The story I never wanted to tell

Was lost in darkness when I lost my son Jace but Jacia was the light I needed to find my way....A story I was afraid to talk about, the death of my son...RIP baby boy, I will always love you

[@sophiafranklin7394]

It’s okay to show your emotions because you’re human, no shame in that.

[@pumpkinpie897]

Oh this is heartbreaking, I am a year late, but you all still have my deepest condolences. I am so happy you have your baby girl.

[@dainewalters5270]

I did lost a son too,but God is a and time God,but he bless me with two more son and I am so greatful.

[@devond2083]

The many people you have helped with your story .......cannot be measured........but it's like a rebirth and a reconnection with God.... Sometimes we have to be afflicted to feel his presence and his power....Now that you have living proof.....Watch your family grow and your blessing flow.

[@Colazsmithtv]

That's what I've found out Devon, that's the truth right there. Thanks for ur word bro

[@stanforddavis820]

Words of wisdom 🙌 👏 🙏..

[@user-gm4di2dc4r]

I feel your pain I gave birth to a dead baby son too you will never forget him he is your guiding angel now my prayers are with you both much love from Ghana 🇬🇭 jamaican born ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@twelvetribe0871]

Colazzz!!! Not mi watching... crying along with yuh ... shared experience!! Thanks fi sharing bredda!!!

[@namkebanyanklariti]

Thank you for sharing this very difficult experience with us. It is gut wrenching and heart felt. Women world over take note that we have feelings too even when we don't show it.

[@leonietaylor7054]

It's the worst feeling'a parent could ever have to loose their beloved baby 🙏

[@swilson1876]

This is heartbreaking 💔 😢 So sorry for your loss. I felt your pain, I cried with u and for you🙏🏾❤

[@marciasassi8551]

My darling Colaz, I discover you by watching your video cooking outside in the woods....Eee sah, tek yuh time joyful moment with the crew🥰🥰 so I subcribed to this natural food cooking🥂🥰😋

[@julieangus5043]

This testimony really touched me, my nephew has just lost his newborn baby. It is hard to give comfort in situations like this. But God gave us His Holy Spirit, His Comforter for us in times like these. He will send someone with the right words who has gone through similar situation, a bible verse/scripture or in your case, a song that you can hold on to. We weep for our children and Satan will take many more. Let’s continue to hold on to the one thing that he cannot take...God’s love for us.

[@Colazsmithtv]

God is able 🙏, let ur nephew know that God is in control and he shall be blessed with the love of the lord. He will smile again. God will deliver 🙏, he always does...just trust in him

[@joygolding7038]

🙏👼🙏🤗❤

[@joygolding7038]

Thanks for your encouragement 🤗❤🙏🙏

[@joanwalford1959]

It's good to talk about it. Talking about things that hurt after having it bottled up is very releasing.

[@arlenejames6427]

Pop 0⁰p0pl

[@anc8213]

God know my brother, I just started watching your videos, so going through some of them and saw this one, it’s very touching, the world need more men like you, who’s got a passion for Christ and such love ❤️ for your wife and your child, trust me, God will give you a son just continue to trust him. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💕😭😭😭🇯🇲🇬🇧🇯🇲

[@kazee3661]

I was just thinking the same thing. His next baby will be a boy. So heartbreaking but God is awesome.

[@alitapearce5627]

I. Have listened. To. Your. Video about the lost of your. Son but you have. Overcome. The. Pain. And is doing. Fine

[@mavisfortune1745]

Hi

[@NoveletteDaley-kf8yz]

Something they didn't do right,u should of went to the university of the west indies

[@kerranwrightbryan42]

Very touching, he is a way maker

[@paulinebutler4204]

I just happen to click on this. Oh boy she and u went through a lot. It hurts more especially when full term and had to do a c section and get that news. U both were strong and still are. I feel for u guys. Pease.

[@SwabyMuziqq]

Yow bredda. Man can’t finish watch this yute!!! Too much sadness. Mi heart can’t manage nuh more me don. But what is needed to hear will be heard. God is the only thing the man can turn too. Hold up bro gad

[@henrickgordon1786]

Bro, my prayers and condolences. Thanks for letting us be a part of this experience. Blessings bro

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thank u, God is great through it all

[@caribbeanraised6084]

I'm a nurse in NYC and I volunteered in KPH for 2 weeks and they need to be re-trained!!! Sorry for your lost

[@sanoconnor76]

Exactly, i had a terrible experience there

[@patriciaburgess2122]

They are not professional in the public hospitals in Jamaica, a lot of people die in those hospitals because they do not care, they are only working for the money.

