Our Fertility Journey: Episode 2

[@waitingforthecomet]

I’ve never wanted something to happen for someone else so badly.

[@AshleyAye]

waitingforthecomet same. 🥺

[@elizabethgregory]

Same

[@izabellacoles6319]

waitingforthecomet me. too.

[@adritrez]

waitingforthecomet same

[@alinAlinuk]

Same here!

[@jocelynceballos3469]

In the video she just said it does bother her when people leave those comments saying she’s pregnant when she’s not. And people in these comments are leaving those exact same comments. I know we all want the best but please have some respect.

[@sheenap6119]

Jocelyn Ceballos ty girl ! ❤️ some people don’t get it ):

[@jeg7337]

Well, there is a reason they are posting this series. It's the natural assumption of a viewer. If they couldn't handle it they wouldn't post it. There is nothing wrong with hopefulness and positivity from viewers.

[@michellefrate]

@@jeg7337 Maybe the reason is to just share the journey so other women know they're not alone in how difficult of a process this is. There's nothing wrong with positivity and hope, but it is insensitive to assume the reason for why they're posting this. So don't be insensitive.

[@Corn22]

J G they posted it to shed light on infertility, not so people could harass them about whether they are pregnant. it’s insensitive.

[@emilyotremba3807]

yes! and people saying this better end in a pregnancy announcement etc like please shut up and stop putting your expectations on her

[@GretchenV95]

“When are you gonna give your man a baby?” Is such a gross thing to say. A baby isn’t a joke. It’s not a prize or a loan that you just give or owe to someone.

[@cierranicole6553]

I've had this said to me a few times and it's broken me. Because I wish I could give him a child

[@babygee1854]

Was with someone for 5 years we tried to have a baby and left me for someone else because I was “broken” . It’s been over a year since our breakup and I met the most amazing caring man beginning of this year , we found out we’re pregnant last month . God was saving me for this man 🙏 I hope whatever the future holds for you its 100,000,000,000,000 times blessed ❤️

[@Ashhhh211]

That’s awesome! Congrats to you!! It’s crazy how in the moment you can imagine why it’s happening to you and then you get blessings down the line! ❤️

[@LaurenP0205]

Congratulations, what a blessing! I hope you have a happy & healthy pregnancy 💜

[@babygee1854]

Ashley Marion thank you ❤️ at the time I really didn’t know why me but now I see it was for a new beginning .

[@babygee1854]

Lauren thank you so much ❤️

[@hildelizza]

Omg amazing!!! 😱😱 CONGRATULATIONS

[@ChantelWestbrook]

You guys need to stop commenting “ at the end of this series I feel like she’s announcing she’s pregnant!!!” .... are you serious? What if is isn’t? Do you know how much pain she may feel reading those comments.

[@klynj526]

After everything she has said in this video....and people STILL act ignorant

[@beachbaby-qu1cr]

And people are out here defending themselves

[@stephvsrudy27]

Agree!!! Everyone like this comment so that it goes to the very top and dumdums will stop commenting that! 💕

[@saraht8562]

Exactly what I thought!!

[@taryimara8348]

No matter how many times Desi reiterates it thousand times, people still speculate. I’m sure it comes from a good place but still comments like those do more harm to her mental state which is already fragile as is with all of the hormones from all of the procedures.

[@carawright158]

Can we take a moment to just appreciate how supportive and understanding Steven has been. Like how many men can truly be there for their partner and understand that what she is going through is so painful and so consuming. I really appreciate how he mentioned that it wasnt his body, so he'd never fully understand the pain and I also love how he said he admired Desi's strength throughout this whole journey. Desi has really found her perfect match, two strong, loving souls. I wish you both the absolute best!

[@b.maliboo9453]

Reminds me of Meghan Edmunds from Real Housewives of OC's HORRIFIC journey with 0 support from her husband. Steven's amazing! I think the fact that they both want this equally as much & are going through it as equals is EVERYTHING & as hard as it may be some days, will make them stronger & the whole journey worth it.

[@gentlestormwyatt]

I agree. I just love his patience and support through their journey. Thank you Steven. 💛💛💛 Sending you guys love, light, and abundance of joy.

[@lesleydoesmakeup]

You are a strong woman Desi. You and Steven got this and the whole world is rooting for you guys!

[@katereimer693]

this made me realize all my mother went through to have me. im an ivf baby and women are heros

[@zahrajabeen9243]

Can we all take a moment to appreciate how loving, caring and supportive Steven is😭😭

[@sumens.element]

Zahra Jabeen Shah honestly! He’s really doing a great job. I can only hope to have a man as caring and supportive and loving as him!

[@johanahuerta947]

@@sumens.element off topic but girl, you're really pretty! 🙂

[@classicarah]

He’s amazing,they’re both blessed to have each other.

