Unf*cking Yourself-Diana

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Diana, a recovering opiate addict in Vermont.
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[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you all for such kind words and positivity. I was so worried about how this would be received and a bit of my faith in people has been restored through all of you. I really admire what Mark is doing, he’s telling the stories of people who need to be heard. 🖤

[@mandylory6611]

Listening to even an hour of your life story, and i see so much of myself in you. I could totally relate to you. I learned a few things about myself just now and i have you to thank for that. Thank you. 😊

[@triswykes7115]

Springfield's no walk in the park, that's for sure. I think of it every time I complain about Lebanon, where I live up the interstate,

[@bubbernator1]

I am so happy that I had the opportunity to listen to you tonight. You ever sit in the audience and have the speaker tell your story? Yeah. It's a trip. God bless you and I wish you success in all of your endeavors. You gave me a lot to think about tonight.

[@MPulicci78]

Diana, i wrote a comment above… then saw your post… would love to meet you… my parents grew up in the Rutland/Proctor area.. and my fondest childhood memories are from when we visited relatives there… I am living that boring lifestyle you seek… I have no addictions whatsoever… and grew up in a totally different world then you.. would love to sit on your porch and listen to your stories… maybe we can get lost in a corn maze… Anyway, good luck with what’s ahead… I hope you get the boring life you seek…

[@dianaharmon4914]

@@bubbernator1 thank you! The positive feedback has been really amazing!

[@majfed2]

This lady is my niece -the daughter of my brother. I am amazed at her strength and grace- so proud of her heart to use her sorrow to try to help others. I’m so sorry for all she missed out on - but grateful to God she will be one of the survivors. Our family has buried and carried so many curses. I look at her as a first responder who will not turn away from others trauma. Love you Diana I know you will be more than alright .

[@dianaharmon4914]

I love you, I was so scared for you to see this. 🖤

[@majfed2]

@@dianaharmon4914 You are a rockstar no reason for you to ever be scared of anything or anyone

[@dianaharmon4914]

@@majfed2 I’m trying to tell myself that!! 😉🖤

[@freebird6832]

Amazing story, very happy that you are better

[@Flyingfrynd333]

It's quite the journey and takes so much courage to share truths that are ugly, with grace and forward movement. Thank you for sharing, truly an inspiration, this gave me hope where it has dwindled to almost nothing, thank you 💛💛💛💛🕊🕊

[@justin6354]

The best therapist is one who lived that life and can relate..

[@kathleensullivan4547]

❤ amen and amen

[@HisAmbassador7]

Absolutely.

[@DanielHartz]

This is my sister. It is fascinating to hear her this part of her story, one I know so well, but told on this platform. I can testify she's grown immensely through many challenges. I hope her story can help people, but I'm happy her story is here, preserved for others. Even if this is only a glimpse.

[@McSwank]

You are lucky to have her as a sister.

[@j5892000]

I liker story and how she speaks

[@jbooger13]

She's awesome, pass it on. :) I am sitting here at my desk working and crying. We have a different story but so much hits a nerve. I've started unfucking myself too. psychedelic assisted therapy have been very very helpful to me.

[@drbeavis4211]

You've got an awesome sister. I hope you and her find some peace in this effed up world and truly be beautiful people you are.

[@gailmendez5465]

You have a very intelligent and compassionate sister. Her accountability and responsibility of her actions, is very healing. She's pretty too. God Bless her

[@LexiDaniand]

I’m 39 days sober today and watching this after an AA meeting --so insightful. She is amazing

[@MEOW-MEOW1949]

Keep going back ...GREAT 4 U

[@fairygurl9269]

*Much Respect

[@re90652]

Good going. Keep it up. Life looks so different when yer sober. For me, I was only hurting myself, the things that made me drink & drug didn’t care one single bit but it took me years to get it through my thick head. Please try to treat yourself better & the AA program does work .

[@yasminevirili9256]

You got this ❤️❤️❤️

[@josephbissell8074]

37 years sober and I live this moment and all moments sober, accepting, willing and grateful. These choices of outlook allow me to align my will with Gods will which means the next right choice is happiness in this moment. I always remind myself it is always now.

[@jennifergreen6109]

One of the biggest things this lady is doing that I don't hear or see most people doing is taking accountability for her mistakes and understanding why she made those mistakes without making excuses for them. She deserves the utmost respect for this and I greatly admire her

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you so much for SEEING me ❤

[@GoatHouseBlues]

Please allow Diana to come back from time to time to share her life experiences with us. She probably doesn't know it but she's helping all of us be better with her experiences. Looks like she's got a handle on her internal demons. Stay strong. We believe in you. You're amazing!

