The TRUTH About TRAUMA?! | PTSD, CPTSD, OSDD & Dissociative Identity Disorder | DissociaDID REUPLOAD

[@sabitastisch9228]

It just blows my mind how littlle empathy some people feel. Asking about a strangers trauma, just wow.

[@Rachel.Greene]

It baffles me when they take it up a notch and try to debunk a person’s experience/trauma. I literally can’t believe mofos can’t seem to comprehend “boundaries” when they communicate. Everyone feels entitled to question anybody about anything. We live in an uncivilised world.

[@Larry_Stylinson]

It can get even worse. I went to a psychiatrist (around summer last year) and said I want to get evaluated for PTSD and dissociative disorders or other possible trauma related disorders... At first he put me down, told me that diagnoses are only for the psychologists and not for the patients in order to better understand the patient (and then printed out a list of psychologists that don't even have any special training regarding trauma!) and then he pressured me relentlessly into telling him what s**ual abuse I experienced and what exactly happened... That was during our first meeting!! I broke down crying, just sobbing and bawling my eyes out while trying to tell him about it because I couldn't handle the pressure of him asking anymore... He didn't even address my feelings at all or the situation I describe to him and just said "See, there's lots of things you clearly want to talk about...". I never felt so violated and crushed before... I left his office with a description for anti-depressants and feeling devastating about myself, almost s***idal...! I never took the anti-depressants and I cancelled the next appointment just a few days later. Any kind of trust I might could have had in that psychiatrist was too destroyed to build up a relationship, let alone one where you could have talked about such highly sensitive topics... I still haven't tried to find someone else who might could help figure out if I qualify for any diagnoses, let alone help me process the things I went through... I also never heard before anyone in the medical field claim that a diagnosis is only to help the "professional" and not the patient. It doesn't make any sense to me. How else are people supposed to find a support network or learn more about their (mental) illness from different sources??

[@barefootgirl67]

@@Larry_Stylinson I know this comment from me is coming a year later, but you have to "shop around" for a good therapist that's a good fit for you. You kind of like have to interview THEM for yourself. I hope you are doing well after this whole year. ♥

[@curiouslyme524]

My family doctor asked me about what kind of life-threatening trauma I experienced when I first told him I suffer from Complex PTSD. That really threw me. I felt like I had to justify my diagnosis. Unlike someone with a physical health issue.

[@KimTaura]

I watched this the first time before I was diagnosed with PTSD and now I'm watching it with my diagnosis. One thing I wish I understood was that a flashback doesn't mean that you are fully reliving it. My flashbacks are often re-feeling the emotions, but there is no visual component.

[@jodie12347]

I think everyone experiences it differently for me my flashbacks are visual and I get the fight or flight feeling but i don't get the other sensory feelings. I however do experience flashbacks unprovoked sometimes as well. I

[@harutobeanintrovert]

I get visual flashbacks of what I can remember sometimes I feel what I felt but most of the time I don’t remember how I felt it’s just flashes of memory, I don’t have a diagnoses and my therapist said he didn’t want to see me anymore (idk why? He said he thinks I have autism and he’s not the right person to see me but what we were talking about was completely unrelated). I would like a diagnoses but I know I can’t get it haha.

[@KimTaura]

@@harutobeanintrovert Try different therapists. Often you can ask for a quick 15 phone/online meeting to see if you vibe with them. It took multiple therapists over the years to find the right one for me.

[@harutobeanintrovert]

@@KimTaura yeah that’s cool I’ll keep trying out different ones hopefully they click better haha

[@mondogecko3279]

I’m so glad the videos are getting re-uploaded again!!! I know everybody has been saying that, but I wanted to say it myself too!!!

[@winterdragon0]

Thank you for talking about memory loss as a symptom of PTSD. I haven't received a diagnosis yet but I believe I have CPTSD. I have daily flashbacks to my childhood and early youth, I dissociate and have hard time recalling my childhood. I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety disorder. The thing about CPTSD is that I know I've been bullied through my childhood and emotionally neglected by my parents but I have only few occasions memorized. Still I know it was constant because of how it shaped my behaviour and well being. Still I feel constantly like faking of having PTSD because there isn't one spesific trauma but plenty of fragments of different memories.

