DRUGS CAME FIRST - DESTRUCTION (Episode 2)

Drugs Came First - The Documentary series.
A real life Documentary in loving memory of Nicola Ramsay.
Resources:
'FRANK' is a support service that provides information about drugs, plus advice for people who use drugs, and their parents or carers.
Call the Frank helpline: 0300 123 66 00
'DrugFAM' offers phone and email support to people affected by other people's drug or alcohol misuse.
Email: [e-mail] or call the helpline: 0300 888 3853.
'Families Anonymous' is based on the same principles as Alcoholics Anonymous. It runs local support groups for the family and friends of people with a drug problem.
Email: [e-mail] or call the helpline: 0207 4984 680.
Adsense Revenue will be donated to the charity Action On Addiction www.actiononaddiction.org.uk
Produced and Directed by Sydney May Crouch
sydneymaycrouch
contact - [e-mail]
Filmed and Edited by Elliot Stephens
esvideo.co.uk
@Elliot Stephens
Instagram: elliotxstephens
Guest - Paul Hannaford (Award winning real life story-education for Children)
www.paulhannaford.com
Special thanks to:
Julia Standing
Lee Ramsay
Joel Crouch
Teresa Charlton
Sarah Worrall
Madeleine Hooper
#drugscamefirst #documentary #reallifedocumentary #drugaddiction #addiction

[@Livkate_xo]

This should be shown in schools and televised nationally, an incredible series so far💙

[@charliedixon1651]

Totally agree... deserves to be on BBC or ITV, xxx

[@ellouisemae2085]

agree

[@Georgia77873]

I watched in school today!

[@Imogenhorton.]

Crying my eyes out, I cannot even imagine how strong you are to film this, let alone go through what you went through and continue to feel now. You're incredible, I'm so so proud of you for being so open & helping so many by raising awareness. Sending all of my love xxxxx

[@daisymoffatt4658]

😍😍

[@Emily-tx9rx]

Sobbing🥺 Can’t imagine how hard this would of been to film for you all, beyond proud of you🤍

[@cherrieakalley3785]

When Joel and your uncle started crying 😭 I sobbed. I can’t imagine how hard this would be to film and go through xxx

[@rhianabailey1136]

Sitting here sobbing after this video, I have no relation at all to this topic but I just can’t imagine the pain your family have been through. The diary and photos just got to me, it’s like your mum was still there under the drugs trying to get out from behind it but she just couldn’t. This is so enlightening and I think you guys are so brave to share this story🤍✨

[@BethanyTollon]

You are your mums double. I can see she had your personality you are living the life she would of wanted how amazing that you get to carry on her legacy. You have done incredible Syd by sharing your mums story 🥰

[@justicepeople8819]

Her legacy?! This is syds and the rest of the familys legacy (particularly the grandparents) who had to pick up the pieces. Don't mean to be blunt, but there's no legacy in becoming an addict and losing your life over your addiction.

[@charlydorgan3362]

Still so proud of you syd, still can't believe you've documented your Mom's story! Sending so much love to you and your whole family🤍

[@megs3019]

The pain Nikki’s mom must have been in…. Seeing her daughter suffer and having to raise her babies…. She is one tough women and absolutely amazing.❤

[@eliseholt113]

Remembered this and have just come back to revisit. Last night i lost my dad to a long long battle to addiction. Thank you for doing this ❤️

[@AishaGriffiths]

These documentaries need to be #1 trending! We love you syd

[@jadasezer]

This is so beautiful and honest and raw, we don't often get to see the humanisation of people that have lost their lives to drugs.

[@lucyanderton868]

This is so moving, seeing your uncle get upset reading her diary broke my heart. Such a devastating thing for you all to have gone through. You’re all inspirational xx

[@katiemartin1756]

As someone who’s 5 years clean this is incredible!! Thank you so much for sharing and creating this

[@elliejones7971]

Another incredible episode, so emotional and raw! Deserves so much attention x

[@ElztheWitch]

this is incredible.. really proud of you ❤

[@cassandrabrookes8497]

Can’t stop crying I can’t imagine what it was like to film this such a beautiful strong family 🤍

[@_clairelouisex]

This is so heartbreaking and raw… 💔 a documentary that all need to watch! Thank you for sharing your Mums and your family’s story x

[@bournie21]

When your mums brother broke down crying that absolutely ruined me, just heartbreaking, such an important documentary, truly eye opening ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Sarah-xt5vx]

As a mother myself I would be incredibly proud to know the love I had from my children even in my darkest moments. You should be extremely proud of yourselves, it takes all the strength to be vulnerable and to put your mum in the limelight, she was no one to be ashamed of she was your mum regardless of the choices she made and this truly shows the love she has from your family and both you and your brother. And lastly your Nan, what a super woman truly she is, she protected her daughters babies when she couldn’t ❤️ ❤️❤️ this should be put on bbc one as a documentary this is truly remarkable but made with such love and kindness towards your mum. ❤️

