Struggling with Depression: A Japanese Creator's Challenges at the Start of the New Year

The new year began, and I wanted to start it off on a positive note. However, I've been unable to sleep due to anxiety, my ability to think clearly has diminished, and I've lost physical strength. The reason behind the recent decrease in my video postings on KZbin, Instagram, and TikTok is explained in this video.
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A brief self-introduction:
I am a content creator based in Tokyo, Japan. I share content on TikTok, Instagram, and KZbin. In addition to my role as a content creator, I work as a photographer and videographer, collaborating with various camera equipment companies. If you are interested in working with me, please feel free to send an email.
My dream is to travel the world and continue sharing positive content with people. I strive every day to achieve this goal and move forward.
I want more people to appreciate the beauty of photography. To achieve this, I create content introducing camera equipment to spark interest in people worldwide.
I would be delighted if you could follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and subscribe to my KZbin channel.
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Instagram : / yuus.adventures
For business inquiries : [e-mail]
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My Gears
Camera : Sony α7RV, Sony α7iii, Sony α7C, Insta360
Gimbal : DJI RS2 PRO , DJI RS3 MINI , MOZA AIRCROSS S
Light : Aputure, SmallRig, Zhiyun, Ulanzi
Filter : PolarPro, Haida
Mic : Rode, Shure, Hollyland
Monitor : Hollyland
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tags:
#MentalHealth
#Depression
#NewYearStruggles
#CreatorChallenges
#JapaneseKZbinr
#MentalHealthAwareness
#ContentCreatorLife
#StrugglingWithAnxiety
#KZbinJourney
#SelfCare
#NewYear2024
#OvercomingChallenges
#CreatorsCommunity
#PersonalStruggles
#ShareYourStory

[@lisamoore1833]

Thanks!

[@lessagivens7263]

This chapter of your life is going to be so amazing. "Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement." I believe in you!

[@leelabet]

Being a self employed creator is a tough business. I have several artist friends who learned the hard way. They trusted their clients and some let them down. Main piece of advice is in future get 50% payment in advance, if you are not already doing this. You are not a charity.

[@Ginny2708]

That’s great advice, about getting a 50% advance, I mean.

[@bahe_9465]

saya rasa tidak bisa percaya dengan client 100%, this is business, not a charity

[@JoyfulHippy]

I agree. At least cover your costs up front.

[@redchen3682]

This is true. Some freelancers when they are starting also don't have a contract and low ball themselves just to get clients. However, if you know the value of you can provide and the client don't see that, usually by always negotiating to lower the price, you find another client somewhere else.

[@JoyfulHippy]

@@redchen3682 my son is a creative freelancer and he learnt the hard way too. Now, he knows his worth and values both himself and his work. If people don't want to pay your prices let them go elsewhere.

[@christopherhiggins2350]

I'm so very sorry to hear you've been feeling like this. As a content creator myself, I understand. Know that you're a beautiful soul with so much to give. It's inspiring that, even with you being down, you still put together this video and shared something so personal and vulnerable in front of your large audience. I couldn't have done that. Things will get better. Hugs.

[@Carol61347]

Thanks

[@jgabm2]

You are a beautiful soul and I hope you can overcome this difficult period of your life. Stay strong

[@kiwigirljacks]

Very generous! ❤

[@agnieszkagowacka6996]

Dear Yuu, please remember that you are not alone. Many people, even though not physically present with you, support you mentally and emotionally. I am grateful that you share your thoughts and feelings with the world. You don't have to be always joyful and supportive - nobody is like that 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. Sharing thoughts with others is one of the steps to lessen the burden that each of us somehow carries. If you feel the need, I'm willing to support you and work with you holistically (energetically) - you won't have to do anything, or as a holistic therapist, I can share knowledge about simple releasing techniques/tools. Regarding work, finances, and self-realization - we always do what we can, and in reality, we never truly make mistakes (it's just our perception). I understand that it's not easy to assert what you deserve. I hope your client will explain everything to you and commit to repayment, even if it's not immediate. In return, other clients and opportunities will come. I admire your growth and the way you live and develop. I support you.Regards. Aga

[@kiwigirljacks]

Sorry that you’ve had this stress Yuu. Rest as much as you can. Even if it’s just naps, they will help for now. Give your cats lots of cuddles and know we are all here for you.

[@irisvaran4038]

Things will be better soon!

[@Mathilda391]

You are a good creator, don’t give up, dear friend.

[@Sg0212a]

Yuu, you're breaking my heart. Please don't give up on your dreams. This might be a rough patch but it will help you grow stronger and you will learn coping skills

[@Meep12458900]

Hi Yuu-san, thank you for sharing something so personal and difficult. I am sorry that you are going this. You're a wonderful creator, so please don't doubt that. Its okay not to be positive all the time because you're human and sometimes things are difficult. I hope that everyday will get a little easier for you and that little things bring you joy!

