That Dragon, Cancer

That Dragon, Cancer is a powerful game that tells the true story of Joel. I've been wanting to play this for a while but I had to be in the right mindset to do so because of my dad's battle with cancer. This was a very hard video for me to make so thank you for taking the time to watch.
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[@emmy3159]

The way he whispered "only four.." while reading the card absolutely shattered my heart.

[@kattriella1331]

And his repeated whisper of, "There's so many cards . . ."

[@ilikechez5775]

When?

[@somerandomhumanbeingonthei1924]

I broke down when I did the math on their ages. The first one was ten, and I started tearing up, but when it got to the next one and he was only four, I really started crying

[@somerandomhumanbeingonthei1924]

I like chez I’m not exactly sure of the time stamp, but it’s when he’s reading the first couple of cards (I’ll probably edit this when I find it again)

[@kateeaton562]

@@ilikechez5775 37:50 I think

[@amandaahola7517]

It absolutely killed me when he read the card "for John who never got to see his daughters grow"

[@curtismathis1565]

Amanda Ahola was about to say the same thing. I’m not usually emotional but damn. It hurt.

[@blueminho6178]

Amanda Ahola I feel that. My fathers name was John an he also passed from cancer, so that part hit me hard.

[@genesismuro8126]

Yeah...that made m cry to.

[@rosesmith2626]

Me too. It hurt so much. I mean it, SO much. I started crying a lot, I had to silently scream because everyone home is asleep. I had to hold something tight to keep from screaming. I’ve never been like that before, it just hurt

[@currentlycaffeinated3882]

I know! That part was hilarious! 😂

[@teclinsoro4523]

every sound joel makes (aside from talking) are actually his real voice recorded from home videos. which means that the sounds of him screaming in the dehydration chapter were *real*

[@nimble.thimble]

That’s terrifying

[@jessiejess5483]

There’s nothing more soul-wrenching than a baby crying in pain.

[@itz_koki]

That's really horrible when you think about it....

[@mmochiss]

That shit *hurted*

[@ilikenougat8892]

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TELL US THAT

[@HLHReviews]

1:22:24 - 1:30:16 This part absolutely broke me. I can’t imagine what it’s like trying to take care of your sick kid, knowing you can’t give him a drink because he’ll throw it up. You just feel helpless as a parent because you’re doing everything you can to help your kid, only to be hearing him screaming and crying.

[@Basement_corvid]

That part made me break down mentally. I don't have kids of my own, but my maternal instinct slapped me in the face from how much it hurt listening to that poor baby cry... when I have kids, I swear I will do everything in my power to be a good mother to them

[@TheCatstronaut]

bro i was sick like that once, trying to drink water made me go P U K E

[@gerardwayseyelash]

Current trying to keep it together at midnight 🥹

[@TheHalloween_Jack]

​@gerardwayseyelash Same, man. 2:30am and drunk as all hell. All I want to do is cry, and comfort Joel and everyone in this comment section. I hope you're doing well, too. Are you alright homie? :]]

[@gerardwayseyelash]

​@@TheHalloween_JackYeah...I've lost family to cancer so it just hits harder...

[@SonadowFazbearFnafAndSonic]

Your dad would be so proud of the person you've become.

[@teebee7033]

He would and he would understand how many people he makes happy

[@naminexion7010]

Shut up....

[@SonadowFazbearFnafAndSonic]

Aliyah Thomas It wasn't necessary. What has happened to this community? It used to be so loving.

[@ryr4040]

Aliyah Thomas seriously? his dad died!!! whats your problem?

[@gatitoeh]

+Aliyah Thomas how about you shut up cause Sonadow Fazbear was just saying how mark's dad probably feels about his son. your fucking discussing

[@justinschiesel4305]

I love how chica came up to him as he was talking about his dad. It really solidified the fact that dogs can sense emotion

[@magentawool2556]

Yes. Just like people, they can sense emotion and react to it. Also i love Chica! Suchagooddoggo!

[@YaBoi-jg9zg]

Not telepathy but more of your reactions

[@Someinternetuser]

My cat would always comfort me and sit on my lap when I cried. He also sat on my cast when I broke my leg. 🥺

[@katieanderson4004]

I'm not even going to lie I thought you were going to say it solidified the fact that dogs can smell cancer ;-;

[@-desertpackrat]

Most animals, especially if domesticated or bonded with humans. I've had pet rats who were very intuitive and would get worried if I was sad, and I try not to be angry in a room where my pets are because I don't want them to feel those chemicals from me, they seem really sensitive to it. Some are not as intuitive too, it also depends on the animal's personality, some are more attentive and concerned while others are a bit spacey and don't notice, just like people and how sometimes we're very good at noticing something is wrong or off about someone but other people don't notice anything.

[@somerandomhumanbeingonthei1924]

“I haven’t thought about that- that _thing_ since that day.....” the pain in his voice when he said that broke me down

[@beepzawsome6360]

Yeah

[@somerandomhumanbeingonthei1924]

@Shin Splitter 31:58 is when the part starts

[@saturnplanets]

you don't, I have the same experience as him, and you don't think of that thing until it is seen or brought up again, and when it is, it wrecks you. /gen

[@sodapop8738]

mark called himself a disgusting slob for crying on camera. that is so sad to think that someone has to apologise for feeling this way and showing genuine emotion about a big and tragic topic like this, it is completely ok to cry over something as impactful as this. no need to be sorry. we're here for you mark. forever.

[@3dpaper715]

People can be messed up when then look down on you in discussed and tease you or just be very rude just because you show emotions I remember when my mom had an dying gallbladder and she was on the string between life and death for 3 months and I was told she was going to die no matter what and since I’m just a kid it hits me hard. I was in so much pain because I’m given all this weight in an instant and I just felt helpless and very depressed for a long time and soulless beings think it’s ok to just mock people like me and be rude cuz we are showing we are in enormous amount of pain. I just hate those types of people and always will until the end of time.

[@3dpaper715]

@@Chase_Sparrow3337 yep it’s just other people don’t understand the pain people like ma have to go through and it feels messed up

[@Zarro0o0o]

Shut up

[@Zarro0o0o]

@@3dpaper715 shut up

[@Zarro0o0o]

@@3dpaper715 shut up

[@crimsynheartticker3732]

Somebody told me once, "When someone has cancer, the whole family and everyone who loves them does, too." At first I don't really understand what it mean until I watch this. The story of this game is very beautiful and sad at the same time

[@dixierisden6855]

TrustLoveFaith it’s true. My boyfriend’s little sister has a cancer-classified condition, luckily they say it’s not going to turn terminal, and she’s only 10. It’s heartbreaking to see her have to leave for chemo because she hates it and her mom hates it. It tears him (my bf) up every single time because he’s so scared and worried about her.

[@athanlorenzo]

when I saw somebody I immediately thought of all star by smash mouth

[@SamA-iz6hl]

It’s true, my mam had it a couple years ago when I was 10. I couldn’t really understand it until I saw her in hospital, she’s fine now and I try to forget about it x 🙂

[@JKKKK15]

TrustLoveFaith Cancer has destroyed over 1.8 million people and has affect millions of more, family, friends, lovers... It’s something you can’t run from, hide from, and can barely cure... The process of chemo kills many and leaves all bald to further embarrass them... It is something that only a true warrior can take on a dragon, a beast, that only the strongest individual can take on, for all it affects I give my heart to them! ❤️ Stay strong and fight on my brothers and sisters!

[@dark_lotus8221]

Not the whole family unless it was the father that had it and his own that reproduce get it.

[@emilywright1390]

You know, a lot of people don't understand why I, why a lot of people, chose a gamer as a hero. Mark, who chose not to monetise a video just because he didn't want to make money on a topic like this Mark, who, with the help of his fans, has raised hundreds of thousands of dollars for charity Mark, who literally went into hospital. And apologised for the lack of videos Mark, who has been a fighter against other people's depression and self doubt, by playing games So yes, I chose a gamer for my hero, and I'll be lucky if I end up like him.

[@drooplepup]

He's someone who is really making a difference. 👍🏻👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@Thiricola]

I salute you.

[@zoeb]

exactly

[@idklol8014]

Respect. For you and Mark.

