Surviving a Bullet to the Brain and Waking up Blind Months Later (A Story of Recovery)

[@SpecialBooksbySpecialKids]

Mark has his own KZbin channel at kzbin.info/door/YF6tWycCs-fDevtl8oJtqQ . He promised me he would be posting more soon. Also, if anybody would like to learn more about recovering from Complex PTSD I highly recommend the book Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving. I have no connection or correspondence with the author at all, it's just an incredibly insightful book.

[@CleoHarperReturns]

This is an incredible story. I also have complex PTSD and although his story is a lot worse than mine there are so many things I can relate to. This has been so inspiring. Thanks to both of you. 💜 I'll check out his channel after this.

[@katehenderson8194]

Thanks man, after all these years I’m Still struggling and my experiences with therapists have been pretty bad actually. Thanks again

[@1984Brandon]

He speaks intelligently and as man who isn't trying to be better then anything. Mark is a respectable person and I'm so glad I watched this.

[@virginiareed5756]

Thank you so much for your story Mark ❤

[@carolynt8864]

Thanks for the recommendation.

[@loam6740]

I hate calling his recovery a miracle because it doesn’t give him enough credit for how much work he has put into recovery. truly incredible journey and an amazing person

[@Suhdudeb]

His recovery wasn't a miracle, him surviving was. His recovery was pure strength.

[@nom3nnescio]

Health care saved him. Not a miracle. He tried to kill himself.

[@BillyJack85]

It doesn't take anything away from our hard work to get help from God. None of us do it by ourselves. I'm sure this guy would be the first to admit that.

[@MISSMADISONMEDIA]

@@Suhdudeb 👏🏽👏🏽

[@YehudiNimol]

@@Suhdudeb I don't think it's fair to call every statistical anomaly that's hard to explain a miracle. Not everything we can't understand is God. For his miracle there are thousands of others who went through the same thing and didn't have a miracle

[@charlesmartinjr3971]

"Emotions don't last forever." I think that's something we all need to hear right now.

[@BeauGypsy]

Do you have PTSD.... Because So far im 20 years in....

[@BeauGypsy]

Its a ton different when feelings have so far...

[@onlinetruth9979]

And dying means you don’t feel anything

[@charlesmartinjr3971]

@@onlinetruth9979 There's no way to know that. That's an awful big gamble.

[@onlinetruth9979]

@@charlesmartinjr3971 not always awful. Many people have negative lives. Death is neutral when all of the possibilities are taken into account because they are infinite. A change from negative to neutral is an improvement

[@MISSMADISONMEDIA]

His emotional intelligence, self awareness, and determination are incredible. This was so motivational. And parents, talk to your kids!!! Especially when it’s uncomfortable, that’s honestly when they need it the most… Talking things out and getting professional help can do wonders. Proud of you, Mark!

[@shawntanac3172]

Well said !

[@brookebarnhart1588]

Agreed!

[@spacemanspiff6332]

Behind that courage and fake happiness is usually a sad, broken person. Not saying this guy is actually miserable. But much of the time they just want to be inspirational, but when the cameras are off and the strangers have left they sink right back into a deep depression.

[@arina4030]

@@spacemanspiff6332 ...

[@andreamigliore6607]

@@spacemanspiff6332 I wouldn’t be so sure.

[@MyDearGhoul]

He is extremely articulate for surviving a brain injury via gun shot. He seems like such a genuine, intelligent guy and I'm really glad he made it through such a dark time in his life.

[@jbxzy]

Agreed

[@barneyfromblackmesa377]

Because only his frontal lobe is damaged.

[@LectronCircuits]

Being blind, he's going through the darkest time of his life now. Audience wishes him all the best. Cheers!

[@user-zg8vi6rl7e]

No, the blindness might have been from injury to the chiasm or optic nerves and not due to brain damage.

[@gaila.9852]

The surgeons did an amazing job. His face looks completely fine.

[@rypere1788]

For real.

[@tomidilluminator]

Three years ago, I was robbed, shot in the face and became blind. After overcoming depression and suicidal thoughts and even attempted suicide once. I’m now a mental health counselor and a blind KZbinr passionate about inspiring people. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I relate my brother you remind me of my strength

[@sugarsore]

You're a warrior. You inspire me.

[@margafrantz4406]

Powerful

[@BingBongHell]

You & Mark are still here for a reason. You story/wisdom will heal & set free many.

[@tomidilluminator]

@@margafrantz4406 thank you so much. Please kindly support by subscribing

[@rabbit3212010]

@@BingBongHell nothing happens for a reason. It's just a line of thinking that we use to try and create the perception of order in what is in fact a totally disordered world.

[@binxwaxcap7832]

"Emotions aren't forever" The most powerful three words I've ever heard

[@angko-pe]

Yes. I needed to hear that today.

[@crystalortega2156]

Those three words are similar to what I heard a few years back that got me out of committing suicide which is “This is temporary”. It referred to emotions being temporary. People have no idea how much words really help people get through the toughest times. I actually have “this is temporary” as part of my suicide tattoo because those words struck a cord with me

[@lovingmayberry307]

Absolutely! Words can make such a huge difference for someone who needs to hear them at that very moment. My brother, who suffers from depression, says, "This too shall pass." 💙

[@nightyew2160]

@@crystalortega2156 What a great tattoo! It is also beautifully ironic for a permanent tattoo to say that.

[@crystalortega2156]

@@nightyew2160 it’s funny because when I got it that was what people said and I honestly didn’t even think about the irony of it until afterwards lol. The full tattoo is a black cross with the suicide symbol in the middle of cross and bright water colors all around and with the words “this is temporary” at the bottom. The full meaning of the tattoo is I found God when I was at the brink of death (suicidal) which is why the cross is black since black symbolizes death and God came to me on the night when I was sitting on my kitchen floor contemplating that this was going to be the day and God said “get up off the kitchen floor. You have to live for your daughter” after that day I never thought about suicide again and from the place of darkness I found the beauty in life (which is what the bright colors mean) and “this is temporary” was the phrase I would always tell myself if ever the thought even ran across my mind again. And I made sure I got it huge to always remind myself to never be in that place again. The tattoo is my full side! Even the artist was like you sure you want it that big and I’m like yep!!!! Because it’s a place I never want to go to again and the moment I see myself in the mirror I see it!

