This is 30. | vlog

[@bisouselle]

Sophia, as someone who just turned 48, I’ll just tell you that as you keep aging and growing into the many versions of Sophia (because even when you get my age, you’ll still be learning so many fascinating things about yourself!), you’re going to look back at your 20s and realize how much time you wasted stressing about certain things. It’s wasted energy. And I know that it’s a part of everyone’s personal journey to feel what they feel when they are feeling it, so I want to be compassionate in that regard. Your 20s are supposed to be the era where you’re still figuring things out, having fun, finding your footing in life. You’re being waaaaaay too hard on yourself. You aren’t any less worthy or valuable because you’re still single, or aren’t where you want to be in life. Thank the universe for this time ALONE to truly pour into YOU. Trust me, you aren’t missing anything. Lol Men come and go. Being single is not a death sentence nor is it any indication of being a failure at life. Don’t base your happiness on a man, EVER. Love on those who love you and treat yourself like the QUEEN YOU ARE, regardless. You’re such an inspiration to so many people, and I truly hope you feel that. ♥️

[@aqlhltf]

thank you for this. in my 20s now and indeed, i tend to stress over even the tiniest things in life. kept worrying if i'll regret every step that ive decided to take on. i feel like my 20s will be the sole determinant of my future. so, thank you for spending time leaving such a positive comment :)

[@MariLuz0424]

Yup this exactly. I’m turning 49 in a couple weeks and feel like I’m still learning who I am and DEFINITELY have no idea what I’m doing sometimes. Annnnnd I’ve been single for 4 years and wouldn’t trade it for the world…this time alone has been so joyful and healing. There’s a reason those women who are over 100 all say their secret to long life is staying single lol

[@bisouselle]

@@MariLuz0424 Exactly! LOL I’m single as well, and have been for a while. This is the most peaceful my life has ever been. Do I desire a companion one day? Yes. But I don’t lose sleep over not having one.

[@bisouselle]

@@aqlhltf ♥️♥️

[@misselainc]

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[@renlaporte]

Hey Sophie. I'm 31 and married with a baby and a house. I long for a quiet peaceful life with time for myself like you have. Just letting you know, we never feel like we have it all 💖

[@LemansSunset350]

This is so true. That’s why we have to find true happiness within ourselves .

[@EnzoSalazarBoy7]

I second this!

[@margaretlopez8351]

So true! I’m the same I’m married with 3 little ones.. ages 10, 8, 4… sometimes I wish I could lay on some grass at the park and enjoy a nice cool breeze Or just to have a nice dinner out. Enjoy your time girl. Good things will come.

[@renlaporte]

@@margaretlopez8351 thank you 💗💗

[@MiaCarter7]

Grass is always greener on the other side. We really have to appreciate the small pleasures in life and prioritize finding happiness and beauty 🥲

[@SG-mk4ni]

The intro literally shook my soul. Who else edits like this?! These vlogs are like short films. I'm also turning 30 in a few months, and have had the wildest, emotional time during the past few years. I totally relate to Sophia more than ever before. I believe we will survive these growing pains 🖤

[@Kenoshachannel]

i agree, sophie always nails it while still keeping herself familiar

[@joseyjee5753]

To be so transparent and vulnerable and emotionally naked online, that takes a lot of courage. Doing so opens you up to judgement and criticism. Thankfully you have an amazing fan base here on KZbin and are surrounded by people who love and support you. You have inspired me to start showing up for myself. Keep doing what you're doing, you're awesome ❤️

[@uareri27]

To Sophia and everyone else who's going to turn 30, everything will get better! Me too, I felt so many emotions prior to turning 30. I cried on my 29th bday. But the 30s has been just so amazing so far! I feel like I'm living life finally! And I'm going to be 33 already! Hang in there everyone!

[@tajat866]

Same for me. I was so sad and lonely and broke and lost when turning 30. But my 30s have been full of adventures, especially times between 32 and 35, so many travels, meeting new people ...

[@xmissdreamer]

Agree with this. I'm 32 this year and feel like 30's have been better than 20's! Don't ask me about 40 though lol.

[@smnthlm]

I'm turning 30 this year, as well so I really appreciate this!

[@Jasmineapril]

Thank you for this! I turn 30 on Wednesday and filled with so many emotions.

[@MMejia1711]

I felt like this too! I feel like my 30’s have been more about me in a way that my 20’s weren’t.

