Recently, I got a copyright strike for one of my old videos that was kinda popular. If it happens twice more this channel will be gone. If I get striked again, I'll probably delete all my videos so I can keep this channel. Apologies if that ends up being a thing that has to happen. I just enjoyed making lyric videos for fun when I was in highschool, and my understanding was that they could monetize the videos themselves and thus I'm giving them support while also having fun video editing. It was harmless. But there's nothing I can do because technically they are the right to take my stuff down. It's been a good run 💜
@kthzsn Жыл бұрын
☹️
@ellachallas Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry to hear that. Three months later and this is still on KZbin… fingers crossed 🤞.
@TruisticPine67 ай бұрын
@@ellachallas still here 11 months after this comment so we might be safe
@Peach-dh9pe3 жыл бұрын
For years I only knew the neighborhood for "sweater weather" and "daddy issues" but now that I've actually gave them a listen I've realised how underrated they are!!
@laurabecker28903 жыл бұрын
For real 😩🤧
@taliarblx3 жыл бұрын
samee
@Violet_official._01053 жыл бұрын
Fr tho fr
@vuilnisbak3 жыл бұрын
Fr
@JJ-nh5zj3 жыл бұрын
Sams
@billieeilish60546 жыл бұрын
“i hope i don’t murder me, hope i don’t burden you.” “swim with me i think i can see the beach just don’t look underneath us, cause i need you here with me...” that’s so heart-wrenching it actually made me cry
@proggaparomita2814 жыл бұрын
The main verse means: lets ignore the widening gap between us, lets just deal with it. Because i love you and i need you.
@edythedunn30354 жыл бұрын
THIS IS LITERALLY A SONG ABOUT TATE LANGDON LIKE TATE SINGING TO VIOLET
@aparajita_a3 жыл бұрын
@@edythedunn3035 YESSS THEYRE ENDGAME OMG
@oliviahumphreys97453 жыл бұрын
I couldn't stop crying that hit so hard
@roviblue2 жыл бұрын
this song like daddy issues are so close to my heart...
@gh0st-f4c35 жыл бұрын
" I'm sick and I'm tired too " hits me like a truck
@mandiekoss55285 жыл бұрын
Me every morning though
@samlesserofficial4 жыл бұрын
Me with my Ehlers Danlos syndrome
@__salem4 жыл бұрын
i can admiiiiit
@sockssssssssss4 жыл бұрын
Mood
@ctartworld4 жыл бұрын
I DREW JESSIE kzbin.info/www/bejne/n4nZmKmgobaabLs 🏝😁🎨
@icebear77876 жыл бұрын
this song makes me feel love and miss someone I've never even met.
@amdeliann5 жыл бұрын
Ice Bear i swear man it’s bothering me too, this song makes me think of him and i hate it so much
@omi_san15el5 жыл бұрын
Same
@aliciag8235 жыл бұрын
Same.
@delrey79685 жыл бұрын
Yes.
@ad_leonis5 жыл бұрын
Brooooo, fucking same 😭😭😭
@kneehelios55205 жыл бұрын
i found this song when i was passed out drunk at a friend’s house. i woke up when he started to say “i’m sick, and i’m tired to” and i literally felt on a different plane of existence
@RuyOtto4 жыл бұрын
This is so true, I was the friend.
@luisg.73434 жыл бұрын
Yup this happened, I was the house.
@mashaelal-ansari5744 жыл бұрын
Definitely, I was the drink.
@ctartworld4 жыл бұрын
I DREW JESSIE kzbin.info/www/bejne/n4nZmKmgobaabLs 🏝😁🎨
@jessicawilliams59634 жыл бұрын
@@ctartworld who's jesse
@summerghost65514 жыл бұрын
This feels so good in noise-cancelling headphones.
@sissibons98984 жыл бұрын
Damn, yes! I totally agree. It leads you in another world.
