Vlogtober with Mrs D Day 9 - A little bit about me

[@vicdeanlim]

Paula, I have been anxious my entire life. At times it was better but over all (I am 55) it was awful. Last year I got to the point that my heart was feeling like it was skipping beats. Not just one or two. It felt like every other beat of my heart was a skip. I told my doctor and she put me on an anti-anxiety medication and within 2 weeks my heart was back to normal and I have been feeling so good. It isn't a kind that puts me to sleep in fact I do not even know I am on anything. If I forget to take it or get off my schedule I can feel my heart skip a bit. Nobody should have to live with anxiety. I tried the therapist option, meditation, and rest. The only thing that has ever worked is the medication. Thank you very much for just talking about it like it is just another medicine for just another ailment because you are right, it is! I think you have helped many people by saying what you said today.

[@sibelmccolm2270]

I have felt like this for a long time and like you I have tried everything but am too scared about medication. Which one are you taking if you don't mind me asking. It is so good Paula opened this discussion as I don't feel so alone. Thank you x

[@elena---c1558]

I'm glad your doctor could help! Those sorts of physical symptoms of anxiety are so scary cos you don't know what's going on. When I get them, they just make me even more anxious.

[@jackieleipert1950]

You are so special! A joy to watch. You brighten my day.

[@rosemaryobrien2569]

Paula, I loved hearing all about you. I feel like you are the daughter I never had. I was a Nurse here in NY for 35 years. I loved being a Nurse but it made me a nervous wreck & I also brought it home with me. I would often call back to where I worked after I got home to make sure I told the Nurse who was relieving me everything I needed to pass on. I did end up taking medication for anxiety after many years of struggling with this & it helped greatly so I know how you feel about that. Of course I also love to knit as well & I feel like I always have to have knitting in my hands all the time. I do have two grown sons that I love dearly but always missed having a daughter but now I have 4 granddaughters & two grandsons. I love your podcasts. Thank you for sharing all your makes & all your animals!!

[@Westeross]

Bless you Paula…you are such a sweetheart!! It’s the small things in life; we all need to appreciate them more 💖🇦🇺💖🇦🇺💖

[@HubbardAmy]

I'm sorry you struggle with anxiety, and thank you so much for sharing that with us. So happy you've found a solution that works for you - that's wonderful. We appreciate you and your wonderful podcast, especially your "day-to-day" 😁

[@clknits8413]

❤❤ I'm absolutely enjoying your daily October podcasting. Thank you for all the work it takes in producing it. You do a great job of it!

[@imkristinmakes2772]

My favorite video ever! You are lovely!

[@dawndewey]

Paula! Thank you for doing vlogtober, you alway make me giggle. I also take a pill a day for anxiety, It works for me along with long walks and crochet!

[@marcellablackwell8531]

You are such a sweetheart.

[@rowanwatts7377]

As you like reading I wonder if you’ve read the Ruth Galloway series by Elly Griffiths set in Norfolk. The first one is The Crossing Places and they are excellent. I’m enjoying your vlogs. Totally agree with you about anxiety medication and know several people who need it - no different to me needing blood pressure tablets. I’m just grateful they are available to help us .

[@glendabathgate4036]

That was lovely and interesting

[@stitchesandjacks7692]

You are a tonic Paula, so enjoyable to watch and I loved your ramble at the end. You are very brave to share your anxiety with us and I agree totally it needs to be talked about. There is no shame and it is a lot more common than we realise. Take care xx

[@judystites9575]

Paula I'm 71 and I have been taking medication for my brain for years. I can't miss a day.so I truly understand where your coming from.