[@astoldbyshasha4154]

Who else is emotional because they’ve been watching Sophia since her rave and purple hair days?! Oh how we are so lucky to have watched you grow into a beautifully grounded WOMAN. Love and light Sophia ✨

[@jungersrules]

“Because true belonging only happens when we present our authentic, imperfect selves to the world, our sense of belonging can never be greater than our level of self-acceptance.” ― Brené Brown

[@babyxlibra87]

In my friend group, I was the last one to get into a serious relationship. We met on the week of my 33rd birthday. My two best friends got married in 2017 then again in 2019. And at that time, I was still single. If I learned anything, it’s that everyone has different timelines. You will have your own. My only advice is to try to be more open to dating potentials and meeting new people. I went on some really weird blind dates set up by a granny from work but man, did those make for some hilarious stories LOL At some point, you will click with someone, you just havent found that special person yet 😉 You are beautiful, smart and successful. You are definitely marriage material. I definitely had my sad days when I felt lonely and unhappy with where I was in life. But just like you, I travelled, hung out with friends, did crossfit, went solo travelling (I highly recommend Kauai) and spent lots of quality time with my family. Excited to see what is in store for you. Much ❤️ to you Sophia! Happy birthday! Trust me, this decade will be >>>>> 20s

[@kaskahea1274]

👍🏽! Great advice! I’m still singe at 39

[@JaspreetKaur-sr9oq]

Can you please elaborate more on traveling solo in Kauai? Thank you.

[@DiutoAjoku]

It really breaks my heart seeing you cry, Sophia. I want you to know that YOU ARE more than ENOUGH and DESERVING of so much love. Sending you the warmest hugs and all the love in my heart! Happy Happy 30th, beautiful! Looking forward to seeing you happier each week.❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@sarahchristinechoung8963]

It's crazy because I am going through the same thing right now at 25. I am the most aware that I have ever been but I feel the most insecure, unworthy, and depressed I have ever been. My heart dropped when you explained how this was how you felt for a while... I know that we can get through this but thank you for sharing because I don't feel so alone... Thank you, Sophie. I love you.

[@hiswords1715]

Jesus loves you so much!

[@khalilahd.]

Sophia you are glowing and evolving and I just love to see it. You inspire me to want to grow and find peace in both the ups and downs of life. You’re doing better than you’re feeling 💜

[@hollysterx33]

Not me crying into my kimchi fried rice right now. 🥺 This hit me to the core. Sophia, I have been a silent follower for almost 10 years and your content has always made me feel seen (especially this one). I hope you know you have helped me get through the darkest of times with your beautiful content.

[@sophiachang]

This means so much. Thank you 🖤

[@CatEyedGoddess]

I’m 5 years into my 30s and I remember thinking I was old and didn’t accomplish anything when I turned 30, especially compared to my friends. Hell, I still can’t afford a house. But, like my mother said age happens to us all, time does care. Live your life like it’s your last. be out to growth and change. I quite enjoy my 30s now, I’ll be turning 36 this year, four years away from the big 40. And I’m looking forward to it. It means I’m not dead 😄

[@arlynnapenas2367]

This got me tearing!!! As a 26 year old, I'm in a constant fear of not being enough come 30. There's so much pressure surrounding me and I can't keep up. Thank you for making me realize that we can still grow, change and live! You inspire me Sophia!!! Thank you for being around! Happy Birthday! :)

[@imchenimlinaro1729]

I’m 26 and I feel the same way. Sending you much love and grace 🤍

[@itsblitzzz]

30 is going to be your year. I'm sure. ❤

I acknowledge you for being so honest and vulnerable. You're so beautiful, loved and supported just as you are.

[@philippawood5047]

So beautiful to see this comment from you even though you are in your own place of hurt right now, Chloe. You and Sophia are both very beautiful souls and it is so lovely you share your love with this community. :)

[@yesmijauregui]

Girl, before turning 30 I cried for like two months. I think 30’s are attached to thinking we will have it “all together” but remind yourself this is just the worlds standards. Your right were your suppose to be and let this year be the best year yet to fill that void with self love! Love you sis, we got this 🤍🙏🏽

[@imjennim]

I wish I could "like" this video a million times. I love you so much. 30 is only the beginning. 🤍

[@minhakim6982]

I've never resonated with a vlog more than I have this one. I'm turning 29 this year and the past year alone has been one of the most transformative. I'm constantly in a place of feeling like I'm running out of time yet feeling like the days/hardships are just dragging. This waiting period of growing, becoming better, and giving ourselves the love we always were worthy of can be so painful and beautiful at the same time. We got this

[@joonoski5208]

sophia i love how your vlogs give off that mature feminine vibe. I love it whenever I need that kind of vlog some days!

[@VRafanan14]

This video could not have been more well-timed. I recently turned 29 and made the decision to leave a 7-year relationship that was no longer serving either of us. Hearing and seeing your humanness inspires me to embrace my own humanness-especially at this time-and to pursue growth from this experience as I press on to become an even better version of myself (while also honoring and loving my past self, because she loved so deeply-and I think that that's worth recognizing).