@LordAko044 жыл бұрын
I always listen to music with Noise-Cancelling headphones
@sissibons98984 жыл бұрын
@@LordAko04 same, it's the best
@miachrst4 жыл бұрын
my exact thoughts every time I hear this song oof
@Velmetta3 жыл бұрын
deadass
@andrapieptea70314 жыл бұрын
You know when you have a memory tied to a song and you can't listen to it for a while because it hurts... but then you start moving on and it doesn't trigger that memory anymore, and you can listen to the song again... well I've never been happier to be in this situation because I can listen to this amazing song again.
@stxnedvertigo75753 жыл бұрын
this.
@maplestar-75102 жыл бұрын
Same, It’s also because it could trigger me to cry bc of that memory….
@lizzzzzzzzzzz60952 жыл бұрын
yessss and the song you once considered sad is weirdly happy and uplifting because the bad situation is all in the past.
@minikiwi117 жыл бұрын
i should’ve found this sooner. this is my aesthetic
@ginawright75816 жыл бұрын
This song is so beautiful
@strawbubbz17785 жыл бұрын
Me rn i've listen to this ten times already and i just found it like an hour ago
@silentchill16644 жыл бұрын
When a song describe your feelings...
@azaka37204 жыл бұрын
the nbhd is my aesthetic
@lorenzasaffi39064 жыл бұрын
same
@chaotichomie3 жыл бұрын
this song feels like drowning in the sea in front of everyone's eyes but nobody noticing it
@lorrainestarke3 жыл бұрын
Wow These words hit just as hard as the Song itself
@jinhub21752 жыл бұрын
damn
@noha14202 жыл бұрын
that’s what i felt for the longest time, which is why this song sounds so nostalgic and amazing to me.
@xoxoxoxoxo77832 жыл бұрын
Right now sitting on the Couch with my ex of four years breaking up
@kirstyndeane54425 жыл бұрын
dude, I was just laying down, listening to this song on my bed with the lights off, wearing my deep bassed headphones, and I felt like I was floating. I got up, and was a little dizzy. It was a very interesting experienced and probably the most "in the zone" thing whatevers I've ever been in. Wow
@EmDoesArt4 жыл бұрын
S w e a t e r. W e a t h e r. Your welcome
@srijangarg82264 жыл бұрын
smoke weed, put your headphones on, lie down and then listen to it
@jcantthinkofanamej35904 жыл бұрын
@@srijangarg8226 you dont need weed, just good music
@kenyang83593 жыл бұрын
@@jcantthinkofanamej3590 weed just adds more to the experience lol
@sospoopy2 жыл бұрын
Shifting is fun yes
@guccitrazzle83604 жыл бұрын
June 27, 2020 Today I declare this song as the anthem of my life
@illumiiii4 жыл бұрын
@harvvy Proud*
@LL-tr5et4 жыл бұрын
hi this was my birthday, wow
@bitgbitg21473 жыл бұрын
I can't get this song out of my head, I literally, it's so good wtf
@guccitrazzle83603 жыл бұрын
@@bitgbitg2147 yes omg
@bitgbitg21473 жыл бұрын
@@guccitrazzle8360 I've had it on repeat, gonna look for a one hour version
@RiddhiKhan4 жыл бұрын
So strangely, I've never been able to appreciate neighborhood songs until my dad died recently. Now I can't get enough of it. I broke up with my girlfriend cause I couldn't handle a relationship while grieving and the lyrics in this song sums it up perfectly regarding how I'm feeling.
@jessicaa47283 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry
@reahpalmer50123 жыл бұрын
im so sorry you for your loss and that you must’ve had to go through alot. you are so strong. stay strong
@amylouise48113 жыл бұрын
i’m so sorry, i hope you’re okay
@laurenlynnn93683 жыл бұрын
wow i’m so sorry
@xblurryfacex2 жыл бұрын
i hope you are doing well. so sorry for your loss, keep going
@Sophia-pl5yy5 жыл бұрын
song gives me hella vibes. im so in love with the neighborhood.