[@revoboyo7157]

I really like this comment....couldn't have said this better.

[@aylafulgham3414]

Don't apologise for crying Mark, we all cried with you. Your dad would be proud of where you are ❤️

[@laughingsamurai9812]

And what his YET to do

[@Zedrapazia]

I did. Didn't when my grandfather died when he died of cancer because I simply couldn't. But now, alongside with seeing Mark, a KZbinr I have been watching for years, and even by rewatching ... It gets to me closer than ever before.

[@venusfaithe6359]

True🥰

[@chloes5597]

I felt so bad whenever he apologised for crying. Don’t be sorry mark we understand

[@madjelly1868]

Well said

[@dudeman71213]

I recently had the honour of meeting the creators of this game via Zoom, as my professor is a friend of theirs and they spoke to my university class. They are incredible people who faced such such an insanely challenging situation so early in the life of their child. And as a cancer survivour myself, what a touching story and game/experience this is. I can't imagine what my parents went through during my treatment, but this game/experience has helped me understand just a little more. Thank you, Markiplier, for showcasing this game, and respecting and honouring the story it tells.

[@matthewboire6843]

I hope your dragon never comes back. You must keep it away

[@PinkPanther45518]

I'm so happy you beat that stupid dragon. I really pray and hope it stays far away, for good!! It's good to hear you are doing well and that you could find some comfort though this game. The developers did such an amazing job on it. Makes me bawl every time I watch it, every single time.

[@beverlywalbridge7730]

when he apologized for crying, i felt my heart get a little closer to him. never, ever, ever, apologize for crying. we're crying too, mark. don't worry.

[@cooper_ae]

myles collins I thought the same thing and it made me cry 😔

[@vennyventricide9587]

When did he start crying?

[@melissaunderwood4097]

(heart felt closer) thats kinda gay judging on ur pf pic ngl

[@melissaunderwood4097]

@@vennyventricide9587 i was wondering to🤔

[@vennyventricide9587]

@@melissaunderwood4097 HAHAHAHHA

[@popsiclesticks3254]

I love how at the picnic with Joel Mark responds to what he says so gently like he's talking to a real kid it melts my heart

[@elenas3571]

Because it was a real kid. (or at least it was based on one)

[@neocore3360]

he would be the best dad.

[@kyleaustin3842]

So youtube changed there ToS recently and made the decision to put ads on every video, no matter how long or if the creator turned ads off. Listening to the intro of the video and looking at how many ads there are on this video really drives home how disconnected KZbin is.

[@tealwashablemarker8886]

Whatttt?? Why did they do that?

[@cigarette_ahegao]

I was in the middle of crying when KZbin gave me an upbeat commercial.

[@febbledebble]

I am legit disgusted by it. KZbin is really messing up, they do not care for their creators at all.

[@ariskinner5802]

There is no ads on this video for me??

[@og_raven1438]

@@febbledebble one day all of us creators big and small popular or not will stop posting and go on strike in a way unless they get good and stop with this it’s unfair to be honest if a vid has adds we need to be paid, and I personally don’t post many vids but I stream a lot and I’m my case I wouldn’t make that much money but that’s not what I do it for I do it for the fun of it because I’m playing the games anyway why not stream it, but whatever I’m ranting so I’ll stop

[@thespacecowboy71]

The kid's voice made me cry. He sounded so happy, and it hurts to know that he's gone. He didn't deserve to go so early. I hope he's okay now and I hope he's still happy and loved. Rest easy baby.

[@mahoolums]

He’d be 11 today.

[@jooheonsnate3399]

chromejapan this broke my heart..... only 11.

[@luckymoonjoy1278]

T~T

[@salmmmon1510]

aw :(

[@caseym4007]

only 11, that’s horrible, I had a friend named DJ, he was 9, he would have also been 11... Rest In Peace little guy 😔

[@arcalyte4905]

oh fuck

[@projectz1363]

It's pretty cute how he interacts and talks with the kid even though it's a game

[@katietaylor8314]

It really is.

[@StupidWeb]

It's because he's met kids in that exact situation

[@No-el4gt]

Yeah, his voice was really gentle too

[@hellokittyhoe2532]

Mark would be such a good dad

[@StupidWeb]

@@hellokittyhoe2532 he's always said he's wanted to be as good a dad as his dad was

[@nua1913]

That dragon. Cancer. A dragon that my dad slew. A dragon that my grandpa lost to. I love you dad, and I miss you grandpa.

[@nicolegonzalez6571]

Im happy for your dad❤️ I pray for your grandpa❤️

[@gestmyu3]

Stay strong and have a great day

[@Cat_with_dementia]

I know what thats like because my grandma has stage 4 bone canccer and the worst part is her's is incurable, just remember the people in your life are so important keep them close and you will get far in life.

[@waterwaifu612]

I’m surprised a enclave member cares

[@gestmyu3]

@@waterwaifu612 Ik your joking but not the place dude

[@whalethepale8745]

This video is old, I remember watching it when it first came out and now seeing it again after finding out about my dads cancer and the survival rate hit me in the feels.

[@BUGFlower413]

I really hope the best for him and your family, bud

[@nilara93]

Hope youre going okay friend 💛💛💛

[@vianeyverde]

I'm sorry that your father has cancer and how you and everyone else who loves him has to go through the pain of it as well. I don't know how your situation is, nor do I know what happened, but I hope you guys are going to be well. (Sorry if this came out in a wrong way for you. I just want you to be well later on and hope that your father makes it.) UPDATE: May 28, 2023 I found out that someone in my family is borderline leukemia and has been battling for 18 years. Apparently more people on my mom's side of the family is dying of cancer.

[@sergeantgerbil2238]

In October of 2016 I was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, I spent the next 2 years fighting for my life against the odds. After seeing my world crash before my eyes I made it through treatment, I beat stage 4 cancer. A year on I've been in remission with no problems. I have not cried for 2 years, not through treatment or diagnosis or any results. This video made me baul my eyes out, thank you I needed it. On behalf of other people who have experienced cancer and myself I thank you Markiplier for shedding a sense of light onto this.

[@libertinesis2angel]

I am glad you are better.

[@LegowarriorYTAdventure1234]

You have strength that nobody can take away from you. Happy that you're still here!

[@DavidNightjet]

Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us. Stay strong. ❤️

[@cartlidge2k06]

I know how you feel when I was 4 I had a tumour

[@cartlidge2k06]

It I didn't survive I wouldn't have seen my 6 year old cousen and I'm only 12 now but you all ways have that fear of if it's going to come back that's why sometimes I never sleep cause I always scared of not waking up in the morning

[@Ben-gw3eh]

“When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot, and hold on.” - Franklin D. Roosevelt

[@Kai-vp3tx]

That's depressing.

[@yolotheyeeted7825]

Very wise

[@honeyfox2076]

Both wise and depressing. Perfect combo👌

[@BigMan-sy9ht]

Nice add on to finish this off

[@timeforfun9814]

That quote can be seen in modern war fair

[@nightsadden]

hi, i’m a little late in watching this video but a theory came to me when observing joel. i think the reason they make him faceless/indescribable is because they make it so you understand that anyone can be in that position. anyone can take up that face, as cancer is always evolving.

[@lezley8465]

I always thought that he was faceless because the people who made this game wanted Joel to not just represent himself but everyone else has been suffering with cancer

[@bluesphere1999]

I had another interpretation, i thougt that through cancer didn't give joel the time to actually grow up, he spent his time sick and in the hospital and died young, never having time to actually gain his face, himself

[@bluesphere1999]

@Security Cam Sam it's just a choice of words, no need to be mean

[@gigabyt3996]

@Security Cam Sam theres no need to be an asshole here. Some people manage to make everything a problem smh

[@kitkatz8824]

hi night lol

[@tetrodextro8952]

This game has always stuck with me since it came out, coming back to this after my own two year old son has passed due to liver cancer gives this game a whole new perspective. Hold your kids closely.

[@leah.p.6687]

For me, the most heartbreaking scene was when Joel was crying and I couldn't do anything about it and I felt so stressed out and powerless. He was in pain and there was literally nothing i could do to make it better and that was just soul-crushing. I've never thought of the torment a parent must feel when their young kid has cancer and now i understand and it's given me a whole new perspective on things.

