twin size mattress - the front bottoms // lyrics

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Lyrics:
*This is for the lions living in the wiry broke down frames of my friends bodies: the image of “wiry, broke-down frames” brings to mind serious drug addiction.
*I could hear the Jaws theme song on repeat in the back of my mind: there is a Brand New song called Jaws Theme Swimming, and the Front Bottoms did go on tour with Brand New one time.

[@Yanala7]

So many comments of people telling their stories, some comments that were posted years ago. Reassuring themselves that everything will be okay, that they just need to wait. I wish you all luck and happiness even if you only have a little. Cling onto hope as much as you can, hope is the reason why we're all still alive and continuing to live through all of this. Cling to those last bits of hope no matter what. I believe in you.

[@Yanala7]

Wow i got pinned ? Thank you ! ^^ I hope this comment helps anyone who needed to hear this.

[@valentinalazarte3026]

@@Yanala7 Yes. I think that your words in the comments section can be very helpful. Thank you

[@valentinalazarte3026]

And for whoever is reading this: I believe in you too

[@jessicabusick3296]

This really hit hard. The world is crazy right now. Keeping hope and faith can be hard but I keep pushing through and trying. ❤❤❤❤

[@Idontknow89123]

ilysm. ❤️❤️❤️ :)

[@Em-yi3fp]

With tears in my eyes I begged you to stay

[@gaydummy2845]

You said «hey man, I love you, but no fucking way»

[@ubettagamestopem8267]

i’m sure we could find

[@beckylovesdanandphil1373]

something for you to do on stage

[@gaydummy2845]

Maybe shake a tambourine

[@supercoolyoutubeuser00]

ʋισʅҽƚ υɯυ or when i sing

[@renlovesgingers6117]

“they close their eyes and prayed you would change”

[@woodlanddove]

N' they cut your hair and sent you away.

[@kenziee6061]

@@woodlanddove you stopped by my house the night you escaped

[@woodlanddove]

@@kenziee6061 With tears in my eyes I begged you to stay

[@shahdhani_856]

@@woodlanddove you said hey man I love you but no fucking way

[@konstantinasat2406]

@@shahdhani_856 I'm sure we could find something for you to do on stage

[@someloser7782]

am I the only one who came here just for the part “with tears in my eyes I begged you to stay, you said ‘hey man I love you but no fucking way” but then fell in love with the song?

[@Milo-oe7cc]

1:02 best part

[@axel_ur_momz_gay1018]

SAME

[@jeff4306]

no your not

[@pernillegundersrud4738]

Nope, not the only one.

[@jagsniper3599]

It was me I did that sooo😅☺️

[@hxx.sc1]

Four years till you go to college. Four years before you apply for them only in Scotland and never look back. You got this Lillith

[@myad4096]

Ya you do!

[@moiradavis8364]

I love your pfp. Stay strong Lillith

[@hxx.sc1]

Moira Davis thanks, you too

[@morningboy_]

Cmon Lilith

[@birdylady3332]

You got this!!! ❤️

[@nataliejohnson4480]

my sister went away so now i am sitting in her room listening to her favorite song she was the only person i had...

[@hijudey]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Just remember that she loves you.

[@nina-ep7vp]

you're so strong

[@jacecockrell4640]

my sister left me too afew years ago... she was my world but now we talk almost every day on the phone and our plans for the future has stayed the same, dont worry broski, its hard af and i almost didnt make it but im here now, everything is ok, and everything for you will too

[@mimilopmemes7915]

same. my sister is never home anymore.

[@madirocks700]

i am so sorry /: i really wish i could hug you

[@isabelaszm]

My favorite line is "I wanna contribute to the chaos, I don't wanna watch and then complain".

[@valentinalazarte3026]

same

[@roos8869]

Same

[@PWNDON]

for me personally i just want the chaos to stop

[@orenge-juice.6943]

x2

[@yourlocalpieceofgarbage]

Sameee

[@gh0stly.x36]

Half of the people in the comments are gay or angsty or both mostly both

[@eva-fs9js]

b o t h

[@materfromcars8029]

@buttermycroisant lmao S a m e l o l

[@bolalotv9375]

Both

[@StarboyJuno]

*I'm in this comment and I don't like it*

[@1anx463]

Hi

[@deltaknight420]

"be sure you kiss your knuckles before you punch me in the face" as someone who has stayed in manipulative/toxic friendships because of the fake love they give me, this hits.

[@Hoshi3-jx4mz]

I also unfortunately stayed in abusive and manipulative friendships I’ve never agreed with a comment more

[@jammydodger8118]

I saw these guys in Nottingham last year and I’ve been in love ever since. This is my favourite song by them.

[@valentinalazarte3026]

Yasmine's Corner 💘💖💗💕

[@lassilou125]

Wait... Nottingham is real?!? JK lol

[@e4st3r]

hey i live in nottinghamshire

[@maysonrobinson7367]

@@e4st3r same.

[@pennyk6389]

I relate to this so much

[@goliathh.]

thank you to all the people leaving kind replies, i made this comment years ago when i was struggling and so i wanted to edit it a final time. it’s newly 2025 and i am doing better, i don’t rely on others anymore and i am recovering and therefore i don’t feel the need to keep the original contents of my comment here as i was in a dark place at that time. it does get better, whether it takes months or years things do change and you are able to create change if you seek it out. you are not powerless in the world, your life is from your perspective and you must show the same empathy to yourself that you show to others. running away from your life is not the solution either, like i had originally been wishing for. no matter how much it hurts you have to take it all head on. you will live if you have even a shred of the will to do so. you will love and be loved if you open your heart to it, it is never too late to heal.

