[Vet Reaction] Five Finger Death Punch -Wrong Side of Heaven (Powerful Message! Must See!)

[@SKnight1968]

I'm a Canadian combat veteran and worn my boots out on the same grounds as all my fellow brothers/sisters in arms from all allied forces. I lost many of them, them that I got to know, grown to love and fought along side of them at one point or another. Being injured myself (lower back injury due to being thrown in the air 20 feet) and having my back twisted like a pretzel. Coming home wasn't easy, I lost my wife and 3 kids, house, car, unable to get a job since I was a career soldier (that worked for a living) after being deployed in many different countries and I could of continued my career from a small office with being tied to an armchair due to no longer being deployed to the field of battle as a militant, the closest I could be to a battle field would of been the green zone at HQ command post, but by that time, I was too far gone and didn't want to finish my career back home to deal with paperwork and training new officers. So after a while, I put my papers in and was honorably discharged. And now, I'm on disability barely making ends meet while living in a scrummy 1 and a half apartment with roaches and my service cat instead of our family home with 5 bedroom, 3 bathroom, double garage, huge pie lot (huge backyard) in the perfect neighbor hood to raise kids with schools and hospital both in walking distance. Heck I have a clerk that works at a pastry shop and has known me for a while, so she keeps the daily pastries that didn't sell which they usually throw in the garbage so that I can pick them up for myself and bring some to the shelter for others to eat. *Please don't tell me that at least I'm alive.* But after a year and few months later after my return, my wife filled for divorce and full custody of the kids, so, I lost friends/family and everything which made me roam the streets for about a year and a few months. Till I got long over due therapy which definitely helped, but not enough to get my head above water long enough to get out of it's clutches, which pulled me back in within it's depth. Now, there isn't a day that goes by where I don't wish to just be put out of my misery. I take about 21 different meds for all kind of ailments for a total of 36 pills every 24hrs, from depression/PTSD meds and of various meds, starting with heart condition and pain killers every 12 hours 24/7 for my injuries plus one shot a week for TRT and can barely step outside due to becoming agoraphobic to the point of where I have to sedate myself with Xanax and/or/both Clonazepam in order to being like a zombie just to step out of my apartment and after two suicide attempts for which I have no regrets other than not succeeding in order to put an end to the pain. I don't understand why I survived where better men than me didn't. These last few days have a very specific meanings and one is a very specific date, that's where and when I watch this particular video on many other specific dates during the year, so that I can feel the hard pain of still being alive while they are not. And I'm not talking just about my Canadian brothers/sisters but also my American brothers, Belgium brothers, Australian brothers, British brothers, and all my other brothers and sisters in arms from all allied forces including our interpreters. Everything is a trigger, loud noises, trucks, smells of diesel fuel and too many people around at the hospital or when needing to do groceries, that I can no longer do, plus never watching any war movies (which is amongst the top 3 things that trigger me, so that's been a big no no for over a decade and longer). So now, I go to the nearest convenience store between 2 and 4 am because no ones around and I can buy my weekly food there, like sandwiches, frozen meals and everything and anything to last me at least a week, which costs me a arm and a leg in prices compared to doing regular groceries that would feed me for the month and much so much more less expensive than the local convenience store, though I had an assigned social worker that would accompany me on any of those outings where I needed to step outside my apartment and in the process had to sedate myself in order of being able to step outside, for either hospital appointments and groceries and/or just driving to a nice specific place where we used to go, which was by a lake within the city but far enough to not hear any traffic of any kind, which we haven't been able to do for the last 2 yrs due to Covid19 protocols. So, his presence and choice of conversations helped me cope with my anxiety and this for the last 7yrs but haven't been no longer able to do so, due to the new Covid19 protocols which forbids them to have patients in their cars and this for the last two years, same thing with my therapist whom I used to meet with one day a week every week. Those new rules really had an affect on me, even though I could have my sessions by phone, it was definitely not the same. My social worker now comes and meets me once a week in the parking lot while drinking our coffees but still can't even sit in his vehicle and him still not being allowed to enter my apartment. So, all the progress we had achieved before Covid19 has regressed back to the beginning. Heck I haven't even done my dishes in 6+ months and now using carboard plates with plastic utensils, while my dirty dishes are in my kitchen sink with mold of multiple color have started to grow and smell, so I run hot water and add a strong cleaning agent with the hot running water to kill the smell. Even my wash of clothing hasn't been done for the same time frame and I've pretty much used all my clean clothing and asked my social worker if he could buy me some underwear at the local Walmart which he's done a lot of times (so yes I do have clean underwear till I've used them all and ask the same favor from my social worker again and again). Now there's just too many dishes to clean and too much laundry to be done, which I cant do, due to my back injury, there's just no way I can just stand there for 45 mins straight to clean everything plus do laundry in the apartment laundry mat because that would mean staying in the laundromat for a couple of hours. I even looked at special cleaning companies specialized is such messes, but I can't afford their service. So the bigger the messes grow, the more it brings me down, There's definitely no pride of ownership here. I shower about once a week instead of every day like I used to and with all that said, I even had my twitter account suspended where I used to talk with other vets from all over which was amazingly helpful because, many of them are in the same dark place I am right now, while others who were in the exact same place I was/am but they came out on the other side whole and defeated their demons. Thus the suspension of my account due to me speaking the truth of how vets were treated plus some conservatives views. All this happened right after Biden was elected and the CCOVID 19 was making the most damages, till one day I was awaken, only to find out that my biggest tool towards recovery was taken away from me from me. Now my biggest tools are the meds I take and help to try to sleep for as many hours as my prescriptions can help me do so. I have to be careful as to what I watch on tv or computer, I need to pick and choose safe contents in hopes to not get triggered, heck even some family commercials now trigger me. This has been my hell for the last decades and a half or so and I feel I deserve it in some many ways. People tend to forget, that allied forces also lost many men through the long past 2 decades. A Canadian, or Australian, Belgium and British head explodes the same way as a USA's soldier's head when struck by a 7.62 caliber bullet, which doesn't discriminate (hence why I lost too many of my American brothers/sisters that I collaborated and fought beside with), In the end blood splatter and brain matter getting all over you is the same for all soldiers in active combat, no matter which flags they are wearing on their shoulder. Not a day goes by where I don't break down in tears for no reasons, then the flashbacks take over, be it through night-terrors/nightmares or even when awake day-nightmares awaken by a trigger, it doesn't take much for a bad thought creeping into your mind, and once that happens, the flood gates open and everything overwhelms you and the memories strike hard. And this just because of one thought that found it's way into your mind, the rest just follows and you can't do sh*t about it. The two last decades and change, has affected many active combatant from many different countries and their blood is all the same color. FACTA NON VERBA!

