Unlocking secrets: Reading my father's prison letter

[@Dancemom-hw2jt]

I grew up in Mansfield a few blocks away from your family home in the Woodland area. My mom knew your mother and thought she was a lovely woman. My dad was a doctor at both hospitals in town. Everyone in the community was heartbroken by your mother’s murder. You are an inspiration especially to those who have experienced severe childhood trauma. I’m so impressed with your strength and perseverance. You are amazing!!!

[@whatupplaya7951]

Narcissists are everywhere!!!! It's wise to learn how they are. They can have a person so twisted up you don't know if you're coming or going🤪

[@sarahcampbell7929]

yep & it's only those who have experienced these dangerous soulless entities that get it 👍

[@keile513]

Yes!!! It’s agonizing!

[@leoniehendrickson2530]

That is so true I was in such a relationship but the Lord delivered me. Thank you Lord

[@lyndafinnell2336]

Did you ever confront your dad about the vacation he was going to take you on that you had suspected that you would not return alive. Your gut instinct helped you so much. Especially that night saying don’t look up.

[@jannloch]

One thing is important to know. You can never confront a narcissist with anything. It means nothing, and you never know what the answer means.

[@SSol-el3uo]

You are brave. I destroyed the trove of letters my sociopath of a mum would send me. I call them her dissertations of hate. I can't stomach them. I can't even have them near me.

[@annebalderston2520]

Good boundaries❣️

[@Rayman1971]

Good on you... Why put oneself through the bs...

[@Kt-cn2rq]

Don"t do that that is evidence. He should take those letters for parole hearings.

[@admin1815]

is he trying to get you to think how important family is? He should have thought about that before he did what he did.

[@sidabd492]

Watched your story and was worried about what happened to you after all those years, I was worried that you may turn criminal, drug user or alcoholic but fortunately I can see you young handsome successful man , I’m so glad 💚

[@leoniehendrickson2530]

God has kept him that low life was not his potion in Jesus name

[@farahvogue6715]

Collier ! You are such a intelligent, smart gentleman 🙏🏻God bless

[@alishastaves2388]

😢Your Story has consumed my whole evening. I watched 5 hours of footage of you. I laughed and cried. I am truly moved by how intelligent and brave you have been throughout your life! You're amazing and great looking. ❤Take Care! #proudofyou

[@victoriaryanlpcpc8075]

Scuttled means drunk in the Irish language slang. We’re you saying Scut?

[@tillanienaber3081]

I think this young man still hurts badly. Sad. The damage done will not go away. Be strong.

[@vivavoice7211]

Yes, he is still stuck in the grip of his father's mind games. He needs to let go and redefine himself outside of being the victim of a psychopathic consciousness. Praying for your ongoing healing Collier ❤

[@hanagloriaedelblum5693]

I strongly disagree. "Forgetting" or burying a trauma keeps you tighter in it's grip. This guy HAS freed himself of his father's grip with the fact he told the monster he loves him. Collier is helping more and more people daily. How many can say that about their own lives? I guess though, we all wish him well and you do too.

[@leoniehendrickson2530]

​@@vivavoice7211He need deliverance all pain and trauma can go away by the mercy of the Lord

[@annaconway313]

You're a very strong brave and intelligent man. Love from Ireland❤

[@voicije]

the fact that your father never admit killing your mother...must still be a difficult thing to know and have to also know he will never tell the thruth..geex..you are strong person...

[@voicije]

@@Jenjenilou so he admited a lie...it did not change my comment..he did not admit the thruth..and Collier deserves it

[@maryjaneblues7712]

Im so sorry for ur loss!! RiP to ur Mother🙏Im 45 & grew up in NJ & distinctly remember this because of Collier testimony & him being a child it was a big deal..very sad!

[@sarahcampbell7929]

Have just come across your channel.. sending you blessings from Australia Collier 💞 keep tellin your story lad xx. It's only those who have experienced these dangerous soulless entities that get it..

[@collierlandry]

Thank you! Fun fact, I have a jar of VEGEMITE on the bench right now 😉

[@sarahcampbell7929]

@@collierlandry Hehe horrible stuff it is 😂

[@patti.autocad3652]

Thank you.... for living through allll of that... to tell alll of this... the unspeakable is finally spoken, such courage your precious mother instilled in you...

[@Carmel明慧]

"Self defecation" lol 🤣 You cracked me up telling that story! For me, there's absolutely no embarrassment about that whatsoever.