[@aya9146]

you got it finn! i know it’s hard but you made it this far and i’m sure you’ll be fine, i know it sounds unbelievably long but you ARE gonna make it and you ARE strong enough, everyday you get stronger and you should be proud of yourself for holding on, it’s gonna be fine and one day you’ll turn back and think “i did it”, i believe in you💙

[@whimsysolace4398]

Six years aint so long. You'll get your happiness.

[@LimeG0ds]

you'll make it. be strong my friend, the world is so beautiful, once you get out, you can see all the loveliness you couldn't see before, and you deserve it all

[@theworstpear6080]

Just hold on in there, we can push through it together. But when you focus on your happiness, time flies. Try to find joy in everyday situations, make your own safe spaces

[@cult.leader]

Finn you got this bucko, life continues and you move along with it to find happiness and you will get there soon so keep your head high

[@justaperson5095]

*”It’s no big surprise that you turned out this way, when they closed their eyes and prayed you would change.”* That shit hurts. I feel like nobody gets me or understands me. I don’t even have a single friend and haven’t done for years.

[@whoreangejuice7421]

I'll be your friend if you want :)

[@justaperson5095]

@@whoreangejuice7421 🥺

[@whoreangejuice7421]

@@justaperson5095 I can't see what emoji that is lmao

[@justaperson5095]

@@whoreangejuice7421 ah fuck 😂- it was the over dramatic yellow emoji with the black eyes with the two white dots in them - the on the verge of tears face lmao

[@whoreangejuice7421]

@@justaperson5095 okay, do you have Snapchat or anything?

[@JustMe-vq1xt]

Wow I wasn’t even paying attention to the lyrics and I started getting teary-eyed from the music alone.

[@lucie7470]

this reminds me of sayori

[@emimooly4818]

With tears in my eyes I begged you to stay, you said "Hey man I love you, but no fucking way."

[@awaitingmars1244]

I MADE IT OUT OF THERE YOU CAN DO THIS IM SO PROUD OF YOU ALL.

[@dhkohdsvbhf]

I’m so happy for you. I’ll make it out in seven years. Just gotta hang on a little longer :,)

[@justsomeonelookingfortheas5998]

Just one more year for me

[@localforestwitch7215]

thank you, just a few more years and I'll be good, than you three years til I'm 18 and I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FREE

[@bri_b9751]

OMG YESS CONGRATS just one more year for me

[@marvarni]

3 or 4 more years for me :/

[@fenlow]

hey all of you scrolling through: everything WILL be okay, it does get better, it’s cliche to say that for a reason: because it’s said so often since it always happens. if you needed a sign to stay safe right now, here it is. you’ll be okay, and you will be happy

[@valentinalazarte3026]

you are so nice 😭❤️

[@fenlow]

Valentina Lazarte 💞💞💞

[@velhoa3326]

@@fenlow Hey Nagito

[@fenlow]

Fallout at the chemical disco sup mikan😎

[@velhoa3326]

@@fenlow Sup. : )

[@allysgay1623]

I hope.everyone realizes this is about a gay friend being sent to a camp by his mom.

[@utsavmanandharz156]

Ohhh thank you. I thought this was like a free spirit being pushed away from his passions and forced into discipline or something.

[@myacaronipasta6856]

rip i used this song as inspiration for an angst prompt where two boyfriends are seperated after one gets sent to another foster home but your comment made my day ngl

[@mandyhunni9164]

if you look it up it’s about a friendship getting torn apart by drug addiction actually.

[@michealelijahdipasalegne]

as much as i would love that!!!! its about a friend having a friend has a drrug problem, he said it in an interview if im not mistaken??

[@trashcan44]

I just wanna say I love your profile pic, 👏 family 👏 Friendly 👏 alternative 👏 content 👏

[@D3c4yingb0n3s]

Leaving this comment so when someone likes it days weeks months maybe even years from now I’ll remember this song and remember so much of where I am now and where I’ve been I hope someone likes this when I’m very different from how I am now and I can just remember this work of art

[@Zalphe]

Remember

[@carolineengel3852]

It’s been almost a year

[@FrenchPatato]

I hope you've gone far!! You got this.

[@kanraleweeb]

It’s been a year! Hope things are going well for you! And if.. on the off chance that it’s not. I hope you feel better and Dont be afraid to cry, ask for help, or express yourself! It helps. Even if it’s small.

[@stark_tomato_boy]

It's been a year hi how are you

[@ainsleymatthews8099]

when i first heard this song, i sobbed uncontrollably. at first i didnt know why but seeing the lyrics makes my heart hurt even more then before. im bi and my dad's a pastor. I'm 17 and theyve never found out. I love my parents, because theyve done so much for me and for other people, but even with less than a year left under their roof im scared to death of what they might do if they found out. ive never been to conversion camp, so i guess this song isnt meant for me, but this song gives me hope that ill be able to make it out, and wont have to live by the rules and ideas theyve forced on me. Thats what i love about this song, no matter what someone has been through, the concept of escaping from what others try to force onto you, whether it be abuse, or socioeconomic status, it makes you feel the hope of overcoming what everyone tells you is your fault, which makes us feel something thats so innately and undeniably human, that we fall in love with it.

[@spiddy9046]

Don't feel like this song isn't meant for you, it is meant for everyone. If you feel a connection to this song, it is yours. I know it's about a conversion camp, but in your own mind it can be about anything you want- and that's the beauty of vague lyrics and music in general- a simple chord could mean so much. Also, I understand your fear of coming out, I never came out to a grandma I loved dearly because I was so terrified. Just know that whatever happens, your life will go on and eventually you'll be okay (which may be cliche, but at a certain age you just settle down) It'll be alright

[@swaggysaint7085]

Did I adk

[@meepmeep1988]

@@swaggysaint7085 you can't even spell the word 'ask' right. Shut up. They are allowed to feel.

