taking a break from uni

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0:00 intro
1:12 wanting to do a gap year
2:51 struggles in 2nd year
3:34 how uni affected my mental health
4:59 do I even like computer science?
5:59 uni feels like a backup
6:42 what is my dream then?
7:13 how I feel about university in general
8:25 feeling like I’m wasting an opportunity
9:42 why I still might come back to uni
12:42 why I was afraid to share this
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[@theezzii]

Honestly it’s crazy that we’re expected to know what we want to do for the rest of our lives by the time we are 18. That’s just an insane expectation of us. Almost everyone I know that went to college either changed their degree or just dropped out.

[@MrWhymedude]

you must be surrounded by losers

[@almilahak224]

Same age, same year, same reasons and same thoughts. Feels like this video is one of the signals I've been getting about this issue. However, my parents are too emotional to listen to me and give me a chance to get out of this wrong path.. I wish luck and motivation for all who go through this. It sucks.

[@cupcakebecka]

not surprised by this at all! sounds like the right decision for sure, can't wait to see what you do next

[@supervert1491]

I normally don’t post comments on KZbin videos, but I just wanted to share my thoughts on this topic because it’s something I’ve also done. First off, not that it matters, but I 100% agree with what you’re doing and I wish you the best! It’s smart and brave of you to asses your current situation and realize it’s not your true dream. Many people are simply too afraid to make this leap of faith and just live life ignoring that voice telling them their not truly happy. Successful people like yourself listen to that voice and are typically rewarded. As for your plan A, I hope it works out! I too took a gap year from uni and as an American, I faced some judgment, but I was able to find a piece of myself while taking this gap year. I wouldn’t say I have figured it out all the way yet but it definitely helped. Best of luck from some random dude on the internet :)

[@tacticalcheeks]

THIS IS MEEEE!!!!!!! This past school year has been exceedingly difficult for me. So much so that I have been in a rut with both academics and life. At first, I didn't know what was wrong, but it wasn't until I read an manga called Blue Period and the main character Yaguchi explained a problem he was facing. His whole goal was to just get accepted into a specific college. That's it. He had no plan once he got into that college of what he was going to do and how he would use the college to benefit him. As a result, he is completely lost and is currently at a standstill on how to fix his situation. That is where I am. I only worked hard in high school to GET INTO college. Not to actually experience it or learn from it. As a result, I am at a complete standstill on what to do. I feel as if time is running out, but as you said, it really isn't (ignoring that we all do have a death day lol). I haven't spoken to anyone about it yet because I have been thinking the past five months on whether I truly want to, but I DO want to take a gap year and I will. Your explanation on how you are doing plan B without ever taking a stab at plan A is what I've noticed is the same thing I am doing. I do not want to regret much in life, and I don't know what will come out of a gap year for me; however, I do know it won't kill me, and that is enough reason to try. I can't wait to grow alongside you as we both get our lives together and work towards constructing our different versions of Plan A.

[@ejey6716]

"I do know it won't kill me, and that is enough reason to try."

[@omenayao5579]

well said freind hope it will work out for you. Im very proud you came to this conclusion and are brave enough to do it! good luck.

[@ludivinemusyck9552]

I'm currently on a gap year, and I can tell you that it was already the best decision I've ever took. I learned so much, grew, learned a new language, and I am beyond happy to have finally realized that life isn't always supposed to look like what people and the world expect :)

[@ellaosterman9049]

I went to university right after high school and i felt that i was wasting my time there, i was stressed and upset all the time. I ended up taking 2 gap years and finally after 2 years i decided to come back. I COMPLETELY changed my major (and when i say completely i mean from language and literature to biochemistry) and to be honest, i feel happier than ever. I finally feel that im in the right place and if it wasn’t for these 2 years i would never go into biochemistry and any science at all. Everything happens for a reason and if you feel like you need a break to think everything through then do it! Excited for your journey!

[@aaryanoir]

Damn Anna, this almost made me tear up because you've put into words, something that's been on my mind for a while now:( i'm almost halfway through the first year and it hasn't been what I expected at all (and I'm in a pretty great uni in the UK). I just need a break. You're really brave for doing this and wish you good luck for the future!

