Surviving Grief, Life after the death of my son, Blessed Beyond Measure

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[@nanfaircloth]

Jackie, Jesus has you in his hands. I earnestly pray 🙏 for your heart to be able to push through. Hey why don't you start sharing the building of your house. I'd love to see the progress and it would keep you busy. Love you Lady. God's got you.

[@phyllisanngodfrey6137]

Jackie, when my daughter was 9, her uncle and Godfather died leaving her favorite aunt a widow. They never had any children of their own. Her aunt told me that my 9 year child was the only one who ever felt comfortable talking to her about it AND it helped her so much to recall with her all the fun times they had together. A lot of people really fear death. I am married to one. I learned a lot from this about how to interact in a comforting way with people going through the grieving process. Don’t be afraid to share good memories with them 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

[@garfieldstupid]

From everything that I have heard about your son, I believe he would want you to keep on living live full of joy like he did. Praying for you my friend.

[@dmm29rn]

Jackie. People are not avoiding you! They are giving space! The awkwardness wis there! There is no denying that. Nobody knows what to say or do. They are at a loss with you. Although they do not know truly what you are going through, they are hurting for you! I lost my brother and that was the hardest thing I have ever felt with. It will be 10 years this Fourth of July . he is still a very big part of my daily life. And I find myself talking to him and wishing he was still here. My heart still hurts! But I take comfort knowing he knows he is loved by many and is now with his maker and safe! So sorry you have to go through this. You are loved!

[@deborahanneohara9386]

I LOST TWO BABIES AT 21 & 22....I WAS AN INNOCENT, CATHOLIC SCHOOL VIRGIN UNTIL I MET MY HUSBAND. I STIL OF THOSE BOYES "EVERYDAY" & IT WAS 40 YRS AGO!!! 🤐🤐🤐 NO ONE MENTIONED IT, NOT MY MOM WHO WASVSRILL HERE ON EARTH. I LOST MY FATHER AT 19, WHEN I NEEDED HIM MOST. I LOST MY MOTHER ONLY 6 MONTHS AFTER I HAD MY 3RD BABY, A HAPPY & HEALTHY BABY BOY. AGAIN, SHE WENT TO HEAVEN JUST WHEN I NEEDED HER MOST. IVE BEEN AN ORPHAN FOR 40 YEARS. I WAS ANGRY AT GOD. I CRIED AND CRIED AS I HELD MY BABY I WAITED SOOO LONG FOR. MY HUSBAND, NO ONE,.WANTED TO TALK ABOUT IT...."NO-ONE"! 💔💔💔. "YOU WILL GET THERE...AT YOUR OWN TIME"! GOD UNDERSTANDS..." HE DOES"! I CRIED FOR YOUR PAIN TODAY, I HAVEN'T WATCHED IN A FEW WEEKS...."I WAS BEYOND SCHOCKED & BURST OUT CRYING!!!

[@marlenealcombright2327]

Dena I'm soo sorry for your loss ,my sister passed 12 years ago this fourth of July as well

[@kimberleelovett9377]

Oh my goodness bless your precious heart. You are a very strong lady as well. So sorry for your losses. I'm in tears reading your story. Warm hugs to you and prayers.

[@atticusandnofriends8481]

So true. Take courage from the Lord. He is with you. So So sorry for your loss.

[@atticusandnofriends8481]

So true. Take courage and strength from the Lord . He will be with you thru this until you go to be with the Lord. That's how long you will miss your son. He will always be missed but thru your faith in God you will be OK. He will never leave you or forsake you. He sees your tears He hears your crys. I know it's so hard just keep on keeping on. You and your family are in my prayers. So so sorry for your loss

[@Candice-1989]

You are not alone, God is our strength. I too have lost a son this past June. And before that I lost the love of my life. He was only 52. Went misdiagnosed for over 9 weeks. He was a Baptist Pastor. Prayers sweet lady. I need prayers too please.🙏🙏🙏🙏💙💙💙💙 where there is deep love ,there is deep grief.

[@tracewalker8772]

Praying for you🙏🏻💕

[@Candice-1989]

@@tracewalker8772 thank you. I need it. I get overwhelmed at times. Thank you so much.🙏💙

[@CraftingMyBestLifewithLisa]

It is so evident that God is your strength! Your ability to talk through how you feel is really encouraging. That is a part of healing…acknowledging. You are a precious, beautiful person inside and out. Love you little Sis!! 🙏🏽🥰🤗

[@janiemorrison7224]

Sweet Jackie, as a mom that has lost a child, my second son, at age 16, I totally understand. I found that after the death of my son, people that I had a known my whole life-friends-avoid you. I felt like I made them uncomfortable. It took a long time to even be able to go out in public. I would have a panic attack when it was time to go to the store. I felt to broken. I felt like when someone looked at me, the could see my broken, shattered heart. I didn’t want to see that pity in their eyes. I didn’t want people to feel sorry for me. As time goes on, you will learn to exist in spite of the grief. In time, you will begin to thrive again. Easter Sunday will be 24 years since the death of my son. It’s hard this year. It’s hard every year. I am so thankful for all the memories I have. They are a blessing. God loves you so much. Know that Jace is with his Heavenly Father. He is watching over you and he doesn’t want you to grieve. Prayers, hugs, and peace. May God wrap you all in his love, mercy, and Grace. 🙏🏻🙏🏻✝️✝️

