THE PAIN SAVED MY LIFE| A SPECIAL SURPRISE

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[@nutrianirvana6823]

Still revisiting her videos. She lived a truly incredible, inspirational life. Aisha is a literal angel and I'm so happy she's now the mother of a beautiful baby boy. She certainly deserves her happiness though I know how deeply she still misses Emily. God bless your soul Emily and God bless you Aisha and son. You are so loved.

[@DefiantAngel87]

Does Aisha have her own youtube?

[@Sheyann_89]

Watching Emily's videos really make you think about your own life and how your living it. This girl had so much strength. She never let it get her down. When I personally watch her video it really puts things into perspective for me that I am healthy and I need to be more grateful for that. Sometimes being healthy all of our lives we tend to categorize that as normal and yes it can be but we tend to take advantage of that. Emily was such a beautiful beautiful soul so us who loved and cared for her need to live up our lives for her as well as ourselves because she only had a short time to do that. Bless her. I hope she's kickin ass up there in heaven and loving every minute of it

[@sandraclark7771]

Watching some of these vlogs again, March 2019. I keep coming back to have some Emily and Aisha time.... because I can't bear it that we have lost this bright, beautiful shining light.... she wouldn't harm a fly, it makes me sad to think of all the pain and struggles she endured just to try to stay alive as long as possible. It was 6 months after this video that she died. An awful thing to accept. As always sweet Em, love you forever, Peace xxx

[@karencurtis2697]

Aisha is so funny and strong. She has no idea how much that kind of love and support counts , My Lisa is my rock and when the C came into our lives, her strength, love and laughter got us through that part . Keeping your love strong 💪🏼 enjoying those time out for coffee ☕️ or walks on your own are very in powering. Love to you both take care of each other 🙃

[@bohochic2459]

Hi Karen, I know you wrote this four years ago. Your comment was so touching. I pray all is okay with you and Lisa. 🙏💗

[@mrsprincenelson5756]

RiIP our angel xx you fought so hard xx Watch your older blogs because I miss you both so much xx Love to your beautiful wife Aisha Peace - Em xxx

[@lunis471]

She was such a wonderful soul. Truly inspirational both of them.miss her vlogs xxxx

[@Sophie-rk2iv]

A month doesn't seem like long at all, until you're watching an Emily vlog. RIP lovely, love to Aisha xo

[@karenglenn6707]

I didn’t know about you until after you had died. What an amazing soul you are and will always be. Much love to Aisha, your family and friends. You are loved by so many people still. I lost my best friend to cancer in 1997, she was just like you. I truly never thought that the cancer would be capable of taking her away, leaving 2 little girls. I hope that you and my darling Meredith, both girls so full of life, have met now.

[@DefiantAngel87]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[@applejellypucci]

6 months and 3 days after this, Emily lost her cancer battle. Rest in peace, girl.

[@cancerian137]

5 months

[@christophermiller159]

Nooooooo crap!!! A beautiful girl gone. I hate cancer

[@laurahauhut4455]

I just can't believe she is gone

[@MrsSchwarzwaldmaedl]

So sad to watch it now knowing where the journey went. Yet so good to have all her videos. Still heartbreaking. And yesterday Peewee ended his fight as well. I am devastated. Aisha, how are you doing? Love you lots, my dear!♥

[@007janerussell]

MrsSchwarzwaldmaedl 💔😥

[@lynjones9339]

Why do the good die younge x

[@ledzepgirlnmful]

Emily, sending you much love. You give me encouragement to continue on with my life's battles. Sometimes, I have a pity party when I can't eat and keep things down. I'm grateful for the feeding tube in my jejunum, which was placed after I lost my stomach. Living with chronic Illness is awful. But you, my Sweet girl, are amazing, I am so glad you have Aisha by your side, you compliment one another well. And having love in this life gets us through the toughest of times. Much love and blessings to you both. I'm rooting for you, Emily to beat this damn set of diseases, known as cancer. I pray that you and Aisha have more time to enjoy life to it's fullest together.

[@Dolphinsz]

You are an amazing women. Who has to go through way too much at such a young age. Your strength is a sign to all. To not sweat the small things. And that life is worth fighting for!

