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-Hey, y’all 👋🏼 Thank you so much for stopping by and checking out this week’s video! The seasonal depression is getting worser so…. We get cute little coffees and go to the library daily to make it better. Kinda. That literally is this week though, so I hope you’re into that. If you want to try the Dutch Bros order I got, this is what I ordered: medium Hazelnut Truffle Mocha with white chocolate and oat milk! It was so freaking good, I highly recommend it. And if you like things a little less sweet, you can get it half sweet, or even a quarter sweet. Also, if you happen to be reading this, thank you for being here and helping to create this cozy corner on the internet for us. Make sure you drink your water, be kind, and have a good day on purpose! 🫶🏻
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[@laurenteague3705]

“You know what’s unhealthy? Not eating.”…. That part though!! YAAASSS!! I backed it up to listen to that again! Amen sista! ❤️

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@sarahelizabeth5381]

Hour and a half vid!? The Christmas gift we all needed ❤️🎄🎁

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@themodernbookwoman]

Talking and sharing fosters a... "you are not alone" "we are in this together" vibe

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I agree!

[@Ashleylovesreading]

I love these talks about mental health. I’ve battled anxiety for over a decade now. I’ve got a chronic inflammatory disease as well as retinal detachments in both eyes that cause seeing to be difficult. I could go blind at any time. I get panic attacks thinking about health. It takes days to calm my pounding heart. My stomach is constantly twisted. The point being, we all struggle with so much. I’m so glad mental wellbeing is finally being talked about

[@librarianlirael]

I have a fun cocktail of ADHD and depression and anxiety so I always appreciate people being candid with their struggles. Your videos feel like a coffee chat with a friend where we're like "man we really are going through it" and then I go home, maybe not any more mentally stable, but at least not feeling alone anymore. Hope your brain goblins get a little easier soon. 💜

[@sarahthewebnerd]

This literally got me through my own triggering work day. I personally don’t have winter seasonal depression, mine is more summertime sadness. However, my generalized anxiety, and mood disorder likes to play games all year. I am grateful for people who talk about mental illnesses, and general mental health. It breaks that stigma, and gives an open and safe place for mental health topics. I’m a Cancer too, with Sag moon, and Aquarius rising. So I’m all emotions. I’m the crybaby cancer too. All I need is a good commercial, or someone saying a nice compliment - and I’m a goner. However, dealing with my own shit… I can’t cry. So relatable there.

[@Sarasstorytime22]

I get summer blues, as well. 💜 And also like you, my brain goblins don't care what season it may be. Equal opportunity seasonal anxiety.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I hope your day gets better after work 🫶🏻

[@augustaholyfield388]

Top 10 video titles with threatening auras This is exactly what I needed for a rainy morning

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@ballroomred]

To my knowledge, there are a few things that cause different grinding needs for different beans, but it all basically comes down to oil. Depending on how hard they were roasted, where they originate, etc. beans can have more or less oil content. And that in turn affects how you need to grind them to get the right pour. A notebook is a GREAT idea to keep it all straight.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

This makes sense!

[@amandabeeeeee]

i have never needed a new video more. i just moved and i was thinking how excited i was going to be to watch a new olivia video in my new space ❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Awh congrats on the move!! 🩷

[@angelaholmes8888]

Totally get you about the library Olivia plus you don't waste money 💰🤑📚

[@oliviareadsalatte]

🙌🏼🙌🏼

[@westdallasbutterfly]

Side note for making syrups, most recipes call for a 1:1 water to sugar ratio. BUT they have to be refrigerated. If you cut the water in half. So then it's 1 part water, 2 parts sugar. This makes it shelf stable. Just don't add as much to your mug. It's a bartenders trick because it also helps you not add too much water to your cocktails 🍹

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you!

[@tapcat2000]

One of my major anxieties is running out of food. And one thing I remember from philosophy class is that once you are not afraid of dying you are actually living. Probably why cancer was not a devastating diagnosis. And yes, I'm fine. Sending hugs!!