[@maxineprince7391]

​@sanoconnor76 Me too I never have another baby in 🇯🇲 and I keep my promises

[@lisasmith7003]

My God!!...This story broke my heart..Same happened to me many years ago so I completely understand!!.....God is still God....Sending you and your wife love and light!!

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thank u...it's been hard but God is able

[@eltheahodgson3472]

This is so heart wrenching. I feel your pain. This too shall pass

[@carolynbaker7700]

U make me a bawl like a baby I v lost two miscarriages I saw my early pregnancy baby it affects me for years but now am blessed with a son thank be to God is able

[@vinnielliw6927]

So sorry😢😢. Dung a dah place deh is di worst!!! Dem negligent bad..smh

[@lucygayle9052]

Your story of loseing baby Jace was sooo sooo moving and heartfelt...I had to cry as I felt it myself. It reminded me of a hymn that the hymn writer Fanny Crosbie wrote many many years ago after the death of her newborn baby, "safe in the arms of Jesus". Your beautiful baby boy went straight to be in the arms of the Lord Jesus. The Lord blessed you and your lovely wife with a lovely baby girl and I believe the Lord will bless you again with a baby boy. God knows it all. You have a beautiful testimony and will bless many people with it. God bless you and your family. 🙏💯

[@loispotter2097]

This was so heart wrenching. Remember #7 is God's number. Your little boy will always be a part of you. Your story is a testimony that will inspire others. Congratulations on your baby girl. God Bless your family. Keep the faith brother. 🙏. Gracefully broken

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thank u

[@wendypaulbristolgoodnighta9164]

You will have a son you got to be strong i had a baby before my daughter and he was a boy also he also die i did not see him and 10 years after i had my son he is 21 now my daughter is 30 keep trying you will get a boy all the best

[@leonadean6703]

00pp

[@roseabasi9190]

Your story is so touching. God knows everything. You and your wife are strong people.

[@claudettelloyd2243]

T&

[@lesleyk2920]

Heart breaking. Stay blessed. Love from uk

[@morganpitter4386]

Your ability to share is a sign of your healing. May God continue bless you and your family.

[@mariawright5139]

Here I am, with arms wide open. Pouring out, gracefully broken. The battle is not yours, it's The Lord's

[@jennylady6945]

Sorry for the loss of your firstborn . He was a beautiful baby and looked so perfect. May the birth of your daughter bring you both healing and joy💕

[@AriAnnaMommyWorld]

This is extremely hard to watch. I had friends and family who went through this and there are no words to describe the pain. Thanks for sharing and I pray pray your continued healing.

[@shellyann6574]

Everyday I watch more and more of your older videos and then this popped up. I would have never had imagined you went thru this. You and shameka are so strong...bless u guys and jacia and jaciann ❤️❤️❤️

[@aulithroyalgmailroyal3915]

I love your honesty. Many people is afraid of someone going through grief. Thank God you made it. Your baby girl is such a joy, so full of life and a cutie. Much blessings to you and your beautiful wife.

[@apawma0499]

Colaz,.I am so sorry for your lost, no parents want to lost their child and my condolence to you and your wife . You will always remember your son and although he is gone your love is still there for him..very happy you were able to reach out to God,. He didn't bring him back but he gave you the strength to go your journey in faith. He knows all things best,. You now have a precious beautiful daughter and most likely some day you will have a son again. God is good and He never give us more that we can bear. We.all have unanswered questions and yes sometime we wonder if God is for us.but...He promise He will never leave us or forsake us, we will never know why somethings happened but only God knows. I know with time and your beautiful wife and daughter it will get better God knows the future and with Him It will be well. Love, Peace and nuff Blessings. God answers prayers. Praise God!!!.

