Hello my beautiful loves!! 🦋😍✨ This is a timeless general reading for whomever feels called to watch. 💜 This was a personal reading for myself, but I felt called to share it with you all. Namaste family. 🙏🏾🕉
@emzarulaify4 жыл бұрын
Sending you love darling 💖💖
@kriskay73064 жыл бұрын
Thanks Shonnetta!!!!
@dineshkumarubale9474 жыл бұрын
Thank you
@kristy67394 жыл бұрын
Shonnetta's Divine Tarot Big hug to you. I know you do not want it but I really appreciate this message and I do need growth in my life. I am really trying hard to let old hurts die down I’m so sick of holding onto it but it’s like memory haunts me. ❤️🙏🏽
@teresaeubanks40894 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much🙏💙🦋
@leindanextdoor4 жыл бұрын
it hurts me knowing that other people besides myself had to raise themselves, care for themselves, love themselves, do everything themselves all since we were very very young. it can be hard, but we got this!! blessings to all ✨❤️
@heatherwalker28964 жыл бұрын
Its even harder when you have a family that pretends everything is fine.
@ruesylvester4 жыл бұрын
@@heatherwalker2896 same here
@MySaranghae18294 жыл бұрын
@@heatherwalker2896 its like, even if you tell them they wouldnt even care.
@claudinevictorin69594 жыл бұрын
I think all “Black Sheep” in families can relate to every word that was expressed. Literally just talking about vulnerability with someone I love. Thank you for this 🙌🏽💞
@miss_worthiey4 жыл бұрын
“The children feel the stress of the world that has been put on the mother”. This video felt like the therapy I knew I needed but I wasn’t ready to accept. Thank you Shonnetta
@tiffanycarreno92514 жыл бұрын
“We’ll heal together” ✨✨ My wounded child is so bruised that she’s not letting us love our selfs. She’s still see’s herself as not good enough and “the ugly duckling” because that’s the way people always made her feel. I was always the side kick ,the second choice, or the third wheel. No one has ever put me first just because the simple fact that they love me deeply just the way I am. I’m feeling these emotions really heavy today
@katythedreamer26114 жыл бұрын
My thoughts exactly 💖🙏
@Larissa-dr5fn4 жыл бұрын
It seems like when you are about to cry you apologize and I just want to let you know: Its okay to cry. Its safe to cry. Crying is healthy and good for you. You can let it out. You are safe to feel and express your emotions. You won't get in trouble. You are safe. 💙
@erinnicole53484 жыл бұрын
"How are you mothering yourself?" Damn. That sentence shook me.
@saldagi664 жыл бұрын
Same and I really started to think that.. I really need to do changes how I behave and treat myself. Always put everyone else before me amd at the end I suffer..💔 Really have to change things ❤
@sbrown29324 жыл бұрын
It's powerful! Really puts things into perspective
@blackmoon33254 жыл бұрын
My ENTIRE being do you hear me
@salemvincent5554 жыл бұрын
yeah i started tearing up
@chantalpaulinoxx4 жыл бұрын
Righttt
@Larissa-dr5fn4 жыл бұрын
"At some point we gotta be honest." That is breaking and putting a stop to family/generational trauma. Its like they said "This runs in the family." And you said "This is where it runs out." I am so proud of you♡♡♡
@jlynngambler4 жыл бұрын
Yes!
@borntoinjustice20144 жыл бұрын
Preach !
@k.mitch08214 жыл бұрын
"We get so hurt, that we get shocked....that that was our reality, that somebody we trusted or should have been able to trust did that to us...."
@Kdswrt3 жыл бұрын
That made me tear up
@SamanthaPeltrau4 жыл бұрын
when you were describing yourself and childhood, it was like you were telling me my own life story. your energy is STRONG and your vulnerability is POWERFUL (proud of you too bb)
@angieramirez16294 жыл бұрын
I have never cried like this before during a card reading I honestly felt this and related to this so much
@possessorofthewingsofisis27414 жыл бұрын
Angie Ramirez I felt every word.
@erinnicole53484 жыл бұрын
Same here.
@tai17314 жыл бұрын
Same here! I just cried so hard.
@stefaniaskorupa73224 жыл бұрын
Same here, it was very emotional
@aurorablonk27024 жыл бұрын
same here, I was crying the entire time
@nelixsulu62014 жыл бұрын
I existed as a child. I didn’t live as a child. I feel like my parents didn’t invest in my being. I felt like a liability, and now that I’ve moved and got my own place, I do have a career that I love, but other than going to work, I really don’t know how to do other extracurricular activities in life. Growing up my mother and sister always had their drama with their relationships and failed marriages, and somehow, I had to try and find my place in all the chaos. So I never had good examples of intimate relationships with men either.
@ari-bt6gu4 жыл бұрын
❤🦋
@danaD63884 жыл бұрын
Me too, I feel ya.
@M44Pumpkin4 жыл бұрын
I feel this. Keep going. Maybe one day you can build on those things you ve always wanted to do that you couldnt back then.