@VictorMaliborschi3 жыл бұрын
2 years.. wow
@sourpatchkids44426 жыл бұрын
I feel it burning me, I feel it burning you. 🌹
@antonionieves14053 жыл бұрын
It hurts more when you can relate this to a single person and feel every word tugging on strings of emotions that you feel for them. I hope one day we can both get through this and be happy again, with or without each other, I’ll always love you.
@doniaguesmi19663 жыл бұрын
😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
@antonionieves14053 жыл бұрын
@@doniaguesmi1966 it’s a shitty world out here
@lovemtski6 жыл бұрын
“I hope i don’t murder me, I hope i don’t burden you” 💔
@isabellajenkins10617 жыл бұрын
amazing with headphones 😍
@alyssa30465 жыл бұрын
It really is
@user-bf7lb2sd9d5 жыл бұрын
yep
@VictorMaliborschi3 жыл бұрын
@@user-bf7lb2sd9d yep
@prisonmike66554 жыл бұрын
*I hope I don't murder me* . . ...this hits hard
@nektariak42124 жыл бұрын
hey friend, I hope you’re doing well🤍 I love you
@yusraaax3 жыл бұрын
It's been 7 months how is it going?💗
@prisonmike66553 жыл бұрын
@@yusraaax hey there!Thank you so much for your concern..truely melts my heart that people i don't even know,have never met, could care
@prisonmike66553 жыл бұрын
@@nektariak4212 Thank you so much for your concern..doing very well and i hope you're doing well too
@yusraaax3 жыл бұрын
@@prisonmike6655 I'm really glad to hear that, also keep it that way! And thank you I'm doing fine
@_mrpw_91675 жыл бұрын
Why am i crying?!?
@br0ccoli5 жыл бұрын
Imma give you a hug and a soft blanket **hugs**
@michaela59324 жыл бұрын
This song makes me cry too
@durtle39924 жыл бұрын
Ikr...
@ΑνατοληΧατζηγιαννη4 жыл бұрын
don't worry i cry too
@daydreamyeon1593 жыл бұрын
Still someone crying 1 year later
@kittynici36514 жыл бұрын
this reminds me of someone really special to me. she introduced me to the neighbourhood a few years ago.. she told me this was her favorite song and it became mine as well. funny how this song expresses what im feeling now.. she'll probably never see this but damn, i miss her. kinda felt like i needed to put this energy out there, i've been keeping these thoughts inside of me for so long
@DutchGameRecordingHD2 жыл бұрын
sounds familiar for me right now...
@thegreenferret5 жыл бұрын
Currently listening to this while watching the sunset at the beach 🌅🌞
@dekucuredmydepression52733 жыл бұрын
take me with you
@kirstyndeane54425 жыл бұрын
2:51
@coffeebean44555 жыл бұрын
Kirstyn Deane that’s my favourite part
@serenaamato83384 жыл бұрын
If I told you that I loved you Tell me, what would you say? If I told you that I hated you Would you go away? Now I need your help with everything that I do I don't want to lie, I've been relying on you Fallin' again, I need a pick-me-up I've been callin' you friend, I might need to give it up I'm sick and I'm tired too I can admit, I am not fireproof I feel it burning me I feel it burning you I hope I don't murder me I hope I don't burden you If I do, I do If I meet you in the middle maybe we could agree You make me feel little how you're looking at me And you can throw me shade, all it does is just cool me off First it just threw me off, now I'm just moving on Fallin' again, I need a pick-me-up I've been callin' you friend, I might need to give it up I'm sick and I'm tired too I can admit, I am not fireproof I feel it burning me I feel it burning you I hope I don't murder me I hope I don't burden you Swim with me I think I could see the beach I know what's underneath I need you here with me But we're out in the open Swim with me I think I could see the beach Just don't look underneath us I need you here with me but we're out in the open I'm sick and I'm tired too I can admit, I am not fireproof I feel it burning me I feel it burning you I hope I don't murder me I hope I don't burden you If I do, I do
@uzilekss3 жыл бұрын
thanks for the lyrics on a lyric video.
@ericzote3 жыл бұрын
KKKKKKKKKK
@junkratow19953 жыл бұрын
Lol
@melaniemartinezfan53 жыл бұрын
@@uzilekss some people like to read lyrics like this. Plus I'm glad they did this cause it's easier for me to understand the meaning behind the song.
