A Symphony to the Void - On depression

[@Idiedin1980]

For some of us...pain and depression is the only constant in our lives and the only friend that will never leave. Kim Carlsson your music is genius.

[@jmurray6668]

I've been a fan for a long time. I'm glad to have found this channel.

[@MrDamburger]

Kim, your experiences with life are very similar to mine... I really appreciate your videos, they bring me alot of comfort. I lost all my friends and people who i loved when i was 14 and now im nearly 25 and still am a loner, i've found your music and nature very very crucial to keeping sane and not ending it all abruptly..

[@licaji9530]

Sir with all due respect I tell you, you are my favorite person in this world

[@Denis-218]

i`ve watched all of your videos and this was one of the best inspirational videos ive seen, i consumed and experianced every word you said! thank you so much for that!

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Thank you, that's really excellent. Related subjects continue next week.

[@zeusbruce2178]

I MISS LIFELOVER. Kim you are AWESOME! Thank you for sharing.

[@neuroleptika]

If its not too personal for you, I would like to know more about your experiences with relationships/girlfriends and when that goes to hell, how to deal with that, or what you do to try and be a good partner despite your mental state at times

[@Vemodsorkestern]

That's a great question and something that I of course have had my share of struggles with and traumas from. So I will make sure to add that to the pipeline of videos I'm making in a not too distant future. Regardless of gender of preferences I think there are something good or useful that can come from sharing my thoughts and experiences of it.

[@Xcjcjdjdkdfgkgkvkckr]

@@Vemodsorkestern was a video on this topic made?

[@4ntifreez]

@@Xcjcjdjdkdfgkgkvkckr i'd like to know that too

[@amireal5458]

Kim, can you talk about self harm and how do you cope with it now? I need someone else's view on it, particularly your view.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Yes. That's something I cover in one of my next videos that I will be making and posting next week.

[@aghoricupboard3900]

Watching this video is like talking to the depths about something so familiar to myself. Something that i try to incline a lot of conversations towards, because through that you can really see where someones empathy lies, how ready they are to really explore and accept their inner and outer reality. Funny thing is I listened to Hypothermia somewhat frequently before I could even appreciate it from it's surface. But an understanding and internal link and association grew over the years to now being some of the most reflective and therapeutic music to me for years now. Truely, amongst substances to be a powerful tool for me to this day. I have so much appreciation for this, Kim, thank you. I wonder if in the next video in the series it would be possible to give an example of your barrier- breaking experiences that perhaps lead to a discovery or inspiration for you music? Thank you again :}

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Thank you for this comment I appreciate it and enjoyed taking it in, so you are most welcome. What I take from the question gives me an idea to make a video where I do remembrances of experiences that made a powerful impact on me both sober and under a influence or guiding path, and how that made me act both in the moment and afterwards to get somewhere else. But I guess that your question is a bit more specific towards something that inspired songs? If so, I can definitely do that too.

[@stuuubbs7782]

Thank you so much for this. Ive been a fan of your music for a long time and just discovered your personal KZbin channel. There are many things you have shared in this video that resonates with me and i can relate to. Thank you friend

[@thedeceased]

Great introspective thoughts turned into words. The atmosphere is mutual to a warming campfire.

[@epic8923]

Thank you for your output on this topic Kim. I greatly appreciate it.

[@insanesoninlaw]

Very interesting. I really agree with your explanation of no longer needing the substance because you have made the keys yourself. So true.

[@yakoushi4343]

I simply love this video. Thank you so much for talking about this subject, Kim.

[@KJELLofHELL]

Tack för du tog tid att göra denna video Kim, tankarna kring depression och hur det formar en människa är något jag kan relatera med bättre än något annat. Det märks att du applicerar denna känsla i musiken du gör, ser fram emot framtida projekt.

[@rosicorrea8029]

Hello, Kim! Love tour videos! I wish you the best of this land. I hope you' re going to be okay. Keeping fighting and don't give up, because you are a great artist, very polite and sincere with those people admire your work. You still much contribute in this world. What are the books you like to read?

