Therapist reacts to Gone Away by Five Finger Death Punch

[@JPE_DRAEB]

I am a Veteran Combat Medic with PTSD and survivors guilt. This song/video hits me very hard as I can related! Although I was able to help some, so many didn't make it! Even though I did my best to keep my brothers and sisters alive I often times blame myself for not saving them! I can related to the ringing noise in the beginning of the video as the ringing noise has never left me! The more quiet the room is the louder it gets! It is a constant reminder! The lack of sleep, stress, sadness, nightmares, and anger I deal with is often unbearable! I feel guilty that I am still here! Many times I ask, "Why me?" Why come I am I am here? I don't like to talk about it and I can't believe I am typing this. Veterans and Memorial day is very hard for me! I would trade! I wish you all well!

[@cornbredx]

I was in Afghanistan and Iraq. I was not a medic, but I was special forces support. I knew a lot of good people that died in those wars. Hang in there. I believe it is our duty to remember them, and honor this memory by leading a good life for them.

[@rileyalexander5372]

Fellow combat medic here. Everything you both said, i feel aswell. There is never a day that goes by where I don't feel like it should have been me so my best friend could come home to his kids. This video probably hits me harder than wrong side of heaven because I watched 6 brothers get killed by an IED. I will never forget that moment. From one brother over the pond thank you both.

[@chetnolan7496]

God Bless you and all the men and women for their service Rest In Peace and may you find Peace at last 😄👏🙏❤️🇺🇲

[@DrazDetailing]

Respect from France man. Keep fighting 💪🤘

[@danielrupp7578]

God bless. Been looking for a way to give back to the community after I got out. Just recently started working full time at a homeless shelter. Place has 32 beds for men in general but then additionally has 22 for veterans.

[@nonames6179]

I'll never forget the day we got the knock on the door and I was handed a flag on behalf of a grateful nation. It's been 12 long years and not a day goes by that I don't miss my father. I still cannot listen to this song without crying.

[@melaniejordan1199]

I am so sorry for your loss. 💜

[@TheKindell4]

I know this may not assuage any pain, but we veterans tell eachother that there is no greater love than to lay down your life for another. We feel your pain and there are a ton of veterans out here that would have given our lives so your father would have made it home. You are not alone in that pain.thank you and the rest of your family for paying that price and giving him so that the rest of us could be with our families. From the bottom of my heart.

[@OdjnSIN]

After 2 tours overseas, I spent years asking myself, "why did I live?" I'm here because they're not and I won't squander this precious gift I've been given. I'll continue living in their honor, courage and sacrifice.

[@atlasisshrugging]

So true. "Survivor's guilt" is toxic and actually DISHONORS those who have died in service to their nation and fellow soldiers. Soldiers should CELEBRATE the life of those who die as heroes. They DIDN'T die in vain, but instead transcended their humanity to EMBODY their ideals by showing that their convictions were MORE than "just words". And when a soldier dies as a consequence of their enemy fighting DISHONORABLY, a soldier can only vow to DESTROY the cowards who k*lled their comrade and to continue to LIVE as a tribute to their memory. 🇺🇸✊✌️🇺🇸

[@mikegrove1732]

I am a retired veteran and this song has so much meaning to me. I was a squad leader in Iraq in 2005 when I took my squad out for a patrol. The position I usually take in the patrol was switched up that day and the vehicle in that position was hit with an IED. I lost a member of my squad that day, someone that I had convinced to stay in and deploy with us. He was married and had three young children. I beat myself up for years, felt responsible that his family now has to move on without him. It took my many years to get that the family did not blame me and nothing that happened that day was my fault.

[@zukgod]

We all make our own choices brother, we can all say no, you did nothing wrong. If he didn't want to be there he wouldn't have been, I can promise you that he was exactly where he wanted to be. I'm sorry for your loss but am happy you've found some peace. Live your life for him, find joy for the both of you.

[@CC-th5fx]

Every rational person reading this knows the truth. It wasn't your fault, it wasn't you that created that scenario. Other forces conspired to take your friend. You did your duty, you did your job. You put yourself in that situation that represented the free world. That day was not your time, brother. One day it will be, but not that was not it. Move on, be sad, but remember and take some comfort that, in you, we survive, prosper and live our sheltered lives, protected by warriors that are bold enough to shoulder your pain.