[@12Nomzamo]

yesses this man is a blessing

[@gaiac7870]

And the way he really listens to her, he really let her express her emotions. You can tell he's an amazing man.

[@loisthompson5625]

I feel we are very privileged to be sharing this very intimate and personal journey with Desi and Steven therefore we all need to respect their request for sensitivity from all of us, the viewers. They aren't asking much guys, we can all put ourselves in their shoes. Be respectful of their wishes.

[@emadinah]

Thank you Lois!!

[@aprildawn396]

Lois Thompson absolutely 💗

[@joshlynechapoose9292]

Lois Thompson worded perfectly! ❤️

[@darlingllella]

This woman is a goddess y’all protect her at all costs.

[@sophiehale6014]

I’ve never cried so much at another woman’s period 🤧

[@Jazminflowerss]

Seeing Desi break down while doing her makeup broke me, seeing Steven not knowing what to say really hurt. I’m seriously wishing you nothing but positivity and love. Give yourself so much grace, you are enough. Your body is not broken. Please be gentle on yourself♥️

[@FellyStillBraxtonsMama]

The way that Desi explains how she looks at her best friend's daughter and imagines that's how old her baby would have been.... This is just a small example of what we go through after having a miscarriage or stillbirth, it stays with you forever and you never forget. My son was still born one day after my due date, he was a perfectly healthy full term baby with no complications. Any time I see a little boy his age I get a knot in my throat and just imagine what my son would have been like... I would have been 19 months old now, walking, talking, playing with cars, maybe riding a tricycle. All we can do is imagine... Thank you for being brave to share your journey, Desi. We need to talk about pregnancy and infant loss more, break the silence! xoxo

[@mrs.Smokie_mc_doob]

I am so sorry for your loss, the day y’all meet again will be amazing! You are an amazing woman and mother! I totally agree that it’s just a small example of what we go through. I actually just found out I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks and 3 days, but only found out today. Today would’ve been 8 weeks and 4 days. There’s definitely no easy way to deal with it, but knowing you’re not alone helps tremendously. I agree that the silence should be ended, so other women know that there are others that have been through the same thing.

[@TheVroomgirl]

I can't even imagine what you have to go through. God bless your heart

[@PlaygroundLove09]

I’m a firm believer that we reunite will our loved ones. I’m so sorry. I hope you feel the love I’m sending you ❤️

[@gabyg4818]

I hade a miscarriage 6 years ago, I think sometimes, she would've been a beautiful curly hair, brown eyed girl by now, God Bless her soul.

[@fabiayala8892]

Felly - Still Braxton’s Mama I feel you, I had a stillbirth at 34 weeks. And I still wonder what if....

[@amberdalbec548]

This brings back all the memories, I am so sorry. This brought tears to my eyes. Infertility warriors know what what it feels like to love someone you’ve never felt, met, or can imagine meeting. Prayers to you and Stephen.

[@mariamoreno6630]

I cried watching desi crying and saying she feels broken. Steven being such a supportive husband but not knowing what to say at the moment hurts, we all know you both deserve to have beautiful children one day, god will bless you so hard one day. We love you Perkins ❤️

[@karlacruz5326]

Desi all I can think when I watch these is, “wow, that baby is gonna KNOW they’re loved”. Everything you and Steven are going through and putting yourself through, as painful as it is, is coming from the most loving place and I can’t imagine a more deserving couple 🤍

[@Ash_Dental_implant_journey]

This !!!!!

[@Gigi_K]

My husband and I tried for 5 years. I went through 7 rounds of clomid, 3 more rounds of injectables with IUI. Finally IVF and it worked! We have 2 incredible tiny humans that we really don’t deserve but somehow managed to receive. They are healthy and the sweetest, kindest, happiest boys - I felt defeated everyday but I kept going. I knew I wanted to be a mom more than anything. I fought every day. I got my blood drawn almost every day for 2 years. I had all the uncomfortable, painful tests done. I had hysterosalpingograms and hysteroscopies. I cried when my friends got pregnant on the first try, I cried when my sister in law got pregnant after trying for 2 months. I cried and cried and cried. It finally happened and then I worried: please God let them be healthy, I had PUPP, risk of downs, potential complications so I was on bed rest all of the third trimester. In the end it was all worth it and I would do it again. I would give myself the painful shots, I would get poked and prodded and I would cry all over again because I know what happens and those beautiful faces, the hugs, the kisses, the constant laughter - it’s worth all of it!!! I hope this is where it leads for you 💗🙏

[@xika9]

Omg this give a lot of hope 😭🖤

[@LilySwe97]

bless you and your family❣️ and of course you deserve having your kids. ❤️

[@violetby]

Very inspiring! God bless you and your children. I believe every woman and person deserves to be a parent. Very happy for you!!!

[@jeaninebouknight9780]

I know exactly how you feel. Went through IVF twice and was blessed with two little angels and one still “in the deep freeze”. ❤️

[@Bestsidneyever]

This made me cry. Bless you and your family!!

