TREATMENT DAY| HIDING THINGS TOO MUCH!

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[@conrad152]

She really was such a talented filmmaker and so charismatic and funny in front of the camera. She also had the ability to engage people and draw them willingly into her vlog. What a STAR !!!

[@sphinx1017]

Emily's videos helping me through hard times once again. I hope they stay on you tube forever as a resource for people in need.

[@ronanwalsh7024]

Awh.... always love to see beautiful Emily pop up in my news feed.... it's heartbreaking to think she's no longer with us but my god did she wring out every last minute she was here... God rest you dear girl xx.

[@sallyphillips9175]

Everyone talks about how awesome Emily was and Aisha is, but DANG ... Peta is awesome too! Emily was so lucky to have her as her nurse.

[@Narlee2226]

Time has gone so fast Emily it seems like your still here when i rewatch your wonderful vlogs to young Em..Thankyou for leaving millions of people with your positivity, strength advise and your beautiful face that shines, catch a Hug in heaven Emily ❤xx your legacy will forever live so loved so missed ❤️💚💜💙💛🇦🇺

[@lewisratzker8949]

Hi Emily, I've got rectal cancer & after 2 years clear they found 5/6 spots on my lungs last June. It's inoperable & incurable but luckily it's stable & gone nowhere else. I have bad depression with it but the only thing that really pulls me thru' is walking my dog Alfie, he's 6, & I ain't gonna die before him that's for sure. He's my reason to live. Great vids, thanks x

[@lewisratzker8949]

August Jensen Thanks x

[@1blondied]

OMG ... Bless you and your Alfie Dawg...they are our world... he's soo cute x

[@ticklethypickle6368]

All the best to you, Lewis.

[@elisaruy5372]

Hope you’re fine and Alfie’s doing good as well!

[@Kitten_Inchaos]

Thinking of you and your fur baby 🧡🖤

[@desiderata333]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I miss you terribly Emily and Aisha too. I hope she is alright.

[@debbiecrothers416]

Aisha has a Instagram. You can see how terribly she misses Em. Was definitely a match made by God. It's sad, some of her writing but it's good to see her face.

[@tinagriffiths7593]

Emily was such an inspiration especially in this video stating she copes with good days & bad but still cracked on with life such an awesome person & so greatly missed! ❤️

[@karenvancleve5628]

Remember Sharing your hard times will actually help others who struggle and feel alone and think they are weak for getting down Besides you are never alone and we can actually help you through

[@kelly_villalobos]

Sad we won’t see you anymore. See you on the flip side. ♥️

[@pattykochenower4222]

I love that room! Emily miss you so much and always watching old vlogs to just see your beautiful smile and love you always 🙏❤️

[@mrsprincenelson5756]

RIP my angel xxx

[@loannaxxx8845]

Who still watching her all over again 2020 ? Miss you Emily. How could you die !! , you was so strong , life sucks so unfair,

[@raconley2505]

loanna xxx I’m watching

[@danielle8229]

I come back and watch these every now and then because I just miss her so much!. Makes me feel like I’m seeing her again by watching them. Can’t believe someone so in love with life could die. 🖤 miss her

[@tondah]

Watch her almost everyday, peewee toms too 😢😢😢

[@veehope2702]

2022 here and still watching!

[@whowhatwhenwherewhynow]

Me

[@gilliansgoggleaccount7657]

Just remember Emily...people aren't in it just to see the good side of cancer...we are in it for the bad side too and on the journey with you. Don't feel like you only have be on form ALL the time....big hugs x

[@emilyhayward4726]

Thankyou so much for the lovely comment. i know that i will be ore open about the down side of it now!! xxxx

[@1blondied]

@@emilyhayward4726 ... we miss you so so much ... it hurts X

[@85sevenheaven]

I use a lot of essential oils to help me with my severe anxiety. I have nearly become agoraphobic and have just started a blog to help me try to climb out of it.

