The Story of The OC I Gave Up On. 💔

[@Love2DrawManga]

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[@xs4rah]

Did U get monkey pox??

[@Love2DrawManga]

@@xs4rah No, just a bad cold.

[@xs4rah]

​@@Love2DrawMangaHope you heal fast🫶

[@its_4amm]

4:23 "thin lineart on the inside and thicker lineart outside" wait am i on the right channel-

[@tokitoons1926]

Thick lines on the outside thin lines on the inside 🔥

[@that.1artgirl]

MARIKYUNNNNNN!!!

[@NanaNanaque]

Comment with yellow hearts

[@itz_Hunter_Lumine]

Yeah i was thinking the same

[@risxkie]

EXACTLY MY THOUGHT 😭

[@absolutecotton]

I kinda wish there were more male leads like this new Elliot. I find that the "mysterious male lead" are pretty boring because they always just not talk, or because they have had someone in their past cause them to have trust issues. I dont mind these character stories, but when all these "mysterious" characters look the same, it's hard for me to get interested. But if the male leads had appearances like the new Elliot, I would be WAY more curious about the character!

[@Love2DrawManga]

Thanks, I'm happy you find him interesting. ✨

[@theflxffydumbdumb]

I normally don't comment on videos, but I would like to say your growth and changes in your style and your knowledge of art over the past years has really inspired me to keep trying harder on my art despite the ugly stages of exploration! Youre truly an inspiration and I know a lot of us can agree

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aww, thank you so very much! 🥹💕

[@theflxffydumbdumb]

@@Love2DrawManga You're very welcome!!! 😁😁😁

[@sable-simp6837]

I really like Elliot as a character - his design, artwork, story, how you relate to him... out if all the characters you've introduced so far (in the last 3 years, that's how long I've been around for) he might actually be my favorite! I would say it's a pity you abandoned his story but as an author myself, I get it! But I personally wouldn't mind at all if you happened to draw him some more in the future and shared it with us :3 Great art as always!

[@bella_daze3092]

Elliott might be my favorite too😭😭😭

[@ashleynunnally5262]

I love the story of this character, his story is very relatable. It makes sense that you gave up on him, but I’d love to see his story continued at some point! I’m glad you’ve been able to accept and overcome your anxiety, and that this character was apart of your journey :)

[@SprinkledCactus]

Oh I love the idea of an anxious mime! I am a pretty anxious person and I totally agree with the exercise thing to help, I go on walks when I'm anxious and it helps calm me down :> great video Rebecca!

[@Merylixx]

okay so i don't usually talk about my mental health but when i saw this video and saw that one of my favourite artists had/has struggles with anxiety as well, i felt.. like... very relieved? i don't know why, but big artists always seem so professional and many of them don't talk about their struggles (perfectly normal tho, not everyone is comfortable). but i seriously want to thank you for sharing your experience with us. last October, after my birthday, something really weird happened to me. i was perfectly fine, especially because fall is my favourite season. then i suddenly started having random panic attacks (really bad ones), like, non-stop. and that left me with a strong mark and fear about everything that has happened. and this lasted for literal months. also i have to point out i live in a country where mental health is neglected and almost every adult/family thinks mental health is pretty much false or a distraction (even psychologists are rare, and don't really care about their patients). so i felt like i couldn't get any help m and tried figuring it out by myself... which is a bad thing because 16 isn't really the age you have to figure out your difficulties on your own. so obviously, i had non-realistic goals with my mental health while also hiding it from everyone because i was so scared (plus my family isn't exactly the... closest). now, after almost a year, i still have bad anxiety habits and I am still in "survival mode" sometimes (not being able to handle my issues and just trying to pass the day). but i am slowly opening up and trying to find people i can talk to. also mine wasn't "social anxiety", it was a really odd form of it. it was more about the past, future, myself even? that doesn't even make a lot of sense, but yeah, in my head it was different. but i really want to thank you once again for sharing this and taking your time to talk about your journey. for me personally, it made me feel like i am not alone, even if the reasons behind our problems are different :) btw I love Elliot's design and backstory, it's pretty original!!

