thought it would be just a drawing depicting something simpler, but the message portrayed in this work is so strong and important that I am very happy to know that there are artists who use their art to make extremely important criticism for our society! It gave me a new perspective on art.

[@Scoobinus]

I said "oh hi brendon" out loud

[@bluerabb]

oh my god i’ve been looking for this video for years. it was my first representation of sexual assault and the first thing that showed me that what happened to me wasn’t right. thank you artist.

[@heartmush]

i'm so sorry that happened to you. but i'm glad that my piece was able to sit with you throughout those horrible times, and show you that you're not at fault. wishing you lots of love 🩷

[@bluerabb]

@@heartmush ❤️ thank you

[@UwU-lm9or]

I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS ONLY GETTING RECOMMEND NOW 😭 BUT GIRLLL THE TALENT YOU HOLD

[@lylabroflovski4132]

oh my GOD this is AMAZING the style, the message, the process, JUST EVERYTHING IS AMAZING it's soooo goood

[@lylabroflovski4132]

and thia is the video that started it all for me and now i gotta sleep, will continue tomorrow!!

[@keebiecoo7420]

this is gorgeous, i understood exactly what it meant before even reading the description

[@poptartpoltergeist9765]

A beautiful piece with a meaning? Even better! Stay safe out there y'all, don't be afraid to protect yourself at any cost.

[@isabelr.6713]

You know what's better than pretty art THOUGHT-PROVOKING PRETTY ART

[@sunflowers-in-tulips6705]

This is a fantastic artwork, the lighting adds so much atmosphere and you have gotten the message across masterfully.

[@rhyiansmistaques2693]

Not sure how I should feel with this coming up on my recommended but regardless amazing work ✨

[@ilobyew5319]

the painting is too good that I cant bare to watch😖

[@zipzedziltch1813]

The way you whipped out the coloring before the sketch made me SCREAM IN PAIN

[@grimreaper_cz]

This is amazing, beutiful. I want to just give her a hug :,,(

[@bellad0nna145]

see, I don't usually click on speedpaints in my reccomendations. but this one caught my eye, there was something about it that made me click. it's just great. the meaning is no worse.

[@flamgh2748]

I love this drawing very much! the concept and the way to do it.

[@goose4349]

this is an old video but youtube recommended it to me from my watch later, this is really good and with a really important message too. I haven't watched any of your newer stuff but I judging by the thumbnails your art progressed even better from this piece, I wish your art journey well.

[@imthecoolestguyalive]

Genuinely scary... An amazing work of art, I'm really out of words to describe how horrifying it is, and how, sadly, true it is as well.

[@Bright--Light]

At the same time it manages to be beautiful is also tense, but congratulations because it is wonderful and has a great message ❤

[@henryhog4783]

The closer I look throughout the speedpaint I realized she had a reason to do what she is doing. I looked at the description of the video and saw what it was about. Amazing work.

[@sheepflock9025]

tw: implied/mention of sexual assault and rape . . . watching this again after being a victim of sexual assault by my ex partner, it feels even more meaningful now; the fact that the victim looks a bit like me is kind of funny. the spotlight can represent so many things when someone goes through rape or similar: society throwing all fault upon them, "maybe they have "provoked" it or "asked" for it in some way", "but it wasn't that bad" or "what they did wasn't necessary" like in the drawing. it's also terrible how it can even be a spotlight that the person puts on themselves, thinking that they deserved it or it was their fault in the end, and it's _so_ hard to make it go away. you did such an amazing job on this piece and on it's meaning, thank you for making it

[@THETANEMOIA]

the sudden switch to Panic threw me off so much but I love the art

[@emilyx5401]

This is awesome!!! Your style is super cool! The message behind the piece is also amazing, I've always wished that more people could think be more thoughtful of victims who were forced to hurt their attackers, so I appreciate this piece so much😭😭

[@bubblebobbler]

Rape is disgusting, but we should treat male victims just as women. Most of the time, men aren't taken seriously and aren't believed.

[@monke2229]

nobody said that we shouldnt

[@bubblebobbler]

@@monke2229 I know, but you have to admit, and so do I, even as a woman myself, that cases with men are treated quite differently

[@bananap33l43]

@@bubblebobbler I Will say that Ive noticed the perpetrators seem to be men no matter what, but the victims can more often vary

[@bubblebobbler]

@@bananap33l43 that's what nobody's understanding. A man can get raped by a woman!

[@monke2229]

@@bubblebobbler thats def true but it always feels weird to bring it up as if everyone who supports women victims doesnt care abt men, just makes me think of those reddit commenters who think everyone hates men, tho thats a personal thing i guess, ur def right of course

[@okiedokie2840]

i have no idea why but this is my favorite drawing ever..

[@scorpion3207]

i totally got what you meant by this as soon as i saw it. her expression and the way her head looks like she just got caught it really beautiful to me.

[@marybear2024]

I love all the colors and the light, shadows, everything is so perfect in this piece

[@suree861]

Woah i just got a shiver after looking at the thumbnail and i just had to click, and the thing is, it only happens when i see or hear really good things. This looks awesome!!!