[@meepmeep1988]

Hey it's okay. You have made it so so far! I'm mean look at you! You only have a year to go honey. I believe in you. You re so strong. I'm so so proud of you. Your doing great. you'll get there. I know it's hard. I know it's shitty. And I know it's mentally exhausting. But I believe in you. I love you for how you are. Queer and all. You are going to do great things. I can feel it. We can stand together. We can fight together. And we will win together. You may not be perfect, but that doesn't mean your worthless. It's ganna be okay. Stay strong for me alright?

[@forgor4410]

Bisexual is not so bad, it's better than straight and gay, because you get both

[@arrianaouellette6626]

1:01 is the best part

[@ryleegrace6704]

yes it is

[@avocado9084]

Arriana Ouellette “hey man I love you but no fucking way”

[@rattatattattattat2027]

Yeah absolutely

[@nina-ep7vp]

i shiver, its so, so AaA

[@shvfting3383]

Mhm

[@vixiix_6795]

Hellow fellow LGBTQ's, alt kids, or people who are having a breakdown in which i hope your okay

[@sinsworldfanuwu7769]

thx...i really needed that :)

[@Kai-ug5vh]

All 3? Pog

[@Jelli08]

When you’re all three-

[@dunnoeitherman4064]

I am all, and no I am not ok uwu

[@lanaismymuse11]

I needed this thank you.

[@dpeedits6341]

Oh gosh why do I always cry when I listen to this song. I'm seriously crying right now. This should have more views though.

[@jazaam02]

edit (9/5/2022): Hey guys. I'm back. It's been a while. I fucking did it. And I never saw them again. I went to school, I got a job. I started testosterone, I changed my name. I cut them off. I made new connections. I made art and studied for class. I made mistakes and embarrassed myself and let it roll off my shoulders. I cried, but I also smiled. I lived! Here's what I learned: It gets worse before it gets better. You think it's over a thousand times before you see daylight again. But when you find it, and you hit that stride, you're gone and nobody can stop you. I am almost twenty years old, and the person who wrote this comment is a distant memory. There's also a catch to the whole "it gets better" thing. You can't wait for better to reach you, you have to go chase after it. Find out what sets your soul on fire, and never stop doing it. Go talk to someone, and not just to rant, not just to spill your guts and tell them what's wrong... tell them your hopes, your reasons, your joy. Go out in the world and see people and animals and places and things that matter. Learn yourself inside out, and defend that person to the death. This is gonna be my last update. I'm closing the book on this part of my life, the hard times. The teenager who wrote my original comment would have wanted to hear this, so from me to you: You can do it. I'm so proud of you! Go get em kid. ************** i'm so tired of this place. 2 more years and i can leave. i never have to see them again. 2 more years, and i never have to pretend to be a girl again. ************** edit: thank you for believing in me. i believe in you, too. our struggles might not be the same, but they're equal. we're going to make it, and we won't need someone else to tell us that we did. ************** edit (8/13/20): hey everyone. checking in again. i hope everyone is doing better than they were yesterday. things aren't always easy, but optimism gives you a thicker skin, i think. this year, i'm applying for colleges. it's kind of scary, to be that much closer to freedom. at the same time, i'm looking forward to it. when i leave home, i hope it's for good. stay safe out there, guys. best wishes to everyone. :)

[@cumjar.857]

j karas I believe in you!! it’ll get better one day, I promise! You’re valid!

[@Rainydayz4141]

Don't let anyone get in your way your family that you were born into doesn't have to be your family is the people that will support you no matter what good luck my dude

[@scottpilgrimluvr]

Me too, i want to be their son, but i know theyll never accept me for who i am

[@yourlocalcryptid6024]

I feel the same way. But for me, moving out and leaving behind the unaccepting family members means also leaving behind those I care about and am close to.

[@tiredteacups5736]

Trans i assume? If so if you have discord i can give you my user if you ever need to talk to anyone ^^

[@cassandraramirez421]

as a they/them lesbian who’s grandma was going to send them to conversion therapy cause it’s still legal in my state. i used this song for the days i was bullied and felt like i was worthless. my grandma still hates me but i’m been with my lover for 14 months and i’ve never been happier in my life. i plan on marrying them after i graduate college.

[@siratlas8198]

you will make it, you’re so strong !

[@makeda7756]

Just pure ✨admiration✨

[@hisfavworstnightmare]

this is amazing, keep going ♥️

[@game0ver990]

You strong! Keep going :)

[@dr1zzys]

you’re so strong, you got this !

[@damianahylemon2651]

heard the bit from tiktok and people saying "y'all dont understand this song" but man now im crying

[@revs8028]

I feel ya, also nice pfp 👍🏻

[@maysonrobinson7367]

Same

[@3053sydney]

In 4 years I'll take him along with me, save him from the abuse and misery. They hurt him and manipulate him to the point where he thinks he loves them though they don't care about him and just want him to be someone he isn't. I may not be a great influence but he deserves to live his own life and not a shadow of his abusive parents.

[@cawse3429]

you got this, stay strong❤️

[@feckethbalcony3666]

Good luck

[@user-cd5cy7lb3p]

Me too, one day me and her will be far away from here and she’ll know what it’s like to be happy

[@ghostfluff2992]

Holy crap that reminds me of my online bff. This is a memory that doesnt exist to me.

[@jenniferray8569]

you're so strong, I believe in you

[@sharlene1820]

it's sad seeing how many children younger than me wanting to move out of their homes a place where you're supposed to be in comfort just to be their true selves, such an awful world we live in man I wish every single one of you the best amd be carful not everyone outside are as accepting either :)

[@olliefaye9599]

As a trans guy with bigoted parents this song means so damn much to me

[@user-kc2xc8md1t]

same just that I’m a transgirl

[@m0on.avis.]