[@lonelystar25]

Wow this sounds a lot like me. Stay strong friend

[@winterdragon0]

Update: Last week I received the diagnosis for C-PTSD❤

[@mm-zn1hb]

I'm similar to you. I can still think and remember the biggest trauma( a few specific, important events affecting me a lot), but for some details and other events, it's hard to remember. I can't recall anything about that, even though I'm sure it's happened.

[@julig4744]

oohh I identify with this about the bullying i suffered in elementary school

[@curiouslyme524]

​@@julig4744Same.

[@oliviam2623]

Thank you so much for all you do, literally yesterday, at 22, I found out that I am a part of a system. I believe to be the host and that I have OSSD. I , we, are so scared and confused and without all of this information I don't know what I would do. I don't have access to my therapist due to the Holidays and your videos are helping me, Olivia, and hopefully our system so much. I thought I was making this up but I,Olivia, don't think that I am anymore. I met 5 alters yesterday and experienced being co-con with 3 of them. I looked up how to communicate with your system because I felt their pain and feelings and they met my husband and they all had such different feelings towards him. It was so scary,but I felt so much love. I just want to learn how to communicate and let them know I love them too and I do understand they are real and I'm not "the original" they are them and I am I. I hope I can learn to validate and get it through to myself that I am not the only one dealing with this. That I too am an alter. They have thoughts and feelings and my goodness. They've been silent for so long, I can't imagine how that would be. Thank you so much, I can't thank you enough. I might spam this comment honestly, I just truly want you to know just how safe you've kept me. How much your videos have calmed my husband. I really can't put into words my appreciation. Thank you again -Olivia

[@chemicallycammi9612]

I’m trying to figure out if I have OSDD myself. How did you get your alters to front?

[@jo.k.4210]

@@chemicallycammi9612 did you find a way?

[@CompanionBeans]

@@jo.k.4210 very late response but we got other alters to front by repeating actions we were already doing that confused our host bc they were out of character for them and/or made them feel our emotions. Like wearing clothes they normally wouldn't, speaking a certain way, or singing a particular song(or part of a song) that the alter we're trying to get to front likes. This is tricky though because forcing an alter out if they really don't want to front can damage your relationship with them, so it's important to establish who is okay with being intentionally brought to the front, when, how, etc.

[@sezi9art]

Your explanation of PTSD flashbacks was so useful to better understand what people with it are going through and it makes more sense about the trigger warnings online.

[@muneerakhair]

Wow, how powerful! My trauma does not define me. I needed to hear that today!

[@Mformaddii]

I'm glad that this is being re-uploaded. I never watched this video previously - but I am so glad I have seen it now. I struggled to understand why these flashbacks happen, even when I know most of my triggers. You put this in such a way that is easy to digest!! I appreciate this upload so so much

[@uiophjv]

The videos are back YES YES YES YES. Looking forward to support your comeback! ❤

[@natalie23569]

It is truly a blessing for the DID community to have your content back on KZbin. You all are so appreiceted and have been deeply missed. Such an empowering story we are able to unfold at the start of this year. We see you. We hear you. We are so proud of you for reclaiming what has been yours all along. I am in infinite awe of you Kya and company

[@333Eriana]

right on!!! yes, why indeed do people feel entitled to know our 'gory details' - or we are lying. - this has been my experience, and that is in itself traumatic too. bye bye to folks that do that.

[@amye213]

I'm so glad you have been able to get some of your videos back up, keep at it and hang in there, you have support!