[@Love2DrawManga]

Thank you for sharing and I'm so sorry you have had to go through that. 🥺 I'm happy me sharing my story can help a little. 💕

[@Merylixx]

@@Love2DrawManga you read through all of that? oh my God, thank you so much 😭💗 that means a lot. and don't worry, I'll recover eventually, thank you again

[@imdani4997]

"Making the unknown known make things less scary" make this a quote!! 🗣 I think every artist has at least one character that they can relate to emotionally. It must be hard for you to open up but I'm glad you did. Sometimes I feel sad because I can't do stuffs my friends did even tho I'm already an adult and should be doing adult things but hearing the fact you're also feeling the same make me feel less alone. It reminds me that we should do things at our own pace

[@bella_daze3092]

SAY IT LOUDER FOR FOLKS IN THE BACK!!!!!❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@speckledblender5495]

Copping mechanisms are different for everyone. I have A.D.D and my meds cause Anxiety but I've learned that drawing, going outside, singing as loud as you can and exercise mostly running can help. Therapy can only do so much I've learned that learning what triggers your Anxiety and learning how to deal with it is the best way to deal with it. Sometimes being social can help with getting rid of anxiety. I hope these tips can also help. I hope you have a wonderful day and keep up the amazing art.❤ Remember stay healthy and take care of your self.❤

[@PharaohsKeeper7]

Elliot's illustration feels like an old poster you'd find at a thrift store years later~I'd buy it!

[@bleachfann]

I was feeling so sad, but as soon as I saw that you posted my day immediately brightened! I will forever love you as well as your art ❤️

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aw, thank you! I'm happy my videos can help lift your mood. 😊💖

[@melsy1571]

She's like me frfr😔😔 I can never finish my OCS👎🏽

[@AsterWi]

me too, i have scrapped so many ideas to the point where i have none left and i feel like my motivation is gone xd

[@melsy1571]

@@AsterWi no fr and it's not like th ideas are bad I js can't seem to finish them😭😭😕

[@illumiEclipse]

Whenever I make a oc they'd be gone in a few hours and I'd just have a single drawing of them 😔. I only have like 3-4 oc's I haven't scrapped, one of them being my first ever oc. Making stories is hard 😔

[@melsy1571]

@@illumiEclipse yes, exactly why I love oc challenges so I don't have to make it by myself😭👍🏽

[@illumiEclipse]

​@@melsy1571 most of my oc's started as just a kinda different version of my favourite characters from my current favourite shows at the time. I only just recently changed them a bit to be more unique, but the inspiration is still so obvious.

[@gummywasp7174]

I also have fear of the unknown and have anxiety, and it's the worst. I really do understand you from doing something for the first time is the scariest thing ever, but when you do more often, then it's not as bad. Love the art!!!

[@jennameyers0909]

I LOVE the art piece so much! He looks like a Joker playing card (I saw you added the playing card symbols in the background)! Also, thank you for sharing part of your story, Beka. It’s encouraging to hear how you’ve grown. Love your videos, I always look forward to them😊❤

[@Love2DrawManga]

Thank you!! ☺️❤️💖

[@lemeep709]

I love that you opened up about your struggles with anxiety Rebekah! It definitely made me think about my struggles with it and had me remember back then I made the decision that I would never meet new people or do anything new ever again but my whole summer was meeting new people and doing new things! But anyways I loved that you got to open up it’s always nice to hear people talk about their experiences. Also the illustration is awesome! :D

[@Love2DrawManga]

Thank you so much! That's good to hear. 😊💕

[@bella_daze3092]

I suffer from PTSD and I have major trust issues😭😭😭 Elliott kinda reminds me of myself with how he does like to entertain people and makes them smile. It’s very sweet. Even if it’s an older draft. I would love to hear a revamped version of his story. 😭😭❤❤❤ I think it could be a mystery/drama and maybe he could just be friends with Abrielle. Not every story needs romance! And I felt validated when hearing that. But also glad you kept the portion of the video talking about anxiety and how you dealt with it. I admire you for that😭❤ I also adore Elliott’s new look! He looks absolutely darling❤

