(EMOTIONAL) Everything Has Changed *cancer*

[@tiffanythinks]

Hi my loving tiffanythinks family. This video is very emotional, I feel like I was crying the whole way through. I kept in most of the clips when I was editing. I do feel like letting everything out has made me stronger mentally & physically. Thank you for your love and patience with me. we got this💙 IG, FB & TikTok: @tiffanythinks. Subscribe💙 I love you a lot a lot a lot

[@PranaadhikaSinhaDevburman]

Sending you lots of love, Tiffany. I hope you read this. I am so proud of you, and am so in awe of your strength. Wishing you well and sending my best wishes to Super Amma and Awesome Matt

[@jamiehromas]

Watching now. Big hugs

[@jen-lq3wc]

You are doing amazing 😍 sending you so much love and admiration your way 🥰💙💙

[@carolinemccabe8297]

We love you 😍 ❤ 💜 ♥ 💕

[@glittergirl84]

We love you a lot a lot a lot 💙💙💙

[@alinathomas1208]

Heyy Tif! (doctor here) I don't know if you are going through the same emotional struggle today as you are going through in the video but I just want to let you know that these feelings are normal. Your body is going through a lot of stress both physically and emotionally. a lot of the feelings you're feeling is to do with your body trying to cope with the right hormones and neurotransmitters. The anxiety you are feeling is just a side effect of all the stress hormones running through your body trying to keep it alive and functioning whilst you are healing from a major surgery. the point of me telling you this is hopefully so that you see that this too shall pass. you are in the process of healing. there is nothing wrong with you feeling these feelings. Its not your fault you are feeling anxious and there may be nothing you can do to get rid of it immediately. sometimes in these times the best thing we can do for ourselves is first of all pray and give all these feelings and worries to God because He cares for you, and also to accept that you are going through physical trauma right now and that it will take time, and all of this will be a distant memory one day. Feed your mind with good things. You never know, one day when you are super healthy and back to work and busy, you will be thankful for this time of rest that God gave you. Make the most of this time now (I know that might sound like a sucky thing to say making this look like a great time in your life when its actually really tough) but just know there is a reason for season, there is a time for everything. We may not understand it all right now but one day there will be an amazing lesson you learn out of all this which you will probably pass onto someone else who is going through a similar tough situation. And this will for sure bring you closer to God which is amazing! May your test become your testimony! Sending you lots of love! You are so loved and prayed for.

[@kaputz8107]

Your grammar is off for being a physician 🤣

[@elizabethconroy7665]

Amen Thank you,Doctor

[@barbaranjang3730]

Thanks for ur words. As u wrote it to Tiffany. I needed this words too Thanks. A lot 💙💙💙

[@Myra3338]

Amen. Thank you so much. Bless you, and all the Tiffany Thinks family.

[@carolinelvsewe]

Tiffany, how nice of this doctor to take time to reassure you and give you great hope for the future. It is there waiting for you. Feel the feelings and become “friends” with your scars. Maybe name them, personalities from the show Friends!!🌟 After all you need a light moment. Also, have your very good friends from Uni come by. Embrace your community. They will cheer you up. This surgery doesn’t define you. Much love and 🤗s.

[@julierigby2827]

Hi Tiffany, I really hope you see my message as I have gone through the same surgery you have had back in October, (I am from Australia) so it’s so good to be able to relate with someone that has gone through the same experience. Your emotions and physical situations are extremely similar to what I dealt with. With the drain holes I had similar experiences with them weeping and bleeding but cleaning them everyday and treating with betadine helped a lot and with time will heal. I also felt extremely puffed when doing things, even making a coffee was a difficult task and had to sit down straight away after making it, I felt useless as well not been able to do the simplest things, like washing up and putting things away so had to rely on family to help and hated not been able to do this! Every week I started to get a bit more energy and 3 months later I am cooking, light cleaning, driving, and starting to get my life back. Even going out for drives now and going out with my husband for lunch and a sneaky wine! We are even going a a small holiday in April something I never thought would ever be possible! Be patient with yourself and things will get better week by week and you will be like me it just takes time!!!! and if you ever want to reach out and ask, ‘what happened when this happened and what happened with that, please feel free, It does feel good when you have have someone that has been through similar experiences. You are so strong and you definitely have got this 💙 Julie

[@catpuccino6186]

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[@Halfsteppin1]

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[@m.coline]

think you just threw a lifeline to our dear Tiffany.She sounds like she really needs to talk to someone who really understands what she's going through, and since you went through the same thing, I think it would greatly benefit Tiffany.I understand that such a trauma evokes many different emotions, but I don't think Tiffany is allowing herself to relax, and too just accept that she is her own master.She used th phrase,"allowed to ", but as I said, she is the boss of her own life.She will do what she can do, on any given day, I just hope she takes you up on your generous offer. WE all love Tiffany and it hurts to see her so miserable.😔🩵🩵

[@saimanaeem2988]

Solute

[@bagscomeandbagsgo2343]

Keeping this post on top so Tiffany sees it!

[@pourquoipas971]

Hi as a french psychiatrist i hope you can go to psychology sessions, even see a psychiatrist because what your are facing so bravely is very tough … a very long stress and life threatening situation can be considered as PTSD. Everybody here knows how brave you are, you and your family, but is it enough? It is not a normal situation that you are experiencing, your feelings are very understandable, and indeed you are an amazing young lady. But you should get any help you can ! I hope you will get better, soon. Stay focus on your recovery. Pascale

[@barbaratownsend645]

When I was going thru my colo-rectal cancer journey I spent some time mourning my old life and body. I needed to say goodbye to the old me and hello to who I was now, no rectum no vagina, bedsores, constantly weak and with “chemo fog”. It took me two years to feel “normal” again. It took even longer to lose the fear that came along with all the diagnosis, pain and procedures. You will survive this. Be kind to yourself. Love yourself. Let others be strong for you as well.

[@janeharrington8615]

What a positive life experience you have laid out for Tiffany, showing her there is a full recovery on the horizon and she will overcome this . She will not be physically the same as before but just as beautiful and strong and loving as her old self with so much to give to her family and others. I’m happy that you are doing so well. Take care.

[@margaretohara7250]

@@janeharrington8615 In times of great hardship, from my experience in life, we are given untold strength and people come into our lives who are mysterious and angelic. So, we are not alone, ever. Blessings galore.

[@janeharrington8615]

@@margaretohara7250 I love that,it’s so true.

[@bethcox6940]

Wow you to have been though so very much thank you hopefully it will help our Tiffany 💙

[@margaretohara7250]

@@janeharrington8615 Thank you. Poor Tiffany - so young and so much happening in her life. God has a plan. I have witnessed quite often what prayers do.. Let's keep Praying for her. Her poor mom and Matt need prayers as well. Blessings galore to you and your family.

[@alisajordan1244]

I don't know if your oncologist offers counseling, but today, I took mine up on it. I just got to a point in my cancer journey that I recognized that I need help to deal with these feelings. It is not a weakness but a strength to be able to ask for help. Love and prayers, Tiffany.