[@ispeakmovie]

I felt the same way. I was bawling through that entire scene. it was genuinely painful to sit through.but I think it's good to let yourself feel that sometimes. allowing yourself to accept that sometimes there is just nothing you can do. and it hurts so much. and even though it may not feel like it, your love and strength through it all does matter.

[@teunw6699]

@@ispeakmovie I had to stop watching there. I cannot handle that screaming. I just can't.

[@AP-uj2fg]

@@teunw6699 The sound of a child's suffering in any capacity is one I can barely handle. I often wind up crying with them.

[@ItsLtime]

@@AP-uj2fg yes and that goes also with things like children being abandoned, abused, neglected

[@nickythehickey]

that scene almost made me have to click off the video. i have a severe sensitivity to small children crying and the whole time I was mentally begging him to stop. but I still knew he wouldn't, and I knew I couldn't do anything about it, and it made everything worse. honestly I think it might've been the most I've cried in a while...

[@miamoore2479]

Mark: *apologizes for getting emotional* Me: doNT APOLOGIZE YOU'RE OKAY WE LOVE YOU

[@oanadavid9610]

mia moore YES WE LOVE YOU MARK 😢😢

[@GraceSolar]

mia moore WE LOVE YOU MARK AHH

[@rawiyahmaxamuud2807]

mia moore YES MARK WE ALL LOVE YOU DONT WORRY WERE HERE FOR YOU

[@elainazimmerman5105]

mia moore when I saw a tear fell down from his eye at 38:00 then when I started to get teary eyed it's hurts me to see a favorite KZbinr to be in tears especially when you hear the guilt in his voice when he said he feels guilty turning his back o. them

[@ashtynkim6762]

I cried when he said he felt bad leaving them behind with all the cards, it hurts when I see a usally happy person was, a lot.

[@AlexRising_]

Seeing Mark remember the machine and talk about how his dad told him he drove too fast while he was taking him to radiation and how he values the memory broke me.

[@broitsmikey]

Joel being faceless represents the fact that Joel hadn't been alive long enough to become his own person and live his life

[@yaxxee]

Very true and also because I think this game represents many small children around the world suffering from cancer and what they and their families go through.

[@blu_otaku7063]

The parents are faceless too though, everyone is.

[@gerardwayseyelash]

​@@blu_otaku7063Are you actually for real right now? Like actually?

[@blu_otaku7063]

@@gerardwayseyelash no autocorrect fucked up my comment. It thinks that "faceless" isn't a word and changed it to careless.

[@gerardwayseyelash]

@@blu_otaku7063 Oh 💀

[@oblivionriku0312]

Marks dad's last quote, "I love you, so much." That's amazing that even upon death you can always see or hear someone saying their love towards you

[@oblivionriku0312]

I actually lost one of my best friends to cancer though I never got to say goodbye as we had left off on a bad note. However his dad called me and told me one of the last few things he said was "tell everyone I'm sorry and I love them all" and I couldn't stop crying for what felt like forever and I just want to thank mark for keeping the world a better place

[@purplediamond5867]

My dads last words to me were “go...nigh..lohve..you...”

[@elizahamilton6265]

my great grandma was able to beat cancer. She was really old when she got it, and she survived. But the treatment left her really weak. She needed a walker after her battle was over. She was walking without it one day and she fell and hit her head. She died later that night due to internal bleeding. So it wasn’t the dragon that killed her, it was the aftermath of that battle. Rest In Peace, Grandma Lorraine.

[@kennethsteverson5392]

Oh man 😞. I'm sorry that happened, buddy.

[@qualityanger2916]

Your great grandma's a badass. "Fuck Cancer." "Now fuck this walker." Just know that she would fight God and win

[@wolfidessdragondol]

I am so sorry bud❤

[@rowanlinz6201]

I’m so sorry, we love you grandma lorraine

[@jamieisnotokay3298]

I'm sorry for your loss. My grandma fought breast cancer and won. She slayed the beast. She's the strongest person I know. I love her, I hope I get to spend more time with her. I have so much to learn.

[@carlyb.4549]

I’m rewatching this video because I just lost my cat to cancer. That may not seem like something too bad to people who aren’t necessarily animal lovers, but to those of you who are, I hope that you understand. He was gone weeks ago even if he only passed today. He hasn’t been himself in so long, and he seemed almost like my great grandma did when she passed. I wish you happiness in the afterlife, Maximus. I hope that you’ve had a great life with us.

[@cheeseburger5716]

I am a cat lover and I can't imagine how you feel. I understand how many people don't really care about these things but I do. If you like cats, I just posted a video about my cat shadow, and you could check that out RIP Maximus

[@mint_cke]

My cat had Cancer and my parents had her put down.

[@alscaldes9200]

haha

[@cheeseburger5716]

Alscaldes wtf

[@mint_cke]

@@alscaldes9200 What's so funny?

[@nobody_important3214]

“Never apologize for being sensitive or emotional. Let that be a sign that you’ve got a big heart and aren’t afraid to show it. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength.” -Brigitte Nicole

[@queenaj1133]

This is going to be my Discord status for a good while. Thank you for sharing this quote with us.

[@matthewboire6843]

Great quote

[@maddybeth2084]

it broke my heart when at 49:42 mark apologized for crying and called himself a disgusting slob. Like no you're fine, it's okay to cry. It made me so sad when he called himself a name

[@xonitecyst9211]

M Dumpling in other words crying is healthy

[@siberiancat2180]

M Dumpling agreed

[@plutomoon8628]

M Dumpling I

[@otheraccount3377]

M Dumpling same

[@solarboydjango5219]

100%

[@ethanm0591]

My 4 year-old brother passed away from cancer in May last year. This game, everything about it, reflected what me and my family felt, and Joel’s innocence reminds me how Jude was; despite all of his setbacks, he carried on, he kept playing, and laughing, and talking to me as if nothing was wrong. And I would just cry. Happy tears, normally, but I would cry nonetheless. The cards gave me a comfort, in a way. Knowing that everything that me and my family went through, we were not alone. The picnic, and the bubbles, and the dog, reminded me so much of brother, enjoying the simplest of things on life, but not taking them for granted. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost anyone in anyway to cancer, and I hope you can stay with people, and get through everything that has happened together.

[@xrentabrainx]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry.

[@outlawbeep5917]

You just hit home brother...fuck I've never cried this much.

[@karifernandez5401]

Hugs Brother. Your Younger Brother is now in a much more better place. Stay Strong.

[@papadevito7700]

Words can never help the pain you’ve gone through but I’m truly sorry for your loss, your brother will always be looking after you and your family as the angel he is

[@lizinacan151]

I'm so, so sorry. I'm sending you and your family lots of love and good wishes.

[@LeastLikelyGents]

My son is 4 years old. His name is JJ. Earlier this year we found out that he had stage 4 kidney cancer. We're have been in treatment since that day. Chemotherapy, surgery, radiation...we are in the middle of this long journey. I'm actually sitting in the hospital room with JJ now...it's my night on duty. He's sleeping, but like usual, I find myself unable. I felt the story of this game like I've never felt anything before. I cried until I was dried up. All the emotion was conveyed so perfectly. For people that can't imagine what it's like, I have to tell you this game hit the feelings with utter accuracy. Cancer is a monster, and I find it hard to imagine pain worse than what I'm feeling. But that's just the thing, and that's what's so strange about how we deal with these things. I don't walk with the burden of his disease all the time. But it is always there. In the back of my mind, a quiet monster. I heavily empathized with the dad in this story, it's uncanny how similar our situations are with family Dynamics. The part where he willingly sank into despair because he said "someone has to feel this," as if by embracing your own pain, you stand in solidarity with your child's suffering. That was a powerful and deeply honest truth. I felt it. Anyway I didn't mean to ramble. But thank you, Markiplier, for showing respect to this story. I was glad you came along for the ride, and shared some of this pain with the family, and with everyone else who has faced the dragon. UPDATE : hello everyone, I had honestly forgotten that I had posted this until just today on a whim I remembered. I went back to check my comment just to sort of revisit my mindset and see what growth has taken place. I did not expect so much attention and so many heartfelt responses! I am overjoyed to announce that JJ is totally fine! After several surgeries, radiation therapy, a feeding tube, and 24 weeks of chemo treatment, he was declared NED ( no evidence of disease) in November 2021. He rang the bell at the clinic so hard that he broke it!!! 😂 Now he has a full head of hair and he's so full of life and love. I can barely keep up with him! He's in kindergarten now and loves all things Nintendo. 😌 We are due for follow up scans in a few days. I'm hopeful that good news is on the way for us. Again, thanks to each and every person who wished us well. It was the support of others that got us through. My boy is more of a fighter than I could have imagined. You all have hearts of gold. And to anyone suffering the same way we were back then, there is hope and there is healing. May the buds of your brightest joy flower upon the scars of your pain, such to obscure it.