[@maomau930]

you don't have to sugar coat your feelings for us. we're here for you however you feel

[@emilyhayward4726]

i am promising to myself that i won't hide anything

[@Dp-wj1ql]

Watching your videos helps me through my bad days 💪

[@maomau930]

me too

[@emilyhayward4726]

Oh dave thats so lovely to hear xxxx

[@donorfanc1219]

Your candidness is why so many of us watch these videos. Having down days is a part of being human. Share it. We appreciate it all!

[@nancimedina]

We all have our good and bad days and no one wants to show the bad side but like you said...”it is real.” You asked what keeps us up. Watching you and knowing I️ am not alone in the fight. I️ also try to be with my friends even if we don’t really do anything. Sometimes I️ just to do nothing but then I️ get bored. We have DISNEYLAND here and I️ like to go there to get away from reality. 🌼🌺🌻 The camera is amazing. Thank you for sharing your life 💕💕

[@emilyhayward4726]

ahh thats great Nanci... its so so important to have a strong support system right? I'm glad you don't feel alone and i agree with that helping. Thanks for that great comment. and keep on doing what you're doing!!

[@victoriaindigo]

Haha as soon as I started watching the video I noticed how great the quality was I’M SO EXCITED FOR FLORIDA!!!

[@emilyhayward4726]

BRILLIANT! thanks for your feedback it means the world. I'm so excited too... i will VLOG EVERYTHINGGGG

[@jessej.m.e8430]

I always get down about being sick... There's nothing wrong with that, but at least you have the camera and the gym. I usually watch my Vlogs and get inspired to give a shit about the day lol plus I have an amazing little brother who motivates me everyday ✊ I think it would be good to show your "Depressed" side because maybe people can relate more to that. I'm sooooo glad you got the camera btw it looks and sounds amazing 👌 P.S When I have treatment I.e Injections and all that toxic shit! I think it almost makes you feel down about everything, but we are getting better remember 💪 Love ya guys xx xx

[@emilyhayward4726]

ahh thats lovely you have a little brother to inspire you constantly. i totally agree... i will be more open. and also double agree with the drugs they put in us... its almost toxic isn't it. and you're constantly fighting this state of being down. i hope you're putting up a good fight. thanks for your love and support xx

[@blakehous]

You're amazing and inspiring! I'm sure you have up and down days though. Positive thoughts coming your way from Texas!

[@emilyhayward4726]

Thanks blake that so incredibly sweet of you. we are stopping at texas on the way to florida. i wish i could come and see it properly!! So amazing that i can reach people all over the world! xxx

[@1blondied]

O emily ... we miss you so so much it hurts ... If I could have one wish it would be that you could answer my message X

[@marybeazley7741]

Em I'm still missing you

[@therese3960]

Wondering how nurse Peta coped with the loss of our all time favourite Emily Hayward ❤

[@mikkihester]

☮️ & Love. We are here with you, with whatever you decide. It is your journey. I feel blessed, just being able to watch. So thank you for what you're doing.

[@emilyhayward4726]

Oh michelle you're so sweet.. thank you. The best part for me is having such a support system like you lot helping and following!

[@clairecarey8004]

Hi Emily don't feel you have to hide anything it's the best medicine to get it off your chest ! Well that's what I have learnt in life. We are all behind you and I think you are just amazing a real natural at the.vlogs. Have a wonderful time in Florida with your gorgeous girl xx

[@HappyQuailsLC]

Would someone please give me the needed info that will help me identify and locate her program? I hope to be able to see it online Thanks

[@miaombak655]

