Yo my bad for putting victims, It was just a youtube title trend on KZbin I'm not gonna lie, I got a little carried away
@ichirakuramen7129 Жыл бұрын
you spelled enemies wrong in the title lil bro
@davidomalley2003 Жыл бұрын
Thx at least you actually fixed it and didn’t just leave it for views.
@mustangsmemes Жыл бұрын
W rishav fashir as per usual
@bristow4784 Жыл бұрын
@@davidomalley2003 Yeah I still don't think X or Ski would approve of themselves in the thumbnail though since they both had respect at the end of the day.
@lostondos00 Жыл бұрын
yo whats going on @ 15:50 ish?? its like cut up weird and seems like theres some clips overlaping. just play a whole minute of it from the timestamp
@Bradley_Brodin Жыл бұрын
It's crazy to think peep had beef. He was so respectful and generally avoided conflict.
@mordenmaine44 Жыл бұрын
yea bro u def knew him lyke dat
@Bradley_Brodin Жыл бұрын
@@mordenmaine44 Lil peep was attacked by many other artists and did nothing about it.
@IsaiahWyatt-b9g Жыл бұрын
@@mordenmaine44learn to spell
@angelflores053 Жыл бұрын
@@mordenmaine44speak right
@c0rxpseb0i1311 ай бұрын
Misconceptions
@TikkiNikki Жыл бұрын
Peep was a victim himself, his mom finally "won" her lawsuit over negligent death. They pumped him with drugs, fired the tour manager in favor of a younger one who ended up getting with Peep. Every stop he made, said manager and thge owner of his talent agency PROVIDED HIM WITH DRUGS! Every Stop! Then proceeded to drag him through the mud about he was "a junkie kid" and that his friends were the problem (with which they isolated him from those who would've helped him)
@hurtmywrist Жыл бұрын
yeah bro peeps situation was sad asf man he would not be feeling good and they still making him perform and shit rest his soul man
@Xtimus Жыл бұрын
He even talked about it on Leanin. Catch a feelin' for my lifestyle (Feelin' for my lifestyle) Poppin' pills for free (Poppin' pills for free)
@uainjansun11 ай бұрын
@@Xtimusand in his very final interview how things everyday got worse and worse alot more and feeling anxious
@takalanajae11 ай бұрын
His story is so heartbreaking
@illusive788311 ай бұрын
Alot of what u just said was not even true lmao
@Lance-t5s8 ай бұрын
blackbear was way outta line tbh. especially given the fact that his music now emulates peep more than it ever did. honestly despicable
@Yuma-l4x11 ай бұрын
The fact that this is the extent of how far peeps beefs went with people... kinda just shows how good of a dude he was.
@abyssmp3 Жыл бұрын
Crazy he died 7 years ago. Music hasn’t really changed
@rell4219 Жыл бұрын
He would have been the one to change it…
@TrulyHumbleUnderGod2099 Жыл бұрын
@@rell4219lmao no the fuck he wouldn't 😂
@Boop1-q3e Жыл бұрын
💀
@luvvsick1 Жыл бұрын
@@rell4219lol
@RainRain.. Жыл бұрын
Music has changed a lot what are u talking about
@Tarxzn8 ай бұрын
you forgot to mention falling down was also originally a Makonnen collab. Makonnen and peep were super close, and their relationship seems to be retconned.
@Ghost_2k6 ай бұрын
Ik man, that's why I don't like Falling Down at all, he even mentions mako In the song.
@J.Gainez Жыл бұрын
i miss peep, got me through some times, glad i got to listen to him alot before he passed
@Its.Just.SOFIAAAAA3 ай бұрын
I miss him too even tho I started being a big fan in 2022-2023 I listened to a few songs of his around 2018-2019 but sadly I was too young to listen or go to a concert in 2017 and before that❤ R.I.P Peep
@jerrysmith3118 Жыл бұрын
yung goth is a massive weirdo
@joeygemstone11 ай бұрын
indeed
@xanaxwrld11 ай бұрын
for stealing ski's stuff? 😂
@RainRain..11 ай бұрын
@@xanaxwrld lol more like for getting caught in the dms of little girls
@xanaxwrld11 ай бұрын
@@RainRain.. is that real?