I am nonbinary so similar thing aswell

[@lordmegatrondoesntdodarken5852]

same

[@imasadpieceofbread8250]

I'm also non-binary and I'm terrified of what my parents would say when I tell them

[@imasadpieceofbread8250]

Update told my mother and it was w a c k

[@ahshit2900]

This moved me for some reason that I couldn't explain. I had a feeling that its about a gay couple and by the comments I believe so. This is very moving and calming in a soothing way. Thanks for making this song, you did amazing!

[@Raptorworld22]

It's about two best friends being torn apart because one of them has a drug addiction.

[@ahshit2900]

German Furman ah, thanks

[@theothefaye01]

It’s about a gay kid being sent to conversion camp. Not drugs.

[@mjbutnotmaryjane]

@@theothefaye01 the singer said in an interview it was about drug addiction 🤷

[@stargeant]

@@theothefaye01 no it’s not

[@whyme7544]

Yesterday I just hit 100 days without SH-ing myself. I know it’s not important but I just feel like this is a place I can share that. And to those who are and have struggled with SH, you’re not alone. We’re all with you.

[@Not4u2see-]

I’m proud of you 100 days is amazing! Your unbreakable.

[@Chickaen_Cannibal]

So proud of you! ❤

[@Yooooo_luke]

Congratulations!! Your doing great :)

[@AnnabethsEdits]

I'm so so so proud of you

[@furbeez]

you got this

[@arieliske6178]

They are underrated gems if you can scroll to the bottom of the comments before the song is over.

[@icarus2926]

PLANTS VS ZOMBIES

[@fulana_de_tal]

idk why the last part hits so hard, the feeling of knowing that someone hates you so much that they wish you to be miserable, lonely and have nothing to claim as yours till the end of your days, idk what it's really about, but it sounds so resigned with that hatred that it almost feels like the subject hates themselves just as much, and i know this part literally names the song, but no one is talking about it, so i figured i might

[@star_4697]

“They closed their eyes and prayed you’d change” I felt that.

[@Mikcaroni]

3 years 7 months. i only have 3 years and 7 months to withstand. in that time, i'll be just finishing college and i'll be able to leave my toxic family and my mentally abusive father. i'll finally be free from hatred. it feels like forever but everyday i get closer to freedom, every day leading up. i'll be able to do so much, i can go out and watch the stars with my friends at 3 am, i can go to cosplay cons with friends, i can go to pride and wave my flag proudly, i can travel, i can do so much, i can be who i am. i can love without fear. i won't have to wear a mask. i know it won't be long til then, it gets closer everyday and i'll try my best to hold on til then.

[@lol-qm2rt]

💙💜💜

[@pursuitoficarus200]

You can do it!

[@impotatoes4277]

I believe in you !! Love from France 🇫🇷 ♡

[@goldenmochi8842]

K o k i c h i ?

[@ΦΩΤΕΙΝΗΣΑΛΟΝΙΚΙΔΟΥ]

I am planning to do the same things. Stay strong, you got this :)

[@beckylovesdanandphil1373]

4 more years and I can go wherever I want and never have to pretend to be happy again, 4 years is so long ik but I’m so exited

[@beckylovesdanandphil1373]

Eurydice Stewart thank you so much it really does mean a lot I’ve always had this thought that I’m not gonna make it past 14 but I’m not too far off now and I’m so proud of myself, well done for getting this far

[@andreea6437]

Becky Loves dan and Phil I’m really proud of you and trust me it will get better! I had many suicide attempts when I was about 14 and I didn’t think I’ll ever get this far. I’m 20 now. I survived and I’m better now. It will al fade away at some point without you even realising. Just hang on please, you are loved, worth it and you can get through it. Please stay. I’m here if you need to talk :)

[@beckylovesdanandphil1373]

a n d r e i u k thank you so much ❤️

[@impotatoes4277]

46 months u can do it !!

[@aleksandarjelenkovic947]

u have this one, belive and think about life after that!!!!

[@bryleejade4039]

"Its no big surprise you turned out this way when they closed their eyes and prayed you'd change" this line hit so hard made me wanna cry

[@jayjay8119]

It's honestly really comforting to know that there are countless other people like me in the comment sections, just trying to survive until we can all finally be free. Free to be our true selves and free to let go of our pasts. Your persistence is motivating guys

[@winrus2016]

YOU GOT THIS!!!

[@lvrdvst]

“cause I am through finding blame, that is a decision that I have made” Hits hard man.

[@misscursed8465]

‘I want to contribute to the chaos, I don’t want to watch and then complain’ is such a powerful line because it encompasses EVERYONE. Whether you watch everyone around you wishing you could be brave enough to just BE like those people you see that have fun without any reservation. Or the people who are the cause of chaos hoping it will make them feel better. It’s a line that makes you think for a while after you hear it.

[@jode2719]

4 more years until i’m free. thanks for the kind messages, honestly i’d forgotten that i had wrote this. little update though for any who may care- things ultimately have gotten worse, i’ve been told im bipolar, i picked up smoking and im fucking addicted, no one accepts the fact im trans, school is on my ass all the time and nobody seems to care about me in the slightest but it’s whatever lmao another update, trying to get assessed for autism seeing as my counsellor is adamant im on the spectrum. i might be expelled bc of some bullshit rumour and still, family doesn’t accept the whole trans thing

[@user-bl1tm7ji9o]

you got it, i believe in you

[@jode2719]

endiveaujambon thankyou, i really needed that tbh, i’m kinda losing hope

[@paulaaa9030]

Cryptid_b1tchb0i i believe in you sm , please stay strong , six years isn’t so long istg , you got it ❤️

[@adrienndevai5976]

I believe in you!

[@ben-km7dz]

Lots of love from SC you got thIs

[@sparksvoy7389]

only 6 years left and i can pack my things and leave. I'll keep telling myself,, "just hang in there", "you can do this", "you can make it there".

