Things I Wish I Knew About Being Trans

[@hamaczech13]

Kirbizia please talk less about trans and talk more about trains. My personal favourite locomotive is KCS 4650

[@Hannah_montannah]

i like the SD40-2 more; its durability is impressive

[@gripen777]

How about planes? The Gripen E is a fine piece of machinery.

[@nolaaa2573]

@@gripen777 Everyone knows the Lockheed Martin F-22A Raptor is the best fighter jet

[@feeplemurphy4618]

I'm trainsgender, my pronouns are choo/choo

[@JustaMisu]

my personal favorite is caledonian railway's class 812, i simply like it's design

[@supremeleadercora]

I'd be trans too if my deadname was Melvin or whatever it was. I mean, I'm already trans, but at least I was never a namelet

[@kirbizia]

fuck guvfu f fuck you it's KELVIN

[@bruhjoement]

omg it's Cora

[@t-qb1sq]

​@@kirbizia Want to get converted into Fahrenheit?

[@kindredspirit9703]

@@t-qb1sq ngl, the name Celsius kinda goes hard, totally not biased by the Tales of Symphonia ice summon spirit lady

[@nobleradical2158]

@@t-qb1sqthis is america

[@NaomiSS_]

step 1: dont overthink it- s h i t

[@THATS_ALLFOLKS]

"I've already failed and it's only the first step"

[@nobleradical2158]

“Jarvis, decrease brainpower to 10%”

[@Ad3ptwastaken]

Yes

[@desmonddoss8061]

​@@nobleradical2158 real

[@Kingofthepnwdorks]

So “randomly” Fell into finding this channel. The fear of 1 not passing and 2 it just “being a fetish” has scared the hell out of me as I’ve come to terms with all of this. But at 28, I’m finally acknowledging these feelings I’ve had since I was a kid. It just be like that I think. 🥚 🍳

[@tek4]

I went out dressed for the first time. I dont pass, and it was to meet someone. I end up walking in to a store to grab us some monsters alone. I was scared, in the ghetto part of the city, and I had a cool convo and no judgement.. fuck. It made me feel silly for waiting till 37. Dont wait. Cloth is cloth. 😊

[@imperatusmauser7096]

@@tek4 Top 10 based

[@swagonelevenatalltimes]

dude looking at your sub list, youre awesome

[@ellagage1256]

I might send this to a few baby trans I know, thanks Kirbizia, wish you the best

[@tykidd2374]

Ace nonbinary gamer girl here. I'm mad my neck is still intact. The outro slaps btw

[@kirbizia]

thanks but remain not existing

[@nwof2291]

”nonbinary girl” i- wh

[@tykidd2374]

@@nwof2291 ikr

[@redpanic2950]

@@nwof2291 She could mean two things: -nonbinary is a spectrum, which includes demigirl (identifying mostly, but not fully as a girl) -she was assigment female at birth, but doesn't identify (Sorry for bad english and if I misgenderd this person)

[@luckypunk4784]

@@nwof2291 gamer girl bit is a joke, though you may have found that out given im a year late

[@machinerin151]

You know the fun part? It was reddit where I have found myself doubting me being "trans enough to deserve to become a girl" and stuff. Back in 2017 when I found out about this stuff and couldn't stop looking at it and thinking about it - you know, as a cis person does - r/traa had more stripey sock memes and r/egg_irl has made me think I'm not trans enough because of the constant "not trans enough" narrative. And it is in 2022 on 4chan where I finally reached the conclusion that I shouldn't ask for permission, and should just buy the HRT and take it. /hrtgen/ my beloved Granted, this happened when my entire life has been broken down against my will by the war in July 2022 (I am Russian), and besides going to /tttt/ I also was just in general in a crisis of identity and what I want to actually do in life and what is it that I hate about my body that stops me from going out there and socializing and stuff... that's when I put it together. When it was almost too late because I was approaching the twinkdeath. Even luckshits like me aren't immune from twinkdeath. (remember when I said I thought I wasn't trans enough? I didn't have enough dysphoria because I'm a luckshit with a female skeleton and like A cup boobs and small genitalia and stuff) There are a few things that keep me going in my transition right now: 1) I actually have a social life now that I'm a trans girl, and I feel right at home in the community; 2) being legally female makes me immune from mobilization; 3) if I don't transition now, I'll do it at 45. It is inevitable.