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thanks for this beautiful comment, I try not to come back to this video or its comments , but...anyway, I agree with you 100 I know the lord will be the strength for us till the end... thanks again

[@alisiamerchant-perry9785]

Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. I didn't loss a child but i loss my husband tragically on December 15th 2023 in a vehicle accident. Grief is hard work,I'm going through rough time because we were only married for 5 years and have a 4 years old son together. I'm so encouraged by your testimony, and i will hold on to that one thing to help me move forward because we can never move on when we lose someone we love ,they're with us everyday in our hearts. May God continue to strengthen you and Sham. Much love and God bless ❤

[@judithcameron7534]

Colaz it's been a while since all of this , I'm relatively new to the channel but I feel as if I travelled this journey step by step with you. Man!!!!!! The loss of a child can be raw, real and gut wrenching but God stepped on the midst and theres your beautiful daughter. He shun His light in the middle of your darkness. He allows you to PROVE that HE hears.

[@shellyannhenry7546]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@charmainepicart-mcmahon2736]

So painful, so sorry for your loss, thank God you kept your faith, that’s devastating. I have two children of my own and had a very near death experience with my pre-mature daughter. It was devastating, but could never compare to your situation. Keep trusting.

[@jackiemorgan4511]

Colaz thank you for sharing your story. It touched me and gives me strength in my own situation with my son. He is 29 and suffering from mental illness. I don’t even know where he is right now. I have not heard from him for weeks now. He had a promising future as he was going to University and left deciding to live in his car. So when you said you cannot describe the pain you felt over the loss of your son. Trus me I could relate. So pain, guilt, anger and grief are all the emotions I have struggled with. As you said keep something to hang on to ...my song is GOD WILL MAKE A WAY ... I do see his hand ... so please pray for me and my son Matthew-Lee that the Lord will restore and heal. Thanks again for sharing and God bless you and your family.

[@arethajames3682]

Keep the FAITH God His in CONTROL. It was good to tell your story. God bless you with a beautiful girl. To God be the Glory great things He Has Done.👧🏽❤️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

[@almareeflowers2795]

is is such a bitter sweet experience and I feel your pain. I list my son tragically in 2017 and it still feels like yesterday. People told me to get over him and move on. If it wasn't for God I would have gone mad. There will be pain in the night but joy cometh in the morning. You are a living testimony...thanks forvyour inspirational words, thanks for sharing.🥰😥

[@dabiz4272]

Those people who told you to get over it and move are not good people. I'm sorry but that's not something you say to some who lost a child

[@hillaryokonkwo2901]

Wow this is so touching! Your words of inspiration.

[@dawnclarke8482]

I recently subscribed to your channel and decided to look at some of your previous vlogs. Wow! This one has touched every part of my soul. It's a real tearjerker. Trust me, Jace knew you before he came into this world and his little arms are always wrapped around your neck even, thou you cannot see him. Only God know why he wanted this precious angel, but you have the best angel looking over you, his mother and his sisters. Blessings to you and your family.

[@juliettebucknor9811]

Thank you for this message of hope. You encourage me to hold on and get through my situation. Blessings.

[@user-ix1im3qn4v]

God is good u will get a son who God bless no man cuse I love yoù,re family and the whole team . From ST Croix US VIRGIN ISLANDS.🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤.

[@MsSturdybird]

This is a very moving story. I love the way you showed you’re vulnerability. Having watched your Jacia’s World challenge, you are an absolutely great dad and husband the way you’ve supported your wife while she was in hospital. There are so many men that could learn from you. I really hope that Wayne Marshall see this video. I think he would be happy to know that his song has helped you in a difficult time.

[@Binga7686]

I am bawling. This is so sad but i am glad you shared it. Its rare we get a chance to hear a fathers side of losing a newborn. This emotional journey will help a lot of us heal from similar losses. We never forget but we find hope and courage to go on. God is with you all snd have Blessed you with more kids. .

[@moonlightqueen452]

I just subscribed to your channel today and getting to know you and your family and friends. This is a powerful video. I'm happy to know you didn't give up on God🤗 GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!!✌&❤

[@joygolding7038]

Thank God he has given you the strength to carry on. Thanks for sharing your story it's helping me right now as you know I just loss a Son and seeing your strength gives me the strength to go on too. 🙏👼🤗❤👼

[@abijahneumann2468]

Thank you for sharing this, I just came across it and it touch my heart, it is an inspiration, and your faith has made you whole. This message will help so many people heal including myself. God bless you and may you always find peace in the midst of any storm. Stay blessed and thanks again for sharing. 🙏💯. God is a miracle working God.

[@aldagrant6306]

So touching and real. Thanks for sharing!

