UNMASKING 2: My Spiritual Perception of Autistic & Sensitive People

[@recoverywithme]

I've never shared my spiritual view of Autism & sensitive folk openly, so please let me know your thoughts, as I am curious to hear your perspectives & experiences! ✨

[@orangeapplebanana]

[@mustacchiweb]

As above, so below

[@recoverywithme]

🪞😉 oh yes

[@recoverywithme]

Back to you! ✨

[@steven_scattergood]

What is interesting about discovering that we are ‘quirky’ is coming to know that at many times we have mimicked someone or something to feel like we fit. In our search for meaning and finding who we really are a huge part of us seems lost. Wondering why we do the things we ought not to do and seemingly continuing to do it against our will is like an unwanted friend and hiding it all away is really tiring. Walking along the road less travelled whilst others are on the super motorway of life seems like we are alone but that is our pilgrimage. We were made peculiar for a reason and we were given a unique opportunity to brighten the world one step at a time. I knew this video was special as I couldn’t keep eye contact and kept looking away and that happens when it touches something inside of me. A thought just came to me about iron sharpening iron and also a portrait slowly being painted into a masterpiece. Learning to walk slowly when we already know how to run is possible. We can walk and not grow weary and enjoy the kaleidoscope of colour that continues to morph into a blend of shapes and images that seem to have been a part of everything for so long. Travelling through a spectrum of what we have been chosen to have is like allowing time to stand still and always being a child. Your thoughts definitely got me thinking and thank you for sharing a part of the kaleidoscope of many colours that we all are learning to enjoy.🙏🙏☮️

[@recoverywithme]

Wow I feel like I need to digest this comment and maybe read it a couple more times. Really well.. illustrated? I’m not sure if I have the words but I think yours were just brilliant. It really resonates and I hope many others find it too ~ thank you so much 🌞✨

[@Astral_Dusk]

I can absolutely relate to high-functioning autism drinking. A lot of mine led to a deeper subconscious social anhedonia that I know is not who I really am and part of it is certainly the alcohol massively lowering the dopamine baseline which may take at least 90 days of sobriety for the dopamine receptors to have significant repair but exercise also supporting and potentially speeding up the process as well with enhanced brain-derived neurotrophic factor. Really seeking out that genuine social support makes a difference.

[@raymoonlight3396]

I'm undiagnosed/self-diagnosed. And I keep feeling like I have this intense internal war, which i am now realizing is my intuition and my sense of self trying to conform and try to be "normal"... i feel like this part that was trying to conform became a clawing darkness in me at some point of time, constantly making me second guess my intuition. Even in moments when I know for a fact my intuition is spot on, constantly fighting against that second guessing is exhausting... and I think that left me in a pit of stasis for the longest time... until it clicked for me. Somewhere somehow my intuition did not give up and kept trying and trying its best to make me see that there is light. That I am not doomed in that pit. As I kept hearing you talk, the more I was feeling more amazed at how my intuition automatically came to these conclusions and some part of me wanted to follow it. I am nowhere consistent with it cause this is all very new to me at the moment, finally feeling like I am sober, I am awake and I can make conscious choices without getting in my own way... but it is a start and I am proud of myself for that. Somehow when it clicked, I cried so hard feeling like I had killed my inner child. Cause I was looking at her in pictures and for the love of everything, I just could not remember her at all. I didn't remember how she got through life. Until recently I couldn't fathom that somehow I have survived almost 30 years of my life. I felt both "where did the time go?" And like I'd been stuck in that pitch black pit with no light for almost 10 years of those 29 years... it really felt like that, but going back to looking at family photos, talking about older memories I feel like started bringing pieces I thought I'd long forgotten or lost along the way back to me... i am finally for the first time in my life I think, genuinely feeling so grateful and I really want this feeling to last. I have to try my best to protect the tiny ember I finally, after so many years of feeling like burnt out ash, got to spark... Thank you so much for talking about this and putting this out there. I feel like not a lot of people talk about the sensitivities and spirituality of it and I feel like this video and your first part of this was a godsend for me. 💙

[@TheNeuroconvergence]

Thank you for sharing.