[@damonbryan7232]

As a wounded combat vet. Thank you for keeping the message going. Lost more brothers and sisters by their own hands then ever in combat.

[@TexasVeteranPatriot]

Hooah!

[@mickluchsinger486]

Semper Fi brother I also lost more brothers after we got out. NEVER FORGOTTEN USMC

[@jimthegatekeeper59]

We appreciate you brother!

[@shaylengould4807]

Thank you for your service and much love to you darlin.

[@jeremiahthomas9833]

I think some of us contemplate it every day and just keep it quiet out of honor. Way more than people think. We are duty/honor bound.

[@anthonysilva6935]

20 year Air Force member here. Thank you for your service and thanks for reacting to this incredible video. It hurts to think that there are so many homeless military brothers and sisters out there. Love Five Finger Death Punch for getting this message out there.

[@TomTuffnuts]

Preach!

[@theflyisopen252]

Currently active duty Navy and it hurts my heart knowing what they do to us when we are in and how little they care when we are done. I don’t fear for myself, I fear for the ones I’ve spent so much time with.

[@billtroxell2148]

hard to watch and not shed a few tears my friend. And thanks for your service and all that has served, thanks

[@ladyjayeXO]

My dad was a Vietnam veteran. Unfortunately, he died by suicide last year. My first time hearing this song. Very touching video.

