Video Update - Bad News

[@TheBroodingTom]

I'm reading every comment and already have cried several times. I appreciate everyone, all of of you! I'm very Blessed to have this kind of support.. honestly I had no idea. I tried to reply to as many who also shared their loss with me as well. But as you can guess this is hard. I'm going to try and sleep for a little. From the bottom of my Heart, I thank you all.

[@leannekosub142]

Condolences. So sorry for your loss.

[@sewingforjoy201]

Loosing a parent is so hard. My father died as a result of melanoma which ended up in his lungs. It will get better but only with time, you won't get over the loss, but you will learn how to cope with it. I am praying for you. I just found your channel what is your name? My name is Ellen.

[@cloudfrontsystems]

This is the first of your videos I have ever seen. It is the most important and beautiful thing I have ever watched on youtube. Thank you.

[@linadedic4521]

When you said to call our moms i started cying, at the beginning of the video i called grandparents and later I will my mom, she is probably still sleeping, stay stong I am very sory for your loss

[@Yinzermakesvids]

My man I'm so sorry for your lose but you are wrong about having a small family, you have 80 thousand of us.

[@judyannkent]

Thanks!

[@TheBroodingTom]

Thank you

[@MarianneVakiener]

So many people care about you. I wish you could feel the love being sent to you.

[@TheBroodingTom]

I'm in tears actually... I had no idea.. thank you so so much!

[@christiedecker2724]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I just found you on 4-27-2023, I saw your tool for making a holder for colored pencils...I do understand having lost both my parents and 3 of my younger siblings. Around the time you lost your mom, I lost my husband. I will keep you in my prayers. I agree, tell your mom you love her if you still have her. Blessings to one and all.

[@ViKee010]

I watched one of your videos, a vase you were covering then went looking to see the second part. I found this. Tom, this was a year ago according to the viewers comments. I can feel your pain because in September 2020 I lost both my parents, 12 days apart. Just 3 days before their 65th anniversary.They both were in the hospital and I couldn’t see them either. I wondered the same things. Were they afraid? I had cared for them both for about 5 years in my home before they went down so fast. They didn’t have covid according to the hospital. They were both quite a bit older than your mom. Mom was 82 and Dad was 83. I’m your mom’s age. She was beautiful. She has a loving and beautiful souled son. I love the beard. I just have to think they all had were conscienceless so there was no fear. Those thoughts will take you down. You have to remember her and not her end. She would want you to live and find happiness again. I admit I have a hard time with that myself. But I try to keep myself busy. I hope you haven’t stopped with your art. You have such talent. Find a group someplace and talk to someone or several someone’s who have similar stories. Everyone is hurting right now. The world is just fighting it’s way back and we all need to fight with it. Just take a deep breath son. Know that Mom was the best and she loved you. Your heart will take time to heal some but it will never stop missing her. That will be your new normal and you have to find a way of living with that. I’m sorry for being so long winded but I just wanted to tell you people love you. You may never meet them but we are out here. I will pray for you tonight. Hang in there. 🤟🏼🤍

[@DressYourHorse]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Nothing prepares us for such pain and finality. It hurts to see your anguish. Thank heavens you took that lovely picture of your Mom. You have that to cherish - On that picture she is wearing a beautiful smile and she looks like a wonderful, terrific, beautiful woman and mother. You will make it but it will not become easier for some time. Prepare youself to grieve, and do it openly and without fear of what anybody thinks. You will go through the various stages of grieving and there is no particular way except your own way. I have lost both of my parents and one year ago on Nov. 19, I lost my only sibling, a brother. It has been one year and memories and intense feelings remain. The loss is keen and remains in a piece of your heart. Again, I can hear, see and feel your raw emotion and send a virtual hug. I am both mother, grandmother and great grandmother. I've learned much and life is not always a bowl of cherries. Live with your memories and cherish them always. Thank you for sharing and be well.

[@TheBroodingTom]

I appreciate you sharing that with me I'm sorry for your loss as well. She was such a good person.. she had a rough life but in return she only gave kindness and smiles, she had very little but was still very happy. Thank you so much and may you be well too.