[@watrgrl2]

Hey Yuu. I’m so sorry you are going through this right now. Considering how bad 2024 started in Japan with the Earthquake and the Airplane disaster I imagine that is also adding to your current stresses. It’s really difficult to start any business but you have some very heavy burdens that you are carrying as well which would make any one of us struggle with insomnia, anxiety etc. our bodies aren’t mean to carry heavy stress for long periods of time and eventually it takes it’s toll. Please see your doctor if you have one to see what they might suggest. You are such a wonderful person I hate to see you suffering like this. I am praying for your situation. May God give you guidance and success.

[@BTK-999]

Thank you about all your beautiful Videos 🙏💖💖💖

[@ShortLoriT]

My heart is filled with compassion for you as you face difficulty and emotional hardships. You are so thoughtful and I admire your strength and stability very much. Please do not feel that being a content creator is the only path for your life. God has given you many talents. In addition to fulfilling your dream as a content creator, there may be other careers that would work well in connection. I wonder if perhaps you should consider the possibility of the field of psychology. You have overcome abuse and hardships and many hurtful things and survived them. You did not let those things make you an angry person. Instead, you have empathy for others and can understand people who struggle. You would be a really good psychologist that people could go to for advice and compassionate help because you understand and care for hurting people in a way that others cannot relate, due to your experiences. I am praying for you and believe that brighter days are ahead. Cheering you on!

[@matthewjay660]

Yuu-kun, this was a healthy exposé. You shared your feelings with us instead of keeping it all bottled in, AND you featured it in English when it would have been easier to just do it in Japanese. Brother, you've grown! Here's an American hug. 🤗🇺🇸🤝🇯🇵

[@CrazySquirrelProductions]

Don't wait too long. It's business so if they don't pay up, that's just like stealing from you. It may be time to send them a warning letter. But after you resolve this, you need to establish an emergency fund equal to at least three months essential expenses. I do hope this resolves positively for you. Stay strong and understand that it's not you that created this dilemma.

[@Sumoclau]

Danke!

[@wendibrown7550]

Yuu, I understand your pain. I also suffer from depression and an anxiety disorder. Put your troubles aside for now, sleep, play with your cats, and take a break. In a few days, it will be time to get up and start fighting! Be gentle with yourself. These hard times will pass, and you’ll be able to get back to what you love doing. I will be holding you in my heart and in the light ❤

[@gabyheusden9179]

Hi Yuu! How very brave of you to verbalize your current state of mind and emotions! You are put on this earth for greatness whether or not you allow yourself to believe that now. I will pray for you and please know you are never alone!

[@soumyareema]

Hey, I'm also feeling depressed now, for my own reasons. The fact that you're able to wash the dishes (utensils) in this state, itself is an achievement! And customers not paying on time is very common in freelance work. Always make sure to take payments in phases, and don't deliver final files until they pay the final installment. Sometimes customers do pay late for genuine reasons. Other times, they never pay. Do not place unconditional faith in any client. Judge them by their actions and protect yourself. I wish you all the best Yuu-san!

[@Bodhismile]

Dear Yuu, my heart goes out to you. I appreciate your content very much. You share an honest, kind, gentle and respectful presence that brightens days for so many. You share beauty and care that means a lot these days. I pray you are able to get the support you need for depression and anxiety, and that your business thrives. You are courageous in your honesty and as you can see from others here, you are not alone in dealing with depression and anxiety. Wishing you all the best and swift help and support during this difficult time. ❤

[@kirstiepenman]

Yuu-san, I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way, and that your talent, time and hard work aren't being appropriately compensated. I'm also not feeling good at the start of this year, and I'm facing similar health challenges. Let's do our best to keep going, even if it's just for our cats! Love from the UK♥

[@Kizu]

Everything will be alright. Stay strong and reach out for help, you are never truly alone. I am rooting for you. Smile and let’s go again today ❤

[@gypsywilkerson197]

I am impressed the strength you showed by sharing this with your viewers. You are helping others that are possibly suffering from depression .Please stay strong you will rise above this stronger than before I Keep up the great work! ✌️👍

[@jeremy1350]

Hi Yuu. There comes a time when we must be proactive with others. Waiting for someone to be responsible, can be pointless and difficult. At some point, if our lives have become affected by the irresponsibility of others, we need to seek resolution, even if it goes against our character. You did the work, they have not yet paid. I would not wait much longer before I would actively pursue a solution. It might be heavy handed, but money is money, it does not grow on trees. And if we have to put our foot down and say "Enough!" then so be it. We have to be responsible for our welfares and not rely on others to always do the right thing. Sometimes giving people the benefit of the doubt is premature. Sometimes we need to teach people what the RIGHT THING is.

