The Darkest Time Of My Life | living with anxiety

[@nebraskanassassin6058]

I have sad and depression Summer you'll never be alone just always have someone to lean on. But it has to be someone who really understands.

[@karacox6505]

I cannot tell you how much this video connects with my heart. As I'm typing this it literally just made me cry, I've been waking up every night for about the past year just anxious anxious anxious and then I do get sick in the morning. I am currently seeing the therapist but I never put the two and two together. Summer this really meant a lot to my heart and hopefully my healing thank you! 🌻

[@tinamariegregory3130]

I can't tell you how much this video will help you and others. God bless you and portion your strength a day at a time so you will continue to lean into him a day at a time. Thank you so much for sharing . God bless you !

[@dorrainemarshall800]

I am 58 years old live in Des Moines, IA and this helped me. Thank you for sharing. And thank you for being so smart in many ways 🙏 ❤ 💕 😊

[@Kristinace]

I have dealt whit anxiety when I got pregnant whit my first child. I have been in course whit a groups and it has been a life chancer. Thank you for sharing 💖

[@Allaboutal2]

I’ve been dealing with Anxiety for years and only got help two years ago, having suffered since having my two amazing little girls. As a parent with Anxiety I get your thoughts completely. My kids have always been there for me, even at the tender ages they are. 6 and 8. They are more resilient than me and the truth in the matter is this ‘you will always do right by your kids no matter what’. Today you have been my inspiration. Keep strong 💪🏻

[@elainepeterson2438]

I appreciate your needing help and therapy with Anxiety! When I was going through Puberty I lost my dog that I started out from birth with. and I had trouble eating felt physically ill. I had therapy and it helped me! Thank you for sharing what happened to you Sumer! It is beneficial for everyone to share anxiety and other mental health issues. Silence makes the problems worse. And I believe you have helped many people who hide their problems, which in my opinion makes matters worse not better. Therapy works, and your advice to change therapists if you do not feel like you are getting results.

[@ellahayes7233]

I'm glad you're brave enough to talk publicly about your anxiety, it may certainly help your struggle. You're being proactive and doing all the right things for yourself. Healthful living does wonders.

[@rawryomecakes]

I often feel this way when I think I no longer have control. Everything feels so overwhelming even the smallest tasks. thank you for sharing your story. we're all doing this life the best we can, but you are never alone. ❤sending hugs and prayers ❤

[@rhondaholde1938]

Thank you for being so brave to share your story. I know it will resonate with those who relate to your experience. Keep going forward Summer and God bless.

[@dollyhartley3618]

Summer, I'm so happy to hear that you received the help you needed to be in a better place. I've struggles with Panic attacks and depression since my early 20's, don't know what triggered it, but I'm 65 now and I don't have the attacks as much as I once did, finding ways to get through a panic attack is key. Praying your life journey will always be blessed.

[@dawnsutherland3461]

I'm so sorry I missed your video, until now . Have a great day .

[@brianhrobsky9200]

A perfectly timed video. Since the beginning of the year my anxiety level has reached a stage its never been at. A dark lonely place. 2 ER visits and several Drs. Appointment s and meds. I had to swallow my pride and stay with my parents for a few weeks and currently on day 2 of being back at my place. I start counciling this week. And thanks to this video now im looking forward to going. I praise God that im still going, that He has me where im at. Family, my parents, aunts, uncles and cousins all have been checking in on me. For anyone suffering from anxiety, i deeply pray for all of you for Gods peace to overtake your life. Stay strong Summer, God bless

[@sherrygiambalvo2288]

While I don't suffer from anxiety, I can say that counseling changed my life after I found out about my husband's affair after 25 years of marriage. I was in counseling for two years, it was painful and difficult, but I am a changed person now. The anger I carried for most of my life is gone. We divorced, but I feel no animosity towards my ex and I have no regrets. I invited him over for last Thanksgiving and told him I was thankful for him because he gave me my four children, who then gave me three grandchildren. You are so brave to discuss your journey. My best to you! ❣️

[@theresalee2266]

Seeking help is a sign of strength not weakness. You have to look in the mirror and tell yourself “You are worth it”

[@pattyesch9549]

How many years have you been doing You Tube! Your channel is growing so fast. You are always so up beat! Never knew you had anxiety until you told your story. You are so precious !