[@MikeStahl-c1j]

When my daughter was killed I would just sit in my truck at the cemetery playing this over and over till I couldn't breath to just grieve 😔. The song still flashes me back to seeing here in the road that day, but have turned it into a motivation for her to know I will never stop loving and thinking of her.

[@jaimemendes1155]

I'm sorry for your lost man.

[@pupppett]

I am truly sorry for your loss.

[@jacksontomsick]

sorry for your loss

[@raaab1212]

Im so sorry

[@Joe-ds7dz]

Sorry for your loss

[@kizunadragon9]

The Offspring originally recorded this track. It was about the lead singers girlfriend dying in a car accident. but this version hits completely different.

[@rainydonster3957]

I will never get over that look, that scream of pure anguish and despair at 6:23 “Why not me?” “Why am I still here and they’re gone?” That expression of just pure unbridled uninhibited confusion and sorrow.

[@jasonhutton4802]

Thank you so much for doing this one. 20 years of therapy has helped me to see that living is the best way to honor my brothers sacrifice. Thank you for being one of the very few to see this for exactly what it is.

[@TheCostnerTMM]

Thank you for sharing this. As a combat veteran, I struggled with survivors guilt for quite a while. This song definitely hits deep.

[@CharlesEllison-q2t]

Thank you for doing a video on this song. As a veteran from OIF, I have been dealing with the grief of the loss of friends for years, and this song exemplifies how I have been feeling when I haven't been able to find the words to explain it.

[@jackrider131]

Thank you for your reaction to this song. As a veteran I have lost friends in this and in other manners; the end result was the same. Your interpretation is spot on, survivors guilt never goes away. God Bless You!

[@svlotoy]

OSW/GWOT/OIF Navy vet here. Your psychological brakedown and explanation of the lyrics is so amazingly perfect and describes exactly what we feel. You finally have put into words what I cannot describe but feel. You earned my subscription. 20 years later and it finally caught up with me. The low self worth, anger, anxiety, suicidal idiation, morbid rumination, depression, and guilt fucking suck. No one but us understand what we are going through. To my fellow brothers and sisters. I love you. I know checking out is a constant thought to many of us and I am happy you are still here.

[@seancallan4009]

Your immediate ability to analyze & understand this beyond the superficial is really impressive. I won’t project my “stories / traumas” here… but it’s clear that you put in insurmountable time, empathy, and attention for your clients. You’ve probably “saved” a lot more lives than you realize, and (as someone who regularly attends therapy), we appreciate you.

[@colinkerr4099]

I thank every last veteran everywhere for their sacrifice and service .

[@alanhembra2565]

I served in the 90’s during Operation Desert Storm and Southern Watch and each deployment we still lost people. I couldn’t imagine the losses during the last two wars.

[@LostHate]

12th request for Hellyeah, literally any song could work here but Love Falls, Hush, or Moth are perfect. They are a supergroup for rock/metal musicians with Chad Gray on vocals arguably best lyricist out there.

[@EPICaiCOVERS]

The first few seconds of the song perfectly captures what a PTSD flashback can feel like. I'm not a veteran, but I have PTSD and frequent flashbacks. I cannot respect our troops enough 🫡

[@ericborstelmann2644]

This song came out around the same time my grandmother died. That line about the world seem so cold since you gone away. It just made me think of her cause she was the sweetest person in the world and something that is just missing so much in this world.

[@pallexysouza6560]

I love you reactions, you have to watch the tragic truth and coming down you gonna love it

[@DonnyBarbour]

Eod veteran this song hits home. PTSD is a mother. God bless my veterans and everyone serving today God bless.

[@WarTurtleWoodworking]

Great reaction and great song/video. As I finish the last few months of 21.5 years of service before retirement this spring, I have seen this similar situation happen a few times. The greatest measure of a soldier is not how well he fights, but how well he cares for his fellow soldiers. Brothers In Arms. Love your reactions and always look forward to them. 5fdp has members that were in the military and they support the community well.

[@johnbarraco5561]

well said young lady.. thank you for understanding it ..

[@TarynLamont-nr7ky]

I just found your channel. Like a couple others in the comments, I am also a Combat vet with PTS. I wanted to make a suggestion, looking through your different videos, I saw you broke down a song from Wage War. Their song, My grave is mine to dig, is one that would probably be benificial to alot of people. Everytime I hear it (at least once a day) it literally brings me to tears. Ive never herd a song that explains whats in my head everyday as well as that one. Also, I love this song and I think you nailed it.