[@charmingheartphotography6758]

Even though he has lost his sight it seems as though he sees things clearer than ever. Hes extremely in tune with himself and his surroundings..he is also really interesting to listen to! Id love to see you visit him again in a few years.

[@livingitup9647]

Or, even check in with him sooner than that! I have high hopes for his ability to serve his community well after he gets his certification. 👍

[@higgaroc]

WHY WHY WHY was his girlfriend aware of his history of abuse but not him??! What in the WORLD is going on with this family? They are so inept at communication it's absolutely sickening! All of us need to work on this - the shame in communicating about painful topics is life-threatening.

[@britty23]

Withholding that was horrible. They probably thought they were protecting him, but they never considered that he DESERVED to know abuse that was happening to him. So very sad. I'm glad he seems to be doing really well. ❤

[@waretaSL]

Can i just say that mark looks incredible for 37??? Not that 37 is old, but he certainly doesn't look it! But it's so amazing to see that he's getting better, and also that he's gotten over his night terrors. As someone who experienced them as a young child also, i can say that getting past that really is momentous and just such a huge leap. You rock mark!

[@kropotkinnie]

I was also shocked by this omfg! Thought the dude was like 25 this whole time and when I heard 37 I think my brain sputtered for a moment.

[@Thekrystalshow]

He looks mid 20s at the most wow

[@user-ns1um8kq7i]

I've seen nearly every episode of SBSK, and this is easily in the top 3 most powerful episodes. I am blown away. Mark, thank you for sharing your incredible story. People like you make the world a better place.

[@ktcooki276]

Out of Curiosity...who are some of.your other favourites?? I wonder if many of us have the same feelings?🙂 I found the schizophrenic lady (celia??)s story very powerful. The found lad with brain cancer (oc), the...oh....there's so many, isn't there??😊

[@beingashope]

@@ktcooki276 I love Daniel who has schizoaffective disorder! Both videos are so powerful.

[@Earl_E_Burd]

"blown away"

[@ShogoMakishimaxx]

@@ktcooki276 I know you didn't ask me, but the top story on this channel to me was the guy who is a sociopath or something like that. It bought out a different side of Chris, like he was more on guard and mindful that the dude could manipulate him at any moment. This story here easily goes within the top alongside that guy's.

[@hakincart]

I agree. This was exceptionally inspiring.

[@catattack885]

I've never seen anyone express their thoughts and emotions in the way this man does, intriguing stuff.

[@AngryGoblinSlayer]

This is something i’ve been told too. When your life is just the one it is, you can either be sad about it or you can accept it and keep going as best as you can. What you are hearing is acceptance basically.

[@khonkhosilelihle7414]

True.

[@markehlert979]

@@AngryGoblinSlayer couldn’t have said it better. One of the therapies I do, is ACT, acceptance, commitment, therapy. Being committed to accepting it, knowing how much it will benefit you in the end. Acceptance goes a long way.

[@YehudiNimol]

It's terrifying to think that this man lived with a predator and the person responsible for his suffering for years and nobody ever thought of notifying him. Mark, I hope you can keep channeling your trauma to help others, and I wish you the best in your endeavors. The world can be a dark place, but it's up to us to change it

[@junedussault400]

He was raised by animals so his recovery is just that more powerful!

[@taleandclawrock2606]

Yes, appalling they didnt warn him, very unloving behaviour.

[@annapalmer8064]

If I were in a crisis, this is the guy I would want to have at the other end of the line. Im so glad he’s still with us. Mark is such a genuinely beautiful person. This was an insightful interview Chris, I’m so glad you introduced us to Mark. I hope he keeps living his best life, and goes on to help others.

[@ellie3365]

Beautiful comment !

[@thetrueoneandonlyladyprinc8038]

I am the only girl in the world and the only gf(s) / wf(s) / bride(s) etc and the only lovable / loved / lovely being and the only special being and the only Lady / Princess / Queen / God(dess) / Star etc and the only being reflecting nature related terms and other big terms and compIiments, while my pure protectors aka the alphas are the only guy / man / boy / gentleman / lad etc - the misused big / nature related terms palm(er) and beautiful and best that only reflect me and guy and special name Mark that only reflect my protectors must be edited out and changed!

[@thetrueoneandonlyladyprinc8038]

humnz are chaotic things born from chaos and the most sakryIegiux zynz that are bound to create more chaos / zyn by continuing the vicious cycle of so-called 'life' if they don't become aware or if all the wrong things such as btg and bngng aren't b4nnedfaster

[@thetrueoneandonlyladyprinc8038]

Technically, every br2ed2r that jhat out the most unfortunate unconsenting souls into existence thru the ghx can’t / tunneIz of doom is a pr2dator - if one isn’t a c-scn ‘b!rth’ one has been absd in the most sakryIegyuz way!

[@thetrueoneandonlyladyprinc8038]

I cannot believe the _ gtaway with the most sakryIegyuz zynz (btg without c-scn) and other chiId ab_ and being a _ who_ etc! Only dsv the most afI fatez! The true HeIIz🔥s awaiting all zynrz!

[@julietteplonsky4475]

When he said emotions aren't forever, I almost cried. I had suicidal thoughts when I was 11. I never brought it up to anyone except my best friend. I have severe anxiety and adhd, and feel like I am a terrible human being, but when he said that, I burst into tears. God bless whoever is reading this and remember you are loved.❤️

[@vvv-jz9wx]

@Sapphire05 ong. Having suicidal thoughts once or twice is only human, but being constantly tormented by them daily or acting upon them is different. Bish woke up and said "how can I make this about me 🤪"

[@galaxychar]

@@vvv-jz9wx They said the video helped them, why do you have to be so negative? Of course people are going to relate to these videos even if they aren’t in the worst mental or physical state possible. You don’t get to gatekeep who is helped by this video and why would you want to

[@12newangels]

cool,God bless

[@12newangels]

@@vvv-jz9wx true tho.

