TAG02∞01/97∞ RAGE

[@Madgura]

Context. From where I stand.... "Self" is something that is like the heat from rubbing two hands together. It is not seen but felt and known only the two hands with a third element that is not but is. Like electricity and a bulb. The bulb is seen and the electricity is invisible. They converge and an expression of light is seen. "We" are like that. Expression of energy and matter like a form underneath a curtain but when you pull the curtain no form can be seen. I can only use parables. DAMN WORDS! MAS Y MAS PARABLAS. EL PORQUE IS FACIL. The body of God is asleep and humanity are it's collection of stem cells. A cell that can preform any function within the body of this super organism. The cells are sifted for their beliefs and with these they are asked to incorporate into blastomas but how will they know if they are blasphemy if they have no knowledge? Real knowledge. Knowing the ledge so they don't fall off. People are being forced to experience less by their keepers. Brothers and sisters Force and Maintain identity to each other out of habit and fear. This is why fury and rage are abound. Creation and Destruction through participation of......... jeez... "us"

[@Ludifant]

What I recognise in your parables is that "I", the viewpoint, the singular perspective is continuously and subconsciously made (like static electricity). This was witnessed. "I" disappeared for a month and started up again in at least 70 subtle layers, before I lost count, like an onion or a gobstopper. I realised normally 2/3 of all thought reinforced 'i' in some way. Or at least that is how it was with me. The reality we think we live in, first comes to exist as the opposite, the not I, and is then further dissected on the chopping block of consciousness into events, processes, things.. arbitrary groupings that had done evolutionary benefit. Like a finger.. where does it stop and become a hand? This is reality, not the world, but the world we think we live in, Maya in Yogic and Buddhist terms... The Matrix in others.. and yes, it is a game/simulation of sorts. The actual everything seems to be an infinitely subtle, self renewing, constantly changing pattern (Panta Rhei, Heraclites, long before C). Since in the view you described anything is an expression of someone/something all poweful, I wouldn't worry too much about blaspheming. If there is a line, we just cannot colour outside it. Like the Taoists say: it is quite impossible to go against the Tao. It is like a very strong river current, sure you can swim upstream, but it only means you arrive downstream tired. going against the stream is it's own punishment if you want to think in those terms. If everything is the expression of God, then even blaspheming, as an expression of God, must be holy too :) But that all depends on your personal beliefs and your need for stability and closure. Logic never faired well in religion, I don't expect that to change any time soon. What I know without a doubt is that with our brain it is impossible to know anything for sure, even this. Anyone who thinks anything else is kidding themselves. Anyone who says anything else is kidding others. I have seen my brain's limits, it's nature and they seems to je so different than we thought in science.. Science is the most reliable way we ever found to control our universe.... but the emphasis is always on control, never on acceptance or even understanding, harmony. It is a fighting stance... And science is inherently reductive. Which suits the brain, hell bent on slicing hot soup. Which is why it came up with science in the first place. It is not just the words, it is the brain, the source of words, concepts... We can only decide our reality is detailed enough and we probably won't thrive on more information. Which is what we usually call 'understanding' 😂. An expert is someone who's given up on being surprised. Which I had to find out several times over before I got it.. The real world is one big interconnected chaotic system and we are trying to understand it from a single viewpoint. Thinking we do is ludicrous. Vanity, arrogance, self importance. Fun though.. You can throw all the brain energy you want against it and I often do. Philosophy soothes me. It is safe, stable. But there is a more daring, lateral move I can make.. Switching identification from part to the whole. I am (part of) humanity as I am a single human. It is both true at the same time. Why stop there? Be matter, be energy. Look at the world from the standpoint of sand or grass. Be the whole time-space-consciousness continuum. It won't help to understand anything, but it is experiencing it directly. That at least feels like the difference between catching a ball and reading books about catching balls and knowing all Newton's ballistic formulas by heart. I stopped reading, mostly because I can't concentrate on it like I used to.. but also because the quiz I was studying for will never come. And if it does I'll fail anyway. But I can be curious in other ways. Experiencing it, not trying too hard to understand, there suddenly was a lot of energy left over for actual living.. As I made peace with not knowing... Over and over.. Trusting that anything that happens can only be in the best interest of everything, of this expanded I... Bowing to God's ineffable plan, if you will, acknowledging the wisdom of Atman, living in accordance with the Tao. Pick your tradition, deep down they are all pointing to the same thing, using different words... I express it as: "be thankful, attentive and gentle.. " mas y mas parablas. Embarras de richesses. And I go calm again, no further questions, your honor.. I tried to keep make it as simple as possible for me. Only two mental moves are needed: Trusting that it is so and accepting I will always want to know, which is a fun game to occupy eternity. This is summed up in "thankful, attentive, gentle" for me. It helps me orient myself every morning towards a peacefully curious state.. it stops thinking and goals. Which then seem to take care of themselves. I have no theological or ontological viewpoint, apart from this very practical one. I could always argue both sides. That's made me weird enough 😊. Now I am bonkers.. I got some extra information about what thinking is, because I was interested in illusions, perception, worked with neural networks and then survived a stroke, paralyzing brain and body. A lot of emotion flooded in, completely unregulated.. possibly all of it.. I went "insane" for a couple of months, seemed the most logical thing to do.. hallucinated and knew it.. I survived and I can remember the whole thing, relive bits, which probably shouldn't happen... It has changed the viewpoint, made 'me' see EVERYTHING differently AND the same. Often at the same time. Multiple things can be true at the same time now. The passed two years I haven't really publicly expressed it much in words, but mostly in sound and patterns.. But it feels like time again. Words never fit, but it is fun to try for a while.