[@VRafanan14]

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us. ❤️

[@cheersgugu5345]

i am turning 30 this year, and i am having exact mood starting 2 years ago, self-doubt, depression, unpassionate about everything and unhappy about everything. everyone's life is tough and has a lot of things to experience, we can get better and live along with good and bad. happy birthday sophia, we all can go through with it!

[@coconutpanda]

I'm part of the older segment of your viewers (GenX, not a Boomer!) lol I will tell you that that the best decades of your life are now about to unfold. Yes, I said the BEST decades of your life. It's not that nothing bad or challenging happens as you get older - unfortunately that doesn't change. What does change is how you handle it. You're so much better equipped with life experience, that what may have seemed like an absolute crisis at 23 yrs. old, is not so when you're 35 or 45, etc. Angel girl, I promise you, the 30s, 40s, 50s...it's gonna be so good!!

[@Cheri94]

Oh Sophia all I want to do is give you a big mama hug, ( I’m old enough to be your mom) and I will tell you, don’t be so hard on yourself, you are SO much stronger than you know, and so much more accomplished than you think. Gratitude in the moment, EVERY moment of your life, right where you are now is where you supposed to be, where God has placed you, maybe not for your benefit, but to teach a lesson to someone watching your videos! Some times, we teach, sometimes we learn! Stay strong, and know you are never alone! YOU ARE ENOUGH!!!

[@CookieFridays]

Before I turned 30, I had never so much as had a boyfriend, I felt like I hadn’t accomplished much and it felt like I was crossing over into some dark abyss, my anxiety was eating away at me as I thought about reaching 30. As soon as the day passed, I stopped caring and thinking about it. I realized nothing changed by turning 30, I’m still the same person, the age doesn’t define me, my thoughts or actions. Sometimes I still think about like, okay, It’s time to really find a longterm partner, you’re going to be 32, but the more guys I meet and talk to, I re-affirm that it’s not even worth it to be with someone that isn’t totally right for you. There’s no way to rush it. I gave general anxiety everyday but I just try to control the storm. I’m glad you’re getting help in therapy. You’re amazing and we all love you and your content. All of us want you to truly be happy. I understand why you must have all these feelings, I can sense you might be lonely living alone and working from home, not to mention the pandemic. Along with your other personal insecurities. But you’re so awesome, you’re successful in your own right, gorgeous and hardworking, you don’t need to be anything else, you’re enough as you are. I hope you can release most of the pressure you have on yourself 🧡

[@Angelfromdasky]

i am turning 30 in two weeks. i can't express enough how much this makes me feel less alone.. thank you

[@icecreamcake123]

You're living a life MOST people want! You have a beautiful home., so many friends, a sweet family. If you're depressed, I don't know how I should feel...

[@hanelno]

Just turned 30 a few weeks ago. I don’t get anxious about age but at the yearly reminder that life goes so so fast. All the more reason to really live. Happy birthday Soph!

[@stellalee6877]

I’m turning 30 this year as well, and sometimes I feel the same like you, vulnerable, anxious, crying at nights… and don’t know what to do to fix all the feelings. But thank you Sophia, after watching your videos for years, you just like the girl that I admire and wannabe, at the same time you also the girl I can relate to. I’ve learned so much from you, to be brave, active, facing towards those “bad” feelings and trying to deal with them. I believe we both can live the most in our 30s, we will keep growing and glowing ✨

[@_isatoo]

‘Growth’ is past tense because you don’t know you’re there until you go past it. Thank you for sharing your heart so bravely ❤️

[@giseineko]

I turned 26 last month and I am single for a longer time now. First it was great after a 5 year relationship to be alone and focus on myself. But then after some time I really feel lonely now. And I feel like I never really meet someone new. At least no one who wants something serious.. I feel like there is nobody that can really love me for who I really am. It is great when you are strong and independent. But everybody needs someone who will give you a hug or just wants to spend time with you. I am really grateful for my dogs. I don't know how I was today without them

[@thechoiluckclub2247]

Literally crying. So inspired by your willingness to “go there” and not be quick to move on. The stillness is harder than the going but it is so worth the wait. Thank you for sharing your journey to your self with us. This was so beautiful

[@mariajanellemarquez]

I always feel like when I go through these emotional coasters, or not feeling like myself anymore is actually apart of me that is peeling away. Like my younger self is shedding away and the more mature self is slowly coming to surface. That's why it hurts. Your shedding your old self to make room for the new you.