[@markehlert979]

So sorry if you struggled and had thoughts to as a youth, but I’m glad they were thoughts, and you didn’t act on them. I’m glad you are still here. And thank you, remember, you are also always loved.

[@Brandon-bh7pj]

Man this guy is strong. Good to see he's still here. It's so hard to talk about trauma and your mental health. Respect to this warrior.

[@khonkhosilelihle7414]

Indeed it is very hard to talk about your trauma.

[@shillsdontspookme9208]

C-PTSD isn't recognized as a disgnosis in America, yet. I'm here to advocate for having it added to the DSM because PTSD and C-PTSD are completely different and require different treatments. From one survivor to another, good job and thank you. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story with us. Humans are capable of amazing things, no matter the circumstances in our lives.

[@humblemestizo5442]

(Not relevant) I'm assuming by C-PTSD you mean childhood PTSD. In which case, I agree that its surprising there isnt already a distinction being made. In cases of "regular" PTSD typically the individual has already reached an age where the brain has seen a great deal of development. However, considering C-PTSD happens at a time where the brain has not yet fully developed, I can only imagine the impact it can have as the brain matures.

[@gangstaboy9387]

@@humblemestizo5442 Complex-PTSD,. @shillsdontspookme is referring to what Mark in the video suffers from

[@humblemestizo5442]

@UC6wzVHTp4QGFxVZxAVry16g right, I just made it to that part of the video, apologies. If anything It just goes to serve their point aswell. Much as I or anyone else claim otherwise I cant begin to comprehend what it must be like. I can only sympathize.

[@gangstaboy9387]

@@humblemestizo5442 No worries, just wanted to clearify!, I edited the answer a bit late

[@jagarfi]

Yes! as a school psychologist and person with C-PTSD - yes!

[@astridx7485]

I was Mark, I just got lucky. It's been seven months since my attempt, the hospital and the following psychic ward stay. I often wish my body would've just gave out and I let me go, but it didn't. I'm grateful for Mark, I believe he survived for a reason, I know many people will keep on going because of the strength people like him gave them. Thank you for doing this, man! You can't imagine how many of us you are saving.

[@bry7708]

you’re loved. you’re cared for and you’re worth it all. please don’t give up

[@whocares7093]

I believe you survived for a reason too. Keep going!

[@Twelve.Thirty.Four.]

If you ever need a friend, don't hesitate to reach out. One thing I know for SURE is that this world is a much better place with you in it. I don't want to imagine a world where you aren't in it ❤.

[@Estherbethe1...]

🔥✨💖✨🔥

[@yagerr4279]

You survived for a reason too, gem ✨

[@nene-jz6ce]

12:37 Oh man, I’ve been watching SBSK for a long time and I’ve never had a video that hit this hard. I’m seventeen and this video was so freakishly relatable. My mother also owns a handgun and I’ve always thought about going the exact same way, even thinking about it a few hours ago. It’s just so odd that this was shown on my recommended at a perfect time for me. Mark’s advice and the things he would say if he could tell his old self the moment he was going to do it hit so deeply for me that I am quite speechless. And the fact that he was so glad he could still play his favorite instruments-piano is my biggest passion, and I know I’ll miss not being able to play anymore. I needed this video so much that I don’t even know what to say. Thank you for interviewing Mark, I just know this is comforting so many people.

[@nancycarabetta8087]

Life can be hard sometimes but I’m slowly realizing that there is so much beauty in it as well. Wishing you so much love and joy in the future Nene

[@caitlynursula1527]

stay strong

[@rociog.525]

Hang in there beautiful being, life has so many wonderful things to give you. From the bottom of my heart, I hope you stay strong for this world needs you. Biggest hugs ❤️❤️❤️

[@jacks910]

I’m happy this video graced you in your time of vulnerability, keep Mark’s words of wisdom about suicide/self harm in mind. Also, this comment was a good read, I’m glad I came across it. Stay strong! ❤️

[@Ose5150]

love you. stay up

[@RaineSophiaLewis]

What his own biological mum did to him is so harrowing. As a mum, myself, it's totally heartbreaking. I hate how his dad and Stepmom wouldn't talk about his past, he needed that and they denied it, so it grew. He is so insightful, I cried at points and I truly hope he is happy now.

[@orcashadow8989]

I didn't think his story could be much worse... Then 16:09 came along. Holy shit what is wrong with people??? Mark, you're awesome. As a person who struggles with suicidal thoughts for many years, you are an inspiration to me, and probably many others. Keep being you. I'll be subscribing to your youtube channel.

[@CosyTeddybear]

I felt like I was getting punched in the stomache when that bombshell hit. How DARE that woman hurt her own child, let alone sexually while in a coma!? What an absolute warrior this man is.

[@johnnyzamorano_]

@@CosyTeddybear i felt the same got in complete shock it's just too much to process :( this man is so brave

[@velliebellie]

OMG.. my stomach hurts listening to this part. I hope people see this and she has no peace for the rest of her life.

[@corvideity]

@@CosyTeddybear proof they prey on those who are grossly vulnerable (and i don't mean gross as in disgusting even though that's what it is - i mean using people in times of sheer weakness)

[@Ritefita]

why hospital's people aren't in jail? what the organisation is it?

[@dereksimpson1284]

This is the first episode I have watched completely. I'm in a dark place myself and your story has given me a lot to think about and process. I don't know if you will ever hear my words but your courage, strength and experiences, no matter how horrible they were, will make a difference. Thank you for the bottom of my heart

[@Estherbethe1...]