[@genericuser8157]

I’m a former bootneck who still suffers with ptsd although not as bad as when I left I now have a wonderful wife and two beautiful children with some normality of life I spent 18 months on the streets until I contacted a veteran helpline who got in contact with my old Lt. he met up with me offered to take me in but I refused as I was to unstable to be around his family he took me to the housing Association he marched in full combat dress to the manager and order them to find me accommodation in the next 24 hours or he will be formally pressing charges for neglect against the service member 7 hours later they put me up in a b&b and I was there for roughly 8 weeks until they got me a place whilst living rough I always thought I’m going to end up 2 ways DEAD OR IN JAIL ..... PLEASE if your a vet with PTSD or HOMELESS please contact the VETERAN HELPLINES some of them are vets themselves so they know some of what your going through THEY CAN HELP to all my brothers and sisters in arms STRONG and KEEP MOVING FORWARD 👊🏼

[@kimgaither6965]

Thank you for your service. Keep strong.

[@dianereilly1645]

Oh, God…I’ve seen this video a million times, but your reaction when the little girl was holding out the flower to the vet, and her mom yanked her away…your reaction just broke me. I’m still sobbing. They deserve so much better from all of us.

[@roguemerlin1969]

When they referred to God as a she, they were talking about their wives, girlfriend, mother, sister. The Devil is how he sees himself. At the end, the black guy is saying "Bill, Bill, It's me Jacoby. You saved my life brother. It's ok, its ok." I'm a Viet Nam vet and I think we were were treated worse than any other returning soldiers. We were met by crowds of protester calling us murderers and baby killers. Our other vets returned to victory parades. After it was over, everyone seemed to just want to forget it ever happened and that we served there. So many of us died there and so many of us are on the streets or dead by their own hands.

[@ladyjayeXO]

Thank you for your service ❣️

[@Morteanjo2011]

There aren't enough tears shed for these men and women. Living on the street is the worst of death sentences unless a message such as this that can make us stop looking within at our own circumstances and start looking out and do something, anything like memorializing them in such a powerful video.

[@Captainval28]

I’m always moved by the soldier recognising his squad leader on the streets and even though I can’t read lips I can clearly tell he says you saved my life. To me I respect anyone that volunteers for there countrys military regardless of country indigunous community’s most of all like indigunous turtle islanders which to me it should never have changed nor should they have had there land taken from them and those who lost there lives regardless of ethnicity or gender fighting are the true heroes and we all know that to the military there is no differances between ethnicity or gender even trans indaviduals have joined some joined before realising who they were in truth and were still aloud to continue serving but with there true name your all brothers and sisters to each other and I love that my respect to all of you

[@nekiritan6779]

I have never been in the military, I wholeheartedly am a pacifist. I have never been in a similar situation. I'm not even American. Yet I feel deeply for the veterans, suffering from what they have experienced. Even without having gone through anything similar I am mentally unstable and know that I need help (which I am getting, don't worry), and the even idea that so many people have to deal with their experiences without getting the help they need or even basic assistance is tearing me apart. Thank you to all the soldiers out there, be it current or former, for doing what they can to try and make this world a better place!

[@rebaphillips4783]

My father was in army during ww2. It was HELL ut her never spoke of it. He had nightmares for years, and PTSD

[@melissarico1390]

First, thank you for your service. Second, thank you for reacting to the video. It truly raises awareness of the plight of our veterans. As the daughter of a vet, I am more than aware of the issues that arise. Even if you've heard the songs, check out the videos for their remake of Offspring's "Gone Away" and "When the Seasons Change"

[@kbolt1000]

I'm from Sweden, have never been served as a soldier, yet I get sad and wet in the eye when I see this, ashamed of the US government that does not take care of your brothers and sisters. Understand how difficult this must be for a veteran to see, when I up in the cold north can not hold back the tears in pity. Again, the United States is ashamed.

[@anttom162004]

im so grateful...