[@_NadiaT]

Im taking a gap year DURING my studies too!….it feels like we are a rare group haha. It’s a scary decision tbh, especially cause I’m taking it with only one year to go. But genuinely, it has been such an amazing time (especially for my mental health)! I did an internship and have plans to travel and do things for myself later on. I find those who take a gap year before/during uni actually become a lot more comfortable with unpredictable situations and adapting to change because we have life experience outside of school - and that is definitely one of the unexpected advantages I’ve experienced during my gap year. Best of luck to anyone in the same boat💛

[@mikeshh9938]

Me too

[@sachahill1967]

I experienced a similar thing when I firstly attempted University as an eighteen year old straight out of high school. I ended up dropping out due to my mental health tanking and spent the the next few years healing and working full time. Now as a twenty three year old, I’m making the attempt to return to University. Things take time and that’s okay! It’s important to enjoy your life! Wishing you the best of luck with discovering what your Plan A is! 💗

[@paucatmer]

Look I’m 26 atm, I did my degree in linguistics and when I finished it I started a degree in psychology so… it’s never too late🥰🥰 do what feels good for you!!!

[@mehtab4237]

tbh before i joined uni i took a gap year and in hind sight im so fricking glad i did because me mental health was absolute trash then and i had NO IDEA what i was doing. The gap year really gave me alot of clarity, time for healing and learning new things, so when I did later decide to join uni, it was much easier to see what steps I was taking and why i was taking them. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, we're all rooting for you and also dw too much abt loosing your audience because I'm pretty sure most of us, regular viewers are here to just see you lol regardless of what you are doing atm, and new viewers who come along will also enjoy your content im sure. I hope this was reassuring and it must have taken alot of courage to finally make a decision that felt best for yourself so you should be proud of yourself! c: anyway we're all here for you and thank you for existing

[@standsformari2134]

Being Brazilian and seeing this prices for your education is just insane thinking about how I pay absolutely nothing for mine

[@levantaaaaaaaa]

These prices*

[@anushkarangwani8949]

Love the way u feel free now

[@udoyxyz]

Seriously! you are a blessing. Thank you for sharing this. You are awesome

[@annaolleta]

Loved it! I feel the same!! You made the best decision for yourself!! I am so happy for you!!

[@HaeDjoengineering]

you're so brave anna can't wait to see you living your dreams i wish u the best of luck and i'm sure u'll make it

[@maggie525]

You’re so brave to do this, to do what you want! So inspiring!! Can’t wait for your future videos XD

[@rashi3716]

More power to you girl. I'm so happy that you did what was in the best interest of your mental health. Lots of love!

[@sakurako3591]

Anna im so proud of you! And as a student, i feel you. Cannot wait to see what's coming next :) Love you!

[@ayahammouch883]

I admire you! It takes a lot of courage to do that, I hope everything goes well for you :)

[@divyagupta8091]

All the best for whatever you are going to do.❤️

[@matylda.m5369]

Anna, thank you for this video. You have no idea how much of what you have said helped me.

[@itshadilee770]

I'm so excited for ur coming adventure and i hope you share with us every step of it love u ❤️

[@soanna9394]

Been there, done that. 💯 rooting for you, we got this 🙌🏾

[@shriyaarunkumar8224]

i totally support all your decisions. you can figure it all out. i know it! all the best for your future

[@situationawkwardness]

I'm literally so proud of you for doing whats best for you, I can't wait to see whats next you're gonna smash it

[@evaklent8958]

i'm so excited for what the future holds for you!!

[@hmm2095]

Go for it girl excited to see new phases of your life🥰✨

[@koushika4555]

You go Anna! Do what you love. Really proud of you, since you can finally have time now and your mind and body will have some good rest. Do what's good for you

[@thomasmineo]

You go girl takes courage to do something like that, super motivational😁

[@harpreet8066]

I am so excited for this journey of yours!!!!🥰✨

[@sgjbslover]

Thank you so much for this video. I can’t put in words how important watching this was to me. Just thank you

[@yoonmin_lifeexoxo6577]

I love this!!! I started watching your channel to help with my productivity and motivation because I felt really lost but you now changing things up just reassured me that there are so many paths and different ways to achieve your goals and dreams in life!! I can’t wait to watch your journey!!!