[@lisabarto3069]

Hey guys, Kasey from Australia, now living in Los Angeles with my wife. I just turned 50 and was diagnosed with breast cancer last October. I found you on KZbin and haven’t looked back since. I always look forward to watching your vlogs. I lost my previous partner of 15 years from breast cancer in 2013, after a seven year battle, so I connect with Ay-sha as well as you. She is a very loving and supporting woman, and you are a true inspiration. Keep fighting the fight, your a trooper, have a great day mate. Kasey xx

[@Sheyann_89]

I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I hope your in remission by now. Prayers to you hun. 💕

[@emmajoesbury6649]

Go on girl! You have to stay positive to win this. I never really believed in preying before my dad got cancer but what harm can it do. You are in my thoughts and preyers. Sending positivity overload ❤️❤️

[@susanchisena8166]

Your positivity and love for life amazes me. You are such a fighter....So beautiful to see.

[@magicmariobichon751]

I think you're amazing such a positive beautiful girl. X

[@judyrutherford5721]

I love and adore you both. ❤️ Hugs and kisses from 🇨🇦

[@laurakhurram7899]

A notification from you would be so amazing 😉 right now, R.I.P beautiful girl 👧 xxxx

[@thehippie2897]

Love you guys. You’re such a strong woman.. 💙💙💙

[@joanneallion1195]

I’m on a morphine patch and sometimes I can scratch until it’s raw xx❤️❤️ I have just started watching you and I think you are so brave, life can be so cruel and your enjoying yourself instead of wallowing in self pity be brave I love you and Aisha you are being so brave xx❤️❤️❤️

[@SusiOfficial]

Your bedroom looks lovely!

[@annettegenovesi4012]

You can see how Aisha hurts with her Emily. Better to have loved and lost I suppose, but this is truly heartbreaking.

[@hannahhayward1813]

On a big mission with positivity at the moment- trying to keep myself positive and influence all around me! You are so damn positive and I truly believe in the power of the positive mind! Keep up the fight- we’re all behind you! Aisha is ace and so funny- love watching you both together 💖 xxxx

[@DisneyJessxo]

You are the most positive and strongest person I've ever known emily, both of you are!! Please don't let it win, i know you can do this!! xx

[@georginataylor4617]

Stay strong, you got this xx

[@corinnayorke2422]

❤️❤️ In my prayers daily!!

[@carolsherby7462]

Love you Emily and Aisha you are so strong 💪🏼 and have great character.

[@natsjourney6570]

Your such a strong independent woman! I honestly don’t know anyone stronger than you!👌🏻 the way you speak and your attitude towards your cancer is amazing🙈 I don’t think I’d cope more than you do😘 Aisha is also amazing, the way she looks after you☺️ you two are so lucky to have each other and Emily you are lucky to have so much support, it’s sad to say this but if it is the end of the road your legacy will live on forever! But with the way your going and the progress your making we can all see your going to fight this cancer like a pro especially while have such great nutrition, you go girl! Kick cancers ass👌🏻 we all love you ☺️❤️❤️

[@sallyphillips9175]

Somehow I missed this one, even going back and binge watching all Emily's old videos after she passed. I can identify with the thought of the pain saving her life, although in the end she did die. I'm a borderline Stage 4 breast cancer survivor (Feb. 19, 2019 will mark nine years cancer free), and pain was my FIRST symptom. It was like a shooting, searing pain across my breast. At first, I thought the underwire on my bra had broken and was poking into the skin. Sure enough, it was ... but even after tossing the bra, the pain continued and worsened. Finally after three weeks, I saw my gynecologist who promptly sent me to a surgeon. Breast cancer doesn't run in my family, so that was the last thing on my mind. At diagnosis, my tumor was the size of a baseball. By the time I started chemo a couple weeks later, it was softball size and in my lymph nodes. It hurt because the tumor was so large it wrapped around nerves. Normally breast cancer doesn't hurt -- but it CAN -- so if you have unexplained pain in that area that worsens over time, GET IT CHECKED.

[@bohochic2459]

Hi Sally, Thank you for such an important message. It has been three years since you wrote this comment. I pray you are doing as well as possible. 🙏💗🙏💗🙏💗

[@sallyphillips9175]

@@bohochic2459 As far as cancer goes, I saw my oncologist a few weeks ago for my annual checkup, and he says he thinks I'm cured! With the type of cancer I had, the chances of it returning are the highest in the first two years. It will be 12 years in February, so I'm doing great!

