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[@TarMarz]

thank you all so much, I am feeling so at peace and loved with these comments - I didn't know how much I needed to hear some of these things! Hope you all enjoyed the beautiful song from Irish band Le Boom in the beginning - it's called 'Australia' and I cry most times I hear it!

[@brigittekrause3944]

Tara, thank you so much for allowing us to be part of your journey. This felt really special and open. Thank you! I believe a lot (if not all of us) are here for you, not NY the city:) so you can breathe, no matter where you will be (city wise) we will join you:)

[@angelah9690]

'the darkest part of the night is just before the dawn.' Change is inevitable. Your openness always floors me; thank you for another great honest video. Sending you so much love and light through this time.

[@TarMarz]

Well said!❤️❤️

[@victoria1936]

aw tara, thank you for being so open with us. i am one of your 'older' watchers (i'm 38 haha) but i have been watching you for YEARS. i'm also an only child, and can relate to your feelings about problem solving, and getting things done, but also to the overwhelm when you realize your parents are getting older. it's so hard. if no one has told you lately, you are doing a GREAT job. we'll watch no matter what content you put out as long as you are staying true to yourself. i've learned so much from you over the years and can't wait to keep learning. sending love from toronto xo

[@TarMarz]

thank you sweet one ❤️‍🩹

[@aphraell]

38, only child and a libra here. I can relate to this feelings so much. I’m loving Tara’s weird, spiritual, quirky, genuine content and only thing that is important that she’s real. New York, Ireland or New Zealand, I don’t care, I’ll watch her :)

[@michelleosbourn4367]

Long time watcher/follower (and fellow early-30s girlie), and let me assure you - your content is lovely, but people stay for your authenticity. People change and grow, and that's a beautiful thing, and it's a gift that you allow us to watch your evolution in so many different seasons of your life. We're here for you! My mom was diagnosed with cancer in 2021 and it absolutely rocked my world thinking of losing her. It's a fear/anxiety that I don't think I'll ever be old enough handle. My heart goes out to you and your family, and I'm glad that you are taking care of yourself in this difficult season!

[@TarMarz]

thank you for feeling like you can share that with our community, I always recognize your username 🥹

[@katelaver3880]

You could post about LITERALLY anything and I would still watch. It's your heart and mind that keeps this community together.

[@earthtoalysssa]

Couldn’t be more excited for this continued lane of content from you! Being on a very internal journey myself in the last couple years, it feels so synchronistic that a content creator I stumbled on long ago for other reasons is mirroring the journey and headspace I exist in now. The quote that comes to mind from your chat at the end of this is that everything we want is on the other side of fear. Thank you for leaning into your vulnerabilities and passions- so beautiful to watch!

[@TarMarz]

yes! I want to practice what I preach and lean into the unknown!

[@justherevibing6611]

Tara, of course we are here for you! I’ve been watching you for years and feel like we’re on a parallel path so it’s really weird but good knowing that your videos will always resonate and be a comfort. Whether you are in New York, Ireland or anywhere else in the world, we’ll be watching and supporting you for you. Sending love for your family and your father. Thank you for being so consistent with yt despite the hardships but please take care of yourself too.🩷🤍

[@kittin417]

Your message on 29:45 was exactly what I needed to hear. I know you have a whole audience of followers watching your videos, but that moment felt like you knew what I was feeling/thinking that you needed to say it for me to hear it….thank you

[@sarahb3606]

I found listening to your spiritual session very moving and had to pause for a bit. Don't even hesitate to do what you want or need to regarding your life or the channel. We're in it for the long haul and support you come what may. 🦋

[@seehowitgrows]

i burst into tears when she mentioned the butterfly oh my god

[@TarMarz]

same girl SAME

[@marcus4554]

Keep going you're doing great. You're one of a kind and your energy matches it in every video. I'm also a Libra/only child turning 30 soon. Nice to see a kind spirit representing us

[@MayaaaaMusic]

The weird vibes feel like a big hug on Sundays. Wherever this journey takes you, I’m here for all of it and the frame and aesthetic you add to it. Sending love 💫

[@pessoasombra]

I don't even believe in parasocial relationships but, with all our differences, watching you for several years without missing a single video and seeing you grow and hearing your thoughts has added value to my life and while your nyc content is fun (that's how I found you and started following you!) the reasons why I stayed have nothing to do with it. Also I am at the edge of my own precipice for about a whole year now and desperately wanting to jump into a new life/me but not knowing how, your reassurance at the end was so needed it brought me to tears. Thank you for not being afraid of vulnerability