[@ivyflow3r]

as a ukrainian trans girl myself, the war has broken down myself too. being forced into another country without anything from yourself except your phone and clothing is so depressing. the worst part is that i also realized how much of an egg i am, i am still closeted unfortunately and i have to boymode my whole day. and now i just dunno what to do, i wanna come out but at the same time i have too much anxiety to do so

[@EndorJedi985]

​@ivyflow3r are you doing okay now?

[@winter__rain_]

I guess I don't exist (i'm ace)

[@borjinator]

Snap my neck

[@Xx_BoogieBomber_xX]

mine first

[@kirbizia]

keep simpin see where it gets you

[@yatapaws]

i'm a lil late but feel free to snap mine too

[@MarySprain]

Hello! I am a ten year old kid, And I would like to speak for the world that being non-straight or gay or bi or whatever, is okay and should be accepted worldwide. I like everybody, regardless of their gender or ethnicity or colour. I am bisexual, my mother is a bit of a phobe to anyone who is not straight so I don't tell her. but I just wanted to tell you kirb, that it's okay to be not straight. that's all!

[@Xx_Oleander_xX]

Thats really sweet! I wish more kids were like you when I was your age.

[@charlescalvin4657]

Based

[@itsthealpaca2456]

you give me hope that the kids are ok. -a genzer

[@hf.1906]

Thank you for this. Having lived with dysphoria for so long, it is very hard for me to believe, and kind of incomprehensible o understand, that life can get better. I still need to come out to my parents and transition, but I am hopeful that things will really get better.

[@CateChapelle]

"don't overthink it" is wild cause after realizing I was trans I repressed for four years cause I figured transitioning would be way too inconvenient and boy do I feel silly now

[@funkydunkas101]

What if I just want to be a feminine guy like idk what’s wrong with me. People say I should just be trans

[@kirbizia]

What I would say is that for me, it first manifested as wanting to be a feminine man until I eventually realized like oh shit I'm just trans. I don't think it's right for people to be insisting that you should be trans, you do it for yourself and yourself only. Take your time and be comfortable experimenting.

[@jurassicsmackdown6359]

Nah that aint how it works. You be you, be a feminine guy. You cant choose to be trans. That's the bullshit lies that conservatives tell so they can continue running their conversion -therapy- *_TORTURE_* camps. Femboys and trans women aren't the same, there is no "well you may as well just..." about it Good luck out there 💕

[@victor63686]

So...I realized that I'm trans not gender fluid today (a few hours ago). The last few months I'm less and less identifying myself as a man, it doesn't make sense for me, then I thought "Hmm ok, maybe I'm gender fluid?" but not shure. But today I realized that I can't feel myself as a man, it's weird, seems "wrong" and thinking about it and "studying" YEAH!!! I'm trans. But I'm really terrified because I live in Brazil, I don't know how my parents would act and everything. Plus I would love to make the transition but using the public health system (S.U.S) it's around 10 years to wait and if I want to pay it's around R$40.000 (A couple years ago, today I don't know). I'm really confused, that's it. Thank you for the video, really helped me to feel better now.

[@Plazaflii]

Just found this channel and holy shit I appreciate it. It actually kinda,, put some confidence in me. Thank you.

[@Rivwe]

"if i see an ace trans person in the comments imma snap ur neck" me, an ace transmasc: *ha*

[@DistractANoodle]

You're my perfect mix of crude and wholesome :) You've been really helpful on this journey I never thought I'd be on. Thanks a lot for your radical honestly, it's really nice to hear other's actual experiences like this.

[@thatonespooder1513]

You managed to speak directly to all of my insecurities about this, and quell them. Thanks, genuinely. So glad that being scared it’s a fetish, and thinking I’m not a real trans girl for whatever reason is a common thing.