[@gizmo8453]

Love that you showed the importance of crying it out and just reflecting upon it. Often times people beat themselves of showing "weakness"(guilty of that myself) and brush things off to the side. When in reality, that's one of the most important times for self heal. Suppressing those emotions will only lead to a major mental breakdown... resulting to illness and feeling lost of hope. Very inspiring to see as I'm trying to discover myself in my early 20s and find my place in the world. I need to express those emotions more and I only see an increase in awareness as time goes on. Thank you for that🙏

[@Biiakane]

Sophia, the way I feel connected to you have been inspiring me. I have been going through a lot in the past year and just listening to your words and knowing that is ok to be vulnerable helps me everytime I watch one of your videos. Thank you. Happy birthday and happy life

[@lenastaheli4063]

Dear Sophia, you are an amazing story teller with wonderful visuals that make me cry and feel with you. I love watching your videos and you give me so much strengh by showing your vunerability. You are not alone and thank you for sharing your story.

[@priscillaagyeman]

We’re around the same age and I’ve been watching your channel since I was in college, maybe even before then. I hope you give yourself some grace and compassion and celebrate the small wins, and soften the parts of yourself you may find hardest to love right now. Happy birthday love 💗🥺

[@christineee444]

The ending 😭 this was relatable as someone heading into her late 20s. Ever since 25, I’ve felt unworthy especially comparing myself to where everyone else is already-it’s just hard not to. Thank you for sharing those inspiring words, Sophia! Cheers to 30, this is your year 🤍✨

[@Rebecca-lg8ux]

Son YeJin and Hyun Bin are 40 and just got married and I cried of joy when I heard they were dating lol but I bring that up because they literally inspire me when I feel lonely, helpless, “still single” at 32, wondering if I’ll ever get that. And I trust that I will. I trust that finding love will happen. However, I’m also learning that finding yourself, loving yourself and truly believing in and trusting yourself is more precious than any relationship with anyone else. I’m on this journey with you. It’s hard. Some days I think “I can do this” and other days it crashes down. But, even slow progress is progress. We’re here for you.

[@ivyjean4085]

I felt everything in this video when I went into my 30’s I was in a bad space and didn’t know I was dealing with mental illness until age 33 or 34, but I remember heading into my 35th year I just wasn’t feeling great, this month I will be 39 and I am still going through my moments but I’ve grown, it’s good to see the raw parts you are putting out there Sophia it makes me feel like I am not alone and thing are going to be okay. Thank you for allowing yourself to feel and to know that life is life.

[@cci0ncix3]

Cried with you. Loved every bit of this raw emotional video. I am 26 and Im on this journey of self love and deconditioning as well. Hard to let go of some things that hold me back but I hope I do soon. We can do this.

[@eiszapfenkobold]

Weird how the most stylish, beautiful success full looking persons are the most tormented ones on the inside. Hope you can let go on the "i have to be like this and this at this point in my life" and can begin to flow with the days and enjoy your life journey also on the inside. You can do this! Don t be so hard on yourself!

[@rayeledee9541]

Sophia, girl I feel the exact same way. I turn 30 next year and I too am not where I pictured myself being. I absolutely love the way you have been showing this season of life and how so many of us can relate. Thank you for showing this part of life. Oh and I too have a hard time finding glasses that fit my Native American face frame!!! You are in my thoughts 🤍

[@minidreamer24]

I was captivated by your vulnerability and grace from the start of the video and had goosebumps towards the end of your video. I've also entered the first year of my 30s this year and can relate to the feelings you have mentioned. It's inspiring to see you confront your pain and work through them. Rooting for you absolutely and that beautiful growth and honesty you've graciously allowed us a peek into. Truly inspiring

[@ktslocum1]

Dear Sophie

[@ellyamanda]

It hit so close to home. I turned 28 yesterday and i feel like i have nothing put together. Where i saw myself being, i'm nowhere near. There's a sort of weird comfort in knowing i'm not alone with this. Thank you for being so open about it, you're amazing.

[@ChelseaLampinen]

Currently at 35, I fully understand what you mean. I went through these same feelings at about 25-27 and it was a horrible feeling. I will say it gets better and it’s something you need to work at and slowly but surely you’ll get there💗 sensing so much love your way 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙈

[@yililing7016]

When you were meditating and crying, the doggies were sitting behind the glass door looking for you, so concerned and confused🥺that scene was so cute and pure, and that's when you find the meaning of life and love. We all love you Soph🤎

[@pauli_joy]

As someone who is in her early 20s and in college,watching you feels so comforting.we were always told that by the time you're out of your 10s you gotta be mature and get your shit together,so seeing someone older than me who is still trying to figure out life really comforts me You're the big sis I never got but always wanted hahaha thank you for that~(cuz I'm the big sis of the fam hahaha)

[@acuteabove]

Happy belated birthday Sophia! 🥳 92 baby here too and I feel exactly the same. I’m so anxious about turning 30 in 2 months because I don’t have the life that I thought I would have. I’m not married, I don’t have babies etc. But every one has a different timeline

[@Jllawrence24]

I turn 30 in two months also! When is your birthday?