@jackwill72544 жыл бұрын
Same...😢
@geminitarott4 жыл бұрын
Shonnetta, I can see you’re hurt just like the rest of us, I can see you projecting throughout the video. I want you to know we all love you. This happened for such a divine reason but now that we all have the message, we MUST get through it and grow from it and we will. 🤍 everything you talked about in this video I’m going through rn. Ily girl, stay strong. Know that you are loved, it’s easier said, but you are loved. So am I and so is anyone reading the comment, we have to be consistent and we have to want it. It’s hard but we got this. 🤍🤍
@dawnsimpson81864 жыл бұрын
I second this
@queenesther33084 жыл бұрын
❤️
@nohandel4 жыл бұрын
☀ Have a Wonder Filled Day Beautiful Soul ☀
@jancheema67764 жыл бұрын
🎈🎯♥️
@Captaintabiii4 жыл бұрын
“We don’t know how to accept love because it’s foreign” Thank you for sharing this message, my soul really needed this 💛 I’m ready to take my power back.
@JaBrennaB4 жыл бұрын
“Think about it, Black kids have to figure it out, we don’t have rehabs to go to- You gotta rehab yourself.” - Solange, interlude pedestals. 💜 Thank you Netta for rehabilitating yourself. I speak wholeness in your life. I love you forever Sis. 🤞🏾❤️
@lyricg193364 жыл бұрын
Part of my trauma is confusion. Like I was told that a closed mouth don’t get fed, but also taught not to talk without being spoken to... every rule I was given was contradictory and I was punished severely for not following. I just remember feeling so confused. Maybe that’s why i don’t remember 90% of my childhood. As an adult this has definitely led to my severe anxiety and being easily manipulated in relationships. I attract abuser after abuser 😔 EDIT: Also, I just wanted to say thank you for being so open with your personal reading. You did not have to do this, but it means the world that you did. You are so genuine and deserving of the love that you give to others. ❤️
@shethewriter4 жыл бұрын
Lerielou girl I feel you. My childhood was manipulation central. It sucks. Thank you for sharing. You deserve a healthy, loving relationship ❤️
@Storm05084 жыл бұрын
throwing a used bandaid over your own wounds in hope that'll heal while you help others heal.. damn, your videos always resonate but this one hit differently, thank you for this. i love reading the comments and seeing how people are connecting together, have a good day everyone ♡
@celinephilippart98504 жыл бұрын
Cassidy Johnson 💚
@chantalpaulinoxx4 жыл бұрын
yess it did🦋
@sharntelmclellan5544 жыл бұрын
why you keep uploading the exact videos i need in my life right now... i feel like the universe really looking after me 🥺
@sharntelmclellan5544 жыл бұрын
fucking he’ll didn’t expect this video to hit home this much. literally been called out by people in the past 24 hours for my victim complex. really needed this. feeling so loved by the universe.
@caskitg19854 жыл бұрын
"if you were to be seen, there would be yelling" damn you summed up my whole life issues in a single phrase. My best friend still has to consistently remind me "you know no one's gonna yell at you right?" whenever I spiral. Honestly I repressed most of my childhood memories and barely remember any of them, but I'm sure it wasn't as bad as other people's so I don't know why I still feel like I fully relate to everything you're saying in this video. I feel like a lot of kids had to deal w/ absent fathers growing up. I still don't know exactly why I am the way I am but I wanna thank you for helping me and a lot of other people taking that first step. I hope you can heal too Shonetta ♥️
@sciencefreak184 жыл бұрын
One of the main reasons why I started my spiritual journey was bc I felt that no one was ever there for me. When i tried going to my mom about feeling lonely she would tell me "you feel alone bc you want to" my mom is one of those people whom I couldn't be vulnerable with back then. There was so much stress running thru our whole family that there was always other things to worry about. And I felt that I was being there for everyone and giving myself away too much..while no one wanted to be there for me. I ended up taking care of all my feelings and hurt alone bc I could only trust my soul to guide me in the rt direction at this point. I had to feel my way thru a time in my life. I had to start loving myself when I had no idea what that even meant. I guess somewhere in my heart that I still hold this against them..for not loving me the way I felt I needed and not being there for me when I felt completely alone, especially thru my spiritual journey when i had to revisit a lot of things. My family and friends always made it seem there was something or someone more important than me when i always made sure to make them a priority..writing this is making me cry. But thank you so much for this video..❤ theres a lot more but I don't wanna type it all..
@chuiga29354 жыл бұрын
I feel this :( I hope we can heal these wounds some day
@Benni7774 жыл бұрын
Anyone else bullied as a kid. I don’t remember much bc it’s so suppressed so much that all I remember that I was bullied for falling down so much. I couldn’t play like the other kids. I have a rare genetic disorder called DiGeorge Syndrome that affects most every part of the body. But for me it affects my immune, cardiovascular, skeletal system, and muscle systems. I had an open heart surgery when I was 5 and I was NOT supposed to live . I then had a throat surgery bc my tonsils were getting in the way of my pallet bc I had a small throat. I then had a cavas feet surgery on both feet. After that I had an invasive knee surgery at 12, which I’m still recovering from. I also had hammer toes which made it very painful to put shoes on. After years of physical occupational and mental therapy, I am getting better. It’s hard to get out of the victim mentality bc that’s all ive ever known. Sometimes I would tell my story for sympathy and o wanted to seem strong but I really wasn’t. But I am now, and I am proud of where I am right now 💪🏻
@01lei4 жыл бұрын
Jen Klen I don’t rlly remember exactly what happened either. I just know I was very liked. I felt unloved, ugly and misunderstood. Ppl never rlly liked me much and I just didn’t know why they didn’t like me for how I saw the world at that time. I am glad you are doing so much better, everyday is an improvement
@Ceri_Hudd4 жыл бұрын
(sorry this is long but I haven't seen someone with a somewhat similar experience to me) hey Jen, I also have a motor difficulty (mine is caused by cerebral palsy) and all my life I was told I couldn't do certain things, physically and mentally, of which I would avoid. At the age of 15, I realised that was a big fat lie that was covering an unhealthy psychological habit of self-doubt. I connected it to a lot of other things and came to the conclusion that I hate myself and relly on other people's validation and quantitative success (such as school grades) to make me 'happy" (YAY TRAUMA FOUND!). Having seen this video has basically cleared up some things I knew connected but didn't know how. I was also bullied because I had a friend who used me to get out of class early (as I can miss the chaos of the corridors that way and I do not bump into anyone) but when she couldn't go with me anymore she just went against me and started one of the biggest transformations of my life, The belief that everything happened for a reason.