[@wandastevens3183]

My situation is so like yours,but my only Son was almost 27...and it's been 24 years since he died and after his death...people I'd known all my life,and even his friends wouldn't talk to me ...they'd avoid me.All I wanted to do was for somebody to let's talk about memories of my son ...but the elephant in the room got so big...I couldn't go to the grocery store without feeling a panic attack coming on,and pray I could calm it down and try to shove on and not break down,once that starts I can't stop til it all comes on out....but one day I couldn't make it through,tears pouring and I didn't want to look like a broken & shattered person around people,and just before it got worse...I had to leave about 3 things in the cart to the side and just get out of there as quickly as I could and go to my car and just cry my eyes out...until I could deal with it about 30 minutes later...the stages of grief are so terrible...living with the grief is hour by hour & day by day for the longest time....the power of maintaining the endurance of the pain of losing a child,no matter at what age...is through Jesus Christ...it's the only way I made it through...the only way...

[@nedra4wv304]

Grief is tough. People want to talk to you. I know they do. They just don’t know what to say. They don’t want to upset you, so they don’t say anything. Sometimes just a hug is enough. No words. Sending you hugs from WV💙😊

[@kimfilek9717]

I have never lost a full grown child as I've only had a miscarriage. But, I watched my mom struggle through the loss of my brother from a hit and run driver. It was heartbreaking. I can relate though on loss. I lost my husband of 31 years unexpectedly at the age of 52. It was the most difficult thing I've ever done. Honestly, I had a breakdown . I understand what you mean though. I knew that my amazing husband was with God...but I wanted him here with me. It wasn't right. And yes I didn't want to be around people either. In my case yes people avoided me. In time I understood that it was because they didn't know what to say...but also they were afraid it would make it harder for me. And I was so broken I can see now that makes sense in a kind of weird way. Oh and on the being happy I totally relate. I thought how dare you be happy what is the matter with you. I can honestly say if it wasn't for my children and God I would never have survived any of it. Keep holding on to them and God. They can take it . Give yourself some time ...God is with you always !! And now it's my turn to apologize for rambling on lol. Just know that there are many people praying for you. Many blessings

[@mikemills3272]

You didn't ramble. You vented. A grieving person MUST! You're awesome!

[@katherineleavitt7275]

Jackie, I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes reliving the death of our precious daughter. She passed away suddenly in 2015 from a pulmonary embolism. I just wanted to let you know I understand your grief, the best way I know how to describe losing our child was like part of my soul died that day with her. Our precious Jennifer was only 37 years old a beloved nurse at the VA hospital here in Memphis. Tonight I'm watching her grandchild who is 8 mths old a child she will never get to see or hold or love and that breaks my heart. 😢. Time will heal your broken heart but it won't ever allow you to forget holding your child in your arms for the last time. God Bless you and keep you in his loving arms. Kathy

[@wendyhart6935]

Jackie, you're doing fine. As a child who lost my mom, (I was 12) I can tell you that you won't ever stop thinking about Jace...there isn't anything wrong about that! Eventually the memories hurt less and become sad, and then they are loving reminders of him. Your other two kids still need you too, and I'm sure that they're trying to make you laugh, so that they know you're still "in there", under the grief. Letting go of the hurt doesn't mean you're letting go of your son, it just means that you're continuing to live. Xoxo

[@AG-kr1my]

I heard a mother, who lost a sweet child, say that while she prayed everyday for her child's safety she often reminded herself that her child did not need protection from joy in heaven ❤️ I cannot imagine your pain or experience but goodness I hope you know how loved you are and can feel our prayers ❤️❤️❤️

[@martaruvalcaba6016]

Hello Mrs. Jackie, time and prayer will help. Your dear son is with Jesus now. You are here take it one day at time. Thank Jesus for the time you had together. For your loved one will always be in your heart.Take care.

[@disastersdiys1418]

Girl you can ramble all day long every day and I think we will all be here to listen. When you are “rambling” you are having a conversation with friends. Thank you for the update. I appreciate you!