[@leeann2226]

Such a Brave Em, and Aisha has been such an amazing wife Blessings to you both miss yoi Emily 💖💜🧡💛💚💙

[@marinazelkovich6026]

poor girl, she was just a child after all😥RIP

[@jenwhitehead4092]

What a brave young lady right untill the end x

[@ourcorrectopinions6824]

Love the talking after the "thanks for watching" credits. Adorable.

[@Terriersontour]

Focus on what you can control which is your positivity, you mindset can help you keep on that upwards progression, go girl keep on fighting !! Xx

[@antprice8826]

Morphine makes me itch like hell, been on it for years,, love you both lots ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@highonimmi]

as a chronic pain sufferer i agree with you on how pain negatively effects you.

[@eleshaburgess8567]

Lovely all any of us have his now the past and the future are illusions. Just live today right now, because it’s precious and its all that is promised. Right now.

[@therese3960]

This.... 😭😭😭😭 There should be a love button ❤

[@rachel.1311]

What a beautiful Angel, still watch your vlogs but for a while I had to stop..but came across this one I must have missed somehow!😐..anyway, sorry for rambling, rip agn beautiful brave girl, and love to yours and Aisha and family's, lots of love always, my inspiration always even tho I didn't know u personally, thank you for sharing all u could while u were here, Rach from Australia xx 4-10-19.ps. I am now almost 8kgs down because of the app I saw you using, I am diabetic, from your tips also, you have helped so much even from heaven 😪, thanku xxoo.

[@DanaWilliams05]

Geeeezzz I Miss Em! I’ve been binge watching her vlogs for the past 3 days. I think people should subscribe to her channel. She’s not going to bug you. You’ll just get random suggestions to watch her videos from time to time. She was so excited when she would get new subscribers. She’d be tickled pink if she got tons of subscribers. I can hear her now and how excited she would be if she got a million subscribers. 😊 And I know she’s saying “I love you lot” ❤

[@clairecarey8004]

One of your best vlogs yet Emily 🤗👍 you are such a natural .... You both had me in tears of laughter with the baby bel cheese ! God damn who knew you could wash it ! Ha ha.. I would have tried it too so well done Alisha for going first... Ha ha .. I completely understand about getting the hell out of the house ! It's such a good feeling when you have been in for a bit.... I had to do that for just over 10 weeks ... Felt like I'd been born again !!... Glad the pain is getting better and helps you not to be constantly reminded I get that.. Positive, positive all the way young lady ! Cmon you got this xxxx

[@victoriaindigo]

Yes Emily, Aisha does need more makeup brushes, lol! I’m so glad you have your relationship and friends, I think that really helps your health❤️

[@sarag2809]

I love you and Aisha! God bless both of you❤️❤️❤️

[@cruiseylee]

You say this on every video. And he didnt. Caused her pain and grief and horrible end. If he existed but he dont.

[@haimhavkin8579]

I am one of the guys who couldn’t like your videos before you asked us to like it for you and for your channel. From now on, I am all yours 😁👍. I hate your situation, I admire the way you fight it. If you ever come back to the US, you have a place to stay in Las Vegas. Hope to see you here during remission. God bless you and Aisha. She is so great taking care of you. Loyalty and dedication. You are a lucky girl to have her in your life

[@gwynethgrove772]

Swimming is really good as a non weight bearing exercise, cardio and great for your muscle tone. Try some yoga too, very good mentally and helps with pain management. You are so strong and have a great attitude..... if we could bottle it the NHS would be saved. So lovely to see that you are feeling better. Peace to you both as well.

