The Hidden BPD Pain Nobody Talks About

There's so much to talk about with BPD, but I feel like people rarely talk about this particular aspect. Also, I spent too much time thinking about the problems with castle design and military tactics in the final season of Game of Thrones.
Anyway, this is definitely a video about living with BPD.
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Hi everybody, I'm Rich, and welcome to my channel!
I've spent my adult life living with Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, and Narcissistic Personality Disorder, NPD. I was finally diagnosed in 2019 and have spent the last three years working through therapy, which has recently come to an end.
In my videos I share my experiences living with these conditions, and the things I've learned about how to deal with them. I've come a long way in healing, but I'm nowhere near the end of my journey.
I'm definitely not any form of medical professional, and my videos should absolutely not be used in place of actual therapy or other real help. I'm just a guy with a camera and microphone, who loves the sound of his own voice.

[@laycie_mnm]

Thanks for the validation. It's exhausting to never get "over it", or "get better", or "be fixed", like everyone expects. A good friend, when I told her about my BPD, told me to "just breathe". We're not such good friends anymore. It is definitely easier to just stay home with my dog and watch TV. The only person who actually enjoys my company (besides my fur baby) is my autistic husband, since he has no unrealistic expectations of me or our relationship.

[@fatymah1138]

i’m sorry but “just breathe.”??? 😭

[@AdelePeters-nr6pb]

I agree.....😢

[@digitalcassette5]

I dont feel everyone hates me. Its more they dont care / want to connect with me. Im just an npc.

[@ranc1977]

If other person doesn't care or if he/she doesn't want to connect with you - the reason behind is the hate. Hate comes in spectrum like any other emotion. Small dosage of hatred means not caring about other people and not feeling trust to connect to other person.

[@HealyTheresa]

❤

[@ranc1977]

That is why Quiet BPD develop people pleasing social mask - in order to make other people not feeling hatred.

[@EarlyMorningBarking]

That’s just a general BPD thing. Most of us do that.

[@ranc1977]

@@EarlyMorningBarking To some extent. Impulsive borderliners will eventually drop the mask - when the other person is empathic and nice and won't fight back. Then impulsives will drop the nice act and show their true colors. Quiet BPD won't. They will keep on hanging on to mask even when they have every right to fight back and to be rude to extremely rude people, always wearing a smile and nice pleasant chatter with toxic people who do not deserve this at all.

[@vengeance9255]

No one hates you, bruh. It is "we" who hate most of them.

[@marcusmasefield]

I feel you. 🫂

[@kimmysplayhouse]

This is a great explanation. Often when I find myself isolating, it’s because I can’t figure out how to tell people it’s literally the same shit-different day. If I could pull myself out of it, I would. It gets old to the people around us to hear the same complaints over and over, especially when we don’t have an explanation for why we feel these things.

[@bill8039]

I get it man. I have quite BPD and god it's hard . I'm 39. I said the same thing last week to someone. That it's just a fight everyday ....It's fucking a exhausting existence.

[@rain7bow437]

I can't help the thoughts of why the f* am i even here? Why am i alive if this is all its ever going to be? Why can't i be successful like everyone else? And on it goes..... thanks for these videos. Take care everyone x

[@EarlyMorningBarking]

You take care too.

[@AdelePeters-nr6pb]

Feel The same 😢

[@sqZiee]

facts lol, I often lie about how I feel to my family because they don't get it, yeah I am a bit more stable now but the emptiness and boredom never goes away.. and I tend to purposely avoid people because nothing new is happening in my life and I dunno what to say without feeling extreme shame about it.

[@zachary007]

I can relate with this. I don't have BPD, but when I don't have any new accomplishments to talk about with my family, all that is left is basically depression and isolation, which I'm ashamed of, and I can't talk about it because it tends to upset people.

[@SunshineSparkle2000]

Wonderful! Bpd in Canada.

[@beachsunandsand5504]

It’s exhausting… then someone will put in the occasional comment of “well we all have problems “ to add to the ruining and sinking you’ve already been feeling of shame… when you’ve already made yourself feel bad for not being able to just get on with it ….. being this way is not something we want to feel or choose and I’m thinking I wish I had that proverbial switch I could just turn on or off and again feel invalidated…

[@shadeylurker86]

100%

[@catephish]

every video of yours about bpd speaks to my soul... i wish i could say positive things like 'it'll get better' but we're the last people who believe that

[@EarlyMorningBarking]

With help, it really can get better.

[@catephish]

@@EarlyMorningBarking thank you so much for the positivity... i guess even if it never goes away, we can learn to adapt and cope! looking forward to more content from you, lots of love and empathy.

[@AdelePeters-nr6pb]

Agree 😢