@RainRain..11 ай бұрын
@@xanaxwrld see for yourself
@NabzillaABK Жыл бұрын
Victims is crazy
@Ty-174 ай бұрын
nazbilla abk
@marricuzumaki9 ай бұрын
bro why yunggoth jus rob ppl out their clothes sm😭
@Marshall975317 ай бұрын
Bro a full blown pedo too
@ihopboy6249Ай бұрын
He sniffs them
@cvc20062ndchannel7 ай бұрын
What Peep didn't know was that X was making efforts to change from the person he was to the person he wanted to be remembered by.
@favio1942 ай бұрын
the jail story with x beating a gay dude up was because X expressed he was uncomfortable with the guy staring at him over and over again , so he defended himself
@HaydenSchmidt-yt8up2 ай бұрын
Real
@Nomerry433Ай бұрын
lol, a look now is an assault lol, there is no self-defense here
@SpaceGhostPerccАй бұрын
"Defended himself" from somebody staring at him hahahaha you can't be serious 💀🤣
@SoggyMannАй бұрын
@ghostfrieza2904 if some gay guy kept staring at me weird all the time after I tell them to stop multiple times. I'd do smth abt it too. That shit just shows a lack of respect for sm
@BabyGBlazeАй бұрын
@@SoggyMannnot to mention nobody else in there wanted to be with the guy because of the guys sexual orientation and past, if i’m sharing a cell with a guy who stares at me after i shower im gonna assume eventually he is gonna do something to me while im asleep, so yeah same way you shouldn’t just go out and follow girls into the bathroom and stare at them you shouldn’t be watching straight males change their clothes as a gay man in a prison cell x was valid in his situation
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
Watch the whole video before you comment sum about the "victims" please thank you
@AkiraSenju5647 Жыл бұрын
then why clickbait moron
@picklepaul Жыл бұрын
terrible word to use smh
@dexterdex7 Жыл бұрын
You know "victims" isn't the best word to use in this case due to it's associations in current culture. You knew what you were doing. Intentionally using language commonly associated with abusers & predators in your title to mislead viewers for some youtube clicks, especially when you're covering a dead man, is crossing a line.
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
@@dexterdex7 bro, it's literally just a trend on with yotuube titles
@garyytp1891 Жыл бұрын
No, just don’t be a dumbass and use words correctly
@davidomalley2003 Жыл бұрын
For the Ski Mask the Slump God beef re-ignition it was heavily implied after Peep’s death that he had been high of d**gs when he was tweeting that.
@yeah4042 Жыл бұрын
Rushed this one out huh? Thought I was having a stroke watching this
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
what do you mean?
@7curry83 Жыл бұрын
@@rishavfash1r16:38
@xintlzer33544 ай бұрын
Quit KZbin. @@rishavfash1r
@OpalyzedYT2 ай бұрын
@@rishavfash1r multiple editing errors
@Myman989 Жыл бұрын
Rest in peace Lil Peep.
@YangbiuLala4 ай бұрын
Peep was a beautiful soul, and those shits were just jealous of him at that time💔....RIP PEEP🕊️🕊️🕊️
@Ricco_TR Жыл бұрын
How tf you even call these “victims”?? You could’ve used any other word. “The petty beefs of lil peep” would’ve been way more fitting
@bobleeswagger474 Жыл бұрын
Exactly, and 18 minutes of the 20 minute video wasn't even beef. This dudes writing is terrible. Showing a clip of someone saying something about Peep, and then he immediately starts his analysis by saying "so what this guy is basically saying..." and saying exactly what the person JUST said in their interview. Dude, people aren't stupid. Don't patrinize or talk to your audiance like they are idiots. Good luck with your channel.
@1of1nujra Жыл бұрын
Facts and his takes are always trash as well
@EverTruu Жыл бұрын
this guy is desperate for views and monetization lol he's scared to even say 'xanax'
@moshimoshixiii9 ай бұрын
Victims is the wrong word
@CKVampyre10 ай бұрын
They were all jealous of him
@rig0rmort1sАй бұрын
of what, being a drug addict?
@AndrejFišterАй бұрын
only true and reasonable story hahahahahaa we love you peep
@bluulegionmcnutter784811 ай бұрын
Don’t mind me just a juice WRLD fan learning about lil peep
@Danny-jc1vc10 ай бұрын
fun fact peep and juice have 4 songs, well they’re remixes as juice hopped on them posthumous peeps death, one leaked already
@FrankCain-w6n21 күн бұрын
What are the names ? I know IDGAF , && the Fan-Made 16 Lines One, but what are the name of the others?