[@materfromcars8029]

I believe in you. Hang in there stranger. 6 years left :)

[@impotatoes4277]

72 months u can do it babe ! If u want to talk I’m here for u ♡ love from France

[@paulaaa9030]

milotiic _ u got this and i believe in u , stay strong , i love u , 6 years isn’t so long i swear ❤️

[@traumatizedtoast4461]

You got this man! Hang on, we are all rooting for you❤️❤️

[@te-tkado883]

You can do it.

[@Serenityjm]

This is for all my fellow neglected children out there. Bonus points if you were their pride and joy, but they didn't see how much they hurt you.

[@bakugirl3474]

You literally just described me

[@Serenityjm]

@@bakugirl3474 I like your pfp

[@bakugirl3474]

@@Serenityjm thank you :)

[@F0rest_river_m0ss]

Hol up-

[@C0NFETT1PUP]

O_O I think you described me aswell

[@cheyennestephens7975]

Me: searches this song like twice a day bc I love it KZbin ads: GET A TWIN SIZED MATTRESS

[@vilain_moineau]

I discovered this song thanks to a Deezer playlist called "is this a mental breakdown a depressive or both" and oh dear god if you're the person who created this playlist, thank you so much

[@pumkkimmi]

as someone who just broke it off with their 3-4 year-time bestfriend because i only just realized how toxic she really was and im now having to stand up for my guy-friend as he is sensitive (and not in a good mental state) bc my ex bestfriend is giving him a difficult time, this hits so hard. thank you.

[@KittyChaozzz]

"I wanna contribute to the chaos, I don't want to watch and then complain, 'cause i am through finding blame, that is the decision that i have made" Literal chills man, couldn't find a better verse to describe my life

[@user.el7asteezi]

"with tears in my eyes I begged to stay" I felt that on a whole nother level

[@emmafulton6534]

“There’s no big surprise you turned out this way when they cut your hair and sent you away” hits me hard always and I end up crying. May the 13th 2022 I was emitted into a mental hospital, after telling my parents I was self harming. Stayed there for eight days, but a few months before I had cut most of my hair off that I had been growing out since I was born, so the part always resonates with me. I’ve now been a week free from self harm and trying to quit completely the only thing that was good in that hospital was I am officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety after years of parents dismissing it. Fuck millwood hospital.

[@noballs719]

I hope you're doing okay now

[@xz3296]

Its gonna be okay and im so proud of you for being ckean!!! I'm clean too!!

[@nite-owl4689]

Hope your doing well! We're rooting for you and love you!!!

[@ashjones-zc5dt]

Congratulations on being clean of sh, I went 3 months... Relapsed yesterday and I am disappointed with myself..

[@Loveyourself21072]

its ok! progress isnt linear! im proud of you. 3 months is a long time. @@ashjones-zc5dt

[@dontmindmepassingthrough9013]

7 years… 7 years… you don’t have to pretend that you’re only a girl… 7 years… you don’t have to be pressured into doing school work that stresses you out… 7 years… you’ll get away from the people who just don’t understand no matter how many times you tell them… 7 years… you can love her without hiding it… For the explanation, I have very strict parents who don’t understand stress and privacy, they often judge my appearance too

[@dontmindmepassingthrough9013]

@Quinn Coleman bro..

[@dontmindmepassingthrough9013]

@Quinn Coleman yeah.... I can’t wait to move out of my house, move in with her, buy my first binder... maybe even cut my hair

[@pantherh565]

You can do this, i belive in you 🖤🖤

[@siratlas8198]

you guys can do it. It’ll all be so worth it once you reach your goal, so please stay with us !

[@shkedyrotem]

Hang in there i promise it will be worth it.

[@myspacebaee]

I'm tired of brushing my hair, I'm tired of showering and seeing a body I don't want. I don't want my name, I don't want my hair, I don't want anything to do with myself. Why can't I be some body else. I can't wait anymore

[@oliverse_crazy930]

don't worry i wish you the best and also remember that everyday is an adventure some are good and some are bad just make the best out of everything and if you need someone to talk to i'm here.

[@Noahwalter-bs4ts]

Realist shit ive seen all day 🔥

[@opposumboy]

this song always makes me think of an old friend i lost contact with, he was like a brother to me. this was one of his favorite bands that he would make me listen to when we hung out. this song always gives me the same vibes as our friendship. i miss him.

[@sammiann573]

2 years until i can move away from my family, come out as bi, and be my authentic self

[@sammiann573]

@Shahd remember to remind your brother that he is completely valid for me !

[@kirabat]

1 1/2 years left :)

[@Lizzie_playzgacha]

goodluck! you’re 1/4th of the way there!

[@Diana-83]

Almost there. Hold tight 🖤

[@radoha7538]

Keep going. It’s not a fair world but you deserve a place in it.

[@ebitempurafry]

Haha I always have suicidal thoughts. But then again, I look at my hands and thought to myself "yo, wouldn't that be cooler if you die BUT your name is fully changed and you don't need to pretend to be a girl anymore?" So I believe in my self. I can leave this place. i can be a a man and change the world, even if its mine only. Edit: oh man this comment blew up, a few updates from me! (That I'm pretty sure no one really cares lol) I finally learnt to love myself!!! Edit: It's been a year since I posted this comment, life been up and down, but I just found the love of my life that I treasure so much Edit: we broke up. But thats okay! He made me learn that love doesnt mean anything and he is right, i just hope he is doing alright after a year putting up with me :) Edit: im slowly losing myself, but i will be fine, i will be alright and i will be okay. things are going alright, and im okay.

[@aveenalighalib5778]

You’ve got this. I believe in you dude. I really hope you stay alive. You can change the world.

