This is not for you.

this was for one of my classes LMAOOO

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

THERES SO MANY PEOPLE WHERE DID U GUYS COME FROM But hi! got nothing else to except thank u guys for checking this out! I worked on this for an assignment for class and didn’t expect for this to get a ton of views lmao But thank u! I also kindly ask you check out my songs and other things! Here’s my most recent song and another song you guys would prob like! kzbin.info/www/bejne/h4GWfIqHpNSgl7ssi=k0VWPde1uz4WbCoF kzbin.info/www/bejne/gIDCk5aLdsurj5osi=wnteC1Kmpwv8QVR9

[@JudeEaley]

Class must be confused by now

[@thelegotrash6911]

No idea what this work is from, though I must say, it has some very interesting lines, and the narration is top notch. Not to mention the editing work on the video itself, truly marvelous. I was especially drawn to the line "I am undoing you from my skin." It resonated with me on a personal level, and I'm still thinking about the ending speech as a whole. In summary, it's an incredible, thought provoking video, with quality narration and editing. If you don't get an A+ I'd be disappointed in your teacher for not recognizing talent when it is displayed.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

@@thelegotrash6911 thank you!! The lines are from a book called “house of leaves” it’s a REALLY good book. It’s very confusing due to how it’s written, but it’s too interesting to put down. And dw I passed!

[@LilythathappenstobeinaValley]

dude this a REALLY well edited

[@sweglord227]

people apparently really love the house of leaves

[@Rum_Ham776]

House of Leaves? in MY recommended?? There really is no escaping it, gotta find the time to finish reading it

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

LMAO I have to finish it as well

[@amidalaprin4846]

​@@Hi_ImAwkwardgod I need to READ this now, my English teacher bought me a copy years ago and I still haven't read it😭

[@johnzhou4877]

The book House of Leaves is exactly like the hallway it describes: once it shows up in your life, there is no escape. You can turn away from it, you can try your best to forget its existence, but days later, weeks later, years later, you will eventually pick up the book and struggle through it. It won't be an easy read, you will have to fight your way through, but there's no escape, or it will haunt you forever in your lifetime.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

I agree

[@sillypinkmoth]

homestuck

[@NErDy-pr1jf]

@@sillypinkmothlmao I was thinking the same thing. As a fan of both I feel like homestuck haunts those who consume its media much more then HoL does. Not in like a horror way just in a “is that a motherfucking homestuck reference? Oh no not this again” kinda way

[@beenguy5887]

kid named alzheimers

[@octogon8041]

I finished it nine days I don’t understand everyone saying it’s so hard to read

[@goddepersonno3782]

the youtube algorithm has lead me to gold 🙏

[@-Mawce-]

Sorry but, Led*

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

@@-Mawce-lmaoo

[@goddepersonno3782]

@@-Mawce- where I come from, we call this a 'pun'

[@selfishstockton6123]

@@goddepersonno3782madness

[@dragonfruit3054]

​@@-Mawce- Pumblum

[@blvckbytes7329]

I love how you conveyed the ever shrinking corridors by squeezing the font into smaller and smaller boxes, while making it even more uncomfortable to read by wrapping lines in the midst of words. So many elements of this video are like this... Huge respect!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank you! I got feedback of doing that and it worked really well!

[@AGKyran]

I think it’s already like that in the book, but the video is cool anyway.

[@blvckbytes7329]

@@AGKyran Are you sure about that? I couldn't find this exact passage within the publicly available PDF file, maybe there's an edition I don't know of?

[@AGKyran]

@@blvckbytes7329 I just checked, it is exactly like that. I have the book. I have the edition from 2022 but normally the content is the same. It's around page 450. Maybe there isn't everything in the pdf.

[@blvckbytes7329]

@@AGKyran Thank you for taking the time to look it up. As I have zero experience with the book House Of Leaves, I had no idea how much was missing from the PDF-file, so I also had no way of judging whether my search was sufficient. I believed that the author of this video took the time to make it look like it came from a book, while it seemingly just came from one. Well, should've gone with the easier explanation, ^^".

[@shreyas8987]

I love how the text is cropped more and more and becomes smaller as the video goes along to represent the hallway getting smaller. Very cool detail!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

yeah it was something I got feedback on to try! glad it looked cool!

[@xenohazard]

I thought I had stumbled on a random video from an arpg out of order or something. This could go places. I need to know more so bad.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

im glad it felt that way! I wanted that sorta vague feeling from it. and who knows maybe ill do something like that or continue this in some way

[@shreyas8987]

@@Hi_ImAwkward I think its perfect to stop it here, no? It leaves off of at a perfect earie point with enough of a storyline to make you ponder on what happened without spoon-feeding it to you. Wonderful story telling and editing made the video pop.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

@@shreyas8987 no yeah I agree! ill most likely leave this how it is. but the style of editing and such would most likely be something ill use in the future

[@NErDy-pr1jf]

These are lines from the book House Of Leaves

[@Car-rp8dg]

This is from a book called house of leaves.