[@silvapop9666]

This is wild to watch cause it's like doing 3 steps at once You sketch color and ink at the same time, which is wiiild

[@sheriffsushi6317]

Hey! Super late but what brushes did you use? They look super interesting. Also such an amazing piece !

[@chipifarts]

Wow your art progress is insane

[@Chchommi]

This piece is already such a masterpiece but a detail I haven’t seen many people talk about in this comment section is the crucifix bracelet the offender is wearing, that’s such small yet perfect detail I saw that o thought needed more love.

[@HonestLettuce]

Thank you for making this art piece, indeed r*pe is quite complicated, most assume that the r*pe is someone forcing themselves on you. But it can take a whole host of forms, physical, emotional, mental and coersive (blackmailing into being r*ped) even your partner can r*pe you, as i have learned, from my experience it can damage you without you knowing, i didn't know i had anxiety until my recent male fling, as we snuggled in bed i immediatly went into panic mode. If any of you have ever had a needy or over-bearing partner before you might unconsciously be suffering from anxiety, if you flinch away from snuggling in bed, go get some counsiling, and please be well. :)

[@AsterBeCastin]

POWERFUL SOCIAL COMMENTARY

[@darkx6869]

This expresses so much, I love this so much. I may not have been a victim but I understand.

[@uhm-productions.7736]

This is so good, but so messed up. It kinda made me really sad when I realized the true meaning.

[@wovvme]

Bro i love your style so much

[@sunkenblaidd]

omg the linework omg

[@salammi6903]

Broooo your art need morea attention u are amazing 💞

[@whateveraj4496]

this is so cool, you can really see the message and emotions going through the poor girl. Amazing job :)

[@lenahabibmbaye3741]

Such a unique process tho

[@Atte_Rios]

I don't know u, and u don't know me, but i love u, cuz the song u put in ur vid, remembered me to a song i was searching for like 6 years i think, and yes, I FINALLY FOUND IT. Not exactly this song, but the artist, the song is Angels

[@yeeeyeee8713]

Brun your rough sketch is better than my whole piece

[@Hallucise]

This is gorgeous oh my god

[@floating_spoon]

how have i not known about you before your art is so goodd!!

[@squarish1414]

It's been almost exactly 2 years, and they're still hearting comments, mad respect.

[@karticurry8947]

This is a really awesome piece!! I really love the symbolism and the way you portray them acting out in self defense!

[@ВоронЭобард]

That hit hard...

[@rougestarlight4308]

I love your style and how you portray the situation

[@sussybaka6567]

Thank you for the awareness!!!!

[@nume2621]

I love this piece of artwork so much. Thanks for letting us see the process.

[@ewcringe-pc4dk]

your art is so beautiful, im glad this was recommended to me by youtube

[@JSCYA]

you have the most unique sketch process i've ever seen

[@nobody-can-kn0w]

I love vibes like this, please keep the great work up

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[@TimmyChalk]

That style is fucking amazing

[@KashewKiddo3826]

New viewer here! I really love the composition on this drawing. Your art style is simple but very effective, and i really like the fact that there’s a small but tragic story in this piece. Great work!

[@T_Teobokki]

This is a beautiful drawing with such a good meaning, congratulations 💖💖💖

[@James-wc9eq]

you're so good omg how

[@nauzeaaaa]

This is actually amazing change my mind

[@Shatokatagayu2]

Bro what the the heck. This is really cool!

[@jonazbermudez7638]

I really like your line work and coloring it really helps sell the drawing to me

[@txtea3135]

I love your art so much! I'm definitely subbing

[@everestlol4309]

absolutely stunning artwork, deep message. Amazing.

[@ur_best_Lil_Man]

I LOVE THE XX

[@SoloDust]

this is so amazing oh my god 😭

[@soledadcontreras8453]

Based on the thumbnail, i thought you were going to draw flaky from htf.... Honestly this is much better!! I love this

[@uninexo215]

Essa arte é realmente profunda, seu estilo de arte é lindo, parabéns!!

[@hosewater6665]

Wow!! Awesome art style and song choices lol you definitely have a new subscriber here!!!!!

[@rotsu2108]

lovely music taste!

[@carbonado3905]

Why is this only now showing up in my fyp this shit is fucking amazing

[@twilightsparklingg]

Love this piece, Im still thinking of it a year after first seeing the finished drawing!

[@plainschun]

this art style fire

[@gennaroink6265]

I love your style

[@weirdalofficialvevo]

amazing work and message!

[@aweckzs]

soooo cool ive been looking for inspiration and this is definitely it! i love your process and their expression

[@nikkygtv]

amazing artwork

[@guivieira2434]

I want to give my eyes to this

[@wiamelabbassi3712]

Perfectly portrayed!!

[@RookieR00k13]

This is amazing and I love the message!

[@AS-ln9zg]

When I saw the cross on his glove, I was laughing.Isn't this so hilarious ? And the wings behind her also made me laugh. The criminal is the believer and the victim is the demon.What a terrible world it is.

[@pelonisa]

Beautiful art with great background music