[@taupetwo]

While I don't really consider myself spiritual and I'm not religious, I really appreciate your perspective on connecting again with ourselves and nature. The closest I have come to that spiritual feeling (the awe) is through music and nature. Simple and slower living is what I have been striving for largely out of necessity (autism) and connecting more with my sensitive side / younger me is what I have been missing, and you describe your journey well. Thank you for sharing :)

[@recoverywithme]

I love it when we can have varying perspectives but still appreciate each others take. I really respect that ~ thank you so much for this and for spending some time. Sounds to me like you’re onto something really good 😊 I think I was worried i would get lost in the void if I didn’t try to ‘keep up’. Turns out quite the opposite was true! 🌞✨

[@amynoble175]

This was amazing, your have articulated a lot of what I have been going through and healed from, and continue to heal from. I am 48 years old and have lived a life not knowing I was autistic, but have experience life through through a spiritual sensitive lens. Bringing autism to my framework has helped so much with my healing even though it is a label. Thank you for being so brave and pioneer for so many of us.

[@recoverywithme]

This was the first thing I read upon waking this morning ~ thank you for such a warming message and for sharing your reflections back with me 🧡 Strong and sensitive go hand-in-hand and you are certainly the two. I agree the label is both useful and useless. It encompasses some aspects I can align with but then twists them into weakening definitions and meanings. Not to mention misses out on the most important part that I sense you've already found your way to. We have been long purposely suppressed and with this knowledge, we can choose to rise back up through love. It sounds simple but the greatest things always are. I recommend: The Book of Joy by 14th Dalai Lama, Desmond Tutu, and Douglas Abrams. If you haven't read it, it's quite the JOY!

[@HeartbloomHalfling]

I resonated so much with everything you have shared. Thank you for being so open about all of this. Spirituality is a special interest of mine (not diagnosed as autistic, but really relate to the autistic experience, by the way). I wonder, do you have an interest in tarot and other oracle cards? I wonder if you would love a practice like that. I love tarot. It is such a great tool for exploration. Your pattern loving brain may really love it too, if you never considered it before.

[@recoverywithme]

Hi! Oh I’m so glad, thank you for hanging out and spending some time 🤗 Yes I’ve absolutely considered it and my mum had both tarot cards and angel cards when I was younger ~ though I don’t remember her using them. We were always an avid crystals and incense kinda household haha. Very homely for me 🥰 I’ve been playing with the idea of getting some cards but none have crossed my path as yet. As soon as I find a place selling them I’ll make sure to get some! 🧚🏼✨

[@peterfox5106]

I've really appreciated these past two chats. It really feels like sitting in the kitchen with a pal, so nourishing. And, speaking of synchronicity, 2nd time in two days that I was reminded that I really should be doing "little me" work. It helped me so much a while back and then I just stopped. I shall go back to it now. Tack!

[@Synchrodipity]

My spiritual journey started before I found NA - I spent most of my young life fascinated by all things supernatural and strange; UFOs, ghosts, Buddhism, Wicca, Magic, Monsters and so on. When I was 16 I started dating a born-again Christian - but I think most of my interest was about her and being part of something, rather than believing - and so it did not last. Drugs and drink got in the way, and that was that! It was only recovery and the 12 steps, and the idea of a 'God of my own understanding' that I really started to dig into it - I've since followed lots of paths, tried lots of things and, the older I get, the more I realise how little I know. I'm now many decades into recovery, and I only got diagnosed as autistic / ADHD a couple of years ago - before that I had some weird-arsed concept of being an indigo child etc. I've still got a lot to learn, but a connection to my Higher Power is paramount. BTW, I think the way you sit is really cool - like a cat about to pounce x

[@recoverywithme]

Hahaha I love cats ~ I’ll take it! I think I just find it comforting or something. Sitting ‘normally’ also feels boring somehow 😂 I’ve never thought about that before (weird cos I think about everything). So happy to read that you’ve found your way to so many answers. Decades of recovery is amazing and shows incredible strength! Thank you for sharing your journey and I hope many others find their way to your comment and take strength from it too! Connection truly is the magic. Mega!! 🌟

[@koalalah]

I just closed my eyes rather tightly after watching this out of awe for your profound message for humanity, but also because the light from the screen was making my eyes sting even though it's not night time and the luminesence is on the lowest setting lol (duh, right?), and you know how sometimes after staring at something the image stays imprinted on your cornea or something because you can still see a vague outline of the corresponding shapes. Anyway, in the middle of the screen there was this shape that recalled a heart.. must have been the way you were sitting in that chair with your legs making a kind of v. Before I figured out what I was even 'looking' at, I saw the heart. How fitting. Thank you for this massive hug, and reminders, I needed all of it, and hope to be able to mirror this out into the world, the highest vibrations that I can muster. Was vibing pretty low before watching your video. Love you Mikaela! 🤎🤎🤎infinte brown earthy chocolate hearts for you 🤎🤎🤎& more thoughts to follow!