[@sanuritanaka9402]

Glad to see you made a video about that, thank you. There many things in this video I would agree with.

[@DianaSilva7]

Thank you Kim.

[@h.w.8160]

Greetings! Thanks for making these videos, I really enjoy listening to what you have to say. I would largely agree with you about treating depression with substances, but I think that it takes a certain type of mind (usually introverted) to handle ego death and experience significant breakthroughs. You mentioned using a substance like Cannabis as a sort of key. I think life gives us keys in the form of experiences that will set us up to be capable of reaping something profound from using a substance like cannabis or mushrooms. For example, as someone who attributes spiritual growth to temporary Cannabis use, I really don't think I would have had reaped the same benefits from the experiences if I weren't an introvert

[@MW2Master192]

Question for the next Video: I'm having a real hard time forcing myself to get up and go to work. How didyou deal with that? When you need to go to work but don't want to interact with people. Since all of my colleagues at work are extroverts, I find it very hard to get along with them (I also have aspergers). Any advice? Love your music and Art, thank you for sharing your Experiences. Grüße aus Österreich!

[@Vemodsorkestern]

I can do some form of stream of consciousness about that, though there are some other videos in que before it. So as a shorter but faster answer to the main topic. I have found that for me having goals that will benefit from me doing something else, as well as getting a benefit from reaching or experiencing that goal... is something that enables me to cope with plenty of situations that I otherwise would consider torture. And as I mention elsewhere. If that goal is too far away, break the path to it down and find something attainable in there to drive you to do what you need to do.

[@berizont]

Schönes Video, Kim! ;) Just found out about this features of yours, thoroughly interesting and familiar sounding. Keep up with the good work, obviously regarding music as well. Greetings from Germany.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Thank you very much.

[@kaeshani]

Hi Kim, personally I would like to know your opinion about reminiscing different things from past. Nostalgia as melancholic feeling, when we are reflecting some fragments unintentionally and feel strong sorrow and joy at the same time. This will be interesting subject to go in depth, I guess.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

I will bundle the thoughts about that together with transforming feelings into manifestations through pictures and sound, as nostalgia and especially melancholy have a constant seat in my mind.

[@svarti4284]

Thank you for this interesting and informative video. You refer to psychedelics as keys that open the doors of mind. The same analogy was used by Alexander Shulgin, a famous chemist and psychedelic researcher. Are you familiar with his books? What do you think of them? What other books that are connected to this or related topics have you read? I would also like to hear you talking about your first trip, how you prepared to it and what it gave to you. As for depression, I think one of the reasons of why it appears is the civilization we live in. It's obvious that it's rotten to the core, but the majority of people just pretend that everything's alright. While we are deprived from a deep spiritual connection to nature, while we are obliged to exist in an anti-traditional flawed society, while technology corrupts people's minds and turn them into internet-dependent robots. And the saddest part is that it's almost impossible to completely escape the modern world, as it's spread everywhere. I would like to know if you too see the modern civilization as a factor that leads to a depression. And also thank you for your music, it helps me a lot.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

I like reading, but I'm very bad at taking the time to sit down and reading something so I often have around a bookshelf's worth of unread books to get to, haha. I'm not familiar with the author or his books, and I can't think of any specific authors or books that are connected to the subject either. There will be videos covering several of the points you are mentioning. So I will see what I can say about that trip, as well as other thoughts around society and how I cope with it or adjust my interaction with civilization.

[@DustyLeeSledge]

I started feeling it real hard in my early teens. I stole a gun when I was thirteen, I loaded it and put it to my eye, pull the hammer back and tap the trigger; A little harder each time. After a few months I went on the road trip and someone went in my room and stole it from me. I would probably be dead if it wasn't stolen.

[@kabirsingh9865]

Question- Can you please talk about your process of converting those in-depth feelings into music or art? Like how do you convert those into lyrics or compositions. Thank you for uploading this. Honestly listening to you talk about depression feels like I'm talking to myself through a mirror, especially the part where being around people makes you anxious, it happens almost everytime. This is as deep as it gets.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

I will do my best to articulate in a video how that transformation or process works for me and how I implement my methods through different manifestations and mediums.