[@andreaalcala5451]

Who’s here after she just announced her pregnancy on ig!!!

[@MiyaGeorginaJoi]

Andrea Alcala spoiler alert :( I didn’t know!!

[@mariamcamara9889]

You spoiled it ! (Even tho I was expecting it)

[@zoehussain1618]

Andrea Alcala Spoiler!!!!

[@CarolinaLopez-je6ze]

@@MiyaGeorginaJoi same

[@julissah.6389]

You spoiled it jeez😭😓😔😥😢

[@astridverhulst5160]

I literally can't express how meaningful this series is. You are beautiful beautiful people for sharing this super vulnerable journey, and I was crying when Stephen expressed his admiration for women going through this. THANK YOU SO MUCH, DESI

[@isaBel-bs2ft]

I hope this makes people realize to stop commenting n dming her that she’s pregnant it’s really hurtful n rude

[@mariahfabean2637]

isa Bel As I see people saying “shes for sure pregnant” “she’s gonna announce at the end of the series” how sad that people STILL can’t grasp this shit.

[@ccorona90]

Mariah Fabean YES! I saw those comments on the first episode and felt so bad. I hope people can connect the dots that that comment is hurtful too.

[@LetsTalkAboutLaMode]

I've just watched the first video and people were still commenting things like this and I'm so pissedddddddddd. She already talked about it before, WHY do they keep doing that?! I don't understand.

[@msann713]

For real! She’s going through enough as is!

[@notso_nise]

Being open and vulnerable like this isn't about the critics and haters, it's about the million of women going through infertility who feel alone and embarrassed. Women feel that way because nobody talks about it and for a public influencer like Desi to open up and share her story helps other women to not feel so alone. I believe that is commendable for her to use her influence in such powerful way.

[@jomama0731]

I just think we should all thank Desi for allowing us to watch her & Stevens journey. thank you, best wishes to you both.

[@avafunderburk3136]

Yes!! 100%. She’s doing an AMAZING thing here

[@haolegirlfromcali]

Absolutely!!!!

[@xoxojennybean]

“I’m just so tired” Those words hit so close to home. I have felt that for so long. You’re just mentally, emotionally and physically tired. Thank you so much for bringing light to this and sharing your story. I’m in tears every episode.

[@misshautechip7847]

Amen. Going through the same now

[@cierranicole6553]

I feel the same every cycle.

[@jordenwadley7438]

I can’t believe some people have the audacity to say that she’s pregnant especially knowing the journey she’s been going through.

[@thriftin_n_flippin851]

I agree. It infuriates me because when they ask it makes Desi so sad.

[@EDUBB143]

I lost my baby girl full term I was due in 7 days. I buried her on the day she was meant to be due. It’s been 12 years, I’ve watched everyone around me have kids. I know your pain, I wish a healthy pregnancy for you.

[@MattisonDitter]

thinking of you

[@victoriagraaff]

Sending you so much love ❤️

[@DomenicaMadeleine]

Yolanda Perez ❤️❤️

[@cubanjewlzz]

Good bless you always ❤️

[@debbie12346]

So sorry that happened 🙏🏼

[@AmandaEnsing]

I remember I started following you right before your first miscarriage and I sent you a message and it was one of the first times we talked. You both are SO strong and I am praying for God to keep holding you both. I pray you can start your family and all the desires of your heart come true. I can’t imagine how hard this is but I’m sending you both my love. Thanks for sharing your journey.

[@vsandoval77]

I tried to have a child for 6 years and when I finally got pregnant I had an ectopic pregnancy at 8 weeks and I had emergency surgery not only did I lose my baby I lost one of my ovary. I went into depression for months. I feel you Desi . Love you

[@temitayofraser]

vonetta Haven 🧡🧡🧡💛💛💛💛💛

[@anniezee4447]

❤❤❤❤

[@jessserrano3051]

you are so strong 💛

[@vsandoval77]

Jess S thank you so much

[@vsandoval77]

Temitayo Fraser’s VIBE thank you 🙏

[@mm_elissa9081]

You’re strength is incredible. You’re a warrior.

[@sheenap6119]

Guys please be sensitive with the “hope you end this series with an announcement” comments. We know you mean good, but it doesn’t always come out that way. we all mean the best and hope the best! ❤️ She’s literally explained in THIS EXACT video and previous how much it hurts to hear other assume that she’s pregnant when she herself hasn’t announced it! Please think twice before posting!

[@beachbaby-qu1cr]

Soy Sauce thank you. She is sharing this out of her heart to share her journey. I wish people would stop

[@Beba0517]

Soy Sauce right!!

[@rachelturkentine]

Agreed!

[@Amval_]

It’s about being positive and sending love. It’s okay if people post that it’s their comment.