[@CristalTheBookWorm]

I needed this Olivia full feature length film. I would buy tickets to see this in a theatre haha Thank you for blessing us 😂❤ I’m in the same boat as you with the depression getting hard. My brother was recently diagnosed with stage 5 renal disease and has to start dialysis soon, he needs a kidney transplant. He’s only 30. I also lost my dad around this time last year. I’ve also had to have one of my cats put down, one is sick, two close friends passed away, my young cousin passed away, my wife had surgery Monday and is not home yet 😢 and I’m just trying to get up and go to work and atleast look like I’m living. All this happened within the last 3 years and I start to somewhat heal and something else happens, I’m not built for it. I’m a very emotional, intuitive, big hearted cancer (horoscope sign) your videos really do help me Olivia ❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

You’re so sweet 🫶🏻 and I’m so so sorry to hear all of this. I’ll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts. I totally understand feeling like you finally begin to process one thing and then another begins. 🩷

[@McSherrie]

I was a hypochondriac when I was younger, so I had to train myself not to have health anxiety as an adult. (CBT ftw) But now I find myself having health anxiety about my partner and our pets. It’s so hard not to spiral. I really appreciate you talking about this so openly and encouraging this wonderful community to do so as well. Thank you!

[@Sarasstorytime22]

Not me looking at 35 minutes and thinking, "oh no, the vlog is almost over", and Olivia replying "no, it's okay. I have you covered."

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@forevermoodreading]

I feel you 100% on the nighttime anxiety spiral thinking you're going to die or whatever pain you feel is going to kill you. The spiral is real and the hangover the next morning from it is awful. All of the scenarios we come up with.... ♥ I resonate with everything you said regarding anxiety and it is helpful knowing there are others out there who understand and I do think it makes us more empathetic to others. Thank you for continuing to talk about it. ❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Nighttime is the worst for it! And thank you so much 🩷

[@johnandhollywood]

I work in an Elementary School and I have been sick with a cold twice and currently my boyfriend and his mom have it. I am glad my last day of school is tomorrow. We have been wearing blue jeans and Christmas sweatshirts or sweaters to work all week which is so comfortable and warm because it's been chilly here

[@raquelweber3287]

Fellow July Cancerian here and believe me the emotions are all over the place, but I look at it as it's better to release the emotion, mainly as tears for me, than to keep it inside and let it build up. Glad for the continued mental health chats, they really do help :) Great video Olivia 🐈

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I agree 🫶🏻

[@e4mi]

Same! *cries and high fives*

[@Sophie_Milagros]

I love your vlogs. I am someone who is chronically Ill also and I have been sick for over a year. I am slowly getting stronger and when I watch your vlogs, it helps me. I don’t feel so alone. So thank you. Sending spoons ✨

[@preston1184]

i absolutely adore you so much and i think your so incredibly brave for talking about your life and struggles. i love listening to you talk about them because it makes me a much more open minded person and more understanding person.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you so much 🐈🩷

[@alyycat0922]

I have a nervous doggo too so totally get you! My dog has a funny gait so some of her front nails don’t wear down at the same rate as the others. Not sure if you’ve tried one before but scratch boards are great. We can file a paw at a time if we chain feed treats but what has been a game changer is the scratch board. I taught her ‘scratch’ and she will no problem file her own front nails down and then we just round them off. Saves so much more stress. I’m in the UK and there’s not much choice so my boyfriend made one (just a wooden board and sand paper). I know in the US there are a few good ones, I remember seeing some on Etsy 👍🏼

[@amandabrown4575]

😻 Yes, some days are good, but other days definitely could be so much better. I take one day at a time, and here we are.

[@victoriazeccola]

Girl, I totally feel you on being angry and frustrated with your mental illness. When I found out I had OCD, I cried in my car for 30 min. I was relieved to have a diagnosis but so frustrated that there wasn't a way to just get rid of it.