@louisedoucet80224 жыл бұрын
I feel you. The dismissal... I remember being told as a teenager "nothing bothers you, you just float through life." In reality I was fighting deep anxiety and depression and cried daily on my own. I've been working on this just in the last few days again and the timing of this reading is shocking.
@danab54734 жыл бұрын
it’s like “the healing begins with understanding that it all can be fixed” thank you so much, i needed it 💗
@OperaticRockstar4 жыл бұрын
You've got my pregnant ass crying so hard right now. This literally hit every nail on the head down to almost every freaking detail down to the single mom etc. My mom was my best friend, or so I thought, my entire life. It wasn't until my adult life and especially after she had her stroke 11/2018 that I began to realize something wasn't right. Red flags and inconsistencies were arising left and right that we're so familiar, but I refused to acknowledge them bc just as you said I didn't want to place blame. Now I'm pregnant with my first child and I'm bound and damn determined that I will not make those mistakes. I know I will not be perfect, but I WILL break this generational curse it seems there is in the female lineage on my mother's side. I'm beyond grateful you shared this with the collective bc I was on that needed to hear it. My heart was one that spirit heard that needed this message more than you will ever know, Shonnetta. Thank you for your existence and being a guiding light. 🖤
@B44664 жыл бұрын
This is almost exactly how I feel and think. My mother, her sister and my grandmother are all angry, bitter women and it all seems to come from my granny. I have felt the exact same thing about female lineage, breaking the curse and not carrying it forward to my children. I can completely understand why you feel this even more so while you're pregnant. Wish you all the best of luck, light and happiness.
@hiromi10384 жыл бұрын
I don’t feel alone anymore. Heal from within, mind, body and soul. Many prayers and blessings! 💕💕
@LalaSmiles4 жыл бұрын
YESSSSSSS i literally just asked for something like this. And I feel like spirit passed on the message 😭💚 gratitude
@ximora4 жыл бұрын
Lala The Great Girl same! Bless❤️
@RanchBlessingsz4 жыл бұрын
Same
@soupergirleats4 жыл бұрын
Yes!
@almasworld75274 жыл бұрын
Today I tried to tell my mom how I felt when my sibling was rude to me. She got mad at me. Then when I told her I just wanted to talk to her about it. She got mad at me. I'm less mad at her and more disappointed that I can't talk to my family or anyone else because I'm the one who heals everyone else when they need me yet they just can't bear to listen and try to understand me. I appreciate you making this. The timing is wild, there fore I appreciate you listening to the Universe.
@michellebeaumont87214 жыл бұрын
This reading hit different man.... I've never related to a reading this much in the past. Thank you for everything you do, you're such a strong woman 💕💕
@possessorofthewingsofisis27414 жыл бұрын
Michelle Beaumont Same!
@tiarashanae44384 жыл бұрын
“Mother yourself” part took my out!!!! I needed to hear this on so many level coming from both parents... It’s refreshing but also sad that so many ppl have a “wounded child” Thank you so much for being vulnerable and the voice for everyone going through the same thing.. I am Listening
@chyna87824 жыл бұрын
13:10 she came back and there were tears on her shirt... I'm so sorry that you've struggled with this. I can relate and I wish you the best in your Journey. Thank you for opening up in a way you didn't expect. You are loved and appreciated. 🙏🏾❤️
@emzarulaify4 жыл бұрын
'We dont know how to except love- because its foreign' - dont get me going 😔
@cicib92994 жыл бұрын
Emz girrrrrrl this hit me hard
@lyssaix_4 жыл бұрын
When I clicked on this video.. I wasn’t expecting to relate(?) to the reading. I wasn’t expecting to cry with you and feel like “oh someone went through a hard time in their childhood too”. But I’m only 14 some may consider me as a child.. but in a way I feel like I already grew up. I feel like I didn’t get the chance to actually have a “childhood”. I didn’t get the chance to experience what it felt like to be read to before bedtime I didn’t get to experience bonding with my dad. My dad, he wasn’t there for me or my mom. He left when my mom was pregnant with me. Yeah he reached out and picked me up sometimes but I feel like he didn’t want me. I know my mother and my grandparents were there and they love me. I have a good relationship with them. But when ever I say “I love you” to them and they say it back I feel like they don’t mean it. And sometimes I reply with “are you sure?” And they nod and say “yes I love you” and I smile and walk away. But when I think about it. I don’t really know what being loved feels like. I was surrounded by negativity most of my life. But I realized that I need to accept it, I need to heal and I need to grow from it. I guess what I’m saying is thank you. Thank you for posting this and making me realize that I’m not alone and we shared the same pain. Thank you. ✨🤍 Sincerely, Alyssia.