[@ThingsThings2]

Trans ace here, kirbizia is slowly killing me her magic

[@p1aydumb280]

found ur channel on a yt binge. on my final hurdle to hrt (a year and a half after coming out, being stuffed around and put on a ridiculously long list) so of course the excitement is obviously forcing me to binge trans yt and completely sending me right back in dysphoric hell. there is only so many amazing hrt transformation videos i can take mentally while dealing with torturing myself physically with various hair removal devices, my old psychologist who never bothered to send a letter to the endo team which would have me already on hrt rn and having to find a new one while in a downward mental spiral. this video was pretty relateable and your other stuff is a refreshing change for trans content.

[@sara_36511]

I’ve been on hrt for almost 2 yrs and I learned a lot from this :3 the whole sex thing is true… everyone’s perception of me made anything relating to sex feel dirty but I’m learning to stop caring and enjoying every aspect of who I am.

[@Aspen827]

As a "non-existant" ace person, we don't exist. /j

[@luvsiix_]

I know it's all just a joke, but I would genuinely like to know how this happens. Your entire human instinct to reproduce, a thing that is hardwired into your brain in order for your species to survive is suddenly gone? I'd really like to know how that feels, just simply not liking anyone or anything sexually

[@K45U]

“Fuck and piss and shit everywhere” 😭

[@amphibiouslanding9383]

Who tf gradually goes through iron keep you either run through it and pray you don't get hit or you're a fake gamer

[@kirbizia]

that's what i do every time i wanted to explore the area reeee

[@p0wdrous]

I was focused on the dark souls gameplay for the whole video sorry

[@astolfo3403]

What if I never wanted to be a girl and wish that I wasn't trans and that I could just be a normal dude, and now I'm just like "welp this is it my brain is fucked up and the only way I'll ever be happy is as a girl"? Am I weird?

[@andreanikolsky]

Same. When I think that my mind instantly switches to "being a girl is better". My mind can't be a man, I can't imagine myself as a man, enjoy something as a man. I even got PTSD because of trying to change myself. I'm just in a worse position now, I lost many years in safferin, and dysphoria became even worse, I wish I will never be a man, better to transgender than man.

[@milesman1583]

Love your channel, these trans videos are really helping me

[@girlbossincorporated]

the ending made me feel like i just finished a life changing movie. thank you so much

[@swagonelevenatalltimes]

motel 6 x crimewave

[@theturtlepers0n726]

Thank you for making this video, it seriously helps

[@katesoto88]

Thank you for being real honest. It’s very difficult to open up so much to yourself let alone the internet about the struggles. I started taking my medica less than a week ago. I too am hopeful for about what the future might bring. This is a reminder that it’s about where you wanna get not how one starts the journey imo

[@starry_stelle]

This was really eye-opening, Thank you.

[@maloinki6615]

Just realized this video is 4 years old but I honestly liked that you went deep, it helps a lot, especially the thing about optimism. I think these past few months I've forgotten that necessity. Optimism is what helped me get past these past 3 years since I've came to my realization of being trans. Thank you.

[@Orangekid65]

5:12 as a transfem, can confirm. one time I posted a selfie on 4chan and the responses made me too depressed to go to class. I've had people say all sorts of horrible shit about me there, and I took all of it super personally and seriously, and it made me completely miserable.

[@fidelcatto4732]

This is 4 years old so i expect no one to see this, but i have to scream into the void somehow. This video fucking shattered me. Ive been struggling with my gender identity for the better part of a year now as a highschooler, and i got hit with the realization that ill probably look really masculine if puberty keeps trucking along. That shit made my stomach twist. It confirmed to me that "yeah im probably trans" and "yeah im fucked" puberty blockers and estrogen are banned for minors in my state, and even if they weren't my parent's would never support me.

