The Ultimate Surrender

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Thank you

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I like the way you make your talks about you each week. You stand before us and basically confess. I have been listening to you for a very long time Mark. I don't hear you using others as an example, just yourself. You as our teacher share your thoughts and experiences with us. Your imperfections which invites us to take an honest look at ourselves. I am sad to say I am addicted to fear. It's been my addiction for as long as I can remember. Lately it's becoming very dangerous and has almost killed me. I am lost. I like how you love Jesus and believe in Him as our savior 🙏. Throughout my life I call on Him. I talk to Him about everything. I have no shame that I don't share as I truly believe He knows my every thought even before I think it. When I was a little girl I found books on the torture of the Jewish people in concentration camps. I am sorry to say I found it titillating. My mom enjoyed true crime books and I also found them powerful. I somehow thought that if I educated myself I would protect myself from harm. I don't believe that anymore as it encouraged me not to trust people at all. I am so afraid of people. I live in fear. I am a prisoner of my own making. I have felt removed from humans my whole life. I now think that is sad.I have messed up big time. I do have two amazing daughters who love me and I love them. I am 65 and on the 29 of this month will be God willing 66. Recently God chose to give me another chance at life. I struggle almost every moment of every day to live, to believe that I will awaken in the morning. Life is really hard for anyone who takes time to think about it. A near death experience is loud and demands attention. I am a simple senior. I am grateful that you are with Sally as she is a gift from God Himself as are you. I want you to know that I love you both and appreciate your imput in my life. We are all little pieces of God. I am grateful that you teach me and just wanted to say thank you Mark for making a positive impact in my life. Patti McMillan