[@susanstones347]

🙏🏻 for you

[@revitalzarur7956]

Good luck to you 😊

[@trafficbabe]

Great advise Tiff!

[@soo1621]

good advice, please speak to one of your doctors about your depression episodes. i also feel this might be menopause. you spoke of hot flashes previously, and that and mood swings and depression are all part of it. i'm thinking your past chemo put you into menopause, and one thing i experienced with menopause was the crying and not knowing why. God Bless you !

[@rachelyoung834]

Hi Tiff (nurse here) I just wanted to offer some reassuring words to you. How you are feeling is completely normal and to be expected. I don’t know if you are still feeling these emotions, if they have improved or if you are having good and bad days, but all this is absolutely normal. Recovering from such a big operation takes it toll on our bodies, both physically and emotionally because you are having to adjust to new ways of doing things and that takes time. You have some wonderful people around you who love you unconditionally and you love them unconditionally in return and that in itself will allow you to heal. Asking for help really doesn’t mean you weak, accepting help will allow you to carry on healing and it will allow them to feel of use. You keep being you, doing what you feel comfortable with and know that you are surrounded by love and support. You are an absolute shining star and you should be incredibly proud of yourself! Stay strong.. xxxxx

[@kindnessmatters604]

Did anyone tell you that when you have parts of yourself removed, you grieve? Even when the parts aren't useful never mind when you've had such a major surgery. Be kind to yourself. You will feel better but you need to know, it's normal to need alone time and it is absolutely normal to feel sad. You are doing so well. Han in there.

[@lolly5453]

Such a sweet, sensitive and intelligent comment. Tiff is so lucky to have kind understanding supporters backing her thru this difficult journey. 💙🙏🏼✨

[@indigomoon777]

Grief is so appropriate here. I am hearing you and seeing you. I am witnessing your journey! You all need to process. And rest.?Sending love & gentle hugs from the mighty Pacific in San Diego, CA USA.

[@kimheath5238]

Such a helpful comment. I had forgotten that I did grieve after my hysterectomy. I didn't want more kids, but I still grieved. That would have been so helpful to know back then. (Certainly not comparing to what Tiffany is going through.)💙💙💙

[@adrakazee4497]

That is so very true. I had the same surgery. You go through so many emotions.

[@turquoise1162]

I really feel like counselling is something you need to consider. Offloading to a professional and getting your feelings off your chest and even receiving some professional advice will only help your mental recovery after going through what you've gone through. I feel like it is something you have needed for a while, but now more than ever. You won't be bottling things up or be left feeling like you're burdening Matt or Amma with how you feel (like I know you've mentioned before) and as you say in your video, asking for help is not a sign of weakness. It may feel strange to start but it will make you feel less lonely and can really make a huge difference. I really hope you are able to get the help and support you need lovely girl. We got this

[@marilynpalosaari2387]

Agreed 💙💙

[@mda1501]

I worked many years as an adult and pediatric oncology RN. I saw so many serious surgeries and life altering procedures that our patients endured. It was never, ever easy for any of my patients. They fought hard with many setbacks along the way. I was always amazed at their fortitude, strength, and courage as they now focused on life's new journey. I saw the emotions, frustrations, and yes, the joy of achieving a new milestone. I can't tell you it's going to get any easier, but there are others who have walked your path. Reach out to them, talk to them, and hear how they coped. Of course, your extended worldwide family loves you and wishes you, as always, blessings and prayers. We will be there with you across the miles, always here and always willing to listen.

[@praitchett]

I thought I was having a tough day until I watched this. Your journey gives me so much appreciation for everything we take for granted. You are a very special and amazing lady, we love you a lot a lot a lot xxx

[@susanbennett9062]

Tiff teaches us gratitude.

[@adascraps]

@praitchett so wise spoken and so true

[@rebeccajones6719]

I had a life-changing spinal injury so I think I understand a very small amount of what you're feeling Tiffany. My physio once said something to me in my darkest time that really helped so I will share it with you. Yes, you are a warrior. That could never be in doubt. But don't forget to take stock of your armoury. Your family and supporters are your weapons, your arsenal, your spears and arrows. You have not one, but two incredible people fighting in your corner. Maybe one day you will be their back up when they need it. But for now, let them go into battle for you. Love is powerful. Healing and strength will come with time, I promise you that. Let Amma and Matt be strong for you while you are not. A solid unbreakable triangle. I hope you read this and find some peace from it. I will be sending you healing white Reiki light this evening at 9pm as ever x

[@DefiantAngel87]

Wise words.

[@samanthasmile8150]

That’s really beautiful xxxx

[@Ragt0p]

Where I live, the cancer foundation has a programme called «equals». It’s where pepole having gone through cancer volunteers to talk to people in the middle of their battle. It can be very healing, for both parties. If that is a thing in the UK, perhaps it can help you, or you can help others when you feel stronger? You have such a sweet, empathic nature 💙💙💙

[@shinew7185]

@Ragt0p - What an awesome suggestion. I hope Tiffany sees your post bc “equals” is quite empowering to a person battling cancer.. and to the survivors too. My best friend received a cervical cancer diagnosis which was rather aggressive. I took her to every doctor appointment and I sat with her through every chemo/radiation treatment.. etc. I got this idea one day and I bought the cutest blue jean canvas handbags along with a variety of colorful character patches, peace signs, cancer ribbons, flowers (etc..) along with bunches of sewing needles and embroidery threads. I gave each person in my friends chemo room a handbag with the objective that it would occupy their minds and time getting through their sessions. It actually worked, there were ppl who lagged behind just to finish the last couple stitches on a patch or free style design they had started. LoL The best part of their creative processes is that it got everyone talking to each other while their hands were busy.. when they had never really spoken before. There were at least 10 women in that chemo room who were clearly nervous every time they showed up (as I would be too in their shoes) and the most that was ever said was “hello” and then the room went silent as they were being hooked up to their meds for the next hour or so. When they had an option to do something other than sit there and worry, it really changed the game. My best friend felt refreshed after her chemo sessions bc she got to talk with other ppl dealing with the same issues.. cancer. This made me start thinking, I could spend all day with my bestie and I could support her the best way I knew how but at the end of the day I was merely her cheerleader, I didn’t know what it felt like to have cancer and all the scary and unsure thoughts that go along with it.. so I signed her up with something similar to “equals.” She was reluctant to go at first but I explained to her that the one thing I couldn’t give her was relatability, I didn’t know how it felt to batter cancer but the people at those meetings did. I sat in on the first meeting with her so she’d be comfortable but after that, she went by herself twice a week and it really helped her a lot. I still stood by her side and taking her to those meetings was just part of it, I couldn’t give her that relatability and those meetings turned into such an important process of her journey. I truly hope that Tiffany reads your post and looks into finding something similar in her area bc like I said before, it’s quite empowering. 👍🏼😊 Edit: Spending time away from a caregiver is a must bc they start to feel like a burden no matter how many times you say that you love them and it simply isn’t true. Those meetings are also good for getting out of the house for awhile and having something that solely belongs them and no one else.

[@margaretohara7250]

Fantastic information.