[@ChaaDubaItsIidan]

I sincerely hope that you and your family are able to endure. I hope your son gets better. Take care of yourself and each other.

[@Emma.V.Rose.]

Im so so sorry for what you're having to deal with. JJ Is so so strong, and i sincerely hope that your son makes it, especially during these times. Please keep me updated on your babies health. You and your son are so so strong, and you've got this.

[@davidpatterson3906]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. Please remember to take care of yourself.

[@paulreel3844]

Watch out for yourself, don't forget that. Good luck and best of wishes

[@bungobungis8314]

I wish JJ the best and I hope you are doing well.

[@Juella.K]

my grandpa died to cancer last year (2021) i can’t hold in my tears for this video- so please mark, you cry don’t be sorry for showing emotion. To anyone to lost someone or someone who you know is still fighting with the dragon. I hope all goes well

[@dannieon]

I hope love, support and healing finds you or has found you

[@thecreator40]

i love you not in a weard way but i hope your ok everybody loves you btw your granpa is playing basketball with kobe

[@NihilVacant]

My grandma died of cancer recently, I didn't have a chance to say goodbye to her. This game brought back memories :( Hope you are well too.

[@nattyL0609]

1:32:47 that was the song my mom always sang to me when I was little. She died from cancer 3 years ago and that song hit me hard

[@helmivicktoria8364]

Im so sorry for your loss. Please stay strong for her and yourself. May she Rest In Peace ❤️

[@A_Pigeon181]

I am really sorry for you. It must be hard to lose a mother. I bet she was a good mother to you.💖

[@alex_2jz639]

@a bro

[@blueprime6429]

"Joel has to live,or I will not love this baby" That hit me hard

[@tazymomo9394]

I get why she feels that way but at the same time I would never find even the concept of not loving ones child for something out of their control or even can it's not ever okay

[@ohhiimmadison7505]

"No one ever realizes how short the time is." I hold that sentence close to my heart.

[@MorgothBauglire]

Oh Hi I'm Madison 😭 so right i mean you don't now what you have until you lose something and we'll they lost Joel and I lost a family member as well not to cancer but still I didn't even know that family member because I was too young to know and I wish I knew that one family member 😭😭😭

[@punkrockmads]

My name is Madison too. And God bless you.

[@maddi66515]

My name is Madison too, my dad died from an aggressive brain tumour when I was just a baby.... it was only 8 months from when he was first diagnosed to when he died... and he had 2 major brain surgeries along with chemo and radiation throughout that period of time... it was too short.

[@tracymason1897]

@@maddi66515 🤣

[@maddi66515]

Tracy Mason ??

[@Phlorochyll]

They made a documentary about Joel. He passed away in March 2014 of AT/RT, or Atypical Teratoid/Rhaboid Tumor. Rest in peace, buddy. I'm so, so sorry.

[@aleksandrmustacchia4711]

My sister had been fighting cancer for 3 years until she caught a very aggressive fungal infection. She passed away on May 11th of this year. 21 years old is way too young, fuck cancer. May she forever rest in peace.

[@sirscion6355]

I’m sorry for your loss

[@dearfauxpas]

I wish you well and hope you and your family are finding comfort in each other and anything that makes you happy.

[@Swisherdoo]

Could I give you some advice. You need to live live to the fullest and like what mark has gone through and your sister has been winning the battles but cancer won the war and your sister must be a really sweet person and I am sorry for your loss and the only thing is is that I have not lost anybody yet that I treasure. I only lost my grandpa but I never knew him so it did nothing to me but it was very heartbreaking for my mom and my dog is 11 and I am imagining of when she dies and me at her grave just crying than sitting and my grandmother used to smoke and when I lose her I will cry for days and she meant a lot to me and I am sorry for your loss and thank you for reading this and I hope you and your family members live a full and happy life

[@CaLypSO4456]

I’m so sorry

[@skf9-gse]

There is nothing anyone can say to make up for this, but may she rest in peace, everything is going to be ok.

[@lalalogs8988]

My friend died from breast cancer today. She was a major part of my life and she helped raise me. To Lorry Russel, thank you for the memories. You were a fighter for over 4 years. It was on and off for you and I couldn't imagine your pain. You will be missed by many Lorry. I love you and miss you. 💘 💔

[@DavidRodriguez-gl5pn]

She was lucky to be loved by you. Rest in Paradise

[@somerandomgay8550]

She is so proud of you

[@lizinacan151]

I'm so sorry. May her soul rest peacefully.

[@ph1lharm0nic]

I experienced a family member go through cancer. She was a month old. My only blood related sister. She got super sick, and the doctors said sue had brain cancer. She died a week later. Never even lived a full year. Not even two months. I cut myself off from everyone. My first grade teacher couldn't get me to tell her what's wrong. To this day, I still cry every time I hear the name "Everly."

[@flowy2474]

Charliecreeps you may get over it soon but a siblings bond is greater than any ordinary bond... even in a month... me and my family have had a similar loss... Me and my twin sister didn’t even know them for a few weeks before they died of a brain tumor. I am sorry if this made you cry I just wanted to tell you that your not alone...♥️

[@jacksonjohn5635]

Wow that was a beautiful name..... I also lost a sibling but not to cancer. My mother was pregnant but she started to feel very Ill. One week later and she got told the child had died... I never met it. But I still felt like I'd lost my best friend... I guess it'll hurt but we'll always pull through!

[@mr.sregdor8349]

"Wish you could see me now mom" hit me so hard. Im touched

[@lizziedoesthings1450]

My English teacher died when I was in 7th grade from cancer It was the day before our English final, which was so horrible to have to focus on There was a kid in our class who was the class clown...that was the only day I saw him cry There was a scholarship award put in place It was something she had wanted, a middle school award for someone with good character, with a readiness to serve and learn I got it. I hate how hard it is to believe I live up to it in anyone's eyes ...she hugged me when I met her. There was always joy in her eyes. She was so sweet When she had started the treatment, we had a wacky hair day at school I want to be like her, I almost feel it's a responsibility now. I couldn't finish watching the video.

[@beardalaxy]

I can relate to that. My 6th grade teacher had cancer the entire time he taught us. He was and will forever be my favorite teacher.

[@lizziedoesthings1450]

it seems the ones who are constantly pouring out themselves are the ones who are missed most. I hope you're doing well today!

[@davecrupel2817]

I had to stop it too. But this video was like an unfinished book to me. Or an unfinished chapter of sorts. I HAD to finish it. And i managed to do it. Believe me. You want to as well. This video ends on such a beautiful, peacefull, conclusive note.

[@emmersonrector6885]

My aunt Linda had cancer. I remember her smiling even though she was so obviously in pain. That was the first time. I didn't get to say goodbye the second. I managed to finish this video.

[@-desertpackrat]

I had a sweet teacher for honors English my senior year of high school, Mr. Beason. He was so nice and funny, everyone loved him. I didn't do well in the class, skimmed the books we were supposed to read, and he still graded me generously because he didn't want to fail me for being stressed and unable to read an entire book in two weeks when I'm about to graduate. Then a few days before the last day of school, he told us he had a brain tumor, and he waited to tell us because he didn't want people distracted all year thinking about it. That really hurt, I never saw him again after the last day of school when I gave him a photo my mom had taken and framed with a little Bible verse (he liked to use literary examples from the Bible but he always did it perfectly scholarly, because he was religious but understood how important it was to not bring the religius stuff into class, and only used it for the literature examples) and he cried when I gave it to him, and I cried. I'm crying again now. That was 12 and a half years ago, Idk if he's still alive or what, I only knew him for one school year, he wasn't family, but it hurts to know someone that good has to die in such a painful way.

