The Melancholy of Gates 38, the Fighter and 28 the Game Player in the Human Design System

[@poebeth]

I’m a blaze of glory as well as a shaking hands with the devil. . . I definitely have had moments where I just feel like there’s no point and want it all to end, particularly as a teenager. Now I know that’s it’s just about breathing through that and waiting for the awareness to come. But oh boy, I’ve felt my 28.6 strongly a few times over the last couple of years as I’ve looked around me to see and feel the chaos! Moments of not being able to get up off the floor with all the despair. . .

[@roguereemerged]

YES!!!! So nice to finally have that validated!!!!

[@ilonaszekely5975]

Yes, it is true. I have undefined 38 with undefined root. It is tense inside when there is nothing to "do". Also have undefined 57, undefined 12, defined 22 and 43. Life is hard. Anyway I think I fight for myself. I like your explanations. :)

[@Alpha-Andromeda]

There must be something else too because I have 38 defined (design Mars) but not connected to 28. And I ABSOLUTELY do know what to fight for. However when the world stunts and opposes my fight, then the melancholy sets in. So maybe it’s not just “I don’t know what to fight for”…

[@RokSivante]

the "love worth fighting for" part really struck home. unfortunately, acting it out was not a strategy that worked so well. :-/

[@catwalking6220]

I am a 6/2 and my personality sun is at 28.6; imagine the melancholy🙃

[@cellule160]

Could somebody tell me where are others "suicide places" in the chart please?