STUDIO VLOG 21 ✦ opening up about my struggles (and honest talks about mental health)

[@madebymalin]

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[@emeryryan2415]

I know Im asking the wrong place but does someone know of a trick to get back into an instagram account?? I stupidly lost the account password. I would love any tricks you can give me

[@malikleighton58]

@Emery Ryan Instablaster ;)

[@emeryryan2415]

@Malik Leighton thanks so much for your reply. I found the site thru google and im trying it out now. Takes quite some time so I will reply here later when my account password hopefully is recovered.

[@emeryryan2415]

@Malik Leighton it worked and I now got access to my account again. I am so happy:D Thanks so much, you saved my ass !

[@malikleighton58]

@Emery Ryan Happy to help xD

[@crispy_lettucej0573]

You don’t even need to share much about your personal life until you feel comfortable, I am here for the amazing cute artwork and your studio vlogs, never feel pressured to do things you don’t want to! :3

[@tirameowsu]

I personally really struggle with talking about my own mental health, so hearing you talk about your own in such a normal and casual fashion is always so motivating to me,,, it really helps normalize these things in my own head, and I'm sure you're helping a lot of others in doing so. ty for another wonderful vlog malin!! good luck apartment hunting 💕

[@peihsing]

Omg I have that fear too, on what people gonna think about me or judge me on what I do

[@hannalukis4783]

i love how you can explain things that i cant comprehend into words!! bcs i also find it comforting/easier to talk to strangers/new people but i just cant explain why? the whole prejudgement and being the person you are at the moment totally makes sense to me :') also!! the songkran cats are such cuties!! i love seeing you embrace your Thai culture

[@bearypinkparfait]

Vlogs like this always brings me to tears, hearing someone who struggles with the same feelings about not being in charge of my life or torn between different world s/cultures, makes me feel less alone and understood...thank you Malin :') I hope you continue to find your voice and where you feel you best belong, without having to constantly thing about other people's expectations or perceptions of you 🥺💕

[@TaffyToodles]

malin i am so so so proud of you for opening up! its not easy to put yourself in a vulnerable position, but you are so strong and well-spoken, and a really wonderful person

[@madebymalin]

❤️❤️❤️

[@RadhiaRahman]

i could literally listen to you talk for hours bc my brain is just absorbing all the lovely things you have the share with us!

[@madebymalin]

Awww thank you radhia 🥺❤️

[@Musikchic47]

I love your cat's scraggly meow...my cat sounds like that too, lol, like an old lady who smokes too many cigarettes

[@madebymalin]

Yesss she croaks at me and i love it

[@fullbloomandco]

I totally get what you mean about not feeling at home anywhere. I never realized it was such a common feeling... but you are not alone

[@mayberryyam]

I loved hearing about your 3rd culture experience, because I totally feel the same way! 😭I'm Filipino-Canadian but I've been living in America for most of my life, so I kinda just feel like I don't fit in any of these cultures... What really helps me cope with this is finding friends who feel the same as me. So we find joy and fun in just being ourselves, instead of trying to be a perfect specimen of our cultures.

[@ErinBrodieBot]

I'm so proud of and in awe of you for talking about such difficult things, and I hope you know how much of a role model you are for people

[@madebymalin]

Love you brodie ❤️

[@tizi2003]

Apartment hunting and moving can be so stressful! Moving is listed as one of the major stressors. Take good care of yourself like you are doing. Acknowledging your feelings is key...and as you said, they are like friends or acquaintances...they come and go...

[@thebunnytofu255]

i appreciate how you pour out your feelings and thoughts to us🥺 i hope this community makes you feel safe💛 youre inspiring as always, i hope you have a good day malin🌷🌸✨

[@glossytaron5930]

learning about the Thai water festival was so interesting and ive never heard of it before! now off to research it some more :)

[@GiantMounTaesan305]

the sweater is so pretty! please remember smile always!✨

[@kristinlarson3001]

I loved your blog and my heart is so happy for you on your journey of grieving for who you were but embracing and loving who you are today. I’m on a similar journey so I relate to you so much! Thank you for your honesty ~ and I love your cats! 😻😻😻

[@TeacupGirl]

I’m so glad you feel like you can speak up and use your voice again in videos.... Honestly, the little Songkran kitties were so adorable! We were living in Thailand for two years, and Songkran was really a joyous time that I and my family really enjoyed so I’m happy it’s being celebrated elsewhere too!! ☺️💦💦

[@mwah6736]

What an amazing way to start my day!! Thank you for dropping this new content malin!