[@kristinagerson9831]

This woman has a way ❤a gift. Share share share

[@Stillpoint23]

I second that vote!❤

[@Warsign01]

This lady is so deserving of love, kindness, and success. Highly motivated, intelligent, and no quit in her.

[@PaulLachapelle-mu4zo]

This is one of my very good friends and I'm so proud of her 🩷

[@comradeoofers8557]

I don't even know her and I'm proud of her. Please let her know that and that she touched people's hearts with her interview

[@missrhib]

“Shame is that I am wrong; I am bad; I am my disease; I am all the mistakes I’ve made. Guilt is a healthy relationship to the shitty things I’ve done.” Powerful words. Thank you for being so openly honest. You’re amazing. Shame keeps us in our darkness. Guilt shows we are human but have the ability to do better.

[@dianaharmon4914]

❤ you are a wise person it seems!

[@yvonnedeboer7535]

Well said!

[@JeffBostick222]

Shame is completely debilitating. It is a millstone that will always keep a person held under. Understanding that you are not your disease and accepting where you are (taking responsibility) are critical first steps to healing.

[@libertygates4944]

This is one of my favorite interviews I’ve watched on this channel. Listening to her speak about the revelations she’s uncovered on her journey of sobriety and healing made me pause and think about my own subconscious choices that have led to self destruction or recreating the same unhappy situation for myself. I love seeing someone who experienced early trauma and has ended up on a different trajectory than what we normally see. I have no doubt she’ll be able to help others.

[@johnnychannel7824]

I don’t believe that she can quit drugs for long.

[@TheProtagonistDies]

revelations?? you mean problems everyone has... 🥱

[@user-qt6lb3si3k]

Agreeeee❤

[@user-qt6lb3si3k]

One of the best interviews soo positive and real!!!

[@rogerwhiting9310]

Working in a rehab we said "it isnt the drinking..its the thinking. "

[@Miss.Lechuza_Chusma]

Diana is giving a HUGE gift to her kids through her honesty . It's easier to understand yourself when you know where you came from ❤

[@BrotherRobb]

Diana should be proud of how together she comes across. I imagine there is a lot of people who like to be around her and converse with her.

[@Eskay94]

Unfortunately she’s been taught her whole life she’s fucked up, so finally feeling that way takes awhile to get yourself back from being “unhinged” you know

[@dandydon6049]

I don’t think she realizes drugs and alcohol have not been her main problem. Being attracted to losers have been her biggest downfall.

[@etmross]

As an ER doc who sees a lot of dysfunction and not a lot of positive outcomes your story was truly inspirational. The world needs more people like you who have turned themselves around and are taking that story to help others. Truly inspirational.

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you so much! I’m now working for a hospital and I hope to do everything I can to advocate for and support other people in recovery. I think this is just the start of me finding more of my path and being able to use my super powers for good. 🖤

[@Reynaldo-zr3zc]

Beautiful.woman , seriously

[@dianaharmon4914]

@@Reynaldo-zr3zc 🙏♥️

[@Liz-uj2ot]

I dont usually comment but wanted to say how moving your story was to me , its alot like my own, "he moved in and he then he took his mask off," felt that deep in my soul, I wish you nothing but the best and hope one day you find the kind of love you truly want !

[@PrimateProductions]

I bet nothing could make one feel more betrayed than that would...

[@Liz-uj2ot]

@@PrimateProductions indeed

[@maxsiehier]

Narcissists. Horrible people.

[@ryanhomcy7759]

"If they're willing to love you and you're a piece of shit, then you need to be willing to accept their bullshit love." THANK YOU for putting this so clearly.

[@taylorandnanapatterson5584]

Right??? This is how women/men end up in shitty relationships. Here's the two lies we tell ourselves: 1- We deserve "less than" because we are "less than". 2- We need to look past their flaws if they can look past our deficiencies. These lies are subconsciously leading us through a merry go round of bad relationships and repeating abuse. The cycle stops when we realize our true worth.

[@dprcontracting6299]

This lady is so articulate. I learned a lot from listening to her story. I hope things continue to improve for her.

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you 🖤

[@ugo8015]

@@dianaharmon4914from listening to you talk I knew from the onset here is one gifted and Mensa candidate…

[@Nevermore101]

What a remarkably strong woman. As a "slow learner" - the part about the universe teaching you the same damn lesson over and over again really hits home.

[@melissarivard7238]

Diana you’re amazing. So intelligent & eloquent. Not just intelligent, but wise. You are going to help so many people! You’re an amazing human being. Just don’t ever forget to care for yourself first & foremost no matter what. Then your kiddos next. I’m so incredibly proud of you & the hard-earned progress you’ve made & the strength you have so obviously gained through it all ❤

[@ArcturusOne]

Exactly many after quitting addiction become Diana's in their own right.