[@gailstufft4141]

It’s ok to smile and laugh. I haven’t lost a child but I have lost my parents a brother and my in-laws. I know what you mean by feeling bad for smiling but you NEED to let yourself smile and laugh. It doesn’t mean you aren’t grieving. ❤️

[@nancyandrews8891]

My sister's son passed away, Auto accident. Such a Sweet man. A young lady ran a traffic light hip him in the back. He was driving a motorcycle.. Yes Ma'am, You're in my Prayers. Love & Hugs, Nancy

[@MakingItMyOwn]

❤️🙏🏻. I don’t always comment but I want you to know that I am praying for you and your family Jackie. I really feel you are helping others by sharing your story. ❤️🙏🏻

[@deborahanneohara9386]

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[@tracyriordan7011]

@Dinorah Giangrande oh, sweetie. I am so sorry for you too! ) : Loss is sooo difficult! Saying prayers you can get through this pain and torture of losing your beautiful child sooner rather than later! I pray daily I will never lose one of my beautiful girls. Sending love, light, and prayers your way! ❤️❤️❤️☀️☀️☀️🙏🙏🙏🤲🤲🤲

[@darlaavard3318]

@Dinorah Giangrande You have a beautiful name! I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. Grief has no time constraints so you take as long as you need. Don't ever let anyone tell you to get over it or move on! Losing a child is the hardest thing ever. Sending hugs and prayers.

[@micheleheinze5402]

The devil is trying to steal your smiles, your laughter, your happiness. Don’t allow that to happen, Jayce would not want that for you. Crafting is great therapy, I Pray you can Jackie. I Pray you smile, I Pray you laugh. You can still be happy through the grief, just allow yourself to be. Much love to you and my Prayers continue for you Jackie. ❤️🙏❤️

[@Lori6578]

You ramble on as much as you like girlfriend. Whatever you need to do to make you get through. And you SMILE like never before if for nothing else do it because you are loved Jackie. We are all with you so you smile away pretty lady. God is watching and wants to heal you so yes yes yes SMILE on sweet girl 😘

[@heathermacleod7068]

Bless you Jackie! You are a strong woman!!! You stay strong!! And you are absolutely right; you never get over grief, you just learn to live with it again! Sending a big tight hug!!!!!

[@brendahaire8824]

My daughter has been avoided constantly but, on the flip side when she couldn’t go to different functions because she was in such a state of mind that she couldn’t stop crying her own sister has blocked her on Facebook and won’t call her. The time she really needs her family, they have turned away from her. The loss of a child is simply the worse thing that could happen. You really do have to move through the grief. You will eventually begin to be able to talk about him and laugh at some of the little things he did as a small child and that is the best thing. The memories will always be there and you will eventually be able to smile and be happy in the moment and not feel guilty about it. God bless you and your family and know that you are in my prayers. Love always.

[@kimbibbs5700]

Brenda Haire I am so very sorry for your Daughter and for you and the rest of the family. I cannot make sense of a child dying, just as Jackie said, it’s so unnatural… it’s just not supposed to be that way!! At least in our hearts and minds. But, death IS something that is natural, it eventually happens to all of us, no matter who we are, how much money we have, etc. it is a natural part of life. I’m sure. My words seem harsh, and people might be thinking I’m a cruel person right about now, but the reason I’m saying that death is a natural part of life, even though when it’s a child especially, it’s almost unbearable, but the part of your story that is so unnatural and heartbreaking, is that your Daughters sibling has turned her back on her, kicked her out of her life, etc. and when her child has died… we do not know the circumstances of the sisters relationship or the child’s passing, but it is gut wrenching to me to think that we as a society, have gotten to a point where we turn our backs on each other at the drop of a hat!!! So your Family has really suffered two deaths!!! No matter what the reasons are, nothing is worth turning your back on a loved one!!! I will keep your Daughter, you and the sibling in my prayers. My pray will be that the Family can be restored, that the Sisters can be there for each other again, and the grieving and healing can be done as a unit. God Bless all of you!!🙏♥️

[@maryrich1645]

Dear precious lady, I’m so extremely sorry for your loss!!! I just found out by hearing this video. I will add you and your family to my prayer list. God bless you and help heal your heart❤️🙏❤️

[@marandawhite1400]

Cling to what you know in your heart. God is big enough and strong enough to weather your anger with him. We all have a day we will die and God knows exactly the day. I feel God puts us on earth for a purpose and a plan. Take comfort in knowing you will see your son again.You are one of the strongest women I have ever seen! Love you to pieces, A fellow Tennessean!

[@cindyyeager4429]

Jackie, I’ve not lost a child, and I can’t imagine how you feel, but I lost my husband 19 years ago, and I can understand some of your thoughts. Yes, I’ve been avoided from people because they don’t know what to say, and even friends that have lost a spouse since then, I don’t know how to approach them because I don’t want to “make it all about me”, as I do know what they are going through. I also learned in grief counseling is you can’t go avoid the grief process. You can’t go around it, over it, under it, you have to go through it. And everyone is different. My thoughts and prayers are with you, as I know that others that prayed for me, helped me. Sending ((Hugs)) to you also. 🙏🏻💕

[@wandastevens3183]

Yes....people avoid you..it's called the elephant in the room,and you want to talk to them so much about your child...their excuse,...they don't know what to say to you,they might say the wrong thing,they are afraid you'll start crying,etc...many other things...it's 24 years for my sons death,and they still avoid me...talk to God he will be your best friend to help you get through it all...and help you endure and work pass this horrible pain of your loss ...