[@sheenap6119]

beachbaby3792 , it’s like they ignore what she’s said in every video and disregard her feelings. I know they mean best though, We all do ❤️

[@saidbyher3683]

I’m so glad you have someone like Stephen. He’s so invested and considerate of you, your feelings and your body.

[@lovagirl7777]

Said By Malaya I literally just said this!!!!

[@Loraiin3105]

I would understand if you disable the comments. Just want to say i’m wishing you both a healthy baby no matter when and which way. I really really wish that for you guys

[@tiffanyszymanski4033]

I had 3 failed IUI’s as well and ended up getting pregnant with IVF on the first try. IVF is hard and mentally exhausting but so worth it in the end. I’m praying for you Desi!

[@savannahfincham13]

Love that the doc said “just know that you’re doing everything you can and that’s enough” 💙💙

[@Sportdiva7]

I agree. I’m sure it meant a lot. It’s true and it has to be so hard to be positive when hearing disappointing news over and over. My heart goes out to them.

[@ashketchum1377]

Such good words im sure desi needed to hear

[@yvettehernandez6770]

You know I tried 5years with my partner and nothing...he decided to cheat and got someone else pregnant..I was heartbroken not because of him but because I knew it was me...then I moved out of state and rekindled with my first love...he got me pregnant within months of being with him 😊I believe timing is everything...god has a plan for everyone, I could not be happier now with my 2 babies 🥰

[@cutieeepieeXO]

Yvette Hernandez holy shit what a story! Im glad it worked out for you!

[@yvettehernandez6770]

cutieeepieeXO thank you yes...it sure did work out...And now everything makes sense...

[@dopehat868]

Wow what an amazing story!! ❤️❤️

[@faizasaeed1000]

Yeah sometimes just two people are not meant to have kids together. We shouldn’t force things just prayers and leave it to the most High.

[@TheJulka7]

Girl, so happy for you)

[@nansytapia4256]

This has been so hard to watch I’m turning 26 on October and have been with my husband for 8 years and still no luck. I felt everything that you guys felt and thank you so much for these videos they really help us to feeel that we aren’t alone

[@lt.2992]

Nansy Tapia In my country people do vaginal steams and they get pregnant after. Try it.

[@jessicallee]

I once heard (and agree) that you should never ask a woman if she’s pregnant until the baby’s crowning 🤪

[@irenesanmiguel2875]

@Jessica Martin Mykie!!

[@JubnaJubna]

I’m observing Ramadan and I believe that there are certain times of the day where prayers are accepted. I know you don’t follow my religion but you’ll be in my prayers today and everyday Desi for a healthy pregnancy. You deserve happiness. ❤️ you.

[@lizzzy712]

MasAllah! 💗 wishing the same for her too.

[@Rana-eg4ed]

Me too! I'm truly hoping during this month of Ramadan that she and Steven will be blessed with a healthy baby!!

[@MrsIssa__]

Ameen ♥️

[@Moon-ty1eh]

May Allah bless her with a beautiful baby. InshAllah.

[@HaDealio]

Ameen ya rab 🙏

[@special_spaces]

“You went to the grocery store and I missed you” 🥺 Steven... the way you support and love Desi is unreal ♥️

[@stephanierodriguez3481]

I started crying when she FaceTime her friends daughter 😭😭

[@Lisv28]

Dr. Huang is an amazing doctor he helped me get pregnant . Sending prayers your way.

[@OlegAlexandra]

Desi you cannot even imagine the strength you’re giving us by sharing your story. Personally I’m struggling with infertility the past 9 years. I’m 37 years old. Never been pregnant. All this years I feel so embarrassed by all this and I feel so powerless when ppl are asking me when I’m gonna have kids and that I’m not getting any younger... you’re such a strong woman by sharing this with the world and you have such an amazing supportive husband! You deserve a baby so much and I’m sending all my love and positive thoughts for a healthy and happy 9 months soon!

[@alexapaola]

Oleg Alexandra don’t listen to them, you are strong and an amazing woman!!

[@marcelalove6012]

You’re strong mama no matter what!!

[@avafunderburk3136]

Please don’t be embarrassed by anything. At the end of the day you are a whole, complete beautiful person without a child and your desire to have a baby and raise a family is a bonus. I’ve been trying for almost three years and there’s so much pressure from everyone it makes you want to scream. Anyone who tries to make you feel bad is an inconsiderate fool.

[@lpnffchick]

I didn’t give birth until I was 37 with my twins. I know exactly what you are feeling.

[@RebeccaJ720]

If Janet Jackson was able to bare a healthy child at 50, you definitely should have the same power at 37! I’m not really one to talk since I don’t plan on having a child anytime soon, but still sending all positive vibes! It took my parents 7 years to finally be conceived with me.

[@beachbaby-qu1cr]

Every one please be extremely mindful of what you comment. Desi has expressed what is and is not helpful. There are an extreme number of comments in regards to the end of this series...please be VERY mindful of how those could make desi feel.