[@denisemanley5318]

Summer thank you for sharing. I am so impressed with you and how you share your beliefs with us. Whether it is cleaning, gardening and your personal struggles with anxiety. I am a senior citizen and was not as mature as you at 27. God bless you my dear!

[@chrisgossman6512]

I am a happy subscriber. Just remember next time anxieties come your way that there people out here that love and support you. Praying that your dreams will come true.

[@fdouville6166]

Thank you, we always think we are alone … sharing your story help all of us. ❤️

[@girlonaswing9439]

Summer, I would have had no idea that you dealt with anything like this. You are a very kind hearted loving person. The fact that you laid your self out for the world, to help people others is proof of that. Thank you for the scripture. 🙏👧🏼

[@deannaoverstreet4146]

Thank you Summer! God is so good! Praying for you!

[@andrean9413]

Thank you. I have dealt with all the things you talked about. I have had the irrational fearful thoughts and mine has always been about my husband. I too have found some triggers and that helps a lot. Thank you for sharing your journey. I am sure it will help so many people.

[@melissaeh]

Summer, thank you for this!!! I am thankful to be here as a viewer each week but as a recovering addict, domestic violence survivor & someone who fights depression I truly appreciate your honesty & open heart in this video more than ever. This is the stuff that makes a difference Much love & respect ;

[@wendy_lee]

Summer your faith gives me hope for our world. Anxiety is a beast that I believe everyone carries. Mine hits my gut any time I have to be somewhere. Even if it's somewhere I want to go to! I think you're going to be a wonderful mother. The anxiety will have you second guessing everything where a child is involved but you will be amazing anyway! ♥️

[@ccan2087]

Just found this video and I am beyond amazed on the courage, strength that yout have and the humility you have shown in showing yourself and raw emotions. So many sadly still today see mental health as taboo and that should not be talked about and hidden or be ashamed of. What I finally resolved in my life is God put those in positions to help it saddens me to see comments that to be a true Christian means tou cannot seek help and must only seek scripture for healing. I do believe that scripture is needed in my life to guide me in life but also that I have to do work to and not expect God to do all the work and ignore everything else. I make decisions on my health, mental health and spiritual health on what works for me with the guidance I seek spiritually and wild never dream of telling others on how they should live. Thank you for your testimony and you are a very strong person and I believe will one day be blessed with a family.

[@robindelude3787]

Summer - thank you for sharing your story. A journey through anxiety or depression is different for everyone. But knowing that you aren't alone, that there are others who have also walked through the darkness, is of great comfort. I hope you continue to get better. Stay strong, kiddo. Never forget that God loves you and He's always right there with you - especially in the darkest times.

[@jeanetterule5420]

You are so courageous and kind and your story touched me deeply. I have depression and anxiety and I’ve been exactly where you are. I too have faith that God love me and I am so protected by this love. I am never alone. We live in very frightening times but I have my faith and I do an exercise. “At this minute, I am ok.” Breath. Stretch your arms up up up and then touch your toes. Reach up breathing in. This helps so much. Love you Summer. Keep up the good work. Bless your dear heart, child of God. 💗☺️🙏😉

[@emunahjohnson9035]

Jeremiah 29:11 I was going through a bunch of life changing events in my family when God gave this verse to me through a former precious coworker. It was on repeat in my mind until I felt His peace and just knew that all would be ok and that God was holding me. Anxiety had its grip on me for the majority of my life. Then a few years back the thought "Look for My good in all things. Start with the little then look towards the big" I'm a nature/country girl who lives on the outskirts of a big city. So I listen for the birds. Then the scampering of the squirrels. Then dogs barking as people get more active. These help to ground and center me.