[@dakotaaustin8292]

im so happy you're videos are reuploaded they were really helpful to me during a really dark time and i want you to know what youre an amazing group of people and it was really comforting to know i had someone(though non-existent in said someones life), id really appreciate on maybe what youve gone through during the diagnoses as far as getting it done(i dont know if that made sense but like doctors you went to or stuff like that ) i have struggled with alot of darkshit throught my whole childhood and dissociated alot because of that and now the dissociation is worse to the point where it can make me forget thirty minute conversations, years of gaps in my child hood, etc. everything doesnt feel real and its alot for me to perseive, if this is at all posible it would be very very appreciated tohelp me or anyone else who might be going through something similar, if not or you never read this it otay no stress, i love you all stay beautiful and thank you.

[@nerudaad]

So glad that your excellent content is re-uploaded!

[@SummerThymeMadness]

as a system, we can’t watch this video as you talking about trauma being triggered is triggering our trauma 😭 it’s such an important video do maybe some other time 😭💛

[@Ferabird84]

Another re-upload that soothes my soul!

[@proudredneck2061]

So happy to have yall back, lots of love ❤️

[@LaurenandtheCrew]

I don't have DID or PTSD but I love hearing you talk about it, such a reassuring voice!

[@spooniefullofsugar172]

Clear explanation! Thank you. I've missed your videos

[@lalaohani2683]

This channel makes me feel valid and make my mind more open. Thank you!

[@spiritualsky1111]

Thank you for spreading awareness ❤️

[@emilk8644]

happy new year, wish you great year 2022, cheers! love your take on ptsd, it's truly very delicate..

[@sabitastisch9228]

I absolutly love the quote at the end.

[@Maszat1993]

I m so glad you come back and cab re-upload your videos 😁 Also this quastion what I would like to ask, is bugs me for a while, like with having DID how much effect your work as you have a job? You need to share with the alters what to do so keep on track of the tasks which need to be done. how it works? Therefore , goodluck to you all for this 2022 year 😊

[@meltemh.2002]

Thank you for everything you do ❤️

[@rysia4669]

I am just playing it in the bacground, because I watched those videos before, and I want my views to matter, even if only a little bit. Comment mainly for algorithm. But also sending much love and support to Your system! Take care of yourself :)

[@carolinapinheiro9915]

Im so glad this is getting re-uploaded There's videos i don't remember ever see This video is so important and relieving

[@curiouslyme524]

When I told my family doctor that I have C-PTSD, he asked me what kind of "life-threatening" trauma did I suffer. That threw me off.

[@vegemitepig]

many years ago i knew a system but i didnt know what i know now. hibernation has been a constant. i hurt the system. i wounded them and i am so deeply sorry. i wish i could undo. i wish we'd had more awareness, to know not to ridicule, to be compassionate even if we didnt understand. this system trusted us, before i knew we were an us, and we want to apologise. this may never ever reach the intended system and idk any other way of contacting them, nor do i wish to harm them more by trying. my name is still the same. thats about the only thing, the name. from the bottom, tops and all of our hearts, we apologise. we apologise to any system that needs to hear this or read this. we are sorry.

[@veruchkawhitehead3815]

One of my top 5 best KZbinrs ever.🌹

[@yellowishgreendragon.-.]

I was diagnosed with cptsd last year.

[@jupiter_83o]

this is a very serious topic bot i really like you're lampe

[@TonyS-c3l]

I really love this.

[@gabriellebarnard707]

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[@YamCherie]

In order for memories to be processed and filed away correctly in the brain, the conscious mind must be able to tolerate all of the details of the event in proper order, from beginning to end. This includes the facts of the event, all of the sensory input, and the emotions that go with it. When memories are processed properly, then they can be recalled at will, and we have some control over them. When memories are not properly processed and filed, it's like a computer that has a virus. The corrupt file causes a glitch, and it's thrown out of the memory file cabinet, and into consciousness. The memory begins to replay, but it's out of order, it's distorted or unfocused, and there is important sensory input missing. Maybe you'll get the emotion and sound, but not the visual input. Maybe you get the very end of the memory, then it rolls backward to the middle for a few seconds. Overall, you have trouble making sense of what you're recalling. It can feel traumatizing when a memory glitches this way, and it can feel out of control when this happens at a time you arent expecting it, or because you arent currently in a safe situation to cope with it. The way to fix these glitchy PTSD memories, is to file them properly. That means tolerating the entire event in the mind, from beginning til end, in proper order, with all of the sensory and emotional content. To do this, requires exposure therapy. This is best done with a trauma therapist trained in exposure therapy.