[@clarissagalicia1982]

Anyone can see that you and Steven were made for eachother I love how he’s so considerate of you!!! I’ve never been so happy for two people I don’t know but I feel like I know y’all 😭🥰 congratulations y’all are going to be amazing parents! 🤍

[@Laurakate_xo]

It’s so crazy to think that I watched those makeup tutorials and Halloween party and I just thought that they was so happy without a care in the world. When really all this was going on. It’s true you really don’t know what people are going through behind closed doors. It pays to be kind to everyone 🤍

[@NatalyGarcia]

All I’m going to say is you’re a strong ass woman and I admire your strength.

[@LetsTalkAboutLaMode]

The fact that you've talked about the impact of the comments again and again AND AGAIN and people keep doing that shit... I'm so pissed.

[@danielarubio5321]

Moony Iliyassou it’s just really inconsiderate 😩 I hope people will really stop!

[@MaxineisGolden]

Right.

[@amandagutierrez4898]

Even on this video people keep commenting “hope you’re pregnant at the end of the series!” I don’t think they mean any ill will but sheesh

[@thriftin_n_flippin851]

I get so livid. I want to smack each and every inconsiderate person commenting that bs. Desi said again and again how horrible those comments make her feel but yet ppl still leave them. Have some compassion for Desi and Stephen. They're being open about this experience when they don't have to.

[@april6081]

I wish they had a show in the E! Network. I never watch people entire 20-30 minute vlogs except for theirs! Love you guys. Thanks for recording this journey

[@mushkbarahmed9474]

This just made me realise, how we can never know what a person is going through. Hats off to you for having such courage ♥️

[@wakeup4makeup116]

Desi’s so right. No women wants some stranger to announce their pregnancy. Also nobody knows what someone else is going through. Just because someone looks pregnant, it doesn’t mean they are.

[@miram4583]

It’s Ramadan for us muslims and I’m praying for u and Steven 💕

[@yn-id8qr]

Mira m yes, definitely.

[@Farah-zz5cb]

Me too i hope Allah accepts my prayers ❤️

[@Hejzizzjzjz]

Same here sis!! 🙏🏻❤️

[@Sali_7984]

Yes definitely praying for them

[@chaimschaims2944]

Ramadan Mubarak! I'm keeping everyone in my prayers x

[@jennkho8308]

Desi: I just wanna give you a virtual hug so badly. I’m so sorry love. Please please know there are people out here rooting for you both. Sending you all the loves and baby vibes. God hears you. I know he does.

[@Bellafoofellah]

“You went to the grocery store yesterday and I said I missed you” I’m so happy Desi has someone as supportive as Steven by her side! They both truly deserve each other. 🤍

[@JubnaJubna]

One of my best friends struggled conceiving for almost 10 years. She was literally asked almost every day if she was pregnant by everyone around her and people kept telling her to ‘hurry up you’re getting old’ and ‘come on give your husband a baby now’ which completely drained her. It broke my heart every time I saw her face after one of those comments. She started IVF treatment nearly 2 years ago which didn’t work at first but she tried again and got pregnant. I cried my eyes out when she told me and prayed every day that her pregnancy goes smoothly. She gave birth to a beautiful baby boy last week without any complications and she and the baby are healthy and well. God works in mysterious ways and I believe you and Steven will be successful in your journey like my friend was. You’re in my prayers.

[@alexmiller6698]

The give your husband a baby and when she said when are you gonna give Steven a baby that really made me flare in anger, like the rage I felt! And people think prejudice against women isn’t real... 😡

[@lexisssbrianaaa410]

Father I come to you as humbly as I can , I’m extending my hand in prayer over the Perkins couple . I pray that you help them and guide them through this very emotional journey that they have gone through & are going through. I pray that you give them the patience , the love & the comfort that they need . I pray that they are able to have a pregnancy very soon & I pray that you just pour out your extra love on them & last I pray that they never loose their faith! Thank you father god for your doing , thank you because I know that everything that your doing is for a reason whether we know it or not, we are grateful for every single thing you’ve done and for everything you’re about to do! Thank you lord for listening to each and every one of our prayer, in your name I pray AMEN. 🤍 I love you guys so much & I’m praying for you all. 🤍

[@liltiggergirl316]

Amen

[@tylahoc9271]

Thank you Father Lord. Amen

[@ASDF-rl6jr]

Amen

[@ayosammyy]

Amen

[@lmmbchampion]

Amen 🙏🏻

[@itssublymonal426]

As someone who doesn't currently have the desire to have children but has donated her eggs six times, I COMPETELY sympathize what you're going through. The first time I donated my eggs, I signed up solely because I was broke and needed money. But that family sent me a gift basket and a long, heartfelt letter thanking me for donating to them and it completely changed my outlook on fertility issues. That year, I got a call the week before Christmas from the agency letting me know that the recipients of my eggs were pregnant. It's not typical to have that sort of update but they really wanted me to know how grateful they were and I cried tears of joy for that family. Your day will come. I know it's hard. Just know what so many people are putting positive vibes out into the universe for you. So much love sent your way!