@rozarinengin3607 Жыл бұрын
Thank u
@Love_Nyxus6 жыл бұрын
OMG I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS EVERYWHERE!! I lost my phone to water and had to get a new one and by the time I got it I forgot the song name cuz I have half of a poor memory. All of a sudden it just popped into my head, ever have those moments? well I did amd I started looking for it. Thank you!
@hope10926 жыл бұрын
seems like i found gold :')
@krisc69285 жыл бұрын
This song is everything to me. Everyone has their own way of associating with this song and mine has a mixture of alcohol use and a break up I’m going threw, so hard and hard to find myself in the mix of all it.
@CherryCloverBlossom4 жыл бұрын
I’m praying that you’re doing better! You’re strong babe, God is there for you!
@triiuxx4562 жыл бұрын
hey you , its been 3 years hope ur doing okay
@krisc69282 жыл бұрын
@@CherryCloverBlossom thank you I appreciate it.
@krisc69282 жыл бұрын
@@triiuxx456 Wow it seems Like it hasn’t been that long. Thank you so much, I am doing well I appreciate you checking up.
@LermaBean5 жыл бұрын
This song is a reminder of loving someone I'll never have and then numbing the pain with alcohol
@Violet_official._01053 жыл бұрын
I feel this on a deep level
@definitelynotkaren97915 жыл бұрын
The background vocals make this song even more 🔥 then it is
@strawbubbz17785 жыл бұрын
I swear one of the parts scared me because im in class and i thought the class started singing along
@sylvainlecordonnier78166 жыл бұрын
I had the bad habits to listen to the song in a "if you were in a bathroom at a party" version (do you know what I mean?) And I'm happy to listen to this song in it original version, thank you
@sabxx5 жыл бұрын
Sylvain Lecordonnier those are the best
@gallarinas5 жыл бұрын
Sabrina Lina YEEHAW CANADIA
@jseph11975 жыл бұрын
Sabrina Lina those videos stink
@Melanie-hr6cg5 жыл бұрын
All of the neighborhood's songs are so good.😍
@milles55335 жыл бұрын
After 2 years im still listening to this song
@demonlemon9855 жыл бұрын
Why *W H Y* DOES THEIR MUSIC MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THIS
@soup2346 жыл бұрын
i love aesthetic lyric videos. ur channel is one of the best
@huisbujkrasbiobsklb5 жыл бұрын
that hurt like a buttcheek on a stick ok so i got a notification that someone liked this, i dont remember making this comment, but good job old me.
@sinishq_by_cosishq5 жыл бұрын
Proud
@urmom31304 жыл бұрын
MOTHER TRUKER DUDE THAT HURT LIKE A BUTCHEAK ON A STICK
@sockssssssssss4 жыл бұрын
Mood
@muchabakhi27494 жыл бұрын
@@sinishq_by_cosishq I have the same photo on fb wtf...
@sinishq_by_cosishq4 жыл бұрын
@@muchabakhi2749 You're the one... Wanna go get married?
@caffeinatedx6 жыл бұрын
I'm sick, and I'm tired toooo
@douaa41855 жыл бұрын
I can admit
@urmom31304 жыл бұрын
... Monsta x ..
@urmom31304 жыл бұрын
Saeme
@Hi-uv7nn4 жыл бұрын
In 2020 we all agree
@isabellajenkins10617 жыл бұрын
I am a huge Neighbourhood fan tho so all of their songs sound GREAT!!
@user-oe1di8me6y5 жыл бұрын
Isabella Jenkins YOU YES YOU YOU ARE CUTE
@tina.39244 жыл бұрын
I mean literally they don't have a bad song and this is what i call TALENT
@VictorMaliborschi3 жыл бұрын
Yes
@astralspeckles5 жыл бұрын
They played this at the concert I went to on 11/6 and omg I almost cried
@twentyneptats51364 жыл бұрын
The neighbourhood is literally the definition of songs you listen to in a bathroom at a party
@maitemporicide9316 жыл бұрын
Why hasn't more people heard this song?