[@sleuthytv1228]

Weather Is crazy here in Massachusetts too. Lol could be 12 degrees in the morning and 40 in the afternoon. T-shirt then sweater Weather constantly

[@oliviareadsalatte]

The weather is so finicky 😭

[@AlexisSanchez-nh7kj]

So it took me a minute to watch your video because my husband’s grandpa passed on December 19th and then Christmas happened and on the 27th of December we had the funeral… so a lot of emotions right now and then you cried in your video and that did it for me but sending my love and hugs your way cause I understand what your going through and mental health sucks but we’re here for you ❤❤

[@amada4170]

Just wanting to tell you thank you Olivia for putting yourself out there like this 💕🐈‍⬛

[@emmiereads]

Hi gorgeous, I rarely ever comment but I watch every single one your vlogs (yes I’m still this far behind on everyone’s content lol) and I just wanted to say I appreciate you and your channel beyond measure. Also fangirl every time I see you wearing my necklace😂 Our brains work in such similar goblinesque ways and you are such a comfort person to me - sending all the love to you (and my queen Ginger) this summer❤️

[@goblinqueen0141]

I feel you on the chronic mental illness thing. I have bipolar, OCD, ADHD, and anxiety. Currently in a manic state according to my psychiatrist. It has been hell on my body. Not realizing it was mania, I decided I had all the energy and time in the world to repaint my kitchen cabinets 1 week before Christmas and company arrive. I finished (thankfully) but I am in so much pain. 😩

[@els.library]

Always love hearing you talk about your mental health struggles, we have very similar thought spirals and it’s nice to know that I’m not alone in that. I started therapy almost a year ago and it’s been the most incredible thing I’ve ever done for myself! My therapist helped me realize that I’m autistic and they’ve been helping me restructure my entire life in order to accommodate that, and wow what a difference it’s made! They’ve taught me that it’s ok to just live with these things and learn how to work with them, instead of constantly battling against them. Learning to put down the sword and instead choose to make a truce with the autism and depression and anxiety has improved my quality of life more than I ever thought possible. And talking about it helps so much! There’s no shame in struggling, every single person on this earth struggles in some way. Most people suffer in silence and their lives are worse for it. Choosing to be embrace your emotions and be vulnerable is hard but so worth it 💕

[@SueWard]

Olivia, same. When someone dies I feel my anxiety over my health and how much time I have left. Then I makes the anxiety worse! I know that but it’s controlling it

[@oliviareadsalatte]

It’s such a difficult cycle to break!

[@maureendeming]

I was diagnosed with a chronic illness when I was in 8th grade. I'm 39. It is physically and mentally exhausting, and I cannot thank you enough for being open. Just in the past few years I've been more open with my doctors and with my friends and family about things and it's made a huge difference. But my god, the mental gymnastics required for the most seemingly simple things is mind boggling! My dietary needs/restrictions are, um, fun 😅 and I spent a half hour looking over a restaurant menu and calculating which combos would work for me. Oh, also, Taurus sun, Sagittarius moon, and Cancer rising here ❤

[@abbeyroche2983]

I have a BOTM subscription and probably once a year I actually pick one of the books to be shipped, I skip the rest of the months. But I do comb through all the summaries of the books every month and put the ones that look interesting on hold at my library 😅

[@oliviareadsalatte]

A good plan! 📚

[@katiekaboom7747]

Awwww, this vlog reminded me how much I loved spirit days (what our school called our themed dress-up days) as a kid! 🧡Those were some good times. My fav was when my BFF and I dressed up as a shoulder devil and shoulder angel for a famous duos day. Also must agree with you that red is your color. I learned that fact about planner stickers recently (within the last couple years) the hard way! That experience led to me panic-gifting most of my sticker hoard.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

They’re so much fun! And thank you 🫶🏻

[@andieland1923]

I have anxiety and fibromyalgia, so a nice cocktail of mental and physical problems. The laughing so you don't cry is so freaking real. But talking about it definitely helps, no idea why, so happy to listen to anything you want to say! Hope the brain goblins are going easier on you now. I'm a Leo sun and that's all I know but I don't fit any Leo traits so idk. 🐈🐈‍⬛

[@cuppa.books.]