[@shellychadwick7803]

Thank you for your service. Please God bless and keep veterans!!!

[@XboxAxisII]

4.6k views and no dislikes, that's respect or understanding that we need to help veterans in need

[@darrinkelly3446]

Also a short timer and I went in before 9/11. Seemed like a safe bet in the 80's. There is never a safe time time to be a warrior it seems. I was wounded but I'm physically ok. I FEEL this video. The physical stuff has been a burden but its the mindset that stays with a soldier.

[@michaelfredgren1342]

Try "Gone Away" by 5 finger death punch as well. Its a cover, but repurposed for veterans dealing with survivor guilt.

[@TomTuffnuts]

Just finished reacting. Should be up soon! That was a tough one to get through

[@dianaklien1560]

@@TomTuffnuts I was wondering if someone was going to suggest Gone Away and I wanted to warn you. I got here too late. I hope it was more cathartic than traumatizing. Damn!

[@scottbradley7631]

Every time I hear this song, the story of this video always springs to mind.

[@wearewethepeople5843]

Ffdp are big supporters of our troops. A lot of their songs have powerful messages. Ivan has a crazy good voice. Peace

[@cosmictwin8514]

Thank you for your service. Thank you your honest reaction. This breaks my heart.

[@LadyGator1983]

First off, thank you for your service! I watched you react to this video and I could see the pain in your face and eyes. My grandfather was in three wars and the war didn’t kill him but the alcohol did. We knew we couldn’t touch him when he was sleeping. We had to throw stuff at him and yell at him to wake him up. And the reason we couldn’t was he could kill us. My heart breaks! There are no excuses for a veteran to be homeless! 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

[@julesr5802]

Thank you for your service. New sub

[@MarvRoberts]

You look like a young Gary Sinise lol. Thank you for your service, brother. I was a 19D Cav Scout. Two of my squad died just 3 feet in front of me. It's been over twenty years and I still see it in my dreams. I don't sleep well anymore.

[@MarvRoberts]

Survivor's guilt is a real thing. I'm here and they aren't. That's all I've been able to think about for 20+ years. I can't get over it. I wish that sniper would have aimed at me.

[@chueysmama2622]

Thank you and ALL our veterans! If more of us would put our money where our mouths are vets would be a whole lot better off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We all owe so much to you veterans.

[@chisaten]

Something that people need to know is those four veterans depicted in this video are real veterans who served our country. I have a small connection to this song. My father served in Vietnam and got PTSD even though he wasn't in active combat. In spite of being an air Force mechanic on the flight line, he saw some horrific things that were brought in to be repaired. One of his friends was so traumatised that he left his wife and children when he returned to the US and became homeless. Much later, we found out that he had died after living on the streets for about eight years, possibly from suicide to release himself from his suffering.

[@kdkay4039]

Thank you for your service!

[@highonlife3168]

Please react to the gone away music video by five finger death punch.

[@Idefixu]

About the same theme. Have to 'bother' you with another Nightwish suggestion here too. "10th Man Down" Buenos Aires 2018 Sonata Arctica "Replica", there are several Live versions. Live in Finland, Live at Wacken 2008 Then there is of course Sabaton. They sing about war all the time. And they have a war history channel on YT. The drummer Hannes is Floor's hubby.

[@lost_in_a_crowd_of_3257]

thank you for serving

[@jeremiahthomas9833]

As you being someone from the Air Force; I merely ask what connection do you have to us Active Duty or Combat Arms Veterans? Love your work. But I am asking. Thank you.

[@Mike_Judas_Priest_Kalsek]

Please react to CLUTCH (the best band you've never heard of ©). I suggest for your first go, either Electric Worry (their most well-known song), Burning Beard, 10001110101 or A Quick Death In Texas. FYI...this same comment will appear ONLY if I have watched your reaction video. I am not here to spam your channel...I just want to help get a great band some much deserved recognition. P.S....I will always give your reactions a thumbs-up, even if I don't care for or like the band or song you react to...because I like you and your channel. Cheers!