[@recoverywithme]

Wow your comment is very touching but also very on point and timely! I’ve been listening to @AURORA new album ‘What happened to the heart’ 🫀 As I relate a lot to the message in her music and her interviews about the sad state of the world. What an amazing perception of my video, it’s really warmed me to read this and I love the magic! Thank you so much for taking the time to watch but also to share some insights 🌞✨

[@mustacchiweb]

Thank you so much, you inspire me to be a little light and kindle each others lights

[@recoverywithme]

This is magic! Thank you for your light 🕯️✨

[@dylanjones9237]

thank you for telling your story. i've found it really helpful :)

[@donnellallan]

I related to this very much! You explained the process so well that I feel I could share this video with another in order to explain ME to them. What a gift. Thank you! 💜

[@recoverywithme]

Awh wow thank you, I’m so happy to read this! It’s so beautiful that we mirror each other ~ I knew not everyone would align with this but I’m over the moon that you do!! And that you feel ‘it’ too 🫶🏼✨

[@donnellallan]

@@recoverywithme 💕💕💕

[@SpideyCat1]

Love your videos and your honesty and hope for a greater way of being. We shouldn't be living like this, we have lost the fact that we are nature and everything is connected and needed. Also, please listen to the Artist/musician Ren....I think you'll like his message too, he's one of us 🌈

[@recoverywithme]

@@SpideyCat1 Thank you & I hear you! Naturally I agree with your perception of things 🌿 And Ren, already on my daily playlist 😋 We have some things in common it would seem! 💫🙌🏼

[@Elianalivinglife]

We need to use what is our strengths, and remember to rest properly in-between, as we use more mental energy than most, so getting into a circle of using our strengths and propper rest and recharge, and then use our strengths. Resting and recharging is as important as using our strengths, if not more important. Just as a pro athlete. My brain is as a pro athlete, and with out propper rest i lose, with proper rest I can do everything until I need propper rest. Our recharching and battery use is very different from neurotypicals, and that is key to transforming our life to the better, as with proper rest and recharge, we function much better when we are using our strengths. Learning where the boundaries is and when and how to propper recharge and rest, is the difficult part and communicating that to others in a kind but serious way.

[@recoverywithme]

@@Elianalivinglife yes to all of this 🙌🏼

[@wearloga]

I'm very grateful I ran across this video and the previous one. Though my life has been significantly easier than yours, I am now, after almost 36 years and six years after my diagnosis, at a point where everything broke down. I think the process of recovery is very slowly starting now, we'll see how that goes. Your story about finding yourself resonates with me strongly. I'm at a point where there doesn't seem to be a "me" to get back to. I obviously exist (at least in a practical sense that I experience something that I call existence), but I don't feel a "little me" that can tell me who I am or what I want. My (very) tentative hypothesis is that this missing "me" is what is causing all my troubles at the moment. What I have never experienced, contrasting to your story, is the feeling of something spiritual. All that I know is my thinking, analysing side. There are obviously emotions that affect me, but they don't feel a part of myself, just something that is always 'around' me, for lack of a better word, that sometimes takes some form of overwhelming control. I've heard many people with autism speak about spirituality and all of them seemed to have a good connection to their emotional side. This makes me wonder if there is some sort of connection between being in touch with your emotions and experiencing spirituality (whatever that might mean to you), at least in people with autism. Kind of a rambling comment, maybe, but I'm writing this as I think it. Hopefully this is of interest to some of the people here.

[@justinhambidge8811]

Great video, I connected most on when you talked about nature, empathy and seeing life in the way others do not seem to. Some kind of power. When I spoke to our Vicar (I do not go to church or practice religion) he said that he really enjoyed talking with me in that my views on life and how I go about in life seems to be more than some of the regular church community. I just spoke about as you do appreciation, empathy, love for nature and what is free. All at such a deeper level. Great video

[@recoverywithme]

Thank you for your insight! It’s very cool that you’re able to have conversations with people, who perhaps don’t share your exact views or perception, but you have respect and appreciation still. It’s something we’ve lost touch with in today’s society, so I really enjoyed reading this. I do feel taking things back to basics, nature, connection is key. A simple yet profound solution 🌞

[@justinhambidge8811]

@@recoverywithme it’s just so confusing that I have realised that I have this power yet struggle with friendships and communication.