[@nearlynormal]

Diana, Getting 2552 comments since your video was posted only one month ago is indicative of how much your story resonates with people. Thank God the place you work had the wisdom to employ you. Your life experiences, compassionate and direct way of expressing yourself will help many people make their lives better. Plus, the act of doing this work will re-enforce the path you are on. You are not a drop in the ocean, you are the entire ocean in a drop ~ Rumi

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you so much, your kindness and insight are greatly appreciated. I’m starting to write, I’ve always wanted to and I think that enough people have had many of the same experiences that it would resonate with so many. 🖤

[@nearlynormal]

@@dianaharmon4914 So sweet of you to reply

[@nearlynormal]

@@dianaharmon4914 Sweet of you to reply. “Gratitude is not only the greatest of all virtues, but parent of all others” ~Cicero

[@willburrows8834]

Many of us carry with us the consequences of our parent’s terrible decisions, personal trauma and personality disorders. It is up to us to realise these behaviours in them (and in us) and not pass them on to our kids. Shortly after my daughter was born I woke up at 3am with a thought in my mind as clear as a bell, it went “this stops with you. Your job in this world is to stop the damage done by your parents from being done to her”. And so I have lived by this.

[@EmersumBiggins]

My parents were not the best. Nothing horrible, but definitely could have been way better with a little effort. To this day, my mother blames her poor parenting on her parents. They did it to her, so she didn’t know any better than to pass it on.😐

[@nade1231]

@@EmersumBiggins the point is that your mother was fixated only on her parents and did not see the problem on a more global level - from everything back in the generations, as a repeating wrong pattern forward in the generations, from a value system of your family, from politics, from religion and traditions, from public opinion that is a factor, from everything around you that has shaped you that way.

[@carlosbent5046]

Love 💕 the way this woman articulated her self profoundly congratulations on your 8yrs sobriety needed to hear this thanks mark great work bless you & that beautiful lady 🎉☮️🙏😘

[@cbi-ju5mi]

Crap, 10 mins into video and I’m tearing up. I can’t believe this amazing woman went through this experience and came out so smart, articulate, and seemingly so self aware. I sincerely wish her good vibes and continued success with her recovery…I would love to hear an update interview in 5 yrs ❤

[@BillyBoy-80]

You get it. A lot of people dont and never get it. I am also in recovery and you are an inspiration. Thank you for opening up and sharing your story with us. Your kids are very lucky to have you raising them. They will be stronger and wiser because of it.

[@robertcraighead2565]

She’s incredible. Her recollection and awareness is beyond comprehension.

[@danielamidon5543]

Man, this shit but me super hard. I'm a 41 yr old person who used to be severely addicted to heroin who's been clean since late 2016. I'm a dude. I don't have kids. it will probably be another 15 years before I develop the intelligence, strength of character and sheer balls that this woman has. Thanks to you both. Knowing that becoming a person like this is possible.. is what makes me keep pushing at it. I had a shit day and needed to hear this. So, thanks

[@jaynesegman7847]

hang in there. and stay away from drugs

[@fastgurrrl]

FORZA

[@Phoenix_20231]

Stay strong. U r loved and u can do anything you desire

[@MEL2theJ]

You'll get there. You're already on your way 🙏

[@Inertia888]

I was in Vermont in 2012, with a decades-long habit. In Oct. of 2013, I went back to Massachusetts and got clean. We definitely got away from it just in time. The poison got way worse, in a very short time, immediately after you, this woman and I walked away. 🖤

[@timelessacres5611]

Your hard work over the past 8 years is apparent. Congratulations on sobriety, self awareness, self actualization and the healing you have done thus far. May you use all of your life experiences as fuel to continue on this journey, as a human, a mom and as a Helper. Be well and be the authentic you that you are becoming.❤ Thank you for courage to share your story!

[@BelindaMua]

I think this is one of my favorite interviews. She’s so intelligent and sounds like she is going to make it. I only wish we all had this kind of wisdom

[@afterthestorm221]

Your story almost mirrors my own, and I just want to say how proud I am of you and your courage to confront the past to change the course of your future.

[@dianaharmon4914]

THANK YOU 🖤 you’re kindness and encouragement is such a blessing

[@Marciaitsme]

This one made me open my eyes. I'm a 54 year old black female who had 2 older brothers and 2 working parents who immigrated to Canada in the 70's. No drug or alcohol abuse. I thought my upbringing was normal and almost perfect. Being the youngest and a female with an old fashioned west Indian background, I accepted receiving the bare minimum from every aspect of my life. Relationship, jobs, love, friends, school, gifts, encouragement, grades, I can go on. Like her, I wanted to please and save everyone so they would stay with me or give me what I didn't get or hear from my parents and brothers. I purposely tried not to give my kids the bare minimum and be open with them. Therapy was never an option for me for some reason. Her thinking style is so much like mine now. I wish her well

[@brunofalcon4645]

you said you wish her well...I wish you well. is therapy an option now? because it seems like you may could use it. ( thats not an insult btw I didn't seek therapy until my 50's ) but its always good to at least see if a therapist would help

[@YOUARESOFT.]