🔥✨💖✨🔥 🔥✨💖✨🔥 🔥✨💖✨🔥 🔥✨💖✨🔥

[@hotdogwater666]

You are loved. 💜

[@marinna.realtor]

Sending you love and positivity! Like he said emotions are temporary, there are better ways to handle it

[@MsRobinL]

Derek Simpson, if you feel you are in a dark place please please seek a good doctor! I worked in mental health for 25 years. There is always hope! Your life is worth living, everyone's life is worthy! Please always remember that!

[@laurag502]

someone who’s story touched me was Kevin Hines

[@jensenlukematar]

This guy needs to be speaking on big stages at schools. He is an excellent speaker and has a profound story that can positively change lives, especially young lives.

[@markehlert979]

And thank you so much! It is the feedback like this I absolutely love knowing the impact I can be able to make! And right now, between my own, KZbin channel, going to school, and networking, I’m trying to impact and reaches many people as I can. I also am regularly out in the community at local businesses, music, events, and public schools speaking as much as I can. Thanks for your support and encouragement.

[@chickensalad3535]

@@markehlert979You give me hope Mark. I struggle with suicidal thoughts and it makes it a bit easier to hold on, knowing that someone llke you who was dealt such a terrible hand, can turn out so well.

[@sunshineanddaisies_]

Mark's emotional intelligence is through the roof and he articulates it so well. He's such a captivating speaker, he would be a great advocate and teacher regarding mental health. He's going to save lives!

[@markehlert979]

Thank you so much! I love the feedback like this, knowing the impact I can make

[@cw4608]

What a super open and pure guy. He sure doesn’t look 37. I would have guessed 27.

[@ziizification]

As a fellow victim of childhood SA who has cPTSD as a result of years of bullying and abuse, it's so powerful to see someone talk like this! There are things that have happened to me that I can still barely talk about so I know just how hard getting to this place really is. May Mark, myself, and all victims of abuse continue to work towards peace.

[@AlishaHerbiederbie]

As a fellow a survivor of CSA who has CPTSD, I fully agree.

[@Estherbethe1...]

🔥✨💖✨🔥

[@supergorillaz]

you are not alone. working towards peace for yourself will also heal the collective ♥️♥️

[@Vigilante311]

Best of luck in your life my friend and always remember theres so many good people out there that truly appreciate you

[@Inexpressable]

all i wish for everyone is peace.

[@beccac6812]

That mother who was caught sexually abusing him IN the hospital: they should’ve called the cops immediately and reported that. There’s zero excuse for them not to have told him and the police.

[@sarahalbers5555]

I agree. No excuse for not getting LE involved. Plus, health care providers are mandated reporters. Huge failure on their part.

[@CosyTeddybear]

I know it's wrong of me to think this, but I absolutely HATE his so called "mom". How dare she hurt her own child this way throughout his life and even when he was in a coma. I am very proud of Mark. What an amazing and inspirational guy. The jam session was my favourite part.

[@MichaelHolmgaard]

Mark's story is honestly the most tragic I have ever heard. His mom almost ended him.... he deserved so much better than a literal devil like her. Pure evil woman. Inspiring to see how much love he has for life today, but his story is next level sad. It'll be in my thoughts for awhile. Most impactful SBSK episode ever!

[@jacks910]

This was truly one of the most inspirational things I’ve seen on KZbin. This was probably my favorite SBSK guest and episode. The way Mark spoke really kept me intrigued and interested throughout. I’m genuinely happy to hear he is going to become a counselor/speaker in the new year, at the college he applied to. I have no doubt he’ll do great things there and help many people who have gone through similar trauma. Also, it’s SOOO amazing to hear how musically talented and versatile Mark is, despite his disability. Btw, this is all coming from someone who rarely ever comments on SBSK videos, I just had to do so for this one. We value and love you, Mark!

[@Kiki-yw9kc]

I totally agree with you , I feel the exact same . What an intelligent, articulated , and amazing young man ❤

[@jacks910]

@@Kiki-yw9kc 🙌🏻❤️

[@mrs.elentz2336]

Yup, same... I agree with you 💯!! I looove this young man. What an incredible story of redemption and resilience!! 💕

[@pennyp7382]

Zaid always gets to my soul. I put his video on when I'm having a meltdown. I am just at the beginning ad of Mark's video here. I always try and watch the ads or let them play on SBSK. This channel is where the internet is being used for good and unity.

[@markehlert979]

And I’m so glad I can inspire! Thank you for watching, and thank you so much for reaching out and commenting! Because thats what helps inspire me knowing that I can help reach people and make a difference. I’m glad you also enjoy my jams. There’s plenty more on my KZbin channel if you want to hear some. And thanks for the love, sending it back.

[@micalah8282]

I will never, ever, be able to understand how anyone could do that to another human being. Let alone a child. I will never understand or comprehend how a parent could allow their child to be harmed that way. This world is so broken. This man is beautiful, and I am so grateful that he survived.

[@nom3nnescio]

World is not broken, only some persons.

[@Frying_Pan_xvx]

It's amazing how well he's recovered. It really shows that miracles CAN happen and the miracle here is how here survived especially with all he's been through. It's so lovely how much therapy help him with his trauma, it's awful he had to go through that as a kid, NOBODY should have to go through that. I'm so happy he's doing better, have an amazing day ♥

[@cindylou4841]

What if... it weren't a miracle at all- but rather, a result of Mark's hard work in recovery and his support system?

[@chashmal10]

@@cindylou4841 ok Cindy

[@jdmmg4904]

@@cindylou4841 i agree with you. Talking about a miracle after all that has been done to him for me is just cynical. The "miracle" should have been him not having to go through that abuse in the first place.

[@nightyew2160]

@@jdmmg4904 In that case, I hope a lot of people experience miracles in their lives.

[@kimberlysevastyanenko3798]

@@jdmmg4904 One definition of miracle is: an extremely outstanding or unusual event, thing, or accomplishment. This could fit that definition.