[@ateosedm5690]

I just want you to know you're a brave person with a beautiful soul. My heart goes out you man. ❤

[@honeyvitagliano3227]

Thank you for sharing your story. Being able to come to grips with the reality of a real life horror movie is a process and some are not able to come back from the abyss. I'm so sorry for your loss. My mother was murdered by a guy I casually dated for about a year after I told him we would be better off as friends. Thank you for the work you do. 💕🙏

[@francescama]

💗🙌💗

[@kaymekla5]

♥️🙏🏽 love and prayers for you

[@ritabrown9542]

i understand . My childhood didn't end up like yours did but there was a lot that was kept under the radar .

[@madisonflowers-8057]

Your mother would be soo proud of you

[@MB-pl6dt]

The verbal abuse still lives with Collier. His father would call him a f....., fat etc. Keep healing man thats the best revenge.

[@l.janecliftonrozell4707]

What a fine man you grown to be I’ll never forget your eye when you were on stand I came across this page & knew it was you ❤

[@kam0406]

It seemed like the grandmother knew what had taken place. Was she ever called to the witness stand?

[@teemarie5478]

This is the first time I’ve heard of this but the grandmother was there the night it happened. I find that really eerie 🙈

[@Ericatrue2.0]

I was wondering that. She seems to obviously know things and helping cover up stuff. She was close with her, she knows something

[@Caroljeanbarnhart]

I am so happy that you got past all of this❤. I lived in Columbus during this time and remember the trial

[@drensha2044]

RIP your beautiful mom😢🧡💙🏵️💐🌸

[@agnetha2012]

I am currently separated from my narcissistic husband. He wants to come back and says that he is a changed man and I shouldn’t live in the past about what he did to me and my kids.

[@kaymekla5]

Please stay strong love and prayers ♥️🙏🏽

[@agnetha2012]

@@kaymekla5 thank you 🌸

[@astrialindah2773]

Girl don't even think about it, you're only going to get more of the same that you got when you were with him.....

[@agnetha2012]

@@astrialindah2773 I know 😥 I hate hurting others even though I know he has hurt me and my children deeply. I know I must stay strong. Thank you 🙏💜

[@astrialindah2773]

@@agnetha2012 it's really a sad thing when we fall in love with a narcissist...... Because they're never going to be able to meet our needs because they can't even meet their own needs..... But our number one job is to take care of ourselves and to set boundaries for that purpose. I pray the very best for you and your children!

[@mountain85]

You are amazing ❤

[@collierlandry]

Thank you so much @dpashrestha for watching and commenting! Have a wonderful day!

[@anniegssm7160]

I admire you collier God bless you for your future life !l pray for you having a good life and have your own loving family l always follow your podcast your really insperation San Diego CA 💗😍😍😍

[@collierlandry]

Thank you so much!

[@ciara313245]

Honestly the swears make it complete 😭😭😭😭😭 I'm sorry you had to go through that Bro💔

[@pmshea63]

My heart goes out you. It has long ago. So happy you are here to share.

[@rnopes21]

Believe me I get it. It's amazing just how convenient the sociopath/narcissist's lack of self-awareness is. They are black belts at diversion and shifting the conversation. They absolutely know how to dip into a person's psyche and get them extremely riled up and pissed off and you why? Because we know just how ugly it is.

[@lee383C]

Hi Collier, I just watched this again after watching this quite some time ago. I thought I would reach out in response to your own experiences in your childhood with family cutting contact due to claiming you “look too much like your father” & this breaks my heart.. I have a brother 2 years older than myself, just hit his 40’s & he too experienced similar situations throughout his life with my aunties on my mothers side, due to my mother passing away in ‘89 of an overdose after being introduced to the crazy drug scene of the 80’s by my father in her early 20’s. After passing away in ‘89 @ 27 YO, my family blamed my father, he introduced her to a life of drugs & crime “Bank Robbery “ back then & my brother & I grew up with my grandparents on my mothers side & I remember so many times throughout my childhood hearing my aunties say to each other & to my brother that his exactly like our father & he doesn’t just look like him but that he was a lot like him & would grow up being exactly like him.. Unfortunately I think it was so severely drummed into his head from such a young age of I would say possibly 4 onwards, to the point he himself followed a very similar life “losing so many years” due to what I believe as sabotage to an extent due to the similar look he had to our “sperm donor” I nOw call him, after learning so much more about him & the things he did to my mums side of the family & especially my mother herself in my adulthood.. My brother has now finally turned his life around fully & is truly making me so proud “Not that I wasn’t before” I’m just proud now of his progress & his massive changes & not just his strength after everything his now accomplished.. I have to say my heart truly goes out to you Collier, I really couldn’t imagine having the struggles you did at such a young age.. I myself have lived away from home after the age of 14 for the complete opposite reason to my brother & that was me being an almost clone of my mother & how hard it was for so many people in my family to live day to day with the memories of the heartache & loss had a negative effect on myself.. Strangely enough my brother & I both can understand your struggle to an extent however your hardships in your young life will never be fully comprehendible by anyone with everything you had to stand up & fight & the strength & maturity way beyond your years that you had and just everything life threw at you @ such a young age & to have grown up such a compassionate, grounded & loving person is absolutely so commendable to watch, I truly take my hat off to you.. Much love & respect to you always 🙏🏼🤍