THERAPISTS are quacks@@brunofalcon4645

[@YOUARESOFT.]

what does skin color have to do with anything, quit with your false opression

[@Marciaitsme]

​@dirtsky It doesn't. I'm a proud BLACK woman. I just like saying it. 😊

[@Marciaitsme]

​@brunofalcon4645 I believe so too. Never to late to heal. 😊

[@virginiawalck7534]

I’ve been on a 30 year journey to unlearn the damaging behaviors of my youth. I’ve come to realize that I don’t have to react to life in survival mode anymore, now I get to become the person I was supposed to be.

[@Etrielle]

I could have written that comment, I can 100% relate 😊 It's only uphill from here for us 🥳

[@WheelerRickRambles]

Starting at 19…now 57…I had life coaches, counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists & the like…in my weekly/monthly life trying to unfoock myself. Breakthrough happened at 45 where additional 5 yrs were needed to put those tools learned to work. Today, I confidently say ‘The past will never affect my future in any negative way!’

[@earthlingcarl3179]

This channel should be renamed "Bad parents create messed up adults".

[@meghan42]

Or maybe "The results of ancestral trauma".

[@gonnfishy2987]

Broken people make broken children

[@jimmoses6617]

That's a bs excuse. Blaming your ancestors.

[@tonywright8342]

@@jimmoses6617it’s not about blame. It’s generational trauma that keeps getting handed down through the generations. Until someone, like Diana says this has got to stop.

[@oldboy4271]

Vermont born and raised, here to support Diana an old friend from my hometown, glad we are still here and she is able to share her story....🖤

[@dianaharmon4914]

Oh hi…🖤

[@oldboy4271]

​@@dianaharmon4914Hi Diana!

[@rendellbower]

I was crying through the whole interview and I have never been a drug addict.She is so intelligent and self aware and everyone can learn from her insights.Great interview. also props to Mark for just allowing people to speak and not interrupting with inappropriate questions.

[@jimmiehines1769]

So you think cus she's an addict that that makes her less of person?wow

[@gwensstepbro4966]

very relatable. one of my favorites. she is a perfect example of recovery being possible and absolutely attainable.

[@fredsting6737]

For what? To see the reality of this shit show

[@boozumbuddybulliesburgesse4324]

‘As I address the disorders in the order that they kill you ‘ is an interesting concept I got up early this am and was reluctant to start my day with what could have been a discouraging catapult for my day (which I have been struggling with the effects of trauma and PTSD symptoms) I am glad I tapped to listen!

[@Liz-uj2ot]

I love that she said that too, I hope you find healing and self love !

[@boozumbuddybulliesburgesse4324]

@@Liz-uj2ot that is so lovely for you to take the time to say that thank you! 💜

[@donnieraby5322]

I have been recovering from my feral upbringing my entire life. I am 62 years old and now have 10 years of sobriety in Alcoholics Anonymous. I appreciate this video in so many different ways. One of them is that I've never known the language how to describe my upbringing as Feral.

[@joko09010]

This is probably the #1 best SWU interview I’ve seen. Diana’s story is so multifaceted and she tells it so well. She’s an inspiration and someone to emulate at this stage. She should seriously testify before congress on these issues to help make good changes. Love this so much.

[@cosmoosefarms5440]

I tell you what chick, I've watched an awful lot of Mark's videos and I can say that almost none of them have ever brought me the tears. Yours, wow! For the most part, it's like I'm listening to my own story. Kind of so incredibly crazy to hear it. Someone else's mouth knowing that it was their life, but I have so much in common with it. I'm almost 42 , two more months, I've now been drugged free for almost 2 years, and since March I've lost 82 lb and goins. Super hella strong. You got me super emotional right now. You just see the other people also are waking up and taking care of themselves and loving themselves, we're all worth it. It's a lot of us. Us don't see that. I'm so very very thankful that I was blessed enough to realize I dope was the wrong answer and stopped it. Many can't come back from that and also realize that being fat super is not the answer and coming back from that, I've been fat my whole life. My most heaviest was 404 lb and in 18 lb I'll be 299. I haven't weighed in the twos since I was in my teens. Thank you for your story, this was one of the best ones I've ever heard.

[@EllEss331]

You lost me at "chick". Her name's Diana.

[@leahflower9924]

​@@EllEss331😅

[@terryhall5507]

My goodness. Wow! I've been in recovery for 30 years and I learned more from this beautiful soul than I ever picked up through aby book.