[@oliviasmith96]

Syd, amazing once again. I can’t even imagine what your family went through. Your Nan is an inspiration, and your Nan and grandad have done an amazing job raising you and Joel. Your mum would be so proud! ly girlie xxxxx

[@brookelee5375]

My Nan and Grandad are the most important people in my life, this is such a touching documentary. Sending lots of love xx

[@blakebrooks675]

this is truly one of the most eye-opening things, can’t imagine how incredibly hard for all of you to recant these memories but truly an amazing thing to bring awareness too❤️

[@juliajerrom4839]

Hit homes this is like ur telling my story and makes me realise just how many people go through this life xx thankyou for being brave enough to tell you're story ❤️

[@Bell-mw4lc]

My heart simply broke when Joel broke down. You are all so strong

[@ellarapley586]

Real tears and so beautifully put together. I lost my dad when I was young, and my brother is battling a drug addiction that's left him as a shell of himself, so my heart and strength go out to you. Spreading awareness and being so vulnerable is so commendable, thank you xxx

[@bfayebrooks]

I hope you are okay 💫💛

[@brendadrumm9451]

I've lost a beautiful daughter I don't just say that she was so good looking and a son a gent Yr half apart through drink

[@rebecca-rosesantamaria254]

Wow, that was powerful, I’m in absolute bits crying so I can imagine how hard this must’ve been to film. To talk about and relive something so painful in order to raise awareness and to educate takes no small amount of guts and I applaud you all. This is tough to watch but necessary. I think this should be shown in secondary schools, I think it’s so raw yet authentic and sincere that it might have more impact than the tv productions they normally show, I know I’m more effected by this than any tv documentary I’ve ever watched. Thank you Sydney, and of course your family, for making this you should all be so proud

[@ameliaday344]

This is heartbreaking yet so powerful. It’s amazing that you and your family are able to come together to put this out to such a big platform. Hopefully you’re changing the mindset of choices of many ❤️

[@billierx444]

Thank you for showing your story.. so many people will relate to this 👼🏼🕊🤍

[@hannahbrown9405]

Been waiting all week for this! so proud of you x

[@lindseybrown94]

I still watch this often my little brother died from a accidental heroine overdose xxx

[@mummyme6377]

You and Joel have the most amazing network of family and friends around you, that is very evident

[@bethclemance1935]

Oh my gosh, I’m sobbing. I can’t imagine what you all went through but omg the strength of your nan and grandad! you are so lucky to have had them there! thankyou for sharing this♥️

[@leylajung7541]

syd, all im saying is im bawling my eyes out. you and your family are soo soo strong. you are amazing and this documentary, is making me aware of so many things.

[@LouHill_ox]

cried at a few points in this video😭 I can’t imagine how hard it is for You & Joel to talk about your mother like this!! But I’m so proud of you for doing this Syd and your mum will be so proud of you❤️

[@lauriemclelland9381]

This is the most heartbreaking and raw thing I’ve ever watched, the whole documentary deserves so much more attention/recognition! I truly believe such a devastating life changing event has shaped both of you into the amazing people you are today… You can really see your Mother in both of your eyes & I know she would be so super proud of you both with how you both are, how you both speak so loving and highly of your Mum & how this documentary on such a horrible horrible experience could really educate and help other people! Well done Sydney, it’s amazing 🤍

[@kelsk6553]

What an incredible, beautiful family! So emotional hearing everyone talk about her. 😢

[@pops-n3h]

So emotional, my heart broke when Joel spoke especially. You can hear the pain in everyone’s voices but especially Joel’s. ❤️

[@laurenszafranek445]

Sitting here crying watching this, you and your family are so strong for going through this and also documenting it to help people ❤️

[@charissewelch]

Still beyond proud. Broke my heart when Joel got emotional 😭🥺🤍👼🏽

[@Masonsmamma]

Can I just say how amazing your nan and grandad are to go through all that and bring two children up amazing💕

[@amandakategreen]

Wow😭😭 this episode was so emotional! You and your family are so strong Syd, it’s really hard hitting!