[@gemmaley7278]

Oh Em I do love that we can keep up to date through ya videos - we need to have a reunion as well! Aisha seems so lush too I wanna meet her! Lol Love to all - go girl !! 👊🏼👊🏼 xxxx

[@Terriersontour]

I posted lower down on here whilst she was going through her battle. I still miss her zest for life and that attitude that meant she never gave up. She must have had some really dark times but we rarely saw them and when we did it was only glimpses and that was Em , positive and beautiful all the way through. Loved and missed by so many xxx

[@Emilyk1317]

❤️

[@Terriersontour]

Ironic she means more than ever as I was diagnosed with melanoma last Tuesday. Hope she is with me ❤️

[@marybeazley7741]

Emily i could take you and shake you what do you mean this is it.....you are afighter and you are going to fight harder than you ever had before i love you both so stay in there girl .....xxxx..... Mary from Canada P.S this comes from my heart

[@ella-bt8hp]

Binge watching your old videos and am laughing out loud about the washing the baby bell and eating it after at least I know it still tastes good haha xx

[@crystalsmith6772]

Oh sweet Emily- I'm so so sorry you have to go thru this .... You and Aisha are such a beautiful couple and she is so sweet to u ... I'm praying they come up with something to help u. 💕💕💕💕💕

[@Sparky12355]

You guys just make me want to meet the love of my life and move to London

[@rosemarys2465]

Liking this for YOU. I do believe that PAIN alerted my daughter to her breast cancer! Her son threw a basketball to her and she didn't catch it well and it hit her chest. Felt pain there and it didn't go away. Went to have it checked out and found out that she had stage 2 breast cancer! She would have never known otherwise. She had chemo, double mastectomy and now just done with radiation. Doesn't see a doctor for three months now. Just like YOU.....lets all think positive that all is good. I would love to meet you one day. Come to Minnesota, USA.

[@linkenski]

My father had a tumor in the bone of his foot, which was maybe his primary or else it was from the lungs. He was in pain from day 1, right in the foot and it was just excruciating :/ Also, Emily, you're the age of my little sister, and the same personality type, so it bums me out, but your way of having dealt with the cancer has been a delight to see. It's not easy, and why does it have to be a part of living -- but it happens to some people and it's unfortunate, but you've definitely done the best you could in this run so far and just try to keep going every day. Life is strange. You're an inspiration, peace :)

[@catharineburke4494]

We get baby bells here in the States Too. RIP Emily.

[@LivingInkWell]

LOL! WE love them in America, too( in regards to the BabyBell(e) Laughing Cow cheese wheel💜...lol)!!

[@suzyq4982]

Just from the comments on her videos it’s plain to see how much Emily is still missed 😢 I’m sure Emily would be amazed by the impact she had on so many lives ! Miss ya girl x

[@AmandaB.6529]

You two are so lovely and funny together xxx

[@mosaicgirl4002]

Were IS that new make-up Brush! Love it! What a fab video. Well done girls - gold stars for you both 🌟🌟!

[@peggyw172]

Hilarious a baby bel in the wash! Aisha cracks me up.

[@Winter_Dream]

Nah this isn't the end for you Emily, you got a long ways yet :) Keep channelling that positive spirit of yours, it's your Jedi power!

[@philipcarey5831]

Heard of people laundering money, but cheese? Lol. Love the vlog Emily xxx

[@peterkozak9212]

Emily, you were such a fighter! You inspired people everyday! Rest In Peace! Praying for Aisha, your families and many, many friends! You obviously will be greatly missed! 😢♥️🙏🏻😥♥️🙏🏻😥♥️🙏🏻😥♥️🙏🏻😥♥️🙏🏻😥♥️🙏🏻

[@iptisamal-alak6920]

Binge watching for old times sake. 😔Miss u Emily. Hope you’re doing ok Aisha. X

[@sixx2683]

how can we still believe in god when a girl like this gets taken away this young?? she was amazing

[@jeansmith3367]

Thinking of you at this time of year xxx

[@katehayward5149]

Iv liked it .... only for you not for anything else 😢

[@lindachurchman9521]

Miss you x

[@mscavsfan]

So happy the pain is better. I like Aisha's wise way of looking at things. Was wondering if the melanoma was in a mole you were born with or if it just suddenly appeared. Love you guys.

[@zenasboy]

What fantastic support you have, Aisha is a complete 🌟 keep strong and you can fight this Emily. What do you get if you cross a sheep n cheese?? Ba ba ba babybel... Loving your video's.