[@Dessi-Aunty]

Yuu, Sorry to hear you having a tough time at the moment. I can hear your frustration regarding your client. It's not nice to be let down by someone you like and have placed trust in. Even if the client had sent you a holding reply, that would have been something. Someone on the comments trail has advised that you take some money up front if that's possible in future. It is so hard for freelance artists. Just hang in there. Things will get better. In terms of your general psycholical state, you have had a lot of childhood trauma and I think it takes many many years to heal. The backlog of emotional exhaustion pushes you to depression when things in life are not working out. Its like a compound effect. Just be kind to yourself in those times and if you have any good friends who can nurture your soul, hang out with them. Sending you warm wishes

[@msjonimoto]

Dear Yuu-San, as someone who also suffers depression from time to time Please please take the time to talk with a professional therapist. Depression is an illness that is not your fault. I have a Japanese cousin who tried to “gaman” instead of seek help for his depression and it cost him his life. There is no shame in seeking help - in fact taking care of yourself is a sign of good mental health! Please do not fight depression alone. Hugs, JayTee

[@afr11235]

Staring a business and being self-employed can be tremendously difficult. Since you are doing everything related to the business, it is easy to blame any failures on yourself. Of course this is not the case - this client is likely experiencing financial difficulties of their own. But stressful situations always exacerbate worries of emotional health. I commend you for being honest about your feelings rather than pretending that everything is always happy. Just know that we are here sending positive thoughts and hopes for your continued success.

[@leona-ro]

having a soft heart and sweet soul in a hard world is courage not weakness, is not easy but stay strong,trust everything will be resolved.

[@landie8836]

I read a poem once.. something along the lines of "I sit and drink a pot of wine and talk to the moon together with my shadow. a fellowship of 3". To me this told me that no matter if I have nobody by my side, I've got myself and a bright light to lead the way. As long as you believe in who your are and have a goal guiding you forward, you can reach anything. Don't feel the need to impress anyone, just do what you love. Don't think you have to feel happy all the time, just feel what you need to feel. We will all support you :)

[@Paz52157]

Hi, Yuu, Since I watched your first video, I've always ❤ your attitude towards life. I think, I truly believe, that recognising our difficulties and talking about them with other people is really healthy... and healing, too. Bad times and struggles are also part of our lives , but it's a good thing that they won't last forever. If you're not feeling well, please get help, talk to a doctor, talk to people around you and tell them how you feel. I did all of this myself and it helped me a lot . Stay strong, Yuu, and thanks, always, for your honesty, for your kind words and your beautiful videos! Hugs from Argentina! ❤

[@Maraaha55]

I'm so sad to hear you're having to deal with this, but I admire your courage in being so open about it. This aspect of starting a business is exhausting and I hope that your faith in your client is rewarded soon. But don't wait too long - it is the work of a few seconds to acknowledge your contact and ask for time to reply more fully with clarification of any payment delay, so I, too, would be worried at the lack of a response. Try to keep looking forward though, and to find new clients; If one client fails to pay you, they are not really a client at all, and you should act to replace them as soon as you can. So keep positive, just as you are doing, but take steps to move on. You will make it, so stay strong.

[@praisesusan2148]

I'm so sorry you are going through all of these things. But from what I have seen from your videos, you are a very strong person. Honestly speaking, seeing your videos gives me courage and strength to go about in the day and do things that I love. Take a break and write down whatever you feel. And sort things out one by one. You will definitely figure it out. You're strong and you are loved . ❤ From India

[@Kremoar]

Never forget my friend. There are people like me all over the world who would love to spend time with you.

[@carolynbrassfield4794]

Hello brave Yuu! Thank you for sharing your real feelings with us, that takes a lot of courage. If I were you, maybe just try to contact the person daily by email or phone. Then prioritize the rest of your clients, move on to the next so you are not depending on that one. Try going outside for a few moments to clear your head and remember we have so much to be grateful for. Then maybe you can brainstorm some new ideas for content. I hope this helps... Good luck, you can turn things around!

[@fgallentoft]

Dear Yuu. As life throws us those curveballs of trials, the most important thing is to remember that you are not your trials. They don’t define your life or your value. They are horrifying and makes us feel so helpless and alone at times. But I at least have also to believe in the power of the goodness in others. And as we sometimes do not see it in the end in all. Our positive energy will be reflected in our actions and our lives. Stay strong in knowing that. I’m so impressed by your work and your dedication. Your courage is inspiring and amazing. Reach out and many of us will be here to support you with positive thoughts, talks and feedback. ❤❤❤

[@ptlovelight2971]

Hello/Konichiwa Yuu! I'm sorry you are struggling at the start of the New Year. But just know that this is only temporary. You will regain health and money as the days go by. Thank you for being so authentic and vulnerable! Sending well wishes your way❤ -From a fan in Atlanta GA, USA

[@OliverBrown-z2u]

With depression and anxiety, its very easy to feel like each new problem is bigger and like the hole you are in keeps growing. Some advice based on how I have had to manage this: 1. Acknowledge that you are dealing with a lot of things right now and that it is okay to feel overwhelmed 2. Give space for the core feelings of how this makes you feel. I dont mean the negative thoughts from anxiety, but the main feelings that sit at the centre of it. 3. Listen to your body - rest as much as possible. It's okay not to do everything all at once when you are not in full health. We wouldnt expect ourselves to run on a broken leg - mental health deserves the same respect. 4. Take bite size pieces and focus on things that are in your control. This client may not be something you can manage. Your feelings about it are completely fair. Give them space but at the same time try to shift your attention to some of the things you can tackle - no matter how small! As someone said, doing the dishes is an achievement. You have such wonderful and supportive followers. People truly love you and care about you. We understand life is not easy, and it okay to be vulnerable and not positive all the time. Things will get better ❤️

[@jocat1163]

I’m so sorry you don’t feel very well. I hope you get better soon.