[@dianaharmon4914]

That’s quite the compliment, thank you so much ❤

[@younglobo]

Diana's reflections on the damage that regret and self-hate can do are incredible. So much of what she expressed here is exactly what I've experienced in life as a person in recovery with depression and anxiety. Thank you, Diana and Mark for doing this.

[@bruceedwards9161]

This woman is truly inspirational. This woman beats any sports personality for people to look up to. Turn this world around .

[@dianaharmon4914]

Your encouragement is so appreciated, thank you 🖤

[@fucketaboutit]

sports personalities? REALLY? I can't listen to 5 words into a sentence muttered by any of the spoiled and rewarded for nothing unintelligible ebonic speaking failures... Clown / short bus talk

[@hollistertidwell4201]

Good stuff. Having a good relationship w yourself is so overlooked and important. Re: sticking to the familiar - "we can never get enough of what we don't want" hah ...

[@KaiserSoze212]

​@@dianaharmon4914 My heart goes to you. You are inspirational, we need more women like you. Your bravery gives me hope. ❤❤❤❤

[@dianaharmon4914]

@@KaiserSoze212 thank you so much, it really feeds my soul to hear things like this. 🖤

[@NikitaCoulombe]

The best time to plant a tree was yesterday, the next best time is today. Her level of honesty is inspiring.

[@dianaharmon4914]

❤

[@xaviergarner6750]

She's very intelligent and She's going to be Fine as Long as she puts herself 1st

[@feddo1980]

This episode is a free class about life ❤ big respect lady

[@caramason1095]

I’m in where she was born and as lived as a child and I want to say that she’s beautiful and I am very proud of her. I’ve been clean and sober for 12 years and the work never stops. Also finally hearing it’s about so much more than addiction. Best video yet. Thank you Mark and these videos are where it’s at!❤

[@enriquediaz-rato4170]

This lady has impressed me. Good looking, smart, thoughtful, courageous, trying to do the right thing and very aware of her weaknesses and goals. She deserves a better life way more than most of us.

[@SippinOnSumSweetTeaa]

I recognized instantly within the first few minutes that she was using psychedelics to medicinally process what she had been thru. I know this growth. It’s real. There’s more to this than I think we’re giving attention to.

[@jamievackicev4905]

I hope it's growth.❤ Stay positive

[@whiteprism7004]

Yes that’s why we are seeing the legalization of psychedelics for therapy. Soon psychedelic psychotherapy will be accessible in many countries.

[@GabrielXDrums]

@@whiteprism7004you think that’s going to help people? It’s going to make shit even worse.

[@ronniebrown2517]

@@whiteprism7004 i live in a very red neck/conservative/republican area of east texas....our state rep is very much pushing psychedelic therapy for veterans....half of this country is stupid and the other is smart.....easy to tell which is which

[@Wyndorel]

If you've heard of the "stoned ape theory", maybe there is indeed... Not that I've studied the subject but the premise is interesting at the very least.

[@beeleerosie]

I just started this video and I have to say this is the most insightful one I have heard. Her ability to reflect on her childhood and the impact it had on her life choices is amazing. She is telling the tale of so many others but she tells it do incredibly well!.

[@dianaharmon4914]

I love that you took time to be so kind! Thank you, I appreciate it so much🖤

[@sarahsmthrox]

This woman!!! This perspective takes a lot of wanting to heal. God bless you! ❤

[@Sunnyday069]

I’m 3.5 years sober from alcohol and I appreciate Diana very much for telling her story. I can relate on many levels. ❤

[@seanadamson280]

Well done

[@tomburkart7814]

The hardest to quit

[@alr9967]

I have never heard anyone talk like you. Your self awareness is incredible. I know what it’s like to make it to the other side and last night I fell for a few hours. I hate the feeling afterward way more than I love the escape. Thank you so much for telling your story. I know I can beat this like you have. Best wishes for your continued health and prosperity

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you and big blessings 🖤

[@zanmartin8054]

This is one of my favorite interviews. She will do amazing work in her new job! I have the utmost respect for her.

[@1jyl22]

❤ Yes.

[@The3Sp7]

Genuinely happy to hear of a story like yours have a grounding resolution. So much of the abuse is tied to generational traumatic behavior that is passed down. Thank you for outlining that the addiction itself is a form of escapism. Incredibly grounding for me to hear from another perspective from someone who’s experienced similar. All the best in the unFucking Diana 🙏🏿 Your story is changing other realities

[@TheBlackCat1337]

yeah trauma is the root cause of most addictions.

[@Buzzbuzz444]

Well said! We all need to unfuck ourselves 🫶🏾❤️

[@Jane-ui9ps]

This kind of self awareness is so beautiful ♥

[@tinamccartney3778]

7 minutes in and had to comment. This is the best video to date! The insight this woman has is amazing!