[@ebitempurafry]

@@aveenalighalib5778 hey. Thank you man, I hope you are doing alright as well because I sure do today :)

[@al3x_b1tch49]

Hey i believe in you ❤

[@stellaroberts926]

Hi just wanted to check in. Are u good ? Have u achieved the things u wanted to do by now ? I believe in you and feel free to not answer

[@ebitempurafry]

@@stellaroberts926 ah hello there! Can't believe someone managed to found this old comment of mine, I'm doing better! I hope you are as well!! Unfortunately I couldnt do much considering that I'm still a minor and live under my parents home, but I have received alot of validation from my friends and some of my family member !! Thank you for checking in, have a great day ❤️

[@dreamies6513]

I remember sitting in my room in 2021 listening to this song but now so many things have happened that I feel telling them would only make it sound like I want attention sometimes talking about your problems feels like a stab in the chest but I just know things will get better for me. I sat for 10 minutes asking myself if I should post this or not preparing myself for others to say "I feel like this comment is for attention" spilling your heart out is never easy, and never will be.

[@laneybend4398]

I get that, not wanting everything to come off as attention-seeking and have people misunderstand you sucks. I hope you're doing better

[@dreamies6513]

@@laneybend4398 thank you

[@weird2972]

i remember when i first heard this song. i cried. this was before i came out as anything. now, it's been almost a year since i came out as bi. tomorrow, i come out as a trans guy. i didn't think i'd make it to 13. and if i survived,, i didn't think i'd be able to come out until i turned 18, when i left this place, this place where gay marriage isnt even legal and trans people cant self identify, behind. but with the help of internet friends, i've survived, i've found my people irl too. they use my pronouns and name. and even if my coming out as trans goes horribly, i'll still be here. i think. i'll stay. for them. for someday meeting the strangers on the internet who saved my life, and for the people irl who used my name and told me they're here for me, after being manipulated at home.

[@anethsoto2845]

hi stranger i support you and yes, stay. everyone will support you,

[@aveenalighalib5778]

Hey man you got this. Everything will be okay. I believe in you. Stay.

[@olive545]

hey, you can do it, stay

[@Jad12605]

i’m so happy you’re here❤️you got this and i’m proud of you :))

[@feathersoffancy8988]

You're so brave dude. It prob doesn't feel like it always, but the fact that you're still going is all the proof I need. Can't wait to see where your bravery brings you

[@bailuvz]

5 more years, 5 more years (Coming back every year if I remember)

[@radoha7538]

You can do it. You deserve a place in this world just as much as anyone else

[@porcelain_void]

Two more years!!! You can do it!!!♥️♥️♥️

[@m00nyisdepressed]

2years left, I believe in you ❤

[@AnnabethsEdits]

❤❤❤

[@Slimsadies]

My depressed self was here listening to this as a teenager, and now here I am at 23 back in the same state. Much love to you all, wish you all healing on your journey. 💗💫

[@rat17]

Been an avid fan of this band and genre of music for many years now. I'm really happy to come back and see the younger kids in my generation finding and relating to it like I did at their age. It's a genuinely beautiful thing.

[@destinyann10274]

After 3 years of a friendship you disappeared off the face of the earth, you stopped showing up to school, your family moved out of their home, all your socials disappeared, and your phone was disconnected. I don’t know where you are but I do hope you’re doing okay. I know it was hard keeping who you were a secret. And I know staying where you were was even harder. I miss you...so often.

[@iii6942]

"they closed their eyes and prayed you would change" hits hard as a trans lesbian :(

[@katieisawesome3210]

Never change for anyone your amazing and valid

[@SJ-lt4ld]

you are so loved. ❤️

[@alexmoreira8784]

you are not alone, keep being brave

[@nunosilva1105]

haha same

[@magicallywyvern848]

so close to your birthday that you didn't plan to make it this far but you did and I'm proud of you for that you got this self don't give up

[@kankrivantas5536]

I see a lot of people talking about how this song means a lot to them because they're queer, and people correcting them and saying its about addiction. Which is true, but art is meant to be interpreted. Maybe "this is for the lions living in the wirey broke down frames of my friends bodies" was written and interpreted by some to mean drugs have eroded these people, but others may interpret it as an eating disorder. "When they closed their eyes and prayed you would change" might be peoples bigoted parents not accepting them. Being sent away could mean rehab or conversion camp. Its all about how the listener interprets it, and thats what i love about this song. It brings so many people together, it voices their pain and i think thats beautiful

[@te-tkado883]

444 days till freedom. It is so close I can taste her, but so far away that everything can go wrong. 334 days left. I m still alive. 303 days left. I will stay alive just in spite people who are making me count. Update: 262 more days to go. I can do this. And all of you can. Update: 196 more days to go. Things are bad now but I m soooo close. I can't give up now. I survived 6378 days. I can do 196 more. Update. 138 more days. I can do this. If I say it enough times maybe I will believe it myself. I can do this. Say it with me. I can do this. I can do this. Update: 99 days to go. I feel like I can do it. I m closer than ever. It is 2 digits numbers from now on. Update: 37 days to go. I can smell freedom. It is close and I can do it. Update : I did it. Last update: It gets better. I took the first opportunity and ran away. It was the best decision I made. I'm free. All my life I wanted to be free and now I am. Sometimes I just sit and listen to the silence. Please don't stop fighting. I made it, and you can, at the other end is freedom and happiness, you just have to live long enough to see it. Good luck everyone, YOU CAN DO IT.

[@DefNotBatmanFR]

You got this!!!

[@acornfrogmushroom8271]

You are so close my friend. So so close. You can do this. Its gonna get better.

[@te-tkado883]

@@acornfrogmushroom8271 Thanks, I hope so.

[@alyssumbread]

keep going

[@te-tkado883]

@@alyssumbread i sure will 10 days left.

