Dealing With Depression & Anxiety In Programming

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you for the kind feedback :) I wasn't expecting that much. I appreciate my audience more than you know. It is actually a form of therapy for me and helps me immensely. Thank you

[@AjayBhatia]

You're​ great man, Brad!!!

[@raviverma8904]

Traversy Media really glad u shared this , it is helpful for lota of people including me 😊

[@charles-y2z6c]

Thanks Brad, anxiety is a common thing in programming, appreciate the concern I go many days where i dont talk to anyone for a whole day

[@restlessankur]

much needed video. Thanks for discussing it with us

[@nashah25]

Thank you..

[@Rose-jm7ut]

I know Brad very well and I can honestly say that he is the most genuine, honest man and I feel so PROUD to let everyone know that he is my son and he amazes everyday, he has grown into a caring, smart self learning person, 15 years ago I never thought that he would have turned into such a wonderful person

[@CarlosMontalvoGhigliotty]

Donna Warren parents are the greatest inspiration! I have my mother living with me as I am the only son, and she's 81, and still she is a fighter, and the best positive attitude person. Thank you for having a son like brad!

[@albertgalvez2556]

He's a great person, I have a similar story like he's but not with the awesome toys and vast brain. :)

[@Usa4evaeva]

Donna Warren mrs.Donna!- God bless you for delivering such a great son. His channel offers great content. May God also bless him.

[@Rose-jm7ut]

+Ted Thank you, after what we went through, I'm so proud of him now, he amazes me every day

[@davidconnelly1793]

Congratulations on everything. He's awesome and I'm a fan. There's a question that has been on my mind and it's not graceful at all. There are rumours going around that the top Udemy people are multi-millionaires and they're all living like The Great Gatsby. Brad is in that category. He's all over Udemy. So, the question is... is Brad a millionaire?

[@SimPwear84]

This is how I feel - depressed, high anxiety levels when I cant figure out Javascript or PHP tutorials. I sometimes feel dumb and that it will take a really loooong time to understand some prgoramming concepts. I am glad that other people go through this as well. Thanks Brad!

[@juliom6260]

Me too bro. Hope you could become a programmer since your post.

[@AayanamAnirudh]

You glad that other people go through this??? Such a sadist...

[@jacobl7451]

@@AayanamAnirudh Hopefully you are sarcastic, but obviously he means he's glad he's not alone.

[@iriel492ki]

My favorite channel on KZbin! Keep up the fantastic work!

[@TraversyMedia]

Thanks, I appreciate that

[@pikachu5223]

me too!

[@mayny03]

I love you bro. It's like you actually care about people which make you content easy to relate to. I am glad you are addressing real issues outside of programming. I identify with your story in so many ways, so the tips you give for living a more healthy life hit home for me. I, as I'm sure many of us really appreciate you & all you do. Thank you

[@MarkDeibert]

You're at 94K subscribers because your technical content is excellent, clear and easy to follow. Your kind personality and sharing stuff about yourself is what sets you apart from other channels. It's very compelling. Keep up the great work!

[@tushar12345]

More than 500k now... the guy is awesome!

[@amirhosseinahmadi3706]

761K!!!

[@uelude]

1 million lol -- same reasons ;)

[@amirmp1628]

1.59M

[@kurtheimerman8267]

Well said

[@nasimhc]

It take guts to say what you said about yourself in the video. I really appreciate your honesty and bravery. It's very helpful video with important tips. Thank you so much for the video.

[@TraversyMedia]

No problem, thank you. I am not proud of some of these things but they are part of me and if someone doesn't like it, they can move along :)

[@irinap.2276]

You're doing such a great things, Brad! Many of us don't have enough inspiration sometimes. One kind word and everything is going be better. Thank you

[@hacksaw_raw]

Ирина Потапова quite surprising to see russian on this channel

[@irinap.2276]

why not?)

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you very much :)

[@TraversyMedia]

We welcome people from ALL places. The more the better

[@borismamatov798]

@@TraversyMedia Im also Russian. I love your stuff!!! Brad you are a genius!!! Keep going!!!