[@DressYourHorse]

@@TheBroodingTom Very kind. Thank you. Stay safe & well

[@skribbledott]

I almost couldn't watch this video, as I knew it would painful, but I did because if you have the bravery to share, I have the bravery to watch it. I've just come to your channel today, looking for tutorials for clay, and as is normal with someone so talented, I ended up browsing your uploads. To come across this video, shocked me. It's a reminder that there are real people behind the videos, with real feelings and very real grief. I know it's been six months now since you lost your Mum, but I've now doubt it feels like yesterday. I also know of those inbetween moments where you're starting to feel okay and for no reason at all, you are suddenly gut punched again with the enormity of the loss. Of your Mum, I can't say much of her being a completely stranger to you and your family, but what I can say is this: she was clearly, obviously, undoubtedly a wonderful woman. I know this because of the footprints and marks she left behind - you. What a kind, genuine soul you are - to have felt that, in your mourning, you didn't want to let your followers down or go without explanation, speaks volumes of your character, a character which your Mum helped to craft and shows, by extension, how she must've been as well. Your videos have brought me joy, curiosity, fascination and inspiration - someone sat in their living room in England is thinking of you and your family, and wishing you so much joy for the future. As for the beard? Well you said in your next video you weren't sure what to do, but to you I say 'trim'! When you feel ripe for a positive change, start with the beard - that's what I did when I lost my Dad and I felt still like me, but different too, ready for my next chapter perhaps. These momentous situations require a little change in ourselves I think - we shouldn't carry on in the same vein as if nothing has happened, because the worst thing has happened. It's so important to bring in new things to your life that acknowledges that your normality has altered, but not so much to disregard your very loving and important past. I'm waffling now - I am so subscribing to your channel and look forward to seeing you when you are ready to return. With love, Carl from UK

[@chanspirit1]

Oh Tom, I am so sorry for your loss, I feel your heartbreak and my prayers go out to you, I lost my husband in January, and you said it exactly how I feel, it’s like a door has closed just knowing I can never talked to him again. At first it was really hard, but the heartache does begin to wane, my hope for you is to know we’re all wishing good things for you and your family, I’ve been following you a long time, thank you for for showing us your strength and hope you keep all the good memories of her first and foremost❤️ Laura

[@TheBroodingTom]

I appreciate you sharing that with me. I'm just sitting here thinking about my Wife, just the idea of losing her... I'm so sorry Laura! Sending strength and good things your way as well. Thank you for following me for so long, my experience here on KZbin is still so surreal to me.

[@Hereandlearning]

I’m so sorry.. I know that this video is a year old but I want to express my condolences to you, I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your Mother. I know everyone’s journey in experiencing loss is different but I lost both of my parents around a year apart quite suddenly and I know how hard this is. Bless you, I hope you’re healing. Love and light

[@denisebethany5691]

Dont apologize, life can be unfair at times, take care of yourself first.

[@TheBroodingTom]

It sure can.. and will do, thanks.

[@BriteEyes504]

My condolences. Take each day one at a time. Some will be easier, some will be very hard. Remember the joy she brought to your life and honor that. And the beard looks awesome. Sending Prayers and Hugs from Houston. ❤️

[@TheBroodingTom]

Some days are definitely harder than others for sure.. overall I think it's getting to be bearable at least. Thank you for the kind words.

[@Raynestormstitch]

You are very strong to be able to share this. 2020 is a terrible year to lose someone you love more than in recent years. I don't want to just say I'm sorry for your loss...I hope you and your family can remember the good times to help bring you joy...and when the sadness comes comfort each other to make it through.( I was writing this before there were other comments so please don't think I'm speaking badly to people who are saying " sorry for your loss")

[@TheBroodingTom]

Thank you. Not I all, I understand. It's me and my sis now, and it's getting a little better each day for the both of us I think.

[@kathysunshine699]

My heart is breaking for your loss. I lost both my parents, but each of us,walks this particular journey, alone with our own memories, known to no one, but ourselves. I like to think that our mom’s know and feel our love. ....That they are not alone, or in pain or in fear anymore. ..Be strong when you can and reach out to others near you, when you cannot. Good luck to you

[@giancastrioto3223]

I am so sorry to hear that... Time doesn't fix the losses entirely, but it has the power to turn that excruciating pain into a much more bearable feeling. I am trying to get to that moment when the sadness gives in and makes space for gratitude and good memories. I hope you can reach that point soon. Staying with your beloved ones can help the healing process. Best wishes for you, friend.

[@TheBroodingTom]

Yes, I can feel myself slowly moving to that point. My Wife was my Rock through this, I'm very thankful I didn't have to face this alone. Thank you it means a lot.

[@WoM]

Deepest condolences, you stay strong and do what you need to do.

[@lyndastrait]

I went through a similar experience when my Mom died at 59 years old. It was a stroke it happened on New Year's Eve & we had just spent Christmas together. She had a massive stroke & lived alone. She was also both my Mom & Dad our everything. It will be 26 years this New Years' Eve since she passed. All I can tell you is that not a day goes by that she is not in my thoughts & the love I feel has never died. I was only 38 years old, my siblings & I thought we had at least 20 more years & we were completely unprepared for the loss, I don't think you can really prepare for the incredible hollowness they leave. Your story made me cry because I feel that pain, but as I told my children, when I became seriously ill & we were concerned it was now my time, that energy never dies & your memories will fill a tiny bit of the void that's left behind. I would do anything to have my Mom back & there are times when I have had two very vivid dreams where she came back to ease a troubling time for me. I am so sorry for your loss, put your pain into your art, it helps. Last year I made all my siblings a Mom Christmas Ornament she was an angel & I'm no great artist but I caught the spirit of her, but it was the love & creating that brought a great deal of joy for me & my siblings. Take care & share all the good memories over & over again.