[@hotcoffeewarmpages]

Thank you for being so open about your mental health! I struggle with my own and it’s so good to hear other people (especially artists I look up to, like you) talk about their own ❤️

[@josielennon4906]

Can’t wait to watch, and also get both my sweaters. They are so adorable 🥰💗

[@madebymalin]

ah yay!! thank you so much :D

[@ThePaperbackFairy]

I appreciate you opening up to us about your mental struggles. I also get very caught up in thinking about what my family and friends will think, but if you keep trying, it will get less and less intense... Take care love ❤️

[@honeypie7201]

i'm so excited for the new series! i've missed your "casual" vlogs so much :D amazing video as always, you're very eloquent and candid about your struggles, it gives me hope ^^

[@glencop8842]

Thank you for doing these videos, I am beyond grateful for being able to watch them 😌 take care 💛💜

[@Izybuzy]

I have depression for years since 2018. It's hard to go to work, that I had to drink 2 glass of coffee every morning to lift my mood. I moved to another job 3 times in less than 2 years. I was working as graphic designer, brand manager, then background artist for animation. Art is my passion, but strangely it didn't enjoyable anymore. Then in 2020 I quit my job because it's getting worse to waking up from bed and do simple thing like bath. But I realize that I need money to live, and I didn't want to embarass my family by doing nothing but sleep. It will just add more anxiety. Yes no one know about my condition, not even my bestfriend, but I actively share to stranger about it because I feel better. Including now I'm writing comment here :D After quit the job then I started my own business, in handmade bath and body care. I'm proudly say that it's growing well and since I'm working at home, I have time to heal. Not completely escape from depression but I'm happier now. Thank you for making the video, I'm happy that people share their mental health, I feel like connected to people and not feel all alone. Depression and other mental health are suck, but I wish we can be happier each day, and successfully reach our dream.

[@VividiVavidi_V]

I related to you so hard and I felt that even more when you mentioned your age. I’m also 26 and going through the same thing

[@madebymalin]

Hugs!

[@LauraJayneCakeee]

This was so nice to watch, its great to hear your thoughts and feeling as they can be so relateable! Such fun to learn more about your culture, it's so interesting 😊 Take care, Malin! ❤ xx

[@THEDOPETRUTHCO]

Yup i am the same way. U r not alone lol. Its ok girl we grow n build better in life , :) much luv

[@kathopy]

OMG! so excited! and that sweater is beautiful!

[@madebymalin]

thank you so much!

[@muemue5527]

Yay! Another studio vlog! I love your studio vlogs!

[@sundaysunshine]

I love your illustrations, personality and editing style!! Great job!!!

[@bluebearyco8683]

Mosa is so cute omg 😭❤️ and omg I relate so much to how you feel about people you know irl watching your videos and stuff! I always feel like I have to censor what I say or what I post because I'm afraid friends and family will worry about me or judge my feelings but hearing you talk about it was so comforting ❤️❤️

[@madebymalin]

You’re not alone❤️

[@бедныйбомж-и5о]

thank you for this

[@Liviaarts]

What you were saying about overthinking about your actions, I feel ya... I always do the same thing

[@belldiy6771]

omg when I saw your shirt on instagram, I thought you just drew over the picture. But now that it's actually a shirt, 🤩👏😊💛🙌😭 QUEEN! I love it so much!

[@madebymalin]

AHH TYSM!! 🥺

[@sarahsworld-2240]

Girl live your videos so much so relaxing n soothing love seeing your cat don’t give yourself a hard time I think your amazing love ❤️ 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@kiruraja]

I love your drawings and your video when there is a new video I feel like flying in the sky.