[@janakrug633]

Yesss, House of Leaves!!! Scrolled past and immediately recognized the quote and the font! Love this!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank you!

[@TheParadoxGamer1]

Dude same

[@lllooolll327]

Reverse psychology was what got me here, madness was what made me stay.

[@DefinitelyARobot]

“Hey, who’s the #1 chess player in the world?” Guy who can’t pronounce the letter g: 0:00

[@kittencaboodle8124]

Oh hell yes... House of leaves is a favorite and it's awesome to see it adapted like this. For lack of a better word, this "remix" perfectly summarizes the experience of trying to find meaning in that daunting text. This letter, this story, this house... is not for you

[@femurbreakur]

I get so excited when I see House of Leaves content, its one of my favourite books

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

I knowww I need to finish it. When I was working on this I ended up reading some of it and it was so good

[@zalfenior]

This was chilling. You could narrate audiobooks or do a podcast and make bank.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

I’ve been thinking about it honestly! Or something similar like that!

[@The_Superior_Self]

I gotta get that book seams like a fun time.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

it is, while doing this I ended up reading some of it and its a trip.

[@zekeram129]

Madness? *THIS. IS. SPARTA!*

[@cactusnarwhal8628]

I haven’t read house of leaves, but the second the segment at 1:36 made me recognize it immediately. This makes me want to check it out so bad. Incredible job at not only VA, but editing too

[@whilenya4714]

Thank you for reminding that I still need to _finish_ House of Leaves. That book has languished in my shelf because I just cannot get past a certain point. Here I go again, I guess.

[@ajserok7687]

10/10 horror. Encapsulates one common perspective of the novel in all its unabated glory. Hits hard with the lights off!

[@AngriestSeal]

I loved the way you emphasize feelings with pictures, we should really do that more often, like kids picture books but with heavier topics Amazing stuff!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

I agree and thank you! Tried my best to convey those in a way from some feedback I got during my class.

[@TheDoomMaster]

What I told my therapist before I got locked in a padded cell for the rest of my days

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

LMAO

[@ToxikBox]

Had to stop when scrolling, immediately recognized the quote, this is great

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank u!

[@nedglitch6137]

This feels like something straight from a nightmare I had once. Didn't know this was actually from a book but DAMN this is terrifying.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Glad I was able to get that feeling across!

[@lamidene8139]

God I love this book. Beyond all the mysteries and codes and layers it’s just that Johnnys story really resonated with me.

[@yurlocalstupido6762]

I love the narrators voice he sounds like mamamax but awesome

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

It’s my voice! Yeah I try to get the narration on point for things like this, it’s very fun

[@yurlocalstupido6762]

@@Hi_ImAwkward ok that’s pretty epic well you gotta pretty cool voice I tell ya what

[@ainthebrain]

KZbin casually reminding me I need to finish reading house of leaves

[@calvinyurko]

God damn, it's like you took how this book lives in my mind and put it on screen for 3 minutes and 4 seconds. Hats off.

[@yeastful]

"Birthright" It's not for you.

[@gravidust.2]

Another 3am algorithm banger

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Hell yeahhh

[@muchosconfuzzlement8258]

HOUSE OF LEAVES HOUSE OF LEAVES MY FAVORITE BOOK OF ALL TIME did you did you know that the first letter of each footnote spells out DANIELWELSKIDANIELWELSKIDANIELWELSKI over and over because i do i could just think about this book forever BANGER video btw

[@Alisibeth_Talia212]

House of Leaves? I haven't touched this book in a while, damn.

[@kenziehasintimacyissues]

Good grief. I want to read House of Leaves so bad, I just don't know where to get it.

[@enriquejoseantequerasanche6180]

Joke is on you, I've been swimming in madness since I can remember, I didn't know sanity until I was a man. I know all too well of pain like that. This is definitely for me. Now seriously, magnificent work, whoever qualified it better have given you 10/10, it would make anyone's skin crawl and I'm saving it for my roleplaying (currently GMing a game about regretful ghosts that can't move on)

[@kkkaTheIdiot]

Hits like a door you find in your living room, like a bullet going through a man, like the inevitable call back to the house, like the insanity that never ends? This was great, i love how you jumped around the book, considering how convoluted and confusing the read is, this pays omen, as well as the great va and editting, props

[@kovi-kovi-viko]

"This is not for you." I feel as though the aftermath would be something like "I did it for me. I liked it, and I was good at it. I was alive." this is a really good video though, algorithm brought me here, and I recall hearing about the house of leaves somewhere. maybe I should read the entire thing fully sometime.