[@salishseas]

My daughter recently went to college. Before she left I asked her if she had a good childhood. She said, “ I had an amazing childhood “. Her words were the most significant and satisfying words I will ever hear in my life. I am so thankful her father and I were astute enough, gainfully employed, and had secure affordable housing. She is going to go on to be an asset to society. I wish everyone could make their lives work for a more successful and positive society.

[@dillasoul2228]

Capitalism requires a majority to be unsuccessful to maintain the leisurely lives of the few. We call that a dream for a very good reason. It's not really possible for the majority brought up without access to the resources to allow the lives you and your husband have been able to provide for your children

[@chaoswitch1974]

Good for you

[@bigt9374]

Being employed and having a house is low on the list . I'd say being loving , being a good listener, being a good teacher , etc you only mentioned non emotional material things .

[@susanwilliams5071]

This brought tears to my eyes! What a gift and blessing she gave you.

[@dandydon6049]

@@susanwilliams5071maybe her daughter was telling her what she wanted to hear.

[@ginaallen8280]

-the mask came off. and he was every man I’ve ever loved. This hit me over the head with a mallet. My heart dropped into the pit of my stomach… ! Thank you for sharing . It’s like your narrating my life. I don’t feel so alone anymore

[@dianaharmon4914]

So many women have said this to me since this video was posted. I wish we could all start a club and support each and share the knowledge we’ve gained from our lived experiences!! 🖤

[@ianharley1726]

I grew up with a selfish alcoholic abusive father. We siblings raised ourselves as our poor mother died young. So at ages 9,10,11 & 12 we did what we had to do. Amazingly we're still alive today 55 years later having all led good lives. You either copy your parent(s) or go the other way. We chose the other way. I thank my mother for getting us to a certain age so we had a chance after she passed away. I miss her every day. You gotta stay strong.

[@bigt9374]

The pope centuries ago had a saying . Give me your boy until he reaches threats of seven and I will make him a man . In other words most of your character is developed in those seven years so you really need to be thankful of your mom .

[@bigt9374]

The age * the auto spell on fire tablet is horrendous.

[@tedlivermore6955]

Maybe y,all got your Mom,s genes.Glad ya made it.Cheers.

[@youtooaromatherapyyoga2991]

This woman is AMAZING! Thank you for talking to her, she’s brilliant and I wish her so much happiness and healing ❤️

[@EmmaElaineN]

I'm an alcohol and drug counselor and I have to note peer mentors kick ass. Keep it up

[@dianaharmon4914]

❤

[@han1nja]

This will be saved as one of my favourite SWU vids. What an incredible person and inspiring story.

[@mikekennedy4008]

My favorite interview so far. Coming from 25 years of recovery, I love how Diana "gets it" (the miracle of the recovery process)! She is going to help SO Many addicts! May you continue to "re-groove" those thought pathways and flourish!

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you so much!

[@cheryls.olvanybatdorf3048]

​@@dianaharmon4914❤❤thanks

[@patrickodonovan5066]

What a fascinating and resilient spirit. She has a fabulous capacity for memory and healing. This is a very moving episode thanks to Diana.

[@dnastrand]

Diana thank you for your insight. I’m a survivor of severe child abuse. I keep picking from the bottom of the barrel. My husbands both were awful drug users and alcoholics. Leaving them was hard but I made it out. I felt that I deserved the abuse. I married at 21 to a 38 yr old man. They both are dead from their life choices. I am still trying to heal.GOD bless you for your transparency.♥️

[@bugaures2119]

For her to have found the help so many of us have been searching for makes me weep.

[@zenwarrior3603]

“My feelings about myself and my relationship with myself is just as detrimental as any addiction” ~ Diana That was a heavy statement because your negative, fearful emotional state leading to a dysfunctional relationship with yourself as a result of childhood trauma is like the original addiction for which you acquire other addictions in order to cope. This is really at the heart of everyone's dysfunction and addiction.

[@dianaharmon4914]

Yes!! I absolutely agree with that and wish that everyone who sought recovery from addiction, was taught this. ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@jennifergreen6109]

perfectly said, I wish more people understood this

[@kal22222]

@@dianaharmon4914 Gabor Mate has some really good books on this subject

[@saskiavandervoort1243]

I think she's a huge role model for others struggling with issues in life. At least for me, thanks a lot for these insights and this interview

[@fifidelrey5909]

This woman is a warrior. Smart and fierce. The world wishes her well and she will help many people.