[@wildk2425]

I was trafficked from age 3-19 by my father. It's so important to get help and have an open line of communication with the people you're close to and not dismiss the feelings that come up. I think people avoid feelings thinking it'll be easier, but this video is proof that your feelings and emotions will always find a way out. Stay safe and healthy, everyone. Thank you SBSK and Mark.

[@lesliejohnson1138]

I'm so sorry that happened to you!

[@wildk2425]

@@lesliejohnson1138 Thank you, I like to think I'm stronger now. I'm 28 and the last 9 years have been a real test. Settling into a society I don't know and learning how to socialize has been challenging. I'm forever thankful for kind people and therapy.

[@ananse77]

I'm so sorry.

[@giraffe116]

@@wildk2425 You’re inspirational

[@kimberlymichelle7853]

You are so strong you are a survivor !!! You are important, and you matter.

[@mousekander2232]

I have a 14mo daughter and now that i am a mother whenever i hear stories like Marks it makes me want to go back in time to them as a baby or child and take them into my care and give them the loving and nurturing they deserved. Absolutely breaks my heart

[@AnaDiaz-wz4cf]

You can't do it for the people that are telling their stories because they have already went thru it. But know that thousands of kids are going thru similar or even worst things right at this moment, there are soo many kids in forster care. You should consider becoming a foster or adoptive parent.

[@LewisPsychology]

I’ve been a psychologist for 30 years and never heard a story like this. Wishing you all the best my friend and thank you for sharing your journey.

[@markehlert979]

I will always keep sharing, thank you so much for watching, your support in the work you do in the field. You’re making a huge difference.

[@pankratz1921]

Chris I need to say something to you. I've been watching your videos for years and oh my this is helping me now in my life. I was rarely exposed to people with severe disabilities so I would keep my distance. Your videos taught me so many things and now I started a job with disabled children and thanks to you I felt comfortable. I knew that even if they can't talk, they want and need me to. Thank you for playing a big role in me enjoying this job ❤️

[@lovingmayberry307]

Awesome!!! 👏💙👍

[@cbgbstew4072]

What a beautiful comment!

[@katehenderson8194]

Dude that’s awesome

[@naomiklassen475]

This is so beautiful

[@kattella]

This guy is a freakin inspiration and I truly mean that. His story is so painful and upsetting to imagine but seeing him today is just astounding. This is one of the best examples I can think of, of someone reclaiming themselves and their life. I wish him nothing but the very best 🖤

[@DietCherryCait]

100% agree 💙 well put!

[@SavageWhiteBread]

This guy needs his own podcast or something he seems like a great guy to share stories with. This is a very strong video. Answered a lot of questions and really covered a lot of ground this was really great to watch 👍 dude's amazing.

[@meghan5467]

I couldn’t agree more!

[@ktcooki276]

He does have his own KZbin channel that he plans to expand.🙂

[@justiceneeded01]

No doubt! I think he could really help a lot of people. I'm not sure what his career is, but he could definitely be a motivational speaker or give his own TED talk. His words are wonderful, insightful and intelligent and could help so many!

[@katehenderson8194]

Now that is a fantastic idea!

[@SonjaBlade608]

Mark, we want to hear how you continue to succeed!! As a C-PTSD survivor, I could listen to his insight and gracious spirit regularly!! 💝

[@BanjoBitty]

"I have a right as a human and a person to have those emotions and feelings." What a great way of emphasizing why it's so important to talk about feelings.

[@onlinetruth9979]

Why talk about feeling when the system says not to?

[@annlucas1196]

A guide dog would be good he has someone to talk to and to comfort him

[@KosmosFilmKollektiv]

I really appreciate the dignity SBSK brings to these interviews and discussions and letting these people speak and explain. Incredibly humbling.

[@spicyjatropha2552]

When he said he's 37 my jaw dropped! He looks like he could be in his 20s.

[@et7281]

yes agree, he is beautiful

[@markehlert979]

I do get that a lot. Even Chris was shocked. Most people think I’m the oldest my mid 20s.

[@et7281]

@@markehlert979 It really choked me hearing you where 37. I hope I also age as beautifully like u did 😆

[@markehlert979]

@@et7281 thank you, I’m sure you will. That gives me an idea for a new channel I should start, an aging channel about skin care, and fashion

[@williamsilbernagel1586]

I’m going through severe depression rn and suffering cognitive impairment. I’ve been contemplating suicide because I feel like I’ll never be my old self again. This video has given me hope. Bless your heart for uploading it, and god bless this man for telling his story.

[@anon_ya]

God Bless you William ❤

[@martybob55]

Hold on William!

[@martybob55]

Hold on William, surround yourself with a couple of friends that can love and support you. You are deserving of compassion and love and life. Hold on William!

[@williamsilbernagel1586]

@@martybob55 thank you 🙏

[@kaanmckenna7030]

Hold on william. We love you!

[@aubreyarchives]

I literally clapped for him when he said that he had healed and put it behind him. This is a major human vs traumatic human condition success. It's tragic when people are raised this way by adults who have no business being parents, but Mark is proof therapy is effective and necessary.

[@deedee3554]

"Emotions aren't forever" this meant so much.

[@TBIhope]

Wow. I’ve never connected so much with someone on SBSK before. I fell off a cliff about three weeks before I turned 19. I was in a coma for three months as well. I spent the first four years focused on physical healing and regaining my mental abilities, and for the past couple years I’ve been focused on dealing with all the trauma. I’ve never met anyone else with a story so much like mine! ♥️ Also for me, playing piano has been so important in my recovery!!

[@luravaklayful]

May your life be happy and joyful, you went through a lot. I hope you doing well now. I can't even imagine how strong you are if you managed to overcome all of your struggles and be able to talk about it. Thank you for sharing your story! Just wanted ro say some warm words to you. 🧡

[@solomoon3083]

I’m glad you made it Abby :)

[@katehenderson8194]

The future is bright Abby 💜

[@thinkhector]

You guys can start the SBSK Band! 😆 I love this series and this was a very powerful interview. Congratulations on overcoming so much in your life. When that next obstacle comes you are gonna be ready for it cause you are already so strong.