@ShonnettasDivineTarot4 жыл бұрын
Blessssss!!!!! 🥺🙌🏾💕❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending you so much light and love!!!! ✨🙏🏾
@brinaf28574 жыл бұрын
It will be ok honey, you'll see. Keep your chin up and remember that even if they don't love you or if they don't know how to express it, you deserve to be loved and some day you will find someone who will love you with all of their heart. Focus on yourself and learn how to love yourself. Lots of love and hugs to you. ❤
@Jen_ell4 жыл бұрын
Proud of you and sending you love. Your insight is far beyond 14 years old. Continue to do your healing work, pray, and be honest with God about how you feel always. Pay attention to everything and know that God will guide you. You will do very well in life.
@pamelaspeace77374 жыл бұрын
All she said, all that you typed, this is also me cryyyyyyyyyyyy, holding yall to comfort yall, because this is Me too, l'm a 57 yrs old black woman went through, going through, My daughter is also going through this same shit, sorry for the cursing, l'm cryyyyyyyyyyyy So hard right now, all l can say right NOW IS THAT I LOVE YALL SO FUCKINGGGGG MUCH, and l an one who needed to hear both, 57 yes raising 2 kids and a gang of grandbabies with My thinking from stuff l haven't even worked out of MYSELF, BUT l do my very best to change who l was, my Daughter has STOP speaking, coming around Me, because she looking also to Escape all of done my children God knows I love them with all of my beating heart if I could change me back then I would have if I could change my mom and dad but life does go on and we pick up and make the best of Our Lives did I know better than I know I didn't do I know better now yes I do but I can't go back but what I need to do is forgive myself and forgive others, working on it DAILY 💜Thank U Alyssia and I also think Shonetta for the love of her spirit for coming on in helping us showing us the way. Always stay Blessed & Grateful 💜🌌💜
@donyahanna85024 жыл бұрын
2 thumbs down. 🙄🙄 Dang yall. Home girl is emotional and spilling the tea in her own world for us to heal too. ♡♡ can we please show shonetta some respect and show spirit some gratitude?!♡♡
@VCRider4 жыл бұрын
Starseed Momma 4K likes and you still find the negative.
@donyahanna85024 жыл бұрын
@@VCRider I wont let you turn my supportive comment into a negative one.♡
@ambergeist6544 жыл бұрын
I have spent the last year and a half realizing everything you just said. Exactly. My mother was a single mom, I was the oldest. Dad was absent. My whole life I thought I had daddy issues and it was actually both parents. Amazing.
@shp.974 жыл бұрын
My dear, I can feel a lot of pain in your words and some kind of difficulty while you talk to us. I think u are so brave for for sharing how you feel deeply inside your heart and finding de right words to communicate how life has been for you. Thank you for being a magnifing mirror and the reflection that some of us needed to see. May the Universe always bless and protect you. 🌌
@plutonian914 жыл бұрын
I relate to this a lot! Especially the “sneaky” part. I just wanted privacy or to do something that was technically totally fine but I would get in trouble for it if I did it. I had a rough early relationship with my dad. He was gone a lot for work and had a huge temper. He was part of the reason why I have/had such an issue with crying in front of anyone. Bc I’d get smacked for doing it when I was getting yelled at. I’ve had to overcome that and I still have some issues with it. My parents are great in a lot of ways but there’s been some negative things about their parenting as well. I’m the oldest so they even admit that I was the guinea pig. They were much more overprotective of me than my sister. That created a lot of fear in me of trying new things and I was criticized more than I was praised, which made me critical of myself. I think my dads temper also made me fearful when someone got mad at me. I just moved out on my own so I’m hoping I go through some transformations with these issues (going thru my Saturn return as well!)
@dr.seemapsychosocialhealin23474 жыл бұрын
I am so sorry to hear about your childhood lived experiences, seems like you have been through a lot. There is no justification for treating our children in an abusive manner. You are a survivor, and bold. I believe you should take some therapy sessions for your wellbeing. It's really important to fix the emotional fears and concerns as they are the blockages in reaching our full potential. Love yourself for who you are, accept yourself and stay happy!
@rux.i4 жыл бұрын
Omg exact same situation for me!!!
@Blueskies2334 жыл бұрын
Wow, I feel the same. Sorry your experienced that. I relate to that so much. My parent were barely functioning alcoholics and druggies too so I’m just realizing why I am how I am....I feel you. Big hug*
@alainewilliamson56104 жыл бұрын
I feel all of this. Everything your saying. It's hard. One day at a time girl. I think what helped me was truly understanding where my parents came from and the tools they lacked in their generation. I think love was always intended but sometimes my parents just simply didn't have the wisdom to make the right decision. I have found so much peace realizing that. It took a lot of time. I'm finally starting to mend relationships.
@nelixsulu62014 жыл бұрын
As a child, I’ve had to figure out a loooooot of things. And now I’m afraid of being vulnerable or showing weakness. And now my parents can’t figure out why I am the way I am. It’s caused me to develop Maladaptive Daydreaming. Daydreaming was something I always had but once I got in middle school, it got worse.