@Maxi-69 Жыл бұрын
victims? u mean old drama
@dualdeagsonme Жыл бұрын
as a peep and x fan whos really been changed by their views on life ts really depressing icl
@WRLDOfSad11 ай бұрын
I might watch the video but for anyone looking for a quick breakdown of the thumbnail, no X and peep didn't have a beef, ski had beef with peep though and that was the reason X and peep never made music together but since peep passed X wanted to make w tribute and ski didn't mind it either so yeah
@WRLDOfSad3 ай бұрын
Ahh i forgot to watch
@nnightwingg2 ай бұрын
@@WRLDOfSadbro responded 8 months later 😭😭
@leslie-fo4qp Жыл бұрын
victims 😭😭 bro what ?
@WIKKID_ACE2 ай бұрын
Rigjt?? Like what bro😂
@logic701 Жыл бұрын
i’ll remember where we were when this channel hits 1M
@Starfrostsyndicate2 ай бұрын
I think people forget the reason peep probably didn’t speak up Was anxiety, when ur anxiety is bad u tend to just blurt out whatever people around u are talking abt
@STARRCARR212 ай бұрын
This is so overblown out of proportion. Peep loved almost everyone. Both Skii and X loved peep at the end.
@Euph0ricals Жыл бұрын
yo bro ur vids are good but u gotta start proofwatching them i noticed a good amount of places where there shoudlve been a cut but overall good vids and im rlly glad i found ur channel!
@naedoYT9 ай бұрын
Ay who TF is black bear he just wanted to beef a dead guy
@CbaDropDead Жыл бұрын
This title ain't it.
@AkiraSenju5647 Жыл бұрын
ass content that tells us nothing new repackaged for clickbait algos. gross
@kyler999611 ай бұрын
Black bear looks like a copy of peep💀
@mavvsmoot Жыл бұрын
Victims is wilddd ngl
@dtnchicken Жыл бұрын
u gotta do some quality control on the editing my boy
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
wat you mean dm me
@pyramid_iremide Жыл бұрын
Check the editing around the 10.40 to 11 minute mark@@rishavfash1r
@Macodythemetta Жыл бұрын
Can you check my music out and lmk what I can improve on?
@TikkiNikki Жыл бұрын
@@rishavfash1r There's multiple sentences where your audio repeats itself and cuts that makes no sense. Check out 19:06 for an example
@Boop1-q3e Жыл бұрын
Fr it cut off so many times
@einaraschutter872811 ай бұрын
Its so strange. Fat Nick was peep friend. But Fat Nick made song with BlackBear it was a shame
@trayce1159 ай бұрын
genuinely insane pieces of history right here, thank you for making this
@Tarxzn8 ай бұрын
brooooo everyone forgets about the ski x peep beef. people say im lying when i say it was a thing lmfao
@cliftonsargent157211 ай бұрын
RIP lil peep, star shopping is so dope
@lifeisstrange19973 ай бұрын
They will never get to his lvl and they know it. Especially not one who calls himself baby.
@rell4219 Жыл бұрын
Victims lmao
@Stins2 Жыл бұрын
peep is the victim ☠️☠️☠️
@bigboyoliwer Жыл бұрын
just a title to catch attention lol . w vid
@poorsantana2468 Жыл бұрын
Wrong 😂
@jenkem69 Жыл бұрын
He changed it to enemies now🤣
@idropNukes999 Жыл бұрын
@Stins2 he's not fully the victim, peep and goth did itsoktocry mad dirty💀😂
@sosadior.xxo17 Жыл бұрын
i know it’s not that important but there’s a video of lil peep listening to look at me
@Ondeaddawgsss5 ай бұрын
Peeps music influenced everyone who was a big artist in my generation he started the face tats the dyed hair the pink wave emo rap everything true pioneer uzi, X , juice , post Malone , mgk and plenty more started doing the same shit peep did way after peep did it and peep wasn’t an over night success he started homeless on skid row and grinded the whole time to get his notoriety most authentic and influential artist of my generation true pioneer that changed music and would’ve made an even bigger impact if he had the time to go full mainstream His music is timeless
@killspiritproject11 ай бұрын
"why would peep take Ski-mask's durag right?" LMAO
@prodbybryce6 ай бұрын
Peep and X didn’t hate eachother and there’s a voice recording of X saying that he was told peep was asking about him… he even said if he knew how cool peep was then he would’ve fucked around with him sooner
@Lunamiasanchezz2 ай бұрын
its in the song bu tht dont mean nun
@Yes-qj4bi2 ай бұрын
On falling down I think
@prodbybryce2 ай бұрын
@@Yes-qj4bi they took X’s voice memo and put it on the song after they both died, X had recorded on the original beat then both labels changed things about the song and is what we have now… but the original voice memo was around 5 minutes I think and it’s just x listening to the original and talking about how he fucked with peep
@EDTismeАй бұрын
That's in the song falling down but he's not talking about peep in that audio
@everydayvietnam Жыл бұрын
This is literally Twisted Worlds video in way worse quality come on bro
@chaunceyabernathy5834Ай бұрын
Idgf RIP to all the young Rappers, i died with them....