[@peaceprevailonearth]

Hang in there. Take good care of yourself. We are all pulling for you and care about you.

[@small_fries7573]

For ALL have sinned and fallen short of God's glory. That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 1. Admit you are a sinner. 2. Just simply 😍 believe in your heart ❤️ that Jesus Christ is your Savior for your sins. *If you do, you will go to heaven.

[@jennagrober7451]

It’s completely OK to feel this way. It’s okay to feel disappointed and discouraged. When something is this important to you of course it’s going to hurt when it doesn’t turn out the way you expect. Having this feeling and reaction to something shows how much it means to you, for if you were to feel nothing at all, it would show that it’s not that important. However, seeing this, it shows how much the dream really means to you and I hope you can keep moving forward. It’s stressful, unfair, and heartbreaking, and while your communication, you may feel, is negative, you are at least communicating and that’s what’s important. Doing something even just a little bit, even in a way you perceive might negative, is better than doing nothing at all. Eating something is better than not eating, even if it’s small or seen as unhealthy. Taking a walk at 2:00am is better than not leaving the apartment. A little sleep is better than none. Doing something even if it doesn’t get retained is better than not trying at all. It’s OK to take days where you don’t live but just exist in the world if that’s what you need and vice versa. Try your hardest not to feel guilty. As this is the way your body and mind are responding to what is happening. It’s human. Life sometimes feels gloomy, which feels unfair, but it makes the sunny days that much brighter. And while we’d rather not have the gloomy days at all it makes us appreciate the sun that much more. And know you’re not alone in this. Maybe it was a cold front that passed through Japan at new years, as I also struggled with this feeling at the start of the year. I also spent days unmotivated, trying to find a reason to keep going, trying to study Japanese and just do daily things, but struggled to. These days will pass I promise you. You cannot pour from an empty cup, and sometimes it just takes patience for a cup to become full again. Everything you’re holding on to is a lot for one person to handle, and if you need to share the load with someone that’s okay, healthy even. I also think it’s common to feel this way at this time of year. With everyone sharing their successes of the last year and their anticipation or celebrations for the new one. People often start to worry of the “what if?” It’s something we can not help, but something we can tell ourselves to work towards. Instead of what if I fail? We can change it to what if I succeed? It will take time but I believe you can get there. Be kind to yourself. With all the hope, love and care from Yamanashi 💛

[@garvitasingh29]

You're not alone. You are more important than your life plans. You have all the time to fulfill your goals, please be easy on yourself.

[@annmariaduran3597]

Dear Yuu, you may think that you are in this alone but they are many people who is suffering from depression. I too go through depression at times last year was not a very happy time for me, I was diagnosed with follicular lymphoma in march 2023 and it wasn’t very easy going through it…there was many times I wanted to give up but I stayed positive. You see I believe and trust in Jesus; He brought me through and now I am healed from the disease by trusting God and going through radiation treatment. You see in God all things are possible. There are hope for you my friend be strong and keep on believing and trust in God for your strength. You are going to make it. 🙏🏽❤

[@JholeighChu]

Stay strong I’m praying for you!

[@suprememk52]

I wish all of you that watch these videos the best

[@hannahcrossett3415]

Hi Yuu, I just found this video four months after you posted it. You're a courageous, beautiful soul who has been through so much but has continued to strive to be recognized as the treasure you are. You can struggle with depression, anxiety, and sleep challenges and still be loved by many who may never get to meet you in person. I see people as living artwork. You're a work of art exactly as you are. Thank you for reaching out. Reaching out after trauma and abuse is one of the most courageous things any of us can do.

[@thewhitefamily4020]

I'm sorry you're going through depression and medical problems. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers:)

[@LokeLanirose91]

Having a goal and putting so much into your work and plans can be so nerve wracking. It's not the exact same thing, but a year ago I had my plans interrupted by a serious accident that affected my physical, mental, and emotional health. I think the most important thing is to remember to have grace for yourself when times get difficult and knowing when to take a step back and looking for a different way to achieve the same goal. Regardless of how you feel right now, don't ever forget that you are allowed to have these feelings and you are no less successful, important or worthy of love and consideration because of these feelings! You have so many people rooting for you!