[@mekdi7237]

I am in that type of situation right now in uni. thank you for sharing this Anna and I know you will do great on your plan A. Fighting🤗

[@ipshitagoel9444]

very proud of you for this!! love u anna

[@lydia7052]

I just want to wish you good luck in this new path and I'm really excited to see how this decesion will impact your life .I hope that you will grow much more through this experience

[@diamondcentury21]

The colours in this video are top notch! So pretty 😍

[@kathrynbyoutube]

This sounds great for you, and I hope this year really gives you space to explore new things! I think being really intentional about how you spend your time is a rare but valuable endeavor, and it's wonderful that people can see it in action here on KZbin. I did something similar when I was near your age, although my point of departure from the academic path was deciding not to attend graduate school when that was the expected next step in the science field I was studying. What I did instead (software engineering) ended up working very well for me as a lifestyle, so I haven't gone to back to formal education. It's been about a decade now, and I'm really glad I was thoughtful about what I was doing instead of just following the socially prescribed script. Take care and best of luck!

[@lutauwu6280]

You’re so brave to take this decision 🤩 We’re so proud of you and we’ll be here not matter what

[@hpjmrd702]

good luck!! i hope your plans go well:)

[@lilianadinemellouhi8532]

I'm super proud of you , best of luck

[@kalliopilyviaki]

Thank you for this so much, honestly in the same place ❤️

[@PhoebeJones]

well done for putting yourself first, Uni is such a big thing and is so stressful and so many people can relate too, there is so much pressure to be living your best life and thriving at uni and thats just not reality, thankyou for sharing this and being vulnerable, go get that Plan A

[@zeeyawaani8431]

It takes so much courage to take steps like this!! And you've taken a measured step. I hope you succeed in this new chapter of your life! Rooting for you 💖

[@aakansh5340]

you are the one which i am depended on.... so i love you always and always support you just do what you want and i know my dream girl must do that and i know you always make a right decision ❤️

[@vntutorials160]

You are so intelligent,productive and a very inspiring girl !! 😇😇😇😇

[@yuvikasingh5482]

No matter what you do, you're relatable. I have dropped this year too. I'll go to uni next year and I'm just prepping this year. Whatever you do anna... I'll support you in it. Love love

[@sara-du2ep]

SO PROUD OF YOU for making this difficult decision! Can't wait to see what the future holds for you

[@ZACCCHEN]

Anna you 100% got this :) let’s go 🚀 so so excited for this new Chapter 😊

[@iamxiaoyu]

You are so brave to make this decision! As a same age college student, I also wonder about what I want to do in the future almost all the time. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing more content on this topic!

[@abdoume1406]

gorl it doesnt matter if u change abit in ur content we dont watch ur vids only because of ur school life but mainely because of ur great personality ily so much ! and i wish u the best in ur plan we are rooting for u😘😘💜 cant wait to watch this series

[@aino8958]

i fully support your decision, aaahh i'm so proud of you anna

[@BeaMajerova]

oh my god, right now I´m feeling the same way you probably felt in this video and you helped me to sort out what I want now, thank you, you are amazing!!

[@SB-qt8qj]

Hi Anna, just wanted to say you took a bold decision but that's a good thing and no, you're not running out of time everyone's pathway/journey is different your health always comes first tbh, good luck! :)

[@samriddhisingh5354]

U used to post uni related videos but this thing is much bigger n better, uni videos were about getting successful in school /academics but now you're taking a bigger picture!! So in for it!! Hope u find the best in this year and more, you are really inspiring

[@Oldjaan]

I’m so happy to see someone who prioritize their mental health over something that everyone think is “more important” And I’m looking forward to watch your next videos!

[@zhamiliasatygulova1104]

it's crazy how I have been thinking about this for around a months and I'm too scared to take a step. and on top of that being a scholarship student, it adds up a lot more. but this video gave me a feeling like universe is trying to give me a sign. unbelievable. thank you so much

[@ASMAA-om5os]

i'm so glad you did this and i wish you can figure out what you want in life soon! , after my first year of university i knew i wasn't happy with what i'm doing/studying but i kept on doing it anyways , now 4 years later i kind of regret that i didn't change my life at the very first but that's okay because i learned from that mistake , I'm still young and i still can do a lot

[@glassofchai9047]

this was a great video. best of luck. i also took a gap year after my undergrad and it has completely changed me, my dream and what i wanna do for the rest of my life and its just been 6 months.