[@sarahprice5542]

You're both amazing, I really hope the pain stays at a more bearable level for you! Seeing you getting up every day and taking things on with such a positive attitude is always a good reminder for me to do the same - living with illnesses that are taking over isnt easy, but I know that with your positivity and determination you can get through this - and I know I always feel like I've had a boost to remind me to push myself too after watching your videos! Also love thinking of the pain as a lifesaver instead of a burden - your videos consistently help me to change my view of things to a more positive and determined outlook. The future is bright - no matter what is going on there is always love and happiness to be found in some shape or form and you are both the perfect example of this!!! Hope you both have the best week possible! Also... I fully support the makeup brush addiction haha!! it is definitely necessary xxx

[@mikkihester]

Would love to see some of your drawing!!!

[@jennifer007007007]

heyyyyyyyy Emily , I just stumbled upon your blog yesterday and girl I gotta tell you:- I cannot stop watching and liking your videos. I was just telling few friends today in my study group about you and how much more positive you are than me and sooooo much more energetic than me despite your medical conditions. and I told my study friends that we think the stress of a particular upcoming exam is soooooo hard . but there are people like you facing life and death situations and doing it with sooooooo much love for life. I gotta learn that from you. in past : i have struggled with lot of negative emotions (negativity that I received from a particular person ). but your videos are helping me put things in perspective . continue being your amazing self. its heart warming to see how much Aisha loves you . I had one question in mind:- and you said not to hesitate to ask you anything :- so am asking:- what are the white patches/marks on your shoulders? peace love prayers

[@fredeemoon6053]

Beautiful, blissful, inside and out, Inspiring ,desiring, with out a doubt. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

[@meganterrell1254]

I just stumbled upon your channel Emily, and although it was not the best title, the picture on your face said it all for me! You truly are an inspiration to us all in some way, with cancer or without, that you need to live your life to the fullest and push through your battles. I had to subscribe and now I'm binging on all your vids!! I wish you so much luck and love to you both! Much love from Indiana xx

[@BereanIshsha]

It’s as though cancer has a mind of its own.. it likes to tease us while keeping us in fear. I wish cancer itself would catch cancer and die so that it can never affect anyone’s life again! My only hope is in God, so I will always be praying for you. Stay strong girl xx

[@MrDigztheswagking]

Naomi Rice RIP EMILY

[@Bklyn93]

Our hearts are with you and Aisha. I gave you a like to bring you up to 222 (a nice even number). God/the universe/whatever you believe in bless you both. I admire your courage, your strength and the love you and Aisha have. You two can beat this together!!! :)

[@linda2468lou]

Yes, Eye-sha, you are amazing! Believe it! You have the best smile and we like seeing it! Also, you offer Emily the most astounding support during this awful time. And so, this viewer thanks you also. Keep working that hard fight Emily. We're listening and praying for ya'll! My intuition says you'll be just fine in the long run! (and I've got really good intuition!) so don't give up or give in to those weird middle- of -the- night insecure thoughts! They come at us all, with or without cancer! Believe that you will get over this bump in the road with the help of the greatest healer, God and you will! (from experience I say this!) And maybe while you are healing, you can catch up on some strange movies or t.v. series that you've been missing all these years. (i.e.: The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills! 😜 or Burn Notice -- since you're probably missing Florida about now!) Take care and Peace, L. 🐬

[@cammeronwall5841]

Sweet girls!! Stay strong!

[@barbaravyse660]

We do have baby bell cheese in America 😋 I love your accent.

[@Jane-mv9np]

RIP angel, thoughts with Aisha and Emily's fam. They say time's a healer but it's not, take it from experience, lost my brother nearly 10 years ago to rta then my partner 3 yrs ago to cancer, I just exist now for the rest of my family x

[@srgrounds]

How will they treat this newest find? Same treatment? Add something new? You’re meant to be amongst the living Emily. Always hoping for the best for you both.

[@jadedmind1234]

LOL yup, we have Baby bell here.

[@ayobbarwari]

Rip😭

[@elliemccourt5995]

Closing comment about make up brushes though.... 🤣 🤣🤣

[@beckyklepper315]

I love Babybell cheese!

[@sabrinar.3917]

I love Babybel cheese! They have it everywhere over here in the U.S! Aisha and her makeup brush obsession at the end...Haha. She will never stop. Lol. I'm glad you got to go out for a walk and I hope that treatment works its ass off on your cancer!