[@KaypeaCreations]

Wow l feel the emotions. You are so strong for openly talking about this with us and I hope it helps heal you in some small way. I lost my mom last year of a blood infection as well. It’s the hardest thing to go through but having the support system helps you manage through the pain 💙

[@LittleMissStamper]

I'm so so sorry for what you're feeling and going through right now. I've lost a parent and I know how incredibly difficult that alone can be without all the extra stuff that has been added to your suffering. I wish I could take some of the pain away for you. You WILL never be the same....but you will be ok. Sending my thoughts and love to you and your family ❤️

[@alterego988]

Omg... This literally brought me to tears. I could feel your pain. I am so sorry this happened to you. My mom is my best friend and I can't even image the day she is no longer there. Lots of hugs and love your way. Don't know you personally, but I am always someone to open arms to those who need to talk and who need some new friends. I don't have very many myself either. Stay strong.

[@johudson1541]

Oh my darling. I am so sorry for your loss. It is the worst pain in the world. I lost my mum 13 years ago. Time does not heal, time helps you not cry every time you think about her or the pain you feel. What a lovely, beautiful lady. I am thinking about you at this dreadful time. Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@ericamanda01]

My heart aches for you and your family. Never apologize for your feelings. I know it won't help much, but I understand. Each day gets a little less heartbreaking. Each day feels a little lighter. One day you'll think of a memory that will make you laugh or smile and you'll feel yourself starting to heal. You'll feel ok again, but it will take time. Give yourself the time and love you need to handle this. You are not alone.

[@TheBroodingTom]

Wat you say is very true and I'm already starting to feel it. Thank you so much for the support and kindness it means a lot.

[@XEmeralDQueenX]

I haven't been around much in your channel, but when I saw you inmediately I knew I had to watch. My deepest condolences to you and your family, your mom is in a better place now and Angels are around her taking care of her. Stay strong!!!

[@Ell_SS_XD1]

I send my deepest condolences to you. I've only recently rediscovered your channel and I'm hoping you'll be able to heal soon. Healing is a gradual process after experiencing such a loss like that in your life, for some people it can take a few months, sometimes years for others. Heal at your own pace and don't be afraid to seek help or guidance from others. Stay safe man, and cherish those memories you and your mother shared over the years, as those are the best way to remember someone and celebrate their life. Kindest regards, Ell from Ireland.

[@TheBroodingTom]

Thank you so much!

[@Ell_SS_XD1]

@@TheBroodingTom You're welcome! For now, try and take it easy and give yourself time to mourn.

[@PossumCorner]

Hang in there, I lost my cousin suddenly to heart failure last month. You have this channel to talk to folks who care. Keep up with your art, it is like therapy.

[@ahu846]

I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom looks like she has a beautiful soul and I know without a doubt she’s watching over you. You are definitely not alone in this, there’s a whole community that loves you and your videos. I’m sending you and your family lots of love and prayers. ❤️

[@TheBroodingTom]

Thank you so much. I really do hope she can see me.. And yes, I'm starting to realize this now.

[@Kementiri]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in 2006. She was 68 and was gone in the space of a week. We never knew really what happened to her so it's even harder when it happens like that. It has left a hole in all our hearts forever 😔 You have my prayers and sympathies 🧘

[@lanascrapaddict2044]

I am very sorry for your loss... it is so hard to lose our mothers... your memories of her love sustain you.

[@isabeldh5033]

I feel your pain. I lost my father many years ago and I know what you are going thruogh... May you find peace. Big hug.

[@pcalibur]

You were one of the very first channels I subscribed to when I first got on to KZbin. You're channel holds a very special place for me, and you've brought a lot of joy to my life. I'm sorry that you're having to endure something so tragic. There's a community behind you that will always be here for you, however we can.

[@mrshodge4936]

I am so so sorry for your loss. Grief is an animal you’re never really prepared for and it healing isn’t linear, though we wish it was. I’m newer to polymer clay, I came into it to distract myself from the difficulty of 2020 and a loss I experienced in 2018. I found your channel, and thought “Have I found the Bob Ross of clay?!” Your voice is so soothing and the knowledge you give is so helpful. You are a gem to this community! Please keep going. You have 81 thousand people cheering you on and mourning with you ❤️

[@namaste_charlei]

I'm so very sorry and my condolences to your family. Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your mom. Thankfully she is in the hands of the Lord right now and she's watching over you. She has left a caring son that will always love her and keep her in his heart. God bless you and I pray for peace in your life as you carry on.