[@flxmkr]

Did you make a video? I remember seeing one where I think she was paralyzed. She begins her video in a happy-go-lucky tone: “I jumped off a cliff!” My head had trouble processing the news with the delivery.

[@BeanbagDashie]

the "can we jam togetherr" immediately cut to the jamming made me laugh and smile. love you chris and mark. yall made my day

[@loveli420]

I hope that this man gets every good thing in his life from here on forward, forever.

[@Ryan_Carder]

God bless the girlfriend who disclosed to you these secrets. It must have been incredibly tough for both of you. I'm so happy your path to healing has been so successful.

[@bdawg1118]

He is probably my favourite guest so far. He is so emotionally intelligent and aware, and seems like a great friend to have because he is so educated and willing to talk. Good job on making it this far man, it’s a strong battle you’re winning

[@Clo_Dub]

What an eloquent man. His emotional intelligence is unreal. Hope he has a fantastic future - he certainly deserves it.

[@krispiccone]

So amazed by how emotionally healthy he is and how he can articulate his trauma and not be overcome by it anymore! Such an inspiration! This guy should be publicly speaking and be heard even more! Love that Chris had him on this channel!🙌🏻💕

[@Helping.Homless]

Even tho he is blind he seems to be seeing clearly for the 1st time. He is inspiring

[@Bunnyprinccess]

Poor baby boy. I want to hug him😭🥺🙏🏻❤️

[@Texas_Made_]

Oh man,this was DEEP.....I couldn't handle being blind suddenly..when he said "why is it so dark in here"😭😭😭. Thank you for sharing,love your personality by the way!

[@Amber24426]

I feel so deeply appreciative to be able to hear Mark’s story. It is devastating to think how the horrific abuse inflicted on him as a child lead to such a violent and destructive suicide attempt… how that pain was unfairly inflicted and perpetuated inwards, towards the inner self, the blameless inner child… it reminds me of the ways I’ve mistreated myself in my own life, again and again, and the ways I see others all around me unfairly cruel towards themselves, probably because they are hurting from their own unresolved wounds of the past, too. I’m so glad Mark survived though- Mark, you are thoughtful, you are amazingly resilient… you are wonderful, deeply impactful, beautifully unique in your own special way… thank you for sharing this piece of yourself with the world.

[@waxandsulfur]

Your comment sent me to tears. I relate a lot. And I hope you’re doing well.

[@noradanaher1522]

the strength this guy has is amazing. he deserves all the love and kindness in this world. im so glad he leaned into therapy. his spirit and determination is so beautiful. i think you're awesome mark!

[@leo_wolf2747]

He's so strong and the perseverance is so inspiring 💗💗

[@shawnaclarkson9401]

When he said he has good dreams now , and started telling his good dream I cried ....❤ that's so beautiful , I can't even explain how great it was to hear him say that

[@governmentrape]

Bro really got me considering therapy. It’s always something I avoided even though the people in my life have been suggesting it to me for ages. I’m 31 and still struggle with things of the past that has mess me up and made life harder and harder to function the older I get. It’s just so hard to speak to someone and I bury things and get angry just as he did. This was really eye opening. Great video, thanks.

[@artyom6167]

This honestly feels like a wake up call for me, i went to the ER a few days ago because of my OCD after months of trying to see a psychiatrist, i see a lot of Mark in me, we even share the same style and i also (try) to play music and sometimes sing I'm so glad that Mark is in a good place right now, and i know he's going to help a lot of people not only by working as a CRSS but also with this video, thank you Chris and Alyssa for being there so people can have a place to share their story and help others as well

[@necrotic_taco8702]

I truly hope you're doing well, man.

[@lovingmayberry307]

I hope you can accept this "wake up call" as a much deserved gift. 💙✌️

[@jessicakleeberger2504]

OCD is hell. Hope you can find the treatment you need to thrive, friend. ❤️

[@dorotadonigiewicz1876]

Artyom - well done for taking the first step and going to the ER. I hope you are getting the help you need and are slowly feeling better.

[@artyom6167]

@@necrotic_taco8702 Thank you, i'm doing well now

[@ShogoMakishimaxx]

As a sufferer of cPTSD, I thought that it was normal to not remember things before 5, but when I started talking to people who had "clean/normal" childhoods, they could remember things from 2-3 years old. I was also sexually abused at multiple phases in my life starting at age 4. A LOT of the feelings of feeling unloved, unwanted, feeling inadequate, not good enough, wanting to take my life, being deceived by people who were supposed to be close to me, STILL feeling like this on some days (not suicidal thank goodness), therapy to work through the pain even though its hard...I felt this story 1,000,000%. THIS is what its like to be through the ringer of life (in one of the sad ways) I feel glad that he's here right now and yet I feel bad for him that the very people that should have protected him didn't (yes, I mean his dad as well....I understand that's what he was trying to do, but not telling him of his mother's deeds is not good whatsoever). This man seems like he has support, but not from the people who should have absolutely be there. From one cPTSD to another, I'm so sorry, but I'm so happy for you at the same time.

[@imaginationturtle5447]

Sorry for what you’ve been through and good luck through your recovery!

[@ShogoMakishimaxx]

@@imaginationturtle5447 thank you, I appreciate it! 🙌🏾

[@nom3nnescio]

I don't remember my childhood at age of 5,so was I abused?

[@xobls]

@@nom3nnescio I agree with this in the nicest way lol. I don’t remember anything before like age 4/5 but I was not sexually abused or abused at all, I had a wonderful childhood 🥰 everyone’s different!