[@TarMarz]

I honestly am so so grateful for comments like this, it's so hard to see the woods from the trees sometimes in terms of work and managing everything i've built with my responsibilities x

[@j.r.3850]

I love this so much. I was feeling so heavy and sad and then I watched this and instantly felt light

[@ilariabondavalli2033]

For some reason, I have been postponing watching this video. I now believe that I had to wait until today for it to make sense and resonate with what I am feeling. Thank you Tara

[@freyab.4091]

the intro🤌🏼🤌🏼 love this vlog so much, also makes me incredibly nostalgic for Ireland

[@RobynCreamer13]

We love you Tara - completely admire how open & candid you are in this video. ❤️ we are all here for you regardless of what the future may hold. love to you and the family 🇮🇪 oh, and that poem at the beginning (!!) thank you again for sharing with us, we appreciate you & your authenticity. Take care💖

[@danann2700]

I love you for you it doesn’t matter to me where you are, your content always resonates, like very deeply and influences me on so many levels

[@sophieshanahan4844]

Love your energy and personality and your realness. I'm here for you and your journey.

[@fatouj1191]

14:44 I literally shouted "GIIIIIIRRL" and backed up when she mentioned a butterfly! Loved that confirmation for you. ✨

[@TarMarz]

I FLIPPED

[@tiffanydeg4262]

Thank you for sharing. Im 35 and ur absolutely correct about the 30s.. it honestly only gets better and scarier at the some time but u feel ready for it. These conversations make my day, thank u again for sharing ur journey. Sending u 💕🦋

[@lauracrosby9165]

OH MY GOD THE END OF THIS VIDEO!!!! I needed this so so badly. Having a terrible time at work with an awful boss and I am trying to get through it but it’s hard to lean into not knowing what is next

[@scapegoatchildrecovery]

very cool that you shared parts of your reading - thank you! definitely go full out on the content YOU want to put out there. Don't hold back! the most engaging YT vlogs are watching and listening to people who are super passionate about their topic - because it shines through. I love all the woo. I also love watching and learning from people super passionate about what they're talking about 😊

[@klala23]

I’ve always (quietly) considered you my soul twin because I’m also a Libra, turned 30 around the same time as you, had a major breakup around the same time and have been trying to move to nyc since I was 8 😂 My dad also became really sick when I started college and has been on and off since then. I quit my pharmacy job after Covid to start a creative master’s program, became more spiritual and started transcendental meditation (hypnosis is next!) You’re not alone ❤ I think many of us grew up along side you and can relate. You got this sis!

[@camillacaloi4122]

Do you need confirmation that I’m here for you and your immaculate energy? I’m picking up my journal as soon as the video finish You have no idea how much comfort your videos always bring me

[@marielydelacruz6900]

Thank you so much for sharing this. Sending you love and light during this time.

[@TarMarz]

Same to you!

[@flfl4871]

64 year old Libran here- we share very similar sensibilities. I will keep following you regardless of content etc.

[@lindydietrich7022]

I love you for you, talk to us forever about anything. Any shift in your life will bring out your interests and therefore become interesting. I'm personally more intrigued by your spiritual journey than any other facet of your life but I found and loved you first through your fashion and NYC content. You do you, we'll be here! ❤

[@Trumppets]

Your honesty in this video is striking, and whole heartedly believe that you sharing this real and human experience will benefit so many people ❤

[@amandadoherty6902]

Awhh Tara! Sending you so much love and energy. And 100% yes I'm here for you and not just your NY content. Brave woman! ❤

[@TarMarz]

thank you amanda! feeling much better now!

[@sarubhaskar]

I’m a long time watcher/first time commenter, and I’m so here for your transformations and awakenings. This one made me emotional. Feeling thankful that you’re so open and sending you and your family so much love and good energy ❤

[@TarMarz]

thankyou for your first comment! it's so nice to hear from people watching the videos and feeling their presence beyond a view number x

[@gabiIglesias1]

I find a lot of solace watching your vids, I love how you dive into some like spiritual out of the ordinary things and I find that super fascinating and I’m super happy that there’s a spot on the Internet where I get to learn

[@TarMarz]

that means the world, finding an aligned community on here ❤️

[@Mel-gq9ff]

We follow you because of you, not where you live but where you’re at. I resonate so much with your energy ✨

[@catiacarreiro2337]

Tara, im here for you! Do whatever makes you happy! ❤

[@journeysandjournals]