Emily I'mgoing through 'suff' atm and keep a brave face. Remaining stoic and strong and I have my shit days where I feel sad, down, teary, fed up, and generally a barely functioning mess. I have learnt to accept that this is ok. It's not weakness or giving in, it just allowing to be and 'at the time' reality. It is scary facing the fear side, so we often push it down until it bubbles over. It's ok to let it out, healthier. ♡ I face each day as it comes, yesterday is gone and noone knows tomorrow. . I meditate daily, took me a while to get into the zone, but now I can and do and it does help me. Distraction is great, whatever it may be that you do. I find music my great reliever, headphones on full, 3am in the morning sometimes. In pain, mind ticking over and end up doing lie down bed dancing lol 😁 Just being you, through the good and the bad is part of your journey that you are blogging. Sending love and a big hug. xx

[@sylviadavis8278]

If I were you, I’d go post haste, straight to the Doctor and ask for a script for medical marijuana . I’ve heard cancer patients say, it’s absolutely the only thing that will level you out. Pain medication knocks you out, marijuana doesn’t . I’m pissed that the doctors are making you live in such pain. You have to take up for yourself. It’s your life and your pain, very personal, everyone experiences their illness in a different way. I love you and only want you treated properly, with respect and gentle understanding , by the best CA doc. Cheers from So Florida.💕💕💕💕 ❌❌💯

[@marybeazley7741]

Oh Emily you are only human and being up and down goes wirh life and i think everyone understands so i say put those videos up you are so sweet and there is a lot of love out here for you...you have a wonderful trip and try and relax a liitte and yes the camera is good love to you both xxxxx

[@emilyhayward4726]

Thankyou Mary thats so lovely of you. i know that whatever video i put up i will have the same support. i will be more open and honest now... the response on this video is mega! Thanks for you ongoing love and support xx

[@Lottiloveslife]

When I feel low I allow it!! I allow one day to be upset, one day to be angry and one day to rest and hide from the world and then I get back to it, life I mean!! These are your feelings and emotions, good or bad they are real and you are allowed them😘. We’re here to support you and each other through the good and bad. Never feel bad for being normal. Have a fab time in Florida both of you 😘😘

[@emilyhayward4726]

No matter what now i will buck my ideas up and give you a bigger insight. what do you think about daily blogging? Lottie you are a real O.G thanks for everything xx

[@Lottiloveslife]

Emily Hayward daily blogging would be great, I love seeing how you are getting on. Do it girl 😘

[@wisewillow5731]

Exercise is one of those things that you can so easily talk yourself out of, but you know if you do it, you will feel better, just like I think you feel about vlogging on days you feel down.

[@mandbetts7843]

the quality of the camera is exellent i have had stage 1 melanoma but i was so luck they cought it early its bloody hot here in Australia atm love your videos yours mandy betts and you.and i share a birthday mine is the 16th july to

[@emilyhayward4726]

HI DOWN UNDER! brilliant thanks for the feedback!

[@Winter_Dream]

Hey Emily :) thanks for continuing to let us follow you, I just love your vlogs so much and your personality as a whole. Hope you two have an amazing time in Florida, I'm so jealous I always wanted to go there as well! Can't wait to see how it goes :D Kinda random but I'm currently going through some anxiety because I have had a cough for 2 months with no flu or cold that set it off, and my grandmother had lung cancer at a young age so I'm basically imagining the worst right now. I went to the doctor about it and she took my blood but she didn't give me an x ray or anything, Do you maybe have any advice on how I can request something like that when I'm not the professional I feel rather silly? I don't wanna tell my doctor how to do her job, you know? Sorry to ask such a question here!

[@Winter_Dream]

@Norma Hi Norma, what a lovely comment you left, it really was so nice to read because it shows there is some kind souls out there, so thank you for that 🤗 My cough turned out to be nothing serious, thank god, and I got over it with time. Since then I've become a mother and life has changed dramatically, and same as you I find myself thinking about and missing Emily and Aisha, isn't it crazy how people we never met can have that effect on us? Both so wonderful people, they were destined to be together til the end. I hope you are well and happy in life Norma, and keep being the lovely person you are ♥

[@MericEryilmaz]

I totally get why you didn't want to upload that video where you felt really down. I used to journal when I was younger and I never wrote the shitty stuff. Because brain never forgets the bad stuff anyway (survival instinct), and I didn't want that reminder when I read it in the future. But good stuff sometimes do get lost in the midst of struggle, and to document it is the best thing to do. Still, I'm sure no one's here to see pure entertainment lalala all the time, you're a vlogger and a real person. Know that we know that :) Loads of love! x

[@nicolavenn-baker9011]

Camera is ace Em, makes a massive difference!