[@kathyhaansbucketlistadvent1054]

Sending you so much love during this difficult time for you. I lost my dad in January 2015. It doesn't get easier-it just gets different.

[@moffman87]

Ah man, I just binged your clay elephant videos. They're great by the way! It was the first time I've seen your channel. I was hooked by your personality. It is similar to mine. You seem so nice and genuine! I've recently lost my dad and I know that words don't heal the pain...Especially from strangers. And like you, I don't have many friends and my family is very small, so there wasn't anyone to talk to. But your video was so raw, and so open. It really touched me! I hope that it actually helped you to talk about those feelings and to get it off your chest. The worse thing to do is to bottle it up so I'm happy you are talking about it. Just talking about it is so incredibly difficult and you're a strong person! Thank you for opening up with us. I am truly sorry for your loss but I can tell you're a great man with a beautiful soul, and she would know that too! Please keep us updated on how you're doing! You're not alone. All the best, Ian, UK

[@moffman87]

Also, yes, we like your beard. It looks good on you :)

[@Kenza_15a]

I’m sending so much love and prayers your way...she was a very beautiful woman who had raised such a nice and generous guy as you. Thank you for sharing your art and grief with us. You will make it, you’ll get through it I’m sure...take your time to mourn her loss, cry, yell but don’t isolate yourself, I am glad you decided to post this video...try to understand your trauma, ask for help, check out the five stages of grief it will really help you to process it. May God ease your pain and grant you patience, courage and strength during this difficult time. Much love and a very warm hug from France. PS. I like you beard 😁

[@kscheuerman5378]

I know this is from Nov 2020, but I just had to comment, in case you might see it. I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Mom. I am a 59 yr old lady (60 in Dec. 2021) I stopped in on your type of videos to relax & to distract myself, from life's problems. I knew you had bad news, I had to click on it. I do not regret it at all!!!!! You are a very dear Soul & I hope in time you will be healed from the strong sorrow you feel right now. God Bless You & your family.

[@doodlingdebbie1]

My heart felt sympathy and love goes out to you. I just lost my dear mom on August 27, 2021. She was my heart, my best friend, and mentor. Please know, you’re never alone. Many of us have walked the beautiful paths and the dark paths of life together. Your mom will forever live within your heart, soul, mind and loving memories. Yes, I cried for you because the missing part will forever be with you but, move on in a way your mom will be proud of and know, goodbye equals hello when we all will meet again. Bless you and yours to be comforted during your time of mourning. ❤️

[@transferessence]

Deepest sympathies to you and your family. Even though you've all lost the same wonderful person, grief is a very lonely experience. Be kind to yourself. Take care.

[@rhiannonsears13]

I am just getting onto polymer clay as a hobby. I knew I needed to find a creative outlet after I lost my aunt, who was also a mother figure when I was young, from a rapid disease progression as well. Your channel has been a source of inspiration both creatively and spiritually. Thank you

[@karaokeblokey26]

Still thinking of you hope you are well, the family sends their love. Hope Christmas can bring some joy.

[@DannySabraArt]

God bless you and your mom man. I’m so so sorry to hear what happened. The love you have and memories you share with your mom will never end. They will last forever. Stay strong bro.

[@auntied7395]

Oh my! You have my deepest, most heart felt condolences. I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom was beautiful! Her energy will always be with you. The courage it took to make that video is amazing. I cried for you. Sending love and peace to you and your family. 💜💜💜

[@My2Monkeeys]

I am so very sorry for your loss! I lost my Mom 7 years ago, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could hear her voice just one more time. Sending tons of love your way! The pain never truly goes away, but I can promise you that it does get easier. 💙💙💙

[@Lizs1231]

I’m watching this two years later. You were so blessed to have a wonderful mom. I hope your doing well and found some comfort 🙏🏼 I would love to see your art again ❤️

[@Romjen]

So sorry for your loss! I've lost my mom too, back in 2017, all of a sudden, we are grownups. That's when we become mature. The hole they leave behind, will never be filled, and at the same time, nothing will ever be the same. We miss the hugs that only MOM could give, and try to be, another day, without them!😪😪😪

[@lorettoponton7218]

I'm so so sorry for your lost. Mine died almost 10 years ago but I understand the pain and I'm going to say you can go trough this. It may not be easy or clean, but you will and she will be so proud of you for doing so wherever she is. I like to think that of my mom, that she can see me, and she is proud. She is not gone, just away. Be brave

[@joannemates6367]

I only just discovered your channel today. I’m a jewellery designer and was looking for polymer clay videos. Then I came across this video. I am so very sorry for the loss of your mum. I know a lot about grief and it is a journey, that is difficult to navigate. Sending you all the love, strength and peace, you need for the journey ahead. Coming all the way from Country Victoria. Australia. Xx

[@aussielass5621]

Stay strong mate. My mum just turned 90 today. I ring as much as I can. Like you said keep in contact with family never know what is around the corner. Love your creations. I have just started playing around with polymer clay. Saw the video about painting & baking. Just the info I was after. Keep up the good work.