[@alexj4556]

At the beginning of her journey she said she didn’t want to talk to anyone who went through cancer or was going through cancer. I don’t know if that changed

[@Mirily]

Remember aswell that if you had a hysterectomy as part of your operation, the sudden onset of the menopause can really affect your emotions and could be contributing to how you're feeling. It will pass though lovely, just as everything else will. Just go with it, allow yourself to go through the emotions. It's part of your healing process. We are all here for you and sending you so much love. We got this 💙

[@lzal9204]

Exactly what I was going to say. Instant menopause is no joke.

[@trisharamsey5419]

I agree! That it itself is a lot to deal with.

[@sherrlon]

I wrote that in another one of her videos. I hope she reads these, and it gives her some insight. I had a hysterectomy and ovary removal when I was in my mid 40s and days and weeks after surgery my emotions were all over the place from the sudden drop in hormones. Some of the anxiety, crying and anger can be from the hormonal change. I wanted her to understand some of it may be beyond her control, as it is a physiological response.

[@trafficbabe]

Pain meds too. Prolonged use like she has needed can make you feel crazy, and sad

[@gayled1169]

Did she? I did not think she actually said exactly what was removed once the surgery was done.

[@mariainct8514]

Beautiful Tiffany ❣️. I'm a psychologist and everything you are feeling is completely normal. Just think for a moment of all you have been through not just with the surgery but everything in the past year. It's A LOT!! What just your body alone has been through is massive. Add all the emotional upheaval on top of it and it's like being trapped on a rollercoaster that you can't get off of. It's frustrating not to be able to do things for yourself. I understand that feeling. You are getting stronger every day but when you have a tough day it's ok to let yourself feel angry or sad or frustrated. It's great that you share those feelings in your vlogs. Getting your feelings out is a good thing. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone, I am here. Just let me know and I will send you my contact info. This is a difficult journey, but each and every day you get through is a win. You can do this!!! WE GOT THIS 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@jodeming5088]

Thank you for your beautiful response to Tiffany. I wish we could all just hug her.!

[@mariainct8514]

Thanks. She definitely has that effect on people.

[@thatscoliosisgirl8050]

Tiffany- although I haven’t been in your exact situation, I can deeply relate to how you’re feeling. I had a major back injury which required 3 major surgeries within 8 days. The next 2 years were the hardest years of my life. I became a shell of myself. I lost my job, lost my friends, lost the body I knew, lost my purpose completely. It almost took my life. I believe it was a combination of medication (and getting off medication which is absolute hell), huge life changes, acute/ chronic pain, and feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness. I survived and came out on the other side a much stronger person. I can honestly say I’m thriving. Don’t lose hope. My relationship with Jesus is better than ever, and I have joy again in my life. Sending you SO much love.. We got this!!! 💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@crystalxyz3286]

I love your beautiful testimony, for Tiffany and others. God Bless 🙏💖

[@MTknitter22]

Oh you give so much Glory to Our Lord Jesus with such a victorious testimony!!! What an encouragement!! 🌹🌹🦅🦅💪💪🙌🏻

[@jaynekittycat9252]

You have been through a lot Tiffany. Give yourself time to heal. You could do with talking to a counsellor about how you feel. Your hormones are all over the place. Love you lots Tiffany.💙💙💙

[@BelleOfAmherst]

Agree, therapy does help. Recovery from any health challenge is easier with physical, occupational & therapy to process what’s happening in you. Great idea! 💙💙💙

[@pjk1714]

They were crashing at that point unable to produce. I lived it myself. Until I had the patch, it was hard.

[@too_tired_for_this]

Hi Tiff, I have 2 very important things to tell you. I hope you read this. First, it’s an honor for your family to help you. I’m sure that it brings them joy to help you do what you want. They *want* to help and take care of you. Second, I really want you to access mental health care. It sounds like you’re feeling a bit depressed, and having someone neutral to talk to can be a relief. I love you, and I want the best for you.

[@cherrymetha3185]

A little while ago before her surgery when Tiffany was crying and very upset , I posted detailed information, where she could get help for her mental health. The Royal Marsden hospital where Tiffany is a patient have an excellent support system . My friend had used it too. I don’t know if Tiffany accessed it . I agree with your advice to her x Many women suffer alone and there’s no reason to . There’s help out there . 💖💚

[@sallybryant2557]

Dear sweet Tiffany, you have been through so much. Do not think that you are selfish because you have kept to yourself. You are the one that knows best what you need. You have been so brave and courageous. You are doing the right thing looking after yourself. We all love you and are still praying for you. You’ve got this. Love and hugs from the USA

[@sallyparsons3374]

Amen to Amma and Matt loving caring for you xxx

[@SoriahsASMRTingleWonderland]

I agree, please see a mental health professional. They will be able to help you greatly. Keeping things all to yourself and letting your thoughts run all over the place does not help. Let a therapist or psychologist guide you during this time. They might even want to try some psychotherapy such as CBT or EMDR if any of this has caused some trauma, from a mental health perspective. You are a strong person but everyone needs mental help sometimes. This might be your time.

[@cherrymetha3185]

@@SoriahsASMRTingleWonderland You’re 100% right . Our darling Tiffany was upset and crying before surgery and now she’s upset and crying again. It’s normal for her to feel like this due to what she’s been through . And that’s why The Royal Marsden offer a counselling service . They know how patients will feel . Women tend to ‘soldier on ‘ and that’s not healthy. You may feel good and think you’re okay but it will come back . I’m aware that there’s still a stigma regarding mental health but unless we talk about it and normalise it , it will continue to be almost taboo. 💚

[@Stalemarshmallow]

Sweet Tiffany you are grieving and I understand. Not completely because I’m not a cancer patient, but because I had a psychotic episode when I was younger and suffered temporary brain damage and I had to grieve my healthy self. I’ve since learned to accept and embrace my new reality and manage my issues so I can live. I know you are doing the same. You’re so brave ❤❤❤❤

[@dianeperez3188]

No need to explain, I’m going through my own major surgery recovery from cancer. I understand it when you say you feel lonely, you can have a herd of people around you but nobody is feeling your pain and your fight for life. Yes we will survive, but the journey seems everlasting. It’s ok to cry, don’t be so hard on yourself sweet girl. These moments will get less and less. Pray for strength and courage. I don’t know what I would do without my husband, I can’t imagine going through this alone, so we’re very blessed. Take care Tiffany my thoughts and prayers are with you, also for your darling and your mom

[@boxerspause]

After my cancer surgery, I disassociated for about a year. My life had changed so much and people other than family and even them, just didn’t understand. My life seemed so removed from everybody else living their everyday lives. Give yourself the time to heal physically, emotionally and mentally.

[@csc1641]

Unless you've been through cancer, it is hard to explain and understand. There is a club of us that understands. It's a club we don't want to belong to but we understand, Tiffany. This video is hitting me hard because I have experienced everything you are going through in this video. It gets better Tiffany, hang in there.