[@mikewoodford9003]

Diana is like a personification of all the positive things we tell ourselves and the small step by step victories we make in recovery. Thanks for telling your story, it helps so much I can't adequately explain it. I'm 41 and have been sober from alcohol for 2.5 years, your external dialogue mirrors my internal dialogue on good days. I think that's why so many of us here really connect with your story, is that you bring hope, understanding, and a fully relatable life example. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you so, so much ❤

[@Sarah-Franz]

Mark, I have been following your channel for a while now and what you have created is a massive piece of work. There is a man called Dr. Gabor Maté, physician and author who has dedicated his work to studying childhood trauma, stress and addiction and illness and how these are directly connected. His books and talks are incredibly eye opening and in so many ways revolutionary. He is well known (you likely know about him too) and youtube is full of his talks and interviews with him. The Soft White Underbelly is like a huge social study that prooves everything Maté - and in fact many others who have understood that it all has roots in early childhood - talk about and could serve as a foundation for Maté’s work. It all comes down to love. And the fact that people don’t get enough of it. If we want to be happier as a society we must change the way we bring up our children. So I just want to say that what you do is incredibly valuable for society and I really hope it can somehow be used (perhaps in collaboration with Gabor Maté) as a material that will help to put research into practice and change the way we raise people. And potentially also help us to look at social care, health care and education with an actually holistic and relational approach. Thank you Mark.

[@ckh2815]

After watching hundreds of Mark"s interviews, it is apparent that Mate is right about the sources of addiction. The only opposition he gets is from "professionals" who are deeply afraid they are wrong and professionally can't afford to admit it.

[@blucky1250]

I’m a sober coach and I was talking to one of my clients about Dr Mate today “in the realm of hungry ghost “. The gateway to addiction is trauma. 💙

[@dianaharmon4914]

Gabor Mate is my go to on all things psychology. He’s amazing

[@EllEss331]

“Not why the addiction but why the pain.” - Dr. Gabor Mate Kinda sums up Mark's channel, doesn't it?

[@signaldrift2274]

“We look at the world once, in childhood. The rest is memory.” Louise Gluck

[@KCinspireME]

Love this! Amazing example of turning pain into purpose!!! “Don’t let the pain be for nothing.” 💕

[@billhenry6757]

This was so hard for me to watch... but it is so valuable... I had to watch it 10 minutes at a time... I had to stop... breath... absorb... think and then watch more...it was like you were describing my childhood...thank you for being so open and honest... you are a treasure Diana... thank you

[@dianaharmon4914]

🙏🖤

[@brigittespence5548]

Diana, I listened to your video on the way to work at my restaurant. You’re a lot like me and your words resonate deeply. I, too, have four kids and grew up as a feral child. You call it “un-fuc****” while I call mine, my undoing of my life. Learning how to be whole and complete without a relationship, drugs or alcohol has been paramount in my life while being present. Thank you for sharing your story. If you’re ever in Nashville, reach out. I’m always happy to make a new friend.

[@dianaharmon4914]

Thank you!! I definitely will 🖤

[@elizabethkubat7533]

I can relate to Diana more than any other person I have seen on your channel. I wish her the best and hope you do an update with her at some point. Thank You for all of your incredible work Mark. ❤️

[@marekvollach7831]

As a growing clinical counsellor...I SO, SO, FEEL for this woman. My upbringing was just like hers...Hence the need to become a helper ...after helping myself through Recovery and Therapy. YOU ...TOO...SHALL live and THRIVE, MISS

[@123cillitbang]

I wish Diana health and healing on her journey💚 She's a toughie coming on here and sharing her trauma! Warrior woman who survived, I pray you will find your safety and bliss💚🫂

[@whowhatwhenwherewhynow]

You're amazing. Please stop giving yourself such a hard time. You've learned the lessons. Now eyes forward. I think you will be great in your new role

[@5thdimension625]

I know,I wish she spoke kinder to herself. As she said, the work isn’t done. Good luck, Diana. Stay single. Do this solo for a while. The right relationship will show up, especially with yourself

[@shanbanan7414]

Girl!! I have these conversations with myself E V E R Y DAY! I felt every, I mean EVERY word you said. & so you know, you ARE WORTHY! you ARE VALID! & even though I've never met you, I have love for you because I am you! You are an inspiration to me & I know many others! Your story resonates so much with me! I am literally in tears! I am going to watch this interview over & over again! Mainly because I'm crying to much throughout most of it & I know I'm missing parts. You're a great mom btw! We all make mistakes it's the learning from our mistakes that makes the difference. I could sit & listen to you for hours!! Much love from Southeast Texas!

[@jennahmorris2732]

Favorite one by far. I related to this the most out of all of these interviews. I love her perspectives on things. I’m 751 days sober from alcohol after quitting cold turkey of an addiction that existed for years and am also a brain cancer survivor. It was so nice to hear her and feel a little less alone.

[@BecomeConsciousNow]

Diana explained perfectly how trauma in childhood leads to addiction. She is clearly a very intelligent person who articulated beautifully how negative childhood conditioning controls how we behave and controls our decision making. I wish her well for the future!