[@KatheD]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I also lost my mom before she was 70, and without being able to say goodbye; it is never easy. On a completely different note, your beard looks great.

[@julieferrer7090]

I just started watching your videos, they are very helpful, I’m sorry for you lost! I’m sure your mom was very proud of you, you sound like a very loving son. Keep up with the good work and great talent!!!

[@karaokeblokey26]

All the love i have in my heart goes out to you and your family. You will never fully heal but in time the good memories will shine through. Thank you for sharing and being another lovely person on the planet we need more of you

[@lisarodas1099]

Sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom in a car accident she was 62. If was the hardest thing i ever had to go through. I miss her everyday. Much Love

[@fawnwolfe7355]

I just saw this. I’m so sorry sweetie. Don’t be sorry. I spent a month in the hospital with my dad after his heart attack. I don’t know what I’d have done if I couldn’t have been with him. That had to be the worst thing ever. God bless you and I hope you’ve found peace since.

[@Kitticane]

I feel your pain. I lost 2 family members in 2020 and they meant the world to me. Both of them were very unexpected. My grandpa died from natural causes and I couldn’t see him for many months due to covid, he died alone in the nursing home. My grandma passed after a routine surgery where an infection spread and the dr didn’t notice it in time and ignored her when she was in pain. She had just bought a house and was about to retire to Florida. Life is so unexpected and so difficult. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you are doing better now. Btw I do like the beard

[@severinamarsh]

My mother died of a systemic infection and had lung cancer. I feel your pain. I am so sorry. May God bless you. You will always love her and there is no such thing as closure. The pain just lessens, a little, over time and we learn to live with the loss.

[@desireleyva825]

I’m so sorry I couldn’t imagine what you’re going through. Thank you for sharing with us , I know that must have been really hard for you. We care for you and we send our support to you and your family. You are not alone.

[@pilaresteban455]

Sharing this powerful emotion deeply moves us. All of us who have lost our mothers know that only time heals the wound, but the scar remains and the pain mixes with the memories in a bittersweet sensation. Lucky those of us who, having lost a great mother, were lucky to have had her. Bless you.

[@maryc6189]

So sorry for your loss. I lost my entire family by the time I was 32. Took care of each one. Death is something you never get over. You learn to live with it as time passes. My heart goes out to you.

[@christiandoering2493]

I'm so sorry you lost your Mom so fast. That's even harder, but kudos that you shared this with us. Hopefully burdens shared get lighter. I lost my Mom a almost four years ago and still miss her a lot, but I have my Dad so I will love on him for you. Just keep on going and somehow it gets better. Making art helps me, and you are far from alone here. I appreciate you sharing your art and your life. Your videos have helped me, especially since I can't go to my art classes at my studio right now. You rock that beard too.

[@yassmeen91]

So sorry for your loss , may she rest in peace .

[@2012Kapu]

I am so very sorry for your loss! I’ve been subbed to you for the last 10 years and am a fellow artist, and have loved your work!! Since March I’ve lost my Gran, my brother in law and my cousin.... NONE FROM COVID, but I blame covid for the fact that I was unable to see them before during or even after!! None were able to have funerals due to these abhorrent lockdowns, so as you can imagine we have had no opportunity for closure. Apparently there are 5 stages of grief, we’re still stuck in the anger-depression stage, due to non-closure. This year is the worst year of many of our lives! I appreciate your candid update and wish you and your family many blessings and will be praying for you.

[@mygirldarby]

I'm so sorry for your unbearable loss. I lost my mom on my birthday in November 2020, so we are going through this grief at the same time. I watch a lot of near-death experience stories on youtube because they are comforting. Maybe it wouldn't help for everyone, but if you are so inclined you could try it. People have such awesome experiences and see the most beautiful place if these nde's are to be believed. My belief is that both of our moms are in this beautiful place now and are watching over us.

[@pastelteddybear9767]

I really hope you're recovering well and doing alright.. thank you so much for being here for your community for such a long time. Your work is amazing and you're an incredible person.. lots of love going your way!!