[@FallingMoonXoffical]

This video is very relateable. Sometimes, it seems like my brain hates me. For me, is mostly an inner dialog that is constantly criticizing me. In recent years this dialog has disapated as I've gained confidence, but it sometime reappears. Also social anxiety, when i was in middle school and elementary I would have little to no social interaction outside of school. I was scared people were going to be just as mean to me in clubs and sports as they were in the classroom. Now I'm in collage and have no problem talking to random strangers or being in rooms with lots of people. What really pushed me was rekindling my relationship with God and learning to actually trust him. I know it sounds cheesy, but it true. I also started to feel lonely which also motivated me to socialize. I still sometimes get nervous and akward around poeple, but its definitely not as bad as it used to be. Anyways thanks for sharing Beka, I'm so glad your doinv better now with the anxiety. Also the drawing of Eliot is cool :).

[@ChantelleArts]

the framing around this character is PERFECT it's so cool!! ❤

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aw, thanks!!

[@Raina-o1q]

I also have anxiety and I have a therapist. Also I love this oc, I just want to hug him!

[@LeilaTheWeeb]

An anxious mime sounds very fitting especially if they’re socially anxious because they don’t need to speak in order to communicate

[@SlipsunLightOfHeaven]

YAY! Back from vacation, and watching Bekka! Best day ever! Edit: It is not weird to have emotional attachment to your oc.... I mean, I'm like that. My favorite (who I was forced to give up on, in a way) caused me quite literal heartbreak..... heh

[@Nevarthedragon]

I have really bad anxiety. I got my first Solo in years of being in choir and it freaked me out to the point of messing up my solo. I got into a really good friend group and they have helped me so much with overcoming that feeling of anxiety. I still struggle with anxious feelings and thoughts, but I use breathing methods to help sometimes.

[@SzumeiLittleLightOfLove]

I love it when you get more serious and personal! Thank you for including that. It really does help people, and it’s insightful to hear about different people’s experiences. You’re amazing, Rebekah! ❤

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aw, thank you!! 🥰💖

[@xeinakingdom]

*a thousand hugs* i really appreciate you sharing Elliot's story with us

[@sylv4nel]

I really want to read Elliott's story one of these days. It's very relatable ❤

[@bella_daze3092]

I want to read his story too!!!❤❤❤

[@JustSomeoneHi]

art nouveau is one of the prettiest styles of art in my opinion, so seeing you draw in it is very nice :3 I think you replicated it really well! and I hope you get to feeling better ^_^

[@Kou_Nozomaki]

I havent seen you in 3 years 😭😭😭 so glad to be watching you again

[@Love2DrawManga]

Welcome back!! 🥰

[@Blitz-.-]

I have so many vent ocs that i never finish writing stories for, but im insanely emotionally attatched to. I too have a non speaking character. I had him actually be the main character and had a sort of similar style of the "love interest" (i havent actually decided if the two main characters are romantically involved) being this mysterious person the mc spends the story trying to learn about, because despite being super outgoing and seeming like an open book, the non pov character has a bunch of mystery surrounding him, and a lot he's hiding.

[@spaghettibete4286]

I also have social anxiety, and I can remember a couple years ago it got so bad that my mom took me to get meds for it. I also ended up making non-speaking characters as a result of my anxiety, but it was kind of an accident lol. It's interesting because it wasn't usually that I felt like I physically couldn't talk, but more that I couldn't communicate what I wanted to to my loved ones because I was afraid of being shunned or people hating me for some reason. I also kind of felt like I couldn't communicate with myself sometimes? Like I would be totally fine and then I would suddenly be really upset for no apparent reason. It was like my mind was hiding it from me until I couldn't recognize it as a thought I had. Anyway, I'm glad your anxiety has gotten a lot better, and I really enjoyed hearing about Elliot! I'd love to see more of his story if you end up continuing it. :) (also the art in the video was super cool and pretty.