[@Officer_WN]

Love your videos . As a police officer, I'm know finger death punches do a lot of concerts and their songs talked a lot about military and also police officers. One song that hits me hard would be far from home. That could be an idea of a react video if you have time. Once again thank you

[@johnbarraco5561]

honestly best reaction ive watched to this song nursery video ..

[@trevorjohnson2826]

I was not part of the military, so anyone should correct me if I'm wrong. But I think part of his job was to spot landmines. If you go back and look at his reaction to the click, it shows the realization that he failed at his job. The friends that followed him to war have now died, and he feels especially guilty because he feels like he's the reason they were even there in the first place. I can't imagine what he must've been feeling, and the acting was spot on

[@krylesangerbeaver]

yah, i take him going back as revenge being his way of trying to work through what happened. He failed them but he wasn't the enemy

[@LostHate]

I love this song but have to be in the right mindset for it. That means it hits like it should.

[@Farmerboy78]

Girl you almost had tears running on this one. This song brings both my parents to mind. Miss them!

[@DenDave_]

Oh damn, this is a fantastic song and a fantastic video to react to. Haven't started the video yet but im pretty sure you'll be tearing up a lot, and no one will blame you 😅

[@misterbones5981]

Some songs by Five Finger Death Punch thats worth a listen to is Remember Everything, The Bleeding, Coming Down

[@mikemaguire7347]

Coming down would offer an interesting perspective from her

[@alainlyrette5208]

Love this song

[@unluckydiablo9502]

You NEED to react to "Coming down" by Five Finger Death Punch. It deals with another very emotional topic.

[@petebrown6356]

It's a brilliant concept video for this song. Respect to our servicemen and women.

[@stiffler297]

My father was in the military for 24 years. When he passed two years ago, this song to this day still makes me tear up. The lyrics are just so gut wrenching and the military background of the song makes me miss him even more.

[@NicKreates]

Im telling Steven Wilson has to be heard by you: I recommend three songs: The raven that refused to sing; routine; king gosht. And Steven’s former band, porcupine tree: Anesthezise, Arriving somewhere but not here. Those are songs that hit just in the spot this channel is about. I have more bands recommendations. I’d gladly would give you all my knowledge in heavy music for expressing the pain and grief, because this has been my way to cope with intense feelings for many years. I’m so glad I found this channel, I’ve already signed up as a volunteer. Greetings

[@williamsanders-lo5ly]

As a combat vet, I don't have the words to thank you for your desire to understand....it was all I could do to sit through the video with you...I cannot watch these personally, I love FFDP for their support, but their videos Rio me apart if that's understandable, thank you again....lost my Battle Buddy in Iraq, Pfc Copeland, may he rest in peace

[@a1extimmons]

I was fortunate enough not to lose a brother while in service but recently one took his life and it was in such a traumatic situation. He was struggling with so many issues and no matter what it doesn’t feel like I did enough for him even though we talked every day. I love you Matt and miss you brother. Thank you guys for talking about this so we can talk and heal.

[@HeartSupport]

From DyllonKG: @a1extimmons Hey my friend. I am so sorry for your loss. Matt sounds like they were an incredible person to have been loved so much. And you are an incredible friend to have loved them so. Your post had me pondering on my own grief at this moment and some of the ways that the emotions ebb, flow and crash. I want you to know that, though I come from a different direction with my grief, you are not alone. I see you. And I appreciate you so much. I specifically connected with the guilt and the questions and the feeling of not doing enough while I could... www.loom.com/share/28f25ec959bc4d71afa296d098778b18

[@HeartSupport]

From DyllonKG: @a1extimmons Hey my friend. I am so sorry for your loss. Matt sounds like they were an incredible person to have been loved so much. And you are an incredible friend to have loved them so. Your post had me pondering on my own grief at this moment and some of the ways that the emotions ebb, flow and crash. I want you to know that, though I come from a different direction with my grief, you are not alone. I see you. And I appreciate you so much. I specifically connected with the guilt and the questions and the feeling of not doing enough while I could... www.loom.com/share/28f25ec959bc4d71afa296d098778b18

[@PatBlackwell-z3i]

My father came home from the Vietnam war scared and broken. With no support and help took his life before I could run, talk or play ball and the folks in power that chooses War have no idea the pain and scars that they choose to create. Great Band to see live and believe me everyone is singing and there's not a dry eye in the house. The music is therapy for all with or without scars of war

[@stevebrown9955]

this song touches everyone everywhere who has lost some because of war it dose not matter were you are in the world all these solders Faught for their people and country and we owe them more than we could ever repay

[@xtrithx4389]

I highly recommend listening too "remember everything" by five finger death punch. Goes into topics about childhood abuse, mistrust and more. One of the few songs I've heard that actually made me cry

[@RyanJones-i8u]

I know the video is of the army and veterans but this song got me through a very tough time when my mother died of cancer and a year later my father had a heart attack. This song is so powerful in many different ways.