[@patdaniell5528]

yes I have too and still am all the whys if and buts which there is not always an answer to x take care

[@happydays7143]

Take care of yourselves and thank you for sharing and helping - it's so encouraging to hear.peoples experiences. Lots of love and blessings to you all Xx

[@iamwinningrightnow]

Club can, this club sucks! However, lets face it/them with force. Much love to ALL the club members. Our membership is life long, but we got this!

[@anamariabradley1742]

It does🦋🦋!!!!

[@claritytruth445]

Personally, I am genuinely happy and grateful to be part of the club; 💜 Cancer brings out the best in me!

[@floflocarnivore]

I am going through my menopause and I'm really struggling. You are going through that and so so much more. Please give yourself some credit as you are such a strong inspirational woman and things are going to be so good for you in the future. Please give yourself a break and don't apologise for crying. We all love you Tiff 😍 xx

[@ilonaniinemae4735]

I'v got a lot of help for menopause symptoms from recommended natural herbal supplements when I joined one of the peri/menopause groups on FB.

[@pilarorozco2737]

I had septicemia and I’m alive thank God and I can understand your feeling it lasted 6 months of this life and death feeling and I had such a terrible anxiety of the unknown…and cried a lot so please don’t feel bad it’s only natural and human to feel like you do precious Tiffany…everything is going to be alright sweet girl!! I love you from Mexico City🙏🏻Pili🌹♥️🫶☀️

[@teach4him841]

In response to the kind doctor’s post……we need doctors like this so much! You demonstrated a level of compassion that touched Tiffany (I am sure) and so many others…May God bless you for this❤

[@normabyde4766]

Please God a month has gone by since you wrote this, and you are feeling a lot better. You came home so early after massive surgery and if you were still in hospital you’d be still a bed bound patient, so it’s no wonder you are feeling so bad at this stage. Even the hysterectomy alone would make you so vulnerable. You are doing wonderfully considering everything you’ve gone through. Xxxxxx

[@ga6589]

Your mind and body have been through significant trauma, Tiffany, and you're entitled to have all the feelings that you're experiencing. My husband is a stage 4 cancer patient and he says he feels trapped by this disease, even though he's thankfully in remission. For him, it's something like claustrophobia- all the medications, procedures, appointments, tests, side effects, and the just plain never-ending worry and uncertainty of it all that close in. Sending you my best wishes for continued health and healing! 🥰

[@rebeccabriggs2982]

I understand that to a degree. I have some form of claustrophobia where the inner angst/terror/horrible feeling I from having to be trapped anywhere for any length of time. Ie I don't mind the dental work so much it's the fact I know I can't get up and leave for that amount of time. I can't have a regular job as trapped all day leads to insomnia etc. Can't stand anything stuck on my body like a ring or a tight gumboot I can't get off.

[@xXHarleyMaeMcAfeeXx]

You have stayed strong for so long, your body is desperately trying to release all of the built up pain, both emotional and physical. Your body isn’t dumb, you might have been out of it and heavily medicated during your surgery but your body knows something major has just happened to it! Let the tears flow, don’t resist them, just let them come and go and acknowledge how you are feeling but don’t dwell on it. You’ve been in survival mode and now you’re in the very tricky stage of processing what you’ve been through, and are now going through in the safer, post surgery part of your journey. Everything is temporary and this is one chapter of your book. The best is yet to come, we got this! ❤

[@thehouseofjane]

Big hugs Tiffany. I went through treatment with a similar cancer in 2014 but I didn’t have surgery. I did 27 radiation treatments and chemo. When treatment was over I was bruised & burned & shot. At first I didn’t do much but sleep, pain killers and tv. Then I just started walking, just in my backyard and everyday I got stronger. You are young but you are so strong and kind. Rest and don’t feel guilty for anything. Over time, things will improve, I promise. The whole world loves you and you definitely got this. Hugs, Lisa

[@nogardamai5684]

Surgery recovery can be so rough. I had a big surgery years ago and totally remember that frustration of literally every little tiny thing like sitting up, getting out of bed, going to the toilet or anything seeming so impossible and difficult. It’s absolutely ok to cry about it. If it helps at all, it DOES get better. Patience is so hard but one day you will look back and think wow, remember that time, what an amazing thing I made it through. You are doing so well 💙

[@robynfiner]

You do you whatever that is.

[@stephaniewalsh67]

You have been through so much Tiffany. Allow yourself to feel sad and maybe even angry. So sorry your going through this.💜

[@SJ47668]

I think it’s wonderful that you are so open and honest about what you are going through. So many people die because they are embarrassed to talk about bowel and anal cancers. You speaking so openly in such a matter-of-fact way is going to help break down embarrassment and perhaps encourage someone else to seek help and to cope with the symptoms and embarrassment should they be afflicted. I’m so sorry you are going through this - but am in awe of how you are coping.

[@charliebarrow7086]

I fully agree. Courageous lady she is...

[@sandrajustus1247]

My cancer surgery is scheduled for Monday February 20th. I have felt dis-associated for a while now. 🙏🙏 praying for you.

[@naiaaiello]

I hardly comment here but I'm here to say you're so strong and loved! I just wish you all the health and good things on this recovery journey. We love you!!!!!! We admire you so much for sharing and I think EVERYONE here (and even the ones that don't comment) are rooting for you with all our hearts!

[@helenburgin3613]

You are still amazing in my eyes Tiffany, sending lots of love on your road of recovery xx 😘

[@jojob211]

I see a person who is emotional and very human. I don’t see how anyone could go through what YOU are going through without the roller coaster of emotions! Honestly Tiffany, you have been so brave. Don’t feel you have to perform for anyone or for your followers. You are dealing with a lot right now. Do what you feel You need to do right now and no more. You are too hard on yourself. If you don’t want to talk to anyone then don’t. Right now it really is ALL ABOUT YOU resting and dealing at your own pace with change. Hang in there Tiffany. God bless you. You have got this. You are doing great! Shut out all the noise right now so you can just rest. Hang in there! Joanne in Chicago USA

[@susanbennett9062]

Thank you for writing this .

[@jojob211]

@@susanbennett9062 ❤️

[@divahc1]

Good morning, Tiffany- it's 5:00 am here on the east coast of Australia. You are dealing with so much. Yet, you still stay in touch with your YT family. You are an exceptional young woman. Thinking of others when you are going through such challenges. Sometimes, when our bodies are so compromised, we simply do not have the emotional and mental energy, in particular, to talk. Words just won't come. I have a number of chronic illnesses and there was a time when I was often the same. The phone would ring, and I wouldn't answer (long before mobile phones). Also, sleeping isn't really "doing nothing". It's listening to your body and giving it the rest it needs for healing. Asking for help also helps your loved ones to feel needed and gives them something practical to do. It's hard to not feel as if you can help ease your loved one's suffering. You are not "useless"- you are doing everything you must do so you will be there in the future for Matt, Ammah and all of your family and friends. What if you had a calendar, with squares, and each day record the thing you did that was hard for you, but you did it anyway? You can colour the squares as you go, too, so you can see the number of days passing and moving you closer to full healing. Your emotions will be all over the place cos your body is so tired. Let the tears come when they will-they are part of healing. It's going to be a roller-coaster. You are an astute young woman, and very self-aware. Be kind to yourself. No being hard on yourself-celebrate the victories, but allow yourself the sad days too. I find when I don't know what to do with myself, it's because I need to sleep. Time, Tiffany, is what you need now. Take care. Much love and prayers. Helen 💙💙💙🙏🙏🙏

[@sandylloyd1682]

I did the same thing when I was going through cancer. They will understand. You will never be the same you have gone through so much after fighting for your life you become a different person

[@strawberry1025]

Dear Tiffany, let the tears come, let the wave break, pass through you, be gone. We wash out stress hormones in our tears and our tears speak what our heart has no words for. They heal. A huge hug to you.

