Praise the Lord! It’s well spoken as for the deep loneliness and even denial of a man, which is very much like my scenario, most importantly it’s such encouragement of direction how to pray and talk to God, papa for the better realisation and transformation, keep it up!
Most of us grow up with different lies tt we believe of ourselves n which determines our worth. Bcos I grew up with strictness from mum over my studies performance ... Tt became an inner voice for me ie .. everything I do has to be perfect n only good n positive results are acceptable ... Hence I used to take failures badly ... They stumble me from trying again n discovering my latent intellectual capacities. But I believe coming into a deeper understanding of my identity in Christ in more recent years ... Things like failures in performance or abilities don't debilitate me; facing up to sharing my true experience n feelings n thoughts with friends become a new level of communication for me ... No longer feeling like I need to say all the right things and do all the right things to keep friendships! Having an assured relationship in Christ enables me ride through n face some of the lies I have believed in my life.