[@k9raven960]

May the Gods bless those who went ahead. Until we meet again!

[@brandonwaller4328]

As someone who struggles mightily with empathy, every single time I watch this video, it breaks me. I can feel every bit of it

[@PatBlackwell-z3i]

Five Finger Death Punch gave so many Veterans Hope and a voice that AFTER WAR IT'S NOT OKAY TO BE IGNORED AND NOT HAVING THE HELP TO HEAL THE SCARS OF WAR

[@nathanhagan5877]

I love this music video. The part that gets me is the young woman being told her partner passed away. Heartbreaking.💔

[@ЕвгенийАлексеевич-и9ъ]

You are so bright! I wish be you friend, it is grief to me because it is impossible( So Lucky them who in contact with you in real life. Be blessed !

[@mustanguy102]

OEF veteran, and the videos they make and their commitment to veterans causes are second to none.

[@simply11believelane47]

This song is one of a handful that reminds me of my daughter that passed. One thing to lose your friend, ur cousin, father. You lose a child, that is the worse loss by no comparison😭 Respect to those that have much personal loss! Also respect to my brothers and sisters still toe'ing to line! I truly feel safe with my own personal skillset gained n knowing our 🇺🇸Military is on watch🙌🍻

[@USMC03Grunt]

This is why 5FDP has such as strong following in the veteran community because they understand us and have always supported us. Rest easy MSgt. Brown and TSgt. Myers, you are not forgotten. Rack ‘em!

[@cillitbang293]

I am actually very happy, that my focus about this song has changed. I always entilted it to my father. Making it about a warrior and not a drunk, makes this song actual listenable.

[@EPICaiCOVERS]

Coming Down and Remember Everything are some really good songs by FFDP to check out

[@atolmasoff]

Never grasped how heavy this song was when Offspring sang it. Maybe it was the tone or sound of the song, but when I listened to this... holy crap. Turns out it's gotta be one of the most moving songs I've ever heard, just took FFDP to realize it.

[@chrispatten943]

This!

[@HeyseusKristos]

I feel the opposite. I feel Offspring did it so much better. This version sounds lazy to me. Music Video is great though.

[@davidgessin-mccully3919]

The way I figure this particular convo is I’m used to the Offspring version being that old lmfao and to me the original was from a place of anger, while 5FDP I think was sorrow. Either way both versions are great 🤘🏼

[@Loozinitizoffhismedz]

I think it's more the visuals, no offense to Ivan he's an amazing vocalist. And FFDP is always 100% especially the vids.⬛

[@bobbyjo6779]

​@davidgessin-mccully3919, the original was from a place of sorrow. his personal loss, that may be the reason it sounded angry.

[@46993-r]

I'm really surprised you have not done a video on I Prevail's - Breaking Down. It's right up your alley.

[@timothywarner9139]

Well put....nice job

[@SolidRedSmoke]

@heartsupport I am not a veteran, but I come from a military family. I can understand all the pain. Not exactly, of course. But from being a family member. I know that 5FDP's video is about the veterans and soldiers, but the song itself is universally relatable. I have been surrounded by death, tragedy, and trauma my entire life. I've recently learned about CPTSD, and though I'm not a doctor, I feel like I probably have that as well as PTSD. Really been going through it lately. Don't really have a support system. Of all the videos I've watched so far, this one has hurt the most and made me cry instantly. So many wounds. So much pain. Thank you for doing these videos. They're kinda comforting for some of us who don't have anyone.