[@HeartzHugzKissez]

Thanks for this amazing advice and insight... I recently began teaching myself programming languages because within the next few years I'd love to land my first job in the tech field. The problem is that I go through periods where I'll be extremely motivated and excited and I'll put my all into everything. Then suddenly I'll shift into a dark period of depression and won't be motivated at all. I've struggled with both depression and anxiety since I was a teenager, and I sometimes worry whether it will prevent me from accomplishing my goals. I've also recently had to cut down my social life because many of my so-called "friends" and family don't support my career and life goals, so it's gets extremely lonely. But I feel better knowing that I'm not alone in the struggle.

[@lezzzedd591]

I learned djs which is a java script language for developing bots i thought it makes me happy but when im alone i feel like coding is just burden to me but at the same time coding makes me feel so good

[@Toochilledtocare-_-]

the one thing i suffer from is the amount of pressure and doubt i put on myself. Somehow I make myself believe that I won't be as good as other programmers or remember everything i need. It can suck at times but it's great to hear your story brad :)

[@jimmacdiarmid8230]

Hi Brad, Thank you for taking the time to post this video. I really enjoyed your feedback. The imposter thing you mentioned clicked with me as something I've felt many times. I'm 53 now and have been working with computers since 1987. I've got a lot of experience from building computers, networking, software and web development, however, I still feel like I have a lot of holes in what I know. I don't feel like I'm where I should be in my life based on what I see others know, or have done. I'm always looking to try to fill in those gaps though, so if you need help with any programming projects feel free to give me a shout. : )

[@JohnnyUtah269]

I think this is a great video. I suffer from depression and adhd and think the topic of mental health needs to be discussed more often in software engineering. Not everyone is an introvert who goes into software engineering and especially with covid I’ve really struggled with it personally. Not sure where this comment is going but thanks for what you do

[@MrTaraskoro]

My algorithm when I see notification about new video from Traversy Media: 1. Smile 2. Open 3. Like 4. Tasty food for dinner. 5. Turn off cellphone 6. Enjoy

[@aoefeable]

In the short time since I stumbled on your channel I've learned a ton, your teaching style is exactly what I need. Knowing more about you will undoubtably add richness to my learning. Plus as woman in the tech world, who works from home, and has ADHD your tips are bang on! A good reminder to get out and smell the roses. Thanks for doing what you do and for having the courage to be vulnerable. You rock!

[@FadiQua]

you show the hidden face behind a successful person. great video, thank you brad and god bless you and your family

[@jprekopa]

I'm a lifelong programmer. A few years back I came down with Parkinson's, and the career I loved for so many years became a source of frustration. I've had to deal with most of the problems you mentioned. It's good to know I'm not the only one dealing with those challenges. Thanks for sharing so openly. It really helps.

[@TraversyMedia]

I'm glad I could help. Having physical issues is a huge hurdle. I didn't mention it but I struggle with some stuff physically as well and it sucks but just keep pushing

[@indrajeetzzz]

To be honest, this video boosted me. I'm working on project whole day and my head is hurting and things are not going well irl and in project also. Thanks for golden tips and for sharing your experience.

[@christianhingle7684]

Man you are truly an inspiration. I'm 42 with 5 kids and I've struggled with the same problems my whole life as well. Know this... YOU taught me how to code, and my children and I thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

[@oreopickles3472]

He is also lucky to have a Dad like you, and we are lucky and honored to have you on KZbin! You rock man, an amazing developer and a great human being.

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you very much, that means alot :)

[@shashanksharma9102]

Dude, ukw it's just relaxing to hear these words from you, I respect you from the bottom of my heart . I am struggling with self doubt and all these negative thoughts in my head what if I am not that smart what if my intellect is not that good. I am dying to actually work on a project but this doubt holds me back. It feels good to know about your journey that I am not alone who have these doubts. Thankyou for this♥️

[@itsYakuza]

You're a really kind and humble person. You deserve much more subs and views.