[@demitaylor576]

Both yourself & Joel are amazing and so brave. As are the rest of your family. Very inspirational and emotional, this was so touching ❤️

[@rubystannard6036]

omg did not stop crying! Such a strong family and important message to society xxx

[@lucexo]

Wow you had me sobbing all the way through. I cannot imagine the emotions when reading her diary, so brave❤️

[@georgialowndes5644]

That was a hard one to watch!🥺 my heart breaks for you but you are doing all of this for the right reasons and its incredible! The home videos are so precious ❤️

[@MegaKatiexox]

In floods of tears here 😭 what a strong family! What a difference this documentry is going to make to people's lives ❤️

[@sarahkiddier7210]

Sydney. Thank you so much for letting us into your life. I cannot imagine what you’ve all been through. ❤️

[@rebeccajaynethompson]

You are so brave and should be proud of what you’ve created here. My cousin died of a drug overdose at the age of 25 and it was terrifying, she was the most happiest and colourful soul I knew it really is a shame there’s not more help for people in these situations. We can only hope that people think before they do ❤️

[@charleneray1]

i’m in tears🥺 you’re all so strong honestly 🤍

[@Son-ri1om]

What an amazing story to tell your mum will be so proud of you

[@AlishaNugent30]

This has me sobbing again 🤍so raw and heartbreaking but everyone is so proud of what you are doing !!

[@lindseybrown94]

Omg when is part 3 out i no how you feel my little brother died when he was 22 of a accidental heron overdose when to prison came out thinking he could have the same amount and was found faced down on his bed in his flat for 2 weeks mashed my head right up been his older sister you kids look like youve got real good heads on your shoulders and your nan is amazing 👏 bringing you up to be the lovely people you are today your mum was so beautiful xxx

[@samtaylor3796]

By far the best video you have ever uploaded.. Sorry for your loss ❤️❤️

[@aislingowen2303]

sending you and your family so much love, your strength is so admirable xxx

[@gnbx]

I have so much love and respect for you and your family after watching the first two videos of this series. I can’t imagine how hard this must of been to film for you. Sending my love to you always xxx

[@319Mollie]

Thankyou to you and your family for sharing your story❤️ you’re all so brave and inspirational. This series deserves to be recognised✨

[@megalbury9412]

You are all the most incredible people! This is truly heartbreaking to watch let alone live through. Nan is the kindest, purest most beautiful person and a complete inspiration. Having gone through childhood trauma and being the big sister and protecting my younger brother it truly broke my heart seeing Joel upset. It difficult remembering the past but it must be even harder not remembering and living through other peoples memories. This is such an important story and raw insight into your trauma and it is being done in such a respectful and kind way the raw emotions will stay with us all forever and I hope you know how many peoples lives you will change and save through your story! ❤️

[@luannebrown3628]

So heartbreaking to watch. Strongest family to do this and I can tell of how proud each one of ur followers and family are of u for doing this. This really brings drug addictions to life ❤️

[@MissLouX04]

Absolutely crying my eyes out! Your mum would be so proud! I cannot even begin to imagine how hard this was to do for you and your family. Sending my love to every single one of you ❤

[@tirionhopkins4544]

This genuinely brought me to tears. My heart goes out to your whole family. You all lost an incredible woman by the sounds of things. Thank you for spreading awareness❤️

[@hg393]

Bawling my eyes out listening to your uncle read that poem

[@saskiasabrinatobyn4010]

This is amazing spreading awareness in such a personal precious way , I wish I could give you all a hug! Your family is so strong and I’m sure Nikki is looking down on you all being so proud of what you have all achieved and how strong you all are! Another week to wait but it’s so worth it🤍❤️

[@chloebewsey4881]

You’re so brave sharing this. Thank you

[@laurengriffiths9928]

incredible documentary 🥺! this must have been so hard to film and talk about! ❤️❤️

[@bethanycumming5316]

This is heartbreaking you are a gorgeous girl and so strong and no one would have any idea how you have been through. You should be so proud of yourself Syd and Joel you should be so proud of how honest and open you are in this documentary ❤️❤️

[@eveborrott728]

Oh Syd this is just heartbreaking. A difficult watch and I’m sobbing but it’s so important to hear. I can’t even imagine how difficult this whole thing would’ve been for you and your family but you’re all so strong and brave I’m sure your Mum would be so proud of you all. That picture of you, your mum and Grandad is one to treasure too 💫❤️

[@LifeofLucie]

I’m absolutely broken hearted at this. You’re such a strong amazing family ❤️ xxx sending so much love

[@Amsims]

I’ve been through this, with my own mother. Thankfully my father cleaned up when my sister and I were about to be taken away. But this hits so close to home for me. My mother got clean from crack but has never been the same she still is the most selfish person I have ever met and it wasn’t till I had my own kids I realized how hard my life was because of her. I stopped speaking to her because you can get rid of the drugs but that personality is still there the addictive personality whether it’s men, alcohol, other drugs etc and what will replace the feeling of crack. We never came first even after she got clean and as a mother I cannot deal with that.