[@csc1641]

Tiffany, depression hit me hard after going through my cancer journey. Not so much because of the diagnosis or treatment but trying to get my life back afterwards. DO NOT NEGLECT YOUR MENTAL HEALTH AND SEE A THERAPIST WHEN NEEDED. This is potent stuff you went through and are going through. I went on medication which really helped me. Cancer hit me hard emotionally, financially and mentally. Please get the help you need as it is out there.

[@miipmiipmiip]

People have been telling her this for a long time, she won't go.

[@ShreyaChoudhuryMusic]

@@miipmiipmiip maybe just giving Tiffany the space she needs to decide what will work best for her mental health will hopefully give her the courage to decide what she truly wants for herself. She’s going through a roller coaster. I’d rather not force her into the decision.

[@miipmiipmiip]

@@ShreyaChoudhuryMusic Nobody can force her to do anything much less any old funny KZbin comment. Of course she decides for herself. The way it's been going for some time now though, her avoidant behaviours don't seem to be going anywhere and her comments being full of "KZbin is your therapy!" are enabling her. Comments urging her to consider real therapy are often deleted or ignored. She's at a heightened risk for medical PTSD yet she neglects her mental health and makes KZbin videos instead, which are then published into an enabling echo chamber. That's not a healthy parasocial relationship.

[@staceyfullerton6274]

I still cry constantly after I had a hysterectomy for my ovarian cancer. Be kind to yourself Tiffany. Your doing great.

[@sallymoore7415]

Dear Tiffany, I have watched this journey with you and felt the need to message you today! You have done a fantastic job so far so don’t be too hard on yourself, coming home from the hospital is huge after such a huge operation and you will experience some PTSD… as a mum with daughters your age who have had health issues it’s completely natural what your going through, it’s such a tough Time for you but it will get better!! just one day at a time. You got this Tiffany 👏❤️

[@kathleenpeace4775]

Lady Tiffany everything your going thru is normal trust me i went thru it dont apologize cancer hurts bad one minute at a time some sweet day you will feel better back to you again i cried everyday allday my tears finally cleared up go slow healing will come Love from Florida Kathleen ♥️♥️♥️✝️ 😺

[@cariwebb8575]

Oh honey! On top of all the pain and anxiety you’ve been through with the surgery, you are also going through menopause. The hormone imbalance can also cause severe mood swings (anger, anxiety, sadness, irritability, etc.). It is totally normal to feel the way you do my darling. We love you, your family loves you and we all understand. Don’t you feel down on yourself, take the time you need. Sending my love and all the big big hugs and many prayers. 💙💙💙

[@patriciamitchell247]

My dear Tiffany. What the doctor said is the best ever! I'm not an expert but a year and a half ago I had major surgery with complications and I thought I'd never feel "normal". My emotions, my appetite, my spirit, my body was all up and down and all over the place. I found that the middle of the night was so so hard. Please rest rest rest and nourish yourself. You're doing all the right things so keep on doing what you're doing and little by little you'll improve. And the emotions are so normal, the crying and depression. I just really feel for you. It must be so difficult on so many levels but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. One day at a time my girl. One day at a time. xxx and hugs :) :) Smile!

[@stephanietracy1021]

Tiff, you truly need to talk with a therapist to help you process all that you've been through. Major life changes require help. This is totally normal. You've got this!!! 💗💗💗

[@mommabear5505]

Great point Stephanie, Tif, you can video or phone calls with a therapist. You tire easily, which is normal. You will get better.🙏🥰🤪

[@BelleOfAmherst]

Hello loving Tiffany, Thank you for including us in journey. I see the frustration in your eyes. It’s a process. One step forward, two steps back. You’re still here. Do whatever brings you joy & comfort. Watch movies. Love & hugs, a lot, a lot, a lot! 💙💙💙

[@texassews535]

Tiffany, talk to your gynecologist and let them know your feelings. They need to know if you are feeling depressed and down. The hormones are really controlling sometimes and we need to get them in control. It happened to me too. Share your feeling with your doctors, as the feelings are important too. Nothing to hide or be ashamed of as you cannot control them, and they have meds to help you in your recovery. You will feel so much better to share this with your doctors. Promise love, that you will do this! It’s OK. This hormone thing is a wild ride. We all love you Tiff.

[@lorimcdougall8513]

I hope that this message gets to you. My mom had the se surgery as you did and she made out ok. It was very painful as I remember her cancer journey very well. Tiffany...you are an awesome person and have a loving mother and boyfriend that is helping you and that is great. I have watched you since your cancer journey began. I just want to send you love from Canada and to let you know that I am thinking of you. You are doing great and have came such a long way. The healing will be tough on your bottom as that was the hardest part of it all for my mom. This is a hard life changing surgery but, I want to let you know it's okay, YOU GOT THIS GIRL 😉 and don't ever feel bad for you mom helping you as she is your mom and is happy to take care of you for as long as you need her. 💖

[@jojob211]

Take some time to just rest. Don’t worry about anything right now. You seem just overwhelmed at everything . Take time to process Tiffany. You need this time to just rest. It’s ok. You got this. It’s an awfully lot to process a complete life change. But it’s your life Tiffany. Take the time YOU NEED RIGHT NOW. Don’t apologize. You’re strong and you will come through this in your OWN TIME.❤❤❤❤

[@jojob211]

Tiffany you ARE STRONGER THAN HYOU REALIZE. It’s not weak to ask for help! It’s normal to need help! You’re not weak to cry! It’s a way to release those feelings and a way of processing all the change that’s taking place. You’re human. Grieving is normal right now too. But you are here and right now you are ok. I hope you can talk to someone in mental health. You are alive and yes you are loved by so many. And YES ! Don’t be so HARD ON YOURSELF!! 😊 ❤

[@NotinMyBudget]

Hey. I appreciate your vulnerability. A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital 6 times due to lupus. The longest stay 20 days. It took me awhile afterwards to open up to family and friends and I would cry at nights. My only release was doing a vlog. There's times that I'm angry, in mourning of my past way of living and not having the same sense of humor. Feel how you need to feel and live one moment at a time. You'll find the strength and you encourage so many. Take care.

[@shelliebancroft4145]

I also have lupus understand you.

[@margaretgarana911]

I’m just glad you’re around

[@NotinMyBudget]

@@margaretgarana911 Thank you, my friend.