[@xDRebel]

I feel exactly the same too and also turning 30 in 2 months.

[@abca1346]

Watching u crying Sophie makes me think about my life right now. Back when I was in my teen years watching ur vlogs I'm always jealeous I'd always say I want to have Sophia's life so bad. But seeing u makes me think that despite of having everything happiness isn't really all about "Having things" happiness comes from within. I'm praying for your inner peace and calmness. I adore u so much💐😌

[@AH-hi7sq]

30 is a whole new shit and I’m still learning. I turned 30 10/2021. 30 hit me on point…. I was at a job that I loved doing. But new management was bad and etc. I took a week vacation to Temecula after I turned 30. During my vacation… I did a lot of self reflect. I didn’t wanna go back to work once vacation was coming to an end. I wanted things to be better- my health and mental health. I called in another week and when I got back, I put in a week notice that I was leaving. I was a SUD counselor… I had a lot to do but again loved what I do. Got counselor of the year a month before 30th bday too. But besides all that… I know I have to leave. My last day at work was bittersweet. It’s like leaving a unhealthy toxic relationship when you know you don’t want to. But hang on there Sophie. This is 30. WE ARE ALL still trying to figure ourselves and life out- doesn’t matter how old we are. Surround yourself with supportive friends & families. That’s the best advice for now lol. Some days I find myself feeling lost… or depressed. I still don’t know what to do but tell myself “it’s going to be okay”, and sometimes distract myself with TikTok, movies, and meditation. I’m planning to seek counseling/therapy as well. Just don’t know where or how to start.

Soph, you deserve the world. You are truly an inspiration. I feel like I’ve grown with you, even though we don’t know each other. That’s because you’re such a pure, kind soul. I feel like I can feel your energy just by watching your beautiful videos. You make life an art. Being an empath makes us carry an obnoxious weight. Honestly, I though same as you, I visualised my life like a scenario. Which… did not happen at all. Your vlogs made me feel like I’m not alone in this. So Soph, you are incredible. You are so full of love, beautiful, strong, independent, talented, funny (I love your sense of humor), full of empathy, responsible, kind, ambitious. Thank you, for being and for sharing your amazing content. Happy birthday Sophie.

[@JackieSilver17]

Sophia, thank you for being so vulnerable with us. It’s a beautiful to see and know I am not alone.

[@laprincesseaudrey]

Your monologue at the end hit home for me. Gaining self awareness through therapy is the most rewarding but also draining exercise to improve our live. I’ve been on that journey since turning 30 as well, and I now see why I haven’t been at the point I always expected to be. Because I wouldn’t have built the life that would’ve made me happy in the long run. Sending you all the love and strength so you’ll be able to love yourself like you love others.

[@monicasok2944]

If I could heart this video a billion times over and over, I would. I’m also turning 30 and man what a chance to look back where I’ve been and who I’ve become as well. You are not alone. To 30! Hbd Sophia, and thank you for this.

[@shonalin5928]

I cried like a baby in front of the screen, rewatched, rewatched, and rewatched! Love every piece of your work Sophia ❤️

[@mslilpetite]

Hi Sophia, I am turning 30 in July this year and I felt the same way. I have plans that by 30 years old, I have a stable & be satisfied with the job that I want, being content and be with someone the rest of my life. I have everything that I wished for but except for being with someone. After 5 years of being together, we called it off. We did had plans together of getting married, have a house and kids together. However, things didn’t happen the way I wanted it to be and it made me feel sad because I am 30 w/ a stable job but lonely. Despite from what I felt, thank you for this video. It made me realise that change is inevitable and I need to accept it. The only stable in my life is my family and friends that loves me the most. Thank you for sending a message that it is ok to feel this way and let everything out. I am relieved that there is someone who felt the same way and that I can relate to. We haven’t met in person yet but thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and feelings. You made me realise that 30 is a new age to be more me, make things possible, a lot of acceptance, stay still and live the life that I have. I wish you all the best with this journey and I hope that you will find your inner happiness. Stay safe ❤️.