[@fiasco7724]

I can’t remember beyond 4 years old

[@tmp1111]

He's an amazing man. This ladies and gentleman, is an example of how psychotherapy works. He has worked so very hard on himself, as a therapist I can say that his insight and courage to face his pain shows through as strength and confidence. And he's a cutie

[@imberart3798]

The whole video i was crying, and then that moment chris and Mark jamming together - filled me with pure happiness

[@jordiflower]

Such a powerful story. But wow, am I shocked at how many times people have failed you throughout your life. There is no reason you should have suffered so long, I don’t know how your “mom” was even able to contact and LIVE with you multiple times. Stay strong ♥️

[@unknowndeoxys00]

I've listened to him for the full 29 minutes and I love him. Wish this world had more people like him out in the open.

[@dumbmusorowan]

man mark seems like he'd be a great friend to have, he's so in tune with himself and accepting of the world, the good and the bad. plus he also seems like a great musician and i bet he has great taste in music. i hope i can be as articulate and wise as him some day.

[@emilyjadee9588]

“I decided… I can't relive my past because I can't change it”. My favourite quote from Mark in this video. As someone who has been diagnosed with C-PTSD, depression and anxiety, I'm telling you now, this video is life changing for people who are struggling right now. Especially for people who are resurfacing their traumas. It is so beyond powerful hearing his story, and I'm honoured to have heard it. The fact that he has learnt to accept and overcome through therapy and by using his other senses like communication/music is so impressive and inspiring. Therapy and creative passions are also my favourite tools for recovery as well (I'll admit I was sceptical before starting therapy, I just needed to find the right approach/therapist). Thank you, Chris, for capturing Mark's story and for raising awareness for those recovering from trauma and living with C-PTSD.

[@marianarath4024]

I’m really intrigued about his biological mom, what’s her problem? Like for real you know? You can’t be normal to act like she did, it’s insane! He’s so strong and inspirational!

[@jordiflower]

Me too…

[@NormieNeko]

My sister-in-law's husband's first two wives were guilty of the same behavior. They have severely traumatized the children from each marriage. Maybe they were victims once, but they were definitely on meth (the husband has a negative history as well). Most of these kids currently live normal lives. The oldest has a disorder that prevents any form of empathy. He's not doing well. This is family or ancestral trauma.

[@jordiflower]

@@NormieNeko 💯

[@dalton5903]

5 seconds in to seeing him and I can see that he's so full of life, he's such a great guy.

[@meganr3183]

If hospital staff caught her sexually abusing him why were the police not involved?

[@Preslee_luvsyou]

As some one who attempted suicide this really impacted me and I understand exactly what he said and his emotions and hit thoughts and the psychosis before. He’s so strong and he has all of our support ❤️💕

[@TraciHilbers]

I didn't actually go through it but I actually wanted to drive my vehicle into the lake near me but leaving my daughters behind stopped me,I am a survivor of DV from my ex husband,I was diagnosed with PTSD,Anxiety and depression,I am so glad I have my counselor,my kids and my close friends who are there for me,I still have things that still trigger me but I try and use my coping skills

[@lovingmayberry307]

@@TraciHilbers Sending you lots of love, Traci! ❤️💗💓💞

[@SonjaBlade608]

I'm so grateful you all have another chance at life. May you continue to be blessed, even through the struggles! 💝

[@lesliejohnson1138]

I did too. Had a really bad attempt. I'm a survivor of severe child abuse. I know how it messes with your brain. I need to get to a point where I can talk about it and not feel so much shame.

[@Preslee_luvsyou]

@@lesliejohnson1138 honestly same! I understand how you feel. I went though the same thing!

[@Kree.B.]

I am astounded at how incredibly strong Mark is. It makes me want to continue to face and fight my own demons. I hope he continues to heal, that he thrives and finds happiness and joy everyday because he deserves it a little more than most. I also hope justice is served to those who hurt him in some fitting way.

[@keard558]

I'm a doctor and it's really hard but important to hear how the hospital witness the mom abusing her son and did nothing. They have a vested interest in covering up the abuses from their staff; she wasn't. During med school I witnessed some vile things and was pressured into not reporting to keep my career. Everyday I think about that. May God bless you and your continued journey

[@mahdedarmo]

If you know someone who’s struggling and you care about their outcome, please be gentle with them and show them kindness

[@margafrantz4406]

Sounds like he’s had an amazing therapist! I know he has done incredibly difficult work in getting to love himself - he is reaping the rewards. Powerful testimony.

[@binxwaxcap7832]

One thing I've always loved about you is you always ask important (and some times what seems like difficult questions) but you word them in a way that makes it seem so "soft" (so to speak)

[@IVIr_Smith]

Mark has a very good story-telling voice. I know in this video, he's primarily talking about very traumatic stories of his youth, but I feel very drawn in with everything he says.

[@jacks910]

Me too, the way he explains stuff along with his voice really keeps me intrigued and interested. One of my fav SBSK guests.

[@NoircatMask]

a huge lesson to parents who want to shield their kid from their trauma by completely avoiding it. its the worst thing you could do. your kid is a living breathing person with a brain just like yours. it keeps experiences in, in ways you dont even comprehend, and those need to be worked through, not swept under the rug it blows my mind they tried to shield mark from his history but didn't even budge when he was living with a predator, like...who were they trying to protect, exactly

[@Crumpit339]

Such a handsome and intelligent guy, so inspirational and moving. Bless you, I’m so glad you’re still here and thriving.

[@luthientinuviel9942]

Mark, you're an incredible human and totally recovery goals! The level of emotional intelligence you have is incredible, and something I'm still working on. My stepchild is struggling currently with depression and I think I am going to talk to them today when they get home because they've had a rough week. It kills me to see it happen to them like it happened to me. But maybe watching your video together will give them hope that they can overcome anything.