[@HeartSupport]

From DyllonKG: @SolidRedSmoke Good morning friend - thank you so much for commenting here. I really appreciate the notion that, despite not being a veteran, parts of this song still really impact you. It speaks a lot to the power of music and the power we have to connect despite different experiences. I am so sorry to hear of your pain and struggles. You mention going through death and tragedy and I want to firstly say that I am so sorry for your loss. On the topic of trauma, I am deeply sorry that you've had to go through those experiences. You mention CPTSD and PTSD from things you've seen or experienced and that sounds so difficult. When the things that have happened to you change how your brain functions and reacts and sees the world, I imagine that makes the world so much more difficult to exist or function in. Which I could definitely see leading to some loneliness, frustration or self doubt. I don't know if I have any PTSD or anything of that nature. But I've gone through my fair share of problems when I was younger, specifically stuff that happened within my family. And those experiences changed how I existed in the world, how I coped with stress, and ultimately led me to some really difficult places. Before I was able to really get help, I got it in my head that I was a broken person. That I would just never be better. I don't know if you relate to that at all. But it felt a bit like a void. I know in your post you mention not really having anyone. My heart absolutely goes out to you - during the worst times of my life, i had few people and the ones I had, I had pushed away. In that, I want to say that we're here for you. We arent in person. But you are more than welcome to vent and connect with us anytime you need. Perhaps that will make life just a bit more bearable. Maybe not. Either way, I am glad you're here. Hold fast my friend.

[@HeartSupport]

From KyleGouldOfficial: @SolidRedSmoke Hi, Yes definitely lost can be hard and i hope that healing through this come through you're path it can be extremely difficult to process. Again whatever you're going through we are here for you. Definitely these videos are related to alot of different things and you're not alone in the void. These videos reach alot of people which is a important thing and connects to alot of people. But even through the void there will be healing and most of the soldiers displayed in the video have done alot honestly and deserve to be supported and loved even when there alot of guilt on your shoulders. Take care and healing through these struggle are a important step.

[@HeartSupport]

From KyleGouldOfficial: @SolidRedSmoke Hi, Yes definitely lost can be hard and i hope that healing through this come through you're path it can be extremely difficult to process. Again whatever you're going through we are here for you. Definitely these videos are related to alot of different things and you're not alone in the void. These videos reach alot of people which is a important thing and connects to alot of people. But even through the void there will be healing and most of the soldiers displayed in the video have done alot honestly and deserve to be supported and loved even when there alot of guilt on your shoulders. Take care and healing through these struggle are a important step.

[@jacobsmith8377]

this is my #1 feels song when im remembering/allowing myself to mourn my dads passing

[@distracting_games]

FFDP really captured the sense of loss this song invokes.

[@Eileen139]

yes

[@jonathanirvine9147]

You helped me articulate feelings that I had given up trying to explain.

[@NameOptional-p9u]

The Offsping are such an underrated band. they have some great tunes.

[@jasoncurtis6655]

It is like “The Hurt Locker” in music video form. It fulfills the survivors guilt calling, they take the hurt they still have and return to where they think they can put it to the best use.

[@Ocheeese]

I help run a non-profit for young men's mental health. Men today have to deal with crushing steriotypes of how a man is supposed to act and feel. People deny the exist of toxic masculinity and tell young men not to complain and whine when really they just want to express their own feelings. I love these videos that you do and i think songs and lyric writing are an amazing way to express yourself. Music is so powerful and your work is amazing.

[@danhenkel9052]

I'm not a veteran. I resonate with this song, because I have literally prayed to God to take my strength and lend to people who were ill as well as, wishing I could trade with friends who died before me. "Let me trade, I would." is a lyric that haunts my bones. The people who were taken before their time vs. me.... I'd make that trade everyday.

[@terrencejones9817]

The Offspring song feels more like the loss of a lover, you can feel Dexters pain in it.

[@garydonnelly6704]

If I remember rightly this song was about an old girlfriend that passed away

[@zackkullis5555]

There is no experience that comes close to armed combat, and similarly, there is no experience that comes close to that of surviving veterans. One of the reasons I LOVE Five Finger Death Punch. Their support of the veteran community is amazing.

[@todddecann2483]

Ty for doing this one. As a vet myself this one is hard. Our government does do have what they shoukd to help n take care of of vets as they should. You shpuld react the theor other song 'Wrong Dide of Heaven'

[@rossnorris2351]

Not a veteran. Never served, wish I had. Even being on the outside of who this video was targeting, I could barely watch it. It was heart rending to watch but also beautiful to watch. We civilians need to see things like this to educate us or remind us of what wartime veterans go through on a semi daily basis. We get lost in our Call of Duty and war movies and think that is what war is. Things like this and a very few movies remind us what it really is.

[@michaelwalsh7359]

Five finger deathpunch - wrong side of heaven is a MUST WATCH! Please react!

[@greenmoxy]

If you want emotion I highly recommend John Montgomery - The Little Girl. It's country but wow that's a tear dropper.