@seeyouagain9114 жыл бұрын
I thought I was the only one.
@theamvgirlx4 жыл бұрын
Nelix Sulu OMG dude. This was me
@nelixsulu62014 жыл бұрын
Primal_Witch 🥀🧝🏽♀️ I’m 25 years old now and I’m still Maladaptive Daydreaming. Now it’s hard because I have things and goals to achieve yet it’s hard to do it because so many things are my triggers. And sometimes I maladaptive daydream as a hobby when I’m bored
@deanna91134 жыл бұрын
I NEEDED THIS. I watched this after the May card selection and picking the spell deck and seeing this....crazy.
@theoliviasimon4 жыл бұрын
I love you! Beautiful soul! Beautiful human! Routing for you! routing for love! You are brave!!! Inspire fire!
@taesrose90284 жыл бұрын
Shonnetta your emotions just watching you just makes me tear up. I Understand I been through alot in my childhood and now being 21 it hard to feel loved and trust people. I'm healing and need self love, but its hard to start.. I don't know how to start. You don't know this but you mean alot to us. Thank you for showing us this video 🖤🥀.
@yasmined164 жыл бұрын
I feel you
@wx93894 жыл бұрын
Teal Swan teaches self love, among other things
@wx93894 жыл бұрын
I mean actual processes on how to sort of things
@wx93894 жыл бұрын
She even has a full online course on just that subject
@wx93894 жыл бұрын
And a book, but you can also look her up on youtube or her site ok im done lol
@sarvpriyasharma9674 жыл бұрын
SHONNETTA I LOVE YOU I literally cried after hearing this. Its like the UNIVERSE IS TRYING TO SEND ME MESSAGES THROUGH YOU. Its totally the story of my childhood. Its because I had very toxic relationship in past, i have now trust issues with people. I had that pushed people away, genuine people away, rejected true love offers. BECAUSE I WAS SCARED. I really needed this THANK YOU SO MUCH. I AM MOTHERING OTHERS TO HELP THEM HEAL JUST TO HEAL MYSELF but same bandages cant stop my wounds to bleed. I NEED TO COME BACK TO MY POWER to heal myself. I NEED TO MOTHER MYSELF. THANK YOU SO MUCH. Everything happens for a reason i know, thanks to you. YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH. THANK YOU SO MUCH. LOADS OF LOVE AND POWER TO YOU. MAY UNIVERSE GIVES YOU WHAT YOU DESERVE. PEACE
@littleoneadventures4 жыл бұрын
As a child I was mentally abused.. and now as a 26 year old women, my trait comes out in when I see a red flag in any relationship no matter the situation, I leave.. I am out of there. Bless my boyfriend, we have been together 4 years he is my first bf and he has been the biggest love, and showed me how to love. My childhood sounds exactly like how yours was. Bless you for posting this!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@seeyouagain9114 жыл бұрын
Can relate. I'm glad you are in a happy place now.
@littleoneadventures4 жыл бұрын
seeyouagain911 thank you ❤️❤️
@littleoneadventures4 жыл бұрын
Tiera S that’s so amazing for you, I’m sure you will over come everything with time and healing ❤️ I love this community shonnetta has made , it is such a safe space for us all to share ❤️
@sbrown29324 жыл бұрын
This message is confirmation for me... two days ago I was feeling all the darkness 😭...but you know what? It's necessary to allow ourselves to feel the hurt so we can accept healing. Peace be unto you. Thank you for the message 💜
@SofiaMy3334 жыл бұрын
Thank you 🙏💜. My guides have been working intensely with me for the past year and it has been like being sent to hell. They are vibrational energy healers and started to manipulate my soul energies a year ago. They "shut down" different parts of me to let my inner child fully live out everything that I have blocking this life. My childhood was one that I don't wish anyone, but I was born awake and living from the space of my higher self. I new the core of life already and no matter what I was put through, I always lived from a higher love and knew what to do to get through. But I didn't just come into this world awake, I came in fully aware of my presence in a human body. To the point of constantly feeling like I was walking around with no outer skin. I have lived and still live with a constant battle between my inner knowings and higher love , and the pain and anguish of a human self not made to handle my vibrations. So now, a year after having my higher heart "shut down", I see that this hell that I am being shown, the hell that I can barely take as an adult ,is what my inner child had to deal with. And me being born with my higher knowing awake, left my human inner child even more alone to handle excruciating pain and situations. It breaks my heart knowing now that not only was I taken from my mother by a very broken , angry and abusive father to a country in war. Not only did I have all safety taken away at the age of two, I had to learn to survive and protect my self from my own family under very difficult circumstances. And it was so hard that my inner childs worst enemy became me, the one awake. The one seeing everything from a higher place. At first I thought that I was being shown my shadow self, but now I know that I am being shown my inner childs inner world from the perspective of being the higher self, but with my higher heart shut down. So I have been forced to enter the real realm of the victim. Something that I now understand is a very important space to allow oneself to experience and accept as our inner childs message to us. It is not something to be shamed or pushed away, but embraced, understood and accepted as the holy space of the wordless wounded child. And that is exactly what you shared with us today. Once again, thank you for your openness and vulnerability. All my love and light goes out to yours, mine and every child in that space 💜☀️
@KaitsterSaysHello4 жыл бұрын
i needed the question, "how does the way you were cared for when you were a child resemble how you mother yourself in your adult years?" Thank you for sharing, the synchronicity in my life was unreal.