I find it so interesting that I saw your content maybe 2 years ago and thought it was cool but I didn’t subscribe. Fast forward to 2023 and something had led me to your content seemingly out of nowhere and I’m SO glad. Maybe I resonate more with your energy now - it would make sense. I love the deep conversations and you talking openly about your passions is encouraging for me as an aspiring KZbinr and human. So thank you. Sending you so much love and strength! Ps also resonate with being avoidant!! Super common for empaths

[@estherkag]

Tara ❤❤❤ we’re here for you just like you’re here for us

[@ashleer3944]

I was so teary when she was talking about the fire being near your father. I hope that comfort is surrounding him during this time and you and your family are feeling that healing. 💙

[@TarMarz]

I know 🥹thanks for joining x

[@ashleer3944]

@@TarMarz I thought I was already subscribed... Yt is like that sometimes 🙃

[@evibasta7174]

Tara I connected with the messeges in this video so SO much. As someone in my mid 20s dealing with a lot of the issues that you described and feeling very lost, I find a lot of confort in your content, so thank you for sharing. We will support wherever you are! xx

[@jasmineg2518]

Okay Tara this is going to sound so weird but I feel like we have a number of parallels: same birthday, same ethnicities, lived in bushwick, same malaysian parent dealing with brain tumors and moving back to be the caregiver, and big breakup! Sending you love and light as you navigate through this 💖

[@camikandila_]

Tara! Hi from Hong Kong

[@user-ej3gt3kn3y]

We are here for you!! 100%!!

[@alicefisher691]

Tara you’ve been on my mind since your last video, and not for the content but to send you healing energy. I love this type of content and would love to see whatever you put out. I’ve resonated with your journey recently with my own family and I appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing - thank you so much

[@soniadarlison8631]

My unscolicted advice Tara is don't ask for permission. Follow what you're passionate about and what you find meaning in. People will see that and will take to you (at least the right people). Of course, I absolutely think you should start talking more about what you're interested in, but I also think you shouldn't look for our approval before you do so. What you say and the messages you deliver are so impactful - don't even hesitate to share more of this side of yourself.

[@TarMarz]

❤️❤️❤️

[@ChocoGirlFashionLife]

Thank you for being so open, honest and vulnerable in this video Tara. I hope all is well with your family 💛 Please know that I’ll watch your content regardless of where you’re based in the world/whatever you’re doing. Sending all the love and positive, healing vibes to you and your family 💛

[@Maddy.ohaire]

love you for you!! wherever you are, whatever you're doing, here for the long talks and all the feels x

[@adelah]

you have the strength tara. and from personal experience i was recently and still am the medicine in my family for my gran. you can do this!

[@yellowlacess]

This video had me in shambles! My father is sick with stage IV cancer and is currently recovering from surgery. The fact that you mentioned not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and a miracle occurring after had me BAWLING so thank you for this video. I too have been on my spiritual journey for some time and seeing someone else going through something similar right this very moment is WILD! so, THANK YOU THANK YOU for being open!

[@sharrlizz]

Sending healing to your father ❤️

[@yellowlacess]

thank you so much for your kindness💖@@sharrlizz

[@TarMarz]

my biggest revelation in life is knowing that these burdens are shared and that the more we talk about them the more opportunity there is to have vulnerable heartfelt connections with others that make us not feel so alone! I am sending healing energy your family's way!

[@user-fl4zh8ij7o]

Tar - we love you no matter where you’re based. You’re a real light in people’s lives - don’t doubt that ❤

[@fruitymuse]

This vlog made me teary-eyed :' ) I luv the direction u are going in and I want u to do whatever makes u happy for u! I am currently in that stage of life of how u said a miracle is coming soon. I have been knowing that during the process and feel like u saying that is a confirmation for me. Same with butterflies, I have been seeing them a lot lately

[@anaclaudialopes1721]

Tara, I don´t even know you and I feel so much love for you. I´ve been here for sooo many years and I just wanted to let you know that there´s a girl in Portugal that is sending love and joy and all good things to you.

[@emmy.222]

Been really going through it lately. It feels like things are falling apart, and I needed to hear that a miracle is around the corner. I believe it for you and I believe it for me too ❤

[@TarMarz]

if you believe it or can imagine it already exists - you just need to bring yourself closer to it x

[@whiterabbitcottage]

Tara.. we love you for you... and will follow you anywhere and everywhere. Thank you for showing us we are all one... we all go through the same pain and grief and all that matters is love. Which I'm sending you so much of 🐇

[@sarahmartin6855]

As a fellow only child, so much resonated here. ❤

[@Yesorelse]

Wherever you go, there WE are. Thank you for this beautiful and vulnerable vlog. I am in tears watching but in the most inspired way. Thank you for sharing 🩷

[@michellemontana]

I honestly only discovered you maybe a month or so before you decided to do your hypnosis training and that's all stuff I'm into as well so I'm here for the journey! I think most people on KZbin follow people for the content and stay for the personality. We aren't going anywhere sister!