[@tseringcole7108]

Love you to bits I’ve been on meds for years and I’m with you I have a chemical difficincy .I share a lot with you in likes and dislikes.x

[@diane__mommiocrochet9842]

You and your videos always make me smile. I wish there were more sweet, funny and authentic people like you in the world. 💕😊

[@danni8176]

I would not leave the house without anti anxiety tablets!! totally hear you Paula. I worry so much still with them. if I don't take them everyone knows. I literally shake like a leaf.. love these vids already gutted because I know its only a month. xxx

[@micheleellis3338]

thank you so much Paula, you’re such a blessing. 🕊❤️

[@cathie5839]

I have always been very anxious and have been on medication for a very long time after a very traumatic life event. I love watching your videos and find them so comforting. I'm mad about cats too!

[@suedale1865]

Paula you are just brilliant as you are dark circles what the hell you don’t have dark circles & anyone can see you wear under eye liner & why not 😤 Time to stop with personal comments you folk This Lass is Amazing & entertaining 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@sue7621]

Absolutely! 👍❤️🤗🥰😘💜

[@vidalindner4326]

Hi there Paula; I think you are a great signer when you do sing on some of your clips on your videos. You should never be ashame of any kind of health issues. I suffer from a lot of depression, anxious, panic-attacks, and other health issues. I think that takes a great person to tell others in the world that they too have health problems. I commend you for the awesome decision to talk about it. We need more people like you in the world. You are a very amazing women. Thank you very much for sharing some more information about you.

[@deekay1641]

I love that pink bunny cardigan. You and James are so blessed to have each other. Anxiety and depression are very real and people need to be made more aware of it and show some compassion. We have quite a bit in common...including the dark circles under our eyes😂 Take care.

[@marciamcguire6501]

Paula !!!!!!!! WE Love you We Love you WE LOOOOVE YOU . Your realness, genuineness , is ABSOLUTLEY CHARMING . It is what makes up GLORIOUS YOU !!! LOOOOOOVED every second of getting to know you better. You simply are THEEEEE BESSSSST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXOXO marcia and Pammie

[@lynpallister6527]

Thank you for making anti anxiety meds normal, people don’t understand

[@sewsweetsamuel4865]

Hi Paula oh Ian at the start was just adorable 🥰 When you were describing yourself I was thinking yes, snap, same all the way apart from the tomato sauce I’m afraid I have it on everything! Xxx

[@elena---c1558]

It was lovely to hear you had a nice restful day with your family, and to listen to you talk about yourself for a bit. I'm on anti-anxiety medication too, though I'm still trying to find which one works best for me. I agree with you that it should be viewed as just any other medicine, and I really appreciated hearing you talk about that kind of stigma. For me, I use a lot of different methods to help manage my anxiety, over time I've figured out what works and what doesn't. Medication is one of my tools for helping me lead a good life, and it's really nice to be able to look back and see how much better I've got at dealing with my anxiety in the last few years.

[@MargueriteEudoraSmith]

I just loved this video!! Like you, I love to know what people are up to and why they think the way they do, like the things they like, choose the things they choose, and so on. I guess we are just a couple of natural born snoops, lol! Have a great evening!

[@celestedouville2529]

love, love, love your talking about your anxiety medications, same can be said about so many aspects of life that others feel the need to try to change. amen and amen. bless you!!

[@mozit8063]

So understand Anxiety. x Paula, I love listening to your videos. Night night and see you tomorrow x

[@deesmith7880]

Hello from Tasmania, Australia! I’m a very new subscriber and I already utterly adore you, Paula! You make me laugh so much. Thanks for helping me know you a little better. We have many matching likes and dislikes. Your vlogs are brilliant. I am also someone that surrounds myself with animals. I can’t imagine a life without furry people xx

[@lucy8950]

Thank you for a lovely chat!

[@lenorerhodes8110]

I have recently retired after 50 years of nursing. I would have loved having you on my team particularly in palliative care. Your beautiful gentle caring nature would be a blessing to those you cared for. It is hard not to take work home with you and I can understand why you made the decision to put your career on hold. Lovely vlog. Xx❤️🌺

[@RavenClaw-js1mt]

Thank you for sharing and especially sharing about your anxiety. My anxiety has been with me all my life but my body couldn’t take it anymore after my husband passed unexpectedly (heart attacks are utter rubbish). I’ve been needing anxiety medication for ever since and never felt like I should, like I should push through without needing the medicine. Thank you for normalizing anxiety medicine!!!👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 wonderful video🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@miaoucrafts4596]

I really enjoyed your chat about yourself today, I agree with you about mental health and ketchup 😁 !