[@VishmiMadhoo]

I love art you made ❤ And I also suffer from anxiety -^-; and my anxiety fearing the unknown, and it's great to let the unknown be known so your anxiety doesn't kick in or kick in much. Thank you for the this becca

[@sakurasketches]

I really love his design!!! I've always loved your art, but it's been really fun recently seeing you explore new types of characters? Like, drawing a mime isn't something I see many artists do often, but you did so well!! I love the rendering, and I'm a sucker for 'slightly creepy' vibes! Also, I really understand how you feel about your anxiety!! To be honest, you've helped me feel a lot better about my sickness related fears (btw get better soon!!!) because it just kind of felt like I was the only person in the world who felt that way, so it feels a lot better when you know there's someone else out there. The truth is, there really is no such thing as 'normal'. Everyone has different struggles, and it's okay. But, I don't know, whenever you talk about things like this, it makes me feel a lot better, and I know I'm not alone. 'Sometimes you just need to do things scared' is so trueeee--- honestly the way you explained it was so perfect. Thank you Bekka!! (Sending love and happiness to anyone struggling!)

[@DancerSamChika]

Luv Elliot lustration and chef's kiss❤

[@InnerVerse-S8mmy]

I often use some of my Ocs as a way to cope with some of my trauma and my disorders, it helps me process what exactly what I went through and how it affects me. It isn't the best solution but hey, it's a solution.

[@sunburst3476]

Gonna start with a thank you, for talking about this. Anxiety and mental health is very hard to talk about especially when it is very personal to you, and much more so when you have a platform. I have my own set of issues and trauma from when I was much younger (i turned 20 recently lmaoo), and hearing someone else talk about those issues felt comforting somewhat. I'd say that we find comfort in other people's pain, as hearing about someone going thru a similar thing makes us feel like we are not alone. My issues now are mostly dealing with ADHD (diagnosed pretty late in my life) and figuring what brain soup the heavens have given me as ADHD doesnt feel like a complete answer. I also deal with anxiety daily on top of that, tho much less debilitating now. You could say I have my own ghosts to deal with lmao. Elliot is really cool, and I love what you came up with! I hope that maybe one day you'll work on his story more, I'm sure a lot of us are looking forward to that hehe

[@Zainab-ey5yd]

I love your videos, and I loved this one so much!! Knowing more about the artist makes kinda of a bond? But I really feel closer and more attached to channels where the person express themselves honestly.🌷💞

[@Ch0coIsl4t3]

I want to see more videos like this too (Obviously if she wants to)

[@emmiecgamer2516]

As someone who also has anxiety, listening to you talk about your experience helped me a lot. It was really inspiring because I also want to be an art KZbinr one day, I have been watching you for years and listening to you talk about your experience and how you overcame it was amazing. This video made me cry (in a good way) and I hope you continue to improve and keep being the most amazing art KZbinr ever. ❤

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aw, thank you so very much! 🥹💖

[@vilet918]

I relate so much to this, specifically making characters who struggle with my current struggles and then not knowing how to finish their stories. I have a mountain of unfinished stories that helped me through some rough times. Sometimes it makes me sad to see them all sit unfinished but i also try to remember that the purpose of those stories was fulfilled. They got me through what i was going through. They might not be meant to be finished, they already served their purpose.

[@RainbowNooodlez]

Honestly I loved hearing what helped you overcome your anxiety. (Or help it to the degree that it doesn’t bother you much anymore) I personally believe used to have some kind of depression and social anxiety (I still have social anxiety) and I would say what helped me overcome it, but I’m honestly not quite sure? I feel like for a while I denied the fact that I had depression or anxiety cause I didn’t want it to be true. I didn’t want to believe that I had it so I was definitely in denial. Although my mom definitely played a big part in helping me. She reassured me a lot and generally would calm me down. I don’t believe I had the same feeling as you do/did because I think for me it’s more depression rather than anxiety but I just thought I’d talk about it a bit :) Woah that got a little deep 😅 Also! I wanted to say that no matter what content you post, I’ll watch it and my day will be better! ❤ Also also, the art is beautiful as always!! :D

[@TwinklesLove]