[@Cierra10]

“Denying the cramps”.. I’ve been there.. it hurts your heart and mind so much! I hate that feeling.. I pray God gives you what your hearts true desires are, you & Steven!

[@emsjourney4254]

You said it perfectly “someone going through infertility knows that adoption is an option” but why not give it a try for your own child! As someone going through infertility I get that a lot why don’t you just “adopt.” 🥴

[@Jetsgil5477]

While they mean well, ignore that and do you!

[@yvettejaussi3]

My friends and family would tell me to adopt and I kept telling them until I know I can’t physically have a child. then I will adopt! It took us 7years and here she is my beautiful baby girl. 🤱🏽✨😭🥰

[@emsjourney4254]

Yvette Jaussi aww congrats 💕 and I say the same thing I’m going to try everything to become a mother some day ✨

[@shyrleimartinez2632]

“be really careful about what you say” so, so, so important!

[@holllspockets]

Shyrlei Martinez this is SOOOO important. I was hoping someone would comment this. Be careful what you THINK! Your mind is power!

[@Rachel-su3ir]

So important. Struggled with infertility and recurrent miscarriages for two years. Almost 28 weeks pregnant I can't believe I made it this far

[@lauren892]

The part when you’re trying to do your makeup for KZbin killed me, just proved you really never know what someone’s going through. My respect and admiration for you is immeasurable🤍

[@andreiagordon8473]

My heart reaches out to you guys. I’m so inspired by your strength, your love for each other, your partnership, and your mindset. Even in the hardship, you laugh at desi and her glasses falling off her face. Or her curling toes. That is some strength. Undeniable companionship that only makes each other’s love stronger. I am so sorry you both are enduring this. May God bless you two. Twofold, or however he chooses to bless you, I will pray for you two and your journey. Love your videos so much. Keep spreading your love and thank you for sharing this beautiful and painful journey with us. ❤️❤️

[@arlenemadrigal7268]

After the message desi said at 4:38-6:45 you would think the people saying “I hope at the end of the series there’s a pregnancy announcement” would learn that although they have good intentions it can be hurtful to hear that when it doesn’t happen. As someone who tried for 2 years to have my son it would hurt when people would say “your pregnant” or “when will you have a baby it’s been 6 years that you’ve been married”. So please if you don’t understand that pain I hope you stop saying those comments and just pray for them and send lots of love their way. ❤️

[@brianag4274]

Arlene Madrigal u

[@taysiamassie5906]

exactly....

[@Bkrunz]

I was actively having a miscarriage when someone asked me when I wanted to have kids... I feel you on so many levels and I’m sorry this has been your experience

[@foxymama2003]

What I am so thrilled with about this series is that Stephen is giving a voice to all the men who get so overlooked in this process! My husband was a rock but when our 2nd niece was born, he broke down sobbing and my dad became his rock. None of the fertility treatments including IVF worked for us but after 12 years, we adopted our beautiful son at birth! It was so strange because we had given up and a friend of our family called me saying a friend of hers was putting her baby up for adoption and had chosen us because of how much our family friend had told her about us. That was 17 years ago. Thank you guys for helping other couples like us see how hard the road is and what blessings truly are!

[@alyssaashley1766]

ok but desi looks bomb in the interviews part omg

[@andreavarela8925]

“Oh you’re glowing you look pregnant” - And I’m like, I’m just wearing highlight today🥺

[@MoniqueARuiz]

I was glad she mentioned what phrases from people are hurtful to her about fertility/ adoption, etc. Some people are genuinely clueless about what effect their words have on others.

[@TheJulka7]

Monique Ruiz 100% let’s hope that those who left that hurtful comments to her will see this video and won’t do that ever again

[@cathybynum6390]

Hunny I’m in tears for you, I had endometriosis & cyst, I needed to have a hysterectomy, they told us it would be a slim chance for us; 6wks before surgery God Blessed us with a beautiful little girl, I had my hysterectomy when she was 15 months old. Sending Love & prayers y’all way.🥰

[@s18531]

The fact that while going through all of this you were coming through with amazing content and building your brand. So so so proud of you and I am wishing you and Steven the best!!

[@emilymyrick8801]

I'm not even at the point of medical interventions and trying to conceive is freaking rough, man. Every single female is a warrior and a godess. Thank you for making this series.