[@philipmichel215]

Good to hear your mental health is being addressed and you are doing better. I believe my anxiety started at a very young age but never sought professional treatment until I was 35 years old. 30 years of good and bad, mostly good life experiences especially the last 10 when it was determined I had some bipolar symptoms and thus a new med to treat for that.

[@eudenec2023]

Summer thank you for sharing we all have struggles of some kind. That’s why I love your channel, your so open and honest about your life .

[@cindyjohnson2300]

I've been there. And you're right about using your tools and good self talk. I don't talk abut this thank you for being open. Bless your heart. Chin up sweetie. My favorite thing to say to myself is "you can do it".

[@jodyjohnson6247]

Oh girl hang in there it'll get better for you you're a good person

[@rayinpau.s.a.6351]

Summer , where are you ? I miss seeing you !

[@60sbaby70sgirl]

I also struggle with anxiety. It also made me physically ill and it took a lot to figure out that my physical problems were a result of anxiety and stress.

[@treyh1975]

Ex-military and have PTSD love ❤️ this video young lady 🙏🙏 Day bye day it will get better. And one of my favorites saying is God is good all the time

[@reneeadolph1309]

I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your story.

[@kayblack6484]

Sending caring understanding to you.

[@CB-pf7go]

Throughout my life I’ve dealt with anxiety, at times I have had it under control, other times not so much. I think it’s much more common than we think. The source of most of my anxiety is the state of our world and what will become of us if we can’t live together as human beings. I’m sorry you deal with this as it can be debilitating. Prayers, Blessings,and Peaceful Days ahead for you.

[@mariel9385]

Summer, My hat is off to you for sharing your very personal journey with anxiety. I am struck with the courage and yes, bravery, to let your audience in on your struggles. I will pray for you that you may continue moving forward.

[@victoriapalmer5146]

Thank you so much for sharing this today's summer I too have been struggling the anxiety comes out of nowhere I even passed out in the dentist chair because my heart was racing so fast and I've been kind of feeling hopeless. But your video shine a little light when you said it took months and months of work but you passed and you can snap out of it. Unfortunately I have really poor health insurance the quality of therapists in my price range is awful so I haven't gotten the therapy I need. Sometimes I feel like the therapist isn't even hearing me. But thanks again for sharing. And it's okay to tear up when you talk about your brother's because we can tell how much you love them

[@amywright2243]

I had an accidental injury that triggered anxiety. I had no idea what the physical and mental feelings were like, before then. I suffered three months and finally talked to my doctor. She said I was not unusual, probably half of her patients were dealing with anxiety. I have felt better with medication, and talking to my loved ones. My eyes were opened to how common anxiety is and how practical it is to seek help. Love to you! ♥️

[@michelesholar1756]

Summer....and all your followers....I truly can relate to this. I thank you for sharing....not only your story but the scripture. I also suffer from this. It is very debilitating at times.

[@Sheryl777]

Thank you Summer 💜 I know that a lot of us can relate. We are all in this together. 😉

[@katrinabell5426]

i suffered for so many years. and then i learned to take better care of myself. this is great hearing you talk about it.

[@barbaranorman7212]

God bless you Summer. Praying for you.

[@ToffiTube]

I feel you. I saw it in you're eyes. I suffer daily it keeps me in bed 24/7 you are not alone ❤

[@ChrysanthsMum]

I’m 60 and have always been on the sensitive side. Therapy has always helped me. I too had doubts about what kind of mom I would be. We were blessed with one daughter and she is terrific. She is 29 now and we have a very close relationship. IMHO being a sensitive individual who is also a problem solver (which you are) make for a more introspective and compassionate parent. My prayers are with you.

[@sandygraetz5166]

Great job Summer! I hear you! I know that others that walk this path will also hear you and it will help!

[@KathyKR]

Thank you for your honesty. You are very brave.