[@truetentic]

This is so good! It’s so well edited: the audio and the visuals. I also loved instantly recognising the “this is not for you” quote on my home page. I just recently started read house of leaves and oh boy am I in for a ride

[@HikiOmo]

Me when im insane????? Jesus christ i feel called out

[@NoBody-bx4cp]

The Algorithm has granted you the spotlight, and in my opinion, you shone bright. I could feel it physically through the whole thing. I'm DEFINITELY giving your channel a look!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank you so much!

[@TheBlueReverb]

I was watching KZbin on my tv while scrolling through my phone, only to find this video. Incredible, even if I haven't read House of Leaves.

[@ChumpstickCharlie]

Madness? This. Is. SPARRTAAA!

[@Birdsoumds]

I’d recognize that phrase anywhere

[@fearofthechippan]

This was divine. Perfectly captures the horror I felt reading ​🇭​​🇴​​🇺​​🇸​​🇪​of Leaves. Love love love it

[@Lord-.-69]

I feel like this was for me... Seeing as how madness is something I'm quite familiar with

[@GHOSERDUDE]

This is giving disco elysium

[@cashanstuffco5387]

as someone who writes stories about pushing people to the brink i think this might be for a fella like me

[@monsterhunter4398]

This is my favorite book of all time, and you very much did it justice. I love this, you did a truly amazing job with this

[@TheDestroyer55e]

wait a minute, ive heard of this book before, the bizarre page layout is familiar. but i cannot think of when or why or how i would have heard of it.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

It’s called house of leaves!

[@_pyxeled]

If you watched that one video going over the doom mod Myhouse.wad, it’s mentioned in there! (And if you haven’t, you should! It’s great)

[@anidiot4702]

i fecking love house of leaves

[@mmyr8ado.360]

For a second there the first part would just devolve into a This is Sparta remix from repeating the word madness over and over. House of Leaves is underrated gem, though I haven't read it myself.

[@dragon-id5uj]

Do you often form opinions on things you haven't put the time and effort into experiencing? Or is this out of the ordinary for you?

[@mmyr8ado.360]

@@dragon-id5uj hey pot

[@Howlflame]

This might not be for me, but I sure as hell watched it. Excellent work! Was the text from something, or did you write it yourself?

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank you! And yeah it was actually from a few books!

[@hajebde8282]

​@@Hi_ImAwkwardwhat books can i ask? honestly im not that much of a book reader, but after watching this its definitely intrigued me in reading again so

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

@@hajebde8282 so the main one I used is called “House of Leaves” it’s a VERY interesting book. But it’s way different than most. And the other one is a poem book called “Milk and Honey”

[@craftyearthythe2nd]

It ain't even midnight yet and this hidden gem somehow already found me.

[@ech9817]

Nothing has made me wanna read a book more Edit: aside from maybe Jacob Geller

[@thepangremlin6707]

The only reason I knew what this was about is because my sister recently bought this book and I flipped through the pages. Recognised the pattern the text was placed lol Hated the first half, as a claustrophobic person that situation would be my nightmare 💀

[@Conkel]

Absolute banger of a book! Great vid it got me feeling that unsettling vibe that i like about horror.

[@xennyth]

i am a simple man. i see house of leaves, i click

[@LEKA873]

This will be my new usual 2am

[@MisakiMusashi]

Sighs… “Did I ever tell you the definition of insanity”

[@EFO841]

oh cool! an homage to my favorite found footage film

[@Randomidiotlol]

I don’t regret stopping by to watch this in my KZbin recommended.

[@ElsaRawson]

was reading house of leaves, instantly thought of it at the 5th second of the video yet I didn’t even get to those parts

[@ThePumpkinMan359]

bru how do you edit like that man😭😭(its really good) also idk what i watched but like (you earned a sub)

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Honestly it’s years of just figuring out what I’m doing LMAO but thank u!

[@BeeTheTravler]

watching this as soon as i finish the book

[@seanrosenau2088]

Madness. Madness? THIS IS SPARTA!!!

[@MrGermandeutsch]

What a beautiful channel. Subscribed! Already halfway to 1k!

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank u!

[@cantripcan]

omg, took me a hot minute to realize this was house of leaves, nice video!

[@anapaulamendozadiaz8890]

NOBODY TELLS ME WHAT TO DO!!!

[@whyburntoast]

trully the houses of the welcome

[@drowned_minds]

this is excellent content, can't wait for more!