[@pastelteddybear9767]

Also I dig the beard!!! Again, hope your family is recovering ♡

[@cathairpoodle]

So sorry for your loss! 😢Sending you a big, big hug! 💖

[@jwallace6622]

My deepest condolences to you. I lost my mom in 2008. Always miss her but her love, lessons, and effort live on through me. As the days pass I'm reminded in the most unexpected ways how much she loved me. I hope you see your mother's love in your memories and yourself. Love your videos. It is helping me learn so much! Thank you!

[@oOErdbeerkuchenOo]

I‘m so sorry for your loss Tom! Loosing a parent is a horrible experience and I feel you. There is nothing that could ever fill the hole this pillar of our lifes leaves. Take your time going through the grieve you feel, it is important to allow yourself to do so. You will find it often going in waves, even long after the world has decided to move on. Know that this is ok and it is normal. Even though the waves seem to crush you in the beginning, they will, over lots of time, become more bearable. Lots of love!

[@_BBArt_]

I am so, so sorry. I understand the shock of losing a parent and how deeply that pain is felt. I lost my dad very suddenly last year; he went to bed one night, with no overt health issues, and just never woke up. The sense of loss doesn't go away, but over time it is not as ever-present. I didn't really have anyone I was super comfortable talking to about how I was feeling when I was first going through it, and wish I had. If you think it would help you, send me a DM and we can chat. Be well.

[@Hikariko11]

So sorry for your loss. I immediately started crying when you said that it was your Mom. Such an important person to lose so early. Mine died 1 1/2 years ago due to cancer when she was 55. I was one week away from my Bachelor thesis deadline. God, that was a chaos. I won't lie and say that it will be easy, though you probably know that already, because the feelings and thoughts you have now about nevery being able to talk to her again won't leave for awhile. Everytime I would have a question or comments about household items, sewing, our favourite show or my accomplishments it still takes a moment to remember that I can't just call her. But please don't forget that you're not alone. You have your family, small it may be, friends, and this community (we may not be able to do much, but we try). Lots of love to you. Stay strong.

[@jenigarvey5329]

I’ve only just watched this and am very , very sorry for your loss. The death of your mum is something that changes you; and no matter how long passes, she will always be in your heart. Take comfort from/in your family and friends.

[@Thecrowfens]

Sending many positive vibes your way, and I'll hug my mom extra tight in honor of y'all. Grief is so hard to put words to, but the healing will come. Wishing you and yours all the best.

[@TheBroodingTom]

Thank you for the positive vibes and for honoring my request.. it means everything. Best wishes to you and yours as well.

[@JessicaTrevarthen]

So sorry for your loss ❤️❤️ Please take all the time you need and know that she’s always with you!!

[@deborahb5796]

Hello. I'm listening to you speak now as I write this. You give so much to so many you don't know by transmitting your knowlege and inspiring us with your talent. You are a generous man. In this terribly personal, painful event, you've turned to your viewers/followers, which to me means that our connection is very important to you. I was taken by the warmth and sincerity in the way you transmit your knowledge through your videos. You are doing something good here, and reaching many people wanting to learn or improve their skills. Fantastic. It's been 10 months since you posted this - I hope you are finding your way through your grief and loss of your mother. We just go on with this business of living, because that's how it works. But she remains a part of your life, of your world, and that, too, is how it is should be in honor of someone we love and deeply admire. And, yes, I will call my mother tonight - in honor of you (without explaining that to her...) - thank you for reminding us to act in the present. No regrets, or few. I am the mother of an adult son, which gives me a sort of double perspective on what you've put out to us here - your heart shines through, which is so much for a mother to be proud of . I hope you will find some solace and strength in continuing with your craft, and when you are ready, come back to us. What a fine teacher you are! I'm taking a college-level foundation course in 3D Design and needed help with understanding how to properly do the foil armature - who could have asked for more! your video makes it clear to me. I appreciate your allowing us into another dimension of your life, beyond your art. I can see that creating these videos and transmitting your know-how has much value for you. Thank you so much. Carry on, and all the best. From one of your subscribers (in Europe)

[@shazambrose3091]

I've just lost my Mom only a week ago. It was very sudden and I'm totally devastated. My heart knows how yours feels. God bless your Mom and your family. Xx

[@karanbowman7069]

I just started watching today, just made my first bead today, it had the Ladybug on it that you taught me to make. I'm 65, I am sorry for your hurt, I will tell you that you will never forget her, but time, and prayer, will heal the hurt. I know it doesn't seem like it will ever go away, but, one day, you'll notice that it will be a little less. And then, one day, a little more less, until all you have left are the good memories and the laughter (and you will laugh again, I promise). I will pray for you and your family. And, rest your mind, I worked in the medical profession and in the ICU, sweet folks are given meds so they won't hurt, The meds take the fear away, along with the hurt. Please keep on, your channel is , I think for some, a channel with hope. I'm alone, closed in, and I wanted to make something, something to do with my hands to make the hours go by a little better. So, I bought some air dried clay... you have a gift for teaching and you taught me. Thank you.