[@db81862]

Sweet Jackie I keep you and your family in my prayers. I have not experienced loosing my child but I did my mother and I was so shocked, sad and hurt. I went to visit her one morning and I always called her before I left my home which was about 35 minutes away. She never answered, so I called over and over again until I arrived at her house. He SUV was in her driveway so I went in and started calling her name and she never responded. I went straight to her bedroom and tried to open her door, it was locked. I then proceeded to beat on the door to see if she was in her room because I really didn’t know. I got her door open and when I opened the door she was laying in the bed. I ran over and took one look at her and I knew she was gone. At that moment time stood still. I just could not believe she was gone. My heart was ripped out of my chest. She was my best friend, my mother, my everything. We were so close. That day changed my life forever. I have not been the same and I never will again. I knew that if I did not get professional help that I was not going to be here for my son. That was 6 years ago. It took 1 year of going to a physiotherapist once a week for me to be able to function. Some of my family members avoided me for a long time. I was hurt and did not understand because I needed them at this time in my life. I am telling you all of this that happened to me not to upset you at all but maybe it can help you in some way. It breaks my heart to see the pain in your eyes. I know you are hurting but each day that goes by is closer to getting over the grieving process. There is no time limit. I promise you will get through this. I hope by me sharing my story in some way will help you. Hold your head up and look to the sky because your son is in heaven and you will see him again one day.❤️🙏🏻

[@lindamcdonald6341]

My sweet girl my heart go out to you my mom lost a son who drowned at the age of nine.I was 7 he was my buddy best friend.At that young age God showed me he was safe with him in heaven.May God fill you heart with his love and peace🙏❤️‍🩹

[@sheilacrocker2868]

You sweet lady. My heart is breaking for you. I pray Gods strength continues to bless you every day.

[@lydiahernandez6083]

The Lord is giving you the strength you need to continue your life and help your children through this difficult time. Your child will always in your heart. I am praying for you and your family. I admire your strength. Jesus will bless you always.

[@valerieallison8055]

Your daughter is very wise for her age. You are blessed to have her

[@lynnoverton7747]

Oh my goodness, I saw the title of this video and was stunned. I had no idea that you lost your son. A mother should never have to bury her child. I will pray for you and your family. I admire your faith and strength. God bless you.

[@craftingbysharon9869]

Lord I ask that you comfort this lady and her family in this situation. Thank you Jesus, Amen.

[@debs.4389]

Grief is the price we pay for loving someone. You're going to be okay as I have learned in my 3 years of grief. Everyday is a battle, but with God's help I make it.. Love you and praying for you sweet girl!!!

[@nancycogar3864]

Hey darlin I’m in the middle of sending all of that stuff. Girl I did not realize how much stuff I have!!!! I would also love to see you building your home!!! When I lost 2 of my youngest boys, one in 2015 and the other 2016, I lost my mind but through the love of Christ he brought me through. Each year that goes by the hurt is still there just like the day all of it happened but through prayers and Jesus, He’s making it some easier. Baby gal all of your emotions that you’re feeling is normal. Your emotions will go every where. Just hold on to God and your family and even your family on here!!! Love ya bunches!!! 🙏🏼🌹❤️

[@catlady5862]

I wish that I could take away your pain. I lost my dear sweet husband 12 years ago next month in May . I grieve for him everyday and miss him so much. Take your time grieving. There's no limit on how long or short grief takes to get over a loved one . I think you're doing great . May God bless you and your family .

[@suebutler5456]

I also have lost a son, 7 years ago to Suicide. He was 30 years old, I don’t care how you lose a child it is devastating. I have good days and very sad days. I love how you said God didn’t take your child he Received him. I will remember that forever, thank you for saying it. I’m praying for you and your family, it gets tolerable not easier but you do have to go on with your life so you do what you have to do. Thank you for sharing.

[@darlaavard3318]

You may not know what an inspiration you are to others. Your faith has been tested, the devil has thrown so much in your way... But you did not falter, you kept your faith and moved forward even if the Lord had to carry you. I've cried with you and for you many times. I look forward to hearing your laughter again when you feel its appropriate. At my son's memorial I read a small message that may help you. Dr. Suess said, "Don't cry because it's over - smile because it happened." Aaron "happened" to us and brought many smiles to our world. We are so lucky to have had him in our lives, even for a short time. His laughter was contagious and his smile brought so much joy to those around him. He continues to bring joy and life by donating his organs. Please share your stories of Aaron so his amazing legacy will create great memories for his children and family. Thank you for your strength and spiritual guidance. And even though you want to hide away so you don't have to talk to anyone just know that they have no idea what to say to you during these hard times. I've found that if I just give a hug and say I'm here if you need me, seems to let them know that I care but I'm not pressuring them to talk or respond at that moment in time. So here's a big hug sweet lady. We are all here when you need us. Much love from another broken-hearted Mom.