[@heyyitshayleyy]

if your dad could see all that you have accomplished so far, he would be the proudest dad in the world. He loves you and we love you. I sobbed the whole video

[@AmericanHorrorStory.]

LukeDaSmexyBeast - Really dude? Uncalled for.

[@arisaysno7901]

heyyitshayleyy me too,I'm still crying.:'(

[@spqcebuns3430]

Same... ;-;

[@wistfulgirl]

I'm crying at your comment. I can't even imagine how proud his dad would be if he was still here.

[@robinsandlerz6517]

heyyitshayleyy :)

[@unusannusfan1386]

When I was in 5th grade, there was a little kindergarten girl who had leukemia (blood cancer). The entire school supported her for the entire year, and even though not a lot of us new her personally, we felt like we did. There were a few days where everyone would wear orange to school (the leukemia awareness colour), and we even planted a tree at the front of the school with purple leaves because purple was her favorite colour. She passed away before the end of the year, and the entire school went outside and stood around the tree and shared a moment of silence. I wish I could remember the little girl's name, but I do remember how what happened to her impacted me, and how I wish I could have done more to help her, and I at least wish I could have met her before she passed.

[@lillytheloser6842]

UnusAnnusFan138 my best friend was six when you died of DIPG cancer which is brain cancer, I’ll always remember her

[@Los_HermanitosCruz]

That's so sweet

[@basicallybraindead897]

A girl in my 2nd grade class had breast cancer. Im pretty sure it was breast cancer anyway...

[@Chris-fp9cq]

I lost my cat to cancer a few years back. I know it's not the same as losing a family member. But he was my light in the dark. I was sexually assaulted and tormented by bullies every day at school and coming home to a cat who loved me so much that he wouldn't leave me alone ever, really helped me get through it. So when he died, I was left without my best friend and I had to grieve while dealing with these awful things. I really hit a low point after that.

[@evaniceface]

I’m so sorry. I cannot even begin to imagine how damn painful that must have been.

[@izzyxblades]

That means your cat is your family. What you shared sounds much more painful than losing a human family member who isn't there for you. Your cat was there for you, and you lost your best friend. I don't know how it could possibly be worse.

[@Varshaminnie]

I CAN FEEL YOUR PAIN BECAUSE WE ALSO LOST A CAT TO CANCER. sorry for that to be in caps. try adopting a new cat...

[@yeahok8259]

(Nice pfp!) I lost both of my cats last year, one of them to cancer which seemed to have grown very rapidly and suddenly. What’s crazy is that he showed almost no signs of slowing down until his last few weeks- and we think it’s because he was holding out for his brother. He waited, he was there for him, and then after his brother passed, he finally started to let go.

[@IwasabletoDisappearafterlitsen]

Our Grief is same all the way to the end of World.....neither less, nor more

[@kek6403]

33:09, "Hey, it's you again! *I love you! You're my friend."* I remember how had I cried at this part while at the end of the game as he gave pancakes to his dog.

[@weaponized_toaster]

I did too

[@knottyorchid1212]

“If heaven exists, to know that there’s laughs, that would be a great thing.” -Robin Williams

[@leeroy9713]

if only we could know for sure 😞

[@BamesNondHavingStronk]

Robin Williams' quotes about happiness always get me right in the heart, he was such a jovial guy fighting problems on his own until he couldn't anymore

[@foreverblooming-3-]

Ninjaiceboy Frost why not

[@iclynnx]

@@ztrain2379 So you're one of those fools who believe suicide equals going to hell? You f*cking... Ugh. It's so unfair and cruel to think like that. That rule was only created because religious people would get themselves killed to join heaven and Jesus sooner. They made it a crime and weaved a lie that people who commit suicide don't go to heaven. It's all mind games! Religion is an outdated belief from when we didn't have other ways to explain things. Choosing to believe that is way better than thinking some god actually wants to care about us, but lets us suffer like it's all some silly game to him. I don't care if I'm speaking truth or not. God can kill me if he wants. I'm not following a damn psycho.

[@iclynnx]

I hope there is no heaven, and no hell. I hope we all just.. Stop existing. Our only remains being the body. I've gone through one hell of a life. There's no need to go through another hell, nor watch as others do. Neither do I want to be a spirit and remember my life. I want it to end. I would be okay with being reborn as another human or even an animal, however. It would be another chance.

[@dr.flacko203]

That Dragon. Cancer. The Dragon my sister couldn't defeat. She was six.

[@crazyclubgaming]

I'm sorry to hear that, I bet she was a wonderful person

[@jazellllllll7687]

I'm so soryy...

[@mayormayo1853]

I’m so sorry. I hope you and your family are doing well

[@j.d.underwood6519]

Man... praying for you and her both

[@inky_boy8238]

im sorry for your loss, Even if shes not with u in this world she'll be with u in the next.❤

[@sunfried9629]

i watched a playthrough of this game when i was younger, and now i’m rewatching it years later because i lost a friend to the dragon. much love to others in the comment section who are sharing their stories, please take care of yourselves.

[@marygipson1936]

mark your father was a great man and he passed it down to you. you are a great person we all love and care about you

[@Haloguy7]

Mary Gipson awww.

[@dorianavelar7796]

And you know that how?

[@Jay-ev5so]

Its so weird, this guy that i'm watching. I've never met him, never talked to him. He doesn't even know who I am but I care about him so much, not in a weird way but like just Im so grateful Mark exists. I can't explain how it feels, to feel like you know someone who youve never interacted with. Hes a person and you learn more about him everyday you. When he crys I cry its just odd to me. When people tell him he's changed their lives I believe that, all youtube is, is watching someone do something but it changes lives. I dont know im just in awe of how much I feel watching videos like these.

[@gamistry2947]

Yeah, I too sometimes think of the same thing. How have I become so emotionally attached to a complete stranger? So much that I cry when he cries and I laugh when he laughs and I get worried when something happens to him. He has become something of an idol to me.

[@mylesluther8780]

@@gamistry2947 he has become an idol to all of us.

[@hehe6722]

I really wish Mark would play The First Tree. I don't remember exactly, but it's a story told from a man to his wife/girlfriend, who's father died when he was young. But he told it from a perspective of his dream, where a fox, controlled by you, progressively loses her cubs. It's a beautiful story and it really got me emotionally while playing it. I know Mark most likely won't see this, but I'm commenting just in case he does.

[@aubreyh1930]

I wish he would too

[@holdontillmay.]

I just thought about the first tree a few days ago, I played it and it was so visually beautiful, but the story broke me. I really hope he plays it. If enough people comment about it im sure he will

[@seraphiiims]

my mom lost to her dragon after 7 years in 2019. it was aml, a typically terminal cancer. she went to remission so many times and i had hope each time. i hope she's resting easy and without pain.

[@evaniceface]

I’m so sorry.

[@candalie3176]

I came across this video and I can’t believe that I haven’t saw this before. I cried almost through the whole video. But... 1:56:25 Is what hit me really hard.

[@ujungie]

Jose Nandi No man that’s actually really light-hearted and joyous. We shouldn’t always feel sad about death. Sometimes we need to make a situation more positive and you did it right :))

[@zee2147]

ow...

[@boulevardbat2989]

right when that photo came up i started sobbing. i cant imagine losing someone who you were close to, and the fact that mark is looking back at memories with love is inspiring?? i love it

[@crazieevee101]

I have seen the video before, but not till the very end. Thanks

[@krisdeltarun]

parker Dude same, I started to silently cry, god that hit hard

[@SkrunkleGunk]

When Joel started crying it broke me . Its real . That's really him and he's in pain and theres Nothing you can do...

[@lizbrunswick8617]

I did to it broke my heart I lost my pa to cancer so I know the feeling

[@eliasrodriguez1419]

My grandpa had testicle cancer but he is okay ()

[@sadsparkii]

The crying and screaming made me cry

[@titusgrumbles]

It’s so sad. Those are his real voice recordings. I don’t understand it. But I can think of how it must feel. Cancer is a an unfair beast that does not play by the rules it cheats steals and destroys. It ruins beats and burns. Cancer needs to be stopped.