[@baomii]

the tiny gasp i let out 🥺💛 YES i’m so excited for you to share more thai culture in your work!! honestly even though i’m not a third culture kid, i feel very similarly about being in between worlds and not being asian enough. incorporating my culture into my art has always been a way for me to embrace my asian identity and take pride in the many forms of inspiration that make up who i am 🥰 i always admire you for being so open with mental health talks and i feel similarly about the way i share my personal life online with strangers ahaha! love everything as always and looking forward to this month’s patreon rewards~ 💕

[@madebymalin]

Cam!! Thank you so much for your kinds words 🥺 seeing your work really inspires me to connect with my culture more and so far I’ve been having so much fun! And ahhh I noticed you joined my patreon thank you so much!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@userrr0909]

so aesthetic (((❤❤ im crying ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Yukime92]

I got the navy blue cat loaf sweatshirt, and it's very cute and comfy~

[@kawaiikoikingdom]

Hi Malin! I have been watching your videos for a month or so now, and I AM SO INSPIRED WITH YOU and can relate to you so well. I am also born in Thai and I came to Canada, and feel seperated from the Canadian culture and the Thai culture as well. I am an artist just starting to find my style and hoping to open up my own art business. I watch your videos for inspiration with my art and for tips on the business, as well I have a diagnoses mental illness and struggle with it and finding motivation and creativity to finish my art projects. But your videos always give me inspiration and motivation to continue doing my art!

[@MuchLove-3]

Yay!

[@kanshawty8648]

I always love watching your vlogs and hearing your talks about mental health. It's comforting to hear and I feel like I'm not alone with these feelings that you share with us. We're so v proud of you and good luck with finding an apartment !!

[@krismasx_]

yay! i new studio vlog! i love watching your videos so much!

[@westical]

I love how your vids are so unique and just totally you! look forward to each upload

[@madebymalin]

Thank you so much!!

[@angellinicole]

This studio vlog is so precious and eye-opening!! I am an art student and I started my youtube channel about a year ago but I find myself struggling to keep up with it because I always think about what other people say but this video motivated me to just do what I really want. I also love how you incorporated your culture in your art and I would also want to do that in the future if I opened my art shop

[@wunderkind2204]

I think its so beautiful, that you share your culture in your art. I love that you teach other people about thailand, I want to support you on patreon sooo bad, after Uni I can finally afford it :D please, please tell us more about your culture in your vlogs, I enjoy that so much, not only the food, but everything I saw and learned so far!

[@VnyArt]

I'm looking forward to watching the video🌟💕 Sooo cute🐾

[@asukalovelydoll]

Malin you are so cute and I loved to follow along your days and life and how simple things in life matter. Plus your cheeks are super cute and squeezable~ lots of love 💕☺️🤗

[@seoulologyy]

I got mine in white, but still in the laundry. 😅 Excited to wear it though!!

[@glowatyourownpace]

Oh you're reading The Body Keeps the Score! Isn't it good!? I actually started reading Scythe on your recommendation and I love it so far!!! Great vlog as always! Thanks for sharing your feelings. I feel the same way about not really being my "true self" because what if that offends someone else? It's been hard and sometimes lonely to be like that... so *hugs* for you too! Oh and I love hearing about your culture! I feel like Americans don't really have a "culture", so I love to hear and learn about other cultures from all over the world! Always be true to you!

[@Liviaarts]

your art is so cute!!!!!

[@charlottesucreries3353]

Mosa meow ohhw so cutee ahah

[@kreativekatart580]

4:50 I feel the same way! I feel like we are more alike than I realized

[@itscharliebee2307]

First off I didn’t finish this video when it was first posted and when I went to look it back up I accidentally typed in “Made by Mosa” 😂 And for a second note I’m so glad you share parts of your childhood and culture on your channel! I feel like I learned so much today! I didn’t know about Somgkran and it was so cool to hear about. Growing up the elementary I went to would have a field trip once a year. we would go to this park that had a special watergun playground. It had fill up stations and wooden forts and tunnels. It was always the coolest trip every year and something everyone looked forward to. I only ever got to go there for school and haven’t been back since. I hadn’t thought about it for a while but your stories of songkran brought back a lot of memories of that park as a kid.

[@beetle6207]

ur vlogs always make me want to draw, so inspiring!!!!!!!!

[@kaityskorner]

Aw omg I love this! I made a video like this as well and I believe that it should def be talked about more! Love you

[@Feonalilly]

I love studio vlogs with a lot of talking because I'm usually multitasking and can't always look at the screen lol. Subscribed

[@madebymalin]

Thank you so much!

[@Stacnoel]

I love this video and I am really happy that you felt comfortable being more open with us.