[@Mary-l8z6o]

Not even lying everytime i listen to this song i start crying, i just cant help it. Its been a year since i last listened to this and yet i still cry.

[@amyannaaa8160]

This is literally my fav songgg.

[@valentinalazarte3026]

same !!

[@amyannaaa8160]

@@valentinalazarte3026 i relate to it so much atm, thanks for replying tho :')❤

[@rainwmv]

This is for the lions living in the wiry broke down frames Of my friends' bodies When the flood water comes, it ain't gonna be clear It's gonna look like mud But I will help you swim I will help you swim I'm gonna help you swim This is for the snakes and the people they bite For the friends I've made, for the sleepless nights For the warning signs I've completely ignored There's an amount to take, reasons to take more It's no big surprise you turned out this way When they close their eyes and prayed you would change And they cut your hair, and sent you away You stopped by my house the night you escaped With tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay You said, "Hey man, I love you, but no fucking way!" I'm sure that we could find something for you to do on stage Maybe shake a tambourine or when I sing, you sing harmonies This is for the lake that me and my friends swim in Naked and dumb on a drunken night But it should've felt good, but I can hear the Jaws theme song On repeat in the back of my mind Make sure you kiss your knuckles before you punch me in the face There are lessons to be learned Consequences for all the stupid things I say And it is no big surprise you turned out this way The spark in your eyes, the look on your face I will not... I'm sure that we could find something for you to do on stage (be late) Maybe shake a tambourine or when I sing, you sing harmonies I wanna contribute to the chaos I don't wanna watch and then complain 'Cause I am through finding blame That is the decision that I have made She hopes I'm cursed forever To sleep on a twin-sized mattress In somebody's attic or basement my whole life Never graduating up in size to add another And my nightmares will have nightmares every night Oh, every night, every night

[@tineaa3587]

i dont quite understand why i have such a emotional connection to this sonng but everytime it says "when the flood water comes its not going to be clear its going look like mud - but i will help you swimX2" that part sent me to tears whe i first heard this song and it still does.

[@tallytaylor2539]

a message to myself: three years and everything will be better, just you wait, don't give up, don't give up for me, and believe in yourself because you are the only person you need, I love you and that's the most important thing of all, I will always love you no matter what.

[@malkotheidiot]

The world will be yours to conquer after whatever you're going through. Everything will turn out just fine, There are always people who love you, though it mightn't seem obvious at first.

[@AnnabethsEdits]

It's been three years; I hope you're doing better now

[@LastDr3am3r445]

If you’re reading this, I hope whatever you’re going through is the very worst thing that ever happens to you, and that you get through it, so every other horrible thing seems infinitesimally small by comparison, and you can be happy

[@samhar8406]

I don't think that's realistic but I'm still very grateful for that. I wish you the best as well.

[@kylanbates2434]

"They closed their eyes and prayed you would change." For me it's, "I closed MY eyes and prayed I would change."

[@gabbythegoat824]

I love this song so much but all my friends hate it! This needs more views!!!

[@natalie-qq6vk]

How u doing

[@anai0643]

THROW YOUR FRIENDS AWAY AND FUCKING JAM OUT TO THIS SONG

[@briewhit1312]

this is the perfect mosh song. the thematic thumping of the bass drum, the emphatic pause right after the final lyrics are sung. beautiful

[@aDazaiKinnieAndSimp]

2 years until you go to college and don't have to be around anymore, stay strong you can do this scar, just a little more have faith in life.

[@shai_town_]

1:01 reminds me of when my friend ran away from his abusive foster home and sent me a goodbye text (because he was going to his great aunts house 3 states away) I begged for him to stay and when we turn 18 we could move to somewhere safe. He said literally said “dude I love you, but I fucking can’t” it just reminds me of him. We just got back in touch 3 years later (were 14 now)

[@music.for.life67]

11 and gay so young

[@sashaaaa6929]

This comment reminds me of the movie “The Goldfinch”

[@chloecastano746]

the Sirius black vibes in this are big

[@makeda7756]

Yasss when I listen to this I always think of sirius leaving regulas

[@katie228_]

Yess

[@cue_full_body_sigh8694]

Holy shit I've never thought about that but now I can't stop thinking it.

[@potatomonika8796]

YESSSSS

[@namee466]

Bruh, I came here from a Regulus & Sirius video

[@phosismyb1tch717]

2 years till the first attempt escaping the middle east, you got this manea, I love you and no matter what your family thinks about you, believe in yourself always

[@devs.casino4435]

this song reminds me of my uncle. he thought the tambourine part was so funny and so random. I thought he was dumb. I miss those times. He always made me happy. I miss seeing him. But at least I laugh at the tambourines now.

[@claireomgg]

sometimes i just want to disappear. not die, i don’t want the people who love to me to suffer, but i just want to disappear. all memories of me faded away. i want to run away and not worry about money or shelter. i want to get away from here.

[@radoha7538]

I understand. I used to have that feeling really often. Often suicide is characterized as selfish so the thought of not existing or disappearing is really appealing. If I can offer some advice; Find something to hold on to, it can be a goal to reach, a hobby, a place you want to travel to. But make sure it’s for yourself. You won’t find a purpose to living if you try to fit others standards. Find a reason to stay around and that place that you dream of running off to make it a reality around you in small ways. Not to over share, but I felt like I had to be good at everything to make my family not mad at me. Then I took up water color painting, and I am very shit at it, but it makes my life feel like my own because I chose to do it. And I don’t care about being better. One last thing: any reason to stay alive is a good one. Good luck, I hope that feel dissipates for you someday.