@seancaldwell33634 жыл бұрын
"we dont know how to accept love" 💯 triggerd
@hinalsrivastava31494 жыл бұрын
Hey Shonnetta, Its only last night I cried myself to sleep thinking about all the things I went through as a child emotionally and mentally and I was very very upset. I called for my spirit guides(who I believe to be are my grandparents) to communicate to me about my feelings and just talk something to me. I woke this morning and I'm going through my youtube notifications and I find this. I literally felt as tho my grandparents spoke to me through you and your video! This is the first time I've written such a long comment and I really hope you read this and know that yes, I feel you! Loves and hugs to you in loads girl!
@lekilabryant1674 жыл бұрын
Shonetta, this video was healing. The cards and the order that they fell in is the order of how it's happened for me. I don't know how to accept love, only give it. At a young age, I saw that my mother was going to be alone so I took on the role as a caregiver. Attracting people that I wanted to help and heal because I understand and understood the needs of others. I was always told I was selfish so I never focused on myself, only others. I also grew up being called sneaky because I was trying to handle things on my own when my mother wasn't attentive towards my feelings unless she had to protect. I had daddy issues as well. I'm mothering myself right now, asking for forgiveness of how I have allowed others to treat me yet not trusting myself. I'm creating boundaries with my mother. I no longer want to blame her. I didn't have a voice growing up but I am learning to put me first, even if that means having to hurt another feelings. I know I am pure at heart. I was never taught to love or put myself first.
@orape60944 жыл бұрын
This is real EMOTIONAL and very relatable. We are STRONG, because now we give love without expecting it back because we know what it's like not to be given LOVE.
@charadax82404 жыл бұрын
"Mother yourself, heal and step into your own power." - Shonnetta. Thank you for sharing, you're such a wonderful person! Keep going, Shonnetta, you can do it! Take care x
@madeleinea.b46824 жыл бұрын
charada x that bit made me cry😭💖🙌🏻
@reginaquaye39114 жыл бұрын
I was really feeling that motherly love today ,(very strong) dear shonnetta and then boom u came up with dat. I never really received a motherly love but I do dat for everyone around me. Love from Ghana 🇬🇭
@possessorofthewingsofisis27414 жыл бұрын
“I don’t trust people because of what I’ve been through.” Facts. 🤦🏾♀️
@lakaishacann4 жыл бұрын
You are speaking the truth and it breaks my heart to see you cry. I love you and I'm crying with you. Thank you for sharing and letting us know you understand. It's time for everyone to heal male and female ❤️💚💪
@lioritstarragalactichealer24404 жыл бұрын
omg I cried the whole time today you held a mirror and shined a specific light that only I know into the dark past.....may creator bless you forever
@AshaleeHall4 жыл бұрын
By the way, you’re so strong for posting this. I know it wasn’t easy. We’ve got your back 💕
@Cocoaajalissaa4 жыл бұрын
I understand 100% where you are coming from 😢 my dad use to yell at me for no reason and it’s made me afraid to speak up or speak out and I immediately cry whenever someone yells at me.
@jocelynmcdaniel33714 жыл бұрын
This whole week i realize that I don’t remember much of my childhood and I’ve been asking myself why can’t I remember what was so traumatic and this is helping me get one step closer and I’d like to thank you
@babeyteeef3 жыл бұрын
saw this today after the biggest tower moment of my life- and somehow we’re going through the same thing ur vulnerability is appreciated for all the wounded inner children watching this 🥺💝
@TheEffulgentLotus4 жыл бұрын
Thank you, Shonnetta, for the gift of your vulnerability. May it spark great healing, compassion, and understanding for us all!
@verginiasophia96204 жыл бұрын
watching this suddenly brings back my memories on how i was writing my diaries in my room on my own crying in the middle of the night whenever i got emotionally abused when i was young, thank you for your nurturing energy girl
@showyouthewhey57424 жыл бұрын
Verginia Sophia I feel you.. sending you love x💛
@teresaeubanks40894 жыл бұрын
I'm not even 10min in and I'm already in tears😫🙏💙🦋
@Eternal32bloom4 жыл бұрын
Online hug for you, dear. 💙
@julinetgonzalez42514 жыл бұрын
It makes me feel a bit more comfortable that others can relate to what ive been through. I am a Capricorn and have been dealing with this throughout my whole life.. ive felt this 100%
@priscathomas73194 жыл бұрын
You are very brave thank you for showing your vulnerability and sharing your healing with us.
@miyenakamura4844 жыл бұрын
God bless you for being open about your inner child and understanding about yourself. This is the start of healing.
@geminitarott4 жыл бұрын
You have no idea how much I needed this, I’ve been so lazy, depressed. No motivation and a lot of self sabotage. I just got a reading that said I need to do inner child work... you and spirit is right on time at all times. Thank you Shonnetta thank you spirit. 🤍🤍
@mikaylamoore31244 жыл бұрын
I absolutely, 100% needed to hear this message from you. I'm a true believer in everything happening in divine timing and this is just more confirmation. Thank you so, so much for your vulnerability. I am on a deep self love and self acceptance journey and I cried right along with you. I have been a little terrified to be vulnerable myself and even journal because everytime I do i drudge up something that makes me cry but your willingness to share with us reminded me that it is well worth it in the end. Bless 🥰🦋 p.s. we share the same sun sign and middle name!