[@susanheuvel5694]

My daughter has depression and anxiety and when she needs help she calls me and we talk and I try to work around her issues in a positive manner. Non paying clients are difficult and stressful. Hopefully they will pay you shortly or give you a reasonable explanation. 😊

[@heike7756]

うつ病や不安の状況では、アドバイスを与えるのは困難です。最も重要なことは頭を負けさせないことです、そうすれば恐怖が勝つでしょう。私は自分の経験からそう言います。一日も早い回復と低迷からの脱却をお祈りしております。

[@samanthachallis2155]

Oh sweetie, im.sorry that life is very hard for you atm. We are all here for you and with you. Xxx

[@susanberghorst7021]

Dear Yuu. I don't have anything to add to what already is been said by all the lovely people above. Thank you for sharing and how brave of you❤. Please keep your hopes up, keep your body healthy and rest when you can. Sending love and warm hugs. 🥰

[@redchen3682]

I feel sorry for the struggles you are facing right now. But for me, the best part of this video is you openly talking about mental health. I think this is a great contribution to Japanese/Asian society who still has a lot of stigma around mental illness. One of the few progress I noticed at least in my country here in SEA with regards to MH, is that people are getting more aware that there are a lot of people around them who suffers from mental illness. Unfortunately, despite knowing that, many are not willing to talk about it due to lack of knowledge. While others who cares about you might not know what to do to help. You just sharing your daily routine during depressive episodes gives them a picture of what a person with depression faces - the low motivation, lack of sleep and energy, loss of appetite, negative thoughts and so on. You might not know it, but you have helped many of us with this video.

[@jacoblazen9766]

Hey man. I’ve been following your videos for awhile and I think they’re great. I’ve been feeling anxious and sad these days too. My dreams have been really bad. I wanted to tell you that you are not alone. Im a therapist and sometimes I feel bad too. Maybe not just sometimes. Very often. I wanted to tell you no matter what happens, you will always be a content creator. Your English is amazing and I know, whatever happens, that you will be ok. Just please stick around because people like me need to see you.

[@danaeads919]

Yuu, I just watched this video today. I hope things have improved for you. My heart aches for you and I wish I could just give you a hug. It's easy to say "please eat because you need the strength," but I know how hard that can be when you don't feel well. In 2022, I contracted a virus (not covid) that knocked me down and prevented me from working for five months. Unfortunately, it also affected my desire to eat. It was a great accomplishment if I could finish a cup of yogurt each day. Being unable to eat definitely affected my thought processes and prevented me from being able to focus or retain information and I made some bad decisions during that time. So, please try to eat, for the sake of your brain. I also understand the unbearable stress, anxiety and depression that even a slight problem with money will cause. I hope that by this time your client has paid you and that they won't repeat their mistakes. When people/companies have money problems, they can fall into a terrible mindset of "I'm poor, everyone else is rich and they can afford to wait for any money from me." We all have a responsibility to pay our bills, pay our service providers, pay our trade partners and so forth. I may have it bad, but someone may have it worse. I hope everything is improving for you. Please know there are thousands of us out here who enjoy your honesty and your videos and we are here to support you.

[@TERIREM]

Yuu.... you know who you are. You know your work and its quality. The problem is not yours. It's the client the one who decided to not moving on with that. You have to look for other clients. Concentrate on the future. Past will never change. Future though is in your hands.

[@pvl8416]

So sad to hear about your struggles. I hope things will find a positive resolution soon. My grandfather used to say "Trust is good, being careful is better" when doing business. We all would hope to live in a world where people can be trusted but reality shows that most people are driven by their own interests. Once we accept that, we can face the world with more confidence relying on our own strengths and aims.

[@claudettesmith7540]

Prayers for peace in your mind & heart, strength to endure this trial. Sending hugs & love to you always. ❤😊

[@mjj1434]

I am sorry to hear this . I think to just take it one step at a time. It’s nothing you did wrong . Please keep up with eating and sleeping better. That will help you to stay well and healthy.

[@andrek2233]

Dear Yuu-San, I've watched your video several times and think about it a lot. It just makes me sad to see how much you're suffering. I've been trying to find the right words for hours and I've written and deleted so many texts to give you courage and confidence, but all these words just sound empty. The only thing that remains is the thought that I would like to help you but I don't know how. All I can tell you, even if we don't know each other, is that you are not alone and there is always someone who is there for you. Do not give up! If I can help you in any way, please let me know. An unknown friend from the other side of the world.

[@fardouslaith7218]

I feel you 🌸 I hope you get the happiness you deserve ✌️

[@heleendewaal]

Do not give up Yuu…. There is so much to look out for….

