The Horror of Being a Story

[@lunarmagpie619]

“I do want people to know that I was here and that I was Amabel” and your following comments on the use of “deadname” gave me the same profound, twisting feeling that I sat with in We Are All Going To The World’s Fair, and when you transitioned (pun intended) to an analysis of that film I just about shot out of my seat. What a beautiful video.

[@marcelineleiman4330]

Always incredible work! You take these nuances in these films and connect them in such a masterful and succinct way. Some of these films I haven’t yet seen-but still felt I could watch them and have my own experience.

[@anonymouspigeon744]

Wow, the origin of "deadname" and how it reflects our stories being told by other on our behalf...

[@cirthador1453]

This was really fascinating. Your video essays are some of the most valuable things on the internet.

[@rattenkollektiv]

I think I fear I'm trying to turn my life into a story, again and again and again I have delayed my coming out as a thing TOO BIG to deal with right now. When I finally did it, nothing much has happened yet. I feel almost dissapointed that it didn't blow up in my face. What a dumb thing to be annoyed by. Turns out life is messy, and slow, and thats fine.

[@sincewhen]

What a journey. Many aspects of your experience are things I have become numb to hearing about; “Public treats real person like a character,” “Community tries to erase deceased person’s transness,” “Man harasses person on internet,” “oh look a funny cat video thank god,” are an average Tuesday on this here World Wide Web. However, as fiction is wont to do, the framing with the films walked me into a headspace where I could really feel the horror of the nonfiction. Seeing what you can accomplish with a video essay, I shudder to think what you would be able to do with an entire film.

[@twentysides]

Thank you for this video! I paused this video to watch Lake Mungo and I Saw the TV Glow so I could see them spoiler-free. I don't think I'm built to handle both of those films in the same day. I found them both deeply sad similar to the ways you described here.

[@amabel_holland]

Yeah, in revisiting each of these films I had to spread it out across a couple weeks.