[@alicebutton6240]

Jackie, God Bless you my beautiful Sweet friend. Your faith in our heavenly father will get you through each day. I can't imagine what your going through . I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ❤🙏❤🙏

[@AshleighBlair1]

Jackie your strength is amazing. You are truly blessed. Your spirit shine the light of hope for those dealing with loss. Prayers are with you and I'm sure God is watching over your family at this time.

[@sharonjerseygirl7165]

Jackie What Don't Kill Us WILL Makes Us Stronger...Stay Strong!!!👍😇

[@heidihess7908]

I felt so lost in my grief over the death of my grandmother in 1999. She was my mother. Best advice, limit crying for no more than one hour a day, get back on track and do something productive. Make memorials in the garden and house without being morbid. Send your angel to others who are struggling also. Pray for spiritual interventions and being watched over by them. God allowed my grandmother to come to me and I felt her, held her and smelled her and shared how much I love her. My grief was too devastating and I could not get back into life without it. I treasure that moment in my life and it gives me hope we will be reunited once again. I cannot wait for that day, Im happy to hear about your kids and your home. Stay blessed.

[@sarahjones6342]

Prayers always for our sister Jackie.God Bless Jackie and her family.👏👏❤❤

[@lindajones3817]

You are awesome, I to believed god would take care of my child and still I’m angry at times that he allowed my child to die but I know without our lord I would be lost . Yes I had lots of people avoid me dropped me as a friend on face book yes it made me sad but at the same time I did not anyone talking to me it is so hard just keep you’re faith in god he will carry you at you’re lowest prayers hugs

[@christinedoyle9544]

I do not think that you rambled. I do appreciate you being so authentic with this community. I’m sure that I would rather avoid someone than to risk saying something that would bother them or upset them. I would hope that I could just show love but I am very sensitive and if I tried to say something to someone who I knew was grieving, I would probably start to cry and then I would feel bad if that person started to cry because of my reaction. It’s a tough situation for everyone involved. I’m praying for you and your family daily. I had been wondering how the house building was going so thank you for also addressing that. I can not wait to see some of your diys. God Bless you all!!

[@tneumans]

I am praying 🙏 for you and your family. I haven't lost a child but I lost my big sister 6 yrs ago and I believe you just learn to live with the grief. She was my best friend and sister. I miss her everyday so I pray you can know God is with you and he is your strength. He is mine and I couldn't have made it without him. God bless you my friend.

[@suecauthon3569]

Jackie, I didn't start watching your KZbin channel until the tornado. I didn't even know about your diys. I found your channel through another diyer. I think I was sent to your channel so that I could pray for you and your family. I haven't lost a child but, I have lost 2 sisters/ best friends. I didn't want to go out at all and I still don't want to talk to people. I am still trying to be strong for my brother in law and for my nephews. I daily think of my sissy's. I was very close to my sister's because they were the only constant throughout my life. We were split up as children and sent to different foster homes, so we remained very close. My sister that passed away in September kept on me to get closer to Jesus, that is where my journey started with Jesus and the Bible. I never lived one place long enough or had the encouragement to get to know God. I love the daily devotional. It is what helps me through the day. Sorry for rambling but I wanted you to know that through your pain you are helping others.

[@judylivingston6413]

Dearest Jackie. You will get thru this! Take it one day at a time, and lean fully upon God! If he brought you to this, he will bring you through it! God bless you!

[@sharylblomquist7547]

Jackie in this season of life the first of things and the last of things will be rocking your world

[@theresafields4296]

Stay strong Jackie! It's okay to have all the emotions you are going through. Sometimes silence can be a powerful tool to speak to your heart. I honestly would just give you the biggest dang hug, let you cry, let you laugh, let you celebrate or even be mad! You be yourself!!! Make no apologies for your emotions. They are so real. If you could not have a single moment of relief from grief, you would literally suffocate and God knows this. Remember when Jesus died that the curtain of the Most Holy was ripped separating God from His people, His Son! He knows your pain. Celebrate Jayce with every smile you have, every outburst of laughter, every tear you cry. Celebrate him for he was given to you. Taken way to soon. I will never understand the grief of the loss of a child. I am an RN in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit In Little Rock. People never really believe bad things happen to kids until they find themselves in the ICU with a child. You are such a blessing to me. Stay you and know you are loved!

[@kimjohnson582]

I can't imagine the landslide that you have been in. Your soul is so beautiful and I pray daily for your family.

[@debragriffin5844]

Jackie, After the loss of my son, my sister told me that she was keeping her distance from me because she didn’t want to say something that made me feel worse and she didn’t know what to say to help and not hurt. Ann’s she was grieving his loss also. She told me she was just waiting for me to let her know I was ready. It’s really sad that so often it’s handled like this by countless others as well. We will never “get over”the loss of our children, but in time our sorrow will turn to memories that bring smiles! My prayers and love to you and your family!