[@nevesnell1611]

thankyou for sharing your story and giving so much awareness 🥰

[@thailarachael3560]

Hearts broken for you & Joel 💔 I lost my mum, not to drugs but losing a parent is one of the hardest things let alone to go through all this too. I’m so sorry Sydney. xxxx

[@jennifertaylor2510]

Wow, In tears this week! You and your brother are incredible, what an amazing bond you have with you grandparents! Sydney, you are just amazing! Thank you for opening up and sharing this with us xx

[@amybritain2470]

You should all be so very proud of yourselves how strong and brave you all are for filming this🥺💖

[@rebecca3361]

Gosh I cried my eyes out. You are a beautiful family sending hugs ❤️

[@kateelizabeth6185]

Endlessly proud of you and your family for filming your story to raise awareness 💛

[@courtneypressley]

so heartbreaking to watch!!! so brave of all of you to film and go back on xxx

[@mariah1362]

You're all so strong! Thank you for sharing your story

[@bethclarke1355]

This documentary makes me sob!😓 you’re incredibly strong, you and Joel! I’m so proud of you both. So sorry you had to go through this😭 I can’t imagine how difficult this must of been to film. You’re both absolute warrior’s! Love to you all ❤️

[@emilyg4062]

Sobbing my heart out, this is amazing, so so strong!!🥺💗

[@emilyreed5837]

I hope a major tv channel picks this up. Put the feelers out so it ends up getting noticed by them. You’re incredibly strong and your story is incredibly moving.

[@immyc4417]

This is so powerful Syd, you and your family and friends should be so proud of yourself for being so vulnerable and honest your mum would be so proud of you ❤️

[@emilyfursman]

so insanely proud of you always syd, i can never imagine what you and your family are going through still to do this day but i just know that you’re going to change peoples lives from this documentary. your mum would be so proud of you 🤍

[@tabitharoberts9517]

You are so strong Sydney for doing this . It must been tough bring it all in to the documentary as there so much memory

[@kiranghuman6690]

Anybody else notice an orange orb on Joel 3 and a half mins into the video?! Can’t imagine how hard this was for you all!! Xx

[@janemelina]

So proud of you and your family for telling your moms story❤️ must have been so hard for all of you..❤️

[@connor-craigsellars4777]

What an amazing documentary series. Got a few ideas for something like this myself

[@PaigeFrances97]

This is so amazingly made! I am so sorry for what you have been through and for your poor mum 💜

[@lacienewcombe5121]

It’s crazy this happened with my mum and dad (the shoplifting) it’s crazy how similar this story is to my parents. Not a lot of people realise all of the stuff you go through being the kid in that situation and what the family goes through let alone the person whose got caught up in it🥺 so proud of you for doing this❤️

[@Naomi_foz]

Wow! You’re educating people so much 👏🏼 you and your brother are so strong to have gone through all this! I just want to give your nan a big hug 🤗 🙈

[@char2229]

You are so strong for doing this syd♥️ my heart goes out to you x

[@shaunaogormanmua5328]

Have the biggest lump in my throat watching this. You guys are so brave 🤍🤍

[@sophieannemaria6804]

You’re just so so brave. You and your whole family are so inspiring. It’s some strength you’ve got to relive all these memories and to share them with us all. ❤️

[@123Emilyx]

the strength, you and everyone involved have to film this & share all your experiences is amazing. thanks so much for sharing your mums story with us 🤍🤍

[@darcywynter7311]

This is incredible! In absolute awe of how amazing you and your family are😢❤️So proud xx

[@sasac2875]

The bravery of yourself and your family is inspiring. In awe of you all. Thank you for sharing your story. Episode 2 was so so powerful ❤️

[@brittneymcnab7516]

Your story is so familiar. Drugs ruin good people. And its sad knowing they aren’t there to see how well you are doing in the life.

[@k1x_.]

Sending the biggest hug to you, Joel and your family ❤️ thank you for sharing your story and raising awareness. You’ll make such a huge difference with this - your Mum would be so so so proud of you all. So beautifully put together xxx

[@leahmerrett9353]

Absolutely sobbing my heart out! I cant imagine the heartbreak you and your family went through syd. You’ve grown into such an amazing beautiful women you should be so proud of yourself girl. Lots of love💗💗

[@thegirlygirlx3917]

These episodes are honestly incredible. You and your family and your mum all deserve/deserved the world. So proud of you for speaking up in a subject that isn’t spoken about enough❤️

[@amyb6091]

Sending you all so so so much love. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain that you all went through and how hard it must be still. You can see how much she loved you all and how much you all love her❤️ x

[@mollybinks9377]

Heartbreaking 😪 the diary entry’s hit me so hard 🥺🤍 thank you for sharing this!!!