[@tiegz9770]

Tiff, you went through and are still experiencing an extremely life changing and traumatic event. Be kind to yourself, feeling sad and possibly depressed is expected because you are human. You are so so strong. You've overcome so much thus far which shows that you can continue to get through this💙

[@Radiatingbeauty]

Cancer feels like a betrayal of our bodies and yet our bodies are really amazing how it can take so much and still heal itself! Your body has been through a lot and you along. You are a warrior even when you feel vulnerable and weak you are a warrior! This will pass stay strong we are here for you! 💙💙💙💙

[@Grandsr3]

Beautifully said, radiating Beauty with Denise💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@Radiatingbeauty]

Thank you it is how we all feel! 🙏🙏

[@vickyCA1643]

Tiffany, having just gotten over being sick, I recommend you go outside every single day even if it’s only for a moment in the back yard. When you are able, get to the car and have others take you for a brief drive. It really helps to get outside of your current world which can make a person feel like a hostage. When sick and healing every minute seems like forever. Get out and see the sunshine when you are able. You are doing great being your own cheerleader! Your words encourage me in my own struggle with living with illness.

[@yvettewhite828]

Thanks for sharing your journey. Watching your recovery process is making me aware of the strength we all have . We got this 💙💙💙.

[@susanbennett9062]

Thats beautifully said. I feel the sane way. We got this!

[@janthorneycroft7059]

Tiffany you have been through a huge surgery, please don’t feel bad for being sad and upset . You don’t need to explain yourself it is all perfectly normal to feel down and sad after what you have faced. You are an inspiration and we all love you and send healing vibes❤️❤️❤️

[@actuallowroller]

The comforting thing to me is these videos are like over a month ago and that means you're even further along in your healing journey. You got this beautiful Tiffany. Sending a lot a lot a lot of positivity and healing energy.

[@Serenity7250]

After such a big trauma your mind does need to release all the emotion. It is also a physical thing, your brain is chemically depressed after everything you've been through. You are such a strong and inspirational person, truly amazing. You sharing your story is helping so many people. You are a TRUE warrior, you've got this! Be kind to yourself, there's no rush, take your time to heal.

[@janerainsford8996]

Tiffany. You’ve gone to the mountain like a monk. You need this time. This is when the emotional healing begins. Pray or meditate. Take all the time you need. 💜

[@terriwood-gp1vd]

Tiffany dear heart. You are allowed to have sad moments, sad days, and sad weeks. You have been through so much. Part of your healing process is not only physical but emotional as well. They go hand in hand. Just because you break down at times does not mean you are not grateful, we all know that you are. It really just means that you're going through this one moment at a time. You got this girl!! We love you and pray for you each and every day. 💙💙💙

[@dianebaugher3919]

Sweet Tiffany, please find a therapist to speak to. You can do virtual visits, no need to even leave the house. I think you might be expecting too much too soon, recovery takes time and it can't be rushed...we got this 💙

[@vickyCA1643]

Great idea about doing viral visits. She just would need some privacy to be allowed to speak freely without Matt or her mother hearing.

[@oilfreeara277]

Hi Tiffany, I have a question for you. In the past when you saw a friend in need and were able to help, how did that make you feel? Did that not make your heart sing, it feels good to help others, especially those close to us. When you ask your family or friends for help you are actually generously allowing them to feel that joy. No more feeling bad asking for help 😘 Your emotions are understandably on a rollercoaster, give yourself time, you’ve got this. We’re here for you to vent, much better to get worries off your chest, so no apologies sweetheart. Sending lots of love & best wishes Tiffany, Amma Stella, Matt & the entire Tifanythinks family💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@leeleegirl8612]

I cried for months after my big cancer surgery. Cry away Tiffany. It is part of the journey.

[@timfahey7127]

When I was going through an extremely painful time, I found comfort AND healing in my moments of tears and intense grief.... You got this. For sure. Nothing changes if nothing changes......getting comfortable with being uncomfortable is hard to get comfortable with.... Wishing you comfort.

[@UsernamesForDummies]

I would really like to recommend Maggie’s channel Let’s talk IBD. Just 5 days ago she posted a video about her anal removal and the problems she had with the healing of that wound. She also has an ileostomy and that’s what most of her videos are about. She’s not only a patient but also a registered nurse. I’d highly recommend her channel. I like the way she talks about the struggles and solutions in a very positive way.

[@MissCBwasadancer3]

Just thought I’d let you know that Maggie already been in contact 🙂Xx

[@UsernamesForDummies]

@@MissCBwasadancer3 How do you know? Did Tiffany mention it and I didn’t realise?

[@darleneyager8807]

I believe Maggie mentioned it in one of her videos.

[@providencephelps1497]

Maggie said that she was going to reach out to Tiff in her comment section. Thank you Maggie!

[@UsernamesForDummies]

@@providencephelps1497 Thanks!

[@03733]

I am in heart failure and I found your channel while in hospital and I find you so inspirational on so many levels and I do the same after being in hospital from heart surgery. I have to close off at times because sometimes you don't want to talk about your illness and tell others how you feel. For me I feel like a complainer and a burden to my family so I think it's common to not want to talk or interact when you're going through hard medical times and when you are ready you'll know. Bless y'all and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.. Happy Valentines day from Arizona! ❤️❤️❤️ You got this !! We got this!! Give yourself grace.. ❤️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@Rosiarita171]

Not just the pain but your whole body is going through a big change brain, emotionally, hormonal, and healing. Let yourself rest honey you need time. ❤❤❤

[@katrinawarrior]

Oh wow!!! I cried the whole time! Yes Tiffany, this will pass. I know it’s so hard. You are a champ!! I’m a terminal Pancreatic Cancer patient. I had surgery in 2019 and was cancer free until July of 22. Now they tell me I’m terminal and they can only keep me comfortable. Cancer is from the enemy. He seeks to destroy. Well I’m still here fighting to the end. You will get through this I promise. You are a daughter of Christ Jesus. He loves you and has been by your side this whole time. He will see me through as well. I love you Tiff 💙

[@lifewithcancer916]

🙏🏻❤️

[@juliejohnson789]

❤ Have you looked at Ozone therapy ? There’s some videos on you tube one about someone same as your case they wrote him off Ozone cured him he’s alive and cancer free 🙏💖God be with you bless and heal you 🙏

[@sandranelson5979]

I'm so sorry.

[@jamisongee1176]

Bless you for still thinking of others. You are a special person indeed. X

[@nesadcruz7840]

As I type this, my prayers go up for you. May the Lord bless, protect and heal you.

[@kc-wl5zi]

Tiff, I understand!! I went through a horrible car accident and it took me a year to heal and even learn to walk again. What saved me was music 🎶 plz try listening to music. There are so many inspirational artists. I really hope it helps!!! 💕

[@GramaBear79]

Oh, Tiffany, I am just so sorry you’re having a hard time right now. I have been following your story since October when my 35-year-old daughter was diagnosed with colon cancer. My heart breaks for you. I have grown to love you so much by following you! You are doing such a brave thing by sharing this journey with all of us. I believe in a loving God who answers prayer and I am praying for complete healing and restoration for you.❤️❤️❤️

[@laurayost7567]

Tiffany I can 100% relate. In the last 8 months I've been going through a lot of lady issues and back and fourth to the hospital and appointment. I also was in bed alot. I just shut everyone out. I just didn't want to talk to anybody. I've been getting better and slowly getting back to myself and slowly talking to people again. I felt bad but I needed that time.