@coni4295 жыл бұрын
Ikr right me from another account.
@belovedyashi3 жыл бұрын
I hear this song after 5 years later..
@Hisakomii2 жыл бұрын
"I'm Sick~, And I'm Tired Too~" Hits Different When You Actually Didn't Get Sleep And You're Listening To This At Like 5:00 Or 6:00 In The Morning. A Whole Different World.
@YekaYeptho4 жыл бұрын
"I've been calling you friend I might need to give it up"
@ww32754 жыл бұрын
Are u ok
@Hi-uv7nn4 жыл бұрын
@@ww3275 were listening to the neighborhood obviously not
@sad.girl..2 жыл бұрын
Эта песня прекрасная,люблю ее слушать ночью, такой необъяснимый вайб,она одновременно грустная и такая спокойная и комфортная 🌊💔
@breannamjelde27374 жыл бұрын
i never related to a song so much :(( i feel like no one cares about me anymore and i don’t matter :/ i feel like i burden the people i wanna talk to so i don’t talk to them but i’m so lonely it hurts, if anyone wants to talk hmu lol
@CherryCloverBlossom4 жыл бұрын
If you ever need anyone to talk to, just know that I am here and so is God. Babe you matter so much...just the fact that you exist and had the strength to post this and express your feelings speaks to how strong and brave you are. You are not even close to a burden! More like a blessing, love you 💕
@breannamjelde27374 жыл бұрын
CherryCloverBlossom thank you 💛
@CherryCloverBlossom4 жыл бұрын
breanna mjelde of course bb
@kavya12613 жыл бұрын
you matter, stay strong okay?
@avocado51393 жыл бұрын
ayoo give me your ig if u want to talk..
@elliemay.66477 жыл бұрын
I hope I don't burden you.
@n3ll8003 жыл бұрын
"I'm not fireproof I feel it burning" Felt this so bad
@catherinehayner89903 жыл бұрын
we need more songs like this-
@charlotte-bf5ou3 жыл бұрын
this song feels like having major depressive disorder and feeling great and happy and everyone if proud of you then it comes back and you dont want to let them down for believing your better
@samlesserofficial4 жыл бұрын
This song brings back memories from my childhood for some reason, i wish i could run on the beach and feel the same happiness i felt at the time.
@Ay_Tips3 жыл бұрын
Anyone else feels like they are they’re friends therapist and no one asks about you or asks about you in general , but u have to act like you don’t care and you don’t mind the distance but deep downs you want someone to ask aboit you
@Violet_official._01053 жыл бұрын
Yes
@vijaysinghr9882 жыл бұрын
And then they asks , and i said it’s nothing 💀 me just being me
@fairlyoddhannah2123 жыл бұрын
this song makes me cry my eyes out. im just so confused about myself. im having a hard time. my school tells me i need to find a safe space, and talk to someone, but i can’t even confide to my best friend of six years. i feel like no one ever listens to me. i give her hints about how im feeling, like I’ll send her pictures of half my face with tears down my eyes and she does absolutely nothing. but whenever she cries, I’m always there for her. im so tired all the time and have no motivation to do anything. im on so many medications and every little thing stresses me out. i lost one of my best friends, my mom judges me, i don’t even have a father figure to talk to, and i think im bisexual but i can’t talk to anyone about it or else they’ll judge me cause i live in the fucking middle of the Midwest and go to a Catholic school...i lost all my faith in god...i could go on for hours...
@Ay_Tips3 жыл бұрын
We have the same life literally... you can talk to me I will listen to u , ur not alone Dw , if ur bi , gay ur valid ok , we supprt you . Also my mum judges me too and my dad is a bad father figure , his not emotional there for me
@vnxpppxxxx2 жыл бұрын
hey mate can i ask how are you feeling now?