[@pauli8957]

Hi Paula ! Some days if you don't feel like vlogging it's OK don't do it . Your vlogs turned up a few weeks back and I have thoroughly enjoyed everyone.I have been a little unwell with my Diabetes and it just sucks!! You are very talented and I just love your shawls......I wish I could knit like that but having a lot numbness in my hands ,legs and feet I am not able to do it. Your animals are awesome just love them.I have 2 Parsons Jack Russell's, Lily& Jack the Lad !! They are nearly 2years old and bring lots of happiness to our lives. I live in Melbourne, well 60 klms Nw in a small country town. I am English but have lived here for many years. I do have cousins that live near you in March ,Cambridge. Thank you for your awesome vlogs . Kind regards Pauline xxxx

[@donnalewis4895]

We love your rubbish, it is our treasure!!

[@belindagritter1572]

I take an anti anxiety pill every day too. It made a world of difference to me. Love your daily vlogs!

[@denisediauto9618]

It was nice to hear all about you it was fun to hear you likes and dislikes and the story of you! Thank you for sharing about your anxiety, it can be very overwhelming, and you sharing your story makes others feel less alone. I love your podcast, you make me smile and laugh and I love to see your animals, they are all so precious!

[@lisajones4683]

I'm new to your channel so I found today's vlog very interesting, we have a lot of likes and dislikes in common. My daughters (aged 23 and 26) both take a low dose of anxiety medication and so does my husband (no, it's not a result of living with me!) I can see the difference in them since they've taken it. I'm enjoying watching your past vlogs, I enjoy sewing and I'm just getting into knitting. I also like reading and the royal family.

[@charbynovak2061]

💐 Paula, I’m ALWAYS disappointed when you stop talking!!!😊. Thank you so much for telling about the anxiety. I also take daily medication for it, but mine doesn’t help and my doctor won’t give me anything stronger. I’m in the US and they are getting fanatical, at least where I am, about medication. My husband was a pharmacist for 40 years and certainly agrees with the need for proper meds. Anyone who is critical and judgmental about it probably hasn’t experienced similar! I’m with you absolutely on having to knit every day! Except I can only knit plain blankets. I could learn to knit other things, but I would have to count and read directions and I do it to relax and for therapy. Our animals (really the ones who own the house and we are just their most devoted slaves!❤️) have many knitted blankets on their beds. My youngest baby cat who is just over a year old could pass for a twin for you little Ian! She came into our back yard and I am crazy about her!!! So glad I get to hear your little visit every day this month! It so makes my day! ❤️😊🌸

[@kitchenworker446]

Oh that was not boring at all Paula...I loved hearing all about you! Thanks for sharing.xxx

[@marisadawndesigns5458]

When I was little, my father and step-mother always got my older-sister, my step-sister and myself the same thing. My sister got it in purple, my step-sister in yellow and me in pink. Since I was the youngest, I always knew what I was getting before I got it. Pink was always my favorite color but I came to despise it because of that. Thankfully 30 years later, I have come to find my love for pink again.

[@munchkinheaven7877]

Totally, totally, totally agree with you about medication. As you say, if you were a diabetic you would take meds for it, if you had a thyroid deficiency and you were prescribed thyroxin, you would take it, so why not meds for a chemical deficiency or imbalance?? I think it’s because it’s connected to the mind so looked upon as a mental deficiency of some sort! I personally don’t think of it that way and without my meds I would not be able to get out of bed physically or cope with life as well as I do mentally, with my meds I cope better than most people, in fact friends bring me their problems as they think I give good advice and am balanced! So there lol !!