[@diannsteck2644]

Jackie, you asked if people avoided us after the loss of a child. My experience was, YES. Not only did they go out of their way to avoid me but many of them would not speak my son's name (Billy). As a mother that was emotionally difficult for me. What people don't realize, after the loss of a child we still love talking about our child (our gift from God). ❤️ I can look back now and realize that they didn't know what to say. They were afraid of hurting me by doing so. I believe that some felt inside their hearts, that could have been there child. I told you before that you will learn to live with your grief but I love what you said better. You will learn to work through it. You are strong and have your faith. God loves you and you are fabulous. Prayers sweet lady.

[@juliacarroll7838]

I lost my daughter a year ago and I tell you some days I can hardly get through and some days it's better and the only thing that I can say to you is lean heavily on God and friends and family that will get you through some really awful days my heart goes out to you cuz I know exactly what you're going through God loves you and your family so much and try to have peace knowing that he is with God

[@mommaknowsit1632]

My sister blocked me on Facebook even after loss of our daughter. Her coworkers gave her jewelry when OUR daughter died as if she had had the loss. She was rarely ever around our daughter but she accepted jewelry and flowers and then blocked ME!

[@tammyh6735]

@@mommaknowsit1632 ❤️ sorry you are going through that after losing a child. Sometimes ppl that are broken do unkind things when you need them the most. I pray things get better with her. I've seen God heal relationships in time that went south after the loss of a loved one.

[@paisleysmith7544]

It is hard for both. I ran into a friend that I had not seen since her husband died. All I could do was give her a hug. No words needed.

[@barbaragallier5594]

Feeling happiness is not wrong. It is healing. We never forget them but we take small steps back to "normal". Be easy on yourself. Long journey but days Will get better. Yes people will avoid you because they don't know what to say. Give them grace. My son is with me in spirit everyday. With God.'s strength We go on!

[@suesanders8822]

Even after all theses years my son is the first person and the last one I think of everyday. But now he can be though of without falling apart. So it does get easier but you never forget get. Lot's of love and Prayers sweetie.🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@karentaylor688]

I lost my oldest child in October. I have my 10 year old grandson. He is why I am strong. What I hated was all the apologies. It was not their fault. It gets a little easier each day. Love you. If you ever need to talk, I’m here.

[@deborahellenberger7153]

I prayed for you this morning. You are so important to me. My heart is touched by your relying on God to carry you through. 🥰. The Holy Spirit will pray for you.

[@kathyhelmold7358]

The lord is with you every minute of every day. Never underestimate his power. He most definitely will see you and your family through this very hard time in your life. Sending prayers 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️

[@melaniesteward1573]

Hi Jackie. You look so pretty today. You are right, God didn't take your son, you received him. I do hope that when you get the autopsy report, you and the family gets peace and answers and not more questions. You have been on my heart and in my prayers. I will love seeing your talent in crafts again. Love and hugs. 💙💜 Melanie

[@toodymouse]

Jackie, I haven’t lost a child, but I did lose my husband 19 years ago when my kids were still in school. I was angry, sad and felt cheated for myself and for my kids. You grieve not only for the loss of your loved one, but for the loss of your future as you had imagined it would be. Yes, I did have people who avoided me. I was no longer included in couples activities. Some friends I never heard from again. People don’t know what to say and sometimes it seemed like they felt I was contagious - as if losing a loved one is something you can catch from another person. (Weird as that sounds). I have learned how important it is just to be there for those who have suffered a loss. Just hug them and say I’m so sorry. Don’t forget about them after the funeral and allow them to grieve at their own pace. My prayers are truly with you. I watch your daily devotionals and gain courage and inspiration from them. Sending you hugs!

[@christinesandywell9123]

Yes Jackie people don’t know what to say to you as they are afraid of upsetting you, and no one knows not what to say bless you and your family. I am praying for you all as always love from the U.K. 🇬🇧🙏🙏🙏xxx

[@cindybrittt183]

The Lord will use you and your testimony one day. Yes people will avoid you because they don’t know what to say.. My son took his life 4 years ago and life will never be the same. The Lord will carry you through..I can’t imagine not having the Lord in my life to help through this.. Prayers for you all..

[@victoriajohnson3034]

You noticed the one hair out of place! I noticed how beautiful you are and loving your hair!

[@terrimorin8144]

Jackie to hear from you is a comforting connection that only a Person who's lost a child

[@terrimorin8144]

Can relate to your many feelings and thoughts. Not wanting to go to any where . The few times I did I was being avoided by my family and friends. But there are times I want them to say his name even if it hurts so good. Praying for you and your family ♡ ♡ ♡

[@sharylblomquist7547]

Jackie it’s not abnormal for people avoid you. It truly makes them uncomfortable. It’s almost like them feel it would be contagious and it could happen to them. This season in your life you will find out who are truly your special people. Love and blessings to you this day.