One of the thoughts I've had recently is that our society really isn't set up to allow a person to grieve. I've suffered one of the biggest losses you can, yet I'm expected to continually just get on/move on. Like somehow sitting with grief is seen as being disrespectful to the person that's passed because you're not making the most of life. And sometimes I just want to turn around and say 'f*** off, I've got every right to feel this devastated' 🐈

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I so agree with all of this!! It’s so awkward when people ask how I’m doing with it and are surprised the answer isn’t peachy 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@Devi15]

So true. I feel grief education must be mandatory in schools because people can be so cruel when you're grieving

[@marijkevandersype8869]

I'v commented this before but I just love the fact that you talk about mental health. I find myself in some of the things you say especially about anticipatory anxiety. I didn't even know thinking like that had a name. I know sharing your story is very vulnerable so I want to thank you for doing so. Your vlogs are a highlight in my weeks.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you so much 🫶🏻🩷

[@ivybookout]

As someone that’s also chronically ill (EDS, POTS, MCAS, etc), my health anxiety is nullified by my apathetic depression 😂 but these things really do be like that. I’m a Libra sun, Sag moon, and Aries rising

[@oliviareadsalatte]

That’s irl PEMDAS tbh

[@WestTexasGothic]

im literally crying listening to this 😅 yeah, keep talking about what you’re getting through. A win for you is a win for us all.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@annmariesloan8406]

When you mentioned the reindeer antlers. I remembered that I was planning on get one of those Terrycloth headbands with antlers for when I am doing my skincare routine during my shopping outing today. And totally forgot to return to that store😂

[@oXtatsukoXo]

Sending hugs girl! As someone who used to struggle with that fear I get it.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@juliesimsandbooks]

Love this. I deal with borderline bipolar and effective schizophrenia with manic and Aniexty. It's challenging some days. I think it's good to talk bout mental health and disorders. It helps people in different ways. I'm an Aries.

[@summerprobyn7757]

Loved the vid :) thank you for the extra extra long goodness ! I hope you feel better soon :) I have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Mast Cell Activation Syndrome, Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, I take a range of medication and injections that I would be stressed to not have daily, so I totally understand what you're saying. Having people talk about their mental and physical wellbeing in videos, like you do, and normalizing it amongst their content makes me feel so much better. I talk about it more with my family, mates and even work mates now too because I feel better when I tell people that I'm in pain or too anxious etc Thank you thank you thank you xx

[@piinkprincess]

I love that you talk about your mental health. So many of us can relate. Ive had severe anxiety my whole life and been working through anxious thought patterns that we now know is OCD. Everyday is a struggle and a half but i always look forward to ur videos. Also Jake is literally my dog Lilo at the vet, except she IS that bad. Shes on anxiety meds. Cutting her nails is a full staff production.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Having thought patterns that align with OCD is so hard to deal with, but it definitely makes your brain stronger (I like to think of it that way at least lol). And omg, I’m so sad she gets to anxious! How often do yall go since it’s so stressful for her? I never know how often to take him.

[@starlasell5698]

❤📚❤️ Love the library! Feel better soon.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@graceannreads]

The Buddhist philosophy of No birth, No death has really helped me through my grief this past year. I highly recommend the podcast The Way Out is In. It’s a journalist and a Buddhist monk talking about their teachings and it’s so calming.

[@CozyBookFantasy]

I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and T1D. Girl, talk and let us all Connect. My support sysem is tiny so hearing you talk helps me through by relating to another living Human being. ❤ Thank you for doing these vlogs.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

These cozy vlogs can be our support group 🥹🫶🏻

[@bee5624]

i don't know if i have health anxiety per se, but when i was 16 (now 29), i was in an accident that led to some permanent damage. and ever since earlier this year i've been spiraling over that. i keep focusing on how it's acting up even though i'm not sure it's worse than before. and i'm really worried about it impacting my future ability to do stuff as i get older and the body in general starts acting up. and so i'm not really scared of being sick and dying. i'm more scared of fully being incapable of doing what i enjoy most. i love your vlogs. when they pop up, they really make my day ❤

[@andreapulsifer5326]

I am almost 34 and i have been going through it lol the death thing is my main thought lately and the meaning of it all and anxiety about being gone someday and eventually forgotten ❤😅 love your vids olivia ! It feels like i have a friend to relate to !! Xooxx

[@brittanyreadsherbooks]

Happy Holidays! As someone who has also caught the ick from the rugrats at school, I feel you! I also take so many meds that I constantly wonder what would happen if I couldn’t get them any more. So far I’ve been able to switch brands/doses as needed, which has worked, but it’s definitely not a fun ledge to be on! Also, I always think that I LOVE your pink crew neck and want to ask where it is from?