[@justinhaugen130]

As a combat veteran thank you. Big thanks to 5FDP

[@Shea_and_freyja]

This song is brilliant. You can feel the pain in it. Other good ones to check out would be Hurricane and Deep End by I Prevail.

[@pauljacobi340]

I love 5FDP and utmost respect for their covers. For me personally though, this will never replace the original by The Offspring for a very specific reason/occasion. When my father passed back in Feb'08, after coming home from the hospital with my mom and making sure she was okay, I walked down to the beach with a 6pk in a cooler and my ear buds and I listened to the Offspring's version several times in a row among other songs over the course of a couple hours. I always loved the song prior to that day and still do, and as I said, no disrespect intended to 5FDP but, the original (imo) will always be the best version of this song. RIP Richard Jacobi, and to you all enjoying the song, rock whichever resonates most with you!

[@fluufmeister5771]

There is 1 super sad moment in the video I feel that most people miss. Early in the video he goes to the cemetary and if you look carefully, you ACTUALLY see the indentation in the grass where his knee goes. That shows the seriously huge amount of time he actually spends there. Mind Blowing

[@BrianJurgens-g7d]

The survivor was the one who talked his friends into enlisting, and he was the one who was leading the convoy scanning for IEDs, and missed it

[@tiffymcconkey]

Thank you all for your service and sacrifice

[@richardrodriguez2120]

I’m a combat veteran and this one always hits so hard. Survivors guilt is real. Lost brothers and sisters during Desert Storm and Iraqi freedom. Until Valhalla brothers and sisters. We have the watch

[@oakland-as-diehard6717]

Lost my cousin in 2010 the same way in Afghanistan. He had already served in the Persian Gulf and re-enlisted to be with his son when he joined the Army at the age of 18. Crazy sad story. My Dad ( Rest In Peace ) was my cousins idol. He wanted to be just like him. And my cousin was his son’s idol. So he joined to be like him. Representative Donnelly has a KZbin video honoring my cousin that tells the whole story. 🙏🏼🇺🇸 RIP Robert J. Tauteris

[@williamwarren9362]

I honor the Fallen, by living a life worth dieing for

[@cheesybreadz2000]

Would love to see your reaction to Like A Stone by Audioslave. Chris Cornell was an incredible musician who lost his battle with depression. His voice is one of my all time favorite rock voices, and Like A Stone is my favorite and most nostalgic song. I think there's a lot to dive into from a lyrical content standpoint as well from that song, as well as a lot of his other work.

[@davidwolfwood2253]

I'm just so glad that my family didn't have to go through this, and my dad made it back home.

[@CatDog1982]

You can only live for them

[@djdevilicious1]

In Need Of Medicine by Smash Into Pieces. I've never cried so much at a music video - the ending hits hard

[@efficiencyvi8369]

Still recomending "Coming Down" - it is one of their best songs, perfect for your channel and most reactors would never touch it because of so many explicit topics in the video.

[@Djcimofficial]

Thank you to all those who served. We don’t thank you enough! 🇺🇸

[@GrandToast]

This is my favorite Offspring song But this version just hurts so good

[@SalvyBurner]

You should listen to Brother Joe by Ole 60. It's heart-wrenching and such an emotional song. I've never had song push me to tears.

[@lokidecat]

I have a buddy with two of those bracelets.. and he 'doesn't want to talk about it', but he knows I'm here if he ever does. It's rough.

[@RossIsFine]

Forgive yourself. Do not let the past define you anymore. Every new day is a chancd to begin a new. To start fresh. Dont ever give up!

[@GrimSteele]

I couldn't even watch the whole video. This one hits hard.

[@User-oj3gy]

This hits really hard. Its like he had to go back to war because since he was exposed to the worst experiences, constant anxiety, pain and loss, the normal every day life was no longer enough for him. If you were exposed to such pain there comes the day when it feels like you have become addicted to it. Not liking but only craving for this `drug`. The only way to deal with the pain seems to be more pain. The only way to feel alive is when your life is in acute danger. And somehow you want to provoke that you end up the same way as your loved ones you were not able to rescue. As if you had sentenced yourself to death in order to obtain justice.

[@shaunv.564]

As a Marine combat vet, I often have survivor's guilt. This video gives me goosebumps every time because it reminds me of the IED my truck hit in Afghanistan. After EOD came out and located the pressure plate we ran over, and looking at the crater, they told us we only lived because we were going the opposite direction of how the Taliban set it up and intended to hit us. I hate that we lost so many in that war, and at the end when they pulled out of the country, it seemed like it was all for nothing.