[@LifeShortStories2022]

Sophia, thank you for sharing your life. A big part about life is learning about yourself. Finding yourself in the crowd. For a long time, I thought I was doing the right thing by being everything for everyone else. But I lost myself in those moments. I needed to take care of myself and I needed to be with me more. I had to let go of my control and let others take care of themselves. Once I let go of that control, I learned to find myself in the crowd. I am thankful for your growth and thank you again for sharing.

[@Jayyy_love]

Love the light hearted touch of the humorous captions! By far one of my favorite vlogs. The editing is phenomenal and so is you’re makeup queen ✨

[@ErikaRodriguez-qv5zn]

My heart breaks for you and everyone feeling this way! I pray this year is the year your mind and thoughts shift and you find peace within yourself. I have my lonely and empty days even being a mother of 3 and for the longest I’d try to distract myself so my mind wouldn’t make me go crazy but I’ve learned to let my mind run wild with all the what ifs. Some how to let my brain go wild with all the things I could’ve done or could’ve accomplished, then to bring myself back to reality actually makes me feel ok. We’re all just trying to survive and stay afloat. A little compassion goes a long way!! Sending you so much love and hugs!

[@suuyanful]

Somehow watching this now as someone who has already gone through a similar period of healing has made me appreciate how tough it truly is to heal from trauma and pain. You are a star for wanting to go through the nitty and gritty of healing and all that is uncomfortable and that no one seems to talk about. As hard as it was, I kept my sails up and kept walking toward that small glimmer of light that was true acceptance and happiness. Through all the changes (career, love, and personal relationships) more than ever I have grounded in the knowledge that my vulnerability is what gives me the power I need to get through these tough times. I hope you come to a point in your journey where you are able to feel this level of comfortability and confidence. Love you!

[@TashiiTash]

Sophie, I have been a silent follower for 7 years.. and I have never felt as much as I do now that we are in very similar places in our lives. I turned 30 in December, and just ended a long term relationship of 6 years. The talk you have with yourself of all the self loathing, hate, and unworthiness resonates so deeply with me. Thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone. If only you could see how all of us see you

[@_alexblvck]

Excuse me ma’am, what is this little vocal hum moment you were giving us in the bathroom while you put on your makeup?! I definitely peeped! On a more important note, idk why but most of us approached 30 with this unrealistic expectation that we were supposed to have it all together and getting closer to the age and seeing that those things on this list weren’t checked off only caused unnecessary stress. I realized that my 20s was were I was supposed to make mistakes and I learned a bunch of hard lessons, but my 30 wasn’t a cut off point! Nah, this was where I got to take all that I learned from those mistakes and put the lessons into action, and the key is to do it while still not adding that pressure on myself. Turning 30 brought a new level of self discovery and refinement. You’ll love it over here. Shoutout to you for doing the work to make sure you are your best self. It’s hard, it’s scary, it’s emotionally draining at times, but it’s worth it. Keep doing you girl 💙

[@janetkwok3144]

The only thing I want to do right now is hug you tight and let you feel that you’re not alone ❤️ Love you Sophie💕You deserve every goodness in this world ❣️

[@sa311energy]

That’s exactly what my therapist asked me “would you ever speak to your friends the way that you talk to yourself”. No, I’m kind to them. I need to be kinder to myself. That was a huge breakthrough.

[@jasminerillen]

This vlog couldn't have come out at a better time. I'm going through the same ups and downs, lonely nights and just worrying about what's unknowing to me. I'm turning 30 next month and I'm beyond anxious, scared, doubtful of where my life is right now. I went back to school for a career change and it's feels as if I'm to old to go back to school but it's something I want to do to make me happy. There are times though where I sit and wonder what would life be like if I hadn't make some of the mistakes I've made during the first 29 years of my 20s and I sometimes regret the choices I've made. But, I can't change the past, all I can do is look towards the present, the moment I'm living now and continue to evolve as a person, a woman who shouldn't place boundaries on herself because of what society has taught us and continue living and growing and learning about myself. So I definitely resonate with you on this Sophia. It's definitely a scary feeling turning 30 but all we can do is just enjoy our days and keep living for us and keep loving ourselves for coming this far in our life. Can't wait to see the positive and love and newcomings of this new journey of your life brings. ❤️

[@shaunaashley5520]

you are living my literal dream life. its crazy how our minds can nit pick and distort things 💓 thank you for sharing your journey

[@NoraRez]

Dear Sophia, I’ve always admired how honest and real you are when you open up and share these moments with us. Thank you for choosing to be vulnerable and showing us how humane and connected we can all be despite our different lives and struggles. Today you have inspired me to gather the courage needed to start my own self development journey. I am sending you all my love. You will forever remain my favourite story teller. 💌

[@yoona2497]

You're a true story teller Sophia! The editing in this is insane

[@damondominique]

Welcome to the 30 club! 🏆It's a privilege to be here!