[@pittenjd]

Brad you're such a kind, caring, and humble guy. It comes across effortlessly in the way you speak and share yourself and you don't even notice it yourself. That's one thing that makes you so cool and humble. You were shocked that you had around 100,000 subscribers, but look now! You have almost 500,000. Wow! You deserve it. You can tell how much you care about life, other people, and your family, and it's really inspirational and heartwarming. I love this channel and it really inspires me to find the greatness I know I have within myself, kill my self doubt, and accomplish my goals. Thank you.

[@amirhosseinahmadi3706]

You are THE MOST respected programmer on KZbin, Brad! Thank you for everything!

[@oddfuture42O]

“People that didn’t grow up programming. We weren’t progeny kids that had a natural ability to write full programs. If you are one of those types of people *god bless you that’s awesome*” I started crying when he blessed us. This whole slide has been me, I started learning programming in college and i really appreciate even that one little sentence of gratitude because I’m trying so hard to do my best. God bless you too.

[@ChannelCandy]

This is the first of your videos that I've ever watched. I didn't know what to expect but you are so very kind to share what you experience and how you deal with it so candidly. I still haven't shaken impostor syndrome after learning web development a year ago. I've even been working as a web developer for just under a year and I still have times when I look at the keyboard and forget that I know how to code. It's a weird feeling and not many people can understand. Thank you for talking about this in such personal detail.

[@TraversyMedia]

You're very welcome :) I havent shaken it after almost a decade and almost 140k subscribers that watch me do it everyday. I still feel like I dont fit in sometimes. You have to find it in yourself, it doesnt matter what is going on outside. Nothing else will change it only you... I'm still working on it

[@nikhidas23]

You not only helped people get a new job, but also experienced programmers like me, to get to the next level

[@RunOs3]

Brad, a synonym of bravery is courage, which is defined as the ability to do something that frightens one, and/or strength in the face of pain or grief. It takes a lot of courage to tell your story and to try to help others dealing with the same issues. Please keep up the good work.

[@PFOctavio]

Can't believe how great you are, i admire you. Thanks for sharing this.

[@GeorgeMonsour]

Your kindness has been evident in all your work. Thank you for that!

[@Tiara48z]

Thank you for making this video. It takes so much courage to share your life story with a bunch of randoms.

[@CarlosMontalvoGhigliotty]

Man, thank you. I am a retired auto technician, 25+ years on the field. After that my wife join the US Navy because money was not the same and kids were getting grown and needed more. I am an add person and fight a lot with perfectionist and feel not to social. I started a challenge to me and to show my kids that going to school is not bad, it takes effort, passion, time, and dedication. I finish a BS in multimedia designer and a minor in programming. Now that I am in my 40s and working a full time as a programmer I feel the mental exhaustion and lack of activities. On top of that having a wife that is deployed for several months a year and I have to run the whole house doesn't make it easier, but is doable. I love my job, and I love learning more everyday, ether car stuff or just new tech for programming. Again thank you.

[@TraversyMedia]

That's cool that you went from auto repair to programming, very diverse. Many people do not understand how staring at code all day can weigh on us mentally. I thank your wife for her service

[@dustinwhittington8189]

When I got on the internet today, I didn't realize that this was exactly what I needed to watch. I appreciate the video. I think you might be me!

[@ayyubpreston6618]

Came for the programming, stayed for the knowledge bomb. Thanks! Dont mind us trolls. I don't struggle with anxiety myself but I have close friends and family that suffer from these imbalances and its often the case that you can reach them just by showing steady consistent genuine care, which youre doing here on this channel. You're great! Young muslim reporting from north jersey, your national bro.

[@prod.radical720]

this channel has more quality content than the top youtubers, and last time i check in my country inable to learn a single programming language with limited session you must spend more than a hundred bucks depending in the type of school/tutor but this guy is greatly giving them away for free. and that's incredible for a poorman like me. so thank you so much sir brad, and by the way I always love it when I hear your children's noises in the background.