I struggled/still struggle with anxiety and stuff like that, and actually have been working on doing some of the same stuff you did! I keep having to refocus on my mindset, bc even though it feels weird, it's really important to keep how I'm thinking about stuff... healthy? No one else is able to make me better the way I can make myself better. If that makes sense. I love the art, and the story! And I hope you get better soon. ❤️

[@Zee090]

Hello, Bekah! It’s been a while since I’ve commented on your channel, but this particular OC of mine caught my attention. I really like how well you executed his backstory and relation with Abrielle and all. In addition, I applaud you for opening up about you struggles because, you’re not alone

[@pinkinkNZ]

*see's thumb nail* nooo not the jester/clown oc😭😭😭😭 i love silly ocs ;-;

[@emberoxford6969]

The artwork came out so good! There’s a quote that’s stuck with me “One cannot be brave who has no fear” (from Renegades) so doing things scared is just being brave :) which makes you very brave

[@Sarahthesalmon99]

Hello get well soon :3 ❤

[@Light_Kid]

Get well soon. I hope you start feeling better. Stay safe

[@Love2DrawManga]

Aw, thanks! I'm happy it can help! 💖

[@Ohmleyt]

The finished piece is so pretty! I’d seen some art nouveau before and I really like the aesthetic but it looks pretty complicated. So maybe I will try replicating the style using the tips you shared in the video. Also thank you for sharing about your anxiety and what helped you personally, for me it’s helpful to hear and I’m sure for others as well and I’m glad you found ways to manage your anxiety

[@Zainab-ey5yd]

Omg...he's so beautiful (　ＴДＴ)

[@mer_acle8101]

The thing about writing a resolution that doesn't align with ones own experience is so so real. I was working on a story and had it fully plotted with a very emotional climax where the MC was getting abandoned by her best friend, the reason was understandable but it totally wrecked her ofc, because she needed him right then more than ever. Obviously the ending was them making up and getting themselves back up from the floor. I was still working on writing the earlier chapters when that exact thing happened to me. Again, the reason was perfectly valid, but it was one of the worst things that happened to me, especially since I was in a really bad place mentally. I ended up later continuing the story as intended and I am glad I did, but those chapters where insanely painful to write, I still cry when I read that happy/hopeful resolution that I wrote knowing full well that I hadn't gotten it, even though, like in my story, my friend also came back eventually, only it was too late for me then. Lol sorry for the trauma dump lol All that to say, I get you, Bekah

[@bella_daze3092]

This is insanely true😭😭😭

[@kagami9597]

Thank you for talking about the hard stuff, I also have some anxiety issues, and my boyfriend even more so. I am going to send him this video and I hope that it can help him with some of his anxiety :)

[@jaim8147]

Hope you get better soon! Also, I love Eliot's new design! Ps. This reminded me when people tell me that I can get over my anxiety of making phone calls, by making more phone calls and get it over with. Like wow, thanks for your help. 🙄

[@eshadrawz]

This illustration would be incredible as a wallpaper

[@chewbacca8980]

I love Elliot! Thank you for sharing and making him!

[@midxight.unkxown]

I have so many scrapped OCs luckily if i need a character then I decide to use my scrapped OCs

[@teamdoge4259]

So sorry your sick [0:01]

[@mozzapple]

why the timestamp?

[@teamdoge4259]

@@mozzapple because that's when she said it

[@Miracle12348]

@@mozzappleit’s because people like to do it, to get attention.

[@teamdoge4259]

​@@Miracle12348NO I DIDNT I DID IT BECAUSE THATS WHEN SHE SAID IT👺

[@teamdoge4259]

​@@Miracle12348LIKE ARE YOU STUPID👺

[@PaolaPonce-ec7tm]

I will not be able to buy the plush but I hope that whoever bought it enjoys it

[@SprootTheSprout]

Fun idea if you ever feel like continuing with him: Making a whole little circus troupe for him to work alongside! Some good inspo could be Black Butler: Book of the Circus, or a small comic called Patchwork Circus on I believe it was Webtoon or Tapas. (Both have darker themes to be fair, but really fun and interesting designs)

[@bella_daze3092]

That’s actually really good inspiration❤❤❤

[@fantasy_cloud102]

As someone one has a lot of anxiety I appreciate this video, also the drawing turned out so good I love the character✨✨

[@Collum_]

The art is amazing and I loved the video a lot, I’ll totally buy a print of this if you end up putting it in your shop!

