Suffering Unto Blood

[@Ski_9401]

If he chooses to show us good, we will praise him. Or, we might take things for granted, and forget about him because "life is going good," and it is easy to forget about our Lord Jesus Christ. But then, if his hands should give us evil, how quickly will we complain about it and cry out to him to make it stop? (I myself have done this many times over). If we are made to suffer, we should be glad to have him personally show us the pain, and be waiting upon him anyways. At least, this is what I have been thinking about trying to do as I have been finding his hands heavy upon me. If can ask him for wisdom, why does he do confusing ways? When will we get to see him face to face and not as through a glass darkly? If we strive to not sin against him, is there any reward in this, or are we finally just being as good stewards to him? I must confess, I have been dwelling on dark sayings and wrestling with the Lord. I cannot understand his ways on things, but wish longingly to be able to sit down and eat with him and be able to speak plainly together. This mantle is heavy. But you are right, again: We pray for things to stay "over there," and not come near our own homes. I wish I was more inclined to pray *Not my will, but yours, Father," as Jesus Christ prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane. If we are filled with the Holy Spirit, is it our fault that we cannot work miracles as the Apostles could do? Is there anything we can do to not quench the spirit, but have our bellies flow out rivers of water as Jesus Christ said we could do? Is it the age we live in, or is it just us, not being effective for the Lord? If I could find ashes I would gladly rub them on my head right now, and stop trying to be"good enough" but instead try to pray that the Holy Spirit could finally do his work through me and I would stop hindering him. I don't know if anyone else feels this but if so I pray for you too to be full of our Lord. Sir, please forgive me this long comment. I just wanted to respond to your video and tell you that the videos are very much appreciated. Your previous video about taking a break in regards to striving against the wicked and seeking out the lost hit home to me. It is tiring. I'm praying we both can sup with the Lord and regain strength, like Elijah was able to do. I don't know what his will is for you, but I pray that you keep walking with him daily. You're one of the few followers of Jesus Christ on KZbin that is truly an inspiration to us that are fighting the world and to keep closely clinging to Jesus Christ. Thank you again and please tell your wife thank you as well for her efforts in producing the videos. Good night and God speed.

[@borrowedtruths6955]

“For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints.” (1st Cor. 14:33) It is not confusion you feel, but an inability to properly discern His will for you at the present time. It's by going through these things that we learn of Him and His way for us. There is always a reward for striving against sin, it's called being sanctified, and it's how we honor Him. The reward is the Lord Jesus Christ. My friend, along with my beautiful wife, you are possibly one of the greatest miracles I have ever witnessed in this life. You're not hindering the Holy Spirit, you're being transformed by the renewing of your mind, an exceptionally difficult thing to do, isn't it? To kill the desires of the flesh? To live a life seeking to honor the Almighty in all that we do? My brother in Christ, my dear brother in Christ, welcome to the battle.

[@Ski_9401]

@@borrowedtruths6955 I thank you for kindness, it means so much to me during this season I am in. Thank you to you and your wife both so much. Yes, it is so hard to do. Let us both keep fighting the good fight and strive to be obedient to our Lord Jesus Christ. I would fight by your side against sin and evil any day of the week. And I mean it.