[@isabelreis7379]

I hope you are better now and i sincerly hope that you can overcome these challenges. In this or other paths there will be something positive to reap later on. Never stop believing in yourself

[@shallom_]

I pray you have a breakthrough this year Yuu, may God bless you and all the works of your hands and your career. That He will take you further in the plans you are pursuing. Higher in the future you are hoping. That He mends your disappointment and brokenness inflicted by people, that He will let you meet more genuine ones who will uplift you in your life’s journey and sense of existence. I pray that all your loneliness, and anxiety be comforted by God. That He will give you the rest you need and the peace of mind. From 🇵🇭 to 🇯🇵. 🕊️God bless you.

[@B1tchy77]

I feel you, i have been in the clinic over christmas cause of anxiety and panic attacks. Now i am back home and feeling well again after 5 weeks. Give yourself time to heal, sometimes its ok to just rest

[@goofy_green_alien]

❤ i am sorry for your depression i hope your dreams come true. I struggle with depression and anxiety too. So i understand. Please take care of yourself and your english is good.

[@small_fries7573]

For ALL have sinned and fallen short of God's glory. That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 1. Admit you are a sinner. 2. Just simply 😍 believe in your heart ❤️ that Jesus Christ is your Savior for your sins. *If you do, you will go to heaven.

[@ann-katrinandersson4740]

I am sorry that this happened to you. That must worry you. I want to support you. you have so much to say ans share I do not want that to stop. I also want you to be healthy.

[@jazminkaban8245]

Hi Yuu. Please take care of yourself. I know you've had a hard life when you were a child. I know you can revive from the ashes like a phoenix bird! I send you a big hug 🫂 and much love ❤️ from Canada 🇨🇦. I'm here for you if you need to talk 🙂🤗💗💗💗💗💙💜

[@jedicucho]

Dear Yuu, stay strong. I also suffer from depression and anxiety. I know how it feels. You are not alone. Greetings from México.

[@kasmcc100]

I am sorry you feel so down. You should know that sharing your feelings of sadness with us, only makes us appreciate you more. Send the company a note asking why they have not paid as agreed. They need to explain their behaviour. You have done nothing wrong. Cuddle your cats and feel better soon

[@kirbydavis3466]

Dear Yuu, there are occasions in life that hit us hard and try to disrupt our direction in life but it’s only temporary and that we come back stronger and more resilient. You have an amazing talent and a bright future ahead of you. Please let us know if there is anything we may do to help you out. Love from Canada ❤

[@sarahh9364]

Take it one day at a time. You are stronger than you feel right now. Please be kind to yourself.

[@MayaTheDecemberGirl]

Dear Yuu, I really hope that You overcome all the difficulties that You're facing currently. Regarding proffesional issues, You shouldn't only trust that Your clients will do the right things themselves. You should take some steps to safeguard Your rights. And when You have done some work for someone, it's Your right to receive payment. That's why You definitely should explain such unfair situation and remind them about their obligations towards You. You cannot just leave it only to their good will. And don't assume that they don't pay You, because You've done sth wrong - I don't think so, because You seem to be a very considerate person, caring about Your job and with passion about it. You must explain the situation and cannot just wait. And I also know that depression is such a condition that those who haven't experienced this themselves cannot really understand how hard it may be. But it's a problem nowadays of many people, so You're not the only one. And many overcome this. I think that also many of Your viewers understand how You feel, and truly feel for You. Don't give up. And please don't say that if Your plans and Your current vision of Your future don't fully work out, You will have no reason to live. Please, don't ever think like this. Sometimes we do think that our situation is the end of the world and that there's no solution, but later, when some time passes and we look back at the past from different perspective, it appears that it was not really like that, even if our life plans had to change somehow. I send You my best wishes. God bless You.

[@scarletwest8754]

First off, I want to apologize. I have been a regular viewer and commentator, but recently, due to problems very similar to yours, I haven't been able to. I'm so sorry that you are going through this, Yuu. Believe me I know how badly it hurts and how tiring it is, but you CAN NOT give up. You have to keep moving, even when you don't feel like it. You have to eat even when you don't want to. You CAN NOT let your mind wander to those thoughts that you're describing because they will swallow you whole if you give power to them. Turn on some music or a movie, something to fill the silence. As for sleep, don't worry about it. Your body will sleep when it needs to, no matter what your brain wants. As for why these things happen? Sometimes, no matter how you plan, life doesn't care. Life is hard and cruel. It's not your fault, so don't blame yourself. Also, don't sit in the dark. Surround yourself with light. No matter how tired I am, I always leave a light on, natural or artificial. It reminds me to keep on believing, no matter how dark life becomes. Please don't give in to it. Someone made you. Whether you believe that is God, as I do, or not. You didn't make yourself. My favorite Psalm is Psalms 139:11-15 "If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth." You were made beautifully and wonderfully, by someone who loves you very much, whether you believe it or not. So don't give up, don't give in. Keep going. As always ❤️.