[@ilikefrogs3982]

"they close their eyes and prayed you would change" that part hit deeps. I still remember the time I came out as lesbian and non-binary and my parents would literally stay up at night praying that I would change and become "normal" again

[@fluttershy6734]

to all my lgbt+ kids,, please read. you are worth it. you are special and amazing . don’t give up. things will get hard. but things DO get better. it may not look like it now but they do. you will be able to leave your toxic household if ur in one. and then after that, things are so much better. your school bullies? they are nothing after your graduate. keep fighting. please. we need you.

[@harbinger7409]

it's hard to keep fighting, but thank you i really needed to hear this.

[@connoraugh1626]

im fighting a losing battle

[@bbyk0490]

this song reminds me of last october, sneaking out with my best friend, stealing my dads cigs and smoking them, sneaking into boys houses, skating until midnight, holding hands and wrapping eachother arms in school bathrooms. a very harsh time in my life, yet i’d do so much to experience one of those nights with her again.

[@oversizedkai14]

Oh god, how I want that for myself now! I hope we can both make that fantasy become our reality :)

[@stingray3297]

When I hear this song I just think of my friend. He lived with his mom and siblings. His mom grew weed in her garden and her boyfriend scolded him daily. I offered a room in my house to him but he said he couldn’t stay here. It’s been a few years but I’m still hopeful we can reconnect. See you around max, some day.

[@Amy-vx7tm]

Pov: you searched this song as: "hey man i love you but no fucking way"

[@Paradigm-Shift208]

Pfff, I searched "its no big surprise you turned out this way"🤣🤣🤣

[@mxphxsto8334]

@@Paradigm-Shift208 same 😭😭

[@Cerealmilkspoo1n2]

I searched it as “when they closed their eyes and prayed you’d change”

[@zombieeb0y2000]

“it is no big surprise you turned out this way” sobbing that hit hard

[@zeynepozgurer8635]

'with tears in my eyes , i begged you to stay. you said "hey man , i love you , but no fucking way." ' this hits home.

[@oatmealmiracidium]

i cry everytime i hear this song. it's so absolutely lovely and brings back too many memories, good and bad. reminds me so much of the worst year of my life, how badly i felt and how much i just wanted to end everything, give up completely, to not have to feel the absolute anguish i felt everyday. even though i was a crack away from falling apart, i survived it. TFB was shown to me by my partner, honestly the one person who actually saw what was going on and now i rlly attribute most of their songs to him. The Front Bottoms will always hold a special little place in my heart. they geniuenly made me the person i am today.

[@piku_yeet]

As a person who is terrified to come out to their parents I deeply love this song. ;-;

[@moriahgarriga8764]

Sending you strength and love! 🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@levinathan9313]

feels like ive been just above the water for so long n now i cant tell if im sinking or swimming. my hearts so heavy always

[@terra9101]

this song never fails to make me bawl my eyes out

[@oliveoil1282]

I'm not fully sure what 'I will not be brave' was supposed to mean (if it's supposed to symbolize something other than the obvious) but to me personally it signifies hope. When I was 11 my teacher told me that suicide was the bravest thing someone could do. That was a teacher I truely loved at the time, and I cried when she had to go (she was a substitute because my actual teacher was on mat leave). Now, struggling with suicidal thoughts, I think about it a lot. The line 'I will not be brave' brings me hope, reminding me about her and making me look back at how she really wasn't as amazing as I thought she was. I don't want to be brave, not by her standards

[@jacklucian8]

I am completely straight but here anyways because I can admire the beauty of the song, and feel the struggles of those who had to walk this path. I hope that y’all can all move forward hopefully and at least be accepted by those who you love the most.

[@Aspenwashereeee]

5 years until I make it outta here. I don’t know if I’ll make it alive that long but hey, we’ll see.

[@mismeow11]

You are strong honey, and even when u aren't, everything will get better later or sooner!, you can, you will make it out alive, fight as much as u can, u are loved and appreciated!!❤

[@grey0865]

The moment I knew I loved this song is when they said “I will help you swim” cause damn, everyone should have a friend to help them swim

[@alisonruark2590]

why does it sound like Bo Burnham

[@kenzief6690]

Hold up

[@kenzief6690]

@Alison Ruark ur right

[@ireallylikeclouds989]

GOD NOW ITS ALL I CAN HEAR

[@krystal1720]

IKR

[@maxaroni2313]

WAIT A DAMN MINUTE

[@mariaheagle8720]

“It’s no big surprise you turned out this way, when they close their eyes, and prayed you’d change. they cut your hair, sent you away. you stopped by my house, the night you escaped. with tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay. You said “hey man I love you, but no fucking way.”” Shits always makes me tear up. 6 months ago my dad was sent to jail. Before he was transported, they buzzed his hair and he was off. After sitting in the jail for 2 months, he escaped with a buddy of his and they went to camp out at our house. we were quite literally begging them to stay, I didn’t want to lose him. The next day they left, traveled from Minnesota to Michigan where they were caught. No idea what’s happened to them. But I miss him.

[@calebo.3878]

The brilliance in this song writing is that everyone can relate no matter what you’re going through.

[@twdtlou]

I’m so sorry for everything whose gone through this. you are SO strong. don’t loose yourself ❤️

[@emilysstreet7471]

three years. three years until you leave your mom. but that also means three years until you leave your siblings. three years until this town, but that also means in three years you’ll never see your friends. three more years until you can write and write too your hearts content. but also in three years you’ll be leaving your school. three years until there is nothing holding you back. in three years i’ll be 18, i’ll be running as far as i can, but too many things are making me question staying.

[@lylaskipper5772]

You got this lyla. Keep pushing through. 1 more year than your done with high-school and onto the next chapter. You can do this

[@ElizzaYAYYYY]

you did it, i am proud of you❤❤❤❤

[@cucaresto9108]

8 days before you're first day at a new school,You got this Vincent;; Make sure you come back next summer and tell me how it went :)