[@Inactive20000]

@@titusgrumbles cancer is an asshole i couldnt even finish the video because it was so heartbreaking my eyes started to water

[@animehearthd5469]

I burst out crying when I saw the pictures of his dad at the end, he was such a beautiful and good man, Mark, he would be so proud of you, I'm sure of it.

[@cyancia9567]

Me too ;-;

[@kitkatgaming2048]

Same 😿😢

[@laurenare2184]

Me too😋😭

[@oladavis3971]

+KitKatGaming204 true I cried my head off.

[@Jarfiller]

Um...I don't think you know him personally so I don't see why you should be balling your eyes out.

[@josephpascale627]

Probably the saddest game of all time, the hydration scene and the picnic at the edge of the world really makes it hard to not cry.

[@wagglynebula9099]

I love the portrayal of his heaven witch is exactly what a child's innocent mind would want.He just wants to eat pancakes with his dog and blow bubbles

[@rye_ay_ay]

I commented on this 4 years ago, before my dad died of cancer. And now I'm back again after he passed away. There are no words. I hope we find a cure some day.

[@garcell811]

Ikr, I hate cancer, we need to find a cure.

[@teribaker4274]

I hope

[@siryizzur]

I’m truly sorry for your loss and I hope you’re doing okay.

[@samanthahowell632]

I am so sorry

[@npnp4052]

I am sorry for your loss

[@eijirokirishima9539]

I lost my son at 7 years old last week to lung cancer. And to anyone of a simular situation. We have to live on for them. It's so hard but we've got to.

[@Chiwasshere]

I'm sorry for your loss ❤

[@skinnytingz5222]

I'm so sorry

[@fairclothretrievers2614]

It's so hard. I lost my son in August 2005, some days I lay in bed crying. Some days I go out. It's the hardest goodbye

[@tasha7642]

im so sorry

[@alisonmaddox4271]

I'm so sorry 😭😭

[@YutyrannusaurusRex]

Your father would have been so proud of you Mark, so proud. You have the kindest, most gentle soul I've ever seen. I hope I speak for us all when I say that you've touched so many people with that kindness and you've helped so many situations get better, without even realizing it. You're so strong, not because you have the strength to keep yourself up or be an exemplar to those around you, but because you hold others up around you. You carry us all with you and we share your pain as our hearts all connect through you. You're no short of a miracle yourself, Mark. And I don't have the correct words to express how thankful I am for you. So all I can say is thank you.

[@idanotfunnyexe232]

Abel Lavion you might not speak for All of us, but atleast for me and yourself, and many others

[@applegrass3712]

I cannot agree with you people more than I am right now(not to be mean). Mark is a very nice person, and I cant't imagine what it would feel like to have any one in my family die of cancer.

[@surpriseyall8297]

Abel Lavion I am literally always thinking of that

[@buggbitez]

Abel Lavion that is a beautiful comment.

[@madelynpoulos8653]

Abel Lavion yes that is right

[@Isabella-lv9vs]

I don’t know why but this game is literally one of my core memories and I come back to rewatch it every once in a while.. makes me cry everytime

[@mysic7793]

The part when he was crying I couldn't handle it. I felt the pain of not being able to help. Oh god, this is so bad for my anxiety. I have so much respect for those who dealt with this now.

[@MissChiefs420]

Mysic I'm watching it now and I can't stop crying

[@guardianofthetoasters2323]

Same

[@rebeccakeane2043]

Your not the only one.. hit home for me xxx

[@DarthVella]

Agreed. It's completely gut-wrenching. The pain, the sheer exhaustion, not only in the screams of the child but also in the man's voice, his actions...

[@minizombie5538]

I know 😭

[@KJ.Harris]

"Who am I to him? Dah-Dah" That made me tear up. I have watched this about twice. Once a couple years ago and once maybe 3 months ago and I know what happens and it makes me sad.

[@PrincessTwilightdash]

Eliza Harris ;( it sad when your parents gets cancer but it’s even worse when your child has cancer because they haven’t lived their life. A parents in my opinion at least knows that when they die that you will be ok once they are gone

[@tjjajaja]

41:53 “Nadie en el mundo me importa más que mi hijo” Translation: “No one in this world matters more important to me than my son”

[@bleak9157]

Thanks

[@ianmartinezavila4793]

Aun soy muy Joven pero no puedo ni empezar a imaginar el amor que un padre tiene a su hijo, eso es...increiblemente infinito..

[@cycy8699]

ok but joan

[@cigarette_ahegao]

Thanks, TJ.

[@lizbi_makesart6695]

@@ianmartinezavila4793 x2

[@casswilliams4952]

I watched it when it came out. Since then my little brother got cancer- he’s in recovery now, but I’m not sure if I can watch this again 🥲

[@Luckydog-cc9jn]

I’m sorry to hear that :( I hope your brother gets better. If not, then may he cross the rainbow bridge in peace. Wishing you and your family the best and sending my thoughts to you ❤️

[@elix-hi2742]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Your brother is strong for staying determined to live. I truly hope and pray that he beats it and everything goes well.

[@eriklibradonavarro5669]

I'm sorry Hopefully he will recover soon and he will be stronger than cancer wishes your brother best luck 🙏 ❤

[@NoNameyt2004]

Hey there Cass!! Best wishes to your bother and your family . I know you would feel a little disheartened reading this comment and remembering about this video but i am just curious to know about your brother's health after this two years.

[@gonnabeastar1565]

Ive watched this three times on three different channels. One channel that had no connection to any form of disease or loss from the subject, one channel that understood what was going on on a personal level , and marks. Everyone of them Cried, felt emotional, and smiled at the little boy. This really does show us all how much humanity is left in the world

[@vladt.d.1222]

This deserves more likes.

[@retrievergaming9715]

Which channels did you watch?

[@fatenkhalil5091]

retrievergaming Probably Jacksepticeye is The One That Knew What it Felt Like On a Personal Level. As For The Other One It's Maybe Pewdiepie? Dunno

[@imgone6962]

Vlad T. D. no it doesn't just because its a different person doesn't mean anything

[@spaceitow7512]

rewatching in 2020 because my mom couldnt beat the dragon the third time

[@magic8ball331]

That sucks. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@Snek_Go_Boop]

Im so fucking sorry

[@MsTaylor113]

You’re comment punched me right in the gut. I’m so sorry, stranger on the internet. Shedding a tear and hoping for you and your family.

[@justaninsidejoke3582]

I am so, so sorry...she sounds like she was a fighter. 😔

[@nobody-zc6qd]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[@hehenon]

Those pictures at the end made me cry so much

[@zombiman132]

It was beautiful right? :,)

[@hehenon]

+ṮḧḕṖṙḭẒḕḲḕḕṖḕṙ yeah :,)

[@michelebrake232]

;-; ;-; ;-;...........

[@lt.hawkekitsorogi3327]

It takes a lot to make me even tearful. But the topic of this video always makes me break down into tears. Seeing those pictures didn't make me cry. It made me smile, knowing that Marks dad is now in a better place, and knowing that as much as Mark is affected dramatically by the fact his dad isn't around anymore, he is fighting strong.

[@drknflx]

me too.

[@Jayne1971]

Fighting my own dragon right now. I know I'm four years late, but thank you Mark.

[@malachiwoods1]

Hope your doing well during these times

[@Jayne1971]

@@malachiwoods1 Thank you. ❤️ I'm in remission at the moment, FX I've beaten it.

[@deadchannel874]

@@Jayne1971 I hope your doing alright 💙

[@Jayne1971]

@@deadchannel874 Thank you. It was probably unintentional, but you chose the correct coloured heart for the type of cancer I had. Appreciate your comment. 💙

[@deadchannel874]

@@Jayne1971 blues my fav color thats why and no worries 💙💙

[@1nirvana]

my mom recently got breast cancer surgery like one, two, three months ago. she just started radiation maybe four days ago. we can’t drink from any of her cups, we can’t use her bathroom, she can’t kiss our dog, nothing for another seven weeks. but she can lift her arm past her head now. i’m proud of her. edit: my mom just started work today! on thanksgiving! that’s what i’m thankful for today.