[@desanders12]

I lost both of my brothers in 2020. They are my only siblings. I am devastated. My Daddy passed in 2012 and my mom who has Alzheimer’s lives with me after my brothers passed.

[@johnfrancis7176]

Thank you Summer!

[@tomsdotter3228]

Oh my goodness. So sorry you've been going through this. You are on my prayer list. It's brave of you to talk to us about this. And, it shows how strong you are, that you asked for help. 💗

[@mlm7598]

Wonderful video Summer and glad you bought it up as so so many people suffer from depression/anxiety. I started having it when I was alone with two small babies and my husband was in Viet Nam......He made it home but I was taken to hospital with possible heart attacks at age 25 while he was at the end of his tour. Two babies alone in the south 3000 miles away from family and holding down a job full time while the babies went to day care .....just so I could feed them and keep things on an even keel. I never knew that type of fear or anxiety or fear for my own life and who would care for the children. Horrible. Now next month we celebrate our 55th Anniversary, have three adult children all fine and eight beautiful grandchildren and a first great grandbaby due in May.........blessed....and yet I still have some anxiety but you learn to trick it and push it away and say, NO THANKS......depression.......OMG another animal........again, stay busy, pray, work, pray and live amoung the living and stay active and pray and believe. As you read, God knows us better than we know ourselves and He will protect us as we are All His children. Thanks for sharing and have peace within, as God does have you and all of us covered .......whatever life hands us.....God knows in advance and only HE can explain it all......Blessings!

[@jennifermcchesney3231]

Thank you Summer for speaking about this topic. It is intimidating to open up this way, especially when you have held it inside for so long. I can remember as a kid having panic attacks that left my family and doctors in disbelief. What could a small child be so anxious over. Eventually it led to a full blown melt down at 16 over a boyfriend. From that point forward I was put on medication, not therapy. I spent years just getting by and not actually healing. Finally at the end of 2020 I reached my second breaking point. I quit my job, spent time with family, relearned how to love myself, my family, and my situation. I won't have children (although I wanted them) because of my medical health issues but also because I cannot care for them as I would want. I actively have low days, but in general, my husband and I have found a way to combat those days together and it makes a world of difference. Just remember, you are not alone, you have a lot of supporters in your corner, and a lot of supporters that are walking this path with you. Keep your head held high and know that you are loved.

[@janchandler7199]

Summer you are so very brave to share your story and I thank you.

[@stephielulu9096]

Oh sweet, I didn't know you suffer from this. I have it too. I was at my wits end a few years ago, and didn't see a future with me in it. Then finally (after years!) the Dr helped me out and here I am! Sending love, strength and hugs from England😊

[@vivianzuniga8814]

Praying you are able to build up your faith to the point where the fear can’t grip you anymore. Love n hugs honey!

[@loriswain8140]

I’m really glad you are getting better and I hope you continue to share. Thank you.

[@alicehh9194]

Thank you Summer, that was very brave and honest and I appreciate your sharing this part of your life. It certainly does help when you know that you are not alone and especially when you share in the belief in the same Father who will never leave or forsake us. You are awesome 💝

[@shariballard1804]

Oh Summer, bless your heart…your not alone in this journey, not ever! You have the lord, Jay and a loving devoted family and all of us!! Your followers! Your a brave and courageous woman who is finding a path and calling that is truly unique to you. We will rejoice in your triumphs and carry you in the valleys. I’m proud of you! You got this girl👊🏻❤️

[@JestRLee]

I had horrible anxiety for a couple of years in my mid 20's, hated being in public, couldn't look people in the eyes, or communicate confidently... I even consider seeking professional help, but chose not to because of the negative connotations associated with being labeled with a psychiatric condition... not sure why exactly, as I had always been outgoing previously, but after a couple of years it passed on its own... All I can say is, the beauty of getting older is the less you care what other people think about you... Life has many seasons, both good and bad, some you can embrace, and others that you have to overcome...