@DeadSmilez11 ай бұрын
Idc what peep did he’s a legend and one of my icons dude has related to me in so many ways rip the goat gus !💯
@matthewf40206 ай бұрын
Lil Peep, Schema Boy, Hellboy, Trap Goose etc... it sucks he died in my State. I checked him out after hearing about him Passing and have been hooked on his Vibe since. Crybaby will always be GOAT IMHO he was so Unique and Genius. Just on another Level compared to all the other Artist at the Time and Since his Passing. Lil Peeps Catalogue of Music as well as his Style and of Course Vibe is out if this World. He put out so many Original Bangers before he Died at 21 that I don't believe any Artists alive today could Touch even after Generations. I love all his Music from Sagging My Pants, Liar, Call Me, Text Me, Star Shopping, Hellboy, Lil Kennedy, Lil Yung, Beamer Boy, Deathwish, 5 Degrees, Crybaby, Runaway, and on and on and on. Gustav Can Never Die because He'll Live on Forever through His Vibes. I still hate how I only discovered Lil Peep before he Passed. Lil Peeps Last Words or Post said "When I die, you'll Love me". He was right and I wish I knew of him when he was alive. RIP Lil Peep you were truly One of a Kind.
@kathleenhodges69492 ай бұрын
Why do people think that artists who are also addicts who sing about it are "glorifying" it? They're singing about their struggles. Sorry your addiction is skittles and you can't relate....damn
@hunterlorenz91259 ай бұрын
What’s the instrumental at 16:26 when Tracy is talking?
@finleybreuker39885 ай бұрын
i love how 2 of the beefs started from yung goth stealing someones clothes
@louiewhips11 ай бұрын
lil tracy was higher than the sun in that interview
@JohnJeffrey98 Жыл бұрын
Never heard about “Blackbear” I looked him up, and man does his music suck💀
@sadlad444 Жыл бұрын
Right!? Lol his music is so mediocre lmao
@ndr4432 Жыл бұрын
It really doesn't tho. You just hating cuz he's successful and he managed to turn his life around from struggling with addictions. Rip lil peep tho not gonna hate on the man for a stupid beef🕊
@yunisssimo11 ай бұрын
He has very good music. It's just that you're looking through the prism of their beef, so you don't like lmao
@hinata5575Ай бұрын
15:46 what's the song in the background? Pls?
@OhhhPez Жыл бұрын
Tf happened with the editing before and during Blackbear?
@Offbrandshirt6 ай бұрын
Idk
@rufassa Жыл бұрын
Is it just me or towards the end did the audio skip?
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
It did
@TAubrey Жыл бұрын
Been following u and a fan for a while but this title is awful and honestly this video is a lot lower quality and seems rushed out, super weird and tone deaf to title a vid something like this especially about a dude who’s been dead 7 years
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
how does it feel low quality and rushed out?
@TAubrey Жыл бұрын
@@rishavfash1rthe vibe of this video just gives off a vibe that it was made for clicks especially w the title, there doesn’t seem like there was much of an attempt to actually tell a story as much as make something that gets views And I get the KZbin grind, you gotta do what you gotta do to support yourself, this one just feels a little off Still a fan tho and wish you nothing but the best !
@chxkinghxzxrd Жыл бұрын
what i’m thinking with the “peep hating x because he’s homophonic” situation is that peep got shown an out of context clip where it completely cuts out the part where x says he’s not homophonic at all, he has gay friends, and the sole reason for doing what he did is because the guy in the cell made him feel uncomfortable and after multiple warnings the guy wouldn’t stop
@h3avenscent10 ай бұрын
ok but having gay friends does not make u not homophobic tho?