[@CottonArsonist]

Welcome to the internet, screaming into the void simply has the void stare at you

[@fidelcatto4732]

@@CottonArsonist ain't that the truth

[@xXpivotvideos123Xx]

based and E pilled gamer once again graces us with her ultimate wisdom

[@potato_sculpture]

I barely understand some of the stuff you say, but i do like the stuff i do understand :3

[@schtuff.8207]

I loved that you used Scatmans World 😍

[@sutpecna]

Oh no. I need to run. I'm an ace trans man. My final message, change da world, goodb-

[@MilkyWayWasTaken]

2:38 "If you think you're faking it, you're probably not. Those who are faking it know that they are [Faking It]" - OT (One Topic)

[@Nyaalexi]

I don't think you have to be depressed to be trans. I've been depressed before for sure, but that's not even close to why I'm trans. I don't think of it as a purely fetishy thing either. There are a whole myriad of reasons why I'm trans. I don't hate myself, I don't think I'm a "trender", and I don't go on 4Chan lol. I'm sure not proud of everything I am, but I'm very happy with myself. I think I'm getting dosed just fine. And I didn't start my transition until I was in my 20s, and I'm still very proud of myself. I'm in a very good place right now, and my life has gotten so much better.

[@The_Caffinated_Cutie]

Proud to have never considered going on 4chan

[@avigdordamkjr5542]

Yo this is super old now, but thank you for this video. It was really helpful!

[@melly4538]

I wish i knew why I love cbt so much

[@uncroppedsoop]

because when my ball saueeze I go YEEEWOWWWCH like a looney toon and it feel good!!

[@Blahajisgod]

My neck was snaped in the making of this comment

[@SlugcatDahlia]

When I came out I instantly found other transfemme and masc even more attractive than I had before, which was already very high. I just knew that's what I wanted and had wanted all along and suddenly I could stop compartmentalizing it as "just a fetish" and let that and the romantic part play nicely together and I'm never been happier nor have I ever had more inner peace. I just knew that because I finally thought that I was attractive and that I thought other trans people were the most attractive people in the world, that there were many people who would think the same about me. I had already attracted bisexual women like mad, I will even more now. So I didn't get any of the self-hate at all. Just the opposite. My ego developed into the conscientious stage as I came out, so I finally care about myself and love myself now. All this together has just made me so happy and so confident and so certain that I will find a unique and gorgeous transwoman/nonbinarywoman of my dreams, one of many out there! There is no one soul mate, just soul mates! And there are many! The ego develops with age. Many people never get to the conscientious phase (phase 6) and are stuck in the self-aware phase (phase 5) and most of our favorite bigots are stuck in the conformist phase (4) This is where your "ideal" capitalist stays their whole life. Phase 7 is autonomous. I've known one person my whole life who is here. He has never had a wife and is completely happy all on his own. He's incredibly. This is someone who goes and gives their money away and collects trash and builds a self-sustaining house up in Canada. The way our society treats mates is not natural. We're not supposed to have 1 mate our whole lives. If we do, our egos stay at best in that 6th phase. This is called Loevinger's 9 stages of ego development btw. It's so interesting and in my anecdotal experience rings 100% true. 8 and 9 are "Integrated" like being happy on your own and then being able to get another wife, but you guys have a VERY healthy and open relationship where each of you go off on your own at times and even have other sexual encounters aside from each other but it's not cheating. If you know about it before hand it's not cheating. Every one of my next relationships I'm going to tell her just go and do it if you have the chance. You only life once. I'll still be yours. It's not cheating if I agree and know about it beforehand. I'm not a cuckhold if it doesn't affect me, or if agreed upon beforehand. It's so animalistic to let your emotions control you so badly. I'll go off and sleep with other people too if she agrees. If we're both cucks no ones a cuck lol. This is just a healthy natural relationship. Then we will have 100% trust in each other. Expecting someone to like you for that many decades... It's A LOT to ask. You NEED something new once in a while. This is why we have so many divorces. JUST LET THEM GO OUT AND GET LAID. It doesn't mean anything. And even if it did to them mean something and move in with them instead of you, then great, you get to go find someone new too!! That's the scariest part but also the best part :)

[@swank215]

you really helped me, all points hit very hard and i needed all of it, thank you

[@epicsharkduck7635]

Yeah my self esteem has been so much higher since I swore off /b/

[@Chrys4l1s]

Great video, helped me a lot. The ds2 gameplay hurts to watch tho like how wre you this bad at it (i have 1k hours in it)

[@kirbizia]

its gender affirming;!! (women are bad at video games)

[@swagonelevenatalltimes]

@@kirbiziagamer girls? i love girls who play hopscotch!