[@recoverywithme]

@justinhambidge8811 mmm, I hear you. I do think about modern communication and friendships a lot. People most often don’t say what they mean - or what they really think. And base friendships on things other than love, connection and respect. There’s a lot of judgement and projection thrown in too. Difficult for sensitives to navigate, quite exhausting and sometimes I myself was guilty of playing along with that game to fit in. It didn’t feel good and didn’t make me the best version of myself that’s for sure. I remember making friends when I was younger in India, but we didn’t use words to communicate as we didn’t understand each other’s spoken languages. We connected through nature and play.. there’s something in that ✨

[@Fester_Adams]

I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in 16 years but I still think about it sometimes when I'm stressed out. It has such a hold over me, I know if I give in and have one drink all those years of sobriety would be lost.

[@recoverywithme]

@@Fester_Adams amazing achievement, you must have learned so much in that time ✨ I too have no space for it in my life, I prefer to feel things, even when it’s not all clear skies. Flowers need watering too 🌸

[@LaGuera2858]

I have the same perspective!!!! I wish I could find people (in person) with this perspective. There is so much id like to share and say that mirriors what you have said in this video.

[@recoverywithme]

I hear you! I’m also yet to find those people in my immediate life ~ I trust it will come (I’ve only recently woken up myself in recent years). It may take some further years but if we lean more into ourselves and do the things we enjoy (maybe push a little out of the comfort zone too) I’m sure we’ll find our people. I’m planning to move into the Swedish countryside, so I’m not sure how easy it will be there either but I’m going to keep an open heart. Where are you based? 🌞

[@LaGuera2858]

​@@recoverywithme I have gone all my life catering to others to make sure they are comfortable. My needs never made it on my own list. I'm, at the very least, half way through my life. My plan is to put my needs first for the other half. Pushing myself outside of my comfort zone is one of my current favorite hobbies now. My brain has a craving for new adventures and knowledge. I think I have my college education/debt to thank for that. All the knowledge I gained from the psychology classes has allowed me to view my past cognitive processing/experiences from a different view point. I have a new view on life and how everyone else factors in differently (eg. Their not priority anymore, I am). I am the opposite of who I use to be. I feel like now I am living one of life's versions of freedom. One of the best things I've learned is that there is no right or wrong way of living (cultural classes have really helped with this view point. They aid in cognitively taking you out of your safe bubble. You are able to question your learned beliefs. Explore how other cultures would view or deal with the different life problems you have.) I'm in the USA, near the rocky mountain area. What's the countryside like where you are? I've never been outside the USA, so to me 'Swedish country side' leaves me with an 'exotic ring' in my ears.😊 Also, I have a number of personal spiritual experiences I'd like to share with you...just not publicly on here. How might I go about that?

[@natashaheath-brown1513]

THANK YOU!❤

[@recoverywithme]

My pleasure ~ thank you too, for sharing the love! 💛

[@cupofteawithpoetry]

Thank you Mikaela 🙏💕

[@recoverywithme]

🫶🏼

[@yrdjuret]

Thank you ☮

[@recoverywithme]

You too! 🌞

[@laurenlens6635]

10/10. No notes. Just sending my love ❤

[@recoverywithme]

Thank you so much “no notes” haha this made me smile 🫶🏼🌟

[@Adrian-555]

i see you, i’m with you 🤍💫

[@recoverywithme]

This is AWESOME! So happy to read this, thank you 🌟

[@jackvincent738]

My cat is awesome, his name is Boris. Like Boris the animal in men in black. He is a ginger. He is awesome.

[@recoverywithme]

I am OBSESSED ~ and orange is my favourite colour 😀🧡 Boris sounds like an absolute legend and I love him already. Please give him a squish and tell him he’s a good boi from me 🥰❣️

[@jackvincent738]

@@recoverywithme I did , he's a drooler and suffers from a skin condition so I have to keep him inside a lot but he loves being outside. Poor buggar. He says hi.