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you....yeah sometimes the mic picks up stuff. Unfortunately it gets my wife and daughter arguing quite a bit :)

[@colloredbrothers]

I'm glad you're not afraid of veering off from the main meat of the channel, you are a person not a tutorial making machine and its nice to see another side of you also. Thanks for your immense contributions to all people who needed a real teacher instead of a pompous professor who was too full of himself to explain things simply. Online education platforms are going to replace organized institutions just as quickly as alternative media has replaced establishment media.

[@werthersoriginal]

This was beautiful , thank you for doing this. One of my favorite quotes: "The only thing keeping you from being happy is thinking you are alone" - Anna Draper, MadMen

[@ingeniousdistrict3228]

It's nice to have this kind of videos from time to time than only about programming and frameworks etc... we forget about our health, physical and mental, rushing to learn everything about anything. Good work :)

[@killianlomax8237]

I just can't thank you enough for being this open and for talking so freely about personal experiences and struggles. Why? Cause I'm also 35 and been through most of that stuff myself and I'm still dealing with some inner demons every day. This video really made my day and to be honest this was one of the most inspiring and heartening thing I've ever listened to. Thanks again so much for all your efforts and the passion in your videos. ~Cheers from Germany

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you man, it means a lot

[@nausiac]

I am dealing with a kind of depression , I cannot forget a special girl, who left me, she is with another guy, this is affecting me as a person, and as a programmer. thanks for sharing this!

[@icedlee337]

First off, I really appreciate your breadth/depth of knowledge and ability to teach! You seem very capable and confident so it's really great to see you being so open about these issues. As a professional software engineer for 6 years, I've had to overcome these problems myself and know many others affected by them past and present. Keep up the good work and God bless!

[@davidjackson3928]

It takes courage to be this vulnerable, Brad. Thanks very much. It's a giant gift.

[@АндрейСухоносов-ш2с]

Thank you Brad! You're actually changing the world and helping people one video at a time. From Russia with love. Wish your son to get better.

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you!

[@ranger-co8my]

Being more social is critical advice. If you hang out with the right ppl, you learn so much, gain new perspectives and overall become happier. Humans are social creatures, we want to connect.

[@mattmarkus4868]

I am going through the worst experience in my life and videos like this are more helpful and inspiring than I can possibly express.. So glad I found your channel. Thanks for putting yourself out there like this.

[@Dwesk]

Didn't expect this, glad I'm subscribed to see such a variety of quality content. Keep it up!

[@jakubbyliniak4558]

Thanks for this video and for being so open. I'm really happy that there are people like you, not only bringing technical knowledge but also a human touch in this industry. All the best to you.

[@TheGuilhermetamara]

Man, I'm a Brazillian teenager doing a "certificate course" in programming alongside high school (it's called curso técnico here), I'm terrible at math, introverted, with mild social anxiety and have almost no social life but I'm very passionate about programming and you're a huge inspiration to me! Love your videos, thank you so much!

[@TraversyMedia]

I'm really glad I could help in any way. Honestly math means nothing unless you are looking to work on complex algorithms. My math skills are shit

[@halodebbarma3660]

i have been pessimistic a lot about jumping around frameworks, getting too obsessed about not knowing, felt like i was wasting my time. feels better now :) . have a sweet time @bradTraversy

[@SimDiok]

Brad, thank you for existing. You taught me a lot in programming. Helped me love this career path even more as days pass by. You taught me to be more logical but I never you'd be able to to help me mentally. You see, I am seeing a therapist right now, for 3 years I'm in medication. I am diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety and bipolarity. My room, pc's and programming help me forget these sh**s . I am struggling being around people. I have few friends and thank God these people are the best but before I met them I have been with horrible ones and always got into trouble. When I decided to learn laravel from wordpress, my world turned into a colorful one. Learning from you is the best decision I made in my life. I still have troubles in socializing. My anxiety just gotten worse through time but occupying my head with programming just mends those scattered part of me. It hurts. I sometimes think that I wish this stops because it hurts bad. My day is just dull without my pc with me. Vacation is a torture. I don't feel fun on things anymore. Just learning programming and creating from it. Other than that, no more. Life is too painful though.