[@RainbowNooodlez]

Yeah! I really like the drawing! :D

[@chickenanddoodles]

ive been watching your videos for years and youve inspired me a lot and hearing you talk about your struggles with anxiety that i also related to has helped me feel less alone in the world and that i can learn to live with it too, i definitely think it's important to have someone you can talk to and also writing things down to process your thoughts when you start to spiral or draw what youre feeling/channel those emotions into art can sometimes help or at least be a comfort. i often get anxious about not being good enough or being able to make the right decisions, often ive felt like im falling behind and even when i try to comfort myself and say its okay to take baby steps sometimes its fear holding me back and staying in my comfort zone for too long has left me stagnant. if i didnt have people in my life i could rely on i wouldnt get anywhere, i would just stay stuck in my ways if not prompted by outside forces to change. so its really about finding balance and doing whats best for you, not letting your brain trick you into thinking something is going to hurt you, and learn to trust those who care about you and trust that everything will turn out okay. at the end of the day there are things you cant control and being scared of that isn't going to change it, so learning to embrace it and live with it is the key i think.

[@BBkiny]

Thank you for this video. It's rather comforting to hear about your experience with anxiety and what has helped you deal with it. It makes me feel less alone, like there are people out there who understand and go through similar things as me. It's the type of thing that is very important to talk about even though it may not always be easy. I truly believe that there's a solution for everything, it may take months or even years, but with enough effort, we can all grow over our fears and anxieties. Be patient, stay strong

[@paulforde9306]

I love ur art piece of Elliot and thank you for sharing your thoughts on how you cope with your anxiety.

[@PrismMime47]

I loved this story. Thank you so much for sharing. I understand the emotional attachment toward one's fictional characters. It even hurts thinking about it. (And I thought up one too many clown characters, lol.) There is one story where I decided not to finish it, but that character remains closest to my heart.

[@killua7373]

I love your drawing!! It's different from your usual but it looks really cool! ✨ And tysm for sharing your strategies for dealing with anxiety! ❤ bc recently i have been struggling with it a bit i definitely understand 15:20 and sometimes that causes my mind to get anxious too 😭 Also I hope you recover quickly! ❤

[@ThatArtsyGirl_249]

I’m so sorry you’ve suffered so much anxiety over the years Rebekah it sounds so hard 😢 and I hope you get better soon ❤

[@sn_466]

I'm waiting forward to see new episode of MNDN!!! Also your art is amazing like always! ^u^ Btw I hope u get well soon

[@ExtremeNowProductions]

This character (and drawing) is so freaking cool, I would love to read a graphic novel/webtoon about him

[@AiMiko174]

Hope you get better soon, Rebekah ❤ Remember to take rest when you need to 😊

[@jumpingspooder]

I'd love to read his story. It sounds so interesting!

[@xyrillegaming2024]

0:01 I think your sick during the videos, I hope you feel better soon Bekka, drink more water and get some rest!

[@carolinecheney]

This is awesome! My mom has had anxiety attacks before, so you're not alone.

[@spongebobfangirl]

Aww! Feel better Beka! 😔

[@myrinn_]

dont force yourself to voice over if you dont feel like it! hope you get well soon

[@themythosarchives7520]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with anxiety. I struggle with it too albeit for different reasons. The stigma around mental health needs to be broken.

[@emilydance8835]

I hope you feel better soon 🙏

[@sonicmaiden2871]

The playing card looks really cool! It makes sense for the oc's design!