@nayipe3 ай бұрын
The "he has gay friends" is giving "i have black friends so I'm not racist" ngl
@georgendasowa2295 Жыл бұрын
Why do you have a picture of Alejandro Garnacho as your profile picture?
@Boop1-q3e Жыл бұрын
💀
@billzi7001 Жыл бұрын
garnacho mentioned on a peep vid gotta be a first xD
@sevay10 ай бұрын
19:30 i never knew Russ had 2 different colored eyes. i just now found out and ive known him for several years
@luke2026 Жыл бұрын
Bruh what is that title
@philipzeigler46053 ай бұрын
His biggest enemy was the record label he unfortunately signed to.
@landonricketts4309 Жыл бұрын
insane title even for views man💀💀💀
@MC_Native111 ай бұрын
Yay.. my fav rapper such a inspirational guy..
@HollywoodOasis11 ай бұрын
when your getting hated, you must be doing something right, which was the case for peep and why he blasted off
@diamanikov2 ай бұрын
by the time peep died he did not like yunggoth also, even in one of his studio sessions he says out of nowhere “fuck yunggoth” but it honestly doesn’t surprise me tbh fuck yunggoth he a whole weirdo lol
@destinytheshorty208611 ай бұрын
I find it funny he made fun of Lil xan cuz he loves peep and is lowkey inspired by him.
@carltonbanks3363 Жыл бұрын
Idk if you rushed through the editing or parts had ti get removed but certain parts are like off like you either cut yourself off or you say you’re gonna show a clip and it jumps to another clip of you talking. It’s shown the most during the blackbear segment so i wouldn’t be surprised its just those clips being claimed or something
@fash1r300 Жыл бұрын
Can you explain more
@nevergreenedout Жыл бұрын
@@fash1r30015:45 happened a couple times during the vid but thats the one i just saw
@nevergreenedout Жыл бұрын
@@fash1r30016:39 15:45
@carltonbanks3363 Жыл бұрын
@@fash1r300like at 11:02 you cut yourself off with another take you talking and at 11:20 you cut yourself off again with another take of what you were saying for example. There’s another parts where it feels like the editing and just clipped very abruptly. It doesn’t ruin the vid for me but it is noticeable I just thought you had to remove clips after you uploaded the vid
@ACRUSmusic7 ай бұрын
15:26 PLEASE, song???
@cvc20062ndchannelАй бұрын
4:16 The meaning behind "Falling Down". Peep LOVED women and is NOT a woman abuser. Peep HATES anyone who hits, slaps, punches, and beats women. I guess that's why Peep didn't like X.
@Smokey239292 ай бұрын
Peep was cool as fuck
@YoungDeathWish2 ай бұрын
Why yunggoth stealing everyone’s clothes man😂
@Bubsrns10 ай бұрын
Loyalty is so rare but that’s how it should be s/o X
@Phonesaredeath6 ай бұрын
'Victims, aren't we all'....
@OSTChuo Жыл бұрын
I'm telling you, when it comes to lil tracy and lil peep beef. That might just be the industry hateing black people fr.
@deadcopfiend777 Жыл бұрын
Fr
@Lxrzo Жыл бұрын
Peep only beefed w black people
@Creampieurself Жыл бұрын
@@Lxrzo well he beefed with Blackbear so this statement is false
@Lxrzo Жыл бұрын
@@Creampieurselfmy bad i didnt watch the whole vid
@love.ways7779 ай бұрын
This channel gonna hit 1mil
@RAMPAGEig29498 ай бұрын
Its good that X ended the shit with him and X tho
@kotnascher6711 Жыл бұрын
like your videos but you should watch that video back, theres a lot of cutting errors
@fash1r300 Жыл бұрын
Sorry premiere didn’t save my final revision
@Liquid_Mike Жыл бұрын
His BIGGEST enemy was opioids, apparently...
@tomgreenfan Жыл бұрын
his shitty label was his biggest enemy for feeding him drugs and making him do things he didnt want to do. they also supplied the fake oxy that killed him i think, touring was the reason he was doing so many drugs. hed be doing less if he had a better touring schedule
@dudeisful3 ай бұрын
And benzos lol
@R100FILMSАй бұрын
I feel bad for ski he almost cried talking bout peep after he passed sum 1 check up on ski bruh make sure he ok
@leafthehuman11 ай бұрын
Pls god take Blackbear and give us back peep
@Danny-jc1vc10 ай бұрын
weird asf bro
@qdpmusic7210 Жыл бұрын
Victims? Enemeis??