[@richardedwards6772]

Hang in there kiddo!

[@melanierooks1600]

Thank you for sharing. I needed to hear this.

[@tammystuard4835]

Summer you did such a great job with this video and I know you are helping so many people. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful heart. ❤️

[@randimckinney1940]

thank you, thank you, thank you

[@conniestevens5251]

Summer, I just wanted to say I love you sweetie. I hope everything gets better for you.

[@mabelinelester3580]

Thank you for letting me know.

[@fenlandrob6203]

Bless you Summer! I really hope you get yourself feeling better soon, I’ve been suffering from depression for a few years now but I really feel better now the virus has slowed down here in the UK. Rob

[@JoeTheLion60]

Such a tough topic and you are truly amazing for sharing and conquering - all the best Summer..

[@TheCarriecarrie41]

Thank you for your honesty

[@sheilavanduynfote5539]

Summer thank you for sharing your story. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for over 50 years, I am 71 and when I started there wasn’t really a lot out there. I have been on medication for 20 years and I also went to therapy it has helped slow down my anxieties. My heart broke and cried when you stated about your anxiety about something bad was going to happen to one of your brothers. My oldest brother, my best friend I was the only girl and the baby girl he even named me. We were so close he was my hero, I have two other brothers but I had such a bond with him. My big brother passed away in 2007 at the age of 57. He was a truck driver and he would call me everyday when he was on the road going through so many states and we would talk about everything. I could not come to grips that I would no longer from him we would share verses in the Bible it was very Important to him that the siblings we believed in God. I shut down for months and I still have problems accepting that he is gone. God helped me so much to work through my grief thank uou🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@franielee38]

God love you young lady!!! 💜

[@farmboy5622]

In my down times,.....I think about the poem "Footprints in the Sand." One night I had a dream. I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and across the skies flashed scenes from my life. In each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One was mine, and one was the Lord's. When the last scene of my life appeared before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand, and, to my surprise, I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. And I noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times in my life. I asked the Lord about it: "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk with me all the way. But I notice that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why you left my side when I needed you most." The Lord said, "My precious child, I never left you during your time of trial. Where you see only one set of footprints, I was carrying you."

[@lucyyoung5307]

Summer, you’re a beautiful brave soul, I admire your strength and wisdom at such a young age, brought tears to my eyes. . As of recent days I didn’t realize the amount of people who suffer anxiety issues. I had a rough childhood, not the best family life , then I married a narcissist for 34 years, now divorced. My anxiety was awful, but thankfully my faith which never left me, pulled me through. For that I remind myself to be grateful everyday. Gratitude, true gratitude goes a long way in mental health, that and having a loving heart no matter who hurt me. Thank you sweetie for sharing your story, love ya. May God be with you every minute of your life.

[@susanorr7535]

With great appreciation, thank you.

[@htownandi6263]

Thank you for sharing, Summer. The end of 2017 thru 2018 was the hardest, darkest time of my life. I left my alcoholic bf and lost everything. Through the generosity of friends and strangers, I was able to claw my way out of the deep well I was in. During that time God delivered me so many blessings. I will forever be grateful for his love and his gifts. A quote that stuck with me is "when it's hardest to pray that's when you pray the hardest." And God listens. I owe everything to him. ❤️

[@heatherbazinet274]

Like the way you presented this video. It sounds like you are right path. Guess I try to help myself through my darkest hours. Tried therapy but the councilors I had were horrible. Dropped them and dealt with life presents to me everyday on my own. Doing better that way. Single mom and divorced since 1990 with little contact with siblings. No parents alive either since 1990. Just deal with and get through what others verbally think of you. As my son says you can never cure stupid or change mean people. I too was a Registered Practical Nurse in 1993 but just never found full time work in it and only a 42 week course. Am turning 61 this year and doing a high anxiety work cleaning a cheese factory in Ingleside Ontario Canada. And became a grandmother December 2020. My goal is semi retired by 65. Set goals is what I try to do.