[@vaneavieiradossantos788]

I love is videos ❤💜❤💜

[@aquahaven_00]

Hi po. I love your vlogs and even your products... And when I want to watch studio vlog, I always end up watching your videos. You inspire me a lot to do some artworks❤❤ God bless po. Greetings from Philippines

[@KiararaVT]

Omg malin!! I have been so worried about you im glad you're finding your voice and being your lovely self! I was trying so hard to get in contact with you 5 weeks ago to send you some goodies from my shop to cheer you up since your last studio vlog and I cannot find any info to where to send stuff to you! Please let me know a P.O. Box or somewhere else youre comfortable receiving stuff from my shop! You're one of my biggest inspirations and I would love to help you like you've helped me with some free cute goodies!! Keep being you!!! Give mosa lots of love for me! Xoxo Nicole

[@madebymalin]

Thank you so much Nicole! Im planning to move but when i do i will definitely open a PO Box! ❤️

[@KiararaVT]

@@madebymalin I can't wait!! You got this malin!! Keep going and don't give up!!

[@MoMo-is4ct]

Your cat is very cutttee & when you mention Mel I’m like :{}

[@faribaart469]

Excellent

[@__2rus]

8:25 that sound tho oml

[@anitas_tinkershop]

🥰🥰🥰

[@liviacostea]

Congrats for the driving license! 👏🏻

[@dorothy.j]

Well u can put that idea as travel sticker maybe people might interested

[@_dansilverio]

Is that the Brazilian flag behind you on your doorknob?

[@madebymalin]

Yes! It was a gift from a brazilian friend hehe

[@bye2565]

:o is that amazing shirt available?

[@madebymalin]

yes! here's the link :D www.bonfire.com/store/made-by-malin/

[@bye2565]

@@madebymalin omg, thank you!! I will definitely be considering buying! :p

[@angelloumivy6577]

what is the game you play with the cat ?

[@zeicento]

Hello from Thailand ka :), Happy Song Kran naka,,, love your video ❤️

[@madebymalin]

Thank you ka!!

[@OhanaCraftAmigurumi]

chatty is good ! hehehe5555

[@madebymalin]

Do u like do u like 😹

[@OhanaCraftAmigurumi]

@@madebymalin oh I loaf it ❤️🤣🤣🤣

[@dorothy.j]

What book u are reading?

[@alyss.art_]

if you were worried about being out and not having your wallet because your license was in it, if you ever get in any trouble it should be fine as long as you have your license number!

[@madebymalin]

Omg thank you i need to write it down now

[@alyss.art_]

@@madebymalin ya! what i do is i save a picture in my email so i can access it from anywhere!

[@yl9400]

CC Indonesia please

[@icjacks2348]

I think the “not fitting in” is for everyone who is non white but more with people born outside of the states. I know my mom will say it too. She moved to the states when she was 15 n now she’s in her 50’s n when we go visit family in Mexico she’ll say that she doesn’t feel like that’s home anymore like she doesn’t fit in there.

[@zarelyrojas8967]

hello I love your videos, I wish you could put subtitles in Spanish

[@Sparkiiro]

It makes me sad to hear that you were encouraged to believe that about your Thai culture in school. I used to teach English in Hong Kong and I felt uncomfortable when my boss or Chinese colleagues would idolise my accent, my language skills and even my skin colour - some of my pupils had parents who were just so grateful to me for making their kids sound 'less Chinese' and I'm like...please don't take your culture away from them. I was discouraged from speaking Cantonese or asking them about their language and stuff. I was told to punish them if they spoke Chinese. I obviously never did, I would end up spending a few minutes at the end of the lessons getting them to teach me Chinese and they always found it really fun. I guess what I'm trying to say though is those Thai New Year stickers are so cute and be proud!! If people don't want to support you for drawing part of your culture then they're just stinky. I'm glad you went with that theme

[@madebymalin]

This is so normalized in asia too! At my school we had to pay a fee for speaking thai in school, which is why we stopped and only spoke english. Thank you for sharing your perspective and experience! Your words mean a lot to me so thank you ❤️

[@Sparkiiro]

@@madebymalin A FEE??? Oh my days that's so wrong!! I'm so sorry that was a thing :( And you're welcome!! I'm so happy ;u; Your vlogs always make me super happy so thank you too!!