[@TearfulShadows]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Never apologize for self care, never apologize for caring for your family. It requires no explanation to us, no required minimum positivity for the faceless audience. I know it hurts. And holidays without a loved one are really hard, especially the first. So please please continue to take care of yourself however you need to to stay healthy, mentally and physically. The picture of your mom is wonderful, she looks like she was having a very happy day, enjoying it with you. Remember the love that's there and don't let the grief take it away but also don't be ashamed to take the time you need to grieve. There's not an "approved grieving etiquette" timeline and don't let anyone tell you it's time to move on if you need more time to process, because you will make yourself miserable, you will feel worse, and it will stretch on and on. I'm sorry, that got long. Please take care. ❤

[@TheBroodingTom]

You can talk to me for as long as you like, thank you for being so kind.

[@6158bubbles]

Please don't feel the need to apologize, you know that there are some good people here who have been following you and watching your videos for years (like me!) who will always be here to support you. Losing someone close to you, especially during this pandemic, is really rough.. I lost my grandpa a couple months ago, and it was so depressing to have to watch his funeral over a zoom call then physically being there to say goodbye... Regardless, from the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for this sudden loss. Be sure to take the time you need to heal, and again, remember that we are all here for you! Sending positive vibes your way. ❤️

[@Slacked2196]

Oh man....I’m very sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need, take care of you and your family. Please know that we’re all here supporting you.

[@ellieb8601]

Only discovered your channel last week and have binge watched since. Your calming voice and your talent are simply wonderful. I can guarantee I won't be the only one that feels as if they are much more than just viewers. My hero, my Dad, left to start on his next journey a very short time ago after deciding to give up dialysis so someone who had a chance of finding a donor could take his chair. It was only prolonging his pain. I can't say I know how you feel as I'm not you, but your aching heart comes through so strongly watching you. I, like all the wonderful people who you've obviously inspired, are sending you so much healing light and love, it won't take anything away, but hopefully it will be a cushion for you and yours, use it and lean on it. I had to stop reading the comments as they are so heartfelt and beautiful. Your mum is with you all the time now, always talk to her, she will still listen, smile when you feel all the love she's filled you with. Please NEVER be sorry for letting people see your pain, your tears, your heart, they are emotions too and no one apologises for smiling, laughing, caring or loving, so never be sorry for sharing your emotions. I join everyone in surrounding your family in caring arms and much love. X

[@novalisa2689]

I just found your beautiful butterfly video and then this video. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love from Massachusetts.

[@beckycoburn1]

You are a wonderful person. Love the beard! I lost both my parents and understand the loss "closed door" of communication and affection. It never goes away. I also lost my little sister she was 47, mom died at 52 and dad was the lucky one he lived to be 76. It seems that losing Dad hurt more, but it's really the fresher hurt. I got to be with him longer than Mom and my sister. After losing some one very close to you, your own life changes track in different ways. We grow into our own more without the loved ones influence. It is hard and painful, but we "you" will be okay. Embrace the good things in life and don't stop being creative. I hope to see new works of art from you soon! Love your sister in Jesus Christ.

[@MichelleLeighArt]

Tom I truly have tears in my eyes for you right now. I am so sorry you are going through this. Losing someone is one of the most difficult things we experience in life, but it's even harder when it is unexpected and we didn't have a chance to prepare or say goodbye. I am sending you so much love and comfort. I wish I could do something more tangible to help. You said you don't have many friends, but you do. We are here in the comments. Please reach out if you need someone to talk to. 💚 P.s. your beard is magnificent

[@susancadis]

I just found your videos, you're voice, you're calming nature, has made me want to focus on my alone times and thoughts when I make "stuff." Thank you for that. About your mom. I am so so sorry for the loss of your world. It's very clear how she was your world. I am a paramedic and I know how hard it has been for so many during the screwed up season of COVID. Not being able to be with her at the end is wrong. I know that sometimes we are the last ones to see your loved ones. We know this and do everything we can to make them feel safe and they are not alone. She is still there for you ❤

[@annettejaymz5104]

I'm so very, very sorry. This hurt my heart so bad... It's important for all of us to hear that we may not always have more time to ask or loved ones the questions in the backs of our minds. Sending my love and absolute compassion for you and your family. I'm here if you need a friend.

[@h.stiemke4217]

So sorry for your loss. I lost my mom almost a year ago. Prayers to you and your family. HUGS.