[@kellys8989]

Thank you so much for this video Brad. I suffer from anxiety and depression daily and work full time. By the end of the day I’m so spent, I barely feel like learning. As I figure out solutions for that issue the most important thing to me is not to give up. I finally feel for the first time in my life I found something I’m excited about. I want to move forward and start my career in dev. Knowing I’m not alone in my doubts and imposter feelings is of great comfort. Thanks also for your high quality videos. They’re excellent!

[@MrIRNL]

You are a wonderful person Brad, not only have you helped others a lot to learn the-state-of-the-art in coding but also your thoughts and inspirations and life story was so touching. very many thanks :)

[@guypeer4076]

Brad you are so sincere and honest with yourself and us. Really appreciate it. All the best my friend.

[@thedolenorway]

Kudos to you for this video, as a programmer currently unemployed as my depression, anxiety and insecurity just got to the point where I didn't function. At one point I thought I had some sort of brain injury as my depression killed all my focus and my short term memory was non existent. I've been wanting to get into creating content such as this and raise awareness of these sorts of issues. Hats off to you!

[@naushabazerin1993]

This is my 1st comment. I am extremely introvert. So introvert that if I have any confusion in any tutorials I can not master the courage to comment on youtube. I really look upto you not just only as a programmer but as a human being from the bottom of my heart. This video encourages me alot. Sometimes I feel like your videos and your existence makes this world a better place for the programmers.

[@edgarperdomoalex0121]

thank you man, it's great that you take a moment to speak about this topics.. anyone that program or do something with computers in some point have experience anxiety or depression plus if your work directly with people in some point is extremely stressful. So thank you! hope to hear more from you.

[@mtwata]

"I'm almost to 100k subscribers which completely blows my mind", Brad May 2017 2 years later: 800k subscribers

[@mitty4790]

Marcos Watanabe 2020, 956k 🙌

[@dianalee3279]

1 MILLION!

[@petersonkamwaro274]

Dealing with anxiety right now...God bless Brad

[@robertdiggins7578]

Thanks for this. I have been subscribed for about 4 months and have been marking your videos to watch later, when I come out of my funk. After 27 years at the same institution, the last 15 from home, I got a new supervisor, who got the job because he's friends with the Chief of Staff. He is technically inept and maybe a little manic and started doing obedience training, since he had no other leadership abilities. He threatened me for asking innocent questions, started a perception that I was afraid for my job, lied about the time I spent on projects and took credit for my work. His boss nominated him for a high level award and is very invested in him, giving him a lot of professional development opportunities. His boss' boss is his powerful friend and I didn't stand a chance, once I stood up to him. You see, I had to, because I'm a principled person with a deep hatred for authoritarian tools. No, I'm not an idealistic 20 year old. My grandfather stood up to the KKK in my hometown and ultimately lost his job as superintendent of schools, during the Great Depression. 12 kids and they lost their house and everything. Then, when I was in high school, I watched the City retaliate against my mom, after she unionized the librarians and got them health, dental, and more parity with the male City workers. They fired her, her health got bad, and when she sued for wrongful termination, they just dragged it out until she had no money to fight and settled for 5k to pay the mortgage. Now, here I am, 45, two daughters in grade school, chronic pain issues from my back and SI joint. I can't sit in a chair for more than a couple hours and standing is no relief. I invested 2k in an adjustable bed, so I could work long hours. But the chances of getting a remote job aren't great. And it was a big blow to my self confidence and other things related to working with some of the same clients for over 20 years. Every time I try to do online training (long time full stack Microsoft dev, especially SQL Server), I get overwhelming feelings and anxiety. I really want to fight the non-renewal ("going in a new direction" was the only rationale given, but I taped some incriminating conversations, and, having no complaints from anyone except my supervisor, I know what happened ) Sorry for the long story, but I want you to know your video (I could watch this one!) helped me too. I have some crazy ideas about cashing out one of my retirement accounts, to start a small business. I need to work from home, except for meetings, and I can't handle another supervisor like this one. I'd love to hear your thoughts about that. I have a lot of ed related app dev experience. Built my first score keeping, multiple choice quiz in Apple Basic, when I was 14 (my older brother turned it in for his final project in high school mythology and got an A. I had the same teacher 4 years later and got an F, because my friend and I went to class stoned ;) Looking forward to watching all of your content soon. Thanks again. Robert