@lamkhanhquan78092 жыл бұрын
hi mate r u doin better these days
@Nicole-lc4zh4 жыл бұрын
Just- "neighbOrhood" Hurt me 😭 pls The neighbourhood 😔
@ramoneclayton86065 жыл бұрын
why i never heard of "the neighborhood" before 😍
@dearhoseok4 жыл бұрын
I’m so grateful I started listening to them three years ago🥺also so grateful a lot of people are finding out about them now, they deserve a lot
@hexxxd1113 жыл бұрын
somehow i always find a way to relate things back to my ed. this song is really helping me cope
@gabrielcollins93127 жыл бұрын
Omg, finally I found this chanel sz
@killfor.u7 жыл бұрын
café? café! Hm?
@baileyyy22834 жыл бұрын
my best friend mary showed me this song. I haven’t heard from her for many months since she left. I miss her
@KH-ks7si3 жыл бұрын
Whered she go 😢
@milkoptional2 жыл бұрын
i love the neighborhood so much i just wish i didnt play their songs at my worse because now it’s all i think of when i hear one of their songs
@aniyakoplinski41723 жыл бұрын
gosh i love their music. they remind me of memories i don’t even have..
@nova-xp5vp3 жыл бұрын
“if I told you that I loved you tell me what would you say?” Ugh every timeeee 😩😫
@LeibnizKekse3 жыл бұрын
Feel you😭😫
@ye72615 жыл бұрын
I'm so happy I found this song a masterpiece 😭
@lemonkid88994 жыл бұрын
'i'm sick and i'm tired too' damn.. that hits differnet
@fireangel9113 жыл бұрын
2nd December 2021. You made me happy. Thank you D. This song will remind me of those moments.
@1madzilla2 жыл бұрын
Been playing this on repeat for days now. Hits a nerve.
@genthequeen88863 жыл бұрын
Listening to this in the dark with headphones at 2am is a different kind of sadness…
@arianagrandefan35534 жыл бұрын
This song just hits different 🤧😍
@folklore3643 жыл бұрын
I want this song to be played on my funeral.
@not_your_barbie_gurl83042 жыл бұрын
no words can describe how much i miss him he was my everything i will always love him and idk what to do abt it
@greodorehch40063 жыл бұрын
This song makes me think of so many memories i've never had before 🥺🌬️🍀💚
@isabellakent24433 жыл бұрын
we broke off our relationship of one year a while ago and she texted me saying she really likes this song and added it to this playlist i’ve been listening to. this hurts so much.
@KrishtiBhattacharjee3 жыл бұрын
I do that too with songs my ex used to like and songs i associated with them
@jaelvictoria57714 жыл бұрын
This is one of the most beautiful songs ever 💕
@imjustgettingstarted96053 жыл бұрын
Dayum this song is so beautifully made
@Lightofthatstar5 жыл бұрын
literally my fav band
@victoriaetchegoyen2525 жыл бұрын
Dude, this song is so Hardin. Idk why, but I'm feel Tessa right now, and I'm crying cuz I really feel this song. And I love it. Anyway, no one get me.
@reresoar7084 жыл бұрын
Yesss
@zuziadymarczyk13554 жыл бұрын
omggg you got me so much in feels
@madd7e4 жыл бұрын
i literally jus watched this movie and i read this of all comments
@victoriaetchegoyen2524 жыл бұрын
@@madd7e Anyway, I wasn't talking bout the movie I was talking bout the book. I think those two are truly different. 🦋
@victoriaetchegoyen2524 жыл бұрын
@@zuziadymarczyk1355 i'm glad haha🦋
@AGSunset5 жыл бұрын
ive been bopping to this since 2016 but i never really felt the lyrics until now
@_iamlinaaaa_3 жыл бұрын
The neighbourhood saved my life no lie 😔🖤
@chenwild3 жыл бұрын
this song makes me feel something i can't explain
@anajahmiller20034 жыл бұрын
This has a different feel compared to other songs, I come back nearly everyday(I come everyday😐) and the “I’m sick.” Just gives me chills for no reason at all. The lyrics actually mean something to me and I get it
@isa2675 жыл бұрын
This kind of music just makes me think about my life. It sounds like i AM sitting on a bench watching the sunset
@oxxen_uta22824 жыл бұрын
I don't know but why is the waves moving along with the bass so satisfying to me
@roviblue2 жыл бұрын
i feel the lyrics from neighboorhood so close to my heart... that sometimes it hurts...