[@StrangeKindaArtist]

I also have bad anxiety. Most of it is due to health issues (the most common is thinking I have heart problems since heart disease runs in both sides of the family). This started before Covid was a thing (2016 I think). Things were alright (even during 2020) until last year. At the end of July last year, my aunt, (mom’s older sister) suddenly passed away from heart failure. I was sad, but I couldn’t cry since I was in shock. Fast forward to this year; I was experiencing VERY bad anxiety (crying spells, stomach bloating, wanting to SH but never acting on it, shoulder pain in the left side) during a certain time of the month (yippie for being female). The night before Easter this year (March 30), I was convinced I was having a heart attack because of symptoms (nausea, chest pain, anxiety), so I beg my dad to go to the hospital just to be sure. Turns out it was just anxiety. Then 2 months later, I just had a complete breakdown at my old job and had to be treated at the hospital again. About a week later, I quit (on good terms thankfully) and have been doing nothing for about almost 4 months now (I’m a lazy sod). The last anxiety attack was actually a few nights ago. I was convinced I was having heart problems (again). Well, it’s about that time of the month where this happens. I suspect I have PMDD, which is PMS on steroids. I had a doctor appointment this Friday, and everything was good. Blood pressure was amazing and cholesterol was low. I was also prescribed a beta blocker, but I haven’t used it yet. So right now, I’m doing meh. Not good or bad, just meh. Sorry for the long comment. I just had to tell my story.

[@CrimsonNashi]

I can relate on this, I too have many OCs that I made a story with and didn't finish it. Elliott's story is an interesting one though. Maybe if you have the time after Pariah's, you can continue his story.

[@introvertedseasalt2178]

This video was awesome 💕 Thanks for sharing your experience. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one who makes characters based off of things I’m struggling with and uses them to cope in a way:)

[@YeshuaHamashiach-]

POV you really want the pariah plush but your bank account said no 😭

[@GachaCookies-UK]

Fr 😭

[@skyfiretheagender.alterhuman]

you are literally the reason I can draw :D Sure, my friend made me want to start, because her drawings are amazing, but you made me REALLY want to draw good, like you inspired me to become an artist And look at me now! No offence, (friends first name), or you, (random person in my class's first name) but I'm definitely the best in the class >:) . Atleast last year. School hasn't started this year sooo.... Anyways tysm for being amazing :) and your art has improved so much over the years ✨❤️

[@klaudiasulima9911]

I really appreciated this video, I also have severe anxiety and it can be so difficult to do absolutely anything outside my regular routine, thank you for sharing ❤

[@iwastan]

the art for this video is gorgeous!! i love how you shaded the piece. you really nailed the soft shading without making it look too airbrushed!!! the story of both elliot and his creation are very relatable as well. i struggle with bad anxiety as well and took medication at some point (the lowering your heartbeat part is actually very helpful! if you feel your own heartbeat and try to take deep breaths to slow it down, it'll naturally lower your anxiety!) i find it difficult to work on characters that feel a little too much like "me" as well but it can also be a nice way to cope :) thank you for sharing this story

[@0Pawprint0]

I love him so much 😭🩵 I love stories like this and the fact he’s got a circus vibe? Raaaahhhhh /pos! I love clowns and mimes so much.

[@LougaRocia]

Being an autistic person ( and ADHD) I relate a lot with what your said about your anxiety,and when you said that there's were period you couldn't talk ,it reminded me of a period of mine When I had mutism period and it's always very hard ,now it's a bit better but still happen sometime. I've been watching you for a while now ,and I've been relating to you A LOTS

[@Peppmintleaf]

Elliot looks like such a gentleman in that illustration! His early artwork also looks cute, such a nice lad uwu I'll be honest and say I never thought about having a mime OC who doesn't speak because of his own anxiety and past trauma, it makes me feel bad for Eli. I don't know how "squeaky" his actual voice would sound like but I just imagine either Darwin Watterson levels of squeak or Finn the human levels of squeak lol. Either way I think it would've been sweet and touching to see Abrielle help Elliot "find his voice" and make him feel less anxious about talking. I know having a full resolution to his inner conflict may be unrealistic but maybe at the end Elliot tells her a simple phrase or something to show to the reader that he has found his voice but when Abrielle idk...introduces him to her parents or group of friends, Elliot becomes silent again. A sort of playful way to show that he is still learning to talk with other people but that he will get there eventually. Sorry for the long comments heh, I have a fascination with mime characters and I love figuring out different and unique ways to write about one, how they communicate verbally and whatnot

[@thewolfninja1232]

Your video really made me know I am not the only one. I suffer anxiety as well and panic attack due to some personal reasons at home. But your video always brings me joy and happy to know you created something that we all can relate even if it small or big. Hope you get well soon and as always your doing an awesome job 😊

[@night_star.]