[@annsofii72]

❤

[@recoverywithme]

🫶🏼✨

[@andrewgarcia6951]

❤😂

[@ylylenjoyer5903]

[@recoverywithme]

Wasn’t sure how it would be received, but if you relate ~ worth it ✨

[@swimsuitcookies]

Why are all of us INFP or INFJ? Just something that applies to myself and others on youtube I've noticed

[@recoverywithme]

@@swimsuitcookies I’m also curious! I think this is something we will learn a lot more about - and soon. Especially as shame and insecurity starts to be replaced with curiosity and connection. More research is being done and more conversations and sharing of experiences is finally happening 💫

[@metatronheraldofthealmight3968]

I was a part of a shared hallucination. twice.

[@A_Me_Amy]

Only You can save us from the humans... -_- the hell of being God is inconvenient for me. I mean God said so. And forces me to be. But at least there is a guide book like a heart and mind, and certainly the things Jesus taught, like how Christians follow a different Jesus who died on a cross or something, instead of the winner one who taught truth and guidance. Jesus who taught things not the mini Jesus who taught they they get defeated lol. I mean literally what I hear from Christianity is that they hate God and do evil and know they are defeated eventually but dony càre cuz they just want to be evil in God's neutral world.

[@Michu328]

Sounds like you would love Jesus, do you know him?

[@TechReviewTom]

this is kinda try hard dude, idk, everyone has autism rn bc its trendy.

[@recoverywithme]

I respect your perception 😊

[@tallyfriend9701]

@@recoverywithmenice diplomacy ❤️

[@blakeharvard5841]

Only Christ Jesus alone can save us from Hell.

[@maybreathingstone]

Yes. I'm on the same page. I'm happy to meet you. And you've just made me cry. Every cell of my body resonates with this message because I DO feel it and I'm craving to just BE. Is that even possible ? Right now I know for sure the reason why we don't fit in is not because we can't measure up, but because this world is too fricking narrow for us as we're trying to open a door for what's to come. We are this door. And we have the capacity to absorb the world's pain to turn it into something else... Love ? Let's not even name it, as we prefer to remain silent in the midst of the noisy crowd. Now there's that POWER. How do I handle it without burning my fingers ? This is the question I'll be twiddling for a while. Thanks dear. I guess I'll stay around. 🫀🔌🫀

[@recoverywithme]

Happy to meet you also 🌟 I have many similar thoughts I ponder on every day. You’ve said it very well, thank you 🙏🏼 For now, I think the key is to be gentle with ourselves, recharge, find our strength and find connection from those who resonate. That’s more than enough for today, something tells me the answers will find us anyway. As I write this I’m standing barefoot in nature, music in my headphones and smiling. This moment is perfect, I’m choosing to live here. The rest will happen when it happens. Enjoy your day, friend 🧚🏼‍♂️

[@serenitylover731]

Hy Mikaela, No one answers your guardian Angel question, so I try to... I also feel Like having a guardian Angel, but I lost her (I don't know if female or male, but female feels better for me), because I ignored her sign, When I met my wife. As a scientist I don't believe my own Story, but it happened: It was in a little room concrete walls a tin roof and no Windows somewhere in the Dominican Republic. One single bed and a chair on wich was a suitcase. There we had sex for the first time, When wie finished we sat on the bed and were talking, then she asked me for money. And just after this, When I was Like in a shock, the suitcase just fell hard on the floor. And there was no reason what so ever, why the suitcase fell. But I would feel imediatly that it was a sign to go and never come back. In the end my "stupid" sex-drive made me ignore the sign and go back, and marry and since then.. ...no more signs from my Angel... ...Or maybe I just don't See them, because I'm disconnected... Another Story that Puzzled my youth (I was maybe around 7years old), was that almost every evening, before sleeping I saw ghosts in my room. They were just there, casual people not dressed well doing nothing specific... The Fun fact is, that our house was build by my father and completely new. So they were no classical house-ghosts... Maybe all of this is an Illusion of the brain, because of electric wires nearby but I think there is much we can't explain but exists, and spirituality is a good way to explain things, we can't explain with classical science. And i mean spirituality not Religion. I tried to be short, but too Long Story again... sorry... I just hope you can take something out of it, as I do, when I listen to your stories. Thank you... All the best... With Love....