@JulesMJ0394 жыл бұрын
You're so strong. This human journey is such a blessing. Sometimes chaos comes along and gets the best of us, but thanks to these moments we get to observe that unhealed part of us that needs more nurturing and love. I can relate to this. I am learning to receive and give gently. Understanding that Vulnerability is strength and peace in disguise. Much love to all you soul tribe, keep pushing softly through this beautiful dance of life. J 💜
@kamareaton3 жыл бұрын
Your strength is commendable. You are activating the deepest emotions within me right now
@kileyw85204 жыл бұрын
Honey I cried too!! I’m so so so proud of you and thank you for helping all us children here 🙏🏻💙
@brinicbri4 жыл бұрын
This made my cry. I struggle badly with forgiveness toward my father. I told myself around the end of 2019 that I was gonna forgive him for the lying, hidden marriages, secrecy, disrespect to my mom ,who has always been there For him even when he deceived her for years. Then I was put in a situation where he was too close for my comfort for 2 months and I can only tolerate doses of him. From the end of December to the beginning of February he lived with me for the first time in my life; Ive never even been to his house before but he’s always been in my life. My anger and resentment protruded to the point where I would avoid him any chance I got in the small 3 bedroom I live in right now. He’s left now, I was feeling like once he left that I can get back to the mentality of forgiving but I’m still struggling because pain in me has festered for years and he hasn’t apologized or fully acknowledged it. I hate when he calls to talk, but I always pick up. I’m an only child and very close to my mother; we didn’t find out he was married until I was 16. That’s when then animosity started. I’m 22 now and I definitely have problems with accepting love and trusting men. This video truly was medicine. I know where to go from here, because I deserve to feel lighter. I love and appreciate you so much shonnetta! WOW.
@Alyyre4 жыл бұрын
I wasn’t going to comment because I never really comment on anything but I just felt the need too. I don’t want to go into detail but I really needed to hear this. So thank you💗
@masqueraderecovery4054 жыл бұрын
When you said you had to go to your room and just figure it out as a child - that really resonated with my own experiences. Thank you so much for being vulnerable, it gives me hope that I can get to that place too ❤️
@brinaf28574 жыл бұрын
That hit hard...
@DIrizarry074 жыл бұрын
Confirmation!!! I have been getting a lot of intuitive hits on Mothering myself in the past week or so. Awakening has also been a theme and a study. If Self-Mothering is self-care, then I was actually neglected! My mother sounds A LOT like yours, very dismissive, low communication (secrets were common and a part of daily life), plus constant emotional/psychological abuse. Physical abuse was rare, but it DID happen. Always being told, in one way or another, that I wasn't good enough and was a disappointment straight from God. How can you truly have confidence in yourself or anything you do if you feel that way??? I am grateful that I kept pushing, even if I ridiculed myself along the entire way. Like a record stuck on repeat in my brain, deeeeep in my subconscious, the malicious words always came back to cut me one more time. Since I've started my healing journey, it's gotten SO much better; that voice has almost been 100% silenced. I had to remove her from my life for that to happen, but no regrets because I did what was best for me and did what I needed to do to save my soul. Now, I just have to learn how to nurture myself CONSISTENTLY. THANK YOU for allowing yourself to be vulnerable and share!!! It feels good to not be so alone in this world. 😊
@conniesaavedra84614 жыл бұрын
What a beautifully brave and honest thing you have done. Thank you Shonnetta.
@mariahnicole59084 жыл бұрын
Tears cleanse the soul , and I literally felt all of this , let's heal baby ! #blessandcleanseyoursoul
@seeyouagain9114 жыл бұрын
Or revenge. Lol!
@jedors55754 жыл бұрын
When I was four everything around my life started to crumble. My mom and dad would argue and then one day my dad left. My mom took me and my sister to get our hair done and when we came back to the house there was a police car in the driveway. My dad punched in all the TVs in the house. After that my dad started to show up at the house when my mom would leave. My mom always told us to not open the door but we never listened to her because he’s our dad and he’s crazy. My dad has always seemed to ruin everything every since I was young. He never separated my siblings and I from my mom so everything he did to hurt her and it always ended up hurting us. He’s still the same narcissistic man, I have no interest of saying anything to him. It’s been a year and half of me not speaking to him. Love and light to you all ❤️ 🌟
@ninamoonchild99064 жыл бұрын
I cried with you till the last second of this video.. This really resonates with me, and I'm in a really hard time of my life.. Sending you love, and thank you for this, it was needed. ♥️
@AzmielSinclair4 жыл бұрын
I started crying around the same time you started crying when you brought up having to be sneaky you shined light on something I didn't think was a problem Thank you and your spirits I needed this
@SHANDIHEARTSTONES4 жыл бұрын
This hit home. I cried. I need to learn to be more mothering to myself. I definitely deserve the love that I give.
@kellyfreespirit33374 жыл бұрын
Sister, your calmness was refreshing. I really resonated with this. My mother was/is the same way. Rarely is she present, avid listening or nurturing. Making me feel like such a burden. Healing that wound will take time and constant attention. bless you for being so vulnerable. This means that you are experiencing an incredible breakthrough. Lots of love
@Reilabee4 жыл бұрын
Girl, this is so crazy.. I felt like you were talking to ME personally! I've had lots of issues about the past with my mom, and it's bled into the present. I needed to hear this for sure. I love you.