[@JasmineBliss]

Don't over worry about results, embrace life journey of learning. Mistakes or imperfections are part of future success. I wish u well and pray for your health and new reliable clients🙏

[@Kiwibird-tl4tj]

I've only just discovered you, but I'm already so impressed with your attitude and content. The world needs more people like you.... As for what you have shared in this video, please know that it's ok not to be ok. You're only human, and right now, you're going through a really tough (and scary) time. With the responsibilities you have, it's not surprising that you have been deeply affected by the situation. Be kind to yourself..... You've said to others that when they're feeling alone and trapped, with no clear way out, to remember that they're loved and that the world needs them. Well, you are exactly the same. You are unique, there's nobody else like you in the world, and the world needs you. There's a reason you're here. There are also many, many people who love you and want to sit in the darkness with you until the light returns. And it will. It's so very difficult to hear anything else but the clamouring of your anxiety and depression when you're in a place like you are right now,, and it's also really hard to believe or be lifted by the kind things people say. I get it. I really do. I've lived with mental health issues all my life, and I know how seemingly impossible things can feel. I’ve also been in a place where I feel there's nothing left for me. But I'm here, my story continues, and yours can too. Try not to put pressure on yourself to be ok - you can't help the way you're feeling and you need to focus on looking after yourself. You can't force your way out. And you don't have to be positive for us - we can wait for you to feel yourself again. You don't ever have to apologise to anyone for not being positive all the time. You're being authentic. Your honesty and your courage in opening up and exposing your feelings to the world at a time when you're so vulnerable, speaks volumes about the kind of person you are, and the pure soul you have. Lastly, your ability to talk about your situation and explain complex emotions in another language is awesome.

[@justmyopinion526]

Hello Yuu, it's hard when your creative but it's all you that does everything. Your very talented and your intelligence and diligence shines through. I am sorry to hear of these struggles. I hope things improve. ❤

[@KaptureJKap]

Much love to you, Yuu-San. Know that there are many people who LOVE you and CARE about you, and are rooting for your wellbeing and success!!! You have a beautiful heart! Please be well!! ❤❤❤

[@belindamartin8301]

You can do this. One step at a time. Take small steps. We are waiting for you, like your animals waiting for you to get up and feed them. You got this.

[@tiffanygriffin]

My friend, regardless of what life might give us there is always a better day a head. But they are hard to see at times. Please don't ever hurt yourself it's ok to be down/ sad/ hurt/ and even dressed at times, but don't live there. With people I also choose to see them as good despite knowing that not everyone is going to do right by the people around them. Regardless, I still believe most people are good. I would suggest not doing work for the client who has yet to pay you for your work until they are paid up to date for the work you have already done. Whatever the reason is for them falling to pay is to continue increasing their bill without payment would be unwise. Remember that people who you have never met before are cheering for you to succeed. Try and eat something even if it is hard, relax in a hot bath, breathe in some fresh air, take some pictures of the nature around you, and try to get some sleep. Your life has just starting it will get better sooner than you know, and so will this year or so, I believe.

[@foxselwyn4611]

I'm terribly sorry to hear you haven't been well, and that business has hit a stumbling point. As someone who struggles with anxiety and depression too, I hope you find calm and balance soon. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.❤

[@Jelfyyyy]

I also have not been able to sleep well lately, I do suffer from chronic pain but mostly my mental has been similar to yours. Can only hope you and others who suffer from bad sleep can sleep well soon ❤

[@fishboneyan4651]

Don't push yourself too hard Yuu. It's good to have goals and aspirations but sometimes things just don't work out, and it is not your fault. Slow down, take a break and I hope u have someone who you can talk in person to and give you a hug!

[@deepsoul17]

Fell better soon, Yuu.

[@andresfernandez1158]

It’s ok not to be ok all the time. I hope for the best for you, that your client pays you and that you regain your usual energy. I really like your videos and I know what it feels like to be anxious so I hope you find strength

[@gwenganaye]

Hello Yuu san, I've been following you on KZbin for several months. I'm sad to hear that you're not well at the moment. From what I've seen, I believe you're a fantastic person with many qualities. Believe in yourself and stay positive. I understand that you have a lot of responsibilities. Don't lose hope. When I'm not okay, I say that tomorrow will be better and everything will be fine take care , lots of love from France

[@minipd]

Stay strong 🙏

[@BlueChild2022]

There are always such phases in life. You are still young and have a long way to go. It's important to love yourself and prioritise. Supporting other people (parents) is not a priority! Firstly, you have to be strong yourself in order to be able to support others. They are also responsible for themselves. You have to let go of responsibility here! As a businesswoman, I can only advise against forming an emotional bond with a client. Feelings should be shared with people who have nothing to do with your job! Otherwise you will never be able to switch off. I am confident that you will reach your milestones if you concentrate on your other clients and win new customers. Best regards from Germany.