[@v.pb.4049]

I am so happy that you are in the light. Missing your son is okay too. Having and honouring your beautiful daughter is commendable too. Stay strong both of you.

[@niaralewis1066]

Yes something went wrong after they delivered him that he didn't get the proper life support.that's why the partner should be in the room with your partner and keep a eye on what the nures are doing with the baby..

[@spitters1251]

These are some of the challenges that some couples go through, and from there we go through different stages of of human emotions, but you know, time is a beautiful thing, and with time comes the different stages of life, the healing stages, and with the healing stages, comes A New Beginning. You'll get your boy as well. Father God knows what he's doing. 💌💌

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thank you for ur encouragement 💗God is Still God ❤

[@lilyofthevalley2248]

TRUE💯

[@yvonne237]

I just found your channel last week. I've been binge watching. Thank God for your testimony, you will help more people, especially men than you realize. God has brought you through one of the most difficult situations a parent can experience. May He continue to keep His hedge of protection around you and your family. Stay blessed.

[@sabrina_services1568]

Same here.

[@lindaallder3662]

I've been binging your videos and got to this one. Learning more about your family and shows who you are. Sorry for this tragedy but you are such an excellent dad to your daughters and To Clima now. You are very strong

[@claudettdavy2697]

My brother thanks 😊for sharing! Beautiful god loves you, keep trusting in god

[@roxanevans4949]

I love your content but this video has given me a new found appreciation for your channel. I am happy for you and your wife and I prophesy that you will have your son. Your family is beautiful and your content is a breath of fresh air . Always been a silent viewer but had to comment on this one.

[@davidpowell9629]

Thanks for sharing bro,...that must've been hard, God is about to bless you double, double 🙏 🙏

[@mavisacarr4481]

Just subscribed to your channel, and I love everything about it...I am so sorry for this loss, but know that God is going to bless you with twins, and more children...I feel your pain..take care.

[@7736Julio]

What a testimony!!! Thank you❤️👍🏽. Thanks for sharing your life experiences. Sorry for the loss your baby boy, but thanking God for blessings you both with your little girl. Praises be to God👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽. Thank God for bringing you both through such a difficult time. Blessings always to your family,over and over again❤️💪🏼🙏🏽👍🏽👏🏽💯

[@WayneMarshallja]

Powerful testimony my friend. Glad you found strength through Glory to God 💯

[@Colazsmithtv]

Blessings, that song kept me through the dark time, God gave u that song and it has blessed so many and I was one 🙏glory to God

[@ABenjamiteSis]

I know this was a while back but my condolences to you and your wife. I lost my son in 2018 and it’s like it just happened. This loss is great and will definitely keep a place in your mind and heart forever. Although I just started watching y’all about two days now, my heart is hurting for y’all. The Most High is a great comfort to me. His will be done in this Earth as it is in Heaven.

[@knowyourenglishgrammar]

Just came across your channel and have been binge watching - this and 6our engagement party videos have really moved me.

[@kazee3661]

I just found your channel a week ago and I have been watching your cooking. This video was heartbreaking. Seeing you holding your baby boy made me cry. I am so sorry for your loss, but look what God has done, he has blessed you and your wife with a precious beautiful baby girl. Never forget your son, grieve for as long as it takes, just always remember God is in control. Your testimony will help so many people. Thank you for sharing such a difficult part of your life. May God continue to bless you and your family.🙏

[@carolpenn8455]

Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness my God that is who you are 🎶🎵🪕..... Such a beautiful song indeed !

[@annsmith7356]

So so so sorry can I just let you and your wonderful family know that your son is alive and he is with our wonderful Lord Jesus Christ you guys will see him when we all get to heaven God love you Amen 🙏

[@almareeflowers2795]

Thank God for blessing with an adorable baby girl. God bless your beautiful family 🥰

[@CeeceeH1819]

I see your courage and strength in sharing this story ❤️

[@itzjenjen2189]

Watching this vedio is so heartbeat,dem careless bad down a jubilee and me nah take bk ma words... thank God this bby arrived ok

[@rosemariejackson9428]

I never thought i would even shed a tear drop at the beginning of your story... but i am happy that i watched it..( a bawl😭😭😭😭😭).. knowing that God is always in control of our lives...no matter what we have passed through/ going through..he is the author and finisher of our faith..God is too wise to be mistaken💝💝🙏🙏