[@Maplelust]

everywhere? I've never heard of it. guess you're wrong.

[@sabrinar.3917]

@@Maplelust it's at all grocery stores. No need to be so negative & rude. You probably have just never had the need to keep an eye out for it.

[@Maplelust]

@@sabrinar.3917 I'm not being rude I just don't care about cheese that much.

[@Maplelust]

@@sabrinar.3917 but thank you so much for your deep insight. I feel so much better knowing that people like you know where this cheese is.

[@sabrinar.3917]

@@Maplelust yeah you are being rude and sarcastic. If you don't care, then be quite. Obviously, you care enough to be unnecessarily rude to someone who did nothing to you. You must be such a "delight" to be around. Bye Felicia!!!

[@jimmyjohnstone7258]

Is there an option of having the liver mass excised ?You need to be in control of pain so it is good to hear that the meds are working on that front. As you say, pain is an indicator of the cancer in the hip and spine, but you need now to get it to a level where you are not always thinking of the cancer due to constant severe pain so that some normal life can resume. No gym but going out, seeing friends. You and the make up brush Queen make a great team. Hugs.

[@leelak9763]

#BossB #getemgirl #positivevibes

[@Greenthumb-420]

we get baby bell in Canada. I wouldn't have eaten it from washing machine though! thats just me :)

[@jessej.m.e8430]

The baby bell challenge, wash it then eat it 😅 When you said "If I don't fight this could be the end" You have to be realistic... You probably won't look at this BUT you are incredible & fighting so, so hard!! Its Cliché but staying positive through cancer is the key‼ Love Ya Guys xx xx 👊 💪 ✊

[@beelarehman5992]

Buy the brushes!

[@janedmunds5756]

How about trying exercise bands?

[@lenak9438]

We get baby bels here in Canada 🇨🇦 Ontario

[@Greenthumb-420]

ur house is huge!! do u rent or own?

[@loannaxxx8845]

Been 4 years 😥 since she passed miss you.

[@deefitzgerald2906]

Watching these 2 and you can see so much LOVE.....What makes me SICK is that BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY didn’t get to live her life and I have to say it makes so DAM MAD.....She could have had her own show she is so funny and you just keep looking for more.....A DAM SHAME....

[@shawniehucek5273]

I absolutely adore you and Aisha! You two are amazing spirits! I live in Green Bay, WI & yes we do have Baby-Bell cheese here. Emily you asked about that. Stay strong. Love - 🍒Shawnie🍒

[@kenzie-anne]

im in Canada and we sure do get that cheese here, when i was a kid we used to take the red wax and stick them to our nose lol. so gurl i feel you when it comes to pain. i dont have cancer, i cant imagine fighting cancer,, but i have lupus and i was diagnosed 9 years ago feb. for about 9 years i can tell you i havent had one day where i wasnt in excruciating pain. i describe it like you have a bruise, but not just any bruise, but one that is so blue and painful and someone presses hard on it.. you get that pain followed by that sickening feeling, thats the kind of pain i feel in every single connection (joint) in my entire body every day, 24/7 for the last 9 years every time i move. and since i refuse pain meds because of my anxiety with harsh meds, its challenging. so when you said the pain was getting you down i completely relate. you cant work out, you hate moving too much but you want to go do things and be normal. its a hard deal to keep your motivation going. i honestly have had your moments, where i think, this disease is killing me slowly and if i dont keep positive, fight it and keep going ill just die. but then i watch your videos and see that through pain and everything else you try so hard to be positive and grab strength when you can and take your meds and say fuck it, its all i have i might as well fight as hard as i can, and i feel like ya man.. *air fist punch.. like fuck ya! so ya, ur allowed down days, but girl, im happy i found ur vids, they always make me feel better or want to be better. love you girl, sending you hugs from Montreal, Quebec Canada. xx ps. swimming and yoga are great low impact non load bearing work outs that have helped me cope on days i am in bed or need a cane for walking.

[@julielynn86]

I was wondering what in the world she had washed....over here in America....and no. This is not your time to go! It just isn't. Praying more. Believing still.

[@decadentnight]

The World Of Julie Lynn we have that cheese in Texas