[@mule1995]

“A soldier does not fight because they hate what is in front of them but because they love what is behind them.” - G. K. Chesterton “To those who have fought for us freedom has a taste the protected will never know, to those who have lost it freedom has a taste that the protected will never appreciate.” - Edwin L. Craft #22ADay

[@steveo3239]

Hey brother, Could you react to their cover of "Gone Away" originally by Offspring? Watch the video and they applied the lyrics to military situation and it is pretty good too.

[@philippebuffard2814]

Now family please, adieu please avec mes trois maladies graves, et aussi pour survivre seul comme pour mes frères d'armes please adieu, adieu adieu please désolé please.

[@dolla3975]

❤️

[@edhollenbeck2809]

try gone away

[@TexasVeteranPatriot]

Thank you for this reaction! Next try... Five Finger Death Punch - Gone Away (Official Video) kzbin.info/www/bejne/eHq0fGdjbr55jZI

[@Darth_Nihilus_Sith_Lord]

Yes please do a reaction to this one as well. It’s tough to watch, but the truth often is.

[@philippebuffard2814]

S'en mes frères d'armes, c'est comme pour mes trois maladies graves please,je suis désolé please laisser me disparaître please comme un gladiateur qui doigt mourire please avec mes trois maladies graves, comme mes frères d'armes, now family please,je préfère disparaître please.

[@roblaw4554]

(posted this “open letter” elsewhere in the past, making the rounds again. contains strong emotion and some strong language, but strong responses are needed) "You saved my life brother" So many of our brothers and sisters need our help. OUR help. And far too many actually need to be saved. Here? At Home? Still? What the fuck?!? Yes, here. Now. And never forget their families. Do something. Get the fuck off your comfy X. Find them. Individually, or with and through some group. There's dozens of good ones. Money is always needed. Your time and tears are even better. When's the last time you were available to just listen and relate? Who'd you give your cell # to? Who do you already know who maybe needs some "strongly encouraged" assistance? Whose spouse or children do you keep in touch with? As I type I'm looking at my ring from 22KILL, one of several groups I've been involved with over time. Too much time to still have so many in need. So what will YOU do today? Fuckin put up or shut up. End of rant for now... RLTW rl

[@philippebuffard2814]

JE SUIS VRAIMENT DÉSOLÉ PLEASE, pardonne me please, nigwiftg, marco, Thomas, pour les vikings please, pour mes ancêtres please pardonner me please, Chanel, supercel please, pardonner me please, j'ai vraiment plus envie de combattre mes trois maladies graves please, c'est vraiment the end,finisch cristal please, du clasch royal please,je suis désolé please petite sœur préférée du clasch royal please,je suis désolé please pardonne me please, je suis un ancien légionnaire, un vétéran, comme un ancien viking please,qui doigt disparaître pour toujours please comme me please avec mes trois maladies graves please,je suis désolé please profiter de la vidéo please de 💩💩💩💩💯💯💯💯💩💩💩💩👻👻👻💀💀💀👻👻👻🥱🥱🥱👎👎👎👎please, désolé please.

[@Mike_Judas_Priest_Kalsek]

While their music is okay IMO, I cannot support this band. In 2015, the vocalist, Ivan Moody, was arrested for nearly choking his then girlfriend and mother of his child to death (I have no idea if they stayed together). The band did not fire him for this reprehensible act. Any band that would allow a POS like him to remain in the band is just as bad as he is (again, IMO). I still gave your reaction a thumbs-up, but I give this band 1000 thumbs-downs! I will not be viewing this reaction, just making my usual suggestion (Clutch) and this comment so that you know. For those who think I'm just slandering the band and Ivan, see link: www.reviewjournal.com/crime/courts/police-disclose-arrest-of-five-finger-death-punch-singer-at-vegas-hotel/ Cheers, Tom!

[@theflyisopen252]

Currently active duty Navy and it hurts my heart knowing what they do to us when we are in and how little they care when we are done. I don’t fear for myself, I fear for the ones I’ve spent so much time with.