[@guacbird]

aww, bless your mom’s soul though i obviously do not know your mom personally, i know that she is a fighter

[@justarandomfan2421]

Im glad she survived breast cancer ❤

[@s_solus3089]

My mom actually has breast cancer herself. As far as I’m concerned, she’s good. She’s been getting treatment and has been able to function well and do work (from home, obviously). My mom’s a very strong person and I’m glad she’s pulling through it well. I wish the best to people with cancer, but I mean hey, at least the world doesn’t (hopefully) have one of those vaccines that end up actually being deadly and world-threatening like in that other game.

[@1nirvana]

@@s_solus3089 hey, i’m so happy to hear your moms doing good! i really hope her treatment goes perfectly so she can feel better:) i wish her peace and healing

[@1nirvana]

@@justarandomfan2421 thank you so much

[@JERBYTUBE]

I've never lost any family member but there was a guy in my year at school when I was 13 called Shawn. I never really spoke to him but he made everyone smile (even me who didn't smile much back then). He was a literal ball of sunshine and got along with everyone. He died in 2015 from heart failure. He had a transplant when he was born but his heart failed again. He died in his sleep. Literally EVERYONE in my year was in floods of tears for weeks (including our teachers). We did a special funeral mass for him in school in 2016 and made a special memorial bench for him. I still freaking cry over him even though I only spoke to him once. I hate to think of how I'll be if one of my family members dies.

[@AlissonSilva-ox4uz]

Be strong, that's all i have to say, that's all you can do when someone dies, be strong and help the other family members, maybe, accept death, will help you.

[@RtsShrtFrRtthw]

Poor shawn

[@Tuke932]

Remember there is a reason for everything no matter how how bad things seem its not any ones fault it was just his time to go. I'm sure he loved making people smile. Which is the best gift of all.

[@yeetmyster880]

@@tracymason1897 what the fuck is wrong with you?

[@holly452]

Tracy Mason whether troll or not, you’re still laugh at a dead kid mate...

[@Hamuel]

The way Mark said "F-four." around the 38 minute mark really hit me

[@spitrcraft9779]

I know

[@spitrcraft9779]

It hit me as well

[@addy989]

Fr. Who's cutting onions in here :')

[@ilikenougat8892]

That almost made me cry

[@pringlebingle]

@@rtheawesomegm the kid died at four years old

[@garbledgarbage8302]

God I hate cancer. Pure evil. My mother had it twice (breast cancer and cervical cancer) she beat it both times. My dad had a close call with cancer recently, we thought he had it but thankfully he’s alright now. Still, the thought of my parents passing is horrifying. I’m so sorry to any of you who have had a parent of loved one pass because of cancer. Stay strong my friends, we will find a cure.

[@haneefibrahim4753]

Dang, both of your parents are absolute warriors against that dragon, cancer!

[@inky_boy8238]

"Maybe if I hold uim tight enough, nothing will take him away right?.." That hit so hard...and I just started balling idk why

[@jacksonpatrick8175]

It hurts my heart to hear Joel’s cries and mark tearing up

[@jacksonpatrick8175]

Nobody should deserve to go through such thing

[@inky_boy8238]

@@jacksonpatrick8175 exactly 🥺😭

[@Nik-bx9kd]

1:23:10 About the colors, green is supposed to make people happier. I was talking to this one guy the other day and he said scientists did recent studies and putting people out doors in nature reduced depression. They did another test by giving everyone green lenses in glasses and it did tbe same effect. Green is a happy color.

[@rocketzombiekiller]

“Being human is hard” That hit me hard man.

[@xvoidxhunter2129]

Idk if anyone pointed it out or not but during the race section the "Timer" starts in 2010 and runs of time in days and months rather than minutes and seconds. As if time fly's by till suddenly the day crashes into you like a car accident.

[@ilumini5550]

To all that lost their loved ones to cancer.. You are making them proud. Just keep moving.

[@angeloffish]

Thank you. I was already crying again watching this video. And seeing the pictures of the boy made it worse 😭. Then was scrolling down and read your comment, then I went the other way.

[@ilumini5550]

@@angeloffish Aww..i'm so glad to know that!! But always remember: Our ancestors and everyone we love are always with us. 💕

[@ilumini5550]

@Nicholas Benard I'm so sorry for your loss.. He still a good boy, i believe that, dearie. 💕

[@angeloffish]

It was my sister for me.

[@janeesco4711]

I cried the hardest when Joel was crying, I can't stand the noise, it breaks my heart

[@kitsymitsykat6548]

Yeah, I had to skip that part because it’s such a horrible sound to listen to

[@bianca6176]

I couldn't stop crying in that part, it was so heartbreaking and the dad oh my god

[@IHDHI]

I love how, even after all this time, people return to this video. Joel will never be forgotten.

[@proud_member_of_thefairy_t8808]

yup all the time, I've rewatched it a bunch, it's a beautiful and tragic story

[@Mrpoopy-bq8pk]

[@awesomenice742]

He will always be in our hearts.

[@sipmcihm8107]

The first time I watched this was abt two years ago. I was never close with anyone that has/had cancer. Now, 2 years later, my father and sister both have cancer at the same time. Never thought I'd be here. My dad is beating his dragon, but my sisters is terminal. Shes only 24. Videos like this are what make me feel close to people. Many of the people in these comments have suffered loss, especially Mark himself. Even online with complete strangers, human connection is everywhere and I admire that.

[@trinhthuhuong394]

My very best wishes to your family members and you yourself as well

[@estarriaofficial6463]

I hope your sister is beating her dragon soon

[@evaniceface]

I’m so sorry. I cannot fully understand the weight of what you are going through.

[@Fennec_3D]

Best wishes man, I’m so sorry

[@robindabank5472]

I can’t imagine having to see your tiny, little, child who doesn’t know what’s going on but all the know is that they are in pain and there crying and all you want to do is take away there pain. Like you just want to sit there with them in your lap and cry and take the pain for yourself.

[@plum.phobia]

it is really hard to listen to. knowing that your child is in pain and can’t express it, all they can do is cry. you just want to take away that pain, want your child to stop crying and be happy. my heart hurts for anyone who’s lost a child, or any person they knew to cancer.

[@lizbrunswick8617]

@@plum.phobia I cried when I heard the kid crying in pain

[@lizbrunswick8617]

@@plum.phobia my pa died of cancer I know the pain

[@aloenix]

@@lizbrunswick8617 I’m so sorry for your loss you are a very strong person 💛

[@ih2408]

dont be sorry mark for your crying your experiences r traumatic your still strong even though if you breakdown in the middle of this lets play i dont think your any less of a strong person be yourself

[@ih2408]

u probaly wont see this comment anyways mark

[@jacobdesharnais3324]

Mama Fact Can you read?

[@Robert..j]

The Noveris this is why mark is so amazing because he can make you feel good no matter what thats why we all love him and thats why we are all here 💧

[@trippatgu_6288]

The Noveris real men cry, it means he's not afraid of being judged for crying

[@Keitillia]

At 36:30 I started sobbing my eyes out. Two months ago, my mom died of cancer. The song that the woman in the game was humming was the song that was played at my mom's funeral.

[@obnoxioussoul2376]

Kat Dopke I'm so so sorry you were put through that, I wish you didn't have too go through that ❤️

[@m00n.ch1ld.19]

Kat Dopke i'm so sorry for your loss=(

[@olivetree2187]

Kat Dopke I know from experience that this doesn't help or ease the pain in the slightest, but I am so, so sorry for your loss.

[@benster9118]

Kat Dopke so sarry

[@yourcerealbowl2166]

Amazing Grace. The song, is called amazing Grace.

[@lt.vip3r911]

I come back to this video every few years, idk why, I don't know anyone with cancer, it's just something about this video and something about marks reaction to the game. I watch it in full every time, and I cry every time.

[@TylerDollarhide]

I feel so honored to have met the husband and wife who made this game when they came and spoke at my university a couple of years ago, having watched this when it came out. Apparently, they worked on this game while their son was still alive. So even they didn't know how the story would end.