[@jacobashepherd3397]

I have anxiety, and I do take medication for it . Paula it is just like you said , it is just like any other illness where you get medication for . It is so good you talked about it , some people don’t understand how bad it is . Thank you Paula ❤

[@vickipaquette406]

We sure have a lot in common. And I totally understand the anti anxiety drugs. I’m the same way. They work wonders. Love hearing about you. Thanks

[@jillcooper172]

Still love your videos so much Paula. I love looking in people's windows too when they have their lights on. LOL I also can drink coffee at night with no problem as a matter of fact most people think I am crazy but coffee can put me to sleep. If I can't sleep at night I get up and make me a cup of coffee and I am out like a light. Thanks for taking the time to let us share your day. 🥰😍🥰

[@janescarisbrick6986]

I too have been a worrier ever since I remember. I started having panic attacks and morning anxiety a few years ago so I take a daily tablet which helps. I don't mind telling anyone. It is not a sign of weakness but sensible xx

[@jeantompkins67]

It was wonderful to hear more about you. You have such a kind spirit. Love you ❤

[@mariesmith7598]

Aww Paula, I too take anti anxiety meds.... they really help me.... along with walking my furry baby.... a very cute Shih-tzu called Tilly Trotter.... she is quite similar to Lillian 😂.... I loved hearing about the random things about you.... you are such a character 🤣.... never change..... it's quite apt you spoke about your anxiety last night as today is World Mental Health Day 🌍🤯

[@cheriethompson2266]

So fun to catch up. How exciting to watch 3 in a row!

[@suecoles7824]

Loved your chat with us Paula, so nice to get to know your idiosyncrasies! We all have them! Just makes me like and identify with you more😊 I look forward to spending time with you and your happy family and furry friends. Suze. 😽 🐾🐹 xxx

[@melhartley8376]

Great video. So nice to learn some more about you. I love seeing Ian doing his thing in the morning. I used to have a kitten that did that but would prefer doing it on my earlobe.

[@barbaracordner1395]

Restarting worked for me. I'm so glad, as you looked worried Paula, and as there was no sound, I thought something terrible had happened. Glad I was wrong. Night night.

[@denisei5367]

Paula, thank you for sharing some of your likes and dislikes. I just love learning things like that about people. You would love it where I am in Canada because at any given time there is at least one bunny on our lawn! There are so many living wild that I can’t even keep certain flowers outside my house because they just eat them all! It’s frustrating, but it’s hard to be mad when they are just so cute. I’m really enjoying your vlogtober. I look forward to it every day.

[@suebowskill1764]

Oh you would be a gorgeous nurse - so kind and caring ❤

[@helenoreillylong9497]

Fully understand about the anxiety!

[@judithvogel6729]

Thank you for sharing yourself with us!!!!!

[@katana164]

It"s always nice to have an afternoon where you can watch TV with your family. I know you had a good day! 😊

[@Stumpybear7640]

I didnt get sound on my Samsung tablet til I restarted my tablet. Try that ladies xxx Great podcast again, Paula. Love your family, people and animals alike! 💜💖💜

[@thefibresanctuary8068]

Thank you so much, restarted phone and now have sound x

[@clairecooper8605]

Hi Paula, I had sound throughout this and loved hearing more about yourself! I can completely resonate with what you said about taking your nursing life home with you. Although not a nurse I have worked throughout my life in health and social care mainly in caring for the elderly, end of life/palliative care. I was the same would come home upset, worrying about those I was looking after since having my 3 children I have taken break as just like you it wasn't fair on them I was snappy because I was worried and upset. I love how honest you are thankyou for sharing so much about you, I am new to your channel and can honestly say you are becoming a favourite channel to come and watch at the end of a busy day. Xxx

[@annehayward3506]

Lovely vlog , you are such a lovely person. I really enjoy listening to you,stay safe love and hugs xx

