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@errortrek2290 3 ай бұрын

My cat just died about 30 minutes ago... he was completely fine, everything was normal, he was 4 Years old and didnt hurt a fly, thougt hed grow old and that i knew when the time would be to let go, always liked Bellyrubs... Its now 3am, its cold and we have to bury him under a big tree in the garden... He didnt have any type of diseases prior, we always bought the healthiest food, we did everything right, he wasnt allowed to wander the neighbourhood because we thougt cars would be a great danger. I dont know why this is happening... it happened so fast, i had a nightmare, my mom woke me up. I dont know anymore... it feels so surreal... i dont know how tomorrow, the following days or weeks will feel... our other cat doesnt understand whats going on, she never purred as loud as when my mom took her in her arms just now, maybe shes trying to calm herself... This feels like it wasnt supposed to happen, like... i dont know anymore... My mom, dad both religious, but i dont believe in any of that, they say that he must be in a nice place now, but i cant shake the feeling that he only lives in our memorys, that with each passing year the memory fades more and more, im scared of the day the world without him feels normal. I feel like i just want to get out of this world, and if he is somehwere, in some weird place outside of this reality, in some spiritual/religious plane, i want to be where he is. But im probably just thinking that he is somewhere because the thougt of him not existing around has become so impossible to me, like all he is now is a memory in my head, a memory i would want to hang onto forever, but since im still young myself i know ill probably forget most of the normal days of my current life, and i already feel so guilty for that ... i never ran downstairs faster, the feeling of his heart not beating... This isnt right, he always came to me when i was sad whenever i cried he was there for me, he always purred and came to cuddle on my bed and whenever he was scared, for examample of the fireworks on silvester i took him into my arms and tried to calm him down, i was there for him like he was for me... now i am in bed again and no one is coming to try and calm me down... i just want everything to be how it was, i was always a nostalgic person, but i never ever wanted to live in the past as damn much as now. Perhaps when im 80 years old, with dementia i am allowed to remember him again, with everything great, before i join him, whether just in death or in some place beyond. This video was recommended at weirdly this exact time, I don't believe that things are made to happen but it does seem peculiar that the timing was so exact

@PsychoJosh 3 ай бұрын

A few years ago I lost a cat out of nowhere similarly. She was breathing weird and she just died. Don't worry, you're not alone. Eventually we have to say goodbye to our pets anyways, have no regrets, as long as you gave them the most comfortable life free of fear and hunger there is nothing to regret.

@errortrek2290 3 ай бұрын

@PsychoJosh I know, I just feel like if I searched for some signs they would've been there, like if we put one of these Vital signs monitoring chips on hin we mightve seen it come and could've done something against whatever what is was that went wrong. I dont know, I just feel like we didn't do enough, there must have been a way to have seen it, there simply had to be something

@novz5125 3 ай бұрын

Jesus loves you stay strong losing a pet can be devastating and can ruin your day but just know on the other side of clouds is the bright light we call the sun I remember having to put down our bulldog this was before school as well and I felt like a piece of me was gone but if we let this happen then we will slowly destroy ourselves remember that nothing last forever and that is the beauty of life the only thing that is internal is the love and peace and salvation of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ please give God a chance he’s waiting for you to come back.

@zombotrombo7029 3 ай бұрын

@@novz5125 read the last line bruv

@mr.goodboi2780 3 ай бұрын

It's weird how these things tend to happen. Something similar happened last year when I lost my cat with a video playlist. Y'know it's surprising how even a cat dying can mess up your whole life. Life hasn't been the same since I lost mine, I just miss her love and weird quirks. Animals are so simple at times but they always have a certain love and devotion that isn't the same as between humans. I also agree with you that times are bleak. It wasn't the only thing that went wrong, I have health issues, my family does, and the state of the world right now is kinda meh. If it makes you feel better just know there are others going through the same stuff. You aren't the only one, and sometimes other people letting me know that is enough for things to be okay. And sometimes things aren't going to be okay and that's okay and it's okay to vent that. But most of the time even through that we end up floating on or getting by somehow. Just keep going, dude. Even if you're numb the feeling will eventually come back. It's the best you can do. Hopefully if you go far enough there will be something new to love or be nostalgic over.