[@Kaitydid_Krixtur]

I know I say this a lot but I absolutely love your mental health talks. It's so truly appreciated

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@ReadingNymph]

🐈🐈 your honesty about mental health and anxieties is inspiring. I have MS (multiple sclerosis) but I dont talk about it much, its something that even after being diagnosed for almost 8 years, I struggle to accept. Hearing you talk about your experiences helps me feel safer about talking/accepting mine (no idea if that made any sense 😅😅)

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I definitely understand struggling to understand. I’ve had mine for over a decade and I still feel like I’m in the stages of denial and grief of having been diagnosed with something so life altering.

[@tajosima]

Girl! I'm just starting the vlog, but it's the length of a disney movie! i love it!!! **

[@DanaHaupt]

My kids have legit had "The cough" since October. It's never ending.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Right?!

[@Kaitydid_Krixtur]

Thank you for blessing my work day with a long vlog ❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@marybarton9792]

Thank you for sharing Olivia it is helpful. I have depression, anxiety, don't sleep well at all, close to being diabetic already having problems with sugar going low. I feel like always giving up but scared, it's just a vicious cycle. I think too much so I wish I had a button to shut it off and now Christmas is hear and I don't even want to deal with that. I lost my Dad the day after Christmas in 2011 and just don't think of the holidays the same. So, I can relate to what you say & feel. On a happier note always glad to watch your videos and see Jake & Ginger. 🐈🐶🙏💜

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you so much for sharing and being here 🫶🏻🐕🐈🩷

[@oliviabenoit9703]

As a therapist! I appreciate your mental health chat ! Also late afternoon caffeine is not great! Thank you for the transparency 😊

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you for everything you do and how much you help people 🩷 and I so agree, I can’t believe I didn’t realize it wasn’t helping things. I’ve switched to decaf, but if I ever need it for migraine purposes, my doc told me to just “counter it” in a way with double the amount of water-it does help!

[@tove_sofie2388]

❤ Here for the vents! Intellectualizing anxiety sunday- I can relate. Chronic illness and overthinking death is a part of my daily routine- fun and fresh. But is it valueble? Yes ❤ Thank you for talking about this.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you for listening 🫶🏻🩷

[@anitarucker8589]

I am a Sag. Today is my birthday (Dec 20) Love your breakthrough. Go Liv!! and go forth and live. seriously.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Happy belated birthday!!!!

[@theoryof.lauren]

"happy sunday...oh ya its sunday" i CACKLED

[@LoptrL]

When my grandfather passed several years ago, I couldn't sleep, as I was terrified of not waking up - we all respond to grief in our different ways. I've never stopped fearing non-existence (despite having had periods of the complete opposite where it's all I want). If I think too hard about it I have panic attacks. My brain is not helpful. And I have type I diabetes. Let's be honest, we're f*🤣

[@sc6524]

The Will of the Many - my best book of the year!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Super loving it!

[@Tonya5169]

My big three are: Taurus sun, Scorpio moon and Virgo rising. My favorite cheese is Provolone. Sending all the good vibes your way. Thank you for being real/raw. Appreciate you so much!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you for listening and watching 🫶🏻🩷

[@hopenparker]

🐈‍⬛ another great hang out with you. Recovering from oral surgery today and got to watch a Liv vlog. Best recovery medicine!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I hope you’re feeling better!!!

[@hopenparker]

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[@Ms.SpookyNerd]

During winter reading always helps to avoid seasonal depression. I got over 200+ books in my collection to read. 🎄⛄🌨️☕📚

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Reading helps so much in life 📚🫶🏻

[@GlamourBeauty11]

A good chestnut praline combo is mixing Torani SF Hazelnut syrup with Torani Salted Caramel syrup! 1:1 ratio :)

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I don’t really get torani syrups but maybe they have sample ones I can use!