[@pallabidas9404]

You are my inspiration. I also suffer from anxiety and depression. So I can relate to you. That's why I watch your videos and follow you. You always make me happy and positive towards life. Seriously you are my inspiration. I am very sad to see you in this stage. I pray everything become positive soon. Thank you for sharing and trust us. Love you from India 🇮🇳

[@anayanosekai]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. Courage to you 🙏

[@yixin.is.traveling]

I‘m so sorry to hear that you are going through this…You are such an inspiration to all of us please do know that❤

[@karlaanonymous-human6195]

Hello Yu, You mentioned that you would appreciate comments/advice. First, you’re brave for choosing to step out on your own. My life was spent working as a nurse for a hospital or company, even though being a nurse was too stressful for me because I was afraid of financial instability. For this reason, I applaud your bravery! Next, you are doing the right thing to make yourself get out of bed and do something every day. I know the feeling of heaviness, being unable to concentrate and all those other symptoms you described. I want to lovingly give you advice, as I see things. First, if you haven’t been to a doctor and if you aren’t on appropriate anti-anxiety and/or medications for depression, please do so. Next, I noticed that among the bills you needed to pay, was support your parents. I know that in Japan, and broader Asia, children feel they have to care for their parents. I do not totally disagree with that, but I do feel that, if you are struggling, you should not feel obliged to pay for them. I don’t know how the Japanese government takes care of the elderly, but, surely, there are government funded resources for them. You may be trying to avoid having to live with them, but, perhaps there are other extended family members who can help them- siblings, uncles etc. If I were you, I would write them a letter outlining a deadline for decreasing the financial support you provide and include any extended family members who should be helping them too. For the client who hasn’t paid you yet, I don’t know if they are a big company or small, but, surely, in your contract there is a clause of paying interest or penalty for late payments. If it’s not in the contract, make an amendment to include interest for late payments. I don’t know if you have notified them of their late payment in writing yet, but if you haven’t, please do. Send a paper letter that is signed by a witness and sent via courier so you see when it was received. (In the US we use a person called a “Notary” who has an official seal. It’s not very expensive , like 12 USD.) I know this is long and in English, but I hope you can read it soon.. For any overdue bills, figure out which are not vital for housing, food and work maintenance and try to reduce those expenditures. Notify the companies that you owe the most for (not your housing) and ask if they would allow a payment plan, which would be a temporary decrease in monthly payments. You can’t only do it by phone, it should be discussed with their financial manager and, once decided how much, get the plan in writing. Some may not want to do it, but some may be willing to do so. Then, if they do, try your best not to spend any more with them until the bill is paid. Decreasing your monthly output even for a month or two will take away some of the immediate pressure.

[@rayleneshilling2036]

There are so many supportive comments that have been posted. I hope that the comments help you feel supported and heard. Everyone is worthy of love and I hope that the negative experiences don't change your sweet and trusting heart. It's very kind and understanding of you to first think that the person has a reason for what they have done instead of jumping to conclusions about their reasons. The physical and mental body are connected and it is really hard to do the basics to take care of our bodies (eating, sleeping, hygiene, etc) as we get more and more overwhelmed. Take care and stay safe.

[@andreiamendes9116]

Dear Yuu I truly understand you. I've been through a very difficult situation for 2 years, some time ago. And I started living in despair because of financial struggle. If I may give you some advice from my experience, first: don't force yourself to be alright when you're not: prioritize your physical and mental health. Search for family, relatives and friends to vent a bit, talk about your worries. I'm sure someone will give you some help. And finally, try to talk to the company that owes you money. What they're going is not legal nor fair to you. I really, honestly hope everything gets better to you, and know that I'm praying for you for I know what it is to live a difficult stage in life.

[@mitzi8514]

Every day when you get up say to yousel " This is a good day to be happy and smile to yourself". Smile to people, everythings will come to you. Wish you all the best.💚😘💚

[@SeekingHappiness2024]

Hi Yuu! Thank you for telling your story and I am very sorry you need to face such an unpleasant experience. But you are not alone. 🤗 You are a truly talented creator, so don't let such people to make you feel depression or anxiety. In the future, is a good think to have some emergency funds which can cover your basic expenses up to 3 months. Also you should send a warning letter to that client and to tell him that eventually you will inform the police about the whole story. Even if he has a reason behind it, he must understand that is not appropriate to delay the payment and to skip the calls and messages in a business. And please try to take more care of yourself. We all love your videos and thry bring us joy always. ありがとうございます、 Yuu さん。

[@GYX2021]

Hi Yuu, I am so sorry you have to deal with this. But please still trust humanity and find peace in your heart. Also, depression is just a phase, It will go away. If you need medication, don’t be afraid to pursue help. This shall pass. ❤

[@ericav4561]

Sorry to hear that you are not feeling well

[@lisaineurope]

Hello Yuu. It is important that you eat. I understand that when you feel depressed that your appetite decreases. Your body needs nourishment, so please try to eat something that is good for your body. Also, try to get outside and walk every day, being in nature helps the mind to relax. I know you said that you like the client, but liking someone isn't paying your bills. This situation is making you depressed and ill. Please learn from this Yuu, don't let people take advantage of you. This situation will pass and you will feel stronger again, please eat though 🙏. Take care Yuu.