[@atelierbones]

Personally, I prefer the original version, but both are well done. The lyrics hit different when you come from a military family, but i think everyone can understand the pain and guilt that comes with loss like this. My heart goes out to the families of all who've made this sacrifice. I can only hope that one day it won't be necessary anymore. 😢 Loved the heartfelt and sympathetic reaction. Thank you! If you get a chance, I'd love to see you check out Corpse Husband's music. I'm interested to see what you think about his music and what it says about him specifically. There are so many watching who NEED what you do, so thank you again for doing such great work. -💀

[@elevenbravo7718]

No matter how many years go by. It doesn’t get easier to accept things. I have holes and voids that will never be filled. Until Valhalla brothers. Let’s Go.

[@benjaminhaines6565]

I don't care for Five Finger that much, but I love that they did this song. I always think of my buddy McCree who lost the battle at home around this time last year. Seeing as how Veteran's Day is tomorrow I wanna let anyone who might see this know that there is always someone you can lean on. Please check up on your buddies, ask them about their day, do something to let them know you love them. However, I will say those berets always take me out of the video.

[@Fishylittlefingers]

Hey could you maybe do divine zero by Pierce the veil? It’s one of my favorite songs and I would love to see you listen to it!

[@RobertSmith-hr6cr]

I'm a Marine who survived 2 deployments in Iraq and 3 in Afghanistan. I'm diagnosed with PTSD Treatment Resistant Depression TBI and Substance Abuse Disorder. Survivors Guilt never allowed me to come back completely.

[@novemberoscar98]

I'm not military, but law enforcement. I lost my partner while on a dv call. I can't imagine this pain is much different from what those men feel. Fly high big John.

[@SoN_oF_oDiN76]

Combat vet here and your explanation of ptsd and survivors guilt is the best I've heard it explained. Every time I try to explain it to someone I can't find the words. I can't explain the feelings. Survivors guilt is a demon I fight daily and nightly. It's just one of the demons I find myself fighting every night. My mother used to be my grounding, I could talk to her about some of the things I saw and did but she passed away in 2021 and now I don't have anyone because I don't trust anyone else with it.

[@HeartSupport]

From lu2910: @SoN_oF_oDiN76 I want to start by saying thank you for your service. Your bravery and what you have done is something that is beyond commendable. There are very few people who are able to do what you have done my friend, and I thank you for that. Survivor's guilt is one of those things that feels like it eats you alive. Every decision you make you feel the guilt behind, hindering your life and your ability to feel joy and peace. It makes it hard to just look in the mirror and not be angry at yourself, angry at the universe for the way that things turned out. It doesn't feel fair, why did this burden have to fall on me? Guilt is one of those things that isn't fought and defeated in one battle, but multiple, small battles that eventually topple the tower over. It can be hard to wake up every day and the second your head is off the pillow, you're at war again. I believe that you are so insanely strong, and I believe that you will find victory, but I don't want you to feel like you have to fight alone. I will be here for you, and I am rooting for you, but I encourage you to keep externalizing these thoughts so they don't ruminate in your head. When our thoughts ruminate and replay over and over, it can make it harder to pull them out. I am so sorry for your loss, and I understand how isolating it can feel to not have the one person we trust. One thing I've done before when my head felt heavy was to write a letter to my deceased loved one and be completely honest. Talk to them in the letter and vent about all the things you would if they were standing in front of you. Afterwards, feel free to rip it into shred or throw it into a fire. Even just the act of getting the words out and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable takes such a weight off of our shoulders and helps reminds us that we don't have to go through things alone. I know how heavy your heart is, and I believe that you will find victory and peace. You are not going through this alone, my friend. This guilt is not something that you have to feel the entirety of and fight alone. I am proud of you, and I am here for you <3

[@HeartSupport]