[@martamartinezrubio89]

Today is my bday , I’m turning 33, and apparently life has decided to put me in this situation where I have to decide between my professional future and my partner. So now I’m stucked in a cross of different ways, and I’m in the same position almost for a year now, not being able to make a choice and I feel I am not prepared to take the right step. Because there are no “right or wrong” choices in life, they are just choices. Enjoy yourself, your freedom to choose, your loneliness, that is a lot to figure out. Sending lots of love, thanks for show us your most human side🌸🌿✨

[@alliezhen3711]

Whew, this vlog resonated with me so much. I turn 30 this year too and it’s bittersweet to see how similar a lot of us feel, transitioning from our 20s to our 30s. Despite the lonely nights, I hope you had a lovely birthday and that you continue to keep your head up, Sophia! We’ll get through it together. 💝

[@TeannaLu]

I love that you are sharing the not so happy side of life. I’m also going through sadness and anxiety and it helps so much knowing I am not alone 💞

[@GlamPatrisha]

Happy Birthday. I hope you will have wonderful year ahead. I am over 30 and dont have any kids and such, i stopped thinking of my age, I started to enjoy life day by day and whatever i get. Life is difficult if we think too much. Trust me 30 is not that much, you still have many years ahead and many chances, life is not done at 30. What if i tell you the best comes after 30, and i mean it. I will have birthday next month, and i decided to travel. I paid ticket to South Korea for 14 days and I am grateful for everything. I will be 37 and i don't really fell bad at all. I feel bad for people who tell me I am old haha.

[@lifewithshannanigans]

Thank you so much for sharing your life with the world. I definitely have been struggling with my last year of being in my 20s. I turn 30 in August and it’s just been a whirlwind of emotions for me. Working as a RN has really taken a toll on my mental health the last two years along with the thought of turning 30 soon and not having my life together. You are such a great videographer and story teller. I appreciate the time and effort you put into your videos. Seeing you be vulnerable and sharing with us your thoughts has really made me feel less alone. I am glad you are coming into yourself and know that this is a never ending journey. All in all, I’m proud of you. Sending so much light and love to you and everyone here 💜✨

[@efrosini7579]

Dear @Sophia Chang .First of all thank you for shearing your true colors and emotions. You inspire us in a good way.I recently got fired for being true (2 days before my 30s birthday)it broke my heart.I was thinking "is it wrong for being true en letting other people see my true colours.I was crying. But crying is a release of expression to me.It reminds me that im growing,that everything is gooing be all right.We all are learning, growing. But most of all.Keep and grow your true colours.Thank you.🌷

[@imjoanamaria]

Sophia thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing such honest content, you’re a really big inspiration and an incredible human being. 💜 As my mom always says “life is like a coaster wheel always in motion, sometimes we are up and sometimes we are down, when you’re up really enjoy being there but always keeping in mind that the wheel is in motion and when you’re down don’t be desperate because the wheel is already in movement to get you up there again. Try to enjoy every bit of the ride.” When I’m felling down this piece of advice always help to keep things in perspective. You are amazing 💜 Welcome to the 30’s!

[@dominikadziun]

I cried an ocean of tears… Seeing that someone is going through the same feelings, doubts, things like me made me feel less lonely. I’m happy that I found your channel and can support you. Love you ❤️

[@SamFournier]

Sophia, you inspire me so much. I have been a part of your journey since the Fashionista804 days and seeing you give yourself the love that you give out is so beautiful. It’s not always easy to love ourselves but I just started this journey myself, it’s a rollercoaster of emotions but I can really say I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. Thank you for taking us along on this journey and being so open with us. Sending you so much love.

[@bisouselle]

Forgot to add that your vlogs are so enjoyable to watch - the editing, the thoughtfulness, the rawness. Just beautiful. 🤍

[@blueflower9244]

Happy birthday Sophia, you are my comfort person and thank you for inspiring me to start giving more love to myself and always to take care of myself. watching this at 1 am and goshhh cried when you said" I'm 30 , single, and mentally unstable" ..im in my mid 20's and its been hard for me but your videos always cheer me up to work out, eat right, and that its okay not to be okay

[@OneVeronique]

Listen Sophia, Derrty 30’s will be an AmAzing journey. So much maturing & self love ❤️ falls into place. You will enjoy this journey sooooo much. Just know that life sometimes brings highs and lows but each journey yields its own experience. You will look back and thank your younger self for that journey. Be sure to cry but laugh more! You are an AmAzin SoUl with sooo much life. You are loved by so many & in more ways than you could probably imagine. You reach all ages ( hence My Mom who is 70 watches you❤️❤️). At any rate Congratulations 🍾🎈🎉🎊 on every new journey. You got this 30 looks good on you💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛 Don’t let society RUSH U….YOU ARE WORTHY! 💞ya mean it😉

[@Charldene]

I am currently going through the same event patterns! Turned 30 this year and spend my birthday with a friend, and you are right. You see things so clearly for what it is now. Being aware is such a beautiful thing I wish I had this sense of awareness in my 20's! It would've saved me from making bad decisions and letting just anyone IN. Be present in every moment. Things always have a way of working out.