I love Elliot and i love the art you made for him (no really, i'm obsessed). The story behind it/why you left him unfinished is so sad :') feel so bad for both u and him 😅 i really don't mind a serious video once in a while! Btw I hope you'll heal/have healed, keep up the amazing work ❤❤❤(≧▽≦)

[@justanaveragehumanbean]

Can’t watch rn sadly, but it already looks SO GOOD! Your art always gives me motivation to draw!

[@SUTAZZZ]

I don't know if i actually have anxiety but i relate a lot and am glad you talked about this I also love this OC they seem unique and i love the story behind him! And of course the art! It's so beautiful you did really good! :D

[@Love2DrawManga]

Thank you so much!!

[@HaloDamato]

Um real quick, I have anxiety and I don't usually comment on videos so this is kinda weird for me but okay. I'm a really big fan of your web comic and I think once your done with it you should look in to his story more it's really creative and fun sounding I would love to here the end if it!

[@reenabobeena]

I'm glad you're still drawing and making videos ❤

[@mahou_143]

you’ve grown so much as an artist, and person. 🤍

[@LovelyRosx]

As a person like me has Anxiety as well I take an Anxiety meds. After I took it I was like "Hey mom, I'm not your shadow anymore, XD" (Aka, I used to follow her around like a little chicken XD) But I used to be afraid to talking to people so I kind of relate! Also Elliot is so adorable! I love him! And it's funny that I came from a video that had a character that's named Elliott XD "I can't say his name oh my goodness" But yes doctors do exist and I recommend visiting one when there's something off, pft, but I relate to this, and don't at the same time:)

[@bellaochoa931]

As someone who has such bad anxiety and depression, this video was super helpful and inspiring. I'm glad you didn't cut some important portions out, it could really save someone.

[@MeganBourne-v4j]

I hope you feel better (being sick is fr fr annoying) 😔

[@A.C._Grace]

I relate a ton, I have an anxiety disorder since I was born I was diagnosed when I was 4, I also have ADHD and ADHD and anxiety are not a good combination. I get scared over small things or nothing, I try to tell myself the situation is small but it tends to make it a bigger situation and lead to me judging myself calling myself stupid and a drama queen and such. It’s do hard to talk about it because it seems no one listens to what has and hasn’t worked like deep breathing makes me more stressed and stuff. Also because of the normalization of the term anxiety people are always like “oh I have anxiety too” when really they were just going through a stressful situation, I don’t like calling it clinical anxiety because that makes it sound worse than it is. I have never had a panic attack in my life but I have had many emotional outbursts that last for almost an hour. I am a very social person but I am also a people pleaser due to past trauma (it feels weird calling it trauma but yeah) which just makes my anxiety worse. Sorry about this rant that no one will read. Also I like Elliot. He’s a cool dude!

[@frostqueencookiesoloz]

im really happy that you were able to find ways to help your anxiety! i loved how you drew elliot and also took inspo from art neuvoix :D

[@mary_nyan]

ngl, i love Elliott and i love the story you made for him. The drawing turned out wonderful too! Also sending you hugs! I struggle with... Something? (never got a proper diagnosis) too, so it's always great to hear about people's path of recovery ^^

[@klin_creates]

hm.. the walk thing is a great idea, ill give it a try sometime! btw i really love the vibe and style of this drawing! good job💕

[@noty9866]

Thank you for sharing this. ❤❤It was really brave of you to share your experiences to the public, I dont think I will ever be courageous enough to be this truthful to others and myself about my mental health.