[@sue7621]

Lovely videos Paula- I had a feeling you were a nurse, me too and I left in 2012 early retired due to fibromyalgia/chronic fatigue completely burned out! I completely agree with you re anxiety and taking work home I use to be working hours after my shifts to get everything done and then spend hours worrying! I love knitting and making things too 🤗 Look forward to seeing you later on today! Ps that’s another thing I have lately insomnia 🤣😹 Keep taking the meds until the truth coming out about everything re history etc etc it’s going to be a shock but The best is yet to come! That will be wonderful! 😘🤗🥰🙌❤️🙏🌍

[@angelarowson6328]

Love watching your vlog … your honesty is sooo refreshing ….. hating having the same stuff as others ….. 🤣🤣🤣….

[@jogreen7764]

Thank you for sharing with us your anxiety and medication ❤I too take medication for anxiety and I find it completely life changing. Xx

[@janicekirby9313]

You are such a special person. So sweet!

[@carolyncampbell6149]

I like honest people Paula so I like you! But I don’t like ALL the things you like, just some of them. Glad you had a nice day with the girls. ❤

[@karinvilim365]

You are so right about the smell of a nice wood smoke on clothes and sheets. I just love this in the fall especially.

[@theresamccarthy1684]

Oh my gosh I don’t like New Year’s either, don’t want to go to a party and definitely don’t want to hear Auld Lang Syne! It was so interesting to hear all the things about you! ❤️

[@kaod55]

While watching the start with cute Ian my 9 year old cat was doing the same to one of our blankets, he loves it!

[@janeoxley4829]

Thank you for the vlogs Paula, the scenery is beautiful and of course yes the weather has been fantastic.

[@sibelmccolm2270]

You are very honest and lovely. Which anti anxiety pills do you take and how long does it take to work? I also love pets! Keep recording , love your videos x

[@teresalevitt4180]

I wish I could drink coffee all day but I have to stop by three o'clock in the afternoon or I will be up all night but boy do I love coffee ❤ And I have had anxiety my whole life.....knitting and grandbabies help me 😁

[@jillipepper5353]

Lovely chat , thank you for sharing about yourself🤗🤗🤗🤗hugs🤗🙋🏼‍♀️

[@imkristinmakes2772]

PS I take anti anxiety tabs too. Hooray for honesty👍👍👍

[@donnalewis4895]

Medicines are necessary for a lot of things. I have chronic depression and without my meds I am a completely different person. My mom use to say I was much more sociable with my meds. People just don't understand things they are not familiar with. Loved this vlog it was interesting even though I've been around for awhile. You forgot to say you can't wait to open packages like your Advent knitting. Just like a little girl with Christmas can't wait. I identify with that. Hugs

[@plainjane333]

Thanks for sharing more about yourself. I could watch ur vlogs all day cuz your so down to earth, funny and sweet. Also, I completely understand anxiety as I have social anxiety... its dreadful.

[@audreyfforbes-hamilton]

I’m right with you on the “pub grub” Paula! As you were speaking, I was thinking “Yes! Scampi and chips!” 😂 and you said it too! x

[@sandraponte3121]

I just adore how open and honest you are, Paula…you’re simply a delight to sit and listen to..makes me wish I could pop round for a cup of coffee and knit with you 🥰

[@diana8575]

I completely understand about needing anxiety medication. I was on them for many years and they helped. I don't need them today thankfully. Was weaned off gradually.

[@jenniferrichmond1009]

Your daily vlogs are such a joyful part of my day 😊 Thank you for being you ❤

[@lucygale336]

Aah your adorable thanks for sharing lovely 🥰

[@lynnsimpson7475]

Oh Paula - you are so sweet to be so honest w/all of us. If I don't take a medication for sleep @ night, I can't sleep, so I totally understand what you're saying. Except for seeing Paul McCartney in concert twice, ELO/Jeff Lynne's concert was one of the best ever!