@danteedud47242 ай бұрын
His "beef" with tracy wasnt even on peep, it was his managers fr bruh
@MariaMaria-uj2cl2 ай бұрын
But fr the shows where He’s doing GBC songs or ones with lil Tracy and he’s just by himself on a big stage with out the crew it’s kinda awkward. They should have been there
@adamgrey4115 ай бұрын
this is off topic but at 10:44 you can see lil tracy wearing a Darkthrone Blaze in the northern sky shirt I think thats cool.
@oskyys685310 ай бұрын
I doubt peep was the kind of person to outright hate someone he never met. If he lived longer they probs would’ve met up and made music at some point X was already blowing up for the changes he made as a person.
@Gay_Luigi11 ай бұрын
the kray beef was way more than just "2 seconds"
@Z0N1IN_0UT10 ай бұрын
imo i feel like the ski mask clothe beef started cause ITSOKAYTOCRY stole ski's clothes ngl
@djinnmagik200311 ай бұрын
They probably didn't hangout long enough to get to know each other well enough to know wether they got along or not. They did have one thing "in common" for sure. They were the two hottest new Sound Artists on the scene. RIP LIL PEEP & XXXTENTACION. It sucks to go that young! They both would have gotten better with age during their musical development. RIP JUICE WORLD also had a short life. Songwriters and Muzik Producers live a lot of life in one day. I've lived that life because I do both. They call me Djinn Magik, Philadelphia's Master Painter of Sound. 💖🎨🎶 LoVe2P∆int$ound
@CbaDropDead Жыл бұрын
Now you change the title? After all the hate. Man... do better. 🤦♀️
@uah66 Жыл бұрын
lmao did you not watch this back before uploading it the editing is really bad
@rishavfash1r Жыл бұрын
could you explain where?
@uah66 Жыл бұрын
@15:41 , @15:45 and 16:28 all just the clips and you start talking for a second then it stops and you continue talking starting a new sentence
@LunarVamp Жыл бұрын
What do you mean by that? 🤔
@dacembur8 ай бұрын
rest in peace to LilPeep
@tabathapodczerviensky198811 ай бұрын
Tbh when i heard about all Lils coming out i didnt care too much to ever listen to peeps music until one day after a decade of being clean i had just picked up blues for the first time my sister came with me to make sure i didnt O.D while driving home i let my sister control the radio i heavily influenced her like in music giving that she is emo and a song came Isnt Life beautiful as soon as i heard his voice the car got quiet i was in a very very dark place losing control of my life and not being on drugs we turned it up and played it a couple of times and i remember asking her who is and she told me Lil Peep and i was like wtf seriously she said yeah i had never in my entire life while heavy in addiction had heard an artist that hit me so hard with the song Isnt Life beautiful i was always into emo music so i never truly ventured into rap which i thought was what Gus was doing and i was all wrong complelty and uttely memorized by his sounds lyrics voice they hit in a way i could never ever begin to relay into words slowly i became enthralled into Peeds music i can and will say this i have never in my entire life cared about anyone remotely famous i would like a song here there of artists but heck didnt even know their real names outside of a stage name still dont know anyone's real name tbh no movie actor nothing heck i have never crushed on anyone famous either people will say an artists name or actor and i will be like never heard of them and they will play a song and be ohh okay i guess i know a song and then immediately forget the arists/actors name.i went down the rabbit hole watching any and all videos by Gus or about Gus. I sincely regret not listening to him while he was here with us all. Im currenlty wearing my firsr ever merch item (by anyone other than anime) of Lil Peep which his shirt was a gift from a BHT who use to come in and do groups and my rehab and every time he came in i was playing something by Peep knowing all lyrics shoot everyone would be like dont let Tabatha pick a song all she plays is Peep. This young man touched my sould and turned my tragic life into soul vibing touching music and melodies. Being an addict and seeing famous ppl who come from good homes and backgrounds try to be like we know what its like to be in the dirt dope sick cool but do u understand the pain of what addicts are trying to run from and found the escape in drugs???? Thus now causing new and more trauma because of our addiction because even as children we never fit in never had friends we hated the very idea of waking up and as a child we were not aware of our own trauma happening at home but we still could feel the pain and saw how horrible the world was we saw and knew the world was evil b4 even being truly exposed to the world. I swear to this day as someone who has been in over 20 locked down units 5 point restraints montly as an adult just wanting it to be all over