[@jimmyl27]

Kirb I hope you don’t get Corn Virus u are epic

[@kirbizia]

i am corn vruis

[@miniaturejayhawk8702]

The depression you get from overthinking is unreal. The stress alone can make you feel like you are dying.

[@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos]

My gal, your words are helping my baby trans brain from the future on a hard day; thank you so, so much. Like, point for point, this is what I needed to hear ; _ ;

[@KrypticDonut]

Honestly, I've questioned my gender a lot recently, and I'm genuinely beginning to realise that I'm probably not just lying to myself. Maybe I do gave this desire in me to be a girl and im not just making it up. Its nice to know others go through doubt too. I genuinely appreciate thus video existing. Thanks :)

[@Lahhsn4j]

Yea I'm 14 for a while there i was worried I was way to ahead of myself when I look back it's so obvious. I'm lucky that I found out so quick

[@Ivory-f5b]

Im 14 rigth now hope im goin in the right direction

[@Lahhsn4j]

@user-ky2rk8tp5g bout to be 16 now and I have a hrt appointment in october!

[@Ivory-f5b]

@@Lahhsn4j im pretty sure cis peopel dont envy goin on hrt (i envy you)... Well thats rly nice .i dont rly know how to start.i have curly hair so Growing it out doesnt work. I have no idea how to start do i just tell em Initially what do i do? Pls tell me.

[@Lahhsn4j]

@user-ky2rk8tp5g tbh I feel I'm going a pretty unconventional route with transitioning, I have only grown my hair out, I'm going by a guy name guy pronouns and guy clothes. For me personally I don't like dressing or being referred to as a girl if I don't look or sound like one, it just feels like they're trying to be nice. But for advice there's not much I can give besides look into different types of treatment, expression and try to go at your own pace and do what you want to, not what you think you should.

[@Ivory-f5b]

@@Lahhsn4j oh makes sense i shouldnt rush it. Thank you❤️

[@juxtaposer.]

Thank you so much for making this, hilarious and incredibly validating.

[@bucky_deer]

am little baby egg thanks for making this video you've said some things I really needed to hear uwu

[@jupiter-m2t]

“If you want to be the opposite gender youre trans” NOOOOOO how could this be im trans becuase i wish i was born a girl?!!? Huh?

[@Juno101]

Thx, for the advice. The Problem I have is that I came out in a very small circle very recently, and I do feel happier over all but often I have a lot of self doubt and just feel a bit unvalidated...

[@the_snail_god]

Kirbizia, the legend.

[@Orangekid65]

ngl, as a transfem, the joke(?) on the screen at 5:46 makes me feel better about being terrible at video games even though I know it's pretty sexist

[@_brizzad]

I know this is going to sound very stupid but i was pushing the fact that i was trans away just because i wasnt feeling dysphoric yet keyword its yet but this helped me a ton because of the very first you said if you want to be the opposite gender your trans but im not going to come out untill im 18 thank you for all these trans supportive videos ❤

[@cvntheist]

the video was fu##in' awesome, but i couldn´t help but notice your beeeeutifulll mace build, i really like maces.

[@cornlordgaming8920]

I watched this and then spiralled into confusion for 6 months to make sure I was 100% trans, now I rewatch it and I’m fine once more

[@thescoutpanda]

ughh this video could have saved me a lot of pain and confusion this past few months had i seen it sooner :(

[@violetinrealoldaccount9768]

thanks for recommending glass beach it's album good album

[@SpeedyBlur2000]

A good quote from Lewis from Brain Scratch Commentaries... "The answer to who types with their ass is 4chan."

[@kronlund420]

more supermegaposting please kirbz

[@kirbizia]

yes yes yes kirbizia likes

[@kronlund420]

kirbizia *Ryan laughing to Kangaroo Jack funny scene

[@ShroomiusTheWise]

Ryan Magee laugh

[@thebaconclant.b.c7703]

Thank you for this video

[@thebaconclant.b.c7703]

Also, stop being a supermega stan. Degen

[@afurhat4726]

My Ace Nb Partner Got Their Neck Snapped, I Am Now Rapidly Approaching

[@ellamayo9045]

This video was a huge help to me, thanks ^^

[@wes5479]

Pls do fortnight gameplay next time!! Thakns.