[@julielines3281]

Thank you for sharing x I didn’t realise you were so tall x 😊

[@TheKeyMargo]

I believe wholeheartedly in anti-anxiety meds. I am my Dad’s live-in caretaker (he is 96) and I can’t be without my meds.

[@beverleyswallow2458]

Very interesting vlog Paula.Thankyou.

[@karentough3287]

Hi Paula ,loved listening about you today.I,ve been on anxiety meds on and off.I don't need them at moment but if I do need in the future i would not hesitate because it's a horrible thing to have and stops you functioning properly.Anyway I so look forward to seeing you and all your lovely furry friends and your family every day xx

[@audreygillespie8535]

Hi Paula you have lovely eyes and you really suit your hair styles x love all your videos they are brilliant thankyou

[@sharynhines4769]

Paula, I think I’m older than you and live in Australia. I do think we would be friends 😂. I love all your pets names. I have a Quaker parrot named Kevin and just love people names for animals. I take anti anxiety meds too and hate olives 😂. I found you a few years back but because I didn’t subscribe I lost you. Just found you and have subscribed now, and catching up watching your videos. I’ve had a migraine all day and you’ve kept me distracted from the pain.

[@sharonkeller7397]

I learned a lot more about you. I knew many of the things you said from watching you for awhile now. Why would anyone ask what the black is under your eyes?? That is just weird lol. I also can't go a day without knitting or crocheting!! I also draw and paint! I have to be creative in some way. I bet you made a good nurse. You are very sympathetic of others. I always enjoy it when you decorate your room for Christmas. It is always exciting to see everything dressed up. I also wear mostly dresses. I also enjoy all of your animals. I love animals!!! Have a good rest of your weekend. See you tomorrow... 💜

[@whathayleymade5851]

I also like looking through people's windows when the lights are on😂😂😂I'm nosey , thank you for taking about anxiety tablets I'm on a daily tablet for that 2 , I also hate ketchup. Thank you for doing vlogtober I can't wait for vlogmass x

[@SherryRector]

I take an anti anxiety pill. I worry about things I can’t fix. I’m thinking don’t watch this and it’s so where I will never be or in that situation. I’m like you I have to not look at the road on-a long trip or if it’s raining and on and on.

[@greggwilliams3986]

Dear Paula please feel free to never refer to what you do as rubbish because it definitely is not! I know I speak for many of your friends who look forward to hearing from you. You are a sweet and charming quirky loving artistic young woman for whom we hold with genuine affection and love you for sharing yourself with us. I consider you a friend although we live a half a world away. And if you want to talk about your favorite chewing gum for 30 minutes, I will gladly tune in and enjoy every moment. You brighten the world. Give Ian a kiss from me❤️

[@vickifenlon2235]

I loved this episode. It really makes me feel that I know you better…❤️

[@teresab126]

I too take anxiety medication for the same reason! ❤❤

[@michellehenderson2773]

Paula your a lovely person and thank you for being so honest, I wish you lived next door lol Awwww how cute is Ian❤I'm always surrounded by animals to😊

[@marionlamont8548]

Paula you’re such a lovely person . Take care 💕

[@thelimeysretreat4976]

I love that expression, “jimmy titting” lol, never heard it before xx

[@auchenshugglegranny]

I'm a believer, onwards sister

[@Johmakes]

Hello, really enjoying your October vlogs. I've been following you for a little while now and think your Vlogmasses are always the best ones on KZbin. How long have you been vlogging and what made you start?

[@judithbuist164]

I agree that conditions like anxiety should be spoken about. One feels so alone but in fact there are multitudes of people suffering. I'd be interested to know the name of the medication that works so well for you. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself. Happy knitting. Judy, Nelson Bay, Australia.

[@amandab8838]

Love your chats paula and i can’t stand tomato ketchup either yuk 🤢 I can’t believe you had a comment about your eyes 🙄 you are great see you tomorrow 🤗