[@glitterpink6586]

I worked at Lorain Correctional in Grafton. Inmates get moved mostly due to behavior if they’re involved in gangs and they either level up or they level down if they level up that means they’ve been in trouble at their current prison that they were and if they level down they can go to a lower security Warren correctional is a level three

[@suzanbeverlyhills2310]

Thanks 🙏🏻👏

[@Skyflower44]

I've been educating my children about CLUSTER B Narc/Socio/pyco Types. My Kids now understand why I grey rock my family lions den of madness . My son only needed a little info , no ugly ifo.. I just told it from a psychological perspective or which he understood completely. He's a clever mind is my boy . I'm Irish... I thought you looked Irish 💗 I get to sware a lot lol I'm irish, I'm allowed lol Feck ! Fek fek! Fek those High level cluster bs😡💗💗💗👏👏👏

[@amyb.b3133]

Did you ever keep contact or re contact your sister after foster care?

[@patriciarobainamourid6597]

Your neighbors would probably love to host you..hospitality is a huge thing with them

[@leoniehendrickson2530]

There is no way he could of done this alone all the time the Lord was with him.

[@JLingelbach1]

It is shocking that your mother’s sister (your aunt) abandoned you. The community had more care, love, sympathy for you. How could you make sense of it as a child when the adults were baffled by it. Incomprehensible behavior.

[@ms.jasmine2340]

Thanks 🙏🏻

[@collierlandry]

You’re welcome 😊

[@cindymartin2820]

I remember the case, and How brave you were

[@TheKatarinaGiselle]

You should still do the 23&me!

[@raymondkymsuttle]

I know their are more important things in this discussion but Collier is a o freaking handsome.

[@KF-cx8bm]

Your mother would be so proud of you

[@collierlandry]

@KF-cx8bm, it's heartwarming to hear that you think so highly of my mother. She was an incredible woman; I'm lucky to have had her in my life for as long as I did. ❤️

[@ritabrown9542]

When you live it as a child it is is hard to convey it to others .

[@patricianyandoro5606]

Narcs have no soul . There is nothing home .

[@dawng.6497]

Just found you! What a story😔🇨🇦

[@dotstipstricks3758]

Im so sorry for you having to go through all of that horror .. where can i watch the movie " a murder in Mansfield" please?

[@suemount6042]

Amazon prime is one of the places it on, possibly Netflix and discovery plus and on some other streaming sites

[@alysoncaddick6344]

The insidious nature of the letter is astonishing!

[@Agent-jj4cc]

What happened to the mistress and her child that she your father made? Are you in touch? Is she in touch with your dad? Did she remarry? Does the child know the story about your father?

[@drensha2044]

She was such classy lady🌺🌼🌸

[@collierlandry]

Yes she was and a wonderful friend and mother!

[@misslove432]

I cannot find your doco to watch in Australia?

[@lorieromano]

As someone who has self deficated, there are worst things in life😂😂😂

[@vidhoard]

He really is a sociopath!

[@anenowo]

The moments we freeze… to survive!

[@Maria-0017]

Yes sat in jail with nothing to do but think 🤔 so letters can be mind control, best not even going there with them, unless it’s to your own advantage to read them.

[@collierlandry]

Yes they can! I'm so glad I can see the manipulation for what it really is now!

[@dianes5762]

Sutt, could be for Sutton whiskey or Sutton Farms. Late to the party but it doesn't look like anyone answered you.

[@kavintamil5153]

Oh my God! Please take care of yourself. 😢😢😢😢

[@betsyjennings3992]

Unfuckingbelievable!

[@andiekommes8374]

What was the letter stamped 1994? The envelope was shown then the letter read was dated 2007…??

[@collierlandry]

When I made the film 'A Murder in Mansfield', my producers went through some of the letters and the envelopes got switched around on some. The date on the actual letter is the real date. Hope that clears up any confusion.

[@andiekommes8374]

@@collierlandry I watched ‘A Murder in Mansfield’ and enjoyed getting to see and hear your story. Yes that clears things up for me, thank you!!

[@KMF3]

Well what happened to Sherri's baby. That would be your half-brother or sister.

[@thelmaparker7888]

Why would he bury tour mother under his new house???? I find that strange. Why no bury her deep in a forest.

[@KristiLEvans1]

Control.