[@chensonzungen9455]

Not usually a commenter but want to say i love the content shift towards energy/ magic I am here for it! ⭐️

[@TarMarz]

❤️

[@leahfox813]

Love all your videos Tara especially the ones from home. I’m at home in Ireland and a lot of my friends are moving away so your content from home always makes me appreciate how beautiful home is x

[@s00sanna]

@tarmarz thank you always for being vulnerable and genuine. Sending healing vibes and strength to you and your fam. And fwiw - absolutely here for the Tara content whether that includes NYC bits or not!

[@ameliacasey624]

“Use your twenties” is something I needed to hear so badly, or maybe wanted to hear. Thank youu. Will love whatever content you put out no matter which direction it goes in, I just know, and I think others who watch you would probably feel the same, can’t explain it I just know so

[@user-mt1gb1dx5g]

Tara sending you all the love!! You have been through itttttt. I am here for your content wherever you are. You hold so much power and inspiration.

[@oliviarae239]

Love you for being you Tara, and love so much the direction your channel has evolved ✨

[@emmat5871]

I’m excited to see where life takes you next nyc or not. I’ve been through that heart opening moment when my dad fell ill and passed away. Being home, sort of away from your adult life in a sence, can be unsettling and emotional. Please don’t fear the future, feel the fear and do it anyway x

[@amandagosio]

Thank you for sharing the beauty in the difficult/confusing/painful today ❤. I truly believe wherever you decide to share your life, it has to be authentic to you and that means New York or any other place will have your take on it. That’s the best part about watching you, the point of view that you share. 🦋 sending love to you💕

[@sempensar777]

Girl I have been following you for years and Watch every Single video of yours no matter the Content. Here to assure you that I will Continue watching and will love whatever you put out

[@TarMarz]

thankyou angel!

[@temilybadillaserrano6373]

I looooove you Tara and feel very connected to you in this spiritual path. Sending you a lot of love, compassion, light and warm hugs.

[@jenniferhollander]

Somehow, your words always settle my soul. And I'm one of your 40-somethings! Lol. Thank you for sharing your journey! ❤

[@scboleyna]

We are here for you and your journey, no matter where you decide to be 😊❤

[@phoebe261]

Thank you so much for sharing your reading with us - it’s so intimate and special, so thank you. We love your content for you, for the joy and inspiration of watching you follow your soul purpose, so can’t wait to see where your journey takes you.

[@ellenkinsey591]

Can’t express how much I loved this video! Thank you for sharing these details of your life ❤

[@tchohny]

Totally open to new content :) Move forward with what's most genuine to you, and it will resonate in the best way for others.

[@claired9437]

I’m here for whatever comes next ❤

[@kaitlinadams3022]

nothing inspires me more to drop into a higher self connection than watching you learn how to do it tara, thank you for continuing to be so unapologetically yourself. keep changing ✨ we love it all

[@TarMarz]

🥹🥹🥹

[@aceitedepachuli]

I love that you are putting out more of your authentic self; it seems both healing to you and def healing to me

[@TarMarz]

thankyou for being so receptive!

[@livsmith2444]

Long time watcher here and just wanted to say I watch for you and will continue to no matter where you base your vlogs from! Sending all the love!!

[@TarMarz]

thankyou for dropping a comment in it means a lot to me!

[@jessicaoconnor1999]

Sending you and your family the most positive vibes Tara ❤ I know you’re insecure that people may have initially clicked on your videos for NYC but I think I can speak for the majority of us when I say that we stayed for you and your energy 💕 we will support you no matter where you are or what you post 🥹 you got this girl

[@cornbo9585]

Hi Tara! I’ve been watching you for a while now and this is the first time I’m leaving a comment. I just want to say thank you for being a bright light. I’m 25 and to hear these things has helped me more than you’ll know and wherever you decide to go I’ll be here to support🥹💙

[@marthakirby9024]

Such an incredible moment to watch. Thank you for sharing this! Your content continues to encourage me to turn inwardly and I a extremely grateful for your vulnerability!