[@rose-marierichardson2421]

Hi I enter your feelings buy God knows best I love you content

[@ivetmiller4842]

The most heartbreaking, inspiring, thoughtful, thought provoking, refreshing video. Glory to God. Thank you, thank you. I don't have the death of a child but I have been going through things that cause me to question God. Thank you for bringing me back. Blessings to you, your wife and daughter 💙❤💙❤🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

[@Colazsmithtv]

In all things God is still God. Sometimes we forget how good he is because of certain situations but trust me, he is the same God that was with Daniel in the lions den and with David when he bottled the giant and the three Hebrew boys locked in the fire...I lost my way like many others and lost hope for a time, but God was still there every step of the was guiding me back to him...blessings

[@ivetmiller4842]

@@Colazsmithtv thanks for your kind words 🙏🏿

[@Miracles77798]

God knows best. Remember David lost his first son, but then God gave him Solom who he blessed with enormous, wisdom, knowledge and understanding. God has now blessed you with a daughter and in due time he will bless you with a Solomon, Joseph, Joshua or Moses. I feel your pain. I had three miscarriages, but I have to stay strong. Jason is now an angel watching over his little sister.

[@Miracles77798]

First son to Bathseba

[@Colazsmithtv]

Thanks so much for this ❤

[@lolog.9322]

Thank You For Sharing My Beautiful Young Man. I Am So Proud Of You. Words Cannot Express How Blessed I Feel For Coming Across This Video. May GOD Continue To Bless And Keep You And Your Beautiful In Love And Unity. May You Continue To Be Fruitful And Multiple In JESUS Precious Name. Amen And Amen. One Love, One ❤.

[@yondyc3578]

I watched your video today and it encourage me so much thank you .

[@ebonysweetnesssweetness5153]

So sorry for your loss ... Bereavement is one of the most difficult things to deal with and can affect you for a long time. I do hope both you and your wife continue to support each other. And now ... happy for you both to be gifted with a little lady to help make your family complete.

[@countrylife44south75]

Very sad and heartbreaking 😢😢😢

[@prinxessblake609]

I feel your pain. My husband and I lost our first baby boy 24 years ago, which left me so depressed. I don't even remember how I came outta that depression but God blessed us with 2 more boys, a 22 year old and 5 year old. I still think about our first son, what he would look like, what college would he attend and so forth. I totally understand what you were going thru. My condolences to you and your wife for your loss. This story brought tears to my eyes.😢

[@sharonm.7429]

😪😥😢😓 Mr. Smith .... y u make me cry 😢. So emotional.. thanks for sharing....some day I will share a story with you. Blessed love my friend ❤

[@lilliansmithwhyte8498]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏STRENGTH❤👨👶👩❤NOTHING BEATS PRAYERS❤

[@florencechin6509]

Colaz, I've been watching your vlogs for weeks now and resisted subscribing because I have so many subscriptions, even though I found your vlogs entertaining and full of Heart, but after seeing you so humbly reliving your worst nightmare, and detailing your relationship with God during this time, I am honored to press my golden buzzer and subscribe to one of the best Channel on Utube❗️❤️🙏🏽🕊❤️ You are One of a Kind❗️💥💥💥

[@marvamorgan2339]

Colaz I am 72 years old and I watch vlogs but this one was so so sad to watch but God know everything best

[@amandaforsythe47]

So sorry for your loss! There is nothing we can do or say to ease your pain but I pray God will continue to comfort you and your wife. Double blessings for your pain!

[@marciadayle-whyte232]

My heart goes to you and your wife thanks for sharing your story and your journey. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

[@joanedwards3321]

I am a new subscriber, and I’m glad I continued watching your vlogs when I stumbled on it, the story I never told was gone a year ago but has blessed me immensely today. I’m going through a little rough patch now, but you have certainly confirmed that god is real and able….. blessings 😘

[@funwhyte]

Amen! This too shall pass. Stay blessed

[@brendapalmer2470]

Sorry to hear about this and thanks for sharing. Strength and lotsa love for you and your family. Amen and amen

[@goldtooth_6795]

This was so, so sad to watch cause i went through it twice. So I know the feelings you went through. Only God knows why. Congrats to your baby girl. Keep God close and turn to him in everything that you do. Bless.