[@leocervidae]

Definitely talk to them, but if they don’t respond don’t just give up. It’s hard to talk about/admit, getting angry or defensive is a natural coping mechanism. Plus talking about this too someone your close to can actually be harder than a stranger, so don’t be offended if they can’t talk to you. If they’re really struggling therapy could really help. All you can really do is listen to them, remind them how much they’re loved and be there when they’re ready to reach out for help. Try and engage with things they enjoy, organise activities, just don’t give up and keep reaching out.

[@markehlert979]

You so much! And I’m proud of you for working on your emotional intelligence. Something a lot of people are afraid of. But it’s pretty easy to obtain when you want it, it’s just self-awareness. And I’m so proud of you, that is incredible parenting! Being so observant and noticing, either in their body language or their signs if they’re not having a good week, and for you to want to embrace that and come together to share something, that shows awareness, Observation, and addressing it. You have a great plan here in my self and so many people are proud of you for great parenting.

[@BullCricket75]

Mark your DBT skills are shining through! I got goosebumps from soaking up your energy and wisdom. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being alive and being the best you that you can be! Radical acceptance is power❤

[@sparkstudies1675]

Is there anything in particular you could pick out from what he's shared that lines up with DBT work? Hope you're doing well

[@vidhoard]

5:15 unreal... what a horrendous, heartless, disgusting thing to do to child

[@vidhoard]

16:13 I can't even believe a person could be this evil

[@jackiecartwright9343]

I am so sorry you were not treasured as a beautiful boy who deserved to be loved. You are an amazing person. I’m so happy for your growth and ability to have learned to love yourself. I love you. Please keep us up to date with how you’re doing from time to time. I will always look forward to seeing your updates. Take care.

[@altonito777]

His youtube channel is in the description he has a lot of videos

[@starshot6785]

The fact that this man is still alive, still loving what he's about, is extremely courageous. What a dude. No matter how bad life can get, everyone is worthy of respecting what they're about.

[@anon_ya]

Watched this twice and still wow’d. Can’t wait to see Mark on a TedTalk, college campuses, and a podcast. I learned so much in this video, had to watch and comment twice!

[@Michigan1985]

From his description of his bullet entry and exit wound, it sounds like the bullet went between the brain and the base of his skull and took out his optic nerves. His bad aim saved his life.

[@lynettetracht1836]

i had to stop the video at 16:27 and take a deep breath, I'm not really sure how to process such a thing...like WTF???????

[@lalaw.1625]

I can relate to him in a lot of levels. Only people who went through abusive and pathological toxic parents or caregivers will know what it feels like... the amount of guilt, the feeling of being less than nothing. I am SO happy that he is healing. Each survivor that heals, brings a bit of healing to myself. Let's keep on the healing work folks. ✨️

[@markehlert979]

I’m so sorry if you also had to deal with that toxicity in the abuse while growing up. But shows has so much strength that you can openly talk about it. I’m also really proud of you for seeing this as a healing process. That shows so much strength And you coming very far in your own acceptance and healing. Proud of you for your journey. Thank you for supporting mine so much.

[@lalaw.1625]

@@markehlert979 Thank you so much 💙 That means a lot.

[@Aei934]

I really needed to see this episode. My therapist moved away five months ago and I never bothered searching for a new one. We were making great strides working through my PTSD brought on by being sexually abused as a child. I have taken a step back in recent months and can feel myself starting to head down the dark path of regret and depression again. Thank you so much for sharing your story and making yourself so vulnerable. I commend you!

[@estrellamariatarleton5192]

Wow, Mark is so articulate, passionate, & compassionate. I was captivated by his life story & his descriptive, energetic & concise delivery of it. Mark now has great "insight" into human nature through life experiences, therapy & education....how profound. He is so inspiring & i know that he is going to save lives. I hope he continues to share his deep reflections and knowledge. 😀

[@Merl1n3]

This guy is one of the most emotionally mature, well-balanced, and bravest person I’ve ever seen.

[@wanderingwanderer1016]

When his family found out he was moving in with his biological mom, they should've told him the truth. That's messed up.

[@katehenderson8194]

And what of the hospital?!! They should have called the cops on his Mum and explained to him what happened and organise therapy ffs

[@Rhiannon.Moonchild]

massive neglect of duty of care. much respect and love to this man

[@NormieNeko]

Mark reminds me of my nephew. He didn't make it. He took his life outside of our house September 1, days before this video was published. My husband and I tried to help him days earlier, but he had this planned. We had no idea he had an attempt weeks earlier. I wish he would have gotten therapy. He couldn't process his emotions. He was so random. It was a tragedy. I miss him.

[@rouislikescheezits8367]

A few days ago, I attempted suicide. Watching this saved my life. It’s hard to continue, but now I know I can. Thank you.

[@RealComashiro]

He looks absolutely amazing, I'm so glad he's still here. He's a good person.

[@andrewwinterdawn4115]

It's unbelievable how everyone has been hiding to him crucial information about his life. Something that i told myself as a father is to always say the truth to my kids, no matter how harsh the reality is. The world is an hard place to live in, we got to face it and learn how to survive, the sooner the better, of course with the proper help and tools. Great job Mark, you overcame the impossible!

[@katehenderson8194]

I’m Astounded he doesn’t still have trust issues.. an inspiring guy!

[@andrewwinterdawn4115]

@Stranger life is beautiful no matter what, everyone deserves to live it at the fullest. Happiness is a very real thing. Our role is to prepare kids for the world, good and bad, they will draw their path to happiness, continuing our mission, living their lives as a continuation of ours. Not having kids is equal to suicide, but this is just my personal view of course..

[@santymonty967]

@@andrewwinterdawn4115 what a damn beautiful comment

[@crayCray420]

I'm furious for him about his 'mother' You are a true inspiration. I'm extremely impressed with you

[@paran315]

He lost his sight and went through a serious brain injury, yet is extremely intelligent and thoughtful than most people...including me. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm going through a difficult time but you inspire me to push through.

[@decidev]

Not to mention sexually abused by his mother. He’s so inspirational. Hope you feel better soon bro, make sure you talk to people about your thoughts.