[@truecrimeshininglight9821]

To have her body near and literally sit on her body to where if they never found her he would have that control of keeping her close I think he was truly wanting the kids and raise them to be like him glad it all came out

[@rosyrain8]

you are brave and very handsome .

[@NegativeAccelerate]

Yeah bro is a hottie. Especially with those eyes and hair.

[@essexitagermeng5504]

Collier, you look a bit like the famous German violinist David Garrett, especially recently with lighter hair

[@NuKim-ld1tw]

I just saw your story on SWU. Listening to you read your father’s letter talking about your aunt and uncle, he sounds like he is trying to normalize murdering a spouse. Because you uncle was so “awful “ it wouldn’t be a shock if she killed him. Like ‘hey what I did is normal for married couples and normal to feel the urge’

[@d.annejohnson5631]

Interesting. "BF" means "Brain Freeze" to me. (I am closer in age to your father than you...perhaps it's generational?).

[@collierlandry]

Probably so. I have that from time to time after having a cold drink, I'm grateful to have the required equipment 🤣

[@msannthrope1863]

I can’t, with that sidekick. She needs to go.

[@katiecannon8186]

Or maybe, just maybe, you’re kinda rude.

[@msannthrope1863]

@@katiecannon8186 or maybe, just maybe I reserve the right to find her completely insensitive to what he’s actually saying more than half the time. It’s distracting.

[@coloradocricket2370]

Is he out of jail?

[@KristiLEvans1]

Nope. He’ll never get out

[@luaine66]

He has been turned down for parole many times next chance is 2024 ...but yes he is eligible for parole...so was charlie Manson, lol

[@nadershadani2854]

👏👏👏

[@timbrady6473]

Listening to you reading this letter I think your mother sacrificed herself in order to get you out from under this pontificating windbag of a father’s influence. He may have done you greater damage than what his actions have caused if you had to endure more years of close proximity to him. Mom is proud of you.

[@virochachetty5074]

Here from Soft White Underbelly

[@DianaCarolinaGirl22]

You remind me of Tucker Carlson, the way you look and definitely the way you act and talk.

[@collierlandry]

I’m not sure if that is meant as a compliment or not lol, but thank you.

[@smilanek]

💙

[@tcltv-ei2eu]

You could havetried to go medical or dental school

[@coloradocricket2370]

Ironically my fathers name was “Jack” too. Not his birth name.

[@riverebec1]

The lead up to the reading of these letters was excruciatingly long. And this guy sounds as narcissistic as his father. "I'm the only adult here" and "not everybody in my family is as strong as I am". Is building a life around a childhood trauma a sign of strength or exploitation? Regardless, Collier definitely STILL has a boatload of resentment and anger to work through. God bless him.

[@madlift]

Anger doesn't have to be self destructive-- you can give it a purpose and put it to work on behalf of others to help them heal and learn. Kudos to Mr. Collier for being willing to open up the tragedy in his life instead of drowning in it as so many others have.

[@antzabingle8593]

You should just read the letter and not talk about other things inbetween

[@Nikky170194]

Its his channel, he can make video's the way he wants. Also he tries to give some background information in between, which can help himself and his listeners to have more context ;)

[@Skyflower44]

Sociopaths don't have emotional attached to memory. One day after... They are over it. That's how they work. Not human !

[@Neevie-Styx]

I saw you on Soft White Underbelly. Very interesting story. I’d like to see your film if I can find it. What’s funny is that your Hollywood name is my ex’s last name (he’s a murderer too) and my last name. So that was weird for me, after hearing you called “Collier” throughout the video, then at the end, finding your KZbin link and seeing that our last name is the same. Anyway, great content. And I’m very sorry about your mom. 🩷

[@collierlandry]

You can purchase the film here on the channel or on my webiste store www.collierlandry.com/store Thank you so much for watching and commenting, your support means so much to me. Have a wonderful day!

[@TheSouthernDarkling]

@CollierLandry Listen. I saod i was done with the. PBF business. Imagine my surprise hearing your own love of acronyms. I speak accronymese. MTB my YTPBFFF❤ Once again, calm down, buddy 😂 i am taken. IDK if i heard your age. Im 41 almost 42. I have 2 kids, 2 animals. I have health issues.. i move as fast as a statue. Also, im lazy. Omg im not being creep. Good grief. Haha. On such a serious topic, SMHAM. ((( HUGS ))) and i got storie, too...all that weird psychobabble, no murder yet or ever😮. But yeah I UNDERSTAND 💔🫶🙏

[@TheSouthernDarkling]

The typos....my good eye deceiveth me! I'm sorry. I just don't want to edit that stream of consciousness I wrote ya there😬😇

[@TheSouthernDarkling]

Let it out, FFS🖕🫶