[@inspiringbuilds]

Prayers for you and your family. 🙏🏻

[@kathyhennagir5201]

Since the loss of your son, this is the first time I’ve been able to watch a whole video of yours…I watched my parents bury 3 of their 7 children…my grief and sorrow for you is so big, that’s why it’s been hard for me to watch! My oldest sister died at 30 after battling cancer for 7yrs., leaving behind my 5 & 7 year old nephews, and my precious 9 yr old niece…that was 42yrs ago…though my parents have passed I still grieve! Then 16yrs ago, my oldest brother (days after celebrating his 50th wedding anniversary) was killed in a freak car accident in Alaska…my 5 other siblings and I drew straws to see who had to tell my parents as we sat downstairs sobbing because of what we knew we had to do…10 weeks after my brother passed I lost my other beautiful sister to a massive heart attack in her sleep…I am just a sibling but the pain was agonizing for me! You asked about people avoiding you?! My brother passed end of July my sister followed in early October…I couldn’t go to a grocery store during the day AT ALL! I’m from a small town where we were all born and raised…I started doing my errands at night when I could muster the strength and courage to go out…one evening a “friend” approached me at the grocery store and gave me her condolences on the passings of my brother and sister, and then looked me dead in the eye and said “your holidays are gonna really suck!” I was gobsmacked! I replied to her, “ why thank you, we hadn’t thought of that!” I literally walked away in a coma! 3 months later I lost my precious dad, then shortly there after my perfect, beautiful momma…(they lived in to their 90’s) but watching their grief process over the loss of their children, my siblings was almost unbearable! This is what I can say to you as a sibling is this…people don’t know WHAT to say! They’re afraid to say anything for fear it may happen to them! I have done more grief counseling than you can even imagine! I have learned this though, when someone I know passes, I simply will walk up to their family, and hug them, tell them I love them and if you need anything at all, I am here for you! That’s all that needs to be said…that’s my experience! Grief is an odd ride on the oddest roller coaster ever! Let yourself cry when you need to…remember…Jayce doesn’t want you to quit living! He will always be there! It’s OK to laugh! I know you because I love your channel, but please know this, I love you, if there is anything you need I am here for you! May our Father wrap his loving arms around you and give you love and strength…amen❤️

[@r.c.miller6161]

Grief becomes a part of us. It’s a permanent change in our lives.

[@darlenegreen4035]

You said it. EASIER...not .. BETTER. And yes,the devil will try to stop your progress. Look back at former videos and see the progress THAT I CAN SEE. You are on the right path through the grace of God. I'm so excited for your DIY's. Like a flower you are blossoming!!!❤🙏

[@lorrainedaniels1238]

It's surviours guilt it's natural, it will get better with time. It will never go away, but it will heal to a point. Live for the rest of your family. God bless.

[@amystoll1148]

Jackie, thank you for sharing your heart. I have a friend who lost her six-year-old daughter to influenza. It's been been close to ten years now. I did not want to go to the funeral home. I felt weird. I didnt know what to say. I was afraid to face her. Then, it hit me like a ton of bricks! I was only concerned with how I felt. I told myself to start concerning myself with how she felt. She had lost a child and I was worrying about feeling awkward. I did go and I was glad I did. Like you said, it's not natural to lose a child and people just dont know how to act or what to say. They are afraid they might say something to make you cry or remind you (like it's not constantly on your mind). I dont think they mean to be unkind. I continue to pray for you and your family. You are fabulous!

[@craftingbysharon9869]

You are blessed beyond measures. Keep the faith. Praying for you.

[@dbolton305]

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers . Thank you for all you do , say and share. Your as important to our lives as you feel we are to yours. Your one of the strongest most determined smart loving honest beautiful person . Your amazing 💕💔💕

[@terri7557]

I have you and your family in my prayers always. I feel your pain. I to have lost a child. Remember he's always with you in your heart and holding your heart in his hands

[@jessiemerritt9147]

Still praying for you and your family daily in Jesus name. My sister in Christ great full to have found you. You have been a blessing threw your strength in God. 🙏🏼❤️

[@kimcarter8421]

My son passed 11/8/2021. I still have not received the medical examiner report. 😥 I think he was given something laced with Fentanly. Your are so right. Greif comes in waves. God is my strength and comforter. Just remember.....we will see your son's one day again. I love you❤️🙏✝️

[@margiewallace9456]

People will hug me and not ask any questions. It helped so much.

[@donnagolliday8677]

It takes time and it's different for everyone. You are doing great! I even seen a little smile! We love you and are praying for you!🌷💕🙏

[@pamcopeland7622]

Jackie as a mother who lost a son I know how heavy your heart is. I don.t think the pain will ever go away. Part of you is gone. Time and the love of family and friends but above all Gods love will be your Savior. 🌹

[@nuzhatshamimansary6681]

Hi. When God puts you through a test He gives you the courage to bear with it too. May He bless you with ways you think of Jayce and remember all the good times you had with him.

[@maureenharrah931]

This is our first year without our son. It is a journey, but keeping God close has helped me. Sending hugs.

[@susansmith2178]

I lost my firstborn son Gene February 4th. I agree I have been angry, questioning God and your words rang true God didn’t take my son he received my son. Thank you. This is the hardest thing I have been through.