[@Jess-lo6eb]

Truly beautiful❤. Welcome to a new chapter. Embracing, conquering and enjoying uncertainties.

[@beautyofslowliving]

Is no one here 36 and older? 🤣 Turning 37 this year and loving my late thirties! Other than the odd ageist or two that try to make you feel bad about being "older" but hey, we all grow old and they're going to get there too someday. I went through a major breakup right before I hit 30 and all I can say is that it will get better!

[@Qkrrbfl2664]

Thanks for growing up with me Sophia. Seeing you cry made me ball my eyes out thinking about the past ten years. And Sophia, you are always more than enough!

[@ninayang9097]

Thank you for sharing your journey Sophia. I’ll be 30 next year & I’m overwhelmed. Thank you for all the beautiful, important reminders of self-care & self love. Stay strong… you got this!

[@anntang7679]

Wow. This is a professional short movie, shot beautifully. Very real, emotional, raw, moving, hopeful … sending you all my ❤️

[@bellaf9150]

Your videos give me a sense of healing. Thank you for sharing your journey. My heart goes out to you.

[@realeboha7081]

Hey Sophia, I'm watching all the way from South Africa. I need you to know that you're an inspiring woman; your courage to open yourself up to millions of us on here is out of this world. There's so much emotion I'm feeling for you and from watching your content. I love you and 30 is gonna be great for you.

[@monicashin526]

I placed you on my mood board before 2022 hit and it propelled me to start my online business. Thank you for everything you graciously share with us. You are an inspiration.

[@nininana972]

Just turned 30, got out of a 10 year relationship with someone I thought was the one, unemployed and moving back home with my family. Rewatching this video and part of Sophia’s journey hits even deeper now.

[@2012banksnb]

The ending made me cry because I turn 30 next yr and it’s been a lot to think about. Losing the last yrs of my 20s to a pandemic, stressed, and working a job I didn’t love

[@lydsa9662]

Sophia, you are a rare beauty, taking care of your insides when society often focuses on the outsides. I know the culture that programed us to feel less of ourselves. If we had the role that people’s emotions were projected on us, we unconsciously took it in growing up, it really hurt us making us feel unworthy of happiness. At 30, I wasn’t married yet either. It’s okay. Don’t listen to society. You’ll know when the right person is for you and you for him. Meanwhile, you are doing so good allowing yourself to be in the process of healing. When you can fully embrace who you are, you can see what is good for you. In my 40s I learned that I can’t care for others unless I take time to heal and take care of me. I’m still on that journey. Cheers 🥂 to you on your healing ❤️‍🩹 journey. I’m rooting for you.

[@darlinchris1303]

Watching you on and off over the years has truly been a blessing. Somehow I always come back to your channel at a times when I need them, seeing your journey and progress has helped me immensely in my own journey. Thank you.

[@YoonaistheLightofGod]

To be able to show empathy for others Is to be able to show yourself the empathy you yearn from others To be content with knowing you can't depend on others for your own happiness Is to be able to acknowledge that you are what empathy is itself For only you can empathize with yourself better than anyone can For only you can love yourself better than anyone else should And to do so you grow by learning about the person who you wish to be By being the best supporter and showering love to yourself with as much compassion and empathy You would want others to feel when they receive the love you give so unconditionally Just a little poem I thought of as a reflection response to this heartwarming video. Always enamored whenever I watch your videos like this. Got to know you and myself a little bit better. You're doing so well in your self-growth journey. Such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing :) Sending love and light

[@idoduhnail]

Sophie, thank you for being so vulnerable and open about your mental health journey. I've been watching your channel since your MAC days and you have grown so much! The visuals in your videos are beautiful and you are a truly beautiful soul. Happy birthday 💕

[@sayanythingxox]

Sophia! I love you so much. You don’t know how much these videos have helped me over the past few weeks, I’m just coming out of a long term relationship - 28 years old and trying to figure out who I really am. Seeing you being open and honest about the ups and the downs, it’s so amazing to see ❤️

[@aknjwmlr5]

happy birthday to my internet unnie 🥺 thank you for helping me grow