From lu2910: @SoN_oF_oDiN76 I want to start by saying thank you for your service. Your bravery and what you have done is something that is beyond commendable. There are very few people who are able to do what you have done my friend, and I thank you for that. Survivor's guilt is one of those things that feels like it eats you alive. Every decision you make you feel the guilt behind, hindering your life and your ability to feel joy and peace. It makes it hard to just look in the mirror and not be angry at yourself, angry at the universe for the way that things turned out. It doesn't feel fair, why did this burden have to fall on me? Guilt is one of those things that isn't fought and defeated in one battle, but multiple, small battles that eventually topple the tower over. It can be hard to wake up every day and the second your head is off the pillow, you're at war again. I believe that you are so insanely strong, and I believe that you will find victory, but I don't want you to feel like you have to fight alone. I will be here for you, and I am rooting for you, but I encourage you to keep externalizing these thoughts so they don't ruminate in your head. When our thoughts ruminate and replay over and over, it can make it harder to pull them out. I am so sorry for your loss, and I understand how isolating it can feel to not have the one person we trust. One thing I've done before when my head felt heavy was to write a letter to my deceased loved one and be completely honest. Talk to them in the letter and vent about all the things you would if they were standing in front of you. Afterwards, feel free to rip it into shred or throw it into a fire. Even just the act of getting the words out and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable takes such a weight off of our shoulders and helps reminds us that we don't have to go through things alone. I know how heavy your heart is, and I believe that you will find victory and peace. You are not going through this alone, my friend. This guilt is not something that you have to feel the entirety of and fight alone. I am proud of you, and I am here for you <3

[@HeartSupport]

From JBrach: @SoN_oF_oDiN76 I'm hearing about how you've found understanding through Taylor's reaction video, but how you feel like no one else in your really knows what its like. Fighting survivor's guilt is a daily and nightly battle for you, not understanding why you're here and others aren't. Your mom understood and listened to you, but after her passing you feel like you have no one. I could feel like speaking in a language no one understands. The experiences you've had, they can't relate to, so its hard for them to empathize and stand with you in your PTSD. You're in a crowded room, but no one understands or sees you. Those would be such intense feelings of isolation and desiring to be known and seen and heard. Facing aloneness is one of those quintessential struggles. You don't know who to reach for help, because you think you're the only one going through what you're going through. I felt this way with some of my mental illness struggles. Under the weight of depression, I felt like I was in a cave and I had to shout to even have the echos reach someone's ears. I felt like no one understood, heard, or saw me. No one knew my pain and no one understood my struggle. In that isolation, the darkness consumed. It was only when I began to branch out and hear other people's experiences that I learned that whether its PTSD or depression or other trauma, each of us deals with this aloneness and wanting to be understood in some way. Finding the understanding of our reaction video is an amazing step towards finding community and people who get what you're going through! There are also so many other support sites to connect with others battled PTSD. I hear the struggle to be seen and understood and want to tell you that you are not alone! We are here for you to relate and try to understanding whatever way we can! Thank you for reaching out to HeartSupport!! <3

[@HeartSupport]

From JBrach: @SoN_oF_oDiN76 I'm hearing about how you've found understanding through Taylor's reaction video, but how you feel like no one else in your really knows what its like. Fighting survivor's guilt is a daily and nightly battle for you, not understanding why you're here and others aren't. Your mom understood and listened to you, but after her passing you feel like you have no one. I could feel like speaking in a language no one understands. The experiences you've had, they can't relate to, so its hard for them to empathize and stand with you in your PTSD. You're in a crowded room, but no one understands or sees you. Those would be such intense feelings of isolation and desiring to be known and seen and heard. Facing aloneness is one of those quintessential struggles. You don't know who to reach for help, because you think you're the only one going through what you're going through. I felt this way with some of my mental illness struggles. Under the weight of depression, I felt like I was in a cave and I had to shout to even have the echos reach someone's ears. I felt like no one understood, heard, or saw me. No one knew my pain and no one understood my struggle. In that isolation, the darkness consumed. It was only when I began to branch out and hear other people's experiences that I learned that whether its PTSD or depression or other trauma, each of us deals with this aloneness and wanting to be understood in some way. Finding the understanding of our reaction video is an amazing step towards finding community and people who get what you're going through! There are also so many other support sites to connect with others battled PTSD. I hear the struggle to be seen and understood and want to tell you that you are not alone! We are here for you to relate and try to understanding whatever way we can! Thank you for reaching out to HeartSupport!! <3

[@KodaBear-h1h]

So I don’t relate to it on a veterans level, but I’ve always loved five finger Death Punch and their support of the military. But in August, I lost my wife to cancer at 37 years old and this song has a whole new meaning to me.

[@GrandToast]

O.A.R. - Miss you all the Time & Peace

[@TheRealAb216]

What makes the military so special is we would all give our own lives so that the person next to In front of and behind you could make it home.