[@whatishappening4436]

ONLY 5K VIEWS???? Dude this is sick as hell ! Love how your brain works !!!

[@UnderTheRated]

I should really read House of Leaves sometime

[@eow4317]

Someone should make a doom 2 mod about this book

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Yoo that would be such a great idea, they should also have some sort of arg element to it as well

[@pdninja3338]

the madness consumes us all eventually! >:3

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

I agree :D

[@bluestonebest1893]

i m not subscribed, did not search anything scary, didn't got into creepypasta or anything... youtube: "this is not for you." me: okay i click. well seems like i needed it.

[@georgeofhamilton]

Wild video for a wild book.

[@BlockedUser1]

I have no idea what i watched but im invested already.

[@rudyslav3844]

where from is the "i'm undoing you from my skin" line? Is it from the whalestone letters? I've finished the house of leaves today and I'm sure that part wasn't there.

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

It’s actually from another book! This was an assignment for one of my classes and we had to pair some books together and create something I decided to create a narrative from it. But yeah that line is from a poem book and what not. And what are you thoughts on house of leaves since you finished it?

[@rudyslav3844]

@@Hi_ImAwkward Men, when I heard about it I just thought "looks like I found my favourite book" and it was true. I love the way it's written, I love all the secrets, like on the front of the book there is actual text about brutal death of all navidson family members yet it doesen't happen inside the book. I cannot express how much I love it. Also nice work with stitchinch together two diffrent books, all the lines you chosed fit so well with Johnny mother madness.

[@keiidt]

holy hell this is cool i need to read house of leaves immediately

[@rocking_lol]

didn’t expect youtube to recommend me this but it is interesting 👍

[@sarahdunfist9148]

KZbin algorithm W...but damn this freaked me out it's 2am

[@Somerandomjingleberry]

At first I didn’t recognize what this was, almost wondering if it was just an edgelord post, but then I saw the name Navidson and was like “oh hell yeah *House* of Leaves” I still need to get that book someday

[@theendarkenedilluminatus4342]

😂

[@TheParadoxGamer1]

Well this was a treat to find.

[@requ1emYBA]

bros playing amnesia the dark descent 🙏

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

SOMEONE FINALLY NOTICED IT Well it’s actually an add on for Garry’s mod but still My roommate was like “it would be so funny if someone noticed it” and I was waiting for someone to notice LMAO

[@theendarkenedilluminatus4342]

1:11 😂😂😂 pure gold! Incidentally in case you're wondering and I promise you this isn't meant to be an ad for the server or anything, though it is a fantastic server and I would advertise for it for free, just wanted to let you know how big your potential audience is, I found this video from the official Thelema discord server. Essence of Carly Simon. Posted on 3/3/9. But you knew all that already

[@UpTheIrons12]

This gave me chills 😮

[@theblacksilence]

is that last part from the book too :((( i don't remember clearly :((( nice video tho!!!

[@GeorgeHor-uu7ql]

This is basically walk through the narrow gate. Matthew 7:13-14

[@vegetalinurwalls]

This is genuinely amazing woaah very yumy

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Thank you!

[@trueluscao]

This is Art

[@ladyedraven]

Interesting. You had me at hello. What a fascinating piece. Sending love

[@creatorglitch]

i want the book now

[@faefae6254]

Weird thing in my 4am recommended

[@AiyleConfusio0n]

I had no idea what this is, or what's the context behind all those quotes, but man that made my skin crawl a little bit XD

[@Hi_ImAwkward]

Lmao, it’s from a book called house of leaves and another briefly used called “milk and honey” And glad it was able to XD

[@FatherOfTheFatherless]

The algorythem has had another rare strike of gold

[@lplasters]

I want this book

[@what-6704]

I stopped the video and kept hearing noises. I shitted myself then realized it's just the stupid coquette that lives on my roof.

[@tempestwolf067]

From: Hel "HAHA! You Gotta Stop! All I Can Hear Is screaming from another room echoing Echoing echoing "Hey! I need your help!" or with bad breath in Your face "I neeeeeed you". Etc, etc. Feels so Special! "I'm needed! SEE!? HE needs me!" I See the End of a Tunnel That Swiftly Grows dark. Sounds Different There Frayed Exhausted End of the Line That Is Not Need and You're barely Surviving You Felt Like I Don't Even Care Because That's Not a thing I Say Wouldn't It Be Nice To Live That Reprieve? A Partner Who just Loves You Doesn't Need You For a thing"

[@user-wv1cz7un7q]

fire reading! holy shit.

[@titanking6286]

Masterpiece

[@objectanimatoruhhhh]

sooooooo relatable 🤣🤣🤣

[@SolomonMagnus819]

M A G N U S

[@Sludgefriend]

Chills. My god