@malsawmzela25053 жыл бұрын
bro all i ever listened to is sweather weather,i never got to listen to their other songs omgg butthis is soo good
@jussarasantos32644 жыл бұрын
this song is so perfect i wanna cry
@tigrispanthera54964 жыл бұрын
mood
@itzalex05222 жыл бұрын
this song came on while me and my ex were in the car. it was 3am. raining. i knew we weren't going to last. that's the last memory i have with this song. my stomach turns every time i hear it. but god damn i love it.
@janaa.bahgat50305 жыл бұрын
2:24 yw :)
@sn0wy4834 жыл бұрын
TGANSKD MD
@kaitlynbenetos39663 жыл бұрын
i love this song so dang much💖
@miachrst4 жыл бұрын
No matter how many times I listen to that song I get the same eerie chilling and amazing vibe every fuckin time.. By far nbhds best song
@iamjealousofbaileyandiwant74262 жыл бұрын
one of my favorite songs. this is a masterpiece.
@summermaez40644 жыл бұрын
I took shrooms and listened to this in my room, and the water in my fish tank moved gracefully with the music
@jasmineoladeinde34712 жыл бұрын
TW: Suicidal thoughts Ever since I was 11 years old (now 12) I've had so many responsibilities to take care of, either it being the role model to my younger siblings, or the smart & quiet girl in school. I've always had A's and A+'s but whenever I get anything lower than an A... I'm always the "mrs perfect", or "the wannabe", or "the dumb kid", or "the try hard" but my parents (especially my mom) doesn't know how hard I try, how hard I try to get good grades while still getting my 8 hours of sleep, or my sleepless night because I was awake studying. I mean, even if I got a good grade my mom wouldn't even acknowledge it, she'd only look at it and make a sound of agreement. No "good job darling!" or "you did so good" would ever come out but whenever I do something bad, I'm always scared to let them know because I know the words they'd call me or what they'd even do. When I finally got honor roll, the only thing they did was boast to their friends but they never celebrated me, sure, they bought me things but the only thing I wanted to have was to be celebrated by them. When I went on my phone in the middle of the night for research on my work because my laptop was dead, she caught me and didn;t even give me time to explain. She called me "sneaky" and "a liar from the pit of hell", she called me "smart by mouth, dumb by brain", and she even called me "a dirty idiot" which hurt me because as it said in the song, I'm not fireproof. The words she says to me are like fire burning me real hard. When we fight she's always say "If I had to choose between you sister and you I'd pick your sister" and that makes my heart explode because I TRY, I DO TRY VERY VERY HARD. So, I don't wanna be a burden to them and I just wanna end it, I wanna die because even if I do, they won't care, they have my little sister. If I just end it, everything would be better, there'd be no more shouting, no more arguments and they'd be at peace. So, maybe I'll just do that. Maybe everything would be better...
@Three_cheers_for_Onyx2 жыл бұрын
Hey I just wanted to say I'm proud of you
@jasmineoladeinde34712 жыл бұрын
@@Three_cheers_for_Onyx thank you very much! :))
@soph24473 жыл бұрын
Something about this song is just so different than any other song I've ever heard like uhh I love it sm!
@idkyet5402 жыл бұрын
This song is so heart wrenching yet so soothing and relatable at the same time
@natjacobs3 жыл бұрын
this song hurts but it’s so beautiful
@hihiz4326 жыл бұрын
💕 You make me feel little, the way you're looking at me 💕
@nevaehgonzalez99203 жыл бұрын
i just listened to this song three times in a row
@al-ky5un6 жыл бұрын
I love this so much 💕
@Jc-kv7xh2 жыл бұрын
“If I told you that I hated you, would you go away?” “And you can throw shade at me all it does is just cool me off” The only things I feel everyday