[@ΧαρατιναΜουτσος]

Beautiful Tiffany... beautiful body & soul. You're truly an inspiration 💗💗 My prayers ...always for you & your wonderful loved ones!!You got this ❣️ Tina from Greece

[@debbierethwish450]

There is absolutely NOTHING wrong or rude about needing that mental space for yourself. You have been thru a HUGE deal. Your body is healing, things are very different for you physically and I'm sure that hormones are playing a part in this as well. When it's time to engage with life and everyone, you will know. You're doing perfect!

[@cathymungall-baldwin7391]

Completely understand the need to shut off, I can't imagine how overwhelming your surgery has been. I had a stroke last year and got diagnosed with a chronic disease of the arteries, a brain aneurysm and other things, and had to fight some really hard battles for care support that involved going to my MP to help get an increase in support. I needed to completely shut down to everyone except my mum and closest couple of friends just to survive. It's completely valid and your right to shut down to additional people besides Matt and Amma. It's too much to explain and engage with people when you yourself are exhausted, lacking in energy, struggling with basic daily tasks, dealing with a lot psychologically and going through a massive mental and emotional adjustment. You need to protect yourself before engaging with others. Your best people and all of those in life should understand and respect your need to look after yourself at this extremely difficult time. be so kind and gentle with yourself and just don't be hard. You don't deserve that X

[@codiwoods9710]

Tiffanny I'm so proud of you, we all are! The surgery you had was so major and your body and mind are feeling it all and will continue to feel it throughout your recovery journey. I had a major surgery last year and the first 6 months were brutal but I'm reaching my 1 year surgery anniversary in just a few days now. I promise you it gets so so so much better and easier as time goes by . You will have good days and bad days and take them as they come, I know these are prerecorded but even now I hope that you are starting to have more good days than bad. Don't feel bad for feeling all the things. It's all apart of the process sweet friend. I pray that this time next year you'll be looking back the same way I am at my own journey extremely proud of yourself and how far you've come. I promise you, you've got this. We got this 💙

[@miriamzahra3214]

Tiffany it's normal to feel depressed after what you went through maybe you can go to psychology sessions if you want to it will help you get mentally better you look better than you were we love you get well soon 😊 ❤

[@TheLozisin]

Tiffany, you are so hard on yourself. You and your body have and are going through such a huge trauma. This surgery is not a small thing, you was in theatre for hours so never apologise for being upset. You have every right to feel angry, sad, upset and scared and all the emotions. You are an inspiration, the videos you put out are, I’m certain helping so many people that are going through and facing similar things and you are brave enough to film this intimate journey with all of us. I know I speak for many people when I say that I pray every day for you Matt andAmma and can’t wait for that boomerang to say you’re cancer free and you can all start your new beginning. All the love in the world to you all x

[@lillyrose3545]

Oh sweet girl, of course you need some time to yourself. That isn’t selfish. You are always so caring and giving to others and you deserve to give you the same. I have had some major surgeries my last was this past October and I have noticed that about 3-4 weeks after surgery I get depressed, also I get tired of talking about my health to everyone. And when I do talk to people I feel like I have to tell them I am doing well because I don’t feel like I need to be depressing to them. It’s so hard! Believe me you always deserve to give to yourself when you need it. Just be careful that you don’t get lost in isolation. We have gone through some major medical trauma! That takes a toll on your mental health. Take care of you ❤

[@echo2893]

Hi Tiffany 💞 I'm sorry you are going thru such a difficult time. What you going thru is very normal after undergoing a major surgery. Morphine can cause depression, dealing with chronic pain is very exhausting, and in a way you are experiencing grief. There is a grieving process when there has been a significant, life changing change. Your body is a "new body" you have to learn how to live your "ne normal", and part of that is grieving your loss of the "old normal". I believe there are counselors that specialize in this type of counseling, helping you work your way thru the grief, fear and flood of various emotions while you are going thru the healing process. It might be a good idea to ask your doctors if they could refer a counselor or therapist to help you work thru some of this. It's ok to ask for help, yes it's hard to ask, but I think this would be very important for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. 💙

[@blessedmum655]

Dear Tiffany...you are allowed to feel so many emotions, your body has been through a very big change and a complete shock to your core. Been through my cancer journey, I too felt very emotional for a very long time. Give yourself a break darlin, because you are only human. You will be adjusting to the new normal. It will take time. I know you hate having to depend on other people, I remember feeling very frustrated too after my cancer experience and was too weak to help myself. You have amazed me with your strength and determination!!! One day at a time. Every day you will get stronger mentally and physically. Crying is healthy and good for your soul. We love you and feel your sadness and hope you know we are cheering you on!!! Sending you so much love and healing wishes from Canada xxx

[@donnamcmillan6950]

I'm pretty sure that pain medication can make one feel weak and sleepy and feeling like that could add to a little depression so be easy on yourself as you're really very strong to have already gone through all you have been through. You have the prayers of us all. You've got this. One day at a time and one little victory every day. As the saying goes one step forward, two steps back but you still gain a little every day!!

[@katharinestafford4259]

I think this video was filmed a while ago so hoping you are in a much better place both physically and mentally. You are doing amazingly well. Have faith in your body and spirit - better days are coming 🙏

[@Debilyn007]

I’m sending you huge hugs. I just wanted to let you know that I had a hysterectomy and lots of repairs and organs taking out and went through a lot myself but not as much as you. All experiences are different but the hormonal shift is a lot. I cried a lot and was very weak for a long time. I didn’t feel good for many months. I had a lot of stitches myself and I never thought I would be normal feeling again. My life changed that day and it was a long surgery but please know you will get through this. It’s a hard journey. I cried so much, your body has a huge hormonal shift and healing and pain. Your doing amazing. You got this. I’m on the other side so I can say it is hard. Xo

[@devindersahota883]

May i ask if u had prolapse repair surgery? I m so young only 38 and have to have prolapse repair surgery. Got this out of childbirth.

[@Debilyn007]

@@devindersahota883 Yes I’ve had that repair and a tumor removed that was growing in my uterus. My two surgeons did every repair they could do on me and it was a long recovery. Feel free to ask any questions. A good surgeon makes all the difference.

[@devindersahota883]

@debi may i ask how old were u whn had surgery? And did u get prolapse as a result of childbirth? How long did u wait after diagnosis? My son is 18 months old only. Cant imagine going through tough recovery with small child

[@Debilyn007]

@@devindersahota883 I had prolapse immediately after childbirth but put off taking care of it. I was 41 and my health was not well so I needed surgery.