[@Thirtynerdy]

Here with the heath anxiety as well 😂 (crying/laughing emoji all day). Appreciate you being so open with the mental health/anxiety and for the flipping feature film to enjoy while I wind down for the day. ❤ 🐱

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@NaomiElizabeth96]

I’m with you with trying not to buy as many book next year , I’m trying to read more on kindle unlimited, god I need to add to savings next year cos wow I spend money on books x I get you with the meds anxiety, have to have the meds to live but hate having to take the meds I have every bad anxiety and social anxiety which has stop me from being able to work , which makes me feel guilty for being a 27 year old that’s not working I also have trauma from have multiple cardiac arrests in one day and having a pacemaker (7 years ago) which also made me anxiety worse than it already was before , basically life is just a bit much but you know that life I guess xx

[@The7cristina]

I wish you a good time and a fast recovering. My greetings to your nice pets❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I hope you’re well this week 🐕🐈🐢

[@jennawar13]

The hazelnut drink is the drink to get from Dutch I swear! I usually go to Starbucks but at work we will sometimes get Dutch ordered for us (so nice!) and that is what I’ll get and it’s so yummy I need to know how to make it at home Happy Holidays!! 🎄

[@kellyreadingbooks]

“Popping a U-ie on the curb of Barnes” 😂😂😂😂 that made me cackle! I completely get what you’re talking about. I have multiple severe food allergies that are super common- seeds, nuts, eggs, chicken… list goes on honestly I just keep getting more allergies. I have so much PTSD from anaphylaxis and being scared I won’t get to my epi pen in time. When my anxiety is really bad I won’t eat anything that’s in a package that could’ve remotely been close. Or want to eat at all. I also have to be on continuous birth control pills because my periods give me such bad cramps I’m like literally screaming so I’ve thought about an apocalypse or worse, republicans (lol) many times taking my medication away. You aren’t alone. Thanks for making me feel a little less alone 💞

[@helenvanzetten]

I just love all your vlogs and how open you are. Thank you for sharing so more of us can relate❤

[@jessm2611]

When you said ‘shall we dive into why I love vampires so much’… GIRL SAME 💀🖤 I loved everything about this vlog. Merry Christmas 🎄🐈🎄

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Merry Christmas!! 🎄🎁 🫶🏻

[@jordansev61]

Love your videos! 🎉 love the weekly vlogs 😊 I have read the paleontologist 👍🏻👍🏻 I’m a cozy mystery girlie that sprinkles in thrillers and horror occasionally 😊 but I did enjoy that book 😁 (I love your book talk but sometimes I just enjoy your videos for the coffee asmr ☺️) 🎄🎁

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I also love coffee asmr ☕️🩷

[@mamesjenkins7583]

It’s good to know I’m not alone! Can’t talk to my partner about my anxiety because he doesn’t have any at all so he doesn’t understand! I have anxiety about everything but especially my health and death. My health isn’t the best and hasn’t been for years so it’s scary and hard to deal with at times. Thanks so much for sharing and talking about all of it! Really do appreciate it!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you so much for sharing and listening 🩷

[@dumblittlefox]

love the long video with a mental health discussion at the end

[@oliviareadsalatte]

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[@kyrumptionmakeup8197]

I get you on the anxiety because one time I was convinced my cat was being sweet because he was going to die that night. He surely didnt! Anxiety is stupid

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I’ve convinced myself of this too!!

[@kyrumptionmakeup8197]

I couldnt sleep, sobbing. And uh yeah he's fine 😂💀

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Right?! Turns out they just wanted an extra can of food 💀

[@alisonbowden5169]

I love your vlogs and how candid you are with your mental health, it does help ❤ I have fun little mix of PCOS, Endo, social anxiety and i also spiral at nighttime Oh, also, I am Virgo sun, libra moon and pieces rising ❤️

[@megreads9]

Could you please make for us a library tour and a reading planner or bullet journal, I miss that. ❤

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I’m hopefully going to be doing a reading journal update with my 2024 tbrs!