[@aibha1525]

i completely broke down at the card that said, "wish you could see me now."

[@jimijenkins2548]

My mother died from cancer about a year ago, and that card just read my damn mind. I love my mother and pray she's doing well in Heaven.

[@rubiesandsapphires]

Me too. My mother passed away when I was very young and I have that thought all the time.

[@purplediamond5867]

Me too...my dad died from liver cancer when I was twelve. I’m 15 now and I’ve changed a lot from who I used to be. I wasnt a bad kid or anything but I’ve grown, and I really miss him. I wish he could see me now

[@MunExe]

When I was very very young, I had colon cancer. My mom knew something was wrong almost right away, and tried to tell countless doctors that I was, in fact, sick. Even if I didn't look it. I was too young to realize what was wrong until I peeked into my parents' bedroom late at night when I was supposed to be asleep because I wanted to ask for a snack. I'll never tell her, but I saw her crying, saying she didn't want to lose me. I started paying attention more at the doctor's office and eventually pieced together that I had something very wrong with me that could kill me. My mom fought and she fought and she kept a schedule of my bowel movements [I haven't researched it, but according to my mom who was an RN, little to no bowel movement can mean colon cancer is afoot.] and kept trying. One night, all of a sudden, she woke me up and told me to get dressed. I opted not to. Pajamas were comfy. My dad carried me to our car and we drove several hours to get to St. Jude's hospital, where my mom surprised them with me and refused to leave until she saw treatment and a result. Hell hath no fury like a mother on a mission in the name of her child's wellbeing, and they clearly knew that. I did have cancer. I was scared going into it. I still didn't fully understand and nobody really bothered to explain. I didn't get a visit from a super hero, or someone I really respected and admired, but the last person I saw before I was wheeled to surgery was my mom, crying her eyes out. It's been 15 years since that day, today. And every single year since this was uploaded, I come back to it, to remind myself that I slayed that dragon. I survived that dragon, cancer. And if I can survive that, I believe I can survive anything. I mourn those who have lost the battle, and celebrate with those who won, and always keep my own victory in the back of my mind. I know truthfully I didn't do a lot in terms of battling, it was really the doctors who did the hard part. But I also know it was the help of my mom, who refused to stop fighting for me to get to the battlefield. She cheered me on as I fought that dragon, and cheered on those who stood beside me. And the dragon was slain. I'm thankful I'm alive, even though it's tough, and it hurts more often than not. But my mom fought for me to live, so the least I can do is repay her by staying alive. It's not easy, and it probably never will be, but I hope some day it gets easier for people to battle cancer. You're all doing amazing.

[@kiannafr]

You both are strong, brave souls.

[@wolfidessdragondol]

You both are strong and brave and I'm so glad you managed to kill the Dragon and mother who support you along the way❤

[@angel_ovo55]

I honestly don't know what to say except you're so brave and so strong for slaying that big ball of trauma and pain. I wish you well and I wish you a bright future!

[@Jords250]

You grabbed the sword and killed it remarkably

[@CooL_Dino13]

Im glad you're still here☆

[@freddyfazbear4689]

'You don't know how much time you have.You really don't.And,you have to make the best of it while you can.' ~ Markiplier, 2016. I respect you,Mark. You make so many people smile each day, and you are so awesome. Just remember you have friends and fans that are always there for you.

[@chazzyepie8532]

Aww how nice of you

[@freddyfazbear4689]

okay, look, i didn't mean to offend anyone!Jeez people, calm down.I only had good intentions when I posted this comment!

[@invisiblemidgets2432]

+Wheatley Did you know that if you say that to someone and they do it and someone reports you that you will get charged with murder? Fun fact for you since you're too stupid to know that.

[@darkeststorm190]

This is such a nice post, its really nice that some people are polite and supportive on the internet, I wish there were more people out there like you. Also, just ignore the rude comments you get on this post, they just want attention.

[@chrisknezevich8092]

I Agree I Had A Baby Brother Die A The Age Of 2 To A Heart Attack And 2 Like What The Hell And It Has Made Me Worry About How Long I Have And I Everyone I Care About So This And Many Other Games Have Humbled Me

[@AmyMichelle777]

I remember watching this video and how Markiplier showed emotion for those who lost their lives to cancer which honestly was a sad touching moment my aunt’s sister passed away from colon cancer last year during the summer

[@meganmclellan6264]

He said, "i dont think anyone can beat this dragon, it's just about getting the highest score." and woah-

[@emily_ya_bueno3074]

So many recent comments. We will never forget little Joel, marks dad and everyone else who didn't beat the dragon. Stay strong everybody, stay strong for them

[@MXT2006]

❤

[@garcell811]

Will do friend

[@jayward887]

This comment choked me up the most...

[@angelak574]

i’m back at this video. sobbing every five minutes. your father is so proud of you mark, and so are all 27 million of us. we love you

[@MrWarthog]

28 million now

[@johnathan3179]

Now it's 29.3

[@sussyboiinc.1545]

30

[@sussyboiinc.1545]

close

[@bimodalchimp306chimp3]

29.6 million now...

[@rosesandkisses_]

My boyfriend had cancer when he was only 5 and his dad passed shortly before it so I can't imagine the pain and stress his poor mother had to go through when he was in the hospital for treatment. I really want to just hug her and tell her how proud I am of her for staying so strong

[@loneliestwhale1461]

my best friend he had cancer and he told me he grew out his hair because he's afraid of it short *it was long hair for a boy*he faced his fear and beat cancer like a champ and I'm so proud of him

[@crazykid8402]

loneliest whale had a baby cousin that had cancer didn't really care that much about it I know that sounds heartless but its not but she made it I through she is from Jamaica I know her name but cant tell you how to spell it so i cant bit she was in the paper with the title miracle baby so pretty glad she mafe it through but cant say it made any its just i dont like get attached that easily my uncle wad gunned down and its pretty saf cuase he pretty much raised me hes like my second dad but i never shed a tear

[@Mr.Pumpkky]

I wish my friend survived...

[@johnriordan9083]

CRAZY KID same. I know that a person is gone forever when they die, even when they're close to me. But for some reason I never cry and never have any large emotional reactions to death. It may sound as if I'm heartless or a socio/psycho-path, but I'm not by any means. It's just that I deal with loved ones dying a lot different than most people. I'm pretty sure it's the same with you too. :)

[@kinfijajaefrimahe9951]

You go, dude

[@darkdown7778]

My sister has cancer same age 12 as me she died and she always helps me I am lonely

[@GamingStarlight]

I promised myself I would never watch this again after I watched it when it was first uploaded. This video destroyed my heart and I cried hard. That being said. I lost my grandmother a year ago to Lung Cancer... I can't bring myself to play the game, so I'm here to watch it again. This is a beautiful story and beautiful game. So lovely.

[@pogdogfuzz]

Hey, it's kinda crazy that I could make the same exact comment. I lost my grandmother to lung cancer too and I feel what you went through/what you're going through. Anyways with that I hope you're doing well.

[@GamingStarlight]

@@pogdogfuzz Thank you and I'm sorry for your loss. I've been alright and lately keeping myself busy with painting. Right now the sad part is, I'm glad she isn't here to experience Covid19. I wouldn't want her to be in fear right now.

[@theonlypurpleflaming]

It still angers me that someone told these people that a head tilt was not associated with their child’s vomiting.

[@bethanykroemer559]

theonlypurpleflaming I’m confused about that

[@AxelFrei]

@@bethanykroemer559 Could be the weight of the tumor causing his head to tilt.

[@bethanykroemer559]

Akihiko Akiyama oh ok

[@tazymomo9394]

A long time ago when I was very sick but my doctor kept telling my mom it was nothing but after I while my mom took me to the hospital and it turned it was a very VERY severe sinus infection rhino something idk what it was called but it was so severe I had to spend the night in the hospital (I was a baby btw) to this day I struggle with constant sinus infections that I have to take medication for, a past with asthma and severe allergies that cause my sinus to get worse.

[@mp6963]

@@tazymomo9394 oh im sorry to hear that

[@fr31nd_54]

The fact that he was saying sorry for his tears, cmon mark we all know we’re going to cry once in this video.