[@lexicora9316]

Comment for the algorithm 💜💜

[@melliemelmel6636]

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[@Nugget11578]

Idk if I've ever had a flashback, honestly. Like I've reexperienced parts of my childhood, but I also just kind of do that with everything. Whenever I have a conversation I feel was important I fully relive it like 5 times over right after it happened. so that kind of stuff is just like my normal. Idk, maybe I don't have cptsd

[@moonfox4990]

Pls help ( sorry i have to resort to KZbin comment secction ) Hey so this has nothing to do but I'm just frustrated cuz i want to understand . Ik i don't have DID and I'm pretty sure of that I've been watching it channel for years . But if anyone that reads this could help me i would really appreciate it . If anyone out there maybe some one knows ...you know . When I experience things that i consider traumatic or just very bad things , i tend to forget the vast majority of what happens. ik something happened but i just won't remember details and as time goes by i forget more and more . The thing is ik smt happened cuz i have that feeling and i can rembwr certain things but i just can't put my finger on it and it frustrates me so much cuz i can't explain exactly what happen what the person said or did cuz i just can't remember well . and people think it's just smt dumb cuz i really can't explain how bad cuz well i don't remember . The thing is not only i forget the bad stuff i seem to forget more and more about my past . People talk about things from my past and i barely remember anything with out struggling . I guess it's my minds way of dealing ( coping) with it, but i don't want to i feel some way and i can't really even pin point or explain to anyone exactly what cuz i just can't remember most details . The more time pases the more i forget and I'm just so frustrated it's like the more trauma the more i forget and i just don't . ... Anyways if anyone reads my little rant/ramble and they know why or what this is even a little thing ... Could you pls tell me i just want to understand . Thanks Ps : i also tend to space out alot but cuz of my ADHD , but idk after when I'm like in a bad state of mind idk i think it happens more but it's more in back and cold idk how to explain Another edit : idk why i can't forget consecuence of some stuff that might happen if i slip up and that just keeps looping when it's silent , in the shower especially alone and its just living with that thing on me it's so tiring ( the pressure of that it's so tiring ) i wish I could just forget that it just keeps there , pops up loops i hate it. Why can I forget the datails so i can't explain. why can't all of it just go instead of most . but like the big thing just loops i hate it

[@A_bunch_of_homos]

Not remembering trauma is actually EXTREMELY common in people with trauma. For example. We have trauma from early childhood, (that is still ongoing) but I (the host of our system) didn't even know I had trauma until I mentioned somethings I remembered to my friend. And even though I remember more of my trauma, because of me talking about it, brings memories of it back. A lot of the times I don't remember it. Even now, most of my trauma I don't remember the specifics of just a vague general idea of what happened. Since discovering and learning more about my system, I've learned more about my trauma, which has made it easier to cope to cope with in a sense

[@erica39882]

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[@Claires2003]

Its not appropriate to ask anyone unless they are your therapist. even a therapist has to ask before you share your trauma.

[@jade-wr9pn]

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[@kristipatterson9952]

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[@jessicalingo4346]

Can you have ptsd and cptsd while having did or osdd?

[@DeathHearts]

Yes, it's also quite common. They're both trauma based disorders so it makes sense that they tend to overlap in a lot of people

[@sandramackels]

what name is on your ID. if you have to identify yourself and someone else is in the front, what name do you say

[@mamagreen22000]

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[@HalfBananaWoman]

[@tlwf.system]

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[@nonochan-eq6fe]

Your content is so nice and very informative btw you are so beautiful I am completely in love with you 😊😊❤