[@Cherrymoongurl]

I dont care what religion or higher power you believe; even if you don't. Please just take a second and pray that these two beautiful souls get this blessing❤️

[@pinkapplejl]

It's so timely that Desi is sharing her and Steven's experience while my husband and I are at the beginning of exploring our options for fertility treatment. It's been really encouraging for myself to know that I'm not the only one who has the same struggles mentally and emotionally, and the upsetting reality every month when your cramps set in right on time for your period instead of a positive pregnancy test. It's not easy knowing how easy it is for many to conceive naturally, while as a young and healthy person, you'd never think this would become a hurdle. Desi and Steven I'm cheering you on! Thank you so much for sharing your journey and I'm wishing you all the best!

[@Jade_fawkes]

My due date would have been on the 25th of May 2020, sadly we lost our baby at 9 weeks. When that date comes along its going to be hard! Sending you love xx

[@katherynkitttty]

God my heart ripped into pieces when you showed the scene of you blending your makeup and trying not to cry.. I’ve actually met you in person and I admire you so much. This shows you never know a “celebrities” struggles just because you see them in social media. I’m praying for you so hard Desi & Steven.

[@annacamarena31]

speaking it into existence: YOU WILL GET PREGNANT AND HAVE A HEALTHY PREGNANCY!💜

[@XO_deve]

Anna Camarena Amen

[@StewVlogs26]

Yes Amen!!!

[@cruz2227]

Omg shut up! Didn’t you just watch what she said about people who keep saying she’ll get pregnant/is pregnant.

[@angelicbby99]

Janell Thank you!!!!! Holy shit y’all are so ignorant!

[@jaquelinec.acosta5768]

You guys are amazing. I went to get a “DO NOT JUDGE ME” abortion because I was so young and my boyfriend at the time was very violent and I had a hard time and also I lived with my mother who also were pregnant and everyone in my family told me to get the abortion, because everything at the time was a mess. And let me tell you, my life stoped from the night before my abortion. And the abortion went wrong so I lost a lot of blood but also I lost the feeling of me right leg and I could walk. I have changed to a better relationship my boyfriend is the best, we have a several years tried to conceive but I have had 3 miss carriage, when I saw this video I complete cried because the way Daisy feels. I have become numb to my feelings In from of anyone now and I wish I could cry like she does. Every woman who goes thru this is superheroes. You are amazing, you are beautiful and you are perfect just they way you are. ❤️🙏🏼 I pray for all of you

[@thequazify]

The procedure to check your fallopian tubes is called the HSG, its an awful procedure. They had me wedged on a pillow (no stirups of course) and totally exposed. It was awful to be that exposed and then have pain and pressure of dye shot through the catheter into the uterus/tubes

[@Su-ox1di]

I do not know how you manage to be on camera while you’re this vulnerable. You are so strong, and I look up to you for that. I really wish you all the best. All the support, desi. 💛 take care!!

[@sofiaebrh]

Su I told myself the same thing but she’ll be so grateful to have this footage to look back on

[@jenna4117]

seeing her try so hard to be normal for us broke my heart

[@KarissaLissette1023]

Such raw emotion and you turned on the camera during moments that were so rough. Thanks for being vulnerable. I can only imagine how many people you are helping.

[@evelynramos0710]

I'm going through infertility myself & let me tell you, I hate when I see rude comments, or people tell me when will I get pregnant.

[@MrsDeezon]

This looks like a series professionally done by several editors and directors with good production budget. You are both so talented and creative. I have learned a lot watching this. Thank you for sharing your journey ❤

[@joannapacilio6265]

Both you and Steven RADIATE love & laughter, whenever and however a baby comes into your life, they will be beyond blessed to have you both as parents. Desi, wishing you & Steven, nothing but positive vibes for a happy & peaceful outcome ❤️

[@reneedeboer8102]

🙏🏻 ❤️

[@angel141108jk]

These videos makes me feel like a weight is over chest and not letting me breath, and understanding her pain, the pregnancy test is just arghh and at one point feeling worthless... But if you have faith, faith will move mountains and Desi the strength you have to show us this... You are a extraordinary person... And having ur partner helping you, helping take some weight off, helping you stay mentally healthy.. That's a gift... GOD WILL GIVE YOU HIS BEST ANGELS...

[@esradogan112]

So crazy ! 3 big channels on KZbin dealing with infertility after so many years are all having babies this year! Truly a miracle for you all! My mum went through the same thing , 9 years of infertility, told she would never have a baby even after going through IVF , then she got pregnant with me and i stayed ! I was a miracle baby ! And I know what you are talking about when you said you were depressed, I have had major depressive disorder for 14 years , so I totally get it , it’s horrible and you want to do anything to stop it . But Congratulations guys! So so so happy for you both ! You must be so so happy ! 😘😘

[@sarai040394]

Looking back at Desi trying to film a tut while having a tough morning 😭 I felt so sad. You just never know what someone’s going through

[@amrithakanakamedala3230]

Desi, last week was National Infertility Awareness week, so it was almost perfect that you shared these videos with us now. Thank you for sharing not only your vulnerability, but also your strength. Sending you both lots of love and hope for a baby ❤️