[@kabirsingh9865]

@@Vemodsorkestern Thank you so much. Its truly an honor for me that you responded. I'll be looking forward to your next video (:

[@asrYxYrsa]

Hi kim🙋🏻‍♂️ im from malaysia. You are so calm kim🤗. i like tht👌👍

[@IDKyoudk]

What if the door (you were talking about the substance as a key to it) is open since you were born. And it shows you terrible horror things and it destroys your life. And taking those plants only made it worse. Not only for the moment, but for the upcoming years. What do you think a person could do about that? Try to get used to it or try to stop it...

[@SL4VESL4VE]

Love

[@ASWV]

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety since I was 10, now I'mm 27. And this video its very helpful, thanks. I want to know how is your "fast" method to get rid of anxiety, without any medicaments. I always recurr to benzos, but they didn't have the same effect on me that before since I begin with them. So... I dont know how to deal with it (oh and btw, Im borderline). And I know all my flaws... (alcohol, drugs...etc). And I dont want to recurr to that each time Im with anxiety or deppressive, so..... But well, anyways, this video has helped me to make my thoughts wider. As your music, of course. But I wanted to know how you struggle with anxiety or depression and your firsts methods to get rid from them. Thanks again for doing this videos.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

You are welcome to the extent that I'm able to make videos like this and keep making them, as well as the music or life they're about. I will try to get deeper at each video, but as it is also a big subject it will take some videos to get there. I think it's just like many things very individual how "fast" something can be, just as the perception or definition of that term itself. I've been denied medication over the years so I have had to find my own ways to manage my life, emotions and perception of them etc. So speaking from a long-term experience of dealing with these things without much external help has been to learn to cope with the emotions and myself, my relation to them. My strengths and flaws or weaknesses. What they are related to, what makes them increase or decrease. That gives you a relatively generic but still useful list of what things bother you more or less, which in other words are things that you need or don't need in life. To seek something or avoid it. It is to find something that you like and make that your sanctuary. It can be a place or activity, none has to exclude the other.

[@Taha9416]

how did self harm help you through this.. finding those keys..?

[@Vemodsorkestern]

A video going deep into that is coming next week.

[@Taha9416]

@@Vemodsorkestern oh thats really cool!!

[@lordhumungus1386]

you know what did get me out of depression? amphetamine..but really,I suffered of depression for years and I started to taking speed and I dont remember what is like to be in a depression for two years now..

[@Vemodsorkestern]

I'm aware of that effect, but I have seen and experienced more adverse effects than on the positive spectrum concerning that substance so I would never recommend it to anyone simply because most people cannot handle it. Good for you though.

[@k3ff793]

Har du hört urfaust från tyskland? Du påminnende mig om tysk blackmetal :) ha det bäst

[@Vemodsorkestern]

De är holländare och goda vänner till mig, så... ja. Tack. Ha det.

[@k3ff793]

@@Vemodsorkestern nederländerna, nice! har du koppling till bandet apati? det känns som att dom hade en kort karriär. sjukt bra dom /han oxå. :)

[@k3ff793]

@@Vemodsorkestern en kvick fråga. Fastnade för död mark för en tid sedan, och upptäckte att det är yunglean(jonathan leander127). Han har under namnet jonathanleander127 samplat lifelover i låten "primal fear". Vad tycker du? ifall du inte visste. Det är från Dödens landsväg. Har försökt få svar från herr Lean :D

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Nej, utöver att de stal en av mina låtar rakt av. Med andra ord har de kopplingar till mig men ej tvärt om. De är inte mer än ett bland mängden imitatörer, så jag är föga intresserad. Deras så kallade karriär borde ha varit kortare är det vänligaste som jag kan säga.

[@Vemodsorkestern]

Ingen aning om vem eller vad det är. Jag är inte intresserad.