[@MrGelyclem]

No

[@koneify3383]

No

[@whyiwakeup6460]

yes

[@Mol2412w3]

omg thank you so much!!!!! this really fucking help >.

[@EastGermany-pc2lw]

I used to cry myself to sleep wanting to be a girl as a child. For no fucking reason. Then in highschool i found out that its not normal for boys to dream as girls all the fucking time. The whole time before that people were telling me i was gay or trans or something and that entire time i felt that i couldn't simply because i couldn't rationalize it in my head. I used to say "i cant open jars and i can make a good sandwich but that doesn't make me a girl" to deny any allegations. I couldn't find any actually observable evidence of myself until that moment where i was like "wait boys don't normally dream of genderbent versions of themselves?". Moral of the story just fucking listen to people and listen to yourself even if it makes no sense at the time. At least explore it a little before you decide.

[@pasteldeath2731]

this was actually so validating. thanks :)

[@ruuia]

needed dis tysm.

[@Ad3ptwastaken]

Well according to this I may be trans

[@Lockszz]

There's a little test you can take to know whether your trans or not so basically if there was a button in front of you right now that would turn you into the opposite gender would you press it if you would youre most likely trans

[@thetetons744]

Im fuckin super greatful I've found your channel! Have an awesome day!!!!!!

[@jarrellfamily1422]

2:53 aero/ace people:am I a joke to you?

[@nano8640]

thank u kirbizia for my life

[@ImL3go]

I’ve been watching all of your trans videos

[@kirbizia]

still cis tho

[@ImL3go]

@@kirbizia 😔

[@ImL3go]

@@kirbizia It’s a literally been a loop

[@Shmeeby9411]

I don't know what I'd do without videos like this

[@joyybugg]

omg the glass beach song at the end

[@undergroundcave2518]

How do i not overthink it

[@THATS_ALLFOLKS]

if your girl and you wanna be male then your trans, if your boy and you wanna be female then your trans, simple

[@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos]

What you're doing right now? Stop

[@ColdspaceDog]

Baby trans here, thank you

[@waffelpokalypse7365]

Hey, I’m ace and I count! 1…2… 58… 39… yeah ok, you’re right, I don’t count

[@yermomLeslie]

omg I love glass beach too

[@vacuumgaze5277]

Very good video

[@Gelonder]

My neck is broke now i guess

[@samurlur]

dark souls 2 is so real

[@willace8045]

I want to be a girl but im still cis tho

[@SudetenlandMan]

still cis?

[@xxxxpandaxxxx]

Wish I found your videos years ago. So much self hate for years. Im glad im finally not going to be a bitch and taking control of my life

[@Ivory-f5b]

Hmm im not gonna Listen to that haters anymore thank you for youre advice

[@chazza0920]

waiting for my neck to be snapped:)

[@bjrnbjrnsson4012]

Trains.

[@12gauge_shawtyy]

>get off 4chan looking me looking up at my 5 tttt tabs next to this one: uhm,....

[@Skogloverofficail]

As an ace trans person I am fearing for my life right now.

[@lazygravy_brook]

7:48 is that the mf glass beach track art? never expected to see that here. also pog video, very based :3

[@emilyc1046]

Not really a baby trans anymore but I'm still pre-hrt and in a bad place. That stuff at the end was something I really needed to hear, thank you.

[@jamessakalarios2112]

I know you might not see this since this is an old video but,for a few years I’ve felt a lot of self-doubt since I figured out I was trans a bit late (14) and this was the first video to make me really stop feeling that, so thank you. (Btw abt the name this is my main account and I don’t have an alt so no way to change it.)

[@Alastor1214]

you cn do this same situation over here

[@loroka48]

3:43 I'm fucking dead

[@CherryQueenFennecFox]

Thank you ❤