cause the one thing that keeps is going our only way to cope is not allowed i swear there are only three reasons i have been clean and sober for the past 7 months both my baby boys amd the fear of never ever being able to hear Peeps music. Im now in stage three liver failure due to an ex husband who didnt tell me he had hepatitis C and when i got it u couldnt get a cure unless u were cirrhosis which i wasnt at the time but after the cure became readily avaiable i didnt buy it at first and i didnt know how bad my liver had become due to mental physcial abuse and then relapsing until i met a doctor who looked at me and said i need to start making plans if i want to be a DNR patient i rememeber one doctor had drawn my blood at 6 a.m and i was in his office by 8 a.m he said if hadnt showen up for and emergency appoitment when his staff called me he was going to send paramedic to my home who could force entry when i finally decided to really give this a try it was 7 months ago in detox and the detox was like ur liability we have never heard of levels as high as urs i was rushed in for the cure i was so bad which i ddint understand i knew i didnt feel good alot and couldnt even work more than a couple of hours the specialist told me addicts have to prove for at lesst 6 months of sobriety to get the cure and my specialist said Idc im giving it to you or will die alot quicker ur already in stage 3 i cant change or fix that cant reverse it but getting the cure will pro long the inevitable and thats going into stage 4. If i dont give u the cure now u could be in stage 4 any day hopefully this will by u some time to get on a transplant list. Im making it because of my boys and because of a young man i have never ever met Gus Elijah Ahr. Ur music far surpassed ur age. U knew pain on a level that i thought no one truly understood other my boys watching a seemily healthy beautiful college educated mother destroy herself in front of them all over trauma that i have now indirectly passed down to my two inncoent boys one whom became a double amputee at 15 months old. Not due to my addiction never touched anything pregnant and my relaspe happened after my babies amputation it was all thanks to pharmaceutical medication deemed safe during pregnancy which i stopped all of the day i found out i was pregnant at 4 weeks 5 days yet it was already too late for my son. Peeps music took my pain away in a way i will never ever be able to put words too. Thank you for letting me rant about my pain the pain i caused others and how no artist has ever gotten my soul like lil Peep has and no one ever will in the future. There is more too being emo/goth/scene than just a style or saying ur sad and depressed its actually going through shit over and over again and being able to understand ur part and others. Too this day i have never ever dressed goth scene or emo. No one knows i am i dont wear my pain for the world to see i hide it i keep it locked away no one knows the real me inside or my story except for my children. I dont let my outter appearance show who i am inside so i have never ever truly been accepted into any group or clique. But somehow as my days are near Gus made it a little bit easier to keep holding on. Now a bunch of strangers know this. Love u my baby boys and ever truly sorry to Liza my worst fear is ur reality.
@bluesnem839611 ай бұрын
i hope you’re doing fine, i read the whole thing and you’re in my prayers ❤
@tabathapodczerviensky198811 ай бұрын
@@bluesnem8396 you really did thank you thank you that means so much too me. I just got carried away and started talking about my life story.
@Danny-jc1vc10 ай бұрын
@@tabathapodczerviensky1988hope you good but I aint reading this declaration of independence bro. much love doe
@Kid-ke7kb6 ай бұрын
It's okay to be jealous he was really special💯
@ariana-v7x7s2 күн бұрын
I dont think they had beef cause x showed respect to peep after is past and felt guilty and most people wouldnt do that and if there was beef it most likely would have been 1 sided by peep but i wouldnt know.
@mixerscutiie717510 ай бұрын
x and peep never have rlly beef the only reason why this track never comes out before is cuz 1.they different lives 2.and his loyality to his friend
@HaydenSchmidt-yt8up2 ай бұрын
Imo I think black bears comeback was awesome 😂
@ianh2242 ай бұрын
“i’m not here to be your assistant” says the mop head talking to the person assisting her..
@aiacc2aiacc23 ай бұрын
how was he a sweet person and tried to please everyone but did oktocry like that and chose to make no reperations of it?
@goblinboyfriend11 ай бұрын
Your channel has good content! I’ve been binging it lately, but I think you need to watch your videos once more before you upload em. theres a lot of minor editing errors make watching the videos a bit jarring
@rishavfash1r11 ай бұрын
Thanks for the tips, this videos' most recent edit wasn't rendered my bad