[@alexandros-markovits]

Thank you for telling us your back story, it really helps because as you said i was thinking of you as a 'perfect' man that his whole life has gone the correct way. It looks like you have made a big change in your life and thats rather inspiring. Also sounds like you have a happy family despite the difficulties. :) Depression and anxiety really grow these days.. I have found that anything motivational helps, either it's art or other people's stories. There are also some old motivational speeches of Earl Nightingale in youtube for anyone that might find them helpful.

[@IlemonaJamesAtuluku]

Just resumed a one week leave and my boss just gave me a verbal rundown... which has made my day horrible... I have watched the video yet. but the smile the notification gives its quite hope lifting

[@edhansen1180]

This took a lot of courage and you're right on the money. Software development is a very solitary profession. I know. I started developing in COBOL in 1968 and just retired two years ago, coding C#, ASP.net and SQL Server. I'm 74. But, I still enjoy learning and found your videos when I started learning Angular 2 and Typescript. They're great. By the way, I'm also a big fan of Wayne Dyer and had the privilege of attending one of his events back in the 1980's. Your right in recommending exercise to help with stress and anxiety. It works. I hit the gym five days a week before going to work - at home or office. You also mentioned meditation - something else that really helps. And along that same vein, I'd recommend Yoga. Keep in up, you're doing great.

[@TraversyMedia]

Thanks for the kind words. That's awesome you got to see Dyer. He really made me change from being a negative prick to being grateful and thinking in a better way and also more spiritually. Sometimes I slip up but I have that foundation that I learned from him. I was sad to see him pass away

[@andrathema4]

Since July, I have started learning javascript, and last week I've stumbled upon your channel. Man!! I am so grateful for all the great content you have!! You are a very good teacher!! After watching this video, I can relate so much to you and the personal struggle you deal with. (the constant inner criticizing voice, depression, anxiety and social awkwardness). Thank you, Brad! You give me motivation to continue learning and to better myself, in many aspects of life.

[@kurtinny]

You are saying, that 15 years ago it was not imaginable for you, that you can be a programmer... Same with me, but it was 6 years ago. :) When becoming anxious or depressed, I always call it on my mind. The best motivation is your previous successes. Your channel is on the top of all channels for programmers on KZbin, which I subscribe and I learned from it a lot. :)

[@davidcopestakes7310]

It's really good to hear your story man! I'm in a major transition in my life. I'm a little over year sober and have dealt with anxiety, depression and imposter syndrome my whole life too. I'm diving into web development and everyday fighting the question if I'm good enough. You're giving me inspiration to push forward! You're awesome my man!

[@algife]

As a dev and entrepreneur that went through that I appreciate you give visibility to this with a message of wisdom and being a reference for a lot of people from the dev community

[@randyrips]

I know these videos are somewhat old, but as a new programmer coming into the field at 43 years old, I find these videos very helpful. Both from a technical perspective but also from a life perspective. It’s calming to know that there’s other people out there that are going through some of the same issues that I am, or just having similar thoughts regarding this profession.

[@MalikDixon]

This is a great presentation on your life story. Not too many people speak about depression and anxiety not to mention talking about it on KZbin. I hope that you will share your life's story to young people. I have a new respect for you. I really appreciate it because I have Aspergers Syndrome. Thank you for your training and your insights. Counseling for depression and anxiety does not make you weak. It makes you special.