[@megreads9]

@@oliviareadsalatte Thank you so much

[@leighdanielle]

Sudafed and Benadryl together work good, vicks plug ins, and those body armor drinks are great

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I can’t take any cold medicine 😭

[@BethanyDickey]

This + my puzzle just gave me the best work break!!! I'm a Scorpio sun, Scorpio rising and cancer moon aka I'm always in tears 😂

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Water triple 🙌🏼

[@brancimarie735]

Yes about the demons getting me if any part of my body is exposed while I'm sleeping!!

[@MarisaAndChew]

I have PTSD and with that anxiety, depression, insomnia (with or without caffeine), panic attacks, the dumbest triggers that are not at all consistent, and unaliving ideations and self-harm. Yep I'm a mess and have been for nearly 2 decades. Beside meds, the most helpful thing I did was commit to a gratitude journal for a year. 3 things a day everyday for the whole year. First few days was easy, then it got harder to not repeat things then it became easier BC I was seeing good things even in bad situations or bad days. I did find therapy helpful until it wasn't. Rehashing the issues over and over isn't always a good thing either, at least for me, and therapy started to feel like it induced anxiety. The last session I went to was like 2010 and I went in had a "great" session and then went out to my car and harmed myself. My Dr was in the next building so I went there and he handed me the stuff and talked to me while I cleaned myself up... At that point we were like "no longer helpful" and it was ok. For myself having pets is often the only motivation to even get up. Obviously I have good days and even seasons but then when it gets bad it's debilitating. Your journey is your own Olivia. No you're not the first person to have these same issues and the same existential crisis, but how you absorb it, how it manifests in your body and all that fun stuff is unique to you. Your insomnia is different than my insomnia, the thoughts had, the way we handle it etc is going to be different. Mental health is not one size fits all and that's why it's so isolating. Just remember that as isolated as you may feel and even with how you're processing isn't going to be my processing, that you're still not alone. People "get it" and it really freaking sucks that there are more ppl who are going through it, but ultimately you're not alone. A loss or a fear or injury etc causes what I call soul-holes. Like any wound, it won't fix and be 100 percent. It's going to get scar tissues and maybe ache a bit as the seasons change, but it's part of you and your story. 💞 You're stronger than you may feel. (Hugs) and love.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you so much for sharing and your kind words, they mean a lot 🫶🏻🩷

[@jessicajacobson2337]

If our brains were made in a factory you and I have the same serial numbers 😂 But really though. When you were talking about your meds and the anxiety of not having them …….SAME! Also trying to solve situations that probably won’t happen, but your brain just has to be an over achiever and solve it. Oh. My. Gosh. I swear if I wasn’t watching the video I would have thought it was me talking. WHY? Just why? It sucks! Love ya girl! You are amazing❤

[@BreeShareeReads]

1:27:16 same sis ! Same. Struggling mentally 🎶

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Not the song notes 🤣 I 100% read this in a little jingle song

[@brittanywaynestilphen4685]

We have been flooded and out of power for about 36ish hours.. christmas has been stressful for me this year but im trying for my kids. Desperately.. ❤ Ive had so many people recommend that book to me saying its similar to red rising

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Oh no, I’m so so sorry!

[@kathy2539]

Won't last forever, change of life is a wonderful thing. I've gone through mine, now my monthly curse is a thing of the past.

[@elifyavuz8308]

you're spoiling us with these long vlogs🤪

[@oliviareadsalatte]

🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@basicallybaggins]

How do you remember your best bits in books? Tabbing, writing them down in a journal or you just have an awesome memory for quotes and funny bits.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I actually have a pretty bad memory due to my medicine, so I don’t remember much short term. I tab though!

[@basicallybaggins]

@@oliviareadsalatte I’m the same, but just a bad memory so no excuses!

[@laniehenry]

Same here. I had something happen 3 years ago.. that i am still trying to handle my Anxeity snd Depression.

[@leighdanielle]

Manuka honey is a life saver! Make sure it says from New Zealand. It’s amazing. Read up on it. I use it for everything wounds on my animals and sore throats colds you name it!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I’ll look this up! My partner loves to add honey to tea and coffee for that

[@megreads9]

I've always dealt with anxiety and fear of somethings happened than after many years of struggling I decided to live on daily basis and not worry about tomorrow, I live my as it is good or worse and I pray to Jesus so he gives me the strength to continue my life challenges, now I can say I am living in internal peace. Of course life puts you in tough roads to drive but with patience and prayers you will skip theses tough roads without even thought about them, I still have my worries like every body else but we could not change the world like we want it so let it go and I always put this psalm in my head : don't hold the worry of tomorrow, it has his own ", something like that.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I love the phrase “don’t borrow trouble” when it comes to anxiety. If it’s not on your doorstep right now, you don’t have to give it space in your mind. Taking it day by day is the best!

[@megreads9]

@@oliviareadsalatte Totally right I like it too, thanks for the inspiration

[@AllyEmReads]

I lived on Dutch when I was in college lol, it was the only 24/7 place in town so it was a godsend for all-nighters (they happened quite a bit) my fav was the white coffee cookie latte, but I more than once had to get a 911 during finals season (6 espresso shots and Irish cream😅) nowadays I go to Human Bean bc there’s one five minutes from my house, and personally I think their coffee is better than Dutch

[@oliviareadsalatte]

I simply could never handle 6 shots that’s awe inspiring 😭🤣

[@katewillread1509]

Oh lol mom of elementary kids here- you mean the cough my kids have had since before Halloween?? I refer to it as kennel cough, yeah. And also lolll I tested positive for C-who shall not be named- last weekend so we’re all out missing spirit week and holiday parties. ‘Tis the season 💩

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Hahahaha child version of kennel cough truly 🤣 I hope you feel better soon!

[@witchyreadingmom]

But why did I internally make a Bent Neck Lady joke right before you did out loud 😅 Also yes on the coffee bros - I joined a coffee group for memes but then left because it was just a bunch of judgemental old people

[@inuyasha1463]

Hope you feel better ❤️‍🩹

[@thecraftyveronicareads]

I LOVE the hazelnut truffle mocha!!

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Literally sipping one now

[@booklover6166]

You didn’t ask but here is a suggestion: ginger/tumeric shots in the morning, green juice (wheatgrass, spirulina, chlorophyll), and garden of life vitamins - women’s multi. I usually get sick EVERY YEAR but since I’ve incorporated the above I haven’t gotten sick this winter. Btw I’m in Michigan. Get well soooonnnn 💕😇

[@kimberlysreads]

I hate dog nail trim days. I have to take my furbaby once a month. And we used to have his regular tech do them every time and the last time I went in they told me he no longer works there 😭 My dog was NOT having that. It was actually a really traumatic experience and it took 4 techs to hold down a 20pound dog..which I think something else was going on back there. I was so mad because all the work I put into making it a decent experience for him, now took 10 steps back. I ended up buying a dremel tool and we are going to try to take care of his nails at home now.

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Oh no, I’m so sorry 😣 I know you can train them to use a scratch board, but I didn’t with Jake because he’s such an old man, I don’t think he would allow for it 🤣

[@JayGTheAwkwardBookworm]

Okay but the reindeer slippers are so so cute 🥹

[@oliviareadsalatte]

Thank you!

[@TheWorldAccordingToLouise]

I lost my gran in 2019. Prior to that I hadn’t lost anyone and had no idea how I’d react. Her death broke me. She was my person and the only one that I felt really saw me. I went through 3 years of seeing psychiatrists periodically (even though I’m an mh nurse) only to figure out I have ADHD and I just couldn’t cope with the change or loss. I couldn’t get over the fact that I couldn’t make her come back. It’s horrible. I don’t see the psychiatrist anymore! All she did was misdiagnose complex grief and undiagnosed ADHD. Sending hugs ❤

[@TheWorldAccordingToLouise]

And there is a shortage of the medication I take currently. So I understand the fear and anxiety. And also, you’re correct , anxiety and fear/anger feel very similar if not the same. You can alter your emotional response but your brain sends out a similar signals to protect you. Whether that’s a negative emotion or a positive one. You can rewire that with some work but it takes a bit of time. EDIT - I wrote this before you mentioned therapy etc. you can tell by the language you used at that part that you are doing the work. ❤