[@patskelton4202]

Isn’t it strange that when don’t say they are sorry or that they are thinking of you can definitely feel hurt and yet feel relieved when you don’t have to talk or explain things! Don’t be too hard on yourself Sweetie! You will Always hurt over your son, but time will ( your timing- not others! ) will let you learn to live with the pain. God will help you ! Just always remember that He loves You! ❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️

[@tellkemp6869]

People never know what to say to someone who is grieving… so they think they are doing the right thing by avoiding the person, for some, such as yourself it was what you wanted. But for others is can make them feel more isolated. Grief is very different for everyone, we all deal with it differently. Just know that you are never far from our thoughts and prayers ❤️❤️❤️

[@robinhart5303]

Sweet Jackie sending you hugs. You are always in my heart and prayers.

[@madonnamiller1]

Rambling is therapy! I don’t think grief gets easier to navigate though, it just gets less intense as time goes by. Stay close to God

[@fisherlady408]

Jackie I have prayed for you every day that God will give you peace. Just know that HE is carrying you in HIS arms. Jace is watching over you and I have no doubt that he is protecting y'all. You now have a guardian angel!!! Just know that we love you and are grieving with you. 🥰❤🙏

[@gailberry3249]

Jackie, I lost my son 18 years ago the day we buried him I didn't want to live anymore but I thought I have two other sons and a husband who need me I know for me it has gotten easier however it will never be the same I know people don't know what to say to you and that's ok I think about him every day. My thoughts and prayers for you and your Family

[@peggymccormick7636]

Just remember, YOU ARE LOVED

[@jewellcrawford5136]

You are right, there will never be a day you don’t think of Jayce in someway or form. One Mother’s Day my son Ronnie left work and met me at church with a truck load of flowers that they were getting rid of, so sweet and funny 😄. I was just amazed! This Easter weekend I’ll be putting a yellow rose at his father’s grave since Ronnie was buried in California and that’s 2000 miles away. You are an amazing person to be able to do these video’s. Thanks for sharing. 🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️Faye

[@deborahanneohara9386]

I'M SO SORRY. 🛐➕🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯 💝✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

[@kimberleelovett9377]

@@deborahanneohara9386 God bless you sweetheart. I am so sorry.

[@darlaavard3318]

I'm so glad you have that sweet memory of your son Ronnie. No matter where his body lies, he is always in your heart.

[@denisekoenig9479]

Your son wants you to laugh and love life and live life. You are allowed !!! The lord is thrilled to see you laugh. You are starting to heal and that's amazing. You are entitled to heal. You will never forget but its ok to heal

[@vickie6167]

We lost our son 5 years ago, and we still have friends and family who do their best to never mention his name, ask how we are, ask how his kids and wife are doing. I absolutely understand your wanting to avoid people and situations. It does get better, but 5 years later there is not a day goes by he is not thought of. I see his kids and it takes my breath away, as the older they get the more they look like him. Some family members do their best to avoid conversations, which surprised me. The one thing that I sadly learned from losing him, there is no expiration date on your personal grief. You feel what you feel, when you feel, how you feel, and nobody has a right to take that away from you. My daughter in law had no choice but to get up, get moving, get back to work, as she has to make a living. The kids got up, went to college, went to work, as they had to keep living their lives. My husband went through a deep depression, and there was nothing I could do, as it was his grief, not mine. It's hard. It hurts. It cuts like a knife through your heart. But one day, I got up and I could look at his pictures, look at videos, smile and laugh and say what a knucklehead, or good grief kid or way to go honey! It's your grief. God bless you and your family.

[@maresadavis8135]

Yes, people do tend to avoid those of us who have lost a child. It does put us in a truly different category than those" normal" people. They don't know what to say because they have NO clue how we feel. Wish I could hug you from NC. I have been praying for you. Life does get easier, but the grief will always stay. we just learn to incorporate it into our new normal. Love you.

[@kimparsons5434]

I read this saying one day And it is so true for everyone When life gives you more than you can stand Kneel The Lord is with you and your family He sees your heart and his love will help you through this My prayers are with you and your family 💕

[@wendybray2482]

Jackie,your son would want the best for you he wouldn't want you to stop laughing & enjoying your other children, enjoy them laugh with them,you will always carry him with you.

[@christinetremblay2353]

I lost my son 5 years ago, he is my baby even if he was 27 years old and I think of him every day but now it's ok cause I now have great memories of him. If people avoid you, its because they don't know how to react and don't know what to say. Have a blessed easter weekend !

[@ninoskaalvarenga7295]

Dear Jackie, I continue prayieng for you,God is holding in you in his loving arms, let time take care of the grief,Your dear son is home now, our final destination, sorround by the love of God

[@Tobywedinikki]

Jackie you take your time to do anything babe. There isn’t a time clock set. Take it minute by minute. Learn to survive the death of your son at your own pace. God has His loving arms around you. I am praying n will continue to do so. I love you sweet lady

[@mythreesons8084]

It has taken me almost two years to get to my new normal. We all have our own way to heal. Love you and pray for you.