[@SuperCamelius]

We have a prayer for others in my culture, it basically says: May God give you as much as the generosity of your heart. I pray (this) for you. I hope you understand what I m trying to say, it’s not so easy to translate; my English is not good enough for this. Thank you so much for this. Trying to show people issues when they are stuck is a very generous act.

[@TraversyMedia]

Very understandable, thank you very much :)

[@CarlitoProductions]

I got into programming after a bad breakup and moving back to my country since it was the only thing that comforted me. Now, I managed to get a good paying job and have used tutorials from you which helped tons. We actually had similar backgrounds, and I appreciate this video and your entire channel since it helps me a lot. Thanks Brad!

[@NathanSmithRenown0]

I've got some issues too. Won't go into it here, but point is: I get you dude. But you've clearly made some EXCELLENT decisions in life at this point. You're good to go.

[@Super_Cool_Guy]

We are not judging you ... your work on KZbin has said a lot about you ....and it's all GREAT !

[@EmmancipateMusemwa]

thanks bro you are an inspiration

[@TraversyMedia]

Thanks man

[@gregf9160]

This is a timely video. There's a lot of depression generally today, but in programming and development it is often unsettlingly high. Good on Brad for talking about this.

[@leon.domingo]

Hi Brad Glad to hear you stood up from a complicated situation. I also like you're using the word "depression" instead of "burn-out". I read a few days ago on Twitter that "burn out" is the term the industry uses to avoid talking about "depression", which is more accurate. Keep up the good work! Best regards,

[@TraversyMedia]

Very true, never realized that

[@GradStudentTutorials]

I loved your honesty! It is amazing to hear someone else (with the same passions as me) talk openly about this real issue. Without going into too much detail, about a year ago I was at the "end of the rope" so to speak, and have committed to working on myself. I am hesitant to use phrases like "I've overcome ... " because I feel like I'm a hair trigger away from f***ing it all up, but I do believe with enough discipline you can get through a lot. I subscribed because of your Bootstrap videos, but really appreciate this thoughtful and inspiring video!

[@richJinny]

Thumbs up for the mere fact that you made and posted such a video! Many things you tell in this video sounds very very familiar to me. Since my teenage years I have always had social anxiety, fear to talk to people, to be amidst people and so on. I don't know how I did it but somehow I managed to study at university and graduate. I am 52 now and have been working in IT since I graduated university, almost 30 years ago. Mainly as a programmer. I did all kinds of therapies and courses to deal with my anxiety. The truth however is that you don't get rid of your anxiety but you do get rid of your money. Now that I am 52 I find out that my social anxiety has increased compared to 10 years ago. I think - contrary to what the "experts" say - that I should step back: accept that I have it, deal with it and adapt my life to it. In my case it means for example that I won't "grow" because I am not able to activily attend meetings, giving presentations and so on. The pressure of society on you to achieve, win and so on is too high. They expect too much from you but hey: I am just a human being and have my shortcomings.

[@williambell5422]

1 million subscribers my man! Congratulations! Your story is an inspiration to me for sure! Thank you for sharing.

[@supercoolcat7692]

I needed to hear this. I’ll find a way to return the value you’ve added to my life through this channel. Remain blessed Brad

[@hobokengar]

That was a very different, and kind video. I was deeply touched by it. Good luck.

[@SomethingNick]

This is a really beautiful video, I've struggled with social anxiety since my teens but after a few sessions with a therapist and gradual cbt I'm much much more comfortable and happier. I'm halfway through my comp sci degree and it definitely attracts people who can sometimes struggle socially, but it also brings us all together which is pretty great.

[@87majika]

As somebody who is stuggling with anxiety, imposter syndrome and mild depression this is really empowering! I just finished a bootcamp, and now the job application rejections has been really-really discouraging. They make me doubt myself even more than before. I know Corona has hit some companies hard and they don't want to invest to juniors, but still.. I hope there is a company out there for me. But yeah, I will keep up, learn more, follow your tutorials and keep applying. Also, good advice about the hobbies. Mine is yoga, meditation and cycling, that help to detach from the screen. Thank you also for all the great tutorials. You are my hero, somebody who came from a similar background as me. Keep up with the amazing content. :)

[@johnr.5475]

Excellent video. Very non-preachy, honest and useful. Thanks. I saw the comment from your mum. She must be very proud and relieved at the way things have worked out as we only want what’s best for our kids don’t we. This video and your mum’s comments certainly resonated with me. Thanks and good luck.