[@trunkmonkey355]

I believe there is a connection between the microbiome in the digestive tract and mental health. I went through something similar after antibiotics wiped out good bacteria.

[@gregkirch6247]

glad you shared this. PTSD almost made me give up. I got some help from the VA. The best help comes from God, I talk to him everyday.

[@teresaf5480]

Summer...What a great help video. God's got you in His hands and remember this "God's grip don't slip" I heard that from Pastor Salem he was from Aberdeen South Dakota and I loved it... Big ((( hug))) to you girl for sharing and helping others 💖

[@donnadilbeck7021]

Thank you Summer for sharing your story. I pray God will take away your every anxious thought. Keep doing what you are doing and rest in Him. You are truly loved. 🙏🏻❤️

[@myfavs253]

I've had anxiety in the past and had panic attacks. They are no fun. I take a daily medication now and haven't had any trouble in 15 years. I found a new mindset and that is to keep things in perspective. Concentrate on what is going right in your life. Start with I have eyes and can see, I have ears and can hear. There are people who don't have these abilities. I have a warm bed to sleep in. Not eveeyone does. After a while you talk yourself right out of the panic attack. The Bible verse you quoted is similar in that it tells you you are not alone and to keep that in perspective. Take care.😊

[@briangodbey5511]

Thank you Summer that really helps. 💘

[@brendarobbins8832]

Thanks so much for sharing! ❤️🙏💪

[@margaretlynch1494]

I Lived with depression and anxiety so long, I hope you have consulted with your doctor about an SSRI..or antidepressant. They are a "godsend" for me. I can appreciate how natural concerns. .like your brothers getting hurt, can be blown up into unrelenting terrors. 🙋‍♀️🌻❤ Now, I feel well. Sad about sad things , concerned, but not crippled with fears! I feel happy too .

[@c0urtn3y526]

Thank you. It's always reassuring to know we can have shared experiences and help each other learn and grow from them.

[@debbieupchurch4442]

THANK YOU !!!!!!!!

[@perrywarren8743]

My deepest respect, that was a tough one to do! Loved the scripture reference and am certain you are now in a good place 🙏

[@chantalmartin32]

Your on the right path. Xoxoxo . Your never alone.

[@bettyjo5024]

Thank you. I understand

[@kelleyworsham9187]

Thank you.

[@sallypage8004]

You are a treasure, Summer. I have enjoyed watching your videos, and I appreciate your raw honesty! God will use this video to help others!

[@mindi.m]

Thank you. You made some very valid points, several of which hit home for me. That was a perfect verse for me right now. 💙

[@beckypage6041]

Summer, your testimony was heart felt. Bless your heart. I understand very thing you were saying and all I can say if it wasn’t for the grace of God and words from the gospel, there’s no telling where I’d be. Stay healthy and God bless.

[@ronaldgaska4480]

Blessings Summer

[@julieghoulie1]

Summer you are brave.

[@bethknapp2736]

God bless you Summer for opening up your heart and being sincere about your struggles. I get really anxious about alot of things sometimes when it's something I can't handle I usually break down and cry because for me it's always been hard to try to process things by myself. As long as things run smoothly I usually do fine but if I have an incident that just jars my world I usually am a basket case. So I understand your struggles.

[@suzandramcketchnie849]

I am crying right now!! We are trying to move and take my 85 year old dad 1000 miles!! My daughter and her family are there. I have been hitting every road block there is! He needs to move! He has an off grid house and is fighting constantly with the water, the heater, the power! Its just to much for him. No one seems to understand what I am feeling. Then I watched your video!! Its so hard for people to say it going to work out! Or whats ment to happen will happen! Or it will all work out! My rational brain says one thing but my anxiety brain stomps on that brain and says Nope, NO, Loser, isnt gonna happen, your wrong, cant be done, all this is for nothing..... On and on!!

[@jeannettemarts8994]

Thank you for sharing.

[@aprilbentley8195]

Youre the sweetest