[@sadiemartin5606]

Thank you for being brave enough to share your sadness. I hope your grief has healed somewhat now that time has passed. Your video tutorials have been very helpful an I thank you for that 👏

[@michellelambert1650]

I am SO SORRY to hear that Your Beloved Mom passed. Prayers going up to You and Your Family.

[@gerribearden9290]

I just scowled upon you and played your video. Yes your story is a sad one, may your dear mother Rest In Peace with our Lord above. She’s fine now, and I know she loves you and misses you with all her heart too. I’m 64 and feel that way about my son, I love him ever so must also. I’ll miss him terribly when my time will come too. Bless you for being a good son to your mother. 🙏🏽

[@deniseosborne4045]

You can still talk to her anytime you want. Prayers, hugs and strength. You are loved by many. I lost my Dad at 16. It’s still a big hole in my hear. Years later my brother. One minute at a time. I call my Mom every morning and evening. When I’m not driving her around I call her in the afternoon. I’m so scared when the good Lord calls her home. I’m not close with anyone else. The pain from my father and brother was so strong I keep everyone at arms length to avoid anymore except for my Mom. There are no words.

[@Angeleyes672006]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being able to share your pain with everyone. Please take care of yourself and your health. I wish for healing and happiness in your family in the future.

[@moonstone9017]

I’m very sorry for your loss. Clearly you loved her very much. I understand losing a parent as my dad died in 2015 from a brain tumour. Cry when you need to. Talk about her often. Surround yourself with pictures. Big hugs.

[@joancn3179]

Condolences to you and your family. Don't ever apologize for voicing your feelings. It was a touching tribute from a son loving his mom. Sharing your love for your mom is awesome, she knew very much the love you have for her even when you didn't get to say hi mom. The picture taken 3 days prior was meant as a gift to you, the way she wanted you to remember her, not lying in the ICU.... stay strong, she is resting for a little while, yet is always by your side keeping watch.

[@pennyswings]

I am so sorry for your loss. I too have a tiny family. I know what you are going through. Give yourself some Grace. Grieving is a process and we all grieve differently. I pray God comforts you all.

[@Mowsette]

I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. What happened is something I know most people dread and that pain seems so unbearable. I'm lucky to still have both my parents, though my dad is pretty sick, but anyway, I have a little alarm set on my phone to call my parents at least once a week. I can't imagine how hard this must be at a time like this where the whole world feels so crazy and lonely. I'm a quiet stranger on the internet, but I'm sending lots of love to you and your family.

[@elizabethlosekamp704]

I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom knows how much you love her. She will always be watching over you. You are an incredible artist, use that as your outlet for your grief. My family lost 7 members in the first 6 months of this year... none due to covid. The pain of losing someone we love never leaves us, instead it becomes an ocean. High tide is at its worse. Low tide we are calm. I'm here if you need to chat. I'm a very good listener. Peace be with you & your family.

[@TracyHutchinsonLifeSkillsCoach]

So sorry for your loss!! I’m 62 and can’t imagine, she’s so young and so lovely! I’ve recently found you as I’m just starting to sculpt. I love your authentic nature. You’re a precious human being and you help with your great videos. Be well 🙏🏻❤️

[@Julia-qf8eh]

I am sorry for your sad loss of your Mum. I hope you and your small family get through this awful time. Best wishes x.

[@idontknow409]

I don't have any words of wisdom, it just sucks and I'm so sorry. Going to call my mom tomorrow as soon as I know she's up. And my grandpa, he is 93 and I haven't been checking in as I should.

[@homerobenavides5156]

I am really sorry about your mom. That last thing you said at the end really hit home, I have been so busy recently that it had passed more than a week since I talked to my mom, so I just called her, thank you for the kind reminder, and you are so right about things sometimes going from A to B so fast, sometimes life is so unpredictable. Thank you for sharing, please take care of yourself, I really hope you and your family stay safe and remember your mom will always be with you in your heart and in the memories you made together.

[@kirstysummers5119]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is so hard. I've only just discovered your channel but I couldn't not comment. It's a cliche but time will help you come to terms with the pain. May your mum rest in peace, blessings 🙏

[@MsLunaMaeMoon]

I'm very sorry for your loss. I am always willng to visit. My mom was 62 when she passed in 2010 from esophageal cancer. She fought it for 2 years. The mass kept rupturing and in the end she bled to death at home where she wanted to be. A good friend of mine told me as he gave me the truth about loss; You aren't waiting to get over the loss but learning to live with it. He lost his son so I took his words to heart. That phrase has helped me. I sincerely hope it helps you also. Message me if you want to talk. Talking to a stranger helps because you don't have to feel guilty for hurting someone who is also hurting from this.