[@dmitriydavydov5915]

Man this podcast is really motivating! I wish your son get well soon! Thank you a lot for sharing your knowledge and personal experiences! Your channel is awesome! Keep up the great work!)

[@albertoplebani77]

This video was a great surprise to me! i didn't expect it to be so interesting, useful and genuine. you honestly deserve great respect and i wish you the best.

[@joelblaber-addy2495]

Brad, I must say I'm really motivated by you and your channel, keep up the good work and your son is gonna be fine

[@TraversyMedia]

Thanks Joel, I really appreciate that

[@scottyzen88]

I never knew we had so much in common. Thanks Travis, this has inspired me a lot.

[@Super_Cool_Guy]

Yes you have helped many people with your tutorials WORLDWIDE. ... and we are very grateful !

[@codingthesmartway]

Great video Brad!! You're an awesome online teacher ... keep up the good work!!!

[@VictorEJones]

Thank you Brad, it's takes a lot to put yourself out there and talk about a subject that I'm sure most of us face but try to mask. I personally really needed this video.

[@armandsoto9808]

What a beast. I have a similar backgound and have been attempting to learn programming for about three years now(outsidr of school). I work full time and am currently taking one class at a time for my degree in Comp Sci. It is a very tough journey and like you said, passion will get you there. Thanks for the video man. Keep it up!

[@da80]

Buddy, you definitely have one of the best KZbin channels!

[@vinnypassmore]

Sounds like I'm describing myself, wtg. The internet needs more YT vids like this to get the younger generation back on track.

[@filmlife1000]

I didn’t realise this was actually a big thing in the industry - I thought it was just me. So although it’s pretty sad knowing it’s a thing for programmers like all of you, it’s also made me feel less alone, going through this depressed state. I really needed this - I’m reconsidering what I want out of life and need help with choosing if programming is what I should continue for the rest of my 20s. Thanks so much.

[@eternal5024]

Great work Brad, I luv your no nonsense approach to teaching programming concepts. I watch everything you do, and it keeps me up to date, and gives me a thorough understanding of the latest web dev tools. Thanks a lot.

[@saradma]

This really helps.I just started my developer position after finishing a well known boot camp very successfully ,However I have high anxiety ,depression and struggling everyday with at my job and often afraid of failing .

[@joeklemke3227]

Thanks for having the courage to publish this. Having some of your back story actually makes the tech videos that much better. It resonates with much in my life.

[@marwanak10]

Having gone through all the mentioned points in the video, I can safely say that this clip is a treasure. Thanks for sharing. Couldn't have said it any better.

This video helps me more than any other you've recorded. Keeps me pushing to work and learn more things. Also, you show me the way how to relax and do other things besides programming. Thank you.

[@brussells]

First time watching/listening to one of your videos, and this was a BIG one! So much open, honest discussion about your past & present self. Really genuine and honest, which isn't always easy to find on KZbin. As an aspiring Front End Developer, battling depression at the moment, a lot of what you said hit home, and is good to know that I'm not alone (even when it feels like it). Really appreciate your kind words and advice. Look forward to watching and learning more from your videos. Thank you.

[@TraversyMedia]

Thank you for watching. You are not alone. Im sure people you see everyday are going through similar stuff but nobody wants to talk about it. Thanks again...

[@ShahNawaz-sq1fg]

I am a software engineer and I follow many of your tutorials everyday. I like what you teach and donno why I like you as a person though I do not know you in person. I feel depressed all the time seeing all these wonderful and brilliant developers around me. But yours words really helped me regain may confidence and give my 100% to my passion. Thank you very much sir. Hope we will meet someday :)