[@ShreyaChoudhuryMusic]

Tiffany - I’m a fellow TiffanyThinks family member here. I understand that I’ve not been around and watching too much of your videos. Please know this isn’t anything to do with you. When you mention about getting mental health help, you remind me a lot about myself, as I am currently in therapy myself and taking time away from trying to be on social media to focus on my lifestyle and just my overall health. Although I have never had cancer diagnoses myself, my heart still hurts for anyone who’s going through the aftermath as well as dealing with the news of their diagnoses. Please take heart in knowing your emotions are valid and are what make you a genuine human being. You are a gift and the biggest blessing from the Lord and I pray for healing vibes only for you as you continue to recover. 💕 I’m proud of you for reaching out for help and hoping you know you have a full support system behind you. 💕 We got this! Love, Shreya (New Jersey, USA) ❤

[@debbie7771]

You’re doing this Tiffany. It will absolutely get better. Little by little. I’m amazed you’re able to even walk down the stairs. That sounds incredible after what you’ve been thru. I hope you realize how well you’re doing. Maybe you can listen to an upbeat audiobook, meditation or just some relaxing music.

[@gloriarogers-bruse2791]

Tiffany it will be quite normal to go through some depression after what you’ve been and are going through. I think it would be helpful to find a therapist who could talk with you. If you fear going out, there are those who will speak with you online. As you said, the strong ask for help. You need more than Matt and your Mom can give you. Please try to find a therapist who wants to bear your burden with you. I have done that in my life and it was a great help. 💕💕💕 2/17/23, 2:30am, WashingtonDC USA.

[@twill127]

You held it together for so long Tiffany- I think all that stress and anxiety is coming out now. Please ask for help from a mental health professional as that might help. All I can say is that you have been so incredibly brave and strong- you have all the right to be upset and cry. It is a phase -it will pass. You will get better! Day by day better and better. We love you very much and pray for you. You can do this!!!! If anyone can that is you! Let it out- cry if you need to, shout if you need to! Lots and lots of love💙💙💙💙

[@elizarhee4183]

This breaks my heart. I had memories of my own recovery. Obviously not as big of a surgery as yours but I distinctly remember how difficult it was to just walk a block to the store soon after an open laparotomy with partial rectum removal, ovary and the tumor. I very slowly walked back home with my mom feeling completely defeated. It was a huge difference from my first surgery which was laparoscopic. Definitely cried a bit and I'm not one to cry. I'm also one to keep trying as I'm fiercely independent but even I needed help. Rest assured, your life will get better and you must give yourself time much more time than you think. There's no due date for feeling normal. It's a new normal anyway. I don't think I truly felt my new normal for at least a year after all my treatment ended. I know exposing your vulnerability is scary. I certainly lost some friends and gained others because of cancer (think they got scared) but you will have many others rally around you and those are the ones you keep!

[@hayesedwards4883]

Hope your pain improves Tiffany. I can understand you wanting some time away from ppl. I am glad you have Amma and Matt with you. All the best💙

[@JoanneCamp1]

I’m thinking of you Tiffany and praying for your continued recovery. Take as much time as you need to rest and recover. We Got This. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@susanbennett9062]

It is taking every ounce of energy for you to recover. Your family and friends love you. They understand. Everybody loves you so much. Your going through the 7 stages of grief. It's all to be expected after what you've been through. I know you will find your way through this. Sending you loads of love and warm sunshine from Florida. It's 82 degrees today. I hope one day you can travel. Perhaps walk along the coastline with your darling.

[@lauraa4294]

I have not been through anything remotely close to what you're going through but, in the U.S. we are big on the importance of Mental Health. Is there maybe a cancer support group that you can participate in? Sometimes it's easier to talk to people who have gone through or are going through the same thing you are. And sometimes it is easier to open up to strangers than to family or friends. I strongly suggest you ask the hospital, maybe the can refer you to some. Love you a lot, a lot, a lot. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@joannadavis6716]

Tiffany, I am a retired psychotherapist and I encourage you to find a therapist and talk, talk, talk. Sometimes just putting your feelings out there, verbalizing them to someone who you are not in a close relationship with, helps so much. You are such a brave and courageous woman. I admire you so much. I believe it will help the burden you carry with the cancer, massive surgery to save your life and now the healing process, so much to deal with. Love from SC, USA ❤️

[@lori....4816]

If you can look forward to the Spring and Summer seasons coming up. You love the sun and you love going for coffee and going to the garden center to pick out your new plants. By the time the warmer weather is here you will physically be feeling much better and the sun will help your mental health. You have been through a traumatic event a death of your old self if you will. You're going through a mourning period. It's ok it's normal we understand.. We are all here for you. Just love on your mom and Matt and get ready for the best summer ever 🌻🌞🌻🌷🌻

[@carmencabanas5149]

Tiffany darling you are allowed to feel what your feeling I went through breast cancer surgery and for the longest time I felt I had failed my kids because I did everything for them and now I couldn’t but there are stages you have to go through mad,anxious,depression then comes acceptance but counseling s really helpful,give yourself time you have great support love you darling recover fast 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦

[@gillianmellin8315]

Thinking of you Tiffany ❤ You have ! got it! It’s early days! Baby steps will get you there.

[@cynthiabinns8392]

Tiffany, try bringing things within arms reach. I believe this will make you feel more independent. Also, check the side effects of all your meds. Some side effects cause depression and suicidal thoughts, so pay cause attention to yourself. In the meantime, keep making videos and sharing your thoughts and feelings because we care about you and are here for you, always!

[@chestersmum4158]

I was going to advise this as well.when I had spinal surgery I had a reaction to some of the pain medication in regards to my mood. Take care Tiffany 💜

[@granday2213]

Tiffany, have you thought about writing in a daily journal? Once you start feeling like you're an old self you can reflect on how far you have come and maybe turn it into a book. You're strong and beautiful and you got this!

[@sherrithomas4350]

This grandma in Texas is praying for you Tiffany 💙.

[@michelebrown4345]

During my Cancer journey.. I had to have 2 major surgery.. first one they cut straight down the middle of my stomach and took out 2/3 of my large intestine.. chemo killed my gallbladder.. so I had to have a second one to take out my gallbladder and repair my stomach so they put a metal mesh screen in.. Tiffany you have to allow yourself grace.. Like yourself I don't like to ask for help.. but remember you are on your road to recovery.. and each day you will get stronger and stronger.. it might be tiny steps.. and maybe a couple setbacks.. but keep looking forward.. and thank God you're still here to be able to keep fighting.. I'm sending healing vibes your way and prayers for strength .. 💕

[@cynthiaclick9381]

I am a retired RN. I don't know how you feel about antidepressants or if you already take one but a trauma such as you have suffered can take a toll on brain chemicals too. I know your team has this in mind. You are a sweetie!

[@carolewaterstvjwas9310]

Yes, when you go through something as traumatic as this, you lose your sense of well-being. My doctor said it was like PTSD and your brain chemistry can change from it. Even though my diagnosis and circumstances were different from yours, I experienced the exact same feelings and thoughts you are having. After being prescribed an antidepressant, I regained my sense of well-being and began feeling like myself. I am not in the medical field, but just wanted to share my very similar experience. Please share your feelings and thoughts with your doctor. Just know this , this is temporary and you will be and feel well again!!!!!