[@emilyhayward4726]

thanks Nic thats fab!

[@arrogantfrog]

I was just catching up with your vlogs! Your new camera makes the vlog look very good! Keep it up with that beast.

[@beelarehman5992]

Hi, yes you really must share your down days. We want to celebrate your good times and support you when you feel crappy xx

[@emilyhayward4726]

bEELA thanks for this lovely comment. i want to show more for all of you to see. xxx

[@Lesley246]

I just have a regular paper diary but if I’m have a couple of those “oh fuck” days when everything just hits you at once I tend to not write in it until somebody reminds me to. Dunno what it is about human nature that we stop doing a thing that’s good for us, cos as soon as I start writing it’s like a weight off the shoulders.

[@emilyhayward4726]

i used to write a diary too but sometimes my thoughts wanted to come out faster than my hand could write haha. i know right...human nature is a funny thing! i will be more honest now! thanks for you love xx

[@chloeb4600]

Camera quality is amazing omg

[@emilyhayward4726]

yesssssss

[@mscavsfan]

Awesome camera!!

[@emilyhayward4726]

yessssss thanks you!

[@Ahipara100]

I really like grenade bars as well! Don't feel bad for being depressing, it is part of everyones life - and I think social media should be full of those moments as well as that is the real life. There is a balance that should be kept :) Hope you feel better soon! :)

[@alainaegenlauf6926]

I miss her....😥

[@Dolphinsz]

Mom passed away from cancer sadly they found it too late she was too weak to have any treatment I wanted her to go to the royal marzden. I wish yuo all th best little one

[@Lesley246]

Honestly though it’s a good thing to let people know you have those days, it’s good to show that you have all these great days in spite of the bad ones. If you get what I mean.

[@baggs1111]

Please share everything. I'm sure that we all know that you are not upbeat all of the time. It would be great to get an insight into your 'real' everyday life

[@emilyhayward4726]

maybe one day il will start doing daily blogs.... how exciting! thanks for your lovely comment nik xx

[@sarahdore7884]

Hi Emily! Stumbled upon your vlog a couple weeks ago and I’ve watched all of your videos since. You’re allowed to be pissed off, I’m pissed off about your cancer and I don’t even know you. Random question, does Aisha have a different accent than you, like are you from different parts of England? Also can you post the link to your program in your videos? Following you from Denver, Colorado

[@emilyhayward4726]

Hi sarah.... it made me laugh when you said you are pissed off bout my cancer too. I can't believe you sat and watched all my videos thats awesome! i don't have a link at the moment I'm afraid. i tried to get hold of one but i couldn't. ill keep trying for you and i won't forget! thanks of he love and support xx

[@franciarriagadaM]

Emily How can I e-mail you? My dad was diagnosed with "nodular malignant melanoma" less than a week ago. We're really sad and worried. It would be nice to receive some help and advise. Thank you so much. I'm from Chile but I have no problem with English because I teach it here. Big hug!!!

[@emilyhayward4726]

email me on [e-mail] we can have a chat on there. sending you and your family loads of positive vibes!!

[@franciarriagadaM]

Thank you, Emily!!

[@craigandrew1413]

Emily I think your a tuff women. I did ask you before if doing all this training was preventing your body from absorbing the medication. Im obviously not a doctor and the last thing id want to see is you not training. Have a great holiday keep your chin up. We all have ups and downs lets see grumpy Emily and give us the real story. All the best to you both your such a great couple.