[@jas_313]

This vid and your last one has been so accurate to my current headspace, what I’ve been through over the past two months and just so similar to stuff I’ve been going over in my head it’s crazy. It’s feels odd to thank you for your genuine thoughts and life situ but thank you sm for sharing it🤍 Life is crazy af, and we’ve all gotta chart our own paths. All we gotta do is hope we end up where we wanna be, even if we don’t know where that is yet.

[@mimimarinho5268]

you make me feel better about my attendance and ur sooo relatable

[@tabi8488]

Thank you so much for your honesty about "the cycle". It happened to me this semester too and, girl I am struggling... I hate falling into this cycle of procrastination and being stressed all the time... But watching your video helped me to cope with my own feelings a lot❤️

[@aphroditerr]

I know for sure that I’ll still be following you AND I’ll care because I’m going on my 3rd gap year this year unwillingly and I feel like a total failure and as if I’m wasting my life and seeing someone around my age not going to uni is extremely reassuring tbh. I truly hope you can find all that you need from this gap year 💙💙

[@fatnamazianewarsiewicz6991]

take your time!! - don't force yourself to do something that is going to stress you out, you can always try it again in the future and if it doesn't work out then don't force yourself to do it. you need to take this time to relax, you need and deserve it.

[@sheamuzembe1007]

I really resonated with this. I just finished my 2nd year of Computer Science and it was definitely the hardest year thus far. Also with transitioning due to COVID. Thank you for speaking on this because sometimes you feel like you are the only one who is struggling or feels that way. Hope you figure everything out!

[@anaorlando2494]

I'm about to start my second year in uni and I totally understand you. It's so stressful to think about other options, plans and the "what if?", as well as feeling dissatisfied with what you're doing at the moment. I think you're very brave and I hope this gap year goes well for you! 🥰❤

[@akritiyadav.]

i completely resonate with the point you said about being stuck in a cycle. being so overwhelmed about work that you cant even do work. it took me MONTHS to break out of that and im so glad you took the right steps for your own well being. wishing you the absolute best for the upcoming journey

[@se6237]

I took 2 gap years before starting university as I didn’t know what I wanted to do and worked for a year between undergrad and masters, it was exactly what I needed and I’m in a much better position now because of it! Do what you feel you need to do :)

[@ejey6716]

I love you too!! I personally wasn't just watching your videos because you were posting videos about studying and university! I loved that your videos were about self improvement and sometimes productivity vlogs (and also I loved learning languages so they were also very interesting and helpful) and just honestly sharing and talking about your thoughts and the things you plan and dream, were so inspiring and interesting. And of course there were so many things I had in common that made me really interested with what this person would bring in the future contents. So anyways what I wanted to say is that you don't need to be worried that the change of your situation would affect the subscribers. I really think it's going to be enough to be making videos that you to resonate with, the videos that you want to make, and the things you want to share. Really appreciate that you are sharing and making these contents!!

[@aradhikagandotra9795]

You have always been my Biggest motivation ...And I belive in you And I love you❤

[@ChaCha-bw8ql]

It's okay anna! You can do whatever u wanna do, and that's the great decision. It is better to just try get out of ur comfort or maybe a lil toxic with ur mental issue. No one said that u need to go to uni to just make ur dream come true. Stay strong and we will always support u!🥰

[@jagratikumawat7218]

best of luck with your decision you are going to do great things :))

[@aya.luxury.couture]

Im so grateful i have Anna in ma life i swear .. You changed me into a whole differennt person dear i love you so hard ❤ i wish you the best and i just want you to know you making a change in this world dear ❤

[@ggabigoncal]

everyone's paths are different, so for me, the only way to know that you're going in the right direction is if you stay honest and true to yourself; and it looks like this is exactly what you're doing, so i'm sure that you will not be wasting any opportunity but rather taking advantage of one. wishing you a good 2022!!! looking foward to your new series :)

[@zofiasitarska3615]

as someone who doesn’t know what to do with their life, this video was really helpful and nice to know that i’m not alone :) i wish you all the best, and i hope you have the best year

[@nancyycruz]

I'm so proud of you for fighting the fear of time passing you by. Its a concept I been dealing with for a long time and sometimes it feels as though you're alone and no one really understands. Your example of Plan A and Plan B really struck me because its been something that I been wanting to put into words and I just haven't been able to do so. I 100% understand you! Having a degree is something I want, but I'm not completely sure that it is the one thing in the world thats going to make me the happiest. Here's to finding out what we really want out of life. Here's to finding out what Plan A really is!! 💗

[@preetkahlon9103]

Big fan ,I really obsessed wd ur videos ♥️

[@RitishaSingh-rd9tc]

All the best, much love ❤

[@seenamsiddiqui1999]

Thank you for this video 😭😭❤️

[@idgaf8389]

How exciting 😁 so happy for u and wishing u the best.