[@annas4231]

Absolutely loved this video Tara, thank you for your vulnerability & amazing insight - I have watched your content for a few years now and it has been so amazing to see your growth & am loving all of the spiritual content 🤍✨🦋 sending love & healing to you & your family

[@OldSchoolRomantic]

Thank you for sharing something so personal Tara! If you haven’t posted about this already, would love to hear about your favourite books/authors on this subject

[@chasinpalmtrees]

I love you Tara and stumbled on your channel yeaaaarrrs ago never expecting to have found one of the realest most grounded influencers and someone that has definitely spoken and impacted my own spiritual understanding. I hope you know that many of us that found you for one reason and are staying for many more. Love to you and your family 🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@Jules8894]

You're one of the first people I follow on here years back. I followed you way before you were in New York and will continue to watch your content and so on until the day you decide not to post. I look forward to your videos every Sunday. Continue to be your authentic self.

[@TarMarz]

thankyou!!!

[@Ray-lp6ko]

The opening of this vlog warmed by heart lots of love and good energy to the whole family xxxx This reminds me I need to look into astro cartography since you last posted it on Instagram excited!❤

[@stephbianco1325]

thanks for sharing Tara, you stand out on this platform because i resonate with you as a person. sticking around for your journey not just for the ny part of it.

[@lynzy5]

Tara

[@Michelledownes1]

I needed this video today, you gotta do what's best for you we'll be here.

[@IsaBella12519]

We love you Tara!!! and love your content and your passions regardless of where in the world you are

[@sharrlizz]

Of course we will be here and watch your content 😊. Can very much understand the decision making and pressure that comes with parents getting older, etc. Thank you for sharing.

[@TarMarz]

thank you sweetness!

[@Mahsajoyce]

Immediately booked a spiritual reading after watching this. Thanks for sharing the light!

[@pureheartbadass]

girie, i've been watching you consistently for like 6-7 years, you could literally start talking about your favourite types of rocks in fucking... idk utah and i would happily watch it lol. this was so special, thank you for sharing x

[@TarMarz]

😂😂😂😂😂

[@elizabethosullivan1278]

This is so vulnerable and really interesting thank you for sharing. Hope your dad is getting better each day x

[@carissashapiro]

Thank you for sharing this magical, intimate experience with us all, Tara!

[@krislitch]

I have followed you for a while and specially for your “weird” content. I loved seeing a content creator dive further into the spiritual side of things because I have felt drawn to it most of my life. I adore you as a person and will always support your content in whatever direction you choose to take it. 🌒🌕🌘

[@TarMarz]

thank you moon sister!

[@MusicIsMyAnswer]

I’m so so so excited for what’s to come. The very reason I continue to watch your videos is the spiritual stuff. I left my corporate job and have started travelling at 32 because of things that you’ve said in previous vlogs. Thank you so much for this video and for all of your spiritual wisdom and normalising be a woo woo girlie ❤️❤️❤️

[@TarMarz]

you are inspiring ME!

[@blackberryjammy]

Hey lovely, not sure if you’ll see this but your energy and spiritual content is what I came to your channel for. The way you speak on the subject and incorporate it into your videos just feels right, as if it’s what’s meant to be. Pls don’t have any doubts, we’re here for you and whatever you wanna put out there

[@awnyeah]

Here for you, not the aesthetics! Been watching your videos for years and that won't change no matter what the location is. Really needed to hear that message at the end too. So much of what you said resonated with me 💕Sending love to your family!

[@Diane_Pena]

I just watched your reading session and it truly moved me to tears! Witnessing your growth and evolution has brought immense joy and peace to my heart😭 I couldn’t be prouder of you and the journey you’re on. My love and support for you is boundless, and I’m eagerly looking forward to all the wonderful things ahead! Hopefully, one day we’ll have the chance to meet in person ❤️ sending you an energetic hug full of love!

[@luvkav9559]

I’m here for the journey you’re on and will always show up to support you and your content. It’s so weird when I was watching, you do the psychic, reading eyes felt so close and connected to what you were saying, and how you were feeling then when I opened up the mediums TikTok page, I found one of her readings, and I just started bawling with tears. It’s so fascinating the way that these tools can be used to open up an emotional space you have trouble accessing.

[@TarMarz]

you know when the tears just keep rolling it's probably been ready to come out for a whileeeee ❤️🥰

[@ashleyreddin7346]

Tara! 👏🏼 I am all over this content and really can’t wait to follow this journey your on, if you choose to share it x

[@Gunicin]

Anything you post, I personally, happily watch. Love you girl! Sending you peace ❤