[@John-sweeney333]

This is with a doubt the most honest and impactful expression of the human condition.Thank you for sharing this.

[@dianaharmon4914]

❤

[@CurlyByNaturee]

I really like her. She is very self aware and understands that recovery is an ongoing challenge. I wish I could articulate myself the way she does.

[@Cheese_crackers]

Start Journaling everyday

[@TennesseeJed]

She's very eloquent and lovely!

[@augustwest5487]

For sure

[@CreativeArtandEnergy]

Thank you, Diana. I am turning 40 this month and trying to unfuck my own head, tuning into art, sobriety and school now. It means everything to hear your story. ❤

[@jimkeogh8552]

I can’t imagine a more qualified candidate to become a recovery coach than Diane. She has the experience, insight and honesty which will make the journey for herself and her clients in a positive symbiotic relationship beneficial to both. All will grow and gain insight beneficial to all in the group relationship. I believe she is where she is meant to be which assures positive outcomes. Yes you do deserve the space you’re in and many will benefit from it. Best wishes.

[@omdesigned]

I agree 100% BUT… not wanting to be a coach or to relive those things with another damaged person is a completely honorable choice. Going into a healing modality is awesome, but to not get caught into the process of helping others to avoid yourself can be very tricky!

[@hotflippinmess9178]

OMG you're telling my story! This is crazy. Almost everything you're saying down to your age is my story with drugs and men and the inner child work. I'll have 4 years sober this November.

[@hotflippinmess9178]

I don't have any kiddos though and I went to college like your little brother.

[@yvonnehamilton1583]

I love the title. Addiction is not only drugs. She nailed it all. My personal addictions have been being single and,spending money I shouldn’t and shopping.

[@Diana-83]

From one "Broken little Diana" to another- You're fascinating & you're incredible. You're enough. You got this.

[@tucsonwilly]

This woman is amazing. People that abuse kids do so much damage.

[@eileenmariehennighan9883]

It's an ongoing abuse it doesn't stop in childhood. The effect on the nervous system is lifelong.

[@tedcarlson8176]

Diana I’ve shared your story with several people;we all find you unequivocally inspiring. You have so much strength, courage & wisdom… thank you.

[@dianaharmon4914]

No, thank YOU! I really appreciate you taking time he time to extend your kindness and gratitude ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@tedcarlson8176]

@@dianaharmon4914 You are the personification of “When you find yourself walking through Hell; keep walking.”

[@ritaillinois7951]

"Why do I believe I am my mistakes?" ❤️ This compels me. Thank you, Diana, for sharing your story with us. You are suited well to help others. You already have. PEACE ☮️🎶

[@rigelwilder3660]

"guilt is like a healthy realationship to the shitty things you've done" Profound statement

[@N-nannah]

What she says about what we're taught about love and self worth, in childhood....that is so true. I already knew these things, but hearing her describing it in her words, opened a new understanding for me.

[@GrandmaDawn118]

You are who I am DYING INSIDE to be! I am “in recovery” but Whyyyyyyy do so many other people IN RECOVERY have their life together and I don’t! Sorry this wasn’t supposed to be about me..i just wanted to let Diana know that this video just became one of my ‘go-to’s’ when I just can’t seem to snap out of it. Motivation. Thank you.

[@ETJULIA]

@dawnbailey3016 each and every individual is on our own completely unique path - please don’t compare yourself! draw inspiration from others, yes, but continue to honor your self. you are exactly where YOU are meant to be. and that continues to evolve as you continue forth in your recovery. you are doing an amazing job, congratulations and keep going! 👏🏽👏🏽💖

[@babyinvasion]

I believe in you 🖤

[@GrandmaDawn118]

@@ETJULIA I’m not crying,you’re crying lol seriously thank you so much for this…it really hit me coming from a “stranger” and you just taking the time to comment means the world to me ♥️ much much love from Florida

[@jamessloan2680]

Comparing yourself to others is dangerous. I am working on loving myself as I am. This involves seeing how my thinking (ego) leads me to find a way to believe that I am not the person I "should be." Just do the best you can and find ways to be kind to yourself

[@jaynesegman7847]

hi. you better snap out of it. and stay away from drugs. good luck

[@jinjertodd851]

Best heartfelt, honest interview yet!!! I can relate 100 percent to every word she spoke. Truly amazing when you get honest with yourself! Diana your words touched me deeply!

[@heatherbailey8583]

There is so much power in this woman’s insight! I am so inspired by hearing her story!

[@dianaharmon4914]

❤

[@jeremydemarco1089]

There is life after trauma, what an inspiring story. Your story is going to touch a lot of lives.

[@1jyl22]

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