[@alisonswonderland3145]

To all the people commenting ‘imagine if at the end we find out she is pregnant’ or similar, please STOP. These comments also fall under ‘things you shouldn’t say to a woman about pregnancy’. If Desi isn’t at this point of time, you are adding to the heartbreak. I appreciate it is coming from a place of love - we all would love to see the Perkins family grow - but it’s not helpful. Thank you Desi and Steven for sharing your journey ❤️ Up until recently I hadn’t really thought about my own fertility because no one really talks about it. When the time comes for me and my boyfriend to start a family, I hope I have even an ounce of the strength you possess. Sending you both so much love

[@bbyitsriah]

instead of going in with a negative mindset to your appointments, think positive no matter the circumstance ❤️ I follow a mama who struggled with pregnancy for +10 years and wanted to give her now 2 year old a sibling, she’s half way through her second pregnancy. She shared her journey with IVF and what she did to keep sane, read scriptures, write down the ones that talk to you.. and when you’re feeling down go back and read those to reassure you. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable best wishes to you and Steven, you guys are so deserving to be parents, God has a plan.. ❤️

[@AshlynnRae1000]

Desi reminds me of that Friends episode where chandler describes Monica as already being a mother without a baby. Desi is already the best mother 💕

[@Mo-di6qf]

THIS! She already is the best momma 💗

[@tiffprendergast]

Ashlie Schroeder yup

[@nataliamadejska2008]

If I were Desi, I would literally burst into tears reading your comment and I don't mean it in a positive way!!!!! For someone who fears never experiencing motherhood - that comment can literally destroy a soul.

[@TheBriandabri]

All my life I used to say “I don’t want kids”. It wasn’t until now that I’m older that I realized what I really mean by that. I don’t want children unless I have a husband that loves respects and cares for me the way my dad loves his wife and kids and the way I see Steven loves you. Because I couldn’t imagine going through any circumstances with the wrong partner . So that in itself Desi, is a major blessing . You’ll have your beautiful babies when they’re ready for you 💕

[@danceryessie]

This whole series needs to seriously be on TV... such a great documentary series.

[@the.annethology]

OMG when Desi said she receives DMs saying she looks chubby cause shes preggo 🤦‍♀️😓 Damn insensitive rude people shouldn't be in social media

[@maribele58]

“i was reckless when i was 20 and i didn’t get pregnant” 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i feel you

[@Vansky10]

Maribel Pineda I felt that too lol

[@DaiiDaiiRawkz]

I tried for so many years Desi I have PCOS so it’s extremely difficult for me to get pregnant and finally in December I got a positive pregnancy test and now I am 21 weeks expecting a baby boy. God works in mysterious ways. I wish you two the best I know how it feels love. ❤️

[@gisseloxoxo]

Alyssa Trujillo ❤️❤️🙌🏻

[@yridianarivera7401]

omg im so scared for when i wanna try cuz i have pcos aswell🥺

[@Gigi_K]

Alyssa Trujillo Congratulations! 🎉 🥰 Wishing you and your baby continued health and happiness!

[@marylu2216]

CONGRATS!! Such a blessing!!🙌 My friend has the same thing and was told she would never be able to have kids. Well, only God knows cuz she now has 3. Keep your faith in Him!!🙏

[@DaiiDaiiRawkz]

yridiana rivera metformin and healthy diet girly will help !

[@samarabarnes9643]

It would be very hurtful seeing comments that are like ‘I bet she will have a baby’ but aren’t ur fans younger? So they might not understand that for some ppl it’s hard

[@celestemarae7206]

God bless y’all! Y’all’s strength and bravery is admirable and amazing! I, at 28 have no kids but have not “tried” and I have been on birth control for years until I begin a life with the right person but the thought has crossed my mind of going through this same life obstacle. You are both god sent for publicly putting this to help the world. And for that thank you ❤️

[@xsliicksx]

I loved when the Dr said " just know you're doing everything you can " 🥺 I feel like that's maybe what you need to hear during this. I'm not going through it but good god, desi you are a damn FIGHTER. I wish you guys nothing but amazingness los quiero mucho♥️

[@savannahbratton2559]

Why do people feel the need to comment saying anything about people being pregnant?? I don’t understand. Let people live. If they’re pregnant, you’ll find out they are at some point. And, there are situations like this, where they’re TRYING? You have NO idea how those comments can hurt someone. Just shut up and get out of people’s business.

[@celicaelicea2373]

I’ve watched you for years not done watching just wanted to say your not alone and I know exactly how it feels. Every negative test every period and you just have to put on a smile and move on. I struggled 7 yrs and one miscarriage it’s like I’m going threw memory lane. The path hurts what ever the outcome just know this means a lot for you guys to share your story. Thank-you

[@kdevore]

I love how caring, sweet, and understanding Steven is. You guys deserve all the happiness in the world 💕