[@seyagami07]

thank you so much for posting this video it made me tear up while reading comment section and seeing other people having the same problems cause im also 19 and really dont know what i want to do with my life and uni and all of that stress that comes along with school work dont make any help either. i tried to attend classes and do my best in studying but last year i got so used to online classes therefore this year was like a hell to me. and the saddest part is people around me think im just being lazy? i'm not in a gap year but i just gave up on this semester and sitting at home, doing nothing and taking my time. the next semester starts in march so i hope this time i can bring myself to go to school otherwise i'll be done with it :')

[@caszriel]

it was great to watch this and hear your thoughts on everything, there's so much I agree with; there's definitely a societal expectation to go to university after high school even if you don't know what to do. university is definitely becoming more of a business around the world which sucks because it should be about the education/learning experience, not making money. I think this is a good decision on your part and can't wait to see what you get up to next!

[@physicianskitchen]

I just want to say I admire your honesty with yourself and your self awareness. I was a potato compared to you at your age 😄 I am sure you're going to do awesome whatever path you take

[@emanuelymendes7063]

It's good to find people that are in the same situation because it looks like we aren't alone. When we grow up, we realize that life is not a script to all people follow. Each one has your time to do the things, as the example of the subject in the video. Enjoy your gap year and don't mind others' judgment.

[@sanveeh]

i get you mann, im going through the same, gonna take a gap year too

[@enfantdelaPatrie13]

Такое нужное видео сейчас, спасибо ❤

[@mohamadnuur1684]

Wish you the best anna

[@alvieputrigustiningrum1170]

i feel you so much! i'm on my third year of uni and im starting to think that it's not really worth it, and like you, i've also never felt like the studious type... i mean i try very hard of course but at the end of the day i always wonder about what i actually want to do with my life. great video! looking forward to your next journey :D

[@arwas6464]

Anna, i’ve been following you since you were in highschool, i too am in uni now (i’m the same age as u) and i just wanna say i’m so proud of you, because making a decision different from what is considered as ‘ideal’ or ‘normal’ in our society is sooo scary. i understand you more than you know. i hope we all achieve what we want to in life. here’s to doing what makes us happy 🥂

[@afellowweebo7014]

I took a gap year before my uni started because i felt like I'm doing things (studying) like a robot with no goals and dreams. I really had none and so after a lot of thinking i took a gap year and gave myself a rest. It really helped. I felt the same like you so i truly understand you just trust yourself give yourself time. Now my uni will be started soon maybe this month or next and I'm really excited and feel fresh...best of luck for you!

[@nayabmustafa5554]

damnnnn i relate to every single word you said as if you're narrating what i am going through. Good Luck

[@hurariabawar2709]

Oh my god!!! It was such an amazing video

[@fairouzkhoudour7710]

hi anna, I just discovered your channel two or three days ago and I really like it, and since you're interested in learning languages I really recommended Arabic it's a little bit difficult but it's so enjoyable and amazing language.

[@emdntn3399]

sounds like such a good choice for you! i’ve taken a gap year too because I want to travel and work on my own personal hobbies. I felt so alone for not going to uni straight away and felt people looked down on me, but I really think it’s been the best decision i’ve made :)!!!

[@emdntn3399]

I kind of felt like I had failed myself and my family because explaining it to them was a bit difficult like you said, some people are quite traditional.. but now I have had the time to see that it’s the best decision for me right now :,)

[@attiafatima]

I followed my gut and chose to leave an excellent professional opportunity that I had once dreamt to have but in the end to live a balanced life needs peace of mind and I have no regrets taking a career break sometimes in your life you need to take a break and get your priorities right

[@oliviasmith2972]

This video is so relatable

[@rumeysasaglam]

you are really brave ı wish you the best

[@ayeshasohail2470]

I am on a gap year too This video helped me clear my mind that i am doing right...thank u so much :)

[@evaalcala4238]

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