@outoforder57944 жыл бұрын
I love how you post this to help us, but I can hear you too, Don't worry about having to cut out parts when you get too emotional, cuz it's okay! Don't forget about yourself either while filming, I don't know what really happens since what you post is all I see about you. Even so, your messages are meaningful to so many of us. I appreciate you so much! Even if you won't read this or this may seem odd I just felt to urge to write it. Don't forget that!!
@tinyluna60434 жыл бұрын
Big applause for that bravery 👏🏼 I feel you.
@dianetouren28004 жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ thank you for yo beautiful gift of showing yourself vulnerable !! You are beautiful and you are worthy of love !!!
@rainalopez26324 жыл бұрын
I really did need to hear this. My mom abandoned me when I was 4ish 5 and I was sent to from family member to family member then foster home to foster home. I'm going to be 16 now and few months ago I moved in with her. I hadn't forgiven her for all that she put me through even though my siblings had. I believe that this really is my sign that I need to begin my healing process. Thank you so much.
@luvinghim14 жыл бұрын
Raina Lopez blessings to you 😘
@christinahernandez7804 жыл бұрын
You are not alone !! I’m a foster child who turned 17 a couple days ago ...the hurt doesn’t leave til we heal and accept 🥺, we are strong independent people !! You are not alone in this, we can push forward blessed
@christinahernandez7804 жыл бұрын
You are not alone !! I’m a foster child who turned 17 a couple days ago ...the hurt doesn’t leave til we heal and accept 🥺, we are strong independent people !! You are not alone in this, we can push forward blessed
@10vball014 жыл бұрын
I was literally looking up "why dont I feel loved by people who I know actually love me" when this video popped up in my notifications, so thank you!
@TheDjcloudy1084 жыл бұрын
Dude. Literally in tears. Right before I clicked on this video I wrote down the top 5 things to get rid of moving forward. #2 was Victim mentality. This is wiiiiild.
@tai17314 жыл бұрын
Thank you Shonnetta!!! I really need this cry and release. I was always playing victim and pushing people away, but no more! I deserve to be happy and loved! ❤️❤️❤️
@kekemomo99484 жыл бұрын
💪💪💪 this was key to unlock that last door before transformation ...you were guided to activate the wounded children...Ty❤️
@macevelly38574 жыл бұрын
This was so beautiful to watch. I'm literally trying to write my mom a letter about how I need space to heal right now after I realized the extent of the hurt she's caused. I love her with all my heart but as you said she felt the weight of the world and as a result I took that on. Thank you so much...I've been trying to figure out the right thing to do and this has given me so much clarity. Bless!!
@cameditrien70644 жыл бұрын
It's been a few days that I'm seeing signs that I needed to get in touch with my wounded child...
@juliebarrera53984 жыл бұрын
you got me sitting here with emotions from memories that get me close to tears thanks for this message very needed
@LaJefasEssence4 жыл бұрын
I always got hammered by my family and ex that i could not cry in front of them. I have been blocked from crying for years. Hearing this message ears ringing, goosebumps, my mother was a single mom of 4, 25 years of pain is rushing down my face. God i feel like i can breathe better i can't believe how much unknown weight ive been holding onto. I was the oldest helping her raise them. I found my twin flame- soulmate and i am so hesitant to believe our love is this amazing because im scared... Because I've NEVER felt any kind of love like the one he gives me. I thank you so much you goddesss. I wish i could hug you. I know the pain beauty! Stay exquisite
@mc06714 жыл бұрын
Tearing up along side you, baby.💜 There's strength in sharing our stories. x
@annacama83134 жыл бұрын
Real talk . I feel this on a visceral level.. from my own childhood . And now As a mother of 4 whose husband works everyday 8 to 5 , I am alone with my kids. Let me tell you my friend, I needed this message today. I promise, you've helped me so much in this moment. thank you for your honesty.
@faustine4944 жыл бұрын
This is going to help so many, thank you for sharing
@BlkMario234 жыл бұрын
I’m trying to write a comment n I’m speechless 😂 “laughing is one of my coping mechanisms for pain”. To admit to myself that I was even still in the victim energy was a release in its own n it hurt. But now I’m aware of some things I must work on n I couldn’t be more grateful for you sharing that. Peace n love queen 💙♾
@adamasartislife29434 жыл бұрын
Honestly like accepting it is almost like hurt on it's own. I'm just here like "seriously?" "Again?" "We seriously about to do this again?" And I'm tired honestly its draining ti feel all these emotions again, but I am worthy enough to realease them. I can see the victim mindset she is talking about. I saw it today strongly in a conversation invade with someone and I just realised it's been sneaking into my relationship with my siblings. She's right. It's time to take my power back and allow myself feel.
@amandanewsome74064 жыл бұрын
Best therapy I've ever had. I've already begun my journey to end a generational curse a few months back. I felt I was being too harsh. Now I know my next steps. Thank you lovely 😘. One love!
@leslybarajas74514 жыл бұрын
only those who go through it understand. yesterday was the heaviest day for me it being mothers day and i came around this video today. im hearing this a second time to pick up anything i didnt catch the first time. This was so beautifully worded i couldnt help but cry. thank you for being so transparent. thank you