[@melodyleach6528]

So sorry for your lost 😞 RIP, very sad.

[@sharmainehussey5511]

Just seeing this….Totally understand your words of wisdom in grieving…. Blessings, prosperity, and continued strength to you and your family. I lost my brother and felt far far far from God but slowly and surely I found my way back to Him. Thanks for sharing

[@sophiafranklin7394]

I just started watching your channel and I subscribe because you have God in the centre of your life

[@denisegrant7440]

Bwoy what a testimonial Colaz's when I tell you I've been where you was as a mother lose of my first daughter, a nuff years later and likewise I was broken... for me is your voice say hold on to one thing and restore your faith in God mi love dat.. thank you Colaz's ... May God Almighty continue enhancing yours and your family's lives also keep on counciling your subscribers fi do di right thing and, wait on God fi bless dem right threw 🙏🏽

[@maxinegilman2010]

God is truly faithful and perfect in all His ways. He knows how to reach us, even in our darkness hour. Blessings guys as God continues the healing process in your hearts. ❤

[@joanjackson7065]

ME NEVER TAKE NO COUNCILING ME REFUSE I CAME TO UK STUDY TO BE A NURSE THANK GOD MUSIC KEPTS ME UNTIL THIS DAY WORK AMONGST PEOPLE FROM ALL OVER THE GLOBE NOW IM A ON MEDICAL PENSION DISABILITIES BECAUSE OF ORTHEORITHIS IN MY LEFT KNEE THANK GOD HE IS ABLE MY HEALER I DID HAVE ALL BERV3S PROBLEM GOD RELEASE ME FROM ALL THOSE

[@julietsew9973]

That's a testimony. Blessings to you and family

[@nicolejennings8825]

I am so touched by your faith. You and your family have been through so much. God is love. Be blessed

[@jkidz7792]

I felt this from the bottom of my heart. I appreciate you taking the courage to share your story. Your testimony will encourage someone that life is a gift from God. The Dr. Should not induce her for that long when they knew she was high risk.

[@jkidz7792]

Blessings on your union.

[@angelapinnock3793]

😟😔 God bless you dear brother for being so brave to share your heart with us🙏

[@veronwatkis2501]

I felt your Pain, COLAZ being their twice, however GOD see me ,us through....I even hear the babies crying and then I remember, reality take over...I would Love to hear how your Wife manage the LOSS, THANK YOU...🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💞💃👏👍🥳🥳🥳

[@judithcameron7534]

Waymaker is my theme song and always will. Hold God closer . Dont ever let go..........that tension bwoy. I sighed with you on the Drs good news😥. Continue to give Him thanks bro. Stay bless

[@YawdgirlKay]

I also lost 2 babies, and this tearing me up inside. Thank you for sharing your story, Colaz. You will never forget your son, and neither will I forget mine 😢

[@almareeflowers2795]

Colaz, my sincere condolences goes out to you and Cham with the loss of your son...my heart goes out to you...I feel your pain but the joy of the Lord is your strength. Thanks for sharing 😥😥

[@donnellmitchell4603]

Mi General, I'm so sorry for your loss, wow‼️ Jah know star , Blessings to you and your family. p.S. Climber is your son, Spiritually mentally and emotionally, DAT TIZ IT

[@sydneyb2140]

Oh this is sad. My heart is hurting God bless you my brother. 🙏🙏🙏

[@Leopoetess]

Omg. I'm in tears..I felt you as you spoke about your experience. You are a man who is definitely in touch with your feelings. You are an awesome and deep man. Your next baby will be a boy. I am appealing to God for you. I am an empath, so I felt you in my soul You kept it real. May God continue to bless you! You should put this in a book to help other parents who have experienced this. I have been to that dark place where losing a loved one can take you. Wow, what a story.! I have mad respect for you, Colaz. I'd love to hear her side. HUGz.

[@vernarowe4327]

Young man I feel your pain because I went through the same situation..stay strong...

[@avamariewilson1442]

Thanks for sharing your story ❤Thanks

[@michellrowe3933]

This totally got!! Love and blessings to you and your beautiful family. I'm overjoyed that your faith in God has been restored. God is faithful and he never fails. However dark situations maybe, he knows exactly what he is doing. Somethings may never makes sense